#look emotions are hard for them

[mattodore]

20s vs 30s

#river dipping #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #the older they get the more i need to [redacted] them... #matthias is already 26 so. not much changing going on in his face. his hair just starts receding a bit before he gets it under control #but theo’s in his early 20s so his cheeks definitely lose some baby fat in his late 30s #MIND YOU! matthias is really vain. so. he has a skincare routine and he's very serious abt it along w/ regular dermatologist visits #and injections/surgeries probably... so he is someone who will age very gracefully thanks to money lmao... #theo on the other hand is just blessed with beautiful skin <3 well that plus he rlly doesn't emote often... not many lines on his face #until he's in his mid-forties probably. but like fr... theo isn’t someone who puts a lot of work into his appearance like matthias does #and he uses and smokes like. his skin looking so good is just the result of a genetic lottery #i do think he quits both by the time he’s 30 #but while he doesn’t go back to cigarettes… hm. he probably continues to relapse w/ drugs every few years #not with anything hard—he’s off the stuff for good i think past 28-ish #i think when he relapses he’s usually safe with matthias who helps him by focusing on harm reduction so. lighter ones. #…just got a bit emotional thinking about that but anyway #kisses for theo 🫂 #i was going to post this last night before bed but decided that i wanted to actually edit them first so! here take this <3 #i've gotta get ready to go get my novavax shot in a few hours but then i'm going to start editing again #seriously rlly enjoying my editing process rn... like it makes me so happy!! to finally really like the way i edit and how things look #but yeah........................ mattodore are so sexy as they age god. #i gotta redo that old family lineage post i made now that mattodore look different... and i need to redo their parents for sure #…anyway cross your fingers for me 🧎 i’m hoping my side effects aren’t too bad this time around

[decarath-s]

Listen ofc all of the Unreal Unearth songs are amazing because it's Hozier we're talking about but holy fuck-

Personally the song in this album that smacked me across the face at first was Abstract (Psychopomp), and I can't believe more people are not going feral over it like I am, look-

H U H

I saw you perform this ultimately fruitless yet incredibly significant, humane and selfless act of kindness. You put your own life at risk for something others would have considered "too small". I saw you run into moving traffic, stain your own hands, just to offer a little comfort to this poor animal in its dying moments. I was terrified, I knew I had no choice but to love you.

#i think the whole idea of the push and pull of life and death is very present through the album but the 'i will fight to get to live this #one life' hits me so so hard #the idea of springing into movement for something so much smaller than you but with so much value #the idea of both the savior's and the animal's eyes shining with anguished tears #its insane #also look into the phsychopomp mythological context it's interesting #hozier #andrew hozier byrne #unreal unearth #text #that unstoppable surge of emotions to give all life the value it deserves #PLEASE add your thoughts kn the tags or comment's I'd love to hear them #ALSO!! i Believe that lyrically this song is simpler than his usual work and that shows a new kind of genious #im wordless again

[paimonial-rage]

lol yeah ok - how about 12 and 13 instead? - last anon

[Character Analysis Ask Meme]

What is Neuvillette’s love language?

As that he does not have a way with human relationships, Neuvillette shows his feelings best through acts of service and gift-giving. After all, words are difficult and easy to construe. Quality time often leaves him at a loss for the very words he has a difficult time with. And physical touch? That’s simply too intimate for him. So what better way to show how he feels through something concrete? Surely if he gives of his time and resources for the people he cares about, they will understand how high of a regard he holds them. At least, he hopes. 

What is Neuvillette like in a relationship?

As unfamiliar with human emotions as he is, you notice Neuvillette’s feelings for you long before he does. How can you not? You see it clearly—the softness in his eyes whenever they fall upon you, the fondness in his smile, the requests for you to stay if not just a moment longer. You are taken by surprise the day he notices. He approaches you with a troubled, albeit bashful expression. He says that it was brought to his attention that he has feelings for you. Adorable as he is, what else can you do but accept them?

Much to your expectation, there is a hesitance in his step after he begins to court you. He has never been in a relationship before. He doesn’t want to mess it up. So how close is he allowed to walk next to you? Is it proper to offer you his arm? Will you refuse him if he asks you to accompany him to a show? But your presence at his side leaves him light-headed. How many times this has lead to social gaffes and things of the sort? But when you laugh, how can he not chuckle to himself in turn?

With Neuvillette, you will find no bombastic displays of affection. There will not be poetic words of love and adoration. After all, Neuvillette is a simple man and will show his love through simple, yet earnest ways. He will want to spend time with you. He will want to do his best to communicate and be honest with you. He will want to make you happy in any way you see fit. He will do his best for you.

Zhongli's below the cut!

What is Zhongli’s love language?

Anyone close to the Geo Archon knows his penchant for gift-giving. Really, it often catches many by surprise the sheer thoughtfulness and rarity of the gifts he gives. Not only are they often pricey, but also chosen with the receiver specifically in mind. It’s not rare to see people moved to tears upon receiving them, touched by the amount of care he puts into each one. As with gifts, Zhongli is also liberal with the words of affirmation he gives others. He does not hesitate to state a person’s strengths, nor how high of a regard he holds them. With him, there is no room for doubt. 

What is Zhongli like in a relationship?

You don’t exactly know when you both became an item. As wordy as Zhongli is, he never bothered to tell you his feelings plainly. He even rejected you at first, stating he didn’t see you in that way. But then he said he’d try, didn’t he? And from that point, things began to change. How he’d invite you to Miss Yun’s performances, or offered his arm for you to take while he’d walk you home. How he’d tell you the most outrageous stories with a straight face, then laugh with an amused glint in his eye when you took him seriously. Somewhere along the way, the wall he kept began to fall.

Still, it is hard to tell his feelings as he never becomes the most physical with his affections. He does not hug you, nor does he hold your hand when you walk at his side. Sparing the moments when you’re the most endearing, he does not often kiss you of his own accord. Still, there is a level of familiarity and intimacy that he displays with no one else. You’re the only person he’ll let by his side on the days he wants most to be left alone. You’re the one whose opinions matter the most. You’re the only one he’ll tease as mercilessly as he does. You’re special.

With Zhongli, you realize that your relationship with him is not primarily one of romance, but of companionship. He does not simply view you as a friend. No, you’re much more than that. Out of all the things that come and go in his life, you are and will always be the only constant. You are everything to him. Even if you may part ways for a time, the place by his side will always remain yours. A relationship with you is a contract, one that he will always uphold. 

#genshin impact #genshin x reader #neuvillette #zhongli #neuvillette x reader #zhongli x reader #my writing #character analysis #sorry for the wait haha... but at least it's better than more than a month right? ;v; #i will apologize if you wanted something overtly romantic with the relationship question #zhongli's was especially hard #okay i can talk about it now #zhongli is the kind of guy you can talk with for hours and then leave not knowing a single thing about him #and that’s the weird thing like he does not hide his thoughts and feelings towards things #but at the same time you always doubt the extent to which he means them #like he may call the traveler a good friend and other warm things but…. #does he follow up his feelings with actions? #he’s so easygoing that you can’t picture him falling to raw emotion #and it primarily is because he sees everyone the same way a grandfather looks at his toddler grandchild #he feel warmth and affection for them but they will never be equals #that’s why if you confessed your feelings for him he’d turn you down at first. he’d need time to change his thinking #and even after accepting you zhongli is not one for passions. he’s not gonna change much. he’ll still be a retired old man #also just a personal headcanon but i don’t think he’d get with a human. he’d humor then but he wouldn’t accept them #yeah hes just… hard to figure out romantically speaking

[callmegaith]

We can make magic together... We can make Jackalopes

FOR MY FURRIES OUT THERE! The Deertective and and the magician that pulled himself out of a hat

#ship: Jackalope #god I would love to tag this in main #it goes so hard #but I wont #if you see it then u see it #at this point I've drawn them in so many intense poses #but god forbid I draw them making out #they can look but no kissing #let the yearning and pent up emotions pile up

[wr0wn]

My new stuffed toy :) silly

#art #i love stuffed animals #i love them even more if they look creepy #my new favorite friend #i don't know how to name them #im obsessed #im emotional #silly #silly little guy #names are hard #illustration #fanart #original character #digital illustration #horror art #horror illustration #my oc art #oc #artists on tumblr #toycore #my art

[pseudonymphomania]

THIS LOOKS LIKE THEY'RE HAVING SEX.

SEX IN THE CAFETERIA. SEX IN THE HALLWAY. SEX IN THE LAB. SEX IN THE POOL. OH WAIT. NO. THEY'RE BURNING UP IN THE CLOCK TOWER.

💦

Are you guys working hard or hardly working? 😊

A continuation.

#dialuci #obey me diavolo #obey me lucifer #diavolo x lucifer #obey me dialuci #obey me shall we date #obey me #obey me crack #obey me screenshot #obey me funny #like looking at the marauders map of their secret escapades #mmmyes those sweat emotes #i got this screenshot from my friend #obey me nightbringer #dialuci working hard for those hearts hearts hearts #does the intimacy go up for me or for them?? #my thinks

[skylarbee]

you can poke your head behind the mountain peak, don't have to mean that you've gone into hiding

#you can't see it but you know alex is smiling like a fool #well probably both of them are really #I'm still feeling so emotional after yesterday #i don't mind us not getting more than this #i don't mind them hugging in the dark #it just shows that they don't have to put their love on display and brag about it to everyone else #they can just show each other and that's enough #that's what love is about no? #they're not hiding they're just not shoving it in everyone's faces #(they know we know anyways) #if you look up the definition of true love their name will pop up #“we've gone through a lot together” miles said in a recent interview and it could've made me sad because it includes the hard times too #but it's precisely because of the hard times and not letting those beat them and tear them apart is why they're still here #and still thriving and loving each other and being best friends #they really said “we're gonna fight everything that comes our way and we're still gonna hold each other's hands at the end of it” #aaaaaand I'm crying #don't ever doubt their love guys #miles kane #alex turner #milex #arctic monkeys #the car tour #tlsp #the last shadow puppets #505 #body paint

[courtney-deserved-better]

telling myself i can't start another tdwt rewrite but dear god do i want to write one focusing on alejandro and courtney in this weird situationship thats a lot more nuanced than just alejandro manipulating courtney and her falling for it. like theyre best friends they dont trust each other theyre the same person they dont know anything about the other one theres a mutual attraction theyre pining for other people theyre codependent they dont care about each other theyre platonic soulmates like i just want to do a deep dive into how messy that relationship couldve been building off of their friendship that exists in my head except the line between romantic and platonic is so fucking blurred they have no idea what they are to the other person

#they live rent free in my head as you can tell #ive been writing some intense moments for them in amicus curiae and im having a lot of Feelings about platonic alecourtney #tbh the whole concept of them replacing the best friends has been a great avenue for me to do a deep dive into their friendship #aughhhh i just. love them so much #and i do want to explore them in a situation where there is relationship potential even if that relationship never actually happens #because everything between them during tdwt could be so MESSY!! #like alejandro says he's just manipulating courtney but he's also doing it to make heather jealous but he's also genuinely worried about he #after the duncan thing but this is the only way he knows how to express that concern without making himself look weak #meanwhile courtney is falling for the act but she also knows its an act and is going with it for the emotional support it provides and shes #just doing it to make duncan/gwen jealous but she also is starting to see the real alejandro underneath it all because he does care even #though he doesn't want to and they do feel a strong connection that they dont know whether its platonic or romantic because romance is bein #shoved down their throats on this show and theyre both in complicated romantic dynamics with other people that theyre the easier option for #one another but they dont really want to be with one another like it just doesnt feel right #okay okay i legit have to stop and go to bed but just. them. im thinking so hard about them #platonic alecourtney

[ladybeug]

Went to Taylor swift tonight, and 3 people gave me bracelets - even though I didn’t have any to trade!!

Sharing this bc I am touched by the kindness of the Taylor swift community and I hope the 2 teens and woman in mcmenamins know they made my day so much better!!!

#like they MADE THESE and now I get to HAVE THEM #I never did much on the rave scene so trading bracelets feels new and I’m emotions about it #going to an event…. and being connected to strangers??? #I love the moonstone one so much we were out to lunch 6 hours before the show #and as we left the restaurant some women stopped us and said you look like you’re going to the show will you take some bracelets #like YES I WILL WOW #also my fav bc I was dressed for bejeweled ;) ✨✨ #also now that I’m deep in the tags I will admit that I cried so hard at all too well that the woman sitting next to me #hugged me #and honestly? going to an event??? being connected to strangers??? thank you ma’am you made me feel less sad #life blogging #rare occurance for me #posting this before I chicken out and delete it

[ai-higurashi]

You remind me of her (/derogatory?)

#ai's random art #hirogaru sky precure #hirogaru sky pretty cure #sora harewataru #cure sky #mashiro nijigaoka #empress undergu #kaiserin undergu #skearhead #look I love the similarities Sora and Mashiro have with the Empress when she was younger #if my brain was more coherent I'd write a whole essay about how the Kaiserin's similarities with Prism are easier to see #(both of them described as kind etc etc) but the similarities with Sora truly shine with Sky's conversation with Skearhead #'having interest in an enemy is not a bad thing itself but your interest is emotional' and 'your naivete will destroy everything you love' #(it's 2am so I'm not gonna look it up to quote it exactly sry) #in hindsight that's just. What he was doing with the empress 300 years before. It's probably the same kind of lessons he gave her #both Sora and Mashiro probably remind him of his student #and everything he worked hard to get rid of in her in order to make her strong

[trainingdummyrabbit]

once again thinking abt angela's realizations re: Yeah She Just Does That Sometimes Now(tm). like it certainly never gets as Bad as it was in canon, but on occasion something or other ends up manifesting without her really noticing. a slight singe at the ends of her gloves, a trail of flower petals, things like that. a "hey can you go check on angela, shes starting to track feathers everywhere again."

#yknow. a 'youve been awfully fussy lately.' 'cant a guy look out for a pal? by the way; uh. butterfly on your shoulder.' #piktalk #projmoon #like yes those are intense expressions of a lot of bottled up emotions that hold a lot of symbolic importance- #-but also. funsies :] ijust think its neat when characters carry little pieces of things with them. #listen listen. the Instant i figure out what if anything is going on with them post canon. shakes fist. #i just think. itd be nice. t see them get to genuinely know each other again. maybe even actually become friends. #past the uh. weird strained coworkers thing that was mostly going on. #but anyway . besides the point. thinks abt them so hard i get motionsick

[good-beanswrites]

hii hiii is it alright if I request something with kotoko and haruka?(platonic ofc) their character foils drive me insane with all the weak stuff authngghn icant be normal about them

Oooh thank you so much for the request! I realized that these two actually have one of the smallest windows to talk easily, given Haruka's nervousness and Kotoko's T2 changes. They have such interesting approaches to strength/weakness, and I hope I could capture it a bit here! This takes place immediately following Kotoko's bday timeline after Harrow's release:

“I’ll accept those birthday wishes…” Kotoko gave him a wave over her shoulder as she returned to making her bed.  

She shook her head in awe. It was rather impressive how quickly the boy had changed after his verdict. The others had more subtle differences, but he was someone entirely new. She could rest easy, at least, knowing that her verdict wouldn’t change her much. For as long as she could remember, she’d been like this. She knew where she stood, and neither guilty nor innocent verdict would affect that. This verdict was really only an indicator on whether the warden could be trusted or not. 

Her body tensed up when she turned back around, startled by Haruka lingering silently in the doorway. She decided against chastising him for scaring her half to death. Still, she couldn’t keep the bite from her voice as she asked, “did you need something else?”

“Ah… I just…” He twisted his hands together. “I had a question.” 

He fell silent, but Kotoko could tell he was chewing on his next words. She waited.

“H-how do you do it? All the time? You’re older and stronger and braver and I-I just don’t know how.”

“Give yourself some credit. I’m not that much older, or stronger. I only have, what -- two, three years on you? And you did very well in the arm wrestling tournament the other day.” 

She wasn’t being patronizing. For someone so sheltered, Haruka could do some damage. He stood a few inches taller than her. The others had taken the arm wrestling as a little game, but Kotoko had used the event to measure up her fellow prisoners. After his close match with Mikoto, she had made a mental note to take him seriously. 

“No…” his expression twitched, getting frustrated with the misunderstanding. “Not muscles. I mean… you don’t have someone like Muu. You don’t need someone next to you all the time. But you still talk with everyone… and it looks easy. All the time. You always know what to say, and what to do. You never look scared. You never cry.”

Kotoko’s smile softened. She wasn’t the prideful type, but his words gave her a wave of accomplishment. She certainly was scared. She did cry. But she wasn’t about to show a single crack in her resolve in front of anyone here. Haruka had given her the greatest of compliments by confirming her success.

“Ah, you mean strength of spirit. Well, that doesn’t just appear out of nowhere. It comes with my purpose, with my virtues.”

“Virtues…?”

“I see the injustice around me, and want to protect the innocent. When I see how awful the world can be, when I see the monsters that are hurting those who are weak, I can’t help myself.” She clenched her fist. “The power to do so just comes to me.” 

“Oh…” Haruka looked down at his palms. 

Her heart sank, realizing he didn’t quite understand. It was a shame that not all of humanity could be as righteous as her. That heroic drive had always come so naturally to her; she wasn’t sure she could put it into words to explain to others.

Haruka’s open hands were trembling. “Um. Is there any other way?”

“Hm?”

“All my life… I only cause pain to everyone.” His worry gradually turned to desperation.” I hurt everyone who gets close to me. Especially things that are small and weak. My whole life, I’ve been nothing but a… a curse. So… is there another way? Please. I want to be better. I want to be strong! I want to be like you! Tell me!”

He stepped forward, pleading. Kotoko stepped back. 

His blue eyes widened at her sudden shift into defense. “Ah! I. I’m sorry. I’m-I’m sorry. It’s your birthday. You should be… Have a g-good day.”

“Wait.” Kotoko stopped him before he could flee. She was aware of the massive gap between them, the vastly different backgrounds they came from. Still, she offered the same advice that had helped her in her toughest of days. 

“Don’t worry so much about others’ strength. The quickest way to burn yourself out is getting overwhelmed with the power that’s all around you. Once you start putting all your focus toward honing your own skills and strengths, you’ll realize how much you’re truly capable of. You don’t need anyone else. You’ll realize that you are enough.”

“I… am enough…?”

She placed a hand firmly on his shoulder. 

“So, no need to get all worked up now, okay?” 

“O-okay. I’ll do my best.” He stiffened, trying to appear worthy of her words.

She let out a bitter laugh. “I told the others not to do anything for my birthday, but I don’t think they paid me any mind.” Kotoko still couldn’t fathom how they were so friendly with each other given the situation. “Let’s go see if there’s some cake or something.”

#milgram #kotoko yuzuhira #haruka sakurai #thank you so much! this one was super interesting to write 👀 #the thing is even though they dont have any direct problem between them they would still have a hard time communicating #but once they DO communicate there would so much they could learn from/help each other with!!! #this is leaning into my theory that kotokos murder (like harukas) was a rightful emotion that spiraled out of control #it really puts it into perspective how young kotoko is when you remember shes not too much older than haruka #and theyre both susceptible to strong emotions that stem from feeling weak int he face of the big scary world #but kotokos sees her as some blessing of power to serve her heroic thoughts and haruka sees his as a curse #ty to my pals who helped me find the exact spot in the timeline i was looking for 🙏 #although kotoko doesnt believe she can change that easily she 100% undergoes the exact type of dramatic change as the others #once again referencing the arm wrestling info from yamanaka #between that and the fact that strangulation actually takes a fair amount of power #i just think its very good to remember that haruka is so physically strong #also something something kids looking up and wanting to be like kotoko and her complex emotions on that.... #these two are sooooo interesting AH #drabbles

[hivemindscape]

The waves continued to lap against the shore. Push and pull. Breathe in, breathe out.

“What triggered it?”

The question was quiet, and so out of the blue it took Wilbur a moment to realize Tommy had asked it.

“What do you mean?” Wilbur asked.

“Your panic attack,” Tommy clarified, his hair tickling Wilbur’s cheek again. “Was it random, or did something trigger it?”

"Your Name Is A Triangle" by @bonesandthebees​

song i drew this to alt version under the cut

#These past few months have been Hard for me art wise #No desire to even pick up the pen for the first few weeks after the wilbur finale and then utter demotivation because of tommys #At some point my passion for the mcyt fandom hanged by one thread- fanfiction #and the only fics i wanted to read were those of someone i already know and love #I was miserable over the idea no crimeboys content will make me emotional anymore #The first fic I willed myself to read is This one #and it was the biggest most sought-after surge of positive emotion I've experienced in a while #so relatable and soft and real and in character and so. full of love #Bee revitalized me to the point i instantly jumped to sketch this art the image was SO CLEAR. And I drew and It Worked I could draw #And till recently i couldnt find time to finish it and post it but even the coloured sketch brought me so much hope and joy to look at #Now one of my favorite pieces for so many reasons #Love your resident fic writers #Give them apprecition on the daily #they're my forever heroes #crimeboys #crime boys #crime boys fanart #mcyt fanfiction #wilbur soot #wilbur soot fanart #fanfiction fanart #tommyinit fanart #tommyinnit #mcyt

[catwouthats]

There has to have been at least one person on the creative team for Loki that was like “hey if we do all this, it will look queer. Like very gay.” And they definitely shot that person down with the “not everything has to be gay” and the “we’re just trying to show a strong healthy male friendship! :)”

Bro warned them defo.

They defo didn’t listen.

#literally man #if you wanna spend more sweet/emotional time with your man compared to your wife #maybe it’s your man bff whom you are romantically attracted to #it’s not your fault #that society didn’t even let you have mildly vulnerable friendships tho #it’s just… made it hard for you to realize you are probs comp-het AF #loki #lokius #loki mobius #loki and mobius #breaking toxic masculinity goes hand in hand with breaking out of compulsive heterosexuality #n I don’t wanna hear #but they made Loki canonically bi #bc #do the main head writers even know what it is to be queer? #I looked them up and found nothing of any queer experience on their end #if you don’t experience it you can’t write it well

[uncanny-tranny]

The reality of being a survivor is that the person or people who hurt you might just get to live full, rich lives and leave you behind. It's a perverse feeling, and it's true that that is fucked up. It feels like they still control you even when they're out of your life, and you feel trapped. However, you still deserve to be happy, to be fulfilled. Your life hasn't ended because they stole parts of it. They will never truly be able to take the essence of who you are.

Remembering this has taken the edge off of this thought. I won't ever give my abusers that power over me ever again. They never fucking deserved that.

#recovery #abuse #abuse tw #abuse mention tw #you can ABSOLUTELY grieve and be furious. you are entitled to those emotions and i think you're right to feel that way #but don't for a second buy into the idea that you don't deserve a good life. you DO. they fucked up and that's no reflection on you #you deserve so many good things #like... i do wish i could sit down with my abusers and fucking lay into them. but that's not possible #they're living their lives without a single thought as to their actions. they probably don't care that they ruined my life #so i won't empower them further by letting their influence transcend their presence #and that's HARD to do. it take effort and it's a daunting task #i don't blame people if they find that hard to do or think about #but i want to remind you that one day it might be easier. you'll get to a good spot #i believe in your ability to heal however that looks for you

[honeysulani]

reimagined scene where Oak gets to describe Astarions features to him

#astarion gave his approval of course #at first he was shocked when Oak asked for his permission to touch him #since he hates it #and I imagine him being so confused because this is the first time someone asked for his approval #he also begins to open up more to Oak since he knows he actually likes his person #and not only for his looks ofc #that won't work obviously #I have so much to say about them omg #I've prepared whole text to add to this post #but it would be too much #so I'm just adding small details here in the tags hehe #btw I've used to emote/pose mod for this and I was struggling it's so hard to use and adjust the characters #bg3 #bg3 astarion #bg3 oc #bg3edit #baldurs gate 3 tav #baldurs gate #baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate astarion #baldur's gate iii #baldurs gate tav #baldur's gate oc #astarion ancunin #astarion #astarion x tav #*oak