#literally boiled but it was worth it and I needed it tbh

[leaentries]

ethan landry x chubby!reader headcanons

SFW & NSFW under the cut!

SFW

warnings: none

ethan is a major cuddler. he loves they way your soft plushy thighs feel against his head when he takes naps. your his own personal pillow :(((

imagine you’ve just come home from class and ethan’s already waiting for you to get comfy bc you already know he can’t even think of sleeping without the feeling of his special girl under his body

he absolutely LOVES the way your clothes fit you, no matter what you’re wearing

you’re wearing tight fitting clothing? gorgeous. he could watch and admire the way your body curves for hours upon hours. i mean this man has dedicated and will continue to dedicate his time to remembering each and every dip and stretch your body has to offer

you’re in the mood for a baggy t-shirt or hoodie? stunning. he loves how cuddly and soft you look. he would literally grab you and throw you into bed with his beefy arms ready for his daily nap

now we all know that he is a shy baby boy, but let someone disrespect you in front of him? it might, quite literally, be the last thing they ever do

he can be a bit possessive of you. just the thought of someone else touching the roundness of your hips or the swell of your soft, beautiful, tummy is enough to have his skin crawling and blood boiling

he always makes sure to have some sort of physical contact with you 24/7. i mean, he just can’t help himself. he just melts when he feels your body, he would probably glue you to himself if he could tbh

NSFW

warnings: explicit language, detailed smut, mentions of virgin!ethan, sub!ethan, a bit of dom!ethan, use of the names slut, corruption, breeding kink, marking/biting

to start, i love to think of virgin!ethan and little bit along the corruption lines

like the first time he saw you naked he pretty much came untouched. his swollen angry, red cock dripping precum waiting to be touched by you

i feel this is collectively established at this point, but this man whimpers. that’s it.

he feels your round, full breasts pressing into him while he rubs his painfully hard cock along the outside of your clothed core and he’s cumming in his pants

he’s just so pathetic for you. he can’t control himself. your just so unbelievably pretty and soft.

his poor and untouched body just begging for you to play with him :((

i get the feeling that once y’all have gotten used to each others bodies, he definitely opens up. he becomes more stern and his more possessive and dominant side shows out

BREEDING KINK.

he just loathes the idea of any other person having a shot with you, so making sure to pump your abused pussy full of his cum by the end of the night just helps him sleep better. so he claims

along with this is his raging marking/biting obsession. he’s a simple man really, he wants everyone to know your his and i mean only his.

a good way to get him riled up is to push his limits and make him jealous.

this just inspired me to write a little blurb, so here you go 😋

everything is hot. your body, that way ethan’s hard glare sends waves of arousal to your core. it shouldn’t turn you on, you know he’s pissed, but it’s so hard to deny the ache of lust that begins to make its way through your bones. ethan makes his way towards you, eyes locked onto where your full hips had just been pressed against some other guy. you didn’t intend to flirt with someone else, but the way ethan looks right now almost makes it worth it. the wave of pleasure and need drowns out the slimmer of guilt that began to rise. as ethan approached you, you couldn’t help but clench your thighs together slightly in attempt to ease the dull throbbing between your legs. his grip is tight around your wrist as he begins to lead you up the stairs and to the nearest empty bedroom. he drags you through the door, making sure to lock it behind you. his hands immediately find their way to your throat, pushing you against the door. his dark eyes meet yours in a collision of lust and fire.

“you want to be a little slut? grinding against another guy, knowing damn well i’m right there? you belong to me and now you’re gonna prove it.”

a/n: this was inspired by a post from @whorrorifics thank you for putting the chubby!reader agenda in my brain 😍

#ethan landry #ethan landry x you #ethan landry smut #ethan landry fluff #ethan landry x reader #scream vi #ethan landry scream #ethan landry headcanons #leawrites🍀 #ethan landry x chubby!reader

[makeste]

[39 weeks later]

well all right then. I owe some explanations and some updates, so let's just get straight to that.

1. "what the hell, makeste. you can't just disappear for nine months and leave a sign on your blog that says "gone leavin'.'"

yeah I know. sorry guys.

so there are a lot of reasons for my long absence, but when you boil it all down, the essence is basically as follows: at its absolute max capacity, my ADHD brain is capable of keeping up with any two of the following: (1) work; (2) school; (3) tumblr. that's it. only two. no more and no less.

and for years this has not mattered at all because school was no longer in the picture! but as mentioned in my last two update posts, as of this past January, I had to start taking classes again for career advancement reasons, meaning my brain was quickly overloaded and something had to give. so yeah. I can assure you the past nine months have absolutely sucked and I am not AT ALL sure that it was worth it, but it is what it is.

I also want to add that I never intended to basically fall off the face of the earth anywhere near to this extent, let alone for this long. but in retrospect I probably should have seen it coming, seeing as this is not the first time it's happened, sob. and also in hindsight, towards the end of last year (during which I was already struggling to keep up with the weekly BnHA reactions) someone mentioned that it sounded like I was showing signs of being potentially close to burnout. turns out that observation was spot on lol.

so yeah. tl;dr, burnout + an obnoxiously busy real life schedule + a sprinkling of good old-fashioned ADHD "somehow I always underestimate how hard it is to restart something after taking a long break from it, and the longer I go without returning the worse it gets" brain shenanigans (more on that last part further down).

2. "MAKESTE. WHILE YOU WERE GONE, IN THE MANGA, THERE WAS A THING -- "

yes I have unfortunately been spoiled about The Thing.

3. "so wait, exactly how spoiled are you?? CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE THING"

I will make a separate post to talk about The Thing! I expect that many people will want to talk about this, and tbh I've really been wanting to talk about it too! I'm telling you, when I say the past nine months have sucked, I mean they have truly SUCKED, you guys. school is so fucking boring and I miss rambling about fandom stuff so fucking much.

anyway but with that said, ~*~PLEASE DO NOT TALK ABOUT ANY SPOILERS IN THIS POST~*~. I don't want to delete anybody's comments! but I will if necessary because I am a spoiler narc and I don't want to risk accidentally ruining stuff on the off chance that a non-spoiled person comes across this post. so yeah. however please do feel free to message me or comment in my other post (which I will link once it’s up; eta: here it is) if you do want to talk about The Thing.

4. "so aside from The Thing, are you otherwise caught up with the BnHA manga currently?"

so here's the hilarious part: no, I am not caught up. not even remotely. literally the last chapter of BnHA I read was chapter 339, which is the most recent chapter that I liveblogged, all the way back on December 31, 2021. I literally have not read a single new BnHA chapter in the year of our lord 2022 lol. :') basically for the same reasons I mentioned in my previous update post. tl;dr, reading/liveblogging a single new BnHA chapter is a minimum 4+ hour commitment for me, and by this point I have accrued a backlog of... oh sweet lord. 35 total chapters lol. so yeah. that's approximately 140 hours of catch-up that I need to do, which is paralyzing just to think about.

I do still plan on catching up, obviously! I'm just not sure how, lol. I may have some time to spare this weekend, so I might try to binge a few chapters and see how it goes. then I'll have to come up with some sort of sustainable posting schedule. I've been thinking about this for a while and I might try to do a Mon/Wed/Fri thing if I can swing it, but I don't want to commit to anything for sure yet until I see how those first few chapters go. fingers crossed, though.

anyway so I guess that's it. post is getting long. anything more will just be rambling.

sorry again, guys. how is everyone? what did I miss. aside from twitter dying and tumblr welcoming the refugees into our culture by inviting them to participate in the newly created fandom of a nonexistent 1970s mafia film.

#makeste reads bnha #real life update

[rgr-pop]

meal plan text asmr

i normally have breakfast at work because of my proton pump inhibitor. tomorrow i wfh the morning to do a training so i’ll be having sesame toast with a boiled egg, feta, and whatever pickle and veg looks good. then for the rest of the week’s breakfasts i have one yogurt (lucas found me the icelandic coffee yogurt!!) and friday morning tbh, probably the last of my ezekiel toast with communal work peanut butter unless i pick up cottage cheese/yogurt. today i worked remotely at a coffee shop and i grabbed a bad scone, RIP. (adding to shopping list: ezekiel bread, greek yogurt, cottage cheese, bananas, the icelandic coffee yogurt but that’s only at whole foods.)

at work right now i’ve been having paramount (local brand) k cups that corey gifted me. i got him a gift card for the new downtown coffee shop so he can grab it between his bus job (he herds teenagers for the school public bus program. his real title is abussador :)) and he got me k cups for my work. i froth half and half to dress up the k cup, and my coworker brought in half and half she needs used up, so i don’t need to bring mine. (another week before i have to buy more.) i hate using the disposables and am considering literally committing to work french press like an absolute psycho—i just can’t get myself enough time before work to make and bring it from home and the refillable k cups will do but are gross. if you have to survive a keurig at work i recommend nasty refillables + steaming and frothing milk. i have half a bag of not great beans at home. I’ve been spending more on nicer beans for home and it has been worth it, but I am still not quite sure what I like. (on shopping list: coffee beans, decaf beans for winter evening treats.)

came home with a coffee shop noise pollution migraine and made myself cheese ramen with cilantro, sesame seeds, green onion, and a side of this week’s pickled carrot slaw. ramen made two servings for me. it was the last of my shin black and third to last slice of ramen cheese. my cilantro will last another weekend and i have at least week’s worth of parsley and green onions. (adding to the shopping list: shin black, cheese singles, frozen corn, and since i’m thinking about it, shredded mozz for buldak/corn cheese.)

for lunches wednesday-friday i will have dumplings from the freezer (the ones i made and some other ones i have), leftover ramen, and a carrot and cucumber salad (my last two fresh salad vegetables, but i will probably wait out purchasing more). to prep tonight: jar of dumpling sauce, salad. (dumplings are already on my shopping list when i see some that look good. adding dumpling wrappers—making and freezing them was so worth it, but i felt like making the dough wasn’t.)

complicating factor: i should make myself something sweet to keep me out of the vending machines at work. at home i’ve been having what i believe to be yaourti me meli (greek yogurt, walnuts, honey, cinnamon?) but i’m out. i’d like to make a second french yogurt cake to compare it to the other recipe, but again, out. i would also also like to make a coffee cake type food for someone coming over saturday afternoon. do i make a little loaf cake with what i have tonight to get me through the week and then a second thing then? do i have friday plans? if i bake a little quick bread or pound cake for myself tonight it will really cut down on my food ruminations. (adding to shopping list: greek yogurt, walnuts, honey, dried fruit, butter.. baking supplies need inventorying but i’m almost sure i have enough of the basics.)

what am i having for dinners? i need to minimize the chance that i spend any non-grocery money before next week—i will be having a crazy week and likely blowing money i don’t have. tonight i’m having leftover cannellini beans cacio e pepe (‼️ make this ‼️). i have enough beans (although running low) to continue having beans meals, but i really really really desire to put my beans meals on potatoes. (‼️ fusion jacket potatoes ‼️ make this ‼️). matias made these perfect black beans with pork and salsa verde and it’s all i can think about. can i pull this off with freezer bacon… i have enough of a serrano to get me through. (adding to shopping list: russet potatoes, garlic, sour cream, avocado, cheap canned black beans, decent looking dried black beans, slightly nice italian brand butter beans and cannellini beans, bell pepper, tomatillos, tomatoes, mexican oregano, sweet potato, pork?? i will put this on my list but never buy it.)

i would also like to make salmon rice bowls with avocado, pickled veg/carrot slaw, cucumbers, etc. to use up my freezer salmon. i would prefer to wait to do this til i’m keeping salad greens (leftover salmon for salads is key for a working woman…)

in two weeks i will make something for a certain someone’s birthday and batch up some granola. i’ve been wanting to try making coffee granola. i also have to make a lasagna before the end of winter this year or i must be executed.

what i’m bringing to work tomorrow for the rest of the week: salad, bags of dumplings, ramen, cilantro (packed separately), one boiled egg, one yogurt, dumpling sauce and any other condiments that look good, and a sweet if i can pull it off.

the question i can only answer for myself tomorrow at 4pm: am i going to the grocery store?

#grocery influencing #food

[edoro]

I have this thoughts and I am not sure if I am even digging in the right direction. Do you think Hunter might have/develop some kind of attachement amnesia(if it's a thing xD). Belos made Hunter's self worth so unstable and his love so fickle, that even though Hunter 'knows' his uncle loves him he constantly 'forgets' it in his panic and need to prove his worth. There have to be some nice memories between the two, but it's like they don't matter and Hunter never feels secure. So when he is out he will keep this. He will constantly forget people actually care about him. Someone doesn't talk with him for some time because busy or something? Watch Hunter spiraling that they are done with him, actually they never cared but they were too kind to stick around. And it will pain him and he will try to earn the love back. I've read that this kind of thing can be a symptom of personality disorder. Do you think Hunter could have developed one due to his traumatic upbringing?

oh yeah like - what you're describing is very much a symptom of trauma. there are various ways to refer to this kind of problem - a fear of abandonment, lack of emotional object permanence, insecure attachment, etc

but what it boils down to is that he fundamentally does not see himself as lovable or trust that other people actually love and care for him, no matter how much they demonstrate it, because his formative experiences of love were conditional and abusive and it taught him that love is something he has to earn and if he doesn't earn it then it'll be taken away and he'll be punished.

so that's like... a very common feature of having been abused, especially experiencing chronic abuse in childhood. if, during the period of time when you're literally being taught how relationships work and how being a person works, you're abused, then that's just literally the model your brain teaches itself on and the pathways it develops to understand the world and people around you.

(there are also plenty of other mental illnesses that can cause this that aren't necessarily related to abuse - like depression can easily make you think no one really likes you, for instance, and make you feel like a burden.)

i think from your description you're probably talking about bpd here, as like, the specific personality disorder? i am far from an expert here but fear of abandonment + insecure attachment style + tendency to spiral and catastrophize about relationships due to the first two are fairly typical like, Hallmarks Of That Particular Disorder.

(there is also quite a lot of overlap between bpd and cptsd, which is the kind of ptsd you develop as a result of, you know, chronic ongoing inescapable trauma like childhood abuse vs discrete traumatic events like an assault or a natural disaster - and bpd is itself heavily correlated with early childhood trauma.)

but anyway yeah like... Hunter absolutely has cptsd and imo it's demonstrated very consistently throughout the series. he is traumatized by his upbringing, even when he doesn't consciously realize or understand it. the specific ways in which he defends Belos and denies his own abuse are, in fact, symptoms.

so i think it's very possible Hunter could end up developing a personality disorder or other mental illnesses as a result of his trauma. that's pretty common, tbh - being abused that way tends to cause such intense mental distress that it leads to a lot of different negative mental health outcomes.

(and, frankly, i think Belos is clearly mentally ill and traumatized as well. it seems very much like he's perpetuating a cycle of trauma and abuse with Hunter. and quite a lot of mental illness is genetic, so, i think Hunter kind of has a double threat going on here.)

but yeah i definitely think it's going to take Hunter a really long time to learn how to have healthy relationships. he's so used to love being conditional and relationships being transactional. it will be really hard for him to adjust to functional, normal relationships, and i do think that he'll have a hard time realizing he doesn't have to 'earn' people caring about him or justify his own existence somehow.

#hunter toh #trauma #abuse #the owl house #asks

[hyunverse]

you’re so right hyunjin would 100% write you literally anything you like or would just come up w smth new whenever he felt like it. also would def just give you artwork he made for you 🥲. imagine him giving you little pieces of your fave animal or his fave pic of you guys together </////3 god id be in shambles. also i did not realize malaysia was that hot ?? i couldn’t do it i hateeeeee the heat. but then i also hate the cold. like i’ll literally be going to school in -20C weather where i live😭😭 it’s so awful. so spring and fall are 100% my times of the year like i’m always happiest at those times bc the weather is just normal

so true men are just men. i think we got lucky w our skz’s zodiacs. bc changbin is the only leo man that can exist okay 🙅🏻‍♀️ he is nothing like these average ass horrible leo men. he’s bias wrecking me so hard lately like he’s literally fighting w hyunjin rn for the spot. i can hear them bickering in the back of my head 😒😒

ALSO RIGHT i can’t help but baby him 💔💔 same w seungmin i just want to squish his cheeks 💔💔💔 manifesting seungmo forehead rn 🙏🏼. SO IMPRESSED W THE BOWLING BTW THATS AWESOMEEEE. i hope you had sm fun 😋 i’ll have to try it again soon and lyk. most likely i’ll be shit but it’s worth a try. my day was not the besttttt i’m rly stressed out and have a ton of crap going on but seeing ur response made my day ^_^. i saw it and blushed and squealed not even kidding. ur the sweetest you always put a smile on my face. i hope your day is good today :)) i think it’s like 6 am there rn which is so funny bc i’m about to eat dinner. like it’s cool to think we’re doing our opposite routines at the same time. does that even make sense ?? 😭 this is what i mean w the rambling i’m just 💔 LOL

alsoooooo i’m gonna reply to your other post here too and say i’m so glad you moved on from those pos’s. relationships suck and that’s why i read fanfics like yours to fill the void 🙏🏼. i’m jk i’ve also moved on but im a lover girl at heart so not being in a relationship is legit torture. like i just want to talk to someone and be loved and like go on dates 🙄 KISSES AND HUGS FOR U THO you deserve all of them bae <33

- 🐈‍⬛ (spammed again omg what is my PROBLEM ?? you bring out the talk in me and most ppl can’t do that <33 i can’t help it ur too kind)

hyun <3 painting u <3 with a fond smile in his face <3 they don’t make men like him anymore!

malaysia IS hot bae. . . it’s located at the equator </3 spring and fall seems so pretty, especially fall!! like dawggg i wanna be jumping on piles of fallen leaves too mane 😔🙏 dress up cute ‘n stuff. i will be showing up everywhere lookin like rory gilmore 💯 everytime i see an autumn grwm i gotta stop myself from kicking and throwing a tantrum cs i don’t live somewhere with the four seasons 🤸‍♀ -20°C weather is insane i would literally drown myself in boiling water 🧘‍♀

the thought of changjin bickering IS SO FUNNY like those two istg. . . love how hyunjin rejects every single one of changbin’s affections LMAO i always laugh at them. binnie in the samsung ad got the girlies going CRAZY LIKEEEEE. . .

i get the desire to be loved tbh. likeeee feeling loved is so nice but at the same time i feel like i have no mental span for a relationship anymore 💀 i am so busy during the times i am in campus so having a bf wud probably be disastrous for me.

u need to come bowling with me i Will defeat u 💯 LMFAOOO. or maybe you, too, will find out that ure actually a hidden bowling prodigy. u never know ykyk. also yeah timezones are so odd but it is somewhat painfully endearing. . . ? just two people doing opposite routines but still being able to be friends at the same. isnt that so cute omg. i’m sorry your day was crap my love, here i giv u minho pics to hopefully make ur day today better than yesterday’s!!

mwahmwah sending u my love sweetheart <3

#u bring out the chatty in me too PLS #my head be going brrrr ideas with u #rin's lovemail! #🐈‍⬛ anon 💌

[wikiangela]

I saw Riley in 6x15 and I started to rant and it turned into a fucking commentary (but also a rant) as I was watching so:

fuck I so didn't want to see Riley again so when I saw him in the previously on and then the "special guest star Marc Blucas" I was like ugh why

but when they showed him I literally burst out laughing lmao what even is this 😂 why is this so funny 😂

oh I have so many feelings about Buffy just leaving her job like that, and about how she's looking at him right now after everything... I'm still livid that they made the whole situation Buffy's fault when he left

God i hate him so much why did they bring him back and pls tell me it's only for one episode because I was enjoying this season 😂

I didn't know I'd ever hate another character as much as I hate Karen Page but here we are 😂(and if you know me, she's my most hated character ever lol)

also, I couldn't give less of a fuck when it comes to Xander and Anya's wedding, I'm so over them sns she had some good moments lately but I still don't like her 💁🏻‍♀️

jfc what was that weak-ass fight with the demon? 😂 she just kicked it and it fell down wtf 😂 😂

and he's married lmao (omg is that Diyoza from the 100??)

if he had backup from his wife, and if she's so good she's just fighting the demon while they're standing there.... why the hell did he need Buffy's help?

yeah, that whole fight was fucking weak, Buffy just killed it like it was nothing 😂

excuse me, he was gone a year and he's been married for four months?? wow, that boy moved on quick 😳😂😂😂

I need a friend like Willow 😂 she's the best ❤️

I miss Tara, where is she, why isn't she here come on 🙄

I think I kinda like Sam tbh

"he thinks I let him go" oh my fucking god I rolled my eyes so hard 🙄 it was his fault because he's a stupid fucking asshole!!! 😑

"lots of time" well not that much time from the looks of it since he managed to start a whole new relationship and get married pretty soon lol

I'm getting so frustrated with how guilty and sad and embarrassed Buffy looks jfc he's not worth it

this episode feels long lol between having to deal with Riley and fucking Xander and Anya's wedding stuff, I'm so annoyed

BUFFY is sorry for what happened between them and she's apologizing to HIM............. I'm so frustrated I'm literally going to scream into a pillow

I just don't see how everyone loves him so much wtf

I get why they like Sam, she seemed cool but like... what's so great about fucking Riley?

Buffy uses and plays with Spike so much - it's getting annoying too tbh 😂 she looked cute in that scene when she was breaking it off tho haha

I didn't enjoy this episode sns it felt fucking long (like, I feel like I've been watching it for at least 2 hours) and it was so annoying why did we even need that? personally I never wanted to see Riley again, he's the worst and I'll never understand why people like him - there's just something about him that made me dislike him from his very first episode (maybe second, I took some time before forming an opinion lol) my blood literally boils at all the Riley praise fuck him

and I hate that this whole episode was essentially: aw, look how perfect Riley's life is now while Buffy's life is awful, look at how embarrassed she is and how good it could be for her if she got Riley to stay because of course the break up was obviously only on her and Riley never did anything wrong in his life - that's the vibe I got and fuck whoever thought this plotline would be a good idea lol

#Buffy s6 #Buffy season 6 #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #btvs s6 #anti riley finn #I hate Riley Finn so much #long post #this turned into a rant #watching buffy

[modernmanblues]

Ok I normally don’t share stuff like this on here but I’m sorry I just need to vent. Today I was invited to a family friend’s holiday gathering (it’s Memorial Day weekend here in the states). Fine with me- I’ve known and adored these people for a long time so I agreed to pop in for a bit since I hadn’t seen them in a while. My mum received this said invitation over the phone and her friend briefly mentioned how my ex bf popped in for a bit to drop off some drinks. This made my anxiety go up bc he’s literally the last person I wanna see at this point in time- he makes my blood boil. As soon as my mum got off the phone I told her to call her friend back to ask and make sure he wasn’t there anymore or I wasn’t going to be making an appearance. Her friend confirmed he wasn’t there so my mum and I went and had a great time catching up with folks..for about an hour..

AND THEN MY WORST FUCKING NIGHTMARE HAPPENED. Out of nowhere, dumbass decided to make a cameo appearance (the ghost of Christmas past, oh what joy). Anyways, there he was, dressed like Glenn Frey Miami Vice style on his Harley Davidson thinking it was gonna have any effect on me (sorry dude it didn’t). I WAS FUCKING LIVID. And the worst part, dumbass decided to show up, made brief eye contact with me, spoke with someone else at the party and didn’t have the common courtesy to say a single word to me. 5 FUCKING YEARS WITH THIS IDIOT AND HE HAD THE AUDACITY TO DO THIS. UNFUCKINGREAL. It took every ounce of me not to go up to him and give him a piece of my mind. Yes, as a matter of fact I do have self control. Everyone looked at me and asked if I was ok knowing he was there. Deep down I wasn’t..but I took some deep breaths and tried to make small talk as a distraction. It worked..for a little bit, but it continued to bother me and tbh I am STILL bothered by it.

This is why I am SO happy to be leaving this damn town and this godforsaken state, even, and to be moving to the place of my dreams (oh California pls be good to me- my soon to be home, pls be good to me). For what it’s worth, I love you NY but it’s time for me to move on. The only reason why I’ve continued to live here was to finish grad school and bc of family and some friends from high school that I still hang with from time to time. Other than that, I am now fully prepared to divorce NY.

My only message to this individual: grow the fuck up. I refuse to be with a man who acts like a child and doesn’t know what kind of future he has in mind for me. For us. I’d rather stay single than be with someone who can’t progress with me in life. A man without ambition, that’s the last thing I want in my life right now.

This court is now adjourned.

#personal #liz stewart rambles #he’s a manchild sorry to say it #the nerve of some people

[peachiimilquetea]

PEACH PEACH CAN U WRITE SMTH ABT A BEACH DAY W OBEY ME BOYS!!! EITHER ALL OR ONE ILY BFF

the obey me brothers go to the beach!

a/n: these are super cute and quick, i hope you like them! most of my hcs for the brothers are a lot more... harsh? idk i like bullying them but this was a fun exercise to familiarize myself with their personalities and whatnot

you can also tell who i like the most in these i think FDSBJKFDBSJKF

lucifer!

this is oddly specific but lucifer strikes me as the type to wear a swim shirt

or like one of those full-body swimsuits that end as biker shorts??

like this

he also wears a shit ton of sunscreen and bothers others to do the same

very much drill sergeant vibes when he tries to get everyone out of the house on time in order to beat the traffic

has a fucking itinerary that nobody follows FDBSJKBDSJK

mostly stays on the beach with a book or just looking out for his brothers

hates the water but loves the tranquility that the beach provides

so he takes the day to relax

but i can still see him trying to get work done while at the beach and you have to force him to put his shit down

"diavolo literally gave you the day off what are you doing"

"its just an expense report, it'll be done quickly i promise"

"give me the notebook lucifer,"

"but-"

"GIVE IT"

mammon!

MY BABY UGH

i see mammon as a "wheres my hug" ass dude

so he probably likes the beach purely bc he can grab people and throw them in the water like a fucking caveman

he will pick mc up and throw them in the ocean, laughing like a maniac the whole time

also wears obnoxious sunglasses

"mammon are those really necessary? they're a little... tacky"

"you just don't know, fashion mc, asmo said they look nice hmph"

very corny but he will make everyone stay later so he can watch the sunset

takes like 20 pictures in the exact same spot and then never uses them again

ALSO USES A METAL DETECTOR LITERALLY RUNS AROUND THE BEACH TRYING TO FIND SHIT HE CAN PAWN OFF

"mammon that's a penny"

"yeah but it could be worth millions!"

leviathan!

mans doesn't even bring a swimsuit BYE

it takes the strength of all the brothers (and lucifer's wrath) to get him to leave the car

spends his time on the boardwalk buying corny souvenirs or sitting next to lucifer on his phone

gets burnt bc he's never outside and doesn't listen to lucifer and asmo when they urge him to put on sunscreen

tries to make everyone go home early but nobody listens FBSJKFDBSJk

attempts to make sand sculptures of some of his favorite characters bc he saw people do it online and he thought it was cool

draws in the sand as well

people come over to watch him work and admire it bc its actually pretty good

then he gets his shit kicked over by a little kid and then just gives up

you have to console him GSHJDHJFK

satan!

like a cat, i don't think he likes the water either

despises the water actually

i can see him playing beach volleyball with beel tbh

he's actually pretty good

also explores the boardwalk with levi, altho he doesn't buy any corny shit

if a there's a nautical-themed bookstore in the area, you'll never see him again

but in most cases he sits to read with levi and lucifer

likes to watch the animals do their thing

i can see him getting a hermit crab or a fish bc of how cute they are

"they're like the cats of the ocean!"

hates when mammon tries to mess with him and attempted to drown him once so mammon doesn't try shit with him anymore FSBJKFSBJ

asmodeus!

OBVIOUSLY HE TANS DUHHHH

probably wears the skimpiest little cheekster bathing suit too in order to "eliminate tan lines" or like a thong

OR he wears one of those giant straw hats in order to keep the sun off him

yk what, maybe both

he also collects saltwater to go home and make at home beauty treatments

collects seaweed as well

makes you help him hunt for pretty seashells to make jewelry and accessories with

"this one looks so nice with your complexion! here, put it in the bag!"

but mostly lays around tanning and flirting with people who stare at him

bc lets be honest whos not staring at him??

beelzebub!

i hate to be cliche but

this fatass is tearing the boardwalk UP

mans is harassing the icecream truck, eating various crab boils, and finishing all of those gimmicky challenge menu items that the restaurants have to offer

did they pack lunch?

yes

is he gonna still spend money and buy more food?

also yes

mc: "beel they call it the triple twist burger of death are you sure you want it?"

beel, who has already finished it: "huh?"

they either love him or hate him bc he eats a shit ton but that also means he PAYS a shit ton and who doesn't like money???

once he sees people going to the beach and catching their own shit, he's SOLD

hunts for crabs and wrestles big ass fish he finds in the ocean

would definitely start a bonfire to roast the food under the open air

plays sports with random people he meets and probably does calisthenics??? like those mfs who do chin ups and walk in the air???

i can see him doing that

belphegor!

doesn't do anything

sleeps in the sun

almost gets left behind bc everyone just assumes he's already in the car

likes to float in the water on a giant donut

almost like lazy river style

makes beel watch him to make sure he doesn't drift too far out to sea

doesn't like to get up too much but will get involved from the sidelines

like if asmo asks his opinion on a seashell or if the boys need someone to be referee for their volleyball game

keeps everyone's spot when they need to go do something

treats the beach like every other day he has tbh

i can see him letting mammon and asmodeus bury him in the sand and literally not even caring FBJSDKBJK

#obey me leviathan #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me shall we date #obey me headcanons #obey me #obey me belphegor #obey me beelzebub #obey me asmodeus #obey me satan #peachiileafrequests #peachiileafsfw #[🍑]peachiiwrites #[🍑]peachiimilquetea #[🍓]

[bitter-sweet-coffee]

your tags 🥺 ❤️❤️❤️ honestly it's so hard to find someone who has critical thinking in the entire euphoria fandom. like, just last week- well, the last couple of weeks, actually, people have been calling cassie just the vilest thing, and even though she's done some questionable, if not outright bad, stuff, I don't think it's deserved. all in all, she's still a kid, and she was at THE LOWEST of her life when nate jacobs decided to sink his claws into her and infected her with his poison. i just think she deserves a little bit of a break.

and this week is what really got my blood boiling. like, lexi literally said in the episode she was afraid people (cassie, especially) would take her play the wrong way, while she only had good intentions. people be out there praising her for "ruining lives" while that's very much not what she intended. she said it herself, she's an observer, and she's observed all of these things, and now she's only reporting them back. i think she intended it more as a way for people to reflect on their actions and relationship, how they might look through in other people's - namely, lexi's - eyes.

do correct me if im off the mark tho. i would love to hear what you think ❤️

BESTIE!!! sorry i waited a while to respond, i didn't want euphoria tumblr to interact with me again lmao it should be quiet now though 👀

i think people start to fuck up when watching euphoria when they assume anyone is a good person. lexi knew she was being messy but deserved to vent, cassie is extremely unstable and self destructive but also not innocent, and nate is psychologically damaged and emotionally neglected, so i am begging the show to get him help at this point.

every character is abusive, and every character has been abused. cassie has been awful to people but she also had a secret abortion last season that everyone forgets about like ???

maddy apologists are my biggest issue tbh. she is a victim of a toxic relationship but she enabled a lot of anger out of nate such as lying about being sexually assaulted by an adult. she was a selfish terrible friend (especially to kat in season 1) and has been physically/verbally/emotionally abusive to multiple people, even beating up random students at school. after the incident in season 2 which i won't spell out for spoiler reasons, i am sympathetic and hope she gets the support she needs. but since season 1 there has been a LOT of support for her bad behaviour because alexa demie is gorgeous and tumblr loves a "girlboss moment" to the point i've seen takes like "well it was NATE who made her do all that bad stuff, she was just psychologically manipulated to be a mean person" as if nate could just "break up with his father" and was totally 100% responsible for his behaviour because childhood and lifelong inescapable abuse from a family member means he's too far gone to be saved. like, pick a side— are abuse victims conditioned and shouldn't be blamed for any toxic abusive actions they perform, or are they fully responsible and unfixable monsters? the true answer is neither/both but since the internet has 0 critical thinking skills, the fandom answer is to sort all the faves as innocent and the unlikeable characters as permanently damaged abusers.

like, people hate jules and always shove the "she's a slutty male-affirming cheater" identity on her every fucking second because they love zendaya and rue. there are also people who get mad at rue for being mean, self destructive, and for doing drugs, but that's literally the point of her character??? she's an addict and it's an atrocious battle that is going to harm her and result in irrational toxic decisions?

a lot of people are mad about kat this season but have missed the entire point of her segment earlier on in s2: kat still can't love herself and ethan's love feels superficial and sappy in the face of her own self worth issues. she gave ethan a shallow, blatantly false reason for breaking up with him so that he'd hate her and not say something like "i know you have self worth issues but i love you!" or "we can make this work!" because kat sees herself as undeserving of love and made it so ethan wouldn't forgive her, and therefore treat her like the monster she sees herself as. THAT is why she went back to cam work and embraced/validated the dark/taboo side of her identity she keeps tucked away: perverted appreciation is all she is worth because it's all she can process people valuing her with.

TLDR: everyone in euphoria has been hurt and have hurt other people: some more than others. the fan favouritism and cherry picking is the reason "fandom mentalities" don't work for a show like this!!! i enjoy/love every character and that doesn't mean i excuse their behaviour, but in fandom-terms it's assumed that liking someone like nate means i justify all his actions by refusing to wish death upon him and the other male characters like mckay and elliot.

ultimately, i want everyone to get the help they need even though i don't expect it to go over that way, and i will spend every other second i have actively hating the "hot takes" people have online that are just supporting female abusers and ignoring the fact that real people and three-dimensional characters are morally grey so liking a character doesn't mean they're a good person 🥴✌️

#bsc moment

[myinterestsvary-writes]

Zutara shipper here: an unpopular opinion I think I have is that most Zutara fanfics demonize Aang and make him out to be toxic, controlling, OVER THE TOP immature/childish, etc. and it’s honestly annoying. The demonization of both him and Mai is gross because you shouldn’t need to make a character completely unrecognizable in order for your story to work out.

I don’t really hate Kataang, I just prefer Zutara, (I like the opposites attract thing, water and fire) but the morphing of Aang into an oblivious toddler-esque character for the sake of pushing Katara with Zuko is not fun. Especially because it’s misrepresenting Aang’s entire character and pulling forth then amplifying his worst qualities which, coincidentally, are childish qualities. Childish, as in, Aang is LITERALLY 12!! Of course he’s not going to be some perfect mature 40 year old man who’s got their ducks in a row. I just hate how Aang’s childish tendencies are magnified and put on display as if his entire character is some moronic child with the emotional range of a teaspoon.

Something else that bothers me, but I don’t feel as comfortable saying to another Zutara person, is that agree Kataang as canon was the correct thing to do. There’s a lot of history there so it logically makes sense. Maybe if Zuko and Katara had three seasons worth of personal interaction, they could’ve had a chance, but that’s not how it went. It was sent up from the beginning to be Kataang, and I think they sent it up well honestly. A lot of analysis from both parties likes to cite different examples for who’s better, but ultimately all of the examples boil down to this; lots of YA media is written by adults who have to write as if they’re children, ALTA is no different. However, I think they did excellent at writing the interpersonal relationships between all of the Gaang, including even the development of camaraderie between Zuko and Katara.

I got fully off track, I’m sorry :,) Anyways, TL;DR: demonizing Aang is not cool, Kataang makes sense, I like water/fire dynamic so I prefer Zutara (no self insert for me because I’m in my 20s so it feels very wrong to consider underage characters as something .... I can’t even put this into words, it’s just gross tbh), and ALTA was written well for its time, dealing with pretty hard topics and keeping a light tone throughout.

(Side note; shipping wars are so 2010 chic it’s ridiculous. It’s all fake anyway lmao)

All of this.

#asks #anonymous #kataang #anti zutara #don't mean to be rude anon i just want people to see the effort you put into this ask you sent #me OF ALL PEOPLE #i swear i come across as a douche half the time lmao

[averykedavra]

joan - what do you wish the series would cover next, or what kind of turn would you want to see it take?

!! okay this is a really fun question. ‘cause i’ve thought about this a lot. timeline-wise, I only got really involved with the fandom around the release of ATHD, and ever since then i’ve really enjoyed imagining the “next” events of the series. sometimes theories, sometimes just AUs, but it’s always fun!

and see, there are tons of things i’d love to explore in the context of canon. like sides switching from light to dark, or a side shutting themselves off, or serious backstory elements like the formation of roman and remus. tons of stuff that’d be super cool to think about.

but they’re not stuff i’d actually want in canon necessarily, you know? and they’re mostly not stuff i’d ever expect canon to actually do. so here’s a little incomplete list of things i’d love to actually see in the series, and which I think are (semi)-plausible:

1. Roman’s arc. had to add this one. I’m pretty sure it’s coming up after PoF (and it better) and I am so, so excited. roman’s been a slow-boiling pot of emotional turmoil for a while now and I just wanna see it spill over!

and look. don’t get me wrong, i love the pintroverts so much, but—yeah, i really wanna see thomas and nico go through a rough patch. thomas, and by extension roman, are pinning so many expectations on nico. they’re emotionally unready and using nico like a way to redeem themselves and feel better, instead of confronting their own issues. not to say the relationship can’t work out, but i can figure there’ll be some bumps on the road.

and possible failure with nico would be a great catalyst for roman’s full breakdown. he’s got everything riding on this guy! he calls nico “a chance at happiness”! and he’s the romantic side, he wants this to work out, so thomas will trust him again. and if it fails, it’ll break roman into tiny, tiny pieces.

plus, i know the season finale is probably going to be a two-parter, like with virgil’s episode? and i don’t know if i actually want roman to duck out, but i am really excited for some parallels to virgil’s arc. acceptance instead of redemption, being more than your function, every side being valued, and virgil and roman continuing to become closer together. if i do not get a remix of “you make us better” but virgil to roman, i will riot /j

2. Logan’s arc. then following roman, our braincell boy! logan is another steaming pile of issues who’s been repressing for far too long. i want to see him admit he has feelings. i want to see him cry. maybe this is the angst demon in me, but come on, he deserves it.

an aspect of logan that’s really fascinating to me is his relation to thomas’ own self-image and needs. logan defines himself by his use to thomas—he has the least belief in himself as a separate entity. and he’s felt sidelined for a long time, possibly ever since thomas became a youtube.

i think it’d be super interesting to see more of how their dynamic was before thomas made the career switch, how logan feels about it, and how his “lack of feelings” is an extension of his refusal to acknowledge his own personhood. he doesn’t let himself want or feel—and he’s actually kinda similar to roman in that regard. roman and logan are narrative foils in a lot of ways. which would make it kinda cool if their arcs were somewhat consecutive—logan helps roman value himself, and roman returns the favor.

oh, and i’d love it if virgil and logan could come full circle, too? virgil comforts logan during the whole thing, maybe even talking to him about cognitive distortions or using techniques logan taught him to destress. they’re really good friends and i wanna see more of that.

3. Janus becoming part of the group. i have so many feelings about janus. he’s poised to join the gang and start helping thomas from the inside, but his acceptance is still conditional, fragile, and fragmented. roman loathes him, logan resents him, and virgil has a history with him. and janus is gonna have to try and get through all that.

i already love his dynamic with patton, i really want them to be friends. i think a logan and janus debate would be fucking fantastic. i am begging for roman and janus to talk things out. and i really, really want to see virgil and janus become friends again.

but maybe what i’m most interested in is janus himself, and his relationship to thomas. i still love interpreting the “is that fair to him” line as referencing janus’ complex and difficult role as the keeper of all lies. he’s still hiding an orange side from us, probably, and he’s trying to keep everything stable.

what happens if he slips up? what happens if he gets close to patton and starts having new priorities? how did that affect his relationship with virgil? i want to really explore janus’ character and motivations.

and also janus and remus content. give it. this is an order.

4. Remus. Literally anything remus. Please I’m starving, I just want to see my trash boy, when will he return from the war?

Seriously, though, I’d love more remus. his thoughts on nico. his motivation, his daily life, his relationship with janus and the other sides. i think he could really be great friends with all of them if he was given time to settle, and my intruality heart says he deserves to be chaotic besties with patton.

and! and his relationship with roman!! i really wanna see them grow closer and be bros, while working through the deep complexities of their issues with one another. because right now roman has so many projections of remus as his worst enemy and the epitome of everything he doesn’t wanna be, and remus just…doesn’t care about all that. that’s so interesting!!

remus is just such a refreshing character in so many ways. he’s so blunt and open and honest, he doesn’t hide or repress anything, and that’d be so much fun to explore! plop him in the middle of the other sides and see how long it takes for stuff to explode. i wanna see him break the status quo just because he can.

5. Patton’s arc. oh, you thought his character development was done? not even close. he learned a lot from moving on, but pof proved he still has a long way to go. and tbh I think he’s in a really precarious position right now.

yeah, he’s finally opening up to janus and the others. but he’s also very vulnerable, very unsure, and very ready to throw himself out of the picture if thomas needs him to. he asked if janus thought patton was just bad for thomas, and he seemed ready to take that advice and leave thomas be.

which is. concerning. and I think as patton learns to pull back and let thomas--and everyone--stand on their own without him smothering them, as he learns to have faith in others and not feel pressured to fix everything himself, he needs to work on his own self-worth, too.

patton, like a lot of the sides, is separating himself from his function. and that’s gonna be painful and messy and probably include a lot of backsliding. i wanna see him talk to the others, really talk to them, and get the support from his friends he needs! and that includes:

6. virgil continuing to support his friends. virgil has been doing great character-development-wise, but again, he has far to go! and what I want to see more of is stuff like FWSA. him beginning to truly support his friends in the way they’ve supported him.

his friendships with roman and logan are so sweet and I wanna see more of that. please. and I wanna see him bond with remus and janus again, and most of all, I want patton and virgil to really sit down and talk about stuff. they’ve been going through it for a while and I want them to talk.

the sad part, of course, is that post-pof they’re probably in an even worse place. there’s a reason patton didn’t show up in FWSA even when matters of the heart were involved. they’re on thin ice around each other, and throwing janus and roman into it will just make everything more complicated.

but I believe in them! they’re good friends, and I think if they try, they can work through it and learn more about each other.

7. bonding between the dark and light sides. basically already covered this one but guys. i want everyone to bond. i want logan and remus sharing cool facts. i want janus and virgil being snarky best friends. i want patton and remus teaming up to make stuff happen, and janus calling logan out on his repression, and virgil and remus listening to mcr and just. them, okay? them. glad we had this talk.

8. a breaking down of the dark sides and light sides altogether. i don’t necessarily mean anyone becomes a dark side (although it’s such a fun idea.) I mean really digging into the morality and formation of the “sides”, and eventually dismantling them.

the dark and light sides aren’t good and evil. they’re sides that thomas wants around, that are useful, and sides he doesn’t. and as janus becomes wanted at the table, and as patton and roman pull away and become less useful, it’ll be interesting to see how those dynamics shift.

the issue of identity is really at the heart of sanders sides. how much of you is you, and how much of it is what others want? are you beholden to others’ expectations, and how do you find personal worth? what defines you--by what measure is a man? how does a person change and grow? can they? or are they always, at the core, what they began as?

these questions obviously don’t have simple answers, but they’re stuff I wanna see talked about. i want to see the difficulty of even finding the line between selfishness and selflessness when you exist to serve another self. actions can be selfish and selfless all at once, a mass of contradictions that’s anything but black and white. and I wanna see more of that.

an idea I toy with sometimes is having a brief, or not so brief, reversal of dark sides and light sides. remus and janus, and maybe virgil, become more listened to. and roman, patton, and logan become the sides in the background. i dunno if it would actually happen, but I think it’d be interesting to consider--because once again, it’s about use versus value and wants versus needs.

if thomas wants a side, will they stick around? what about if he only wants to want them? what if he wants them as a friend but doesn’t need their function? what if they don’t think he wants them? what if any number of things?

i want to see discussion and deconstruction of the sides as a whole. i want to see them really dig deep into their purpose and formation. i want everything laid bare. and then finally, I want:

9. thomas ends the series by letting go of the sides. i am such a fucking sucker for bittersweet open endings like that. it wouldn’t be a full erasure of the sides, they’d still exist in the mind palace, probably hanging out and having movie nights and being a family. but they wouldn’t talk to thomas anymore.

i think it could be a really profound note about not only letting go of parts of your life and moving forward, but how c!thomas should work to stand on his own. yes, the sides are parts of him, but he’s more than the combination of their input. he’s his own person. he’s real. and I think he needs to work on being more self-reliant, in the moment, and start to discover his identity not in pieces, but as a whole.

the sides weren't bad for him. not in the slightest. they’ve helped him understand and come to terms with any number of things. but sometimes people grow and move forward, and they have to say goodbye to some parts of their life. that’s a fact. and with the ongoing theme of moving on and chasing the future, i think thomas would reasonably do that--end the series with a goodbye.

10. and...orange side. i’ve talked a lot about my ideas for the orange side, but suffice it to say, i’m looking forward to them. whoever they end up being.

so yeah, that’s a very long post about my ideas that isn’t half as long as it could be dhfgsjhs i’ve considered writing something like a canon divergence AU, or just rambling on tumblr, but for now that’s what I got. and this is all to say, hire me, sanders sides writing team /j

#sanders sides #patton sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #roman sanders #janus sanders #remus sanders #long post #asks and answers #anon #ts ask game #i'm so sorry for the length this went overboard sgfshsjks

[makeste]

I like Bakuguo but his attitude is starting to really piss me off. He's talking about Daku as if he's just ~crazy~ and as if he isn't partly to blame for Deku's toxic self-worth issues. It's infuriating to watch. If Bakuguo doesn’t admit out loud and in front of his friends that his bullying of Deku played a part in Deku's current destructive state and if he doesn’t verbally apologize and reaffirm Deku's worth then I can no longer like Bakuguo's character or Hori's writing.

tbh I don't really know why this is the discourse of choice for people all of a sudden, but this is already the second ask I've gotten about it, so I might as well address it lol.

I think fandom is conflating fanon!Deku and canon!Deku here again. fanon Deku is of course much more sensitive and woobified and has much shakier self-esteem. fanon Deku is the one that turns evil in so many AUs because of Kacchan's bullying. fanon Deku is the one that actually jumps off the roof in so many fics, as opposed to fishing his notebook back out of the pond a few minutes later grumbling about how Kacchan needs to think before he speaks or else he could land himself in serious shit one day if god forbid anyone actually does take his cruel words to heart.

and just to clarify before I get any further, I am not saying this to excuse Kacchan's actions in any way, because what he did was still completely terrible and unacceptable and WAY over the line, and what's more he knew it, too. the bullying was still shitty and horrible and awful, and definitely impacted Deku and made him miserable. I fully acknowledge that, and that Kacchan has a lot of atoning to do for it. this is not a "Kacchan did nothing wrong" post.

but that being said, I don't think canon Deku's reckless self-sacrificing nature actually has anything to do with the bullying. I think they're two completely separate things. canon Deku actually has pretty decent self-esteem in spite of everything Kacchan did to him. canon Deku doesn't think he is useless. canon Deku had a wholeass fight with Kacchan less than 10 chapters into the series in which he explicitly spelled it out for Kacchan that he had a lot of worth, and was going to prove it to him. canon Deku was persistent in wanting to become a hero and hoping and believing that he could find some way in spite of being quirkless. canon Deku never let go of that dream even when no one else supported it. I don't think he would have even given up on it after being told no by All Might, tbh -- we just never got to see how it would have played out because of everything that happened with the sludge monster shortly afterward. but he's not the type to ever give up on something that easily, and we've seen that. canon Deku never thought he was useless, but rather wanted to prove to everyone else that he wasn't.

the drive that Deku has to save and protect others even at the expense of his own safety is something entirely separate from that. he doesn't break his body for others simply because he has no self-esteem and thinks that his own life isn't important. he does it because he can't stand the thought of someone else getting hurt, and knowing that he could have done something to prevent it. it's as simple as that. like, Spider-Man has the whole "with great power comes great responsibility" thing, right? and he doesn't have low self-esteem; he simply believes that if he has the ability to help someone else, then he has a responsibility to help them. it's a personal creed. and Deku is based on Spider-Man. his philosophy is based on that philosophy, which was one of Horikoshi's core influences and is one of the core creeds in superhero fiction.

Deku is self-destructive not because he doesn't value himself, but because he is literally physically incapable of standing back and doing nothing if he knows that he can do something. he's the type of person who sees a car speeding towards someone and leaps in to push them out of the way. NOT because he wants to get himself fucking pancaked by a speeding car, but simply because he can't sit back and watch the other person get hurt without taking action. his body moves before he can think. and that's where the whole "doesn't take himself into account" thing comes in -- the fact that his thought process simply stops at "get them out of the way of the car", and never extends beyond that to "hey, and maybe I should try to find a way to do this that doesn't involve me getting hit in their place." to him, that's simply less important than the first priority, which is getting the other person out of the way.

and regarding that last part, while that may seem like a self-worth issue if he's prioritizing everyone else above himself, I think what it actually is just selflessness taken to extremes. like for instance, when a parent sacrifices themselves to save their child, them placing the child's life above their own isn't necessarily because they don't see themselves as having value. rather, it's that they love the child so much that they place their well-being even above their own. and that's what Deku is like as well. except that in his case he cares about EVERYONE, and so is willing to sacrifice himself for anyone. and that selflessness is his defining character trait, and simultaneously the most admirable and the most terrifying thing about him. it's both his greatest strength and his greatest weakness, which I think is fascinating to explore.

but anyway, so that's also why we never really see anyone thoroughly chewing him out for this behavior either. because the thing is, it is admirable how selfless he is. it's just that there's also a reason why most people are at least a little bit selfish. and that's because too much selflessness will ultimately and inevitably wind up getting you killed. at some point you either have to learn when to put the oxygen mask on yourself first, or else find yourself a loyal group of friends (or classmates) to watch your back, and make sure that mask gets on you when you need it. and maybe help you land the plane too while they're at it.

anyway so that was a lot of rambling, but basically it all boils down to three things:

when Deku berates himself for being useless (for instance at the end of the War arc), he's doing it out of frustration for not being able to push the others out of the way of the metaphorical car. that's the kind of uselessness he can't stand. the sitting-back-and-doing-nothing uselessness.

Kacchan's bullying was terrible, and it might have indeed played a part in Deku's choice of the word "useless" as a way of berating himself in these instances, but he is not the one who gave Deku this mindset of taking himself out of the equation. that's something that was already inherent to Deku from day one. (but that said, Kacchan has a lot of things to apologize to Deku for anyway, so if he wants to add this to the list I certainly won't stop him. he gets mad about Deku's suicidal attitude because it worries him, but that doesn't necessarily mean that he doesn't feel responsible for it. people underestimated his feelings of atonement before 284/285, and I think they're still underestimating him now.)

and lastly, one last important note, which is that Deku's current "saving" mindset isn't wrong, just as Kacchan's "winning" mindset was not wrong either. the lesson to be learned here is NOT that being selfless and wanting to save other people is bad. rather, it's the fact that he's trying to do it alone that's got him all fucked up right now. basically when you think about it, selflessness is really just selfishness on someone else's behalf. which means that in order for Deku to be saved, it isn't necessary for him to change his outlook or his selfless attitude, even if it is pretty crazy lol. rather, all he really needs is a good group of friends who are willing to act selfishly on his behalf in return. protecting each other through mutual selflessness lol. teamwork as self-preservation. hence why the U.A. kids are here now.

anyway so yeah, I think that's everything. sorry this got so long and out of control lol. this is just a very specific nuanced thing that's hard for me to express, but which I feel is very important when it comes to Deku's character. Kacchan didn't unleash Depressed Nomad Deku on the world (or at least not in this respect). but that being said, he and the others will hopefully be the ones to nudge him back on the right course again.

#bnha 319 #midoriya izuku #bakugou katsuki #bnha meta #deku meta #bnha #boku no hero academia #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #bnha manga spoilers #makeste reads bnha #asks #anon asks #long post

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom episode 4-7 Thoughts: (under a readmore because, these got kinda long!)

-the outfit danny had to buy for dash's party. CLASSIC 2000S i cannot stop laughing. And also showing up to the party and everyone is dressed like the trio is hilarious. and further proof that everyone looks good dressed goth.

-dash has a closet full of cute lil bear plushies?? LOVE that. adorable. also his response to danny trashing his room fighting a ghost was SO valid if somone BROKE MY BED IN HALF ID BE PISSED TOO.

-technus being like 'oh smart, u should be a tutor!' then later being like 'forget tutor, be a teacher!' :) supportive king <3 I also really like his upgraded suit/design. AND SPOCK CAMEO??? HELLO??

-the music in this show is super. its so funky. I looked it up and the guy who does it, guy moon (awesome name) also did music for other cartoons like fairly odd parents, barnyard, chalkzone, billy & mandy, AND some actual movies like FIGHT CLUB??? the whiplash I got from reading that)

-sam being rich explains a lot about her, actually.

-I know the moral of the episode was supposed to be 'dont ditch your friends for popular people/spend a lot of money on clothes that arent You to Fit In'. but tbh. it wouldve been easy for danny to have been like 'well, okay, ill come but only if my friends can!' but I get. that hes 14. so. not a lot to say there.

-BOX GHOST IS BACK!!!!! also, danny sitting up and wearing the dress/wig/makeup. umm thats how I dress everyday LMFAO. unironically me. (hate the jokes that boil down to 'haha funney man in dress' tho. but this is a look)

-jazz being protective of her brother once again being like NOOO YOU GUYS BETTER NOT STAKE OUT HIS (actually haunted) LOCKER!! shes aware of how people perceive him and she wants to help :( which is also probably why she told dash to invite him to that party even tho she had no interest in going!! she wants to help him out :(

-gotta say im with tucker on the whole 'should danny use his powers to get back at bullies' debate. 100% yes. let him teach kids to fight back. making dash throw his food at paulina out of the blue? no. but when hes actually about to pick on someone? yeah! for self defense? YEAH! if dash and his friends just threw food at him, I think rather than. idk doing sneaky shit with frogs he couldve just threw it back and not pulled punches if they tried to fight. I kNOOWWW its a kids show so they are like 'if u fight back ur just as bad!! violence bad!!' but. theyre HIS POWERS. WHO CARES.

-like my only gripe is that dash really isnt LEARNING ANYTHING WHEN DANNY GETS BACK AT HIM IN THE MOST PETTY INDIRECT WAYS. whatever they had to add a bully psa episode I guess. I hate it and I hate the way cartoons usually handle it because these methods simply Do Not Work. 'aND YouRE USinG YOur poWErs FOR EVill???!' this is Not Evil. even when poindexter takes dannys body, theyre only being 'nice' bc hes stealing soda for them!! bitches deserve what they get (nothing too brutal bc theyre high schoolers but damn, if they pick on danny he doesnt need to be the 'bigger person' he needs to start biting people)

-SAM TRYING TO SMUGGLE FROGS OUT OF THE BIO LAB?? girl in middle school when we had to dissect frogs we could opt out, also, they came to us already dead and preserved...

-sidney's lingo and the fact hes in black and white is sending me. also, danny is a ghost celebrity apparently for being a halfa?? ok. thats interesting to know

-the DENTIST BEING EXCITED ABOUT THE COTTON CANDY FLOOD IS THE FUNNIEST THING SO FAR.

-I LOOOVE the trope of 'wishes gone wrong'. not crazy about the stereotypical genie, or the use of the dreamcatcher looking design. (also, I KNOW theyre scientists but the way theyre handling a cold...are the fentons ANTIVAX)

-the genie. she. whitewished paulina. JKASDFHKJ. (the ghost literally just being hello kitty???? im dying) 'why do i feel that im special and wonderful? because I AM! <3' paulina ilu self worth queen. felt bad for her also getting possessed by (2) boys later who were arguing INSIDE HER. WTF.

-imagine being the guy trapped in his now flying car. he thought danny and tucker were HALUCINATIONS. imagine being trapped in a flying car with two, what you think are imaginary arguing 14 year olds convinced ur gonna die. i WOULD say this dude is gonna need so much therapy, but he seemed totally fine and excited when they landed (I would be happy too if a chicken was on my head. chickens rule) stoner rights

-sam's bat slippers??? iconic. SO cute.

-I think desiree's backstory is so :( do all ghosts have messed up sad backstories?? poindexter's was sad too...cannot imagine box ghost has any kind of fucked up backstory. but what if. his mom got pushed off cliffs by boxes...........a la cruella... anyway her 'no man may lay a hand on me' iconic. ilu

-I know danny has no concept of how much bras cost but my god dont attack tucker with some girls bra. those are so expensive.

-its really. well its not a GOOD THING he went into the portal and got fucked up, but its good danny was the one to do it rather than sam or tucker. because even tho he was being influenced by desiree and kept getting more malicious and it prob wasnt 100% him...he sucked as a ghost like most the people he 'pranked' were innocent ppl just Chillin and he didnt want to help anyone at all. I think danny is the most responsible out of them but also, hes 14 and shouldnt HAVE to feel obligated to fight every ghost. hes a good kid and wants to, but I also feel like he feels like...responsible for the portal turning on?? because his parents did give it up,, but it was an accident and not his fault (if anything, why was the on switch on the inside. why was it that easy. why was there no safety measures. that seems like smth OSHA needs to hear about). like thats my son. hes a good boy. and hes never done anything wrong in his life, ever. if anyone hurts him im killing everyone in this room and then myself. etc.

-danny's curfew is 10PM????? DUDE. when I was 14...shit I couldn't be out that late, I had to be back at like, 8 at the latest, and my parents had to know exactly where and who I was going with, AND i had to call/text them regularly...is this a case of my parents being overbearing, or the fentons sucking??? the only time i could EVER be out that late was if I was at an overnight sleepover or smth...

-the vultures have lil fezes. why do they have fezes...theyre so fuckin funny 'ask him for directions' 'I KNOW WHERE IM GOING' these ghost vultures are my new grandpas. pick them up, put them in the adopt box.

-'I wonder why those guys were trying to waste dad!' THEYRE GHOSTS. YOUR DAD HUNTS GHOSTS. why is that not a conclusion you'd immediately jump to??

-*jazz voice, clearly disgusted* WISCONSIN???

-mrs fenton with the lab coat and leg warmers and PERM. YESSS STYLISH.

-was going to say 'ew billionaire' @vlad but. super valid he used his powers to assumedly steal and cheat to get that money, thats how all billionaires do it! but ew hes a SIMP. and spending your billions on FOOTBALL STUFF?? you are Not Valid overall. I DO respect the fact you have a castle instead of a mansion. in wisconsin. if youre going to be stupidly rich might as well go all out, torches on the wall and all. I DO like his ghost form's little kitty ears. catman. and his cape! every design can benefit from a cape. and how different his forms look, like danny looks the EXACT SAME IN BOTH FORMS ASIDE FROM COLOR CHANGES. vlad's is like,, I could believe they were different people!! also I love the drama. but dude you are fighting a 14 year old. lame. also he was like, telling danny he wanted his mom and him and like, wanted him to renounce his dad?? WHAT ABOUT JAZZ?? bitch. those r MY kids and they are both important and special. I do agree they need better parents but thats not u sir <3

-I thought vlad's 'little badger' nickname for danny came from the football mascot of the packers, but google says they have NO MASCOT?? so now I'm like?? is it because his hair is sometimes black and sometimes white?? I hate to give him props but thats a PERFECT NICKNAME. theyre also tiny and vicious!

-why did I get so excited that Skulker is back!! its been like. 2-3 eps LMAO. AND THE DAIRY KING. ICONIC I LOVE HIM. hes the nicest guy ever :) more nice ghosts please. danny cannot be fighting alone everytime with no ghost buds like every ghost being hostile sucks :(

-mr. fenton knew vlad was controlling him, but a few episodes ago he had no clue danny was doing the same thing...is it something about how malicious the ghost is?? he just seemed to think his memory had gaps the first time, this time he was INSTANTLY LIKE 'GHOST'. then again in this ep when danny did it again he was just slightly confused but not immediately freaking out like he did with vlad possessing him!!

-'my parents will accept ME NO MATTER WHAT' so. so why haven't you come out to them yet, danny?? if you really think that?? if theres no harm, and you're sure??? if vlad is a real problem, wouldnt that make dealing with him easier, to expose him???? SO WHY HAVENT YOU COME OUT YET?? COULD IT BE,, MAYBE YOU HAVE DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER YOUR PARENTS ACTUALLY WILL ACCEPT YOU??? 🤔 ... 🏳‍🌈 I get why people say He Is Trans. I totally totally get u danny.

-sorta unrelated, but it just occurred to me in one of these eps they go to casper HIGH not casper middle school??? theyre 14?? dont highschools usually do ages 15-18? (I didnt go to hs so I might be wrong, if I am ignore this...) freshmen are usually 14-15, could just be a case of them not turning 15 yet but they will sometime in the school year (I say they because tucker said he was 14 too)? I know the show has 3 seasons, so by the end of it will they be older? thatd be neat but usually cartoon characters stay the same age...I love shows where you can see the characters age and grow up, though...three seasons seems like a long time to spend on like, 1 year...

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#5

bucky stans have truly ruined the sambucky fandom. the fics are trash because it's all "uwu hurt bucky whump white man tears" with no character development and sam being pigeonholed into a constant caretaker role as if that his only trait and being runner up to steve's ghost. the tfatws meta is garbage and mostly racist. so many of these folks managed to have empathy for everyone BUT sam. some of you have already said this but it's worth repeating: pre-tfatws was really peak sambucky hours. except for a handful of writers and sam-centric creators, the rest is the pits now honestly

180 notes • Posted 2021-10-05 23:09:16 GMT

#4

at this point, if you cannot see bucky as anything but a victim and sam as anything but an emotional mule, I'm gonna need you to keep your meta in the drafts until you've got the range, because right now you don't. bucky was absolutely horrible to sam. he was mean, catty, and honestly downright hateful sometimes. sam was endlessly supportive and patient with a man who caught an attitude with him when he tried to talk about his dead aunt. lmfao if sam had done that to bucky we would never hear the end of it!!!! but since it was the other way around literally no one ever mentions how unnecessarily nasty that was. that's why bucky's apology (which was NOT enough tbh) was important. because we watched this man treat someone who genuinely cared about his wellbeing (reaching out even though he'd been ghosted) like an emotional punching bag and THAT WAS NOT FAIR.

sam has his own problems he was dealing with--familial, financial, emotional--and none of those are ever discussed beyond brief moments (yes I know this is due to terrible writing) but it would be nice if some of you could take a a day off from making bucky a perpetual victim and like, acknowledge that, maybe????

184 notes • Posted 2021-07-13 12:35:20 GMT

#3

and you know what fandom did the same thing with bucky and tony that they're doing with john--every bad decision and shitty behavior boils down to "because ptsd" and like. okay. white men can be as violent as they please and everyone will say "ptsd" but sam doesn't move his seat up and cracks jokes on bucky and it's never "well this man tried to kill sam multiple times, maybe it's how he copes" it's "he's a cruel, terrible human being." because black characters just like black people are not human to many of you and if we're not wholly good then we're wholly evil and we see this in the way black characters can't even sneeze wrong without mobs writing posts on how they're terrible and cruel lmfao. I would say touch grass but mother earth deserves better tbh.

189 notes • Posted 2021-07-11 18:41:13 GMT

#2

there is a particularly gross account on here that claims anyone pushing against caretaker sam is ableist which I find interesting because quite a few of us on here who have been complaining about it are black, disabled and/or nuerodivergent fans (hello there 👋🏾). it's almost like they forget we exist the same way they do whenever the topic of race intersecting with disability/nuerodivergence comes up. shocking, I know.

literally no one is saying to stop writing sam as caring, compassionate and empathetic, we have been asking you mealy mouthed liars to write him as a character with agency, a character with his own problems, his own desires and his own motivations and not just a magical negro catering to the needs of some "uwu sad white boy" who happily plays second fiddle to steve's ghosts. we are asking you to show that love is a two way street (it always has been but that seems to confuse yall when one half of the ship is a black character). at this point you people KNOW what you are doing and have no intentions or stopping and will instead continue engaging in bad faith arguments instead of just admitting maybe you should reconsider why you always characterize the ship in such a toxic, unhealthy, one sided way and why you can't imagine black characters existing outside of their servitude to whiteness but yall not ready for that conversation lmao.

213 notes • Posted 2021-06-11 02:17:23 GMT

#1

finding a sambucky fic on ao3 without past st*cky feels like hitting the damn lottery these days smh

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new age au gives me so much serotonin actually i think its v v neat so if its not too much trouble gayhaps some Things abt them?-Spark Anon

srkjthrkjthjtk y’all just like a bunch of idiots doing stupid shit and thats iconic of you

Luz, out of the blue: are you aware you technically committed a federal offence when you accidentally kidnapped me? Eda, without missing a beat: wouldn’t be the first time

once a kid flagged down Luz when she was casually hanging on a rooftop and asked if Luz could somehow manage to cancel the school for the day since they forgot to do some homework that was a BIG part of their grade and just needed one day to finish it. Luz, despite being a literal principal and could Really piss off some people in the town, agreed. she proceeded to get a SHIT ton of snow glyphs and activate them all within the school, around the school, and added a couple ice spires for good measure. school was cancelled. the school principal now wants her head on a spike. it was worth it.

speaking of the principal (who no, is not Luz’s old principal, this guys someone totally oblivious n new to town), he and Luz’s rivalry is PEAK comedy. hes So Obsessed w her facing justice bc now students will go to her to cancel school (granted she doesn’t do it ALL the time, but if u like, give her a snack, shes in) and its War. only Luz don’t take it seriously and takes joy out of being Multiple thorns in his side. she once sat in his office chair w her hands folded and her feet on the desk with the smirking cat face. the principal was LIVID when he showed up at school n Luz was sitting there with such a Knowing Face. she broke almost everything in there on her way out. but MAN she couldn’t have been more smug when she was hanging out in the principals office in handcuffs that he resorted to keeping around (despite the fact she could easily break them) and telling him, casually “yeah im also a principal lol.” he absolutely Refused to believe that someone like Her could be a principal of a school. Luz was 100% ready to take him to the Boiling Isles just to rub it in his face but decided it would be WAY funnier for him to insist she wasn’t a principal only for it to actually be revealed at some later date when hes in too deep. she has also shown up in the school/office and made some whack polices or announcements under the guise of “I’m also a principal I’m legally allowed to do this” which probably isn’t true but nobody wants to (or is brave enough) to argue with her. seriously I could go ON about Luz’s rivalry with the principal. 

The town was pretty much convinced Luz was some harmless bastard who just liked causing trouble (same with everyone else in the owl fam tbh) for a decent while. when I say some weren’t brave enough or ‘intimidated’ by Luz, I meant that they know DAMN well Luz could take petty, annoying revenge on them and most people don’t want to deal with the inconvenience.  I REALLY want to figure out a reason Luz would be ready to KILL that would make the townspeople go “oh. so she could literally level this entire town if she wanted. fun” but I can’t think of shit so I leave y’all w the image of Luz w the Serious Face ready to Kick Ass, Glowy Eyes, and multiple Nervous townsfolk.

Barcus only shows up to grab something from the human realm and then leave again. nobody even realized he wasn’t just a dog someone dressed up until they caught one of the owl fam talking to him and realized oh, the dog is Actually Sentient. What The Fuck

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Saw one of your posts and you said that you disagree with fandom about Padme and Leia and while I can make out how you see Padme differently than most do (and for good reason) I never got that sense for Leia in your posts? What about Leia do you not agree on with others on this site? (genuinely curious please don't take this the wrong way)

@agents-of-fangirling So, this is actually a great question, and I always love an excuse to talk about Leia Organa Solo (I do tend to babble about her a bit). Thanks for asking and giving me an excuse to babble!

I think the fandom at large, and particularly those who have never ventured into the books, tend to see Leia as The Perfect Female Protagonist. She is sassy, strong willed, able to jump in and fight when needed, smart-mouthed, intelligent, and an excellent leader. She leads a rebellion and gets the man, and managed to save him in the process. She proves that women can do everything, right? Right?

If you've only seen the movies, that might be true. Leia does seem like she can do it all. She can have her cake and eat it too. And then you might find out she went on to have kids and become the leader of the New Republic and became a Jedi and it's all HOT DOG! This is a Win for Women! Look at this woman who can be a wife, a mother, a politician, a leader of a free galaxy and a member of an ancient religion, all while looking fabulous. Oh, and she is Anakin Skywalker's daughter, so she is sassy, fierce, strong, and super hot-headed. The Perfect Woman, yes? (Disney actually even has her becoming an X-Wing pilot, bc why not, right??)

Except, that is very, very much NOT Leia. The thing is, Leia is kind of a remarkable leader. She was raised to be one--it's what her father created her to be. Bail Organa raised a daughter on the idea that to Serve is life's ultimate goal--to give yourself in the service of something greater. He raised her to be calm, controlled, intelligent, articulate. He raised her to take the anger and rage and fear and to channel into something productive, because those things can all guide you to a Purpose. Duty, before everything.

Marrying Han Solo is perhaps the only selfish thing Leia ever does in her life. In fact, it is perhaps the most selfish thing she does, and she nearly doesn't. But she does, and then she gives him children. And I do mean that. Leia loves her children, but she in no way had children for herself. She had them for her husband, because he wanted to be a father, and for the galaxy, because the galaxy needed Jedi, and Leia could give them that. The blood of Darth Vader could give the galaxy the Jedi it needed, and so she gives her blood to the galaxy.

Leia is a terrible mother. She spends very little to no time with the children, mostly because she has no idea how to relate to Jedi children but also because she is busy. She is running a galaxy, and that is no small thing. Her children learn quickly to turn to their father or their uncle or each other, because Leia just doesn't have time. She gives her children to the galaxy the moment they are born--she lets them go. And this isn't because she doesn't love them, but I think Leia knows they are not hers. They can never be hers. And she can never really give them what they need. When Anakin dies, she feels it, she does. She's destroyed--but only for a moment. An instant of blinding, overwhelming, soul crushing that she can't ignore, and then she uses it to rally her forces to defend their world.

Leia is also kind of a terrible wife. She loves her husband, she does. I'd argue the Leia loves Han more than anyone, but she also kind of resents him for it. She resents her dependence on him, resents her need for him, resents him for being the kind of person who can make her ignore her duty. She adores him, but she also doesn't really have time for him, much like her children. And because Leia's life is built around service, she also doesn't really understand him. When Han gets tired after years of battle and leadership, it makes her mad. Because you don't just give up something you are capable of doing.

Leia is also, and this one is very, very important, NOT a Jedi. Canonically. She does have a lightsaber and limited use of the Force, but she is not, and never becomes a Jedi. In fact, other than using it for basic intuition, she never really wants to use the Force at all. Because the Force is Vader, the Force is Palpatine. She understands the need for it, certainly. She understands it's power. She loves her brother in spite of it. But she also will never love it, never give in to it, never surrender to it in the way you'd need to in order to truly use it. Leia holds her control in an iron grip, and she will never, ever give that up.

Leia is everything Padme Amidala should have been, and Leia saves a galaxy. Twice. Leia creates a future Padme would have destroyed. But in order to do that, Leia's selflessness makes her sort of a terrible person. She is all the things the I mentioned (wife, mother, leader etc) but she can't be ALL of them. She can't. No one can. And so where she succeeds she also fails, where she is strong there is weakness. It's also worth noting that Leia is pretty much only sassy and smart-mouthed with Han, so it's hardly a leading aspect of her personality--he's just really, really good at pissing her off.

In short, Leia often gets boiled down to what I think is a shallow, fan created fantasy of the type of woman they want Leia to be, but not the person she actually is. My reading of Leia also isn't just my interpretation--it's literally the entirety of Bantam and Del-Rey backing me up. In fact, reading Leia in the novels pre-Disney, I'm not sure how anyone would get another interpretation.

Tbh, it's why I love her. Because she is perfect in her imperfections, and I adore her for that.

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