#look i am distracting myself

[bizarreandjarring]

just an old hick goin' fishin

plus kim "i am winning at fishing. something which is both normal to want and possible to acheive" kitsuragi

ref

#I FOUND THE LINK TO THE ART I REF'D FINALLY #HARRY. FRECKLES. TRUTHER. #also i have seen too much art of them looking cool and good #i am balancing it out by making them boring middle aged men who go fishing #harry got them both the tshirts for their weekend fishing trip #and kim spent a lot of time researching fishing techniques because he has a visceral need to be competent at everything he does #harry: the point of this weekend is to get outdoors and have fun!!! kim: if i dont catch a big fish im going to drown myself in this lake #also kim: did you have to wear your sluttiest little manwhore shorts it is distracting #harry: i can take them off if you'd rather ;) #disco elysium #harry du bois #kim kitsuragi #my art

[sunshinechay]

I absolutely understand why Babe would forgive Charlie so quickly. These two moments right here explains it perfectly:

And this one

Babe has spent almost his entire adult life feeling like he can’t love anyone. Feeling like he can’t, like he wasn’t worthy of that love, that he wasn’t worth it. He wanted someone who would love him uncondititionally and completely. Someone who would take care of him and not judge him. Then came Charlie. For all of Charlie’s flaws and lies, that is the one thing I don’t think I’ve ever doubted. Charlie loves Babe. He loves Babe so much but he also knows that if he tries to tell Babe who he is right away, Babe will reject him. Babe will, like he did at first, assume that it is all a part of Tony’s plan to get Babe back, to force him to go along with what Tony is planning.

With the foundation that their relationship has now, Babe knows that Charlie loves him. That everything he did, no matter how fucked up, was because he loved him. Charlie offers to die so that Babe will gets his senses back. I think that right there says a lot about how much Charlie loves Babe. How much Charlie loves period. He was even willing to lie to Tony on something easily fact checked. He lies and says he hasn’t seen Jeff. If Tony doesn’t know Jeff works at the garage I’d be very surprised. Charlie is so completely willing to put himself into harms ways for those that he loves. And Babe knows that.

So Babe forgives him. Babe forgives Charlie because Charlie disproves every single negative thing Babe has ever thought about his ability to love, about his ability to be loved. Babe is so starved for love, for touch, for someone to love him. Charlie gives it to him in spades, never stopping. Babe feels safe enough with Charlie to actually love him back. Something he has never done before, he’s never felt like he could.

This is also not so incidentally why I won’t get on the “Way might be a walking red flag but I’m color blinded” train. I have felt the exact same way Babe has felt before, something I still struggle with to this day. That kind of intense self loathing is tough to live with. Babe lived with his for years before Charlie. He never felt like could love anyone, and Way made him feel that. Way made him feel like he wasn’t worthy. It feels like an extremely fucked up version of “if I can’t have him no one can”. I do think it comes from Way also feeling similar to Babe, which is why I am still ultimately sympathetic to Way as a character, but the boy needs to step the fuck back from Babe and let the man live his life and be happy with Charlie. Babe has said so many times, including to his face, that he and Way could only ever be friends. Way just doesn’t seem willing to accept that, which a big yikes for me. Add the hypnosis on top of that and if this were in any other genre, I’d be voting for Way to get his head lopped off. Still I love Way is able to move on, whether that is with Pete or not. Hopefully his and Babe’s friendship will improve because of it.

So yeah, I don’t find it surprising at all that Babe is willing to forgive Charlie that easily. Charlie is everything he’s ever wanted on a silver platter. He was also willing to be completely honest with Babe as soon as Babe asked for honesty. He didn’t lie, he didn’t beat around the bush. He explained it all, point blank. He didn’t even lie about being the reason Babe lost his senses, even when he could have and it’s likely Babe would have never found out. Charlie proved that he does love Babe, genuinely and completely. He wants to protect Babe no matter what. He is willing to do anything. It’s exactly what Babe wants and what he needs. I have no doubt Babe will give back as good as he gets too.

This likely isn’t the end of the road for this discussion. I think they will revisit it eventually, though under what circumstances I can’t say. For now, Babe is willing to forgive him easily, because he loves Charlie and Charlie loves him. In the end, that’s all Babe wants and now that he is getting the chance, he’s going to grab it and hold on with both hands. He knows he can do that because he knows, down to his core, that Charlie will do the same for him.

#pit babe #pit babe the series #babecharlie #charliebabe #pit babe meta #yes i finally got the chance to watch the episode #and i am in my charliebabe feels right now #to distract myself from the lack of alanjeff this episode #and yes before anyone tries to say otherwise #i am looking forward to more of way and pete #i do like way #i just hate the way he treats babe #he’s like some kind of manifestation of the dark voice in babe’s head that makes him believe all of the negative things about himself #and i hate that #anyway #*gestures vaguely* #cap watches pit babe #cap speaks

[daisychainsandbowties]

i love the gay little patches that they have in alien

like why are the planets kissing

#also the inherent homoeroticism of the navy jumpsuit #ellen ripley truly a bi icon 😌 #yes i am distracting myself from the sense of imminent threat in this move by looking respectfully at ripley #recommend as a coping mechanism that you simply fall in love with the final girl #alien 1979

[lunarharp]

wanted to adapt the google search results a gay woman got in a japanese drama "tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna" which is good btw.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #the most light and gentle version of flirting-like behaviour of all time - a mutual passing thing - a peaceful dance through the long years #a way to work you out.. a way to express something about myself. all these steps are leading up to that beautiful magic #that you read about once. but actually we've been making it all this time... many many steps to this wonderful recipe. #the only non-perfect & non-fated thing about them is that oru is gay but (imo) qif could easily be transfem at any time. don't test him #oru being a woman wouldnt change anything for qif but oru is gay as hell.. However if qif was a woman then it'd be fine anyway no doubt. #oru would give in his membership to the Gay Men's Picnic Club group he goes to and embark on this life instead..many such cases #also i was typing “am i gay” into google when drawing tsukutabe fanart to check what google looks like #and “am i depressed” was the autofill for “am i”. qif's life is like: maybe he would have looked up something like oru did #but he got a bit distracted and started reading about cptsd instead which seemed more pertinent. sometimes childhood goes this way <3 #anyway Tsukuritabe..Kinou nani tabeta...And witch hat kitchen.... the trio of gentle silly 30+ gay couple situations..ohh.. #orufrey are the combo of those. like tsukutabe they aren't together yet. like kinou nani tabeta they are a long-term couple. beautiful #i will never let go of them. drawing this has cheered me up. they are with me

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[electricfied-wolf]

Once again I am the ONLY "I Do" defender. SOMEONE back me up here.

#starlight express #stex #COME ON. wHY AM I THE ALONE ONE WHO CRIES TO THIS SONG. #“I see you when you're looking lonely. And I hope that everything's alright.” ON THE FLOOR. SOBBING. WHY IS IT JUST ME. #I'm trying to distract myself with silly trains but the tragedies are still Looming

[vicktheickart]

Like obvs I know he’s a grown adult, but if I was dating him, he’d be dressed so nicely most of the time bc I’d love him and if he got money, might as well take advantage of that.

#which is so funny bc I wouldn’t even be dressing myself bc I’d forget and be too distracted #but I would be like listen toshi. I think you’d look good in this. trust me. #then obvs give his face kisses ans call him handsome #he deserves the world #toshi in style #yagi toshinori #mha toshinori #toshinori Yagi #mha #need to emphasize that just bc you’re old doesn’t mean you need to dress old all the time #a good old person outfit is good but come on you gotta work with what you got and he got what most clothes look good in #he’s hamsome #god I am a simp

[thl-vrmr]

That one girl from Beyond the Trailer saying she had problems with the new Scarlet Witch comic because 'It focused on the twin's Roma heritage and thus made the MCU version look bad' and also because 'It has nothing to do with the MCU's Scarlet Witch who is popular'... Some people just shouldn't have opinions

#These are actually good things about that comic #These are in no way flaws #Also am I meant to feel bad that the new SW Solo is making the MCU look bad... Because I am not #Like it did that to itself. Im not gonna pity a Disney-owned company working with bigoted people #Olsen/MCU stans stay out of my mentions you're annoying #Wanda Maximoff #Scarlet Witch #Anti MCU #Hating Hours #B4 anyone gets on my dick I am joking people are allowed to have opinions. But however if these opinions are shit Im not gonna hold back #Its 3AM Im tired and Im hating to distract myself from exams hbu all?

[corrodedcoughin]

just had the very slow realisation that the majority of people ive met in daily life don’t have online friendships or communities and just got quite sad about it. idk, I just love you guys and being a part of online spaces that are so collectively in a headspace that reality is altered

#like??? not having insights from people who live on different land masses that you’ll never meet and probably never know what they #look like?? what do you do with your day??? where do you put your silly little ideas???? where do you get your joy??? #I’ve got past fandom friends that I still text! we all do our own thing but it’s lovely and fun and I just???? #can’t imagine not doing stuff like this? idk! I’m just being silly and trying to distracts myself from the Horrors #the horrors (threatening) not the horrors (music band) I’m sure they are fine people…maybe? who knows! not me! #hope you all have a good weekend! #I’m in a music rut and don’t know if I should stay in old stuff or try modern? I think modern but I don’t know who #also ALSO! inbox I see you and I am drafting responses I promise #this is really just nonsense sorry friends

[zerokiryuu]

'A flower cannot blossom without sunshine, and a man cannot live without love.'

– Max Müller.

#radiant zeki #vampire knight #vampire knight memories #cleaning practise #vk #vkm #zero kiryuu #yuuki kiryuu #yuuki kuran #it looks nice from afar #I'm afraid I am too impatient for the illustration so I thought I would try to clean it up myself #just for fun and distraction #I can already see errors but alas I am tired now #that'll be all #zekiedit

[spearxwind]

speaking of httyd the more that time goes on the more I appreciate the first movie painted the night fury being weird as hell and as such the first plushies of toothless/the nightfury were fucking weird as hell too, I used to not super enjoy it but now i see the huge thick mega-cute NFs and think man. we have to go back to when they looked like this. they will never be more charming than this

(And yes, I do have one. Pictures really dont capture how charming it actually is irl tbh. I love this lil guy so much)

Also something this lil dude has is that the fabric is iridescent blue. It’s not straight black, which I think is great. Sure its missing a couple scales I guess but its supposed to be a little invisible shadow bastard. Idk I like him

#uh oh fellas its a category 5 'alex goes on and on about httyd' moment. #thunderclap #httyd #yeah sure #listen. i have many thoughts on nightfuries. and i am far from the authority on them... but i have opinionce #also i had a really bad day today and unfortunately i love httyd but that also comes with a lot of gripes about (later installments) #by having a bad day i mean i am distracting myself from it by talking about something i love [httyd] which comes with gripe [horrid sequels] #also i never told you guys but I saw the second season of nine realms as well #its somehow even fucking worse than the first season! congrats! #they made a cute unicorn abomination so they could shit out toys of them to mentally unstable bronies #and it looks horrifying. but i digress. this is my nightfury post of the day. peace out #as one last bada bing bada boom fun fact. did you guys know octane my oc is based on my old night fury oc #idk if i said that online. but he is!

[moe-broey]

Fuck it my brain feels super clogged so I'm posting my agenda with little to no context + one doodle idk if I'll color but I kinda want to but I kinda don't LMFAO

(wips I'm hoping to return to ect ect, just a few snippets from a larger Thing)

#fire emblem #UPSETTING. not enough room in my brain for the sheer amount of guys and things. #seriously i feel so overwhelmed jumping from one ip to the next like i had this whole kick where i was about to #go SUPER hard into sumo again and mashing them together w paldea bc i had so many ideas and concepts #but then engage and then a very brief thought about genshin very fleeting and then. pokemon mystery dungeon. #god i was SO feverishly like deeply into pmd again and drawing my oc from when i was 12 and making loose gijinkas #all the while i feel like i've abandoned my boy. and girl. askr siblings...... i miss them #(<- thinks about them every day) #i feel like i'm running in circles chasing my own tail like desperately trying to latch onto anything that can keep my attention #but i am so so soooooooo distracted all of the time amd i have evil boredom syndrome. #i also just keep getting to a point in my art stuff where??? i'm just stuck???? i can't continue???? it's ALL i can think about #but no amount of thinking and looking at it and trying to write it out will actually get me anywhere. AUGH #exploding myself with my mind. so much hatred in the world. #anyways takumi alcyst friendship heroes i'm begging you to make them interact. i think they could be SO funny together #fe takumi #alcryst #my art #wips

[cryptidm0ths]

have. have i mentioned how much i love the way you draw kaname bc i love teh way you draw kaname. someone on twt said he looks butch and i havent been able to get that out of my mind since. my favorite littl guy with blue hair and pronouns

hes just the actual blue hair and pronouns guy!!!!

#ehheheheheh hes just vvvvv fun to draw #apart from when iforget the scars that i by myself decided to give him #aaaa ty am glad you like him :D:D:D:D:D #moth is always googling eboy fashion to find clothing for him butch clothing is probably an avenue to look for more fashion for him #to break from the image of HiMERU but also still kinda being “cool” #and also to go in an opposite direction to oremeru (more androgynous carefully put together and kinda fancy) #oops sorry for a little ramble got a little distracted :p #:D

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

14 tbh

#godwhat am i even sAYING #beige and bullyable got in my head its a great description #also i love the way my yaz re 13 is like this Looking Up #even when she knows she sucks the doctor is still like. larger than life a little. extremely untouchable #in a human way - 13 wont be touched - but that keeps the alien way sort of intact you know what i mean? #and then shes faced with 14 and shes like What a fucking loser #highly dunkable biscuit #yazs reaction to 14 is similar to like 9 or 10 re domesticity #'aw dont tell me i settle down. gross! boring! horrifying!' #anyway i just like the contrast #i like intertwining all the feelings yaz has abt being back on earth and seeing the doctor again and #it turning into this master-like sentiment of 'you used to be fun and now youre a little wimp' #yaz re 13: shes Special #yaz re 14: hes just some guy #bc like the thing is yazs doctor.........like..............travels. #i think is the thing #thats part of it. she loves the doctor for the doctor but she also loves the doctor for the life she leads #and lets yaz lead #i think #anyway yes im still writing this fic sorry i let myself get distracted but i will get it done in the end #also 14 woudl adore being thought of as just some guy #yaz: no i was insulting you #14: 🥰🥰🥰

[elegyofthemoon]

wait actually this one post makes a good point i wish there was actually tags to separate between hsr and hi3 bronseele and on that note actually any of the overlapping characters alskdjfha but the search engine sucks ass on this website so you'll always have overlap either way i think :I

#LIKE !!!!! OK!!!!!! I DO REALLY LIKE BRONSEELE!!!!! BUT ALSO!!!!!! I LIKE HI3 BRONSEELE AND WISH TO LOOK AT STUFF FOR THEM NOT HSR!!!!!!!!! #whhhh i was running into the same problem with cocolia before too T _ T #and its fINE because i saw some servalia while doing so but whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T _ T come onnnnnnnnnn i just wanna look at hi3 stuuuuuuffff #ok maybe this is also like. the worlds sign for me to STOP JUMPING INTO THE TAGS INSTEAD OF PLAYING THE GAME AND STOP SPOILING YOURSELF #but T _ T #i could also just go bother my friends as well about hi3 but i also dont wanna be a bother #... so i decide to. bother? everyone???? by posting???? #illogical. #IT IS DISTRIBUTED ANNOYANCE #anyways point is: i like bronseele's dynamic a lot in hi3 #it actually made me appreciate the bronseele dynamic more in hsr bc i can see where it takes inspiration from #though i feel that the dynamic got switched around for hsr bronseele #but ill spare talking about that LAKSJDFALKSH #snow plays hi3 #i /guess/ im starting a tag on that its fine lmao #anyways if anyones interested i have plans to finish ch 11 and 11 ex tonight. #'but snow thats like 3 hours long and its near bed time' listen i am on a mission. the only thing stopping me right now is the fact that #i told myself i should finish reviewing (but am Very distracted) #and the fact that the game Also is like 'girl you need to STOP YOURE OUT OF STAMINA' #watch me down all these energy drinks (idk what they are) THEN TELL ME I NEED TO STOP #besides i had a pretty good day re: studying today and ive been doing good with my questions ^u^ #so im bout to beat the holy shit out of this exam. whether the exam likes it or not i Will Eviscerate You. #that and i need to recuperate because I was burned out pretty bad today but when i came back from getting lost (wandering around) for like #hours i did fine so weehee #break day and then we'll be in the long haul till tuesday myeheh

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

haha almost felt bad again but then killer sans showed up on my feed

#i am very good at distracting myself #look at me go! #remember to gaslight yourself into feeling better <3 #the only bad side is i feel like my memory and self awareness has been suffering a bit more bc of it? #still better than feeling shit