"Is it ok that I sleep on the left side of the bed?", he asks careful yet so sweet. She rolls to the side to him, her eyes closing because of her big smile, "as long as I can lay next to you is all I care about", and hugs his arm while resting her face next to it, smiling with her tired closed eyes.
imagine hugging them. the way you fit so perfectly into their arms as they squeeze you tight and rub your back. the way they hold you as if their life depends on it as you muffle ‘i missed you’ with your head buried into their chest. the ‘i missed you more’ as you snuggle further into them and absorb the warmth of their smell.
I want those soft glances filled with love. Leaning into each other naturally, like magnets, always finding the other close to you. Fingers gently brushing over skin absent-mindedly. Smiles automatically spreading across our lips when looking at each other. Being the other's person that comes to mind for good news to share with. Always knowing exactly what to do or say to comfort the other.
“Could you love me, just for a second, just for right now, even if it’s pretend? I want to know what it feels like to be the only one looked at in a crowded room.” He did as she asked but none of it was pretend.
Have you ever imagined yourself, far off in a land where you couldn’t tell what was real, dancing, or just being with your dream partner? I want you to imagine yourself with the person you want to be with, in your favorite place in the world. Softly and slowly floating away from reality altogether. You look back and you see Earth getting smaller and with that, you land on a new reality without you realizing it. You’re so happy, the happiest you’ve ever been just because you’re with your person, the person you wish to be with at that moment but for some reason..you just can’t. The worst part about this is that you wake up. You look around and realize you’re in your room, alone; the reality you were just in, has vanished as if it had never existed. You go outside and look up at the stars and curse at the universe. “Why can’t I just be with them?” you think to yourself, looking down at the ground again. “Why do you have to put me through this? Why can’t I just go to them and have them like me back so I can experience love again? Why”. Why, is the question we all have, especially to everyone who is looking for love. If you’re an overthinker like me, we’ve already got all of the reasons for someone not to like us back, right? You go into your bed, late at night after a long day, and you just sink. The lights are off and the house is eerily quiet and hushed. You try getting up and it’s like your entire body is unwillingly paralyzed. You’ve sunken into your bed, once you try to get off you feel like you want to cry. The feeling of being lonely and screwed over by the universe sticks to you and makes your body not want to move. Every move you make feels mentally painful and you just want to stay there in whatever position you are in, uncomfortable or not, you’re staying there. You feel like you’re tied to the bed and unconsciously getting in the whirl of thoughts about them, wondering every little thing that you could possibly think. Before you know it, you can never get up, you’re stuck there. -Written by me :)-
I can’t wait until we finally get to live together darling! Moving in will be like a dream come true! We can decorate our cute little apartment and go grocery shopping together! Oh how wonderful life will be!