#long post fnfjs fivungrsvoirvsrnojvsfjon

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ok so far i have; picked up all the stuff lying all over my floor and night stand and put them in acceptable places (laundry & drawers & garbage), swept the floor, found my old phone case w/ the pop socket still attached and duct taped it back to life so i can type comfortably again, ,,,? i think that’s it. is that it?? maybe bc there was a lot of additional little things during all that like making sure things are tidy and shuffling stuff around ?

now i still have to: clear all the stuff from behind my bed (might actually save that one for another time out of fear of what could possibly lurk beneath that mess), strip my bed & find a basket to put all my blankets n shit in, find clean sheets and temporary blankets that will not appease My Sensory Hell body but will be Acceptable , make my bed (which means probably kicking nymie out of my room for a minute so she doesn’t chase my sheets and sit in the middle of the bed), shave my ugly neck beard (& maybe buzz my undercut while I’m at it ?? may as well am i right), look at myself in the mirror and want to die a little bit but just a casual silly amount because the next step is take a shower, accidentally spend like 2 hour dissociating in the shower bc I’ve been avoiding showering or bathing (other than like... wiping myself down w/ a washcloth) for maybe a month because i’m mentally ill haha am i right, THEN get into comfy clean bed and pat myself on the back for my moment of mental health before I have to do it all over again in a couple months no matter how much i believe i will form any semblance of a routine <3 oh fuck also brush my teeth somewhere in there idk I’ll make it a fun surprise

#I needed to put my progress somewhere ok. #long post fnfjs fivungrsvoirvsrnojvsfjon #delete later haha daknsekgrinsnoinjoonjsrjnovnoianoidvvd #I’m adding keysmash bc idk if those are actual tags ppl check but I do want ppl who blacklist that stuff to not have to see it either #if that makes sense ? at all ? #I should get rid of the shitty cardboard cathouse I made. they don’t use it and haven’t for a while so like. #it’s just taking up a not insignificant fraction of my little poorly designed room #just the placement of the walls and the walls that jut out and the closet and the slanted floor and the vent in the best spot for a bed #but then it’s dangerous to put the bed there bc there’s a FUCKING VENT UNDER IT #...maybe another day I’ll rearrange my room again. not today tho #I’m already kinda overwhelmed by the idea of the stuff I gotta do and I’m kinda cutting it down to bare minimum too #like tldr change bed sheets shave and shower but golly each one of those is gonna be a Task. #don’t r/e/blog btw lmao