#lost all self respect

[maegalkarven]

"Durge came back different", "Durge didn't really come back", "the person who Durge originally was is dead" are all good takes, but what if.

If Durge came back exactly as they were? The brain damage, additional trauma and memory loss are the big altering factors, but underneath that it's still them.

They didn't change drastically, their former self is not dead.

How about one single fragile mortal soul still keeping a hold on itself, how about Durge who was never allowed anything for themselves still retaining them.

How about Durge who has lost everything: power, memories, purpose, sense of self, still being themselves, despite it all.

How about not even Orin's daggers, tadpole and Bhaal combined being able to rob them of their core? How about all of that just revealed who Durge has always been underneath all those expectations Father dearest put on them?

How about: "After all this time, it's still you."

#the dark urge #durge #dark urge #listen all these dead past selfs and loose of identity is fine and all #but i personally can't stand it because give me “me” back #give me who I am #i don't want redemption fuck your clean slate #give me the only thing I could ever dare claim as my own. return myself to me #@withers maybe SOME losers would lose their mind seeing the attocities Durge has commited. Levi is better tho. give him all of his memories #and give them NOW #levi is not a different person #not even june is a different person #it's still them how they have always been at their core #it's not regression it's not stagnation it's growing and changing #but staying yourself #levi SO recovers all of his memories #fuck what some old dude with bad hiring skills says his memories aren't lost. nothing ever truly is #june accidentially gets curses with having his memories back #maybe don't piss off powerful entities bby #levi be like: i respect all loss of identity. but I PERSONALLY hate to lose. give me myself back

[dnangelic]

sometimes i think abt towa and argentine in the very last manga chapter n cry

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #waaaa waaaa my lucifer my boy-king and the respect and power he doesn't even want but deserves sm #dark wouldnt want towa n argentine's help if he could go without it!! all his theft has been bc he cared #n its the fact he n dai care tht they genuinely deserve the sort of trust respect n acknowledgement from the niwa fam #that the rest of the world who doesnt properly or intimately know the likes of dark n dai doesnt afford them #i justttt wooooughhhh towa argentine gratefully graciously bowing themselves with fealty #to dark who's always been bearing all this insane burden and self-expectation alone #all by himself #afraid even of that solitude but nevertheless doing everything he could for the sake of #what he felt was right saving the artworks saving precious things even if he had to steal them away and disparage himself #more and more (the more he succeeds the more he disgraces himself as a villain and a criminal) #aaaa waaaa INNER NIWA FAM CHARAS r just so special.... THEY GET TO SEE IT ALL... #how heavy the pressure is on dark n dai both actually despite the superficial layers like elmroot says #the 'outer self' that enjoys being a phantom thief and then the inner that 'hunts his own kind' #how tired dark is sometimes... #well. w/e. point is niwa fam chara writers who ever take this into account ill kiss u forever #dark can be annoying or behave in spoiled/lazy/belligerent ways sometimes but it rlly makes him and dai more like the #rebel angel leader / boy king example i try to write them as. they still care ofc they doooo #it's just they're the equivalent of the highest seat holding together their little country #their miniature empire that dark n the niwa have built up over yrs n yrs n yrs!! #dark never claims himself a king or a prince he doesn't throw his weight or titles around like that #but between paradise lost and POTO's occasional angel of darkness/PRINCE of darkness #the vibes are there in between the lines. they r right there. this dude has so much hes taking responsibility for #even though he doesn't even Have To. but in doing so- he is. and SHOULD rightly be supported #in the manner of someone in service demonstrating loyalty to him #ok. ramble over

[torchstelechos]

I havent read the SJ extras yet but what I can gather from the novels so far is that even though he would be Utterly Pissed TM that SY did this in his body, he would respect the Great Seducer/Wifey hustle SYs got going on

#SVSSS #scum villian self saving system #shen yuan #shen quingqiu #Shen jiu #Love that all three of those are the same body but three different names #firm belief that even if SJ would go feral on SYs ass for using his body he would respect the Wifey hustle cause of his brothel friends #As long as he cant read SYs mind that is #if he could all respect would be lost

[the-monkey-ruler]

Goodness, jttw will never run out of different ways the story can be expanded. I don’t know if there are any other books like this. I think something that helps is that there’s no ip law and religious people are more relaxed (I mean when Chinese take creative liberties, it gets iffy when it’s non-Chinese).

Xiyouji has been going on strong for nearly 100 years of media! It truly is a work of art that embodies the human spirit and can be adapted and relatable to any generation to any person. Not matter where you are from or how old you are there is always going to be something so human and so touching in Xiyouji that just captures people for years to come.

Here's to another 100 years of Xiyouji media!!

The closest thing I can think of to another book or franchise that is this widely known could be like Shakespeare but that sadly has been teetering in the past few years. I kinda miss the modern adaptions of Shakespearian plays. And they don't even have games so another disadvantage.

It helps that Xiyouji mostly cameos Daoist and Buddhist figures in its story, hence while it does have a lot of religious messages and is a religious pilgrimage leads to a lot of fantastical worldbuilding and a great way for both patheons to be included. The only other story I can think of that has that kind of storytelling in like Dante's Inferno which while it is well-known certainly doesn't have that much of a media presence.

#anon ask #anonymous #anon #jttw #journey to the west #xiyouji #ask #this story can be a comedy or romance or adventure #but it does keep to the lore and worldbuilding around it #you can def tell when any media no matter the genre is still made with love and care #like good example is chinese odyssey like that is a nearly completely different story all together but because it just masters the human #story of xiyouji and of sun wukong that any person who experiences love and lost and the feeling of unable to change your fate can relate #and 1996! that is nearly completely different as well but it captures the characters so WONDERFULLY and there is so much cares that the #audience just falls in love with the series and characters because it feels like not a monster of a week but rather how four individuals #come to love and understand each other through their own character arcs and facing the worst parts of themselves #a story doesn't need to be 100% accurate to be beloved but it does need that care and respect to their characters that people have loved fo #so many years and as long as the characters no matter how silly they could be portrayed or how serious are at their core 'humane' so that #any audience can relate then that is what makes this story still able to feel fresh and new every single time #It will never get old because the story of self-discovery and connecting to other people through hardships will never get old either

[inquisitor-apologist]

Colin Trevorrow was wrong. WE lost the Star Wars.

#been thinking about the Mando verse movie recently and like. yeah #no one suffers more than Star Wars fans with self respect #felony Dave I will set your stupid fucking hat on fire why did you do that to Sabine #he lost the Star Wars #we all lost the Star Wars #star wars #mandoverse #anti mandoverse #anti filony #anti ahsoka #anti mando s3 #anti tbobf

[hollowboobtheory]

explain this heteros

#beck rambles #total drama #gwourtney #is that the name i've been calling it #gwentney #whatever point is ive lost enough self respect to finally watch all stars

[imsomeguy1]

idea: put your character in a claw machine of situations. you try take them out of one? oops it fell into another. you try again? straight into hell itself. try again? hey did you know claw machines loosen their grip after a bit. yeah your character is fucked.

btw here's my attempt with a shitty oc I made a couple years ago

#art #art ideas #btw that guy was made as a self insert mixed with my terraria addiction at the time. #also he was for a henry stickmin rp subreddit so hes also a ripoff of rhm #i recently gave him brown hair so he would be slightly less of a self insert since my hair is black. #ignore the fact that everything else about his hair is the same as mine #or that hes wearing the same clothes i was wearing when i drew this SHUT UP #i feel like i just lost all respect anyone had for me actually

[heartslobbf]

thinking about how much grace and simon needed each other when they met and how desperately they enabled one another to just stay the same and get worse, and the moment one of them learns a little self-respect and wants to change for the better it ruins everything that ‘we had’.. grace needed someone to look at her and simon was so willing to look at her until he saw things that he didn’t like, things that threatened the incidental and flimsy mistruth grace came up with when they were kids, out of fear, out of a need to be looked at, a need to be loved; and grace cannot conceptualise being loved without being the best. you… saved me. oh, yeah.. i did. i’m, like, really good at the train. two insecure and self-loathing kids who needed to be loved and could not fathom being loved without doing something or being something or having something, having someone. their entire relationship is just like.. it’s so tragic. makes me sick in my little baby tummy like what the hell. mfw the tragedy book is a tragedy

#i cannot stop thinking about them tonight im SICK im sick in the head #wailing and sobbing and crying anf flailing and dying #one of the dynamics of all time for sure. two of the characters of all time also #do NOT get me started on why grace monroe is one of the greatest characters of all time lol we'll be here forever #and ill just be wildly gesturing at the opening scene of 3x10 like saying buzzwords #'self respect!!!!!! reflection!!! guilt!! compassion!!!!! remorse!!' #girls when i did everything to avoid being alone and its exactly how i ended up. girls when grace accepted that and still committed #to getting better bc she learnt self-respect and finally valued herself truly and wasn't striving to regain lost relationships #she just. she just wanted to be better. wails #infinity train #shut up daisy

[kkujo]

also idk i feel so fucking good abt myself idk genuinely being consistent with my gym routine has done everything for my mental health and confidence like i still feel bad abt myself sometimes but for the first time since i was probably 9 i'm having days where i look in the mirror and thinking DAMN i look good and those days are getting more frequent it's really the best feeling

#and it's not just the weight loss like. being overweight was such a struggle for me esp bc i've had issues w eds and stuff and. #idk it made me miserable. and i wasn't the healthiest bc i'd gained a lot due to pcos and my periods were irregular etc like it wasn't good #and now i'm medicated and fuck man my period is regular now and my weight is more normal and i just feel like. good abt that #bc i spent so long being unable to lose bc of my hormones and it was so disheartening bc i was doing everything 'right' #i feel a little bad talking abt it bc ik it's a sensitive topic and i have had issues w eds i obv don't think weighing less makes u healthy #etc etc. for me it was the healthy thing to lose what i've lost so i'm proud of that and i did all of that mostly without relapsing #over 2 years and i've had like. maybe a month of relapse total over that time and each time i've come out of it after a week or two #so i'm definitely stronger mentally etc BUT. my point is. the confidence hasn't come from trying to be smaller #and now i'm actively trying to build muscle and for the first time ever my confidence comes from looking BIGGER bc i want muscle growth etc #the confidence truly comes from within and when i was overweight i started to give myself that confidence #by starting to wear cute clothes and stop hiding my body #it is so true that losing weight won't make you like yourself or your body. #like. you can lose weight if you want but you HAVE to respect yourself first. i lost a lot of weight unhealthily in 2019 and regained it #& bc i did it out of self hatred i NEVER felt better abt myself when i got smaller. you rlly have to be able to love yourself as you are rn #it's cliche but very very true #anyway i don't rlly talk abt this stuff on here bc ik it's a sensitive topic but!!! #i really would recommend weightlifting and strength training if you wanna feel more confident #ik it won't work for everyone but for me it's genuinely transformed the way i see myself. #i no longer try to force myself to be as small as possible. and for me that's everything yk #ALSO LIKE. THE MENTAL HEALTH ASPECTS. just having the routine and getting exercise and getting out every day rlly helps too #i really would recommend it i've never felt better or more confident abt myself #the only thing is unfortunately and it's a very real problem but gym/gym bro culture often leans v close to e/d culture #it really sucks bc a lot of gym folks genuinely do love it and are very healthy with it #but the chicken and rice gym bro types are pretty rampant too and there's a LOT of dysmorphia and such in the community #so i kind of avoid gym bro circles for that reason bc i do think a lot of people take it too far and are very mentally unhealthy with it #but weightlifting/going gym in itself isn't the problem and if you're eating properly & taking care of yourself it's not gonna be like that #it's just knowing the types of ppl to avoid bc a lot of the mindset is pretty toxic 😭😭 but there are def a lot of ppl who do it healthily #like. i understand why people do it but i'm kind of against bulking/cutting at least for myself #bc for me it's not abt looking as strong as possible it's abt being fit and healthy physically & mentally if i look buff asf that's a bonus #but a lot of ppl take bulks/cuts too far & a lot of it is just regurgitated e/d shit unfortunately. just b careful who you interact with

[kiribread]

A lil spicy post 👀

#Hehehe #Edgeshot #Best jeanist #I lost a bit of my self respect doing this but it's okay lol #THE ANGLE WAS SO HARD TO DO 😭😭😭😭 #It looks halfway decent so it all worked out #Edgejeanist #Bestshot #I may so more of these 🫢 #Gottem lmao

[captainfightingflower]

God the sticker sheet is going to be just as atrocious as Job Job’s isn’t it?

Y’know, why put in the effort of designing original Yõkai when you could just jerk yourself off and shove references up the wazoo? It’s not like doing this strips the game of it’s own identity and eventually everything you make is going to be so malnourished from the constant coprophagy that you’re going to have nothing going for you. No, because why should you try anymore when you could pander?

#as you can clearly tell: i fucking HATE the direction Tee K.O. 2 is going #Jackbox games #the jackbox party pack 10 #tee K.O. 2 #impact font meme #The fact that Job Job didn't have an identity of their own was my biggest gripe with the game #and now it's happening with Tee K.O. 2 #i'm so fucking upset #God all this makes me want to show you the idea i came up with for a Tee K.O. sequel...because it's certainly better than this bullshit #Jackbox games is a soulless husk of it's former self that only cares about making money and not artistic integrity #but hey. companies aren't your friends: even indie ones #i lost my respect for them looooong ago #(which was last year. btw)

[jamminvroomvroom]

having a very bad day but it’s okay bc lando’s dimple! 🥹

#i have lost all self respect #and i hate all men

[tophat-owl]

The fact that both my dad and my English teacher read my fanfiction is both disturbing and hilarious to me.

#my dad is my beta reader #he does rost me every time he reads my stuff #it's a good bonding experience #even if he thinks that me and all the other fanfic enjoyers should be publicly executed #end for my teacher... #she allowed me to write in class as long as she got to read it afterwards #yes this all was by my own doing #but I honestly lost the little bit of self respect I had a long time ago #so I don't really give a shit #besides she's cool #fanfiction #fanfic #fanfic writing

[katygorl]

*Accurate photo of me trying to put a proper timeline together for my characters with all the mixed-up notes I have for them*

#for a little context I was trying to put together a timeline of sorts #for the next-generational characters for my novel #and trying to think how old they would all be compared to each other #given the different ages their respective parents are and when they had their children #but I think I finally figured everything out! #this meme just expresses my exasperated self during the process lol #katy chats #the lost rainbow

[bamboozled-distress]

the fact that natalie portman hosted snl in 2005 with the muscial guest being fall out boy i just know closeted lesbians were having a field day

#i wanted to post this hours ago #but i had more self pride and felt like i shouldnt post it #but its 3am and i have no self respect #i lost it all about an hour ago #listening to faith in the future tho #so #still slaying..? #natalie portman #snl !!! #saturday night live #fall out boy #laz watches things