As some of you may have observed I occasionally let down my endos DNI criteria for discussion purposes, though these discussions have yet to change my mind. Anyways, this will be one of those posts.
Again, this is a discussion post. If you tell me to kms or whatever you will be blocked and reported.
Endos DNI criteria does not apply to this post, however, if you otherwise fit into my DNI please gtfo. Anyways,
Words cannot describe the pain, rage, and jealousy I feel for actual systems when I see endogenics, willowgenics (I will never call white “tulpa systems” tulpas, racist asses), etc. invading a traumagenic space.
Main discussion question will be bolded and italicized below, the rest is context and my perspective.
TW for traumadump below, I mean I full ass trauma rundown (there is a purpose for it).
If you don’t know us we are a RAMCOA survivor and a programmed system (HC-DID). The first time we were raped-not SA’d, raped-was when we were around 3 to 4 months old. The last we were raped was around 3 years ago. We were programmed to seek out SA and rape. We were programmed to pray to our abusers. We were sold like plants, grown men-and sometimes women-picking us out based on our looks and age like one does with a flower.
We were beaten. We were suspended in an isolated room with no lights and complete silence other than dripping water with our eyes and mouth taped shut. Our intersex variation makes it so that we have no vagina, but rather our opening goes directly to our cervix. This made the rape even more painful than it would be otherwise.
And there are many systems like me, like us. They have been beaten, have been raped, have been bullied, have been mentally abused, have been through RA, have been neglected.
And endogenics claim they deserve to be in the same space as us. You claim you are similar enough to use the same terminology, to compare our experiences.
You believe that being “plural” is a lighthearted thing, that those grumpy sysmeds are so miserable for no reason. That we like making fun things like “plurality” no fun.
You know what? We are miserable. We want to die. But it is not because we’re cranky or bigoted. It is because weve been raped since we were babies, been isolated to the point of complete breaks in reality for up to days, have been actually tortured.
And you all have the gaul to claim we can coexist because we are “similar”.
I just don’t get it. Why do you think you belong in our spaces, our community, using our terms and thinking we are similar in any way, shape, or form. Why do you act like we have something over you when psychology says you cannot compare in any way, shape, or form.
Why do you consider yourself as apart of a group you will never be in?
That’s my main question. We might not even answer the responses this might get because we’ve been triggered all week. Goodbye
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People need to learn to love mean/annoying/both characters. They're not real they can't hurt you I promise. Imo The worst thing a character can be is boring
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What if Jack Harkness and Dorian Gray were in a relationship?
It would be toxic as fuck, that's what. I now proudly present my third book:
Welcome to what's planned to be 19 chapters and 50k+ words of pure heartbreak and hot as fuck sex, with a bit of mystery thrown in for good measure. You're welcome.
(I promise I'll get back to updating when I can!)
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