#losing my fucking mind listening to these people

[withabroken-heart]

PHONE CALL

dazai x fem! reader

smut, minors DNI (ageless blogs will be blocked)

dazai fucks you while you’re on the phone.

oral (fem receiving), degrading, slight humiliation, edging, dazai being kind of an asshole

dazai had you pinned against his bed, legs thrown over his shoulders. clothes had been long forgotten at this point, as the only thing you could truly focus on was your mind going blank.

one hand fondled your breast, squeezing and massaging it in soft circles. he rolled your nipple in between his fingers, pinching you gasped at his fast pace. meanwhile, his other hand diligently fingered your sweet pussy, his thumb rubbing circles on your clit while his two fingers thrusted in and out of you. he’d smirk every time he felt your walls clench around his slender digits.

you wanted to cry out, moan for him to let you release, but there was one problem.

dazai had dialled the armed detective agency on your phone. you called in sick today, but the president had insisted you at least attend the important meeting over the phone. and thats how you ended up here.

for now, he has given you the mercy of muting the call, but your embarrassment spoke volumes. he sped up the pace of his fingers, immediately causing your hands to fly up to your mouth covering yourself. dazai was quick to grab your wrists and pin them above your head, leaning in to whisper into your ear.

“now now bella, how will they hear your beautiful moans with your mouth covered?” he knew what he was doing, refusing to let your wrists go as his fingers worked tirelessly on your pussy. you were dripping by now, his fingers sliding in and out of you at a slick pace. you were ready to cum any minute now, but not when it was dazai pleasuring you.

“my pretty little slut wants to cum? hm? not till i’ve gotten a taste of you..‘’

much to your dismay, dazai unmuted the call. it was now up to you to stay quiet.

he lowered his head, throwing your thighs over his shoulders. he grins as he trails his head down your body, spreading your pussy lips with his fingers. he teases your sensitive bundle of nerves with feather-light kisses, kissing the innermost corners of your thighs but not daring to eat you out. he wanted this to be slow. he wanted you to lose your mind.

his eyes gleam with wicked delight as he hovers mere inches from your throbbing pussy. he slowly, tantalizingly drags the tip of his tongue along your swollen clit, sending shivers of pleasure through your body. he dips his head lower, his tongue circling your entrance before slowly pushing inside. dazai moans against your slick folds, savoring your sweet taste as he works to drive you wild with need. he slowly and torturously running his tongue along your slick folds, savouring your taste like no other.

your hands covered your mouth. you wanted to scream and cry for him, tell him to go faster and beg him to let you cum, but not when you had people listening. dazai knew exactly what he was doing to you, and he loved it.

dazai groans hungrily as he dives in, his skilled tongue exploring every inch of your pussy. he laps at your sensitive flesh, delighting in the way you squirm and moan under his touch. his movements are relentless, driving you wild with pleasure as he savors your tangy taste. he sucks and licks with shameless abandon, working to push you closer and closer to the edge of release. he holds nothing back, determined to bring you to the heights of pleasure - and to torment you for his own sadistic delight.

he plunges his tongue back inside, stroking and teasing your most sensitive spots as his fingers grip your thighs, holding you firmly in place. dazai is relentless in this, determined to fill you with ecstasy. staying quiet was becoming unbearable. his tongue leaves no part of you untouched. he starts to suck ob your clit, knowing how close you were to cumming but refusing to let you. he sucks hard and then using his tongue to leave a long stroke up and down your folds. the noises of your co-workers was mere white noise to you. you could only focus on the way his tongue ate you out like a starved man.

after what felt like forever, dazai pulled back up. to your relief, he muted the phone once more. you took the opportunity to catch your breath, but apart of you knew he wasn’t done. he grabbed your chin and forced you to look at him.

“f-fuck. please, fuck i-i’m gonna cum..” you begged to him. he only smirked, knowing what he was doing to you.

“is that so? you’re such a pretty slut, if only they knew how obedient you are to me..” he placed a wet kiss on your neck. he lined up his cock to your entrance, ready to claim you. but he held back, purposely teasing your sensitive clit without granting you what you wanted so bad.

“look at you, so wet and needy for me…” slowly, sensually, he ran the tip of his shaft up and down your slick folds, eliciting a frustrated whimper from you. he chuckled darkly, reveling in the power he held over you. “you have to beg for it first.”

“please.. please i need your cock so bad dazai! i-i want you to fuck me… please..” you could barely speak, needing nothing but for him to pound into you like he owned your pussy.

he leaned in once again. “if you think about cumming without my permission, i’ll fuck you right in the agency office.”

with that, he unmuted the phone-call and pushed himself inside of you. he thrust his hips forward, burying his throbbing cock deep inside your welcoming heat. a groan escaped his lips at the sensation of their tight, slick walls enveloping him. luckily, the meeting was just about over, but at this point neither of you cared. dazai finally ended the call, letting you scream to your hearts content.

picking up a punishing pace, dazai pounded into you, relentlessly driving his cock home again and again. the sound of your bodies slapping together filled the air, mingling with their cries of pleasure and pain. "thats right, take my cock like the dirty slut you are," he groaned, voice dripping with cruel satisfaction. “you were made for this, to be used and filled up by me.”

your pussy ached to cum, wanting to clench around his cock with your release. the sounds from your mouth was a mixture of moans, cries, and begging. his pace began to get sloppy, wanting nothing more than to plant himself deep inside of you. but he wasn’t going to make it that easy for you.

“you wanna cum? hm? beg.” he teased.

“please! fuck- oh- please.. please let me cum dazai! i can’t take it anymore.. fuck..”

he leaned down, planting one last wet kiss underneath your ear. “than cum for me.”

you screamed.

you felt your walls clench around his cock, your cum coating him perfectly. dazai planted his release in thick white ropes of cum, pulling out and watching your pussy drip full of him. he left more lazy kisses on your neck, bringing you back down to earth by his side. you gasped, your body warm and buzzing enjoying his warmth on top of you. but despite your exhaustion, something piqued your interest.

“now, about what you said about fucking me in the agency office?”

#bsd x reader #bsd dazai #bungo stray dogs x reader #bungou stray dogs dazai #bsd chuuya #bsd fanart #bungo stray dogs dazai #bungo stray dogs fanart #bungo stray dogs manga #bungou stray dogs #dazai and odasaku #beast dazai #dazai x y/n #dazai x you #osamu x reader #dazai osamu #bsd fyodor #bsd atsushi #bsd rp #bungou stray dogs chuuya #dazai smut #dazai x reader #osamudazai #dazai fanart #bungo stray dogs chuuya #bungou sd #bungo sd #bungo stray dogs akutagawa #dazai x chuuya #osamu smut

[wrr000]

"Can you be quiet for five minutes?"

AN: hello! i wrote this for fun, it's nothing serious or special, i just needed to do something with myself. hope y'all will enjoy it anyway lol (also, i had that one scene from shrek 2 in mind)

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Summary: the night wasn't peaceful for the ghoul because reader talks too much

Warnings: english is not my first language; reader is female; it was supposed to be more of a comedic oneshot; a lot of inner thoughts

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The night was getting cold. Chilly air mixed with the pleasant warmth emanating from the fire, touching your red cheeks. It was a nice feeling, especially after a whole day of walking in the brutal heat. The sun was killing you and the night was a nice change.

'I fucking hate wasteland', you thought to yourself every day.

Burning sun, disgusting monsters, crazy raiders or even that ghoul, literally everything could kill you any minute. It was hard to survive out there alone ans you knew that. Maybe that was a reason why you didn't ran away from him yet.

"So...", you couldn't stand the silnce anymore, "are you gonna finally untie me?"

You sat by the bonfire with your legs pressed to your chest, staring into the sparkling flames. Hands still tightly tied, of course. The other end of the lasso held the ghoul whom you met a few days ago.

He was sitting on the other side of the fire, leaning against a huge piece of something wooden. He looked like he was sleeping with a cowboy hat covering his face. The ghoul wasn't like anyone you've met before, but you weren't sure if it was a blessing or a curse. He did tied you up after all and have gave you no choice, but to travel with him to God-knows-where. On the positive side - he didn't killed you. And that was something unexpected.

"Hellooo..? Did you hear me, Mr. Ghoul?", you never called him like that before, but you wanted any interaction.

No response. Was he really sleeping or just pretending that he didn't hear you?

It was in his style, to be honest. Ever since you met him, he seemed cold, selfish, like he doesn't care about anything else in the world but him. Sometimes straight up annoying, sometimes kinda funny and nice in a twisted way. These mixed feelings made you somewhat intrigued.

"Listen lady" , he didn't looked at you. "I need some peace and quiet so no stupid questions or talkin', got it?"

"Oh, come on! We have been travelling for days! I'm not gonna do anything stupid", it was this time when he was just annoying as hell.

"I bet you won't, sweetheart", you knew he smirked under that stupid hat.

"So what, are you gonna keep me like this to what? Sell me for chems? Or eat me one day?", you spoke once again. "You know, both options are pretty problematic for you because, I mean, you are really planning to sell skinny, dehydrated girl and hoping for decent payment?", fake scoff escaped your mouth. "Keep dreaming. I am way more useful as a compa-"

By anything stupid you meant something like killing him or running away. First of all, he was very skilled and you knew that attacking him was suicidal mission. Second of all, you could try to escape, but you didn't know if it was even possible with this man and did you really wanted to?

On one hand, there were plenty ways for him to hurt you. Shooting, beating, selling, starving you to death or worse - eating you alive. It was something... common on the wasteland. People were doing everything to survive and as crazy as it sounded, you understood it, the ghoul knew it as well. But on the other hand, after raiders killed your parents, life became harder than before. You hated it and what you hated more was loneliness. You had none, no friend and no family left. Maybe it was delusional, but you hoped for befriending the ghoul and travel with him for a little longer. Or maybe he could help you made it to town where you could stay. In that situation you didn't have many options (it didn't work by force anyway) to consider or anything to lose, to be honest.

"Oh, for fu-", he straightened up, finally looking at you.

You didn't have many opportunities to meet him face to face and take a closer look. Beautiful eyes spoke more than thousand words, that's for sure. The most noticeable thing was the lack of a nose, but aside that the face was handsome. You could imagine how he looked like before the ghoulification. In fact, you always thought that people were exaggerating with their disgust towards non-feral ghouls. They were still humans, right?

"You asked me a milion questions already, while I couldn't ask you one", you heard the irritation in his voice. "You better don't cross the line"

That silence was overhelming. Sure, the sound of camfire was nice, but your thoughts were getting weirder and weirder. You needed something to occupy your mind and because you weren't the best at small talk (or starting a conversation at all) you came up with the stupidest idea.

Classic threating. You rised your tided hands, palms facing him in surrender. It wasn't the right time to ask about the future and you didn't wanna cross the line, at least not that night. He was looking at you for a moment, making sure you wouldn't ask anything else and returned to his previous position.

You stared at him, trying to figure out what he was thinking about and you couldn't read him. Not before, not now and probably not in the near future. He seemed like he could always read your mind while being completely unpredictable to you. What he thought about you? What was his plan? You should be very scared or just scared? Many questions were running in your head, but you couldn't find answer for none.

"What it's like to be a ghoul?", you mentally slapped yourself, but there was no turning back now. "I mean, how did you become a ghoul? It was quick or it was a long process? My parents never told me much about ghouls"

Deep, long sigh escaped his mouth. He looked at you again, not bothering to move his body. Even someone like him lacked words and strength for you.

"Did someone ever told that you talk so much?", a ghost of a smile crept across his face.

"Actually, yes, my father told me that once", you smiled proudly.

"No lesson learned", you quite enjoyed his harsh voice with strange accent. He definitely didn't talk enough. "Can you be quiet for five minutes?"

"Hm, I'm afriad no, Mister", then it striked you. "I don't know your name! I won't shut up until you will told me your name. Wait, you do have a name, right?"

"Yes", you felt annoyed again by his lack of cooperation.

"Well..? You know my name, even you don't use it, may I know yours?"

"Cooper", the ghoul hide his face under the hat again. "Now, let me rest for a while, will ya?"

Bright smile appeared on your face. That was what you called a progress. It was genuinely a cool name and suddenly you started to wonder if he liked yours.

"But...", you heard a growl from under the hat, "we will talk about what to do next? I know how things works out here, but... We don't have to be enemies. I know you want to survive and I don't wanna be your prisoner forever"

You were on thin ice and for the first (and not last) time in your life you couldn't gather your thoughts. You wanted to tell him a lot of things in one go.

"I'm not your enemy, sweetheart, you don't have to worry. Now sleep or I'll have to shoot that pretty face"

You noded quietly. You knew that tomorrow you would try to talk to him again, still hoping for some sort of cooperation or agreement. Your life was on the line, after all. Not to mention that he called you pretty and even another threat couldn't take it away from you. Maybe that was the sign that he doesn't mean no harm to you, there was a hope, at least.

#fallout #fallout tv show #fallout series #fallout x reader #the ghoul #the ghoul x reader #cooper howard x reader #cooper howard #fallout the ghoul #fallout cooper howard

[things-arent-what-they-seem66]

Dunno if you're still accepting writing prompts but I have one: Adam has been losing considerable weight and most at the hotel notice this while he's surprisingly unaware of it. He's under a lot of stress from not only trying to get redemption to go back to Heaven, he's dealing with issues of Lucifer being present there, finding out that he's not as straight as he once was, so dealing with internalized biphobia, religious guilt and reoccurring trauma since Luci was the catalyst for most of his issues back in Eden. Charlie, Lucifer, Angel (Husk by proxy) and even Vaggie are the most concerned about him and are trying to decide how to address it without him getting defensive. But because he's Adam, he needs to be told directly. Even though she's sure it will end badly, Vaggie decides to address it and it seems like Adam's surprisingly taking it well, but he looks so distracted and distant. Vaggie pushes just a little bit and suddenly Adam explodes basically the gist is: "Why did I have to like Lucifer of all people?! I don't want to like him! He ruined my life, he took away everything I ever loved!" Unknown to either one of them, Lucifer is listening in and he just looks so...despondent and leaves.

Vaggie helping Adam would be a special experience. She has every reason to hate the guy but has come to like him.

Hearing about Adams new found feelings for Lucifer, thinking he's gay and is going through the emotions she can relate. She remembers the way she felt when she was figuring herself out and how her devine felt about heaven once she was in Hell. It's a mind fuck.

Lucifer hearing that he is part of the reason Adam is like this would be conflicting. He'd be happy that Adam feels the same but guilty that he's the reason he's hurting..... Again.

So he would give him space, maybe too much and THAT would hurt Adam cause now he thinks he did something.

It would take a long while before they finally sit down together and talk things out and give them a fair try.

#adamsapple #lucifer x adam #hazbin hotel adam #hazbin hotel lucifer #ask

[littlebigmouse]

"Hey, can I copy your homework?"

"Yeah sure, just change it up a bit so the teacher doesn't notice."

#trc #op #tsubasa reservoir chronicle #one piece #zosan #kurofai #'whoops it's gay now' #listen the amount of parallels between the two duos is absolutely insane #the only and i mean the only difference is that fai doesn't swear #and i guess who loses which body part #they both even get 'if you wanna die you gotta stay alive so i can kill you myself' scenes #kurogane #fai d flourite #sanji #roronoa zoro #apologies for the grainy ass screenshots tho #zoro and kurogane even share the same english VA i am losing my fucking mind here people

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hold on dont have it in me to scribble rn but i have updated Thoughts on Laughingstock. the update has affected my feelings on them

and those feelings are:

I LOVE THEM EVEN MORE NOW, WHAT THE FUCK??? THEY'RE??? AGH????

i am so glad i accurately pinned down their dynamic in my brain because OHHHH MY GOD HEARING IT OUT LOUD. AUGH. MINECRAFT DAMAGE NOISES

I KNEW THEY'D GO TOGETHER SO WELL! i mean! holy shit! they just! fucking! Work!

Howdy keeps Barnaby updated on family gossip! Barnaby knows the drama & members well enough to accurately call out "Wooly Aunt Molly'! Howdy tells Barnaby he has to bring his mom around for a drink!!! their shared love/style of humor! their shared laughs! The snappy, easy, familiar fluidity of their conversations! "I know I can always talk to you, Barn."

MY FUCKING GOD! THESE BITCHES GAY! GOOD FOR THEM! GOOD FOR THEM! i am laying face down in a ditch taking damage. my health bar does not deplete

#wailing sobbing screaming tearing into couch cushions with my teeth and eating the stuffing #they make my heart go WEH #wally in 12-14: really? right in front of my drink? #GODDDDDDDD AGH AGH AGH BARKING!!!!!! LOSING MY MIND!!! #thank fuck for a second i was starting to calm down about them #the train is back on the rails and hurtling full speed towards a cliff yeeHAWWWWW #i cant wait for my art motivation/ability to come back so i can DRAW THEM #I NEED TO DRAW THEM #BRAIN LET ME DRAW THEM #THE SCRIBBLES!!! I NEED TO FEED MY PEOPLE THEY ARE STARVING!!! #laughingstock #absolutely unprompted #barnaby watching his husband sell soap as food: man of my dreams <3<3<3<3 #howdy listening to barnaby make the same bad puns ten times in a row: man of my dreams <3<3<3<3

[royalreef]

#Most secret royal advisor || OOC #(( steeples my hands together #(( i will not go on a tangent about how to write animals i will not go on a tangent about how to write ambush predators #(( i will not lose my mind rambling about how no one fucking understands animals and how no one writes them correctly #(( i will not talk about the sham that is most peoples total lack of understanding about the natural world #(( i will not do these things i will be good i will let them pass through me and in the end only i shall remain #(( i should not be allowed to listen to stupid dnd podcasts about them acting like your response to an animals natural behavior is a sign o #(( active maliciousness against you specifically

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Coming Out Swinging; or, It's So Early In The Year To Be Over-Buying Books But Here We Are.

Okay, so: I know I set one of my bookish goals this year to be "buy fewer books," BUT! First off, preorders don't count, and second off, the Two Lines Press haul was logged under last year's book purchases, and it's not my fault they arrived a week later. RAVEN TOWER I have no excuses for.

I have really enjoyed everything of Two Lines Press that I've read so far--their Calico series are perfect bite-sized anthologies in translation, vaguely themed (and THIS IS US LOSING COUNT has the English and Russian version of the poems presented side by side! I can read both of those!!). I'm ride or die for Wayward Children installments (this is why I love January), and a friend spoke very highly of RAVEN TOWER so I picked up a used copy from HPB. I'm very pleased with my piecemeal haul to start the year! I swear I'll buy fewer books once I work through all my coupons/gift cards! I love books!!

#book haul #book photography #my photography #two lines press #this is us losing count #elektrik #elemental #calico series #at the edge of the woods #masatsugu ono #mislaid in parts half-known #seanan mcguire #the raven tower #ann leckie #also listen i have come to terms with the fact that book buying is the coping mechanism i am leaning on #because writing as my coping mechanism is inaccessible for great chunks of my time here and i hate that with every fiber of my being #but you can only have so many conversations with people who claim to love you about what you need to not lose your mind before-- #--you give the fuck up because nothing changes and you just simmer in resentment about it for years #it's fine. i'm fine. #(i need a fucking house lmao)

[vulpinesaint]

"how do you handle conflict with people you love" well that's very simple. i just very specifically pick people that i know i will never have any conflicts with ever and then if i do i either avoid it as if it didn't exist or end the relationship in my head entirely. no conflict to handle. very simple

#yes this is healthy. i prommy [ actively destroying relationships as we speak ] #is it really toxic if you just let a relationship fester in your mind while putting no emotional weight into it so it peters out 🙄 #not even ghosting just like. i no longer initiate conversation. i no longer say i love you a thousand times. #i no longer put that emotional labor into our interactions. #if you had enough of an issue with losing that relationship with me you would try to fix it. and nobody has so far #^^^^^ hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate #anyway all of my dear beloved close people are people that i do not argue with because we're just good for each other. case closed #in my heart i believe i will never ever have something to argue over with miffy we're just too perfect for each other 👍 #realistically we would resolve issues before they even started i can't see us arguing #realistically or emotionally. that shit would break my heart. #need more bitches with an anxious preoccupied attachment style in my life those mfers are the only ones that get me ‼️ #(other people who are also scared to death of losing people and dislike conflict) #realistically i could work out any problems annelise and i have. but anytime we have an actual Issue to resolve #which is always SUPER minute honestly not even worth mentioning #it fucks me up for Days. and lives with me after. #not uh. not healthy but. dgjkfh that's what we're rocking wit #is anybody out there is anybody listening is anybody perceiving me #valentine notes #relationship posting

[arsonist-chicken]

Do you ever like.. get a sudden surge of love and admiration and just general happiness because of a friend, so much so that it's almost overwhelming, and you are just so, so glad you met them and hope you'll never have to let them go and get to keep them in your life forever? Yeah ❤️💖🐗🧚‍♂️🦄

#i should go to sleep #but these are the moments i wonder again if i know what a crush feels like and if i can tell the difference between periodical very strong #but platonic affection for a friend and having a tiny crush on them #oh well. in the end does it matter? #but it would still be nice to be able to tell the difference. if nothing else then to know when i actually have a crush on someone i'm not #that close to like that friend or that fond of #fucking hell god please never let me have to let them go. i don't think i've ever met someone i'm that comfortable around and around whom #it's so easy to just be myself #or rarely. maybe with two other friends i don't feel the need to hold back myself from blurting stuff out and interrupting them and #apologising and asking them to continue or just like.. say whatever comes to mind or touch electric pasture fences to see if it still stings #(it does btw but in a sensorally really nice way 10/10 would recommend) #why do amazing people often live so damn far away? last time i met a bunch of people i really got to love was almost lifesaving and #definitely mental health saving. we used to talk every day and now i barely know what any of them are up to :( covid really fucked us over #with everyone just trying to survive and stay sane. we really lost touch and now it #*it's hard to get that back because we're strewn across europe and brasil and the us and everyone's an adult with responsibilities now #i miss them :( gotta try harder to rekindle that #anyway @the universe or whatever fuckers listening: if you put me in circumstances that make me lose touch with her like with them #i'll set the world on fire. she's become far too important to me to let that happen #okay as always i couldn't damn shut up in the tags alright bye bye good night whatever my cat's purring now instead of snoring #scientists of tumblr invent a teleportation machine now. i want to lie in a park and watch dogs and read side by side and remember how good #life can be #mine

[milo-is-rambling]

I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn

#need to talk to anyone irl who isn’t related to me or dating my mom or my therapist #anyone else near me please I’m losing my mind #nature isn’t healing me sleeping in a fully dark room all day isn’t healing me how do I magically fix this without having to put any work #into it oh I can’t oh u have to do the work okay how do I do that. therapy once a week. oh. okay. yup. #can I speedrun it? oh no? I can’t. oh damn. okay fine whatever. therapy once a week. AND I HAVE TO ACTUALLY LISTEN AND DO WHAT SHE SAYS. bro #what the hell okay fine #well here I am !!!!! where is the fixing where is the feeling better I feel like all I do is stir up all these touch emotions from every #part of my life at once and then she sends me off to rot for week before I come back and talk again #I just feel like I’m losing it!!!!! and ik it’s extra bad bc birthday countdown is on in my brain and im stressed and i feel like a huge #fuck up that can never be fixed and like I will die having done nothing with my life except weigh other people down and so exhausting and my #brain won’t ever shut up like yes I get it years and years and years of built up shit that I never properly dealt with and still hold blame #for constantly and I feel like I will never be fixed like I CANT be fixed like this is a losing battle and I just am struggling today man #idk what I was saying I just took my morning weed hit to try and relax my back a little and now my brain is like scrambled eggs #which is good that means it’s working #I’m gonna try to take a nap maybe cause I only slept four hours and it was like choppy thru the night and then maybe I’ll go to the lake #later I’ve been feeling the need to be in a body of water recently

[megansplants]

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#I feel a little like I’m losing my passion for plants #not that I don’t still LOVE my plants #but like I don’t need to spend hours on the weekends messing with them anymore #I have so many other things I’m doing that make me happy #I don’t have a hole in my life to fill with plants #there isn’t as much NEED there anymore #and I kind of….. don’t mind #Bridger and I are happy and I love my job #we love to hang out together and basically spend all day on the weekends and all evening every day talking #and playing games and snuggling and having fun and listening to records #I feel so much more fulfilled than I did when I was lonely in school #like I’m so much more ‘well then fuck you too!’ when people say stupid shit when I give advice on social media #I used to feel the need to explain everything and I spent a lot of time moderating the plant group #and i really wanted my book to become a huge thing #but now it’s kind of like….. I tinker around with stuff when I feel like it #I will get on the plant group once every few weeks instead of every few hours #I’m just living life man

[triankletatt]

describing album songs as “whiny whore louis” when we won’t get to hear them for another 50 ish days is CRUEL

#I NEED IT I NEED IT RIGHT NOW #i’m losing my FUCKING mind everytime people report back from these listening parties

[quixoticrobotic]

[amber grey voice] ......AND DOCTOR LINKSANO ON THE DRUMS

#I HAVENT LISTENED TO OUR LADY OF THE UNDERGROUND IN 500000000 YEARS BC I GET SAD ABT PERSEPHONE #i havent. listened to anything from hadestown in 100000 years bc. i care to much im sad about all of them except hades fuck that guy #unfortunately like the title suggest it is. in fact. his town #anyways i never watched the ep this skit is from bc reasons #so while watching the sleepwalker arc compilation this made me LOSE MY MIND #i maek post #a gun that shoots shitposts #this post has a target demographic of like 3 people

[famewolf]

all my old fav youtubers coming back this fall has gotten me into a mood where I've been diving back into old bands I used to listen to religiously. and i gotta say ... they all still slap

#[static] #not that i ever stopped listening to them much but ive been playing the entire album instead of just listening to favorites #so many memories tied to certain albums fkjghdf #i dont miss being a teen/in my early 20s at all life was so much harder and confusing and it was the height of my worst mental health years #but the world did feel simpler #the punk and emo scene fucked HARD in the early 2000s and 2010s #i hope we see a revival (and i feel like ive been seeing some new artists that hit that nostalgia in the right way) #i have been genuinely feeling Older recently and not in a bad way. its just funny to be in an age bracket that is a minority where i work #ppl are either way to old to know what im talking about or where literal babies when i was in school #i had to explain what camp was at work the other day and also they had no idea what rocky horror picture show was and me and the - #other gay millennial at work were losing our minds that people in their 20s hadnt heard of rocky horror #politely losing our minds of course like ... who cares if people dont know or do the things we did as young queers but also it - #- definitely made us feel older! #theyve also been playing a station that has all the music from my middle school and high school years .... #you know you're getting old when theres now a store radio station for it LOL they never play anything current

[leechloach]

Thank you to all my friends, like my close friends like people I talk to, ever, who are not abandoning me right now, despite my behavior. I have a personality disorder, I have complex PTSD, I have OSDD, in addition to the average depression + anxiety combo. I'm like trying not to Blame my mental illnesses here but hey man this is the shit I have that gives me big fucking problems. I can't control it all the time. If I could behave better or more normally or whatever then I would.

I don't tend to keep friends for very long because of these things... So the friends I do have are very tolerant and willing to put up with my shit, for some reason. I have been crying all night trying to thank everyone who is still okay with me because sometimes things you think are going to last forever Don't. Not even, like, 15 years of friendship. I just want anyone and everyone who fucking appreciates me to know that I do before it's too late. I will fuck up really really bad one day! One day it will be too much. I won't be able to see it.

I haven't cried at all about my friend, ex-friend, idk, at all, about his "goodbye" message. It feels fucking fake, this feels completely not real ... probably never will even if there's 15+ years of silence, if we never speak again for the rest of our lives. I cannot believe myself here lol I'm so insanely mad at myself I didn't know I was fucking up so severely when I first said anything. Who the fuck needs that, why did I say it like that, who fucking cares, no Shit I fucked up!!!! But I'm not the only one!!!!! And I cannot be mad At You I can be mad but if it's At You it's unacceptable, I'm saying something wrong (incorrectly) if I am. I get patronized and spoken to like I'm a fucking kid who's making a scene in public. And then you go ahead and make a public fucking scene !!!!! Leaving the group chat and blocking me as if that doesn't fucking effect everyone in the group. Literally are you fucking stupid what the fuck are you trying to accomplish with that other than creating some Huge Fucking Deal !!!!!

Listen I'm just bitching to Nothingness because I assume I'm not being watched here. But tiger I swear to god if you're looking at all my shit you need to tell me. You're not my fucking father you don't need to fucking stalk me just say that you saw this. I will be mad. People need to be mad at you sometimes.

#everything is so. fucking. STUPID #“i can take criticism” but you have to word it so so carefully or ill blow this friend group to pieces #if you “don't mind when” im mad but you mind “when its directed at [me]” . you do mind when im mad in any capacity asshole say what you mean #do you like my big huge post about drama thats not on tumblr? huh huh do ya #its STPD thats the PD by the way i gotta say its not The Abandonment thats my issue here its the fact that . #i don't have very many friends especially friends ive had for 15 years and now im losing one at its 100% my fault #insanely mad at myself. insanely mad at tiger for this reaction too. welcome to the grey area we both fucked up #can you please listen. can you okease listen when people are trying to get through to you. before we fucking blow up about it #before everything is Their faultm before everything is My fault.

[calkale]

I HATE MY FUCKING PHONE THROWING IT OUT THE WINDOW

#sorry guys im losing my FUCKING mind today #WHY DONT PEOPLE LISTEN TO WHAT IM SAYING EVER AM I INSANE