#lmao so i am just going to do it in order

[moonshynecybin]

I was wondering if you could talk about Marc and his control freak tendencies cause I find them fascinating but I don’t know much about them. Has he always had them and they just amplified after Sepang or has he always had strong control freak tendencies and is it in a lot of different ways or just some particular situations.

the control freak stuff comes to me as like. MOST professional athletes at marc’s level i think tend to have SOMEEE sort of control freakism tendencies. not all, obviously, but to excel at that level you have to be obsessive, and most sports have some sort of random chance associated with them that is out of an athlete’s control— especially when you add other riders to the mix and ESPECIALLY in a sport as dangerous as motogp. there’s so much you CANT control that you white knuckle onto the things you can. this is also where you get superstition imo (marc’s little crossed fingers mistake banishment ritual), it allows you to create the illusion of more control in order to feel better about the lack of it that is the reality of the situation ya feel me

there’s also what marc is actually AFRAID of. as a #anxietygirl myself i can tell you that a bunch of my anxiety/phobias leap out in situations where there’s a bunch of x-factors that i can’t control or manage. marc is the same methinks. on a bike screaming around a track at 220mph? fine because HES the one driving. in the ocean? where you are just one speck amongst the vast unending soup? and there probably aren’t sharks that are going to bother you but there’s always that little niggling chance that if something happens there’s nothing you can do about it?? in a lot of ways he loses that control! and i bet that freaks him out a bit.

there’s also him self producing a documentary about himself. and literally giving feedbacks on the edit straight to camera in it like. i want people to know that i am a goofball that has fun :) which yeah he does and he is. but that is a craaaaazy thing to say/do lmao

#you also see this when they make f1 drivers do hot laps with coworkers and they’re in the passenger seat wigging out #they’re not scared of it when THEY do it but when they give up control it’s like AHHHHHH #motogp #callie speaks #asks #marc marquez #sometimes an rpf opinion is looking within yourself at your own issues. and bestowing them upon professional athletes.

[anonymouscreampuff]

sometimes you just gotta draw sad old men

ft marcy and the vampire king(who technically is an old man)

#fionna and cake #adventure time #ice king #simon petrikov #marceline the vampire queen #the vampire king #adventure time fanart #//been watching adventure time for technically the first time?? #honestly i just watched episodes whenever i could gdhfg (aka VERY out of order) #i do recall when Stakes and Islands came out though #god that was forever ago #anyway i started a few days ago and am now up to season 10 lmao #as of writing this im up to episode 4! noice! #anywho man i haven't drawn simon in forever #i still have really old doodles from when I first watched Simon and Marcy XD #somewhere at least;;;; #anywho thats enough tag rambling #im going back to watching the sad people show so I can fully enjoy fionna and cake XD

[third-king-of-salmonids]

SHE RATTLE ON MY BONE TILL I ARENA

#ANOTHER ABSOLUTE BANGER POST JOE YEAG #also also ik there’s stuff in the inbox I am!! going to be answering it!! i just gotta do a thing first <3 #also also also it’s less than 24 hours till side order so if im quiet for a short while that’s why lmao #splatoon #splatoon 3 #splatoon salmonid #salmon run #king salmonid #splatoon salmon run #splatoon megalodontia #splatoon 3 salmon run #salmonid

[oathkeeper-of-tarth]

Also I quit my job of what would in about a month or two have been 10 years, and perhaps now I will get to actually be a human being again.

#honestly? honestly? #last week i told the two (2) godawful egomaniac lab head Man In Academia bosses i quit and that we need to formalise it asap and i just #felt like a little feather about to float away on a breeze #maybe now i can do normal people things like eat and sleep and have a routine of some sort idk #i have been slowly losing it for at least 3-4 years now #i took a screenshot and last year i had no fewer than 14 fucking travel orders fulfilled #most of which consisted of like 12+ hour days on ships and docks #i'm just so tired man #not for reblogging obviously #i don't really wanna vent anymore or ponder them and the entire godforsaken institution but like #good riddance tbh #which is really really sad when you think about it! but here we are #it was just... no trace of future anywhere to be seen! entirely a Void!! #gonna post a beefy lesbian paladin real quick to push this post down lmao #but i felt like sharing because i know there's good and concerned people who follow me here and i both appreciate and miss you all #and lord knows some of you have been listening to me vent and whine for ages #am i going to miss some great people and the research community of my field? of course but also it was all just completely unsustainable

[fudgecake-charlie]

#i haven't been able to go through tumblr recently #i have a bunch of stuff ive needed to do and i haven't done any of it!! #i'm behind on secret life too :[ i saw pearl's episode last week but i haven't been able to watch any other POVs #or anything from session 2 which is sad #i don't wanna mute the tags so i'm just staying off the dash #but hopefully HOPEFULLY soon i get to have time where it's just me and i can just Draw #this weekend was nice but i am still doing a bunch of stuff #some good stuff too! my friends are lovely! but still stuff. and coursework. #gonna have to live like a hermit for the next while in order to have fun online and make fanart /silly #time to last minute work on my second group presentation project in two weeks! #delete later #the words of a fudgecake #[scheduled] #edit: after this was posted i broke up with my ex of almost a year lmao (its a good thing dw)

[mamawasatesttube]

just remembered how megfitz made tim think about how bernard is so much better than all the other relationships he'd "settled for" and was once again briefly consumed by rage. meghan you apologize to zoanne wilkins right the fuck now

#rimi talks #like also apologize to ari and steph and all but. i specifically am a zoanne wilkins stan blog until i die. so #i can't lie. this line alone made me dislike tim/ber significantly more than i did before reading it #and the rest of tdr did Not help with that. #protip: if you have to put down women in order to prop up your m/m ship i WILL hate that m/m ship out of spite immediately #especially when you do nothing to sell me on the ship other than going HEY THEYRE PERFECT BTW. THEYRE SO PERFECT TOGETHER. like... ok #can you tell me why they even like each other tho. (she cannot bc she doesnt know how to write a mediocre romance forget a compelling one) #god i really just. that comic was a trash fire. lord. the mentions of kon in it made the kill bill sirens go off in my head #anyways. its fine tdr isnt real it cant hurt me. but meghan does still owe my girls an apology lmao

[uncanny-tranny]

Crochet update: guess who has two thumbs and went through a skein he just bought in three hours and still isn't finished yet (totally not me)

#crochet #art #fiber art #this isn't even for my hoodie this is my filler project while i wait for my hoodie yarn to come back in stock #i thought i lost my crochet hook for a minute and almost died 😨 #this L/11 hook is being loved so much like. it's actually the only hook i've used besides the I/9 one i practiced with #there are only 2.75mm difference in their sized (5.25 vs 8.00) but WOW you can really feel the difference #this filler project is the cat blanket so why did my cat decide to lay NEXT TO THE BLANKET instead of on it 😭 #also the 'guess who has two thumbs and...' saying is just so funny to me #like. why do you need to specify you have two thumbs. what makes you special FOR having two thumbs #alright i'm going back to crocheting my hoodie because i still have one (1) skein right now that i was saving #if they don't have the colour i guess i'll just have to order it (i don't wanna) #actually i'm making up a swatch of different stitches to show my dad because i want to show him visually when i talk about crochet #and THEN i'll get back to my project #actually nvm i hate acrylic yarn i am SO MAD (it's not cooperating with me lmao)

[kurozu501]

I see you got Astolfo to 120! Congratulations!

Thanks! Your message made me realize id forgotten to post about it on here. After a long struggle with bond points i have finally perfected my paladin. He is level 120. His skills are 10/10/10. His append skills are 10/10/still need more servant coins for this last one but it doesn't matter bc its just a random bit of anti rider damage. He is Np5.

It's

Your Friends Astolfo.

#my boy can kill any non archer boss borrow him for anything ppl #class advantage is irrelevant when you are this strong #and yes even tho its just random anti rider damage i AM going to eventually unlock and max that last append skill #fate grand order #fgo #astolfo #gangler #this level grind took so much work tho theres no way im doing that again lmao #all my other faves can stay level 100 #unless they finally do a HF collab and give me 5 star actual sakura herself that's the only way id be dragged back to this grind

[buckttommy]

ummm

#this is about rgp's latest post. lol #like. ummm. ryan bestie please get a restraining order i am so serious my love #if you never take advice from a random stranger on the internet again #just please trust me on this one. lol. #he will physically harm you like 😭 anyways. i'm going back to sleep. i woke up to do my duolingo #checked his tagged and then immediately was like. ah. another escalation. how alarming. #ha. ha. anyways...... #goodnight lmao

[kiki-strike]

PTSD is so stupid saw a jar of biscoff cookie butter at the store and went ha that’s the brand they had in res. (Completely unaffected). Then went home and had a panic attack about it (????)

#first of all. how is a jar on a shelf that you didn’t even touch harming you at all??? #second of all. now that I know that chain Carrie’s bidcoff cookie butter I’m never going there again. let’s leave those worms in their can. #(sees a food) huh. cookie butter. (the ptsd gremlin cooking up a nice panic sequence for me) well probably staff are trailing you right now #and they just left that there on accident because obv they keep cookie butter with them. and they’re going to restrain and sedate you and to #you’ll wake up tubed xoxo #<- INSANE ITS A JAR OF BISCOFF COOKIE BUTTER CALM THE SHIT DOWN #I only slept an hour last night and didn’t sleep at all the night before so like that might have something to do with it but I feel like we’ #were gunning for day 3 here with the cookie induced paranoia #don’t buy belsomra guys belsomra is a ripoff that I’m pretty sure is just sugar pills #although I am abnormally resistant to pretty much every sleep med like iv ambien just makes me a bit lethargic the doctor who gave me it sai #said that was really weird and then ordered another piss test bc he thought I was on speed LMAO #nope just my brain. rotten. gone. #day 3 is usually when the insomnia hallucinations come out so like pray for me if you see this #though I did get an hour last night so maybe that counts

[minimoefoe]

kinda want to gif every single ballum moment in order (like I'm doing with 13's era rn) bc ben leaving has brought the fixation back and I'm missing them and it'll be a fun way to kill the time between now and when ben (hopefully😭) comes back bc it will defo take literal years for me to do

but first of all idk where to download soap eps and second of all idk how to be sure I've got EVERY moment without rewatching literally every episode from their meeting to now and..I don't wanna do that right now

#natchats #ballum #eastenders #and like #i AM currently watching from 2008 onwards #so its not necessarily the amount of watching #id have to do thats the problem #i just dont want to do that Now but i Do want to gif now #so its a dilemma #bc i wanna do ballum moments #but also ppl talking aboht them and stuff like that #not just ben and callum in scenes together yknow #IDK !!!!! #ALSO #im like.. #doing this now may be pointless? #like literally right at the end of ballum basically #idk how many ppl will be sticking around now that they're not in the show anymore #not that id be makong the gifs purely for interactions #but some would be nice #tho tbf ive made ftwd gif sets and barely anyone is into that usually and idrc #we'll see #EDIT #with watching from 2008 i was thinking of stopping at 2019ish bc i got back into the show around wedding week #so im like ive defo watched all this stuff and somewhat recently too #but i Could just continue watching so i can defo find every ballum moment #but that is gonna be a LONG time away bc ive got 11yrs of ee to watch before i get their lmao #i guess i dont necessarily have to do it all in the right order #bc its not as easy as it is with 13's era #somwthing about it being all in order is satisfying tho like the idea someone can go through the tag and see their whole story in order. UGH

[keeps-ache]

it's actually very mean that i can't have emojis of my ocs just on my computer. i just think it would be much more convenient for when i have to say the Guys are in my brain but i also have no words..

#just me hi #i'm thinkin #and i mean like standard emoji. mostly bc artstreet dms don't let you put up actual images so i have to resort to detailing actual thoughts #Hfbshfv #//anywho so whenever i'm outside by myself i always get the Strongest urge to just start walking and not stop forever hfvhs #i will just Go #no objective no location. but i will be Moving #i Would do that but in order to get a satisfying amount of distance between me and People i have to walk down the road and mm i am nervous #abt doin that fvhsbh #like country roads... i may not come home.... south virginiaaaa hfbvsfhbsv #plus everyone drives crazy out here. when we moved out here we almost got sideswiped by a funkin fedex truck over a little hill #and of Course it was a fedex truck man. we've Never had a near-accident with Any usps trucks hfbvshvs #oh and also the local mailman drives like a maniac too <3 almost had a head-on collision once which was. neat lmao #like maybe 20 feet from slamming into each other which Is Not Much when you're in a car bfh #/Also people just let their dogs run out wild n crazy and :( i don't think they're properly trained to be letting them do that Aha #rode my bike out once with my brother + two of the neighbor's dogs tried ta jump us it sucked #now we don't go past their driveway so we don't ride out very far #//also hey our driveway is Ridiculous ??? ik we've been living here for like 2 years i'm still not over it lmaoohvf #it's like a 40-45 degree angle this is just silly #and listen i'm barely figuring out how my legs even work again. do you think i'm having a good time up that hill because i'm nOT #though you know what it's fine ! not many people come up our drive bc geez why Would you lmao #except for that one lady that asked for directions and then miiight have gotten lost again immediately after leaving HH #//okay. yea anyway the p1nk space is really in my brain rn hbfhvs #really i don't think i've ever been so interested in a project before this is so cool lol :D #marveling at the fact that anything was able to keep my interest for longer than 5 months Hbsh #//anywhoodle do i'm gonna skedaddle #prolly gonna rerun a couple things in a seccy but ye :33

[chipped-chimera]

FOR THE TIRED PEOPLE: Some new research about Chronic + ADHD(inattentive) related fatigue, and BCAAs

[DISCLAIMER // I AM NOT A DOCTOR. I AM NOT A MEDICAL PRACTITIONER. I AM NOT A DIETICIAN. I'm just a big tired nerd with way too much time on my hands who likes science. I am however, sharing this because this could potentially help others and BCAAs are already safe for human consumption, widely used and easily accessible. If you are uncertain about adding BCAAs to your diet please talk to your doctor first. There are also some medications which interact negatively with BCAA's. Do your research. Also generally be careful about taking medical advice from the internet! ]

I was going to post about something else but I went down the rabbit hole of explaining this study I read and decided that no, this needed it's own thing or it's gonna be a mile long.

So in one of my usual weekly fatigue breakdowns where I was scraping the internet for any kind of information that might point out something I've SURELY missed to explain why I feel the way I do, I stumbled across this study published last year (2022) -

[ The relationship between central fatigue and Attention Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder of the inattentive type ]

The TL;DR on the paper - our previous assumptions about the tryptophan-serotonin system might be wrong (tryptophan being the precursor for a bunch of stuff, including melatonin which is the sleepy chemical - aka why people say drink warm milk before bed to help sleep, that's tryptophan) what was previously assumed was reducing tryptophan = bad because it could affect serotonin production.

Testing in rats (so grain of salt here) indicated that higher levels of tryptophan =/= higher levels of serotonin and when reducing the level of free tryptophan in the bloodstream it returned to baseline. High levels of tryptophan were associated with fatigue and inattention, and rats on a tryptophan deficient diet by contrast took longer to reach a state of exhaustion. I'm skipping over a bunch of stuff but basically - research is now pointing to both Chronic Fatigue and ADHD related fatigue being related to Central Nervous System Fatigue which up until now, has only really been associated with the fatigue athletes experience when exercising really hard (now just picture me doing jack shit and feeling like that every day. Yeah). I've only just stared to see bits and pieces pop up about this recently but nothing in relation to this tryptophan study.

Anyway, the thing about BCAAs: BCAAs (Branched Chain Amino Acids) are currently used to reduce the uptake of tryptophan in the brain for better performance in athletes, help with reduction of exercise fatigue (CNS fatigue) and muscle building. You can pretty easily find BCAA's added to protein-shakes or in it's own kind of supplement. It also occurs naturally in some foods (Beef, Chicken, Eggs, Lentils, Chickpeas, Brown Rice etc.) so it is absolutely safe to consume. It's also generally fairly affordable (especially compared to the lengthy process of treatment + medications that might not even work and you have to keep changing them, yes I am talking from personal experience).

Again, this is all very new and absolutely needs so much more research because up until now, no one has really been sure what causes Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, but tests have shown that those suffering CFS demonstrate similar activation of their muscles as fatigued athletes - as in they could activate them but not to their full capacity. This connection is only considered 'possible' and it might take a good few years before we can say anything with certainty.

But as an extremely tired bitch who is extremely tired of being extremely fucking tired, I am sharing this because it's easy to get, safe, and affordable and if you're like me you're about ready to try anything. And it's not another goddamn pill (I'm on 14 a day).

Also for the ADHDers specifically: protein rich diets are usually advised for us because it helps with the metabolism of stimulants, and can help with softening medication crashes when they wear off. So adding a protein shake with BCAAs to your morning routine might be a good idea. Or just any protein shake in general.

There can be side effects to taking BCAAs, but it is considered rare and this depends entirely on the person. Cross check existing medications, talk to your doc etc. if you are not 100% certain adding BCAAs to your diet is possible. Stay safe peeps.

#science #ADHD #Chronic Fatigue Syndrome #did I put enough disclaimers on this to say I am just sharing research #NOT A DOCTOR #DON'T TAKE MEDICAL ADVICE FROM THE INTERNET #or at least look at what you're being told and go do your own research #basically what this is lmao - my extensive research #disability #the fact they're starting to figure out Chronic Fatigue and ADHD fatigue is related to CNS fatigue is amazing #it means we might be getting closer to a solution #but also science is slow as hell #and well ... BCAAs are right there #idk it's worth a shot to me? #only thing I'm gonna be watching for is mood shit given the serotonin interaction but I'm also on TWO antidepressants including a SSRI #so haha good luck trying to reduce serotonin in MY brain #I'm getting my protein with BCAAs order today and was gonna talk about other diet shit but it was getting too long talkin about this study #Long Covid #could also be a group that might benefit from this given it's considered to be basically Chronic Fatigue or highly related #yeah I am a fucking nerd. my nerd level - goes and reads research papers WHILE DRUNK. yeah.

[correct-bangtannies]

I don't even like men and I'm somehow already a military wife, what goes on

PS. Don't open the tags unless you want a big ass wall of text of me rambling on your screen

#hit #im just honestly so glad that I've become a lot more chill with the whole being an army thing #in the sense that i used to be a lot more attached and hyped over everything #i do still get very hyped and i do still have an attachment to them n their work but y'know just more toned down #(i mean i remember the days of staying up all night to watch award shows knowing damn well they'd always perform last) #(mma 2018 was an emotional rollercoaster like i legit cried a little from the tiredness and being overwhelmed with the performance) #so im glad im a lot more calm about the enlistment news than what i would've been say three years ago before they started to #take longer breaks and eventually announce the hiatus this year #it's like they did it in purpose so that the fandom would grow a bit more used to it n im glad to see that a huge majority are very calm #many are sad ofc but its not being treated as some kind of horrific news #if anything ppl are coping with humor including me lmao #so idk im mostly just happy for them that they're taking their VERY well deserved break before doing their service #i just hope everything goes well and is decently peaceful (as peaceful as enlistment can be at least lol) for them once they're there #now why am i rambling in the tags? bc i need to put my thoughts in order but i don't wanna clog my blog with a long ass wall of text 💀 #I'm at least relieved to know that they already have a set plan of when they're going to go and return + BH is sure af gonna keep putting #out a lot of content that they've filmed over all these years #i mean run bts; documentaries; probably even music and ofc not all of them are gonna go at the exact same time #and ofc stuff related to the HYYH and Chakho #them being absent won't as hard for most hopefully #and hey 2 years aint nothing ive waited far longer for stuff to come out than that we'll be fine! #*cries in silksong and the YOI movie

[akkivee]

somewhere on this blog i pointed out that dice and kuukou have both said they’d die for their team (even if the vibe on their statements varied lol) and i think saburo’s equivalent of that would be requiem actually?? so now i’m once again wondering about the themes of self sacrifice between dice and kuukou lmao

#vee queued to fill the void #actually this is just me wondering about kuukou lol #like saburo’s requiem has him clearly saying he’s dying in order to better himself and that’s what his sacrifice meant to him #dice’s it comes down to betting it ALL for his posse and he’s said this in song iirc and in drama track #*shakes kuukou* WHERE IS YOURS COMING FROM??????? #ITS FAMILY YOU DO ANYTHING FOR FAMILY I GET THAT BUT WHY???????????????? #like i LOVE how fast kuukou attaches himself onto people the moment he decides they’re important to him!!!!!! i love that loyalty!!!!!!!! #it’s just always been wild to me that’s the lengths he’ll go for someone so soon into their relationship????? #ichiro silently sussing out kuukou in the unami chapter and the slow progression of their relationship is kinda the norm actually???? #even with ichiro’s trust issues lol???? #yet kuukou gets smacked around a little bit and decides he’ll go to hell and back with ichiro like???? #am i seeing a very weird brand of overly attached issues????? surely not lmao????

[majorplayer]

i moved to a new place 3 months ago and the best internet here is so bad (17mbps....without vpn enabled) that i can't reliably play MMOs, at least not ones like toontown servers since they fully kick you off the game the literal millisecond your connection gets funky in any way. i can actually play most roblox games as long as i'm ok with a lot of textures never loading and me rubberbanding a lot, but toontown is so triggerhappy about kicking you off that i just can't play it without fear of being reported for "maliciously alt+f4ing" or something. or worse, DCing with pace at 100 health. so i haven't fucking played clash in these 3 months. i gave it as long as i could to see if i could adjust to this shit ass internet but i have been so upset that i can't play clash that i'm about to get fucking starlink. like. clash is honest to god my #1 motivation for it. i want elon musk to sudoku as much as anyone else on this website but by god would starlink save my life. a couple of my neighbors have it and they get 100mbps. omfg. i can't even fathom what 50mbps would be like, much less 100. i had 200mbps at my childhood home that i just moved out of. life could be a dream. anyways so basically i'm spending almost my entire next paycheck on starlink because i want to play clash again without getting banned for constantly disconnecting

#sorry i needed to get this out somewhere because i have stoically kept quiet about my situation for the most part #i do log into clash every once in a while just to exist for a moment but i can't Do anything #lol when i first understood the internet situation i logged into clash and took note of how many friends my main has since i knew #i wouldn't be able to play anymore. the number has only gone down by 1 so shoutout to the real ones lmao. anyways #i'm just gonna have to live with the guilt of starlink. like honestly? i hate jeff bezos too but you HAVE to use amazon where i live now #like i'm sorry but the nearest grocery store is a 3-4 hour round trip away. ANY shopping is genuinely a Whole Day type of thing here #i wouldn't even go into town regularly Period if i didn't have prescriptions to pick up monthly at the pharmacy #out here you go cold foods shopping once a month and everything else you order online. and amazon actually delivers out here somehow #and you only go cold foods shopping if you don't want to pay for the only online service known to deliver cold foods and frozen meat here #i am honest to cog shocked that we even have one single ordinary internet service out here period. it's DSL but still #and 17mbps is faster than i would expect from it for how goddamn remote this place is #it has done the best it can for me but i need better. and unfortunately the only “better” is starlink #original