#lonelines

[furiousgoldfish]

unreachable desire to feel safe in another person’s company

#cptsd #ptsd #lonelines #feeling unsafe #trust issues

[four-eyed-frog]

Yet another

Yet another day

I wake up with you in my thoughts swirling in my head

Wanting to touch your shadow

But I’m marooned in my own island

Watching you share the sunset with someone else

Broken and strung by emotional blunders

Troublesome and im fighting

But i seem to enjoy crying

I try and sleep to quite this pain

Try to forget this hurt of abandonment

But i realise how weak i am

Driven by the spirits of passion

I reach out to touch your reflection

but it ripples into chords of purpose less emotions

Oh what have i got into?

Why did i ever get stuck in twilights of glimmer

Chasing rainbows and relationships so shallow?

#random thoughts #feelings #lonelines #lost love #spilled thoughts #unrequited love

[bordergirlsstuff]

I see the hatred and contempt towards me... and it's not easy to ignore. All of this hurts..

#sad thoughts #lonelines #bpd #bpd thoughts #sad reality #no one cares #toxic environment #im so tired #i'm the problem #i can't take it anymore #depression #pain

[all-dead-inside21]

Started to SH again... Was Clean for years. Just want to stop feeling my emotions. It's really to much to handle...

#tw depressing stuff #death tw #depressiv #left alone #being alone #dying alone #tw #im sad and tired #head empty #borderline personality problems #selfharm #living with borderline #being borderline #body dysmorphia #borderline personality disorder #body image #kinda depressing #depression #lonelines #helpless

[yellowtiebite]

I really dislike TikTok. I fucking hate it but this video and this video alone is something I always come back to when I need a good dose of reality.

#weird #tiktok #Lonelines #Lonely #Comedy #satire #Funny #Video #link

[selectivechaos]

quote by Carl Sutton.

i think this is important because while sm is painful and i wish it would go away, the reality is it probably won’t, at least not fully. there’s no time limit on sm. it’s not a childhood disorder, and it can onset at any age. so we need more images and descriptions of middle aged and older people with sm. just like any mental disorder, you wouldn’t go: oh that’s particularly painful because it hasn’t gone away by x age. this is people’s lives, and those lives can be painful but also full and wonderful. sm is part of my life and my experience. so we need to see more stories. 🌹🌹transcript under cut

aloneness - that is what sm feels like to me. isolated, alone, separated, left out as i silently stand by watching others experience life while the words freeze up inside me, afraid to speak up or join in a conversation. actually feeling the anxiety shaking inside my chest as i try to get the courage to speak to someone or call or text a friend. sm feels like the child standing alone behind the door watching the other kids in the playground - afraid to ask, ‘may i play?’ it feels like the teenager standing silently against the wall, listening to classmates laugh and chat, invisible to everyone and wondering what it would be like to have a friend. it feels like the 50-year-old office worker, alone in her cube while others chat and laugh in the aisle, still left out. i live inside a shell, a mask thag looks like me but isn’t me. i am in here, but it is really hard to let others see. i’m so grateful for the few dear friends i have now. most people though only see the shell and assume i’m aloof and uncaring because i am quiet. i feel very deeply. i feel others’ joy and pain intensely, yet they rarely know. i’m not quiet because i am uncaring. i’m silent because i’m afraid. 

#mental health stuff #mentalhealthawareness #situational mutism #selective mutism #carl sutton #actually mentally ill #lonelines #sm tag

[holymayoart]

Loneliness

#lonelines #dark art #gothic #gothic art #sad #sadnees #mental health #mental illness #dark aesthetic #goth #girl #grunge #darkness #dark grunge #gothcore #darkcore

[itsalmera]

a loveless society

https://afterpartyinjuly.com/writings-1/a-loveless-society

The U.S. self-improvement industry is estimated at $10.5 billion in 2020. Gurus, self-made psychologist, therapist, and any motivational speaker teaches the art of self-help typically by concentrating on a specific subject. Marriage counseling, PTSD, insecurities, boundaries, loneliness, and langue, to name a few. We march up to the self-help section at the bookstore, proudly purchasing with the purpose that - yes, today, I will change my life after this book since that’s what everybody on the internet vowed. Or scrolling through endless articles, reminders, and posts online of why you're fucked up, how your parents could have raised you better, be vulnerable but not too much, "you should go on this retreat it changed my life", "be vulnerable! ew no not like that", how the tone of your boss or your friend made you feel, wait…. the queen died?

This society, separated but the same, is asking the wrong questions. Since the birth of social media and technology, the greatest fear for most who were unexplored in the understanding of tech is the notion that- robots will become savvier and take over the world. What these fear-mongering citizens overlooked was that these fantasies of the invention were made by men, so it was already fucked, to begin with. Our greatest hope that technology would connect us was short-lived. Rather, we become accustomed to hiding behind screens. American society has never been lonelier.

How come we become so sure of what love is until we're not? We have been taught everything but love. Love is illustrated in films by some who never reached the abysms of love, we line up to see a scheme where the projection of despair and grief is romanticized preparing this generation that abuse and neglect are what love is all about. A person caught in this toxic cycle feels represented in the media and thus feels validated. If we did not have the crucial ingredients of love in childhood, we spend years looking for it in other people. When unable to do so, we sit and bash ourselves until we cannot feel the longing any longer. It has become easy to blame ourselves for the lack of love, yes, to some degree it is our responsibility to be vulnerable to show love and accepting enough to receive it. But this society was not made for loving, it was built to divide to reach capitalistic goals.

Just so we’re on the same page, it would be awkward if we weren't. A loveless society exists since the word “love” has been lost in translation. The google definition of love was translated by someone unable to understand it themselves, the dangers of this are perfectly described by Bell Hooks in All About Love “Men theorize about love, but women are more often love’s practitioners. Most men feel that they receive love and therefore know what it feels like to be loved; women often feel we are in a constant state of yearning, wanting love but not receiving it.”

So, what is love?

The greatest definition of love is simply put by Erich Fromm as “the will to extend one's self for the purpose of nurturing one's own or another’s spiritual growth.” OH BABY, that’s it right there. But wait, he continues: “Love is as love does. Love is an act of will- namely both an intention and an action. Will also implies choice. We do not have to love. We  choose to love.”

The ingredients needed to truly participate in love to the fullest  potential, provided by Bell Hooks is a combination of- “care, affection, recognition, respect, commitment, and trust, as well as honest and open communication.” Anything, other than the definition and examples provided is NOT and has never been love. It's hard to swallow but necessary to understand. The topic of love is shamed and repressed in culture but is widely celebrated in the capitalistic and materialistic world. Is it possible that everything has become too much for us that even the simplicities of values and life, in general, feel so out of reach in this day and age? That the distraction of over-consumerism will be the death of love. What happens to a society that loses touch with the basics of life? Lifes, complexness is analyzed and studied by some when life is simple, it was never complicated.

What happens to a society driven by the antonyms of love?

Mostly, I suspect:

More segregation

More segregation

Raise of individualism

Lack of connection and misunderstanding of what love is

While Harold Kushner was able to encapsulate this in his book “When All You’ve Ever Wanted Isn’t Enough” writing: “I am afraid that we may be raising a generation of young people who will grow up afraid of love, affection to give themselves completely to another person, because they will have seen how much it hurts to take the risks of loving and have it not work out. I am afraid that they will grow up looking for intimacy without risk, for pleasure without significant emotional investment. They will be so fearful of the pain of disappointment that they will forgo the possibilities of love and joy.”

We are starved of love, yet we guard our loving with all our might. We believe our cynicism will eventually bring us to the love we have been yearning for. But how can love reach you if you are unable to accept the contract of love? How can you understand it if you are not familiar with its language? A person who is starved of love projects into money, influence, and power. This society is empty, it is loveless. We sit and wait like our fairytales for love to arrive, everybody is waiting, everybody is afraid. It is packaged that individualism is how we survive but when you find somebody as a partner you are suddenly in this together. They become each other's everything; best friends, lovers, therapists, coaches, etc. Overall neglecting other more important relationships like friendships, the natural world, family, and your definition of spirituality.

Change the heavy questions you have about love and loving. Ask: what has love's absence taught me? Where do I go when I feel unlovable? Who made me feel so? Why do I yearn for love? Why do I not?  Why have I become so cynical? How can I love my community better? How do I forgive myself for not showing love more to my friends, family, and especially myself? What have I done in the name of “love” or “loving?” We are embarrassed by love. We blush and hide at its sight. We cover it up with scarcity. Then sit at night wondering when will love come, as if it has never existed within you in the first place.

#bell hooks #squarespace #allaboutlove #society #lonelines #andrew garfield #self help #self healing #self growth

[fat-mexican]

A Haunted House

I had some friends over today We watched a movie and ate dinner but no one really gave a shit about that The whole point was the togetherness The comfort of sitting next to someone you care about And watching their face after you make a joke Hoping to see them laugh My favorite part is the eye contact When I look at a person I love And they look back at me And it’s clear that this is shared That this moment is something we’ve co authored I get to keep this All the little looks and smiles belong to me now

As it gets later, I push them to stay as subtly as I can I ask and annoy and delay but I am not in control And eventually the thought of their own home becomes more comforting Than anything I can offer I close the door behind them And watch them drive away like a dog would Then I turn around and my home is haunted

Cheerful ghosts wander through They leave cups and plates and styrofoam containers all over the place Spread around the living room in that natural way That you get when too many people try to eat around the same screen The ghosts leave doors open, bathrooms slightly out of order Lights on in empty rooms, and crumbs in the carpet They haunt me through a short list of chores dishes, cleaning, organizing I can’t think of more gentle, benign tasks I can’t think of anything more painful than performing this exorcism right now

When I imagine a clean living room In my mind it’s a sterile place Made to look as though no one was ever there Even trapped in my imagination it overwhelms me with how lonely it seems Refusing to make that sterile place in mind real is an act of self love Because by leaving my house a mess to be dealt with later I am able to go sleep and wake up in an empty house Without ever feeling alone

#poem #poetry #mine #writting #friends #friendship #haunted house #lonely #lonelines #Anatomy completely changed how i think of haunted houses

[kinkysirenmacabre]

Just a meaningless rant of an exhausted burnt out person

No, nobody is there. And that's it. I am alone. I am not nothing enough to be kept as a company. And that's fine. Just do not pretend otherwise. That's what pisses me off most. Pretending to want to spend time with me and it's about nothing else just either a favour, help simply, just my care. And then bye. Like I didn't even exist. Like you just summoned a deity, asked for something and when it's done, poof, bye. How fucking cruel people are. Like I can't. I can't be around them anymore. It's too painful, too exhausting...

How do you expect me to ask for something that is predisposed to be a lie? I don't want that. I want honest raw actions, feelings, deeds.

#kinkysiren #thoughts #writing #dark #goth #solitude #lonely #lonelines #sad #being autistic #actually autistic #autism #society #abandoned #write #exhaustedsiren #exhausted #burnout

[aniela93]

⋆⁺☾🩸⋆TO MY DAD, I NEVER HAD ⋆ ☾🩸₊⋆

how can one accept being rejected by his own parents, his won creators?

how can a daughter be happy knowing her father never wanted her , . .or that he wanted a sun , not HER.

how can one heal this pain?

how can a girl be a woman when her right to life was denied by her own father?

This tears running down my chicks hurt, burn and carve scars in my heart.

i miss him,

i miss my dad i never had

i miss feeling safe and protected by his love , that pure and noble love fathers have for their daughters

i miss the games we never played, laughs we never laughed

walks we never walked ,

stories we never told

i miss his hug, his warm embrace, i never got

his rooted roots

his powerful speech of faith.. to me

his trust , in me, in my powers,

in my power to rise again and again every time i faill

i miss

his wish for me to be happy from the bottom of his heart

i miss a part of my soul when i don't have him.

i feel like it was never given to me. . .

like i have been a broken soul forever

i miss something i never had

how i know it's missing?

there is an empty space in my heart . . .wearing his name

a missing part

i can't live without

i love a dad i never had

#father wound #fatherless #book girl #adolecente #depresion #suicide thoughts #self love #dady issues #lonelly #lonelines #mental health #pain #rejection #healing journey #wings #angel dust #angelcore #los angeles #angelic #maboroshi #studio ghibli #anime

[phildapple]

From Solitude to Self-Discovery - Navigating Loneliness with Resilience ...

#youtube #lonelines #@selfdiscovery #inspiration #motivation #emotions

[four-eyed-frog]

00:37 and crying

Teardrops cascade down my blemished cheeks

Staining my soul with the fear of loosing you

I try and smile to fool the world

Only i know how much this hurts

Melodies of the night are silent

shadows are cast in the darkness

Of hopelessness and memories of unrequited love

I keep on trying, but i fall on my knees

I’m broken and bruised

But no one cares cause they don’t see the hole in my soul

The inconvenience of having a childish heart

Slowly and steadily I grow older

Therefore the hope that one day this will end

I will drift off into vapour

Oblivion will forget what it is to be in debt to the smile of a girl who made my world go round

Time will forget the tear drops of passion

Numbness will cover what were moments of magic

Those teardrops that cascade down my blemished cheeks, dries

I have nothing left

I close my eyes

Wishing i never wake up and

Finally find peace

#random thoughts #spilled thoughts #feelings #lonelines

[bordergirlsstuff]

What's the point of "living" like this?..

#lonelines #depression #pain #sad thoughts #bpd #im so tired #i can't take it anymore #bpd thoughts

[all-dead-inside21]

Alone for nearly 29 years now. No sign of love, being loved, fell in love... Nothing. Maybe I'm not meant to be happy or lovable. I know it's hard to like me. I never was someone's first choice. Never. I have one friend... Nothing more. And this kind of relationship is kinda toxic sometimes. I feel so alone and dumb. I just don't belong here. I'm giving myself time till I'm 30... No minute longer. I know to like someone with BPD is hard. But I'm trying my best I promise...

#tw depressing stuff #death tw #depressiv #left alone #being alone #depressed #borderline personality disorder #bpd blog #bpd splitting #tw #Suicide #tw sucidal thoughts #depression #lonelines #loneliness #helpless #help #Dumb

[purplemiracledragon]

Abducted Joy (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/story/354546179-abducted-joy?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_myworks&wp_uname=merlyroe&wp_originator=47PMRUqz4tSEubxUZxVLrVnN5DzLsh14EOT4P1yF4BGShrqJr7DOY%2BkoDRnMSCKzAkJ8h3%2BZgLI2gCrciSmQqjWEblZxZltXXsDhUW1RsjprY6V33pbnduxJi5XmmsBP We are taken into the world of Maya Gordon, a lively and passionate girl whose life takes a harrowing turn as she becomes the victim of a chilling abduction. Isolated and locked in a nightmare of torture. Can she escape and return to the world she once knew? Will she be remembered or remain a forgotten soul in the shadows?

#abducted #abduction #escape #escaping #family #hope #kidnapping #lonelines #love #books #wattpad #amwriting