#liveblogging life

[bloodofthepen]

Just saw Dune (2021) for the first time and feeling decidedly Not Normal about it.

#not me actually considering reading it #liveblogging life

[queenerdloser]

I PASSED!!!! MY DRIVING TEST!!!!!!!!

#liveblogging life #i think there instructor felt sorry for me tho lol #it was VERY quick like 10m??? #but i only got points knocked off bc at one intersection i didn't see a car coming until late #i stopped i time but i had pulled over the white line whoops #i thought for sure i failed bc i thought my turns were too jerky and stuff #SO relieved omfg i really didn't want to have to take it again

[beththebubbly]

#finally seeing the kiss on a big ole screen #bucktommy #liveblogging life

[indexcard]

just experienced my first ever earthquake !!!

#liveblogging life

[sweetdreamspootypie]

Wish I had read more historical literature stuff. I need some etiquette scripts.

I slept from about 04:45 to 07:30

So about 2 hours

Want some quiet time and watch Netflix while I eat breakfast before I do big socializing

But the thing is we are here specifically to have quality time with my grandmother

And the kitchen is the core place people spend time here

So can't exactly just sit on my phone

I don't think there is actually a polite way to not want to socialise yet

Also don't know if it's socially acceptable to want to just have a day to wander around and explore by myself, when we haven't done 'enough' bonding yet

But at some point I'm going to have to? Don't need my dad to say whether it's the plan or not

I'm just going to have to get up regardless

how do people live with their families

Idk. Just that conflict of interests between feeling like I'm supposed to 'be here' for Dadi Vs I need to do my own thing and explore. just here as a tourist Vs here as a helper.

I think also doesn't help that because the normal family home is rural, I'm accustomed to feeling like if I'm at a family home then I can't leave

But there's a bus stop right outside here.

#Liveblogging life #Maybe I should be sending this to you as a message #But I know you'll read it so effectively the same? #11am. Hungry. Is it an ED relapse to be squicky about eating in front of other people? #Being hungry makes it worse #It's been 16 hours since dinner #But I'm gunna get judged for eating too much regardless #Maybe it's more an external environment relapse #More than an internal thing #But we're here for a month so I'm concerned about it leaving a mark #I'm venting a lot #There has been good things #It's been great #But yeah fundamental discomforts still need venting / processing / acknowledging #I am not accustomedmto living with people any more #Or specifically my dad #He's been fine #But obviously there are just specific 'minor' things that are just major sources of friction even when things are going fine #My life #My posts

[branches-in-a-flood]

Therapy was a fucking treat today.

CW: mental health, vague suicidal discussion?

Asked what I see as my ideal existence, as grandiose and silly or as mundane as I want. I froze and couldn't come up with a single thing. Couldn't even say "it doesn't matter, I just want to be happy and want to live again." Because that would be admitting that I'm not sure I currently want to. Which would mean we have to talk about that.

Depression is fucking boring. And existential boredom is suffocating.

#flood's thoughts #liveblogging life #screaming into the void #cw: mental health #not expected to read

[unionize-aromantically]

oh it didn't post apperantly, but I walked into a door this morning

#I also later walked into some folded cardboard boxes in a shopping cart but yeah #1000symmetry.txt #personal #liveblogging life #i walk into things sometimes #txt

[myrandomscribbling]

I vacuumed badly, but I did vacuum.

#liveblogging life

[bloodofthepen]

I will not take off my shoes. Taking off my shoes is the mind-killer. Taking off my shoes before tasks are complete is the little death that stops momentum. I will keep my shoes on and allow the perceived motivation to flow through me.

#liveblogging life #meme

[queenerdloser]

i know i've made this post before but it regularly irritates me that people are Right about how a clean space effects your mental stability. fucking hate that i always feel better about myself once my apartment is clean. what's next? exercise that actually improves my mood? fuck off.

#liveblogging life #im also mad that showers consistently make me feel more human. what the fuck is that. #in other news i cleaned my apartment (mostly) for the first time in like... two months? lol #and it's like huh wow a space that smells nice & has clean floors and isn't crowded with garbage #somehow DOES make me feel way better. wild. #i'm hoping i can ride the motivation to do some actual deep cleaning #bc my bathroom is very gross and needs desperately to be scrubbed to death #and i should probably clean my oven..... #also if i can get the motivation. would love to move my bookcases and vacuum behind them. but the EFFORT.

[beththebubbly]

halfway to 1k boops given 💪🏻

#liveblogging life #boop

[indexcard]

it's been about a year now since i got unceremoniously dropped from a whole friendship group with no explanation... or i guess i was conspicuously excluded from an occasion and had to suffer through seeing five other people posting about it on instagram... to this day i don't know what happened or why i was deemed unworthy, but what i do know is that i reached out to my closest friend in the group to ask about it and because i made an active effort to ask, even though it felt like pulling teeth, i am still friends with that one person (though we don't see each other super regularly), and as for the rest of that group i don't really miss them at all. but it really made me think about what i want from irl friendship and how i can make more of an effort, and in general i've done that, but there's no real replacement for a group of people who regularly throw dinner parties, who take your dietary needs into account as though it's nothing; and even though i only had that group for a year at most i still feel its loss acutely - not because i don't have fulfilling friendships, my friendships are more fulfilling than ever - but because i don't have any friends who enjoy dinner parties. no real point to this post except i keep saying i'll try to make something happen and then i never do... i suspect that if i were the one to make the effort to pull people together for a dinner, it would actually happen, except that my closest friend and her partner are about to leave town and that's about 50% of my social circle so ?? LOL

#liveblogging life #i never got the chance to host before that group dropped me LOL #where is the justice in this world for born hostesses with the mostest #and/or yiddishemamas in training

[astronomical-bagel]

HELP THE WAY THE GLASSES ARE POSITIONED MAKES IT LOOK LIKE THEYRE OGLING HIM

#is. is ogling the right word?? #grian #joel smallishbeans #gtws #scarian #limited life #this is martyns pov btw! somewere around 17:35 #astro liveblogs

[branches-in-a-flood]

Just finished Saltburn and I -

That was amazing?

Also how is the bathtub scene what people were talking about? Did. They not finish the film?

#my day has fallen apart much like my life in general #all i wanted to do was bake #but i ran out of butter #so i decided to watch a movie #OH BOY #flood's thoughts #liveblogging life