#lmao I'm gonna go home and immediately just use the same fucking straw

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Episode 6: “I'm an asshole. I've accepted it.” - Jess

After the divisive double tribal, the two tribes went into their final premerge challenge.... and everyone had so much fun! Within the ‘Whodunnesia’ story, it was revealed that the final twelve had all made jury and would all play a role in determining the winner.

After both tribes struggled, nuObor ultimately pulled out a victory, securing Leigh/Lorelei/Chris O/Chris S/Matt/Owen all made the merge. In a first for the season, two newbies were sent over as an infiltrator pair, with Leigh/Chris O attending the Cahaya tribal.

On Cahaya, the returnees all had the intention to set themselves up with connections beyond OG Cahaya for the merge. Given that Trent has pretty effectively ingratiated himself with the returnees, his name remained largely out of contention - but Anabel, Michael, Isaac & briefly Olivia were all thrown out during the day.

In the lead-up towards tribal, it was seemingly becoming clear that the returnees were to turn inwards - Olivia threw out Michael, Jess considered blindsiding Olivia having heard of her idol, and Isaac’s name consistently seemed... out there.

As tribal drew near, Isaac became the seeming consensus vote, and while Olivia panicked and played her idol at tribal, Isaac was sent out unanimously, in an UGLY birthday robbery, becoming the final premerger and the first member of the jury.

LORELEI

Oh emmm jaayyyy!!! Wheww!!! I was lit rally shaking during the vote. TREMBLING. I love Foxx so much, he's so funny and smart, personally, he wasn't my first option to vote out but it was either him or me. Im so glad they kept me, I really hope that either Chris o or Leigh make it to the end, they worked hard to keep me. Im so grateful to them.

OLIVIA

FOXX?! MY BABY FOXX?! WHAT THE FUCK OWEN? I stopped trusting stoner but Owen?!

TRENT

Well what a wild round indeed. I went in thinking I could flip Jess into voting a returnee out. I learned last night she was not leaning that way. So I had to pivot. I didn’t want to take out a newbie but I also knew I couldn’t fight too much and risk the target on my back. But I also knew I had to keep anabel safe. So I needed to smoothly convince them to go after Dylan and not anabel. So I started with Olivia and she luckily talked to the rest. I’m honestly feeling in an ok spot. I know Olivia likes me. Jess and I are super close. Same with anabel. Michael and I are having great conversations and Isaac is also on the tribe. I learned from Jess that Michael wants to create an alliance soon but he hasn’t told me himself so I gotta get it out of him. Hopefully we don’t have to go to tribal any time soon but if so I think I’ll be in an ok spot. 

ANABEL

anabel?? fucking up a challenge?? what else is new!!

OLIVIA

https://youtu.be/ID5ie6fgj0A Me @ everyone/thing in this game except Isaac, Jess, Michael, and Matt We really should make a 5some at merge

Can’t blame Ali because I 100% have and will go overboard on fun challenges like that. 

I’m praying the other tribe loses because I really can’t afford to go to tribal right now. Trent messaged me and said that none of the three of us who competed (me, him, anabel) should go home because we all did our best which is honestly true! But it’s unfortunate because what’s the alternative? ANOTHER veteran? With Matt in a precarious position, Owen as an unknown, stoner having lost my trust, I’m not sure I can take out a veteran right now as I’m down on allies with foxx gone. Who would I take out anyways? Jess or Isaac? Hell no they’re my number ones! Michael? Maybe but honestly I think we have a good repertoire and I wouldn’t wanna lose that. Also the hosts sorta leaked the fact that jury has begun by making a story all about “the prejurors”. 

Jess said it’s gonna become nuobor vs nucahaya and goddamn it I didn’t want it to be true but it probably is. I pray to god Matt doesn’t turn to the dark side (against me) because I love him tbh like we get along well. I thought the same was true with Owen and the Osquared alliance but now I’m unsure. Watching Obor tribal tonight it was clearly owen’s plan imo. He seemed so nervous on camera and stoner was poker face plus he was absent most of the time like he said and Owen was more active. Lorelei, Chris o, and Leigh never talked to me so I didn’t really talk to them so they’re on my hit list now. And with the veterans down a number, anabel and Trent could easily go over with those three and Owen and stoner and pick us off which is terrifying. Luckily, I think I’ve formed a decent alliance with Trent and after last tribal I trust him. Except now, ending this like it began, he wants to keep anabel in the game of course which I just can’t do  if we lose so please for the love of god let us win and let a fucking obor newbie go home or let stoner leave and keep Matt safe. 

5/19. Smh.

JESS

So I'm writting this at 3am so please bare with me... Michael approached me today about forming a 6 person alliance consisting of myself, Trent, Anabel, Leigh and possibly Matt oh and obviously Michael. We both kind of knew this whole newbies .vs. Vets thing wasn't going to last and we wanted to prepare for battle.. BUT APPARENTLY WE AREN'T THE ONLY ONES THINKING ABOUT THAT.. Fucking Owen and Stoner. I had a feeling Owen was up to something when he basically dropped the big fat hint that Foxx was getting parglaoid and how the newbies probably want to keep around one of their own. I get it. They want to cover their tracks and lock down some newbies and I think they locked down the two smartest so good on them. I'm kind of glad they did this. It forms cracks in the vets which gives me cracks in relationships to work with. It also means the newbies won't be so sketched out by me and my allegiances to the vet if they think the vets are a mess. The real game just begun. Ps: I'm really sad Foxx is gone.

MATT

Hello Hello!  So at some point between last night when immunity was awarded, and me leaving work at like 330....the target shifted from Anabel to Dylan real quick.  Like i didn't really have a problem with it, but like...why?  They were so hellbent on taking out Anabel because they thought she was a threat and bigger problem than Dylan.  We called for a little bit, and of course Jess wants to know what I think of Anabel's gameplay style.  AKA she wants me to say Anabel is a threat and a great player who we should eliminate...however I'm not going to do that.  Because her past gameplay literally does not matter in this game. Anyway, Dylan became the target because he was least active, probably the weakest on the tribe, etc.  Which is fine I guess.  I'm not going to make too much of a fuss bc it's not worth my time nor effort

Alright so after tribal council(s), Dylan and FOXX were voted out.......FOXX!!!!! Like what the fuuuuucccckkkkk.  When Ali told us that Dylan and Foxx were the ones voted out, i was speechless.  My first instinct was, "What the hell am I getting back into when i rejoin the tribe?!?!?!?"  I was nervous as heck.  Last thing I told Olivia and Jess was they still have majority if they want to do anything with that....aka I was inferring they should throw the next challenge, without actually saying "throw it".  But my nerves calmed down a bit when I heard the vote was 5-1-1(with a self vote). Immediately once i rejoined NuObor, i started fishing around for info. Stoner tells me Foxx put in work and was targeting Stoner and Lorelei.  Chris O didn't give much.  But then Owen and I called for a little bit and he spilled the tea.  Saying Foxx was messy and was indeed telling the newbies to vote Stoner, and the Vets to vote Lorelei.  Owen also tells me that early on in the game,, Foxx(i think) wanted to make a group of himself, Owen, Jess, Olivia, and Stoner but it never happened.  However, a group was made of Stoner, Foxx, Olivia and Jess.  (i think...we called last night and this is what i remember...god i should have made this last night while i remembered this all lmao.)  EITHER WAY, Foxx was seemed to be playing very hard, very fast and it caught up to him. It's a bit upsetting because Foxx was someone I wanted to work with, and it seemed as if we had similar thoughts on what we wanted to happen later on in the game.  But at least for right now, I appear to be in a safe position because i dont think Stoner or Owen want me gone.  Im trying to talk more with Chris and build that relationship because i think Chris is someone I can see myself working with longterm in this game.  Leigh and Lorelei are non-factors to me.  If i had it my way, Leigh is the next boot, but knowing my luck, Lorelei will bite the dust.  

So one thing i briefly mentioned in my host chat, is how i don't feel like I wanna work with the vets anymore lol.  Like they all seem fake and running down to Final 7 is cool and all but like.... i wanna win.  I said I felt like Malcolm in Caramoan.  I'm the new kid on the block.  I barely played in Kuwait and here I am in a newbie vs vet set-up.  Early on I felt like I did decent building connections and relationships. However as the game progressed, and the swap happened, and I'm getting to know people and better understand their games and motives, i really don't want to play with them longterm.  If I go down to Final 7 with the Vets like their "plan" is, I'm probably cut soon there after.  So I had the thought to team up with the newbies and try to flip the game on it's head.   As of right now the game sits at 7 vets and 5 newbies.  I'm assuming a newbie will die this round regardless of who goes to tribal.  And I am banking on on merge being at F11 and not F10.  Merging at F11 means that there will be four newbies left and hopefully they will be grasping for straws and latch onto me. That puts us at 6-5 meaning I need one more flip.  I would LOVE if I could convince Owen this is best for us.  Maybe even make an inner core of Owen, Myself, Chris O and one more.  So that way, he feels safe and wanting to go forward with it.  Because literally going to F7 with Vets and hoping for the best is dumb and stupid.  I want to play my game, not "Cahaya Vets till the end and then the game starts."  Fuck that.  I want to get the jump on the game and take control.  I dont care if people become angry with me, I have to do what I think is best for my game.  So hopefully, NuObor can win immunity and then NuCahaya gets Anabel out.  I feel like based on my talks with Trent, I can work better with him longterm.  Who goes home this round determines how i go about my gameplan for the later stages of the game.  But just know that this is MY time to shine.  This game is Mine for the taking and aint nobody gonna stop me

LEIGH

Yay, me and Chris get to be infiltrators!  I get to reconnect with Trent and Anabel!

Uh wow so these people over here are really direct.  When we had guests I was asking them about like where they work and how their day was going lmao. Over here they're like "So what happened at Tribal Council? Explain."  

LORELEI

I'm so happy that Chris, stoner and Owen were able to win this for us. I'm so relieved! Chris o and Leigh are the infiltrators for cahaya so I hope that they'll be able to vote out a returnee. I'm also glad that Owen and Chris didn't make a guess a fuss of sending two newbies to infiltrate! It's so nice to have a day off of worrying about being voted out.

ANABEL

that moment when my alliance is talking ab idol guesses and i have an idol and i have to pretend like i am too busy to search oof

OLIVIA

I told everyone I was in a lot of pain and I’d a long day and I needed to go to bed early which is all true. Now did I fall asleep early? No because insomnia, but I’ve been resting which is nice. I hope it doesn’t affect my standing in the group that I took tonight off essentially but I just couldn’t play if I tried. Oh well, I guess we’ll see how tomorrow goes

JESS

This vote is a mess. This game is a mess. I am a mess. I once again find myself in a weird voting situation which will force me to do some damage control afterwards. On one side I have the "Awesome Foursome" of myself, Anabel, Trent, and Michael. The other side I have the "Vets" which is myself, Michael, Isaac, Olivia.  Then there are these two infiltrators who probably want to see me gone. They have zero interest in trying to get to know me or work with me at this point. I'm not giving up hope and I will force them to love me. Either way we vote.. Michael and I are going to cause some waves so I'm NOT excited. I'm leaning towards keeping Anabel at this point because if I don't.. there's going to be more people mad at me and I want to have to do minimal damage control. She's also someone who will probably be messier along the way and that's one less body in front of me to get to the end. I need to somehow get Olivia in the loop though without exposing the plan for Isaac. I DON'T WANT ISAAC GONE but I have no choice right now. I feel terrible. I'm a horrible person. I should probably quit the community now and go hangout with Amanda Lynn on her secluded island. 

JESS (FOUR HOURS LATER)

So my game plan for this vote is simple. We need to vote out Isaac. I want to vote him out because as much as I love him.. sis ain't that active in this game. I need someone reliable to be on my side, to serve me some tea on my coldest days etc.. I just don't see Isaac being that person. Do I see Anabel being that person? NOT REALLY. BUT.... I need to keep Trent and Michael happy and they want to keep her. I need to show I'll put their interests before mine so they think they can control me 100%. I need to be that dumb bitch who they need is a number that will NEVER come after them... yada yada. As much as I'd WANT to keep Isaac. I can't make waves trying to keep Isaac in this game when the logic is against him. He's going to hate me after this. I'm going to be DONE in VL's after this so this is going to be fun.. I'm an asshole. I've accepted it. I refuse to blindside Olivia. It's not logical whatsoever. When it comes down to it.. we NEED Olivia. If the other tribe is tight (Which I think they are.. Owen wouldn't let himself go into merge without some solid numbers) we need the body count. So my plan is to create a 4 person chat between myself, Olivia, Michael, and Trent and "weigh some pros and cons". Before that though, Michael is going to plant seeds of doubts and Trent is going to act nervous. Hopefully that will cause Olivia's paranoia to peak out a bit and if the blame happens this vote at least it'll be on those two and not me. I'm good with that. Then I'll get one of them to create the 4 person chat where we "all" aka: them two voice their concerns about Isaac. We need to force her to see that Anabel is more of a solid number and Isaac may have been with the other side for the blindside Olivia was shook at.

OLIVIA

This is interesting. Trent, Jess, and I are the deciding factors in this vote. Trent wants Isaac, I want Michael, Jess wants anabel. I don’t want Isaac to leave. It may go that way

Do I tell Isaac I’ve heard his name?

LEIGH

No one's telling me what's going on here lmao I'm just gonna vote for Isaac if Chris agrees to it.

OWEN

SO FUCKING RELIEVED we won. Can’t remember if I made a confessional yet. I did a little damage control with Matt but no clue if he still trusts me. I wish stoner went over as infiltrator to  Lear the air with the others but.... he dropped the ball lmao. He’s so hit or miss as an ally but for now seems loyal. Having a good day tho yeehaw ready for whatever is next

OLIVIA

My face is hot, my stomach is in knots, I’m so anxious and flustered. I’ve never voted out my number one before I fucking hate everything. What if the infiltrators team up with Trent Isaac and anabel and get me out ahshvdjshaak AHHHHHH I’m having s full blown anxiety attack I’m NOT ok I wanna play my idol for myself but that’d be stupid I wanna DIE

Isaac just said he’s going into a full on depressive episode and it’s his birthday HOW CAN I VOTE HIM OUT WHAT THE HELL

I’m gonna pass out at tribal

LEIGH

I don't believe Michael and Jess don't know what they're doing. I also don't believe Isaac and Anabel are the targets.  I kind of think Trent is.  And Trent is unwilling to vote for anyone other than Isaac cuz I guess he's too scared to take a risk.  So in a way, I hope they are targeting Trent so he takes the fall instead of Anabel if Chris and I are right.

JESS

Holy fuck. I am spiralling hard. A LOT HAS HAPPENED. So I was in the middle of this vote. Then Olivia threw out Michael's name. I told Michael about it. Then Olivia told me she has an idol. Then I told Michael about it. Then I attempted to flip this vote on Olivia. Then Olivia messaged me saying she's scared it is her. THIS COULD VERY WELL BE MY LAST CONFESSIONAL. I love you all. Thank you for hosting me. It has been a time <3 BYEEEEEEEEEE 

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