#look i will never get tired of this joke

[originalaccountname]

putting my hands on your shoulders looking directly into your eyes why are you so insistent that Dazai is faking every emotion every second of every day except when he's acting mean or evil why do you think his dark side is more true than his happier or sillier sides

do you not also have multiple facets you show different people? are we not all beautiful multifaceted individuals? are your actions and reactions not influenced by your emotions and state of mind?

can't he laugh at his own jokes? can't he fondly think of the Agency? can't he be dramatic because he wants to? can't he be surprised by something suddenly happening, even if he knew it would happen? do you not jump when the jack in the box gets out even if you were the one working the mechanism?

why would the mean persona be more real? why would any and all joy be faked? why are you only allowing him misery?

#sorry i saw one too many posts talking about dazai's ''masks'' and how he hides his true self from the ada #and what of it if he still has the potential to hurt others? what of it if he's good at hurting? every day he chooses not to lean into it #not too far at the very least. #isn't kyouk.a skilled at killing? did she not choose not to do it? #i'm not saying dazai's never acting (because it does happen) i'm saying too many people are too quick to brush off- #every non-serious non-mean emotion as ''playing an act'' #why would the mean persona not be a fake?? you thought about that??? what biases are you holding here #he makes jokes. he acts silly. he's a drama queen. he loves it. #you know what IS tiring? having to look evil and untouchable and impassive in front of a whole organization every day as a teenager #as soon as he gets to lupin with od.a and ang.o he goes silly mode. heck- when he *met* ang.o it was because he went silly mode. #as soon as chuuy.a is in proximity he starts yelling children's insults and starts stupid competitions #his silly mode is just as integrated into his personality as the capacity to be the scariest most evil person you've seen #they are not mutually exclusive and having the capacity for either does not mean acting on them #as asagiri said in an interview: bsd isn't about change it's about adaptation. kyouk.a has the talent to kill. she just chooses not to. #dazai has the skills to be evil. he just chooses good. #that got long in the tags sorry #apparently i talk sometimes

[mazojo]

Yeah being boyfriends is cool but have you ever been somebodies partner? Me neither pass the bottle

#and they were fathers oh my god they were fathErs #I am never gonna get tired of doing that joke with them rip y’all who have to read it 200 times #this show is literally the only thing I look forward to every week!!! help #buddy daddies #kazuki #rei #anime #miri

[clowningaroundmars]

my absolute fave thing to read in punkflower fics is lovesick puppy hobie brown

cool-as-a-cucumber hobie overthinking miles' every move, leaving lingering touches on him, longing glances thrown his way

certified BAMF hobie hanging by a doorway or window just a second too long before leaving miles

"skinny-hot" hobie refusing to believe someone as ✨️cool✨️ as miles would be into someone like him

badass punk hobie just yearning and pining and practically draping himself all over miles in desperate attempts but then pulling back all scared when anyone even hints that they should get together

god, i need pining lovesick loser hobie like AIR rn 😭

#mine #punkflower #spiderverse #can yall tell i am Not Normal rn #COOL HOT BADASS FUNNY HOBIE JUST!! *clenches fist* JUST!!! just fuckin swooning #like a victorian lady whenever miles does Anything #i mean do yall SEE the way he pays attention to and looks at miles in the movie? #i am unwell. i will never be able to emotionally recover from this #just... god. i love it #hobie brown spider punk just trailing after miles #joking with him and wrapping him up in all of the clothes he can manage to bring #practically screaming silently for miles' attention at every moment #showing off a lil bit when theyre swinging #dont get me wrong hobie is a very very cool guy. when miles isnt there #miles: shows up #hobie: immediately turns into the worlds biggest clumsiest clown to ever exist #miles: smiles #hobie: crashes into 2 walls a telephone pole and falls over a fence #bonus points if miles literally has zero clue the entire time #bc like obviously miles KNOWS hobie is ridiculously hot. this is canon #but SURELY someone like hobie has nooooo interest in him whatsoEVER right guys? …right? ahaha #IDIOTS the both of them #idiots in love #this is a trope i will never tire of ever #also the skinny-hot comment is a reference to the official atsv script #LOOK IT UP IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY #it is filled to brim with homosexuality and plenty of funny ass lines of miles being jealous #but miles my boy. my baby boy #look at me #you need not be jealous of hobie. YOURE the one in the middle of the love triangle NOT GWEN

[snazum]

Little ster edit I made… Cause there needs to be more in the world :>

special thanks to like the 5-10 people on this website who upload ster clips. This is dedicated to y’all <3

Audio: noir.audioss on tiktok

Song: Like Me - Chase Icon

#ster #ster_ #star_ #ster underscore #st3r #whatever other tags this man has #snazum edits #look im new to the ster community or whatever #i debated putting this on my side blog but it can go on main #i spent time n effort on this #I never make edits/fancams so shoutout to y’all who do that too #this shit is insane but i get it its a beautiful fuckin art form #my eyes burn and im so tired so goodnight i hope u ster fans see this and love it #i promise im in the freak territory like u guys i just hide it for the most part #who am i kidding it should be obvious. #im a hockey fan that resides on tumblr n twt this aint surprising #i made the fckin edm oilers in the sims with friends for fun #its a convoluted timeline now for them dont worry bout it #okah i really need to sleep goodnight we’ll see if the pc uploads first or phone #jokes on the pc i’m not giving it time i want to sleep so GOODNIGHT! For real

[angelboybreakdowns]

im so tired

#its exhausting living here #im the bad guy in every situation #every time i dont accomodate her stupid bullshit whims im evil and creating conflict #dean you arent allowed to get lunch for yourself bc she wants to do a baking project &youre too Disgusting to be in the same room as her fo #*food #dean you arent allowed to listen to music out loud in your room but she can play her music in the living room while you have a migraine #dean you have to ask her what food she wants from town bc she doesnt feel like texting mom herself #dean you have to stop laughing because she thinks your laugh is annoying #dean you arent allowed to eat the bread that was bought for you because she decided she wanted it #dean you arent allowed to wear the one piece of mens clothing youve ever gotten to buy apart from plaid shirts bc she thinks youre too fat #dean you arent allowed to correct her when she says things about you that are objectively untrue #dean she wants to hang out in the living room go back to your room so she doesnt have to be around you #dean she wants a book for english class you have to give her one of yours #dean you arent allowed to be angry at her for ripping the cover off one of your favorite books & nrver apologizing that was years ago #dean you arent allowed to make plans with your friends this weekend bc she might want to hang out w her friends & wants to keep moms schedul #schedule open to drive her #dean you arent allowed to eat until she serves herself #dean if youre making food & she refuses to eat bc you were in the kitchen thats your fault #dean how dare you say her hair looks like sam winchesters #dean you cant be angry when she calls you fat & ugly & disgusting & tells you to kill yourself you shouldnt let it get to you #sui mention #dean you cant get new pants bc she wants to buy this dress that she’ll never wear #dean its not a big deal when she misgenders you she waa just joking #dean shes not ableist bc youre the only autistic person she thinks is faking it for attention #im just so goddamn tired

[shesalewa]

My Roman Empire is 14yro me joking about committing suicide before my mom died because I was too scared to hear or learn about her death, and my mother's response to that was

"Stop saying that. You know the only worst thing that can happen to a parent is their children dying before them."

I still think about that whenever I joke about killing myself.

#ever since i started highschool i started having a joke about killing myself #whenever i got stressed I'd say: #ugh. i wanna die. #of course it's was to make the people around me get used to my dark humor #however i didn't think I'd use it so much thag even i didn't know if it a joke anymore #but from the very start i think my mom knew something was wrong with me #but she never sent me to a therapist nor a psychiatrist. we can't really afford that. not even now. #but she'd find ways to make me. my sister. and brother feel like we have worth. #but when she said that i think she thought that she's failing as a parent #especially because her husband was always absent in raising us #i still joke about killing myself. but i tone it down a bit because i don't want my mom to look at me like that again #it's sad #i dont like the way she stared at me #im probably being dramatic #but ever since then whenever my mom came home tired and stressed #and i wad happy and energized. #i would take half of her negative energy and be sad too

[mean-scarlet-deceiver]

BoCo and Bear have this unique look they exchange. Not every day but like once every month or so—whenever there is extremely predictable drama going down at Tidmouth.

It's a wordless "Can you believe this shit?" / "No, somehow, even after forty years, I cannot quite believe this shit."

#i was going to call it 'omfg more steam engine shit' look but that's not fair #because this exchange of glances gets an extra-vigorous workout every time a Rude Visiting Diesel is about #but to be fair it's time to shine is *also* when everyone is singing the tunnel song or joking about backing signals or somethin #i say 40 years because it took them a while to realize it's always just the same ten arguments rehashed #and it took 'em *even longer* to realize that although *they* were now tired of it #the famous eight *still* weren't and they NEVER WOULD BE #ttte #the railway series #ttte boco #ttte bear #ttte headcanon #i excluded oliver because he doesn't repeat himself #like he fucks up and causes drama frequently but the boy keeps it fresh #and donald and douglas are usually givin' each other the same look asdfkl;dfs;l (but they are MUCH less subtle about it lol) #sometimes the caledonians and the diesels can even mix-and-match in a pinch! #(you know what that is? GROWTH 💚)

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

[wandaxpietro]

everything goes so slow for pietro i am 100% convinced he's incredibly terminally online to get his dopamine hits. he's so active on twitter people are worried about him. he keeps getting suspended bcuz he keeps sending people death threats and doxxing them and then has to call tony up so he can pay to get his accound back. he shows up in front of houses of people he beefs with. he fights with teenagers online all day. the official avengers twitter account has him blocked.

#tumblr user ill-say-this-fast (ily) said he'd esp get really into discourse concerning wanda and literally #he searches her name up and inserts himself into any conversation he finds #he's deranged #i said this on twitter circle some time ago but fanfic is real in the comics and so is superhero rpf #what i am trying to say is i am 100% convinced he looks up fanfics of himself jdhfghf #reading scarletsilver fic kicking his feet twirling his hair commenting 'quicksilver would not fucking say that' but bookmarking anyway. et #he keeps dropping social media lingo and wanda never has any clue what he's talking about so she just smiles and nods #she's so nice and thinks of him so highly so mostly she assumes it's words from poetry he's read but actually his brain is just rotted #he gets pissed bcuz a teenager online he was fighting with called him 'old' at least once a day #etc. #luna is social media age now (14 ish) but she's only on instagram where he's not this bad so she isn't confronted with it. luckily #lorna thinks his twitter activities are SO funny though #magneto isn't quite sure how to use a computer (< joking... mostly) so he's not on twitter #but lorna keeps him updated on their daily tea sessions bcuz she thinks it's hilarious. magneto is very tired #ok i need to stop. i just have a lot of thoughts about pietro twitter okay. #we got that one glimpse in damage control where he tagged them to complain about an employee sgzdugdh he's just like that all the time #txt

[screwnames-ihatenames]

Y’all ever have some tell you x5 in five seconds to go brush your teeth when you also need to bathe and when you get mad at them and yell because they are not helping at all in fact are making it worse they immediately go “SHUT UP I DONT WANNA HEAR YOU TALK” because you start bringing up valid arguments like that is not helping me you repeated that in the spam of five seconds I also have other stuff and they can’t stand the fact that just because the rest of the family isn’t here they can’t just tell you to do stuff and you know you shouldn’t have yelled but they do this all the time and you’re tired of it and just want them to realize that they actually help less by telling you to shower/brush your teeth/bathe every two seconds when it’s obvious you’re tired and it just feels like they’re dragging you around and you can’t get made back otherwise they just tell you they don’t want to here you speak get away from me yada yada I hate my sister

#r rambling #vent #look we’re close sometimes but I have basically accepted that she just babies me sometimes tells me to do stuff and we don’t share common #interests so we just genuinely have no way of getting along #also she jokes at my expense every two fucking seconds she legit never shuts up and if someone calls her out she says #‘YOU NEVER TAKE MY SIDE’ #I Wonder Why fucking asshole #anyway just tired of my sister babying and bossing me around and getting mad when I respond unkindly

[soda-pop-kandy-krush]

what is it like having normal family who does not constantly guilt trip you :)

#vent #sorry ik i never actually complain on here but im just so sick and tires #tired #i do so much for them and then today they turn around and tell me im lazy #i think they thought it was a funny joke but honestly it’s just fucking rude #i cook i run errands i give them lifts and pick them up. and what do i get in return? minimal thanks and told im lazy #whatever man like yeah ill contribute to household but you could at least act a little grateful for it #feeding you and running around for you is not my responsibility i could move out and leave you to your own devices #i hate it bc they will just. not eat. if i don’t cook #whatever idc anymore go starve #like sorry i wanted one (ONE) day off. sorry that it looks like im being lazy when really im so depressed and suicidal that one bad comment- #-will push me over the edge #EDIT sorry there’s more #if it’s not being ‘lazy’ it’s the fact that ive gained weight #or that i don’t shave my legs or that i have facial hair or don’t wear makeup or do my nails #just never good enough for them

[skhardwarevers1]

that feeling when you want to post a rant/vent but it just feels like another attempt to get attention <<<<<<<<<(x one million)

#Oh wow and would you look at that this in itself is just another way for me to get fucking attention #For being a sensitive little whiny bitch who can’t take a fucking joke #I’m just so fucking tired of this shit #I wannna say I don’t give a fuck what my dad has to say abt my life kr jokes he makes #But obviously that’s a fucking lie since I just spent half an hour violently sobbing in the shower #Todays not my day guys #I need to sleep for seventeen fucking years straight #Better than that just forever atp I’m so done with this shit #I just feel like everyone I know fucking hates me including myself #Like I fuck up one time and suddenly I’m not even trustworthy enough for you to trust that I fucking went to xtra help for a half hour #Like omfg just kill me already. I hate this shit. #And I know he was probably joking but like it still fucking hurts yknow? #And now I can’t leave my room cuz I look like a fucking mess and you can tell I’ve been crying #I’m actually ready to fucking just give up on all this shit #I’ve been trying so fucking hard to try to improve. I’m doing what you fucking asked me to like omfggggg #I dunno I just feel like shit I’ll be fine #Just me being a sensitive bitch again. Literally that’s all it ever is #Tbh if I never fucking dated my first partnrr I wouldn’t fucking be like thid #I fucking hate everything #Kill me #Whatever. This shit fucking sucks #Vent

[podcastdyke]

Thank you to The Silt Verses for a genuine and real depiction of a degenrative memory disorder. Harrowing to listen to

#tsv #i'm just. it isn't a joke it is harrowing and it is tiring and it is scary and frustrating and confusing and sad #the feeling of. there was so much i wanted to say to you. and i will never get to say them #that's a whole other post. silt verses will not give you closure huh. it looks at you and says sometimes you wont get your cool monologue #sometimes theres no retrobution no apology no catharsis sometimes people hurt you and wont answer for it #SORRY normal. thoughts

[rotisseries]

hi guys I have to submit a yearbook quote tomorrow (tomorrow as in today because it is past midnight for me but whatever) and I am completely blanking on what to submit so here's a poll you guys pick

#posting this and then going to sleep #pros and cons of each one: #1. pros: funny objectively. never gonna get tired of references to the deaths of ancient grecians. my dad suggested it. cons: common joke #2. pros: my dad said it. and I like it. I hear this all the time which makes it better than picking some generic quote. #cons: I looked this up it was said by some baseball player. people will take it seriously and I'm not the kind of person #who unironically quotes baseball players about how getting close isn't acceptable you need to succeed or whatever #3. pros: funny cause the citation will say pitbull. mr worldwide himself. cons: unironically an Inspirational Quote™️ #may get rejected for references to “getting wasted” also #4. pros: what if the joker could beatbox. suggestion made my brother laugh hysterically. cons: somewhat obscure. nigh incomprehensible #5. pros: potentially this means strangers lyrics in the 2k23 yearbook. cons: potentially this means strangers lyrics in the 2k23 yearbook #alright thank you guys so much for your help also again feel free to suggest better options okay goodnight!!

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

On the one hand I haven't eaten anything today and that's definitely a failure by rehab standards, on the other hand I ate an entire 2000 calories yesterday and if I eat anything right now I think I might throw up. So.

I guess it is what it is. I just want to be a normal person who eats normal amounts of food. Why is that so damn hard?

#i made a joke to my grandma the other day about slowly starving to death #and she said back 'youd think youd be thinner then' #and i know she didn't mean for that to matter to me like it did but like #that's what everyone says #no one ever believes that i simply dont eat #they look at me and they think to themselves #thats someone who must eat a lot who must love food who must get plenty and need to cut back #and it has simply never occurred to someone from looking at me that i fight tooth and fucking nail #just to crack 800 calories a day #never not once not in 15 years but it's been true that long #and its so exhausting to be called a liar to be told i need to be more honest in my food diary to be told to eat better #like bitch if i were eating for me do you think id eat this shit????? #no i eat what i do because im desperately trying to pack in enough calories in a day and i know i physically cant eat enough #if i were eating for me it would be all #carrots and berries and woodland forage shit like some fucking rabbit and id only ever manage like 400 calories a day and id be dead by now #i dunno man i just get so tired i try so hard to do as im told to eat to sleep to shower to take my meds to function but i just #i just can't man #i often think about the fact that im probably just fighting the inevitably institutionalization that has been waiting for me since age 14 #but whatever

[firelordhotman]

friendly reminder that even if youre open about something on your blog, even if you think its so obviously right in your about/description/pinned/whatever, most of the people who will interact with you are not even looking that far at your blog. they dont know your name or your pronouns or your disabilities or your interests or your credentials or whatever you think is just *so obvious* that they *must* be intentionally ignoring it just to hurt you. ESPECIALLY not if theyre a random stranger who youve never interacted with once before, has never interacted with you once before either, and has absolutely zero reason to care about you. its not a personal attack, its just a fact. this is literally the internet

#i am TIRED. yes this is a vaguepost idc #utter stranger shows up in my notifs DEMANDING i explain a simple little joke tag about me and my loved ones experiences #as if i owe them the slightest ounce of attention in my day #and then when i do explain my & my loved ones lived experiences. they get mad & say im using THEIR personal experiences as a weapon #like. i dont have the slightest clue what your personal experiences are! i dont even know your name!! and i dont want to nor do i have to!! #i dont mean this rudely. but factually: you are not important enough to me to care even a little bit about your experiences #i dont bring up suicide or addiction or any shit like that because its Your experience. bc i have no fucking idea what your experience is #i talk about those things because its MY EXPERIENCE. that IM TALKING ABOUT. in the tags of a post that doesnt belong to either of us no les #this is probably the last thing im gonna post abt this bc i know youre still up my ass looking at everything i post rn #but to finish off. i was never even making a Point about anything in the tag. i wasnt starting discourse about anything. #it was just an Acknowledgement of a shared experience that me and many of my loved ones have. whether u like it or not #like literally i dngaf if YOU personally wouldnt describe your experience that way. We do describe it that way! We can be different #i just made a silly little tag for my friends to see. and YOU decided that you were entitled to both hear my life story and blatantly #misinterpret everything i say about it. like literal 'how dare you say we piss on the poor' type shit #like. saying 'x can cause y' does not mean im saying 'y is literally x' fucking OBVIOUSLY. god #i didnt fucking ask for this! YOU DID!! YOURE the one who DEMANDED it of me unprompted #& clearly must have just gone looking thru the tags of posts for ppl to beef with lollllll #i mean cmon. you didnt follow me i didnt follow you and that wasnt even your post. theres no other explanation lmao its p obvious #anyway i hope u find a better hobby or at least a more fun and fulfilling way to use this website. sincerely #at least get some better critical thinking skills before picking stupid arguments with random strangers online #but hey! play stupid games win stupid prizes<3 right?? #also one final note: to hear someone talking about the lived experiences of them and their real life loved ones and go 'hmm. sounds fake'. #its just giving Friendless. its giving 'how could anyone make fun art without doing crazy drugs!!'. #its giving 'Wait yall have friends irl? i thought it was just a joke'. its fucking hilarious and im gonna think about it forever #thank u for a lifetime supply of laughs godspeed