#loosing friends

[n-k-r-v]

Oh my sunflower, my muse…

How we drifted so far apart.

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[rotatingwafflemaker]

sometimes

i get

mad at myself

for not

keeping in contact

with my friends

but then

i remember

that they haven't

called

me

either

and then i wonder

if our distance

is

my

fault

or

theirs

#my poetry #spilled poetry #my poem #poem #poetry #lost friends #friends #lost friendship #original poem #poems on tumblr #poetry community #young poets #this one was hard #loosing friends

[hazyxmsxj]

Anxious and hurting... Glad I'm going out, hopefully it'll help distract me. 😕

#alt girl #stoner #geek girl #marijuana #cannababes #cannafam #cannabis #kinkystuff #kinky baby #hot nerd #im sad and tired #im hurtin #heartache #loosing friends #heartbreak #wanna disappear

[a-round-of-robyns]

may 17th

#theo writes #theo's thoughts #friendships #drifting apart #loosing friends #prose??? maybe??

[thebiggestmenace]

I think loosing friends is a grief of its own.

I still remember everything about you. I know your hyperfixations. I watch things and imagine what'd you think of it and who your favourite character would be. I think of your favourite characters and see a piece of you in them. I think of you for your birthday and sometimes catch myself counting down the days until your big day. I know the bad things that have happened to you and can only hope you've healed from them and that your life is going well.

I have all this love with nowhere to put it because, yes, we were friends once, but we've grown past each other and we probably wouldn't be good for each other anymore. I have all this love and all this knowledge. where do I put it? I don't know if I want to forget it because in forgetting these things, I would be forgetting you. and yeah, we aren't friends anymore, but we were once. and we were good friends. I don't want to forget that. but what do I do with all this leftover from you?

#loosing friends #cw grief #creative writing #all this love #with nowhere to go #rambling menace

[void-between-the-stars]

The Dunkin parking lot across from the gas station is the last time she and I actually had something to talk about.

It was about sports, funnily enough. The last race of high school had been cancelled, so we sat there as the sun set, and drank our peach passion fruit teas, swatting at the mosquitos that flew in the open windows.

The last time I saw her, we were at the park. Something felt like it had changed. We sat quietly in her slowly cooling car, finally out of things to say.

#friends #friendship #loosing friends #high school #moving on #growing up #growing pains #best friend #diaryposting #my wiritng

[tak3itsl0wly]

you broke me.

When we re-connected, i thought it was going to be forever. I thought you were the one who would be by my side forever.

For months we kept it hush hush. I wondered if you were embarrassed of me, that you didn't want anyone knowing you "went back to your ex". Then something happened & you left ..

When you left, it felt like my whole world came crashing down, the darkness slowly crept in and took over my world.. and you were no where in sight. Almost like you never existed..

I almost wish you didn't exist.. So my heart could heal and move on ... however that will never be the case. Because no matter the distance, no matter the time, no matter who comes into my heart & no matter who loves me..

My heart will always and forever hold you in it.

I wish i had the courage to say something sooner, i wish you had spoken up sooner.. I just wish it worked out, the way i thought it was going to in the summer of 2020.

#twin flame #grieving #loosing friends #missed out #im sory

[thelikesoffinn]

The Art of Indifference

Loosing friends is really...funny, in a way.

The Person who kept telling you 'you're my best friend' , 'I don't know what I would do without you' and 'I don't care about any of them, but something would be missing if we weren't friends' is suddenly all silent and feels miles away. They don't try to talk to you, even if you suddenly stopped contacting them without warning. It just stops from one day to another.

And suddenly you realise that you've been the one to give all this time, while they just took and took and took.

And then you start to turn indifferent.

It's what happened to me, and it's just so strange to think about. Truly strange.

She was my best friend.

I really thought she was. And I don't hate her, even now.

I'm just disappointed.

Looking back, I don't think she ever returned what I gave. Of course, she was nice, she helped me out sometimes and she bought me nice things on my birthdays.

But it never felt like she truly cared.

I was constantly used as a pillar of support, as someone she could lean on; constantly used as the one person who listened to her every woes, who'd give her comfort and advice. I was always the one person who accepted her fully without questioning anything.

I never got any of that back.

My emotions, my thoughts, my problems. Everything was made light of and brushed off. It felt like she never cared whenever I needed support. I was always crying silently on my own; got left behind even while I was telling her that I was feeling horrible.

The minute I told her that, told her that I felt like she didn't care, like she didn't even want to talk to me half the time, like she wasn't able to offer me any empathy when I needed it...the minute I started to cry right there in the light, easy for her to see; asking her to treat me just a tiny bit better, to reciprocate any of the support I'd lend her all this time... the only thing she could do was say 'I'm sorry you misunderstood me'.

Like this was all my fault.

Like I totally didn't get her, and that's why I felt this way. Everything I said, every problem I brought up was turned back on me. I was the crazy one, I was the one at fault for telling her: "Sometimes I want to be comforted as well. I don't want to go through everything alone, even if I technically can." It was all my fault because I was the one who misunderstood everything.

At this point, we'd been friends for twelve years.

Twelve.

Years.

Twelve years of friendship and it all ended after six minutes of monologue. It ended after six minutes of her telling me I misunderstood everything. It ended with a tiny part of me dying.

The part of me that cared enough to talk to her, that is. The longer she talked, the calmer I got. Anger turned down to simmer, tears stopped coming as she slowly killed the part of me that clung to our friendship sentence by sentence.

By the end, I was done with her, and she didn't even realise. I stopped talking, I stopped asking for her support, and I withdrew completely.

It's odd, innit?

It's so odd to think that had she said anything else; Had she apologised for hurting me, for brushing me off; Had she even acknowledged that she'd been unintentionally hurting me all this time in any way, it wouldn't have come to this.

Indifference is funny that way.

All it takes, sometimes, is one word.

A tiny, seemingly insignificant word can make all the difference.

Indifference is different than anger or sadness. Anger can be soothed, sadness can be cheered up. But what to do about indifference? What to do when somebody simply stopped caring altogether? When someone doesn't want revenge, doesn't want to argue and isn't even mad? When all they want is for you to have a nice life somewhere else?

What do you do when someone has finally turned indifferent?

This can't be fixed anymore. It is done, and you've lost your chance.

All that's left is to realise how dire the situation truly was as the other person is slowly walking away from you.

They're walking away without looking back.

#friendship #indifference #friendship breakups #friend breakup #loosing friends #give and take #mental health #toxic friends #i dont even know what this is #but I guess here we are #sadness #sad thoughts

[parkerstream]

Friends

“To me they were my everything, to them I was just a friend...”

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To me they were my people so I will obviously forever have them engraved into my mind. But to them I was just a friend. Friends are forgotten. I never forgot you.

I was left for dead: we would never make it in war. Yet no point in going to war, it spreads diseases. Our relationship was already infected from a sickness no one would ever write about in medical books. But it existed we were the cause and the cure. 

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#frienship #brokenfriendship #found family #poem #quotes #loosing friends #lgbtq #nonbinary #quick write #writing #friends #summertime sadness #beachwrites #queer #poc writers #queer writers #relationship #lgbt

[ourmisunderstoodmuse]

Now you leave me. Just because I can't love you.

#thinking #i need attention #i need to know #i'm sad #deep #love quotes #dead #dead to me #i needed to let it out #loosing you #loosing friends

[afoolinfoolsclothing]

Can I ever be more than just an afterthought

#lonely af #loosing friends #depressed #sad boi hours all the time

[pulvis-e-umbra]

Perhaps I don’t want to grow up after all not if it means getting hurt like this by people that I thought were going to be with me till the end of time

#that moment when a friend hurts you irrepably #I think I can’t forgive you and that is what is tearing me up #I want to love you but you’ve just killed me #loosing friends #friendship #newly eighteen #and I’ve just lost my best friend

[red-white-black]

It's starting to happen again.

The pattern is always the same.

I dont understand why I never win, I made sure to do it in advance, so do all the confirmations, to keep in contact, to be a good friend.... and this is what I get?

She said that turns out she didnt have any dates, because she was either with her bf's family or hers.

Still waiting for the other one's answer but let me guess, she is gonna say no too.

And the last one already said she would be there only 1 day.

I feel abandoned, that's how it always starts... Why am i not good enough for them?

Why do people always leave me?

Why am I never their first choice?

Why do I keep putting them first when they never do it for me?

Why does it keep happening?

Why can't I just be happy?

Why does the universe keep giving me this shit?

Why?

Am I not struggling enough?

Am I not working hard enough?

When Is it my time to be happy?

Why does my life suck so much?

Why do people always leave me?

Why me?

Now I feel bad that my parents rented out the place for nothing.

I dont want to feel anything anymore.

I dont want to exist anymore.

All this isnt worth it.

I am so tired

#vent post #personal vent #vent tw #late night #abonnement #anxious attachment #rejection sensitive dysphoria #loosing friends #tw depression #burn out #mentally tired #mental health #i am so tired

[a-round-of-robyns]

counting to 2

#theo writes #theo's thoughts #cw: mentions of panic attacks #anxiety #depression #google docs #friendships #loosing friends #prose??? maybe??

[swift-stan]

thanking about the friends that were meant to last forever. like we were meant to be friends and i’m certain of it but then outside forces drove us apart and now we’ll never be like how we used to.

#lost frienship #loosing friends #friends #loss

[mycptsdstory]

My friend shared this, it's so true.

#cptsdhealing #living with cptsd #cptsd problems #cptsd thoughts #actually cptsd #just cptsd things #cptsd tag #tw cptsd #actually ptsd #cptsd vent #bounderies #setting boundaries #loosing friends #cptsd #tiktok video #tiktok viral #tiktok videos #video #video post #viral video