Lokabrenna Tarot - Major Arcana 01 - Vitki (The Magician)
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Another zine! Loki this time - part II to come mid-August when Lokabrenna rises in these here parts. Gaga is singing Monster in the background. Hungry for Him as always.
In honor of Sirius rising in my area today, I’ve been getting the pull more and more the past couple days to do something that scares me/something out of my comfort zone/something I wouldn’t normally do.
It’s not the typical offering I make, but I figure if I’m feeling the pull and it hasn’t gone away, today’s better than ever to take the plunge for Lokes on Lokabrenna 💚✨✨
When Odin goes missing on a regular basis, it is Loki who feels lost. His mother attempts to comfort him by teaching him a spell that will always guide her son home. But when part of Loki’s home is torn away, he attempts to bring it back himself, with fiery consequences.
It occurs to me that I haven't added links to Lokabrenna here. A prequel to Finnesang with a self-contained story. This one gets to have a living Frigga in it! Yaaaay! And yes, she does get POV, how can she not?
It should be finished in about 12 chapters...or so...look, it's planned out, I just rewrite a lot, okay? I'm even working on it now! Alright, alright, I'm going back to it, geez...
Times of greatest despair and greatest loss can offer substantial shifts in perspective and moments of clarity...and in time... healing. While grieving a loss of any kind cannot be rushed, moving forward is part of the healing process, even though at times, you may not feel ready. Note the blood in the water in the Eight of Cups card. There is still quite a bit of healing to do, and yet, He moves forward.
Thank you for reading/watching. This is a collective reading. Take only what resonates.
Been collecting stickers and sharing them with my daughter. I used to have a sticker book when I was about her age and would love to get new ones to put in the book, I’d play for it for hours on end. One thing you will find with working with Loki is they really help you connect with your inner child. I remember going through it before working with him not remembering who I was and not knowing what I like. He (they present as male for me) has helped me not only find myself, but heal my childhood trauma and help me reconnect with my inner child. Tonight I’m sitting outside and watching Lokabrenna (also named Sirus ⭐️) flicker and I just wanted to make an appreciation post for the deity that has helped me. Much love to you all 🫶💚🔥🐍 P.S remember to always keep your fire lit
I am jumping in on @elizatungusnakur ‘s brilliant Seven Days of Lokabrenna devotional blogging exercise. I like that it’s easier to manage than a full month, although my 7 posts may not be on consecutive days, and I love that it’ll be like playing tag with my mutuals. For me, living at Latitude 52(ish) above the equator, I am guesstimating that Sirius A & B pop above the horizon of the Canadian prairies around August 23rd this year (2022), although it may in fact be a couple of days earlier depending on the calculators’ accuracy. It’s much earlier for Mexico and the United States, and later for those parts of Europe north of the British Isles. I have no idea how Sirius moves through the sky for the Southern Hemisphere. But it’ll be like the blog version of a relay race as various Norse pagans who interact with Loki and his friends and family join in the fun. I like the mental image of us passing the baton to each other.
I also like the wide open format, that you’re not guided with or limited by daily prompts. At first, I thought I might do seven posts about the runes, or seven days of the devotional fibre art I am making using various techniques. But I think instead my topic may vary from day to day.
Today’s topic: pagan monasticism.
Mutuals who are on Discord with me (heyyy gang) know this topic has been much on my mind lately; a few of us have read the essay collection edited by Janet Munin, we discussed it in our book club, and two of us are currently in John Beckett’s course on the topic. (Those essays vary in quality but all provide food for thought on what a devotional polytheist’s practice could be. I’d recommend the course for anyone who processes information through audiovisuals better, or who hopes to plug into a community of like-minded people, but so far it hasn’t offered many ideas beyond the book.) For the past couple of months I have been writing and refining my plans for how my version of inclusive norse heathen monasticism might work in practical terms. When I checked in with Loki by divination, he was insistent that this should be my first topic.
Many modern Catholic and Orthodox monasteries in North America have downsized from large campuses to a single house shared by a handful of monks or nuns, not so different to how the (fascinating) medieval Beguines lived. That downsizing made me think about how a pagan monk or nun - or a group of two or three - could convert a typical urban or suburban home into a live/work space, and then combine their devotional/contemplative work as an artist or writer with teaching workshops or facilitating retreats on their areas of expertise. I'm not yet at a life stage or level of expertise where I can do this myself, being married with teen kids and elderly parents and in-laws who could need caregivers, but my husband and I will likely in the next decade or so be empty-nesters with spare bedrooms, so I plan to work toward that goal and level of expertise.
This idea seems like an easy-to-reproduce and versatile way to create small-scale pagan sanctuaries, so I am sharing it here. Some of you may be able to adapt it to suit your own practices.
In my case, my suburban-retrofit mini-monastery will be Roasted Heart Fibre Arts Studio & Sanctuary, a contemplative space that offers a full suite of fibre artists’ tools, workshops on fibre arts (and related disciplines like seidr), and a stacked library of reference materials. The arts can help keep it going, and residencies could require the visiting artists to teach a workshop and/or create a body of work. Alternatively, visiting artists could be advanced students looking for mentorship in skills the permanent residents teach. The space could also be a community hub for events and daytime workshops. In my personal practice, I’d like to pair my textile art with work to mitigate the climate crisis’ effects (the focus of much of my volunteer work already), and to develop pagan monasticism and theology.
As an aspiring polytheist monastic, I strive to embody my deities’ values. I can live my life as an example, and I can be my deities’ hands in this realm, in addition to offering them my head and heart.
This, I think, is my answer to John Beckett's question, "What about monasticism calls to you?" I'm already a devotional polytheist and deity-partnered with an evolving lifetime vow, so using what abilities I have to help my pragmatic, opportunist, loving deities do work that needs doing, in service to communities of various types (local and nonlocal, human and other-than-human) — it feels like a logical next step to studying lore, runes, and seidr in my role as a vitki-trainee for my local kindred. It’ll allow me to continue to deepen my spiritual practice while integrating devotional textile art and fibre magic seamlessly into my artistic practice.
For accountability and mutual support I will share my to do list here:
1. Mundane before magical: I need to declutter my home and my life in preparation for this next phase, and years living in the same home with children means lots of accumulated stuff to sort and donate. I think I’ll take a Konmari approach to it, which will help me strengthen some animist thought patterns too. Knowing my long-term goal should make this process easier - but it’s an ongoing elephantine task to tackle one bite at a time.
2. Study and practice. I am in the process of getting certified as a textile arts instructor in my primary technique (hand-hooked rug making, like many textile arts, emerged from the Arts & Crafts movement with a guild-based training and mentorship model). I am also at beginner level in other techniques I want to incorporate into my artistic and devotional practices. I need to set aside a little time each day for handwork.
3. Study and contemplate and practice. My current focus is still the runes, but soon I will be finished version 1.3 of the rune card project and able to shift my focus to reading all the books and academic articles I have been collecting on seidr. I am also assisting my gothi with updating study circle notes, participating in a couple of local and online study circles, and reading books on lore. I need to set aside time each week for reading, writing. and integrating new (to me) information into my practice.
4. Prayer and meditation and connecting with Deity. Right now, almost three years into my path, the Gods are never far from my thoughts, and all my meals and daily activities are offered to Them in one way or another, but I don’t have a particularly disciplined day-to-day schedule — so I need to develop and gradually add to that. The beginning of my kids’ schoolyear seems like a good time to work on adding new habits. The seasonal rhythm of worship is already part of my practice, as I have from the outset tried to build a bioregional and garden-witchery version of a Nordic wheel of the year for myself, and I now have local community in addition to online community to do ritual with. But I would like to deepen that, too.
5. Developing a simple pagan monastic habit / wardrobe. I have experimented with slow fashion and wearing a capsule wardrobe previously, so as I declutter my closet I will be drawing on that experience (I recommend Project 3/33 to anyone wanting to give a capsule wardrobe a go.). I already have some ideas about this: modern, pragmatic, unisex, partially handmade from zero-waste sewing patterns, in natural fibres, with inspiration from the past. As an artist, the utility of workwear and artists’ smocks with deep pockets is appealing; this could be adapted from a medieval tunic, or the tunics already in my closet. As a protester, I am aware that sometimes you need to blend into a crowd in solidarity rather than stand out, so clothing reflecting that modern reality seems necessary, and I already live in t-shirts and jeans. For ritual, I am working on a modern version of a Skaldenhamn hood for cool days, and a hand-dyed linen duster coat of a type popular among textile artists but reminiscent of the Vendel-period klappenrock riding coat.
If you’re interested in following along as I explore a polytheist monastic path, I will be tagging all my posts on it with #monkposting as well as tags already in use by the community.
A poem for when winter is over and you find your tribe again.
Image copyright Mabh Savage 2023. Image ID: Trees silhouetted against a starry night sky.
We come together in the great field
Some linked by blood
Many not
But all in joy
And canvas
And love of the fire
We laugh and cry and hold each other tight
Some close calls this past winter
Yet we’re all still here
I watch the moon rise
Listen to snores
Shuffles
Whispers and giggles
I nod to…
This labor of love! It was tricky getting this one just right. It took a few days of tweaks, five dollars of cheap whiskey & coke, and a clove cigarette in a lightning storm. This, in lieu of communion wine.
Some reach god through deprivation. And some reach god and get a vice grip around his skinny little chicken neck.
I wrang the dog star god around the yard until the rain came down. There are many mouths called home.
I shared this collage on my personal account a few days ago and thought you guys would like to this too. This was a personal project I created as part of my Lokabrenna series, 12" x 16".
Sometimes what we're most afraid to do (within reason of course), what we're continually putting off, what others seem to do "better" (or perhaps just more confidently) is what will help propel us forward and bring the most beneficial changes. Last month's New Moon message was about stepping out of your comfort zone and the theme has recurred this month, as New Moon in Leo is an ideal time to make bold choices to initiate extraordinary changes. The initial changes may be exciting at times, uncomfortable, and even life altering. But the ultimate results you were hoping for will come gradually, and you may feel as if you are not progressing or coming any closer to achieving. You will be... But you need to stay focused and continue moving forward.
As always, thank you for reading/watching. This is a collective message, so take only what resonates.
It has been awhile! My ADHD doesn’t let me be consistent, even with medication. I hope everyone is having an amazing day. If you’re not, it’s okay. It’s okay to not be okay. I wanted to post some sweets for Loki, something of a digital offering to him. He keeps messing with my typing and I feel his presence around me. Tag me in sweets you’d like to offer him! I’d love to repost!