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Request for Anon (Yandere NCulT part 2) 13.4k, yandere, manipulation, psychedelics, cult mentality, vertigo, mental abuse, verbal abuse, mentions of self-harm, minor attempt at self harm, concussion, anxiety, non verbal behavior, near death experience, dream walking, smut, gang bang, cream pie, unprotected sex, over stimulation

“What’s on your mind?”

It seemed like a redundant question to you. With this connection in place they were in your head, so your thoughts weren’t your own anymore. They would know what you were thinking, so you had to be mindful of that, which made things difficult, or so you thought.

“Don’t you know?”

Haechan chuckled. “Actually, I don’t. Bet you thought we could read your mind, huh?”

“You… you can’t?”

“The connection is fairly new so we can’t read your mind, at least not individually. If we all gathered up we probably could, but Taeyong can absolutely peek into your head whenever he wants.”

“He can…”

“Special privilege in being the leader or something, although if we strengthen our connection I could certainly see what goes on in your head too. There’s plenty of ways to do that, some more fun than others.”

“I don’t think I wanna do that.”

“The connection will grow on its own anyway.”

You’ve been stuck in the penthouse ever since that night. They dragged you here and haven’t let you leave. You did try to escape, once, and that was certainly a memorable moment. Since you were past the distance headache, you figured you could take the elevator down when everyone was sleeping. So you waited for your chance, and snuck away. Of course you had no money, or a phone, or form of identification, but you just wanted to get out. You could figure everything else out then. As you waited for the elevator you were anxious, hoping no one would find you and stop you.

The ding of the elevator arriving put you on high alert, and you looked around to make sure you were still alone. You didn’t hear any noises so it seemed you were good. You stepped into the elevator and hit the button for the lobby. As the doors closed and you felt the elevator go down, relief washed over you. Once you were on the ground floor, you could get out of sight. It was probably best to go to the police and report the whole thing. There was already enough evidence on the internet about NCT, it was about time someone did something with all that. Although you didn’t actually get that far.

Since the penthouse elevator just went straight up and down you had no idea where you were when it suddenly came to a stop. The lights flickered for a moment, and the car shook. You grabbed onto the railing, waiting for things to settle. Then you began hitting the call button, but no one was responding. You hit the button to go up and down, but nothing happened. Not at first. After some panicked button pushing the elevator started moving again. You were relieved, but only for a second before you started falling. You screamed and grabbed the railing, shutting your eyes and hoping for a quick end. Then everything suddenly stopped.

“Having fun?”

You opened one of your eyes, looking around, but nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Except for the fact that the elevator doors were open, Taeyong, Johnny, and Kun were standing on the other side. As your heart settled you realized the elevator was back in the penthouse, and you were very confused about what had happened.

“There’s nothing to be confused about.” Taeyong said. “You never went anywhere.”

“Wa… what?”

“Come on now. You tried to run away at night using the elevator before, so I had to put some precautions in place.”

“Huh?”

Taeyong stepped into the elevator, kneeling down before you. He had a smirk on his face, reaching over to pet your head, even when you flinched back.

“I put a little something in your head to make sure you couldn’t run away. So if you ever get on this elevator without one of us, it’ll crash.” Taeyong chuckled. “Not really, but you’ll think it does, and even if you know what’ll happen, that doesn’t change how you’ll see it all play out.”

“…”

“All you did just now was get in and close the doors, and that’s all you’ll ever do. So let’s not try this again. Oh, and before you get any ideas.”

Taeyong got up and walked away, telling the other two to grab you. Kun and Johnny easily picked you up and carried you along, following Taeyong. You were taken over to the stairwell, the boys tossing you to the floor by the first step. You looked down at the stairs and immediately felt nauseous, crawling back.

“The stairs are also not an option, since a nice feeling of vertigo will take over. Understand?”

“… yes…”

“Good girl.”

Even if it was only once, the memory of that night left you frightened. Far worse than the original headache. You had trouble sleeping after that, although you always did since being at the penthouse. Whenever you slept you’d wind up in Taeyong’s little place, or somewhere else entirely with the other members. You were never alone. Which was kinda nice, but also counterproductive. It felt like you never really slept. So to avoid that you’d not sleep at all. Or at least you’d try not to, eventually your body would crash on its own and you’d sleep. Although you discovered that in those cases you dreamt in the void. Nothing but darkness and what you knew as sleep.

“You need to stop doing that!”

You were half asleep with a warm cup of coffee in your hands, staring out at the city you couldn’t live in anymore when you were suddenly grabbed. You dropped the cup and were flipped around to face a very annoyed Jaemin. He was glaring daggers at you, and you were left speechless.

“I… I… I don’t…”

“Go to sleep! Keeping yourself awake like this isn’t healthy and you’re messing with all of us!”

“Wa… what?”

“We’re all connected, remember? So if you’re constantly exhausting yourself like this, we feel it too. You keep throwing us off like this, so either go to sleep like a normal person, or we’ll make you, got it?”

“Ye… yeah…”

“Good.”

Jaemin didn’t let you go though, dragging you over to the nearest bedroom and forcing you into bed. He may be annoyed, but was also worried. He tucked you in, and told you to close your eyes. You were certain that he didn’t actually leave until you were asleep. Besides, once you were in bed and all wrapped up, you couldn’t just close your eyes and pretend to sleep, your body needed actual rest and would take this chance. Although it was weird.

Sleep itself had become different, but this was something else. For the first time in a while you were alone in your dreams, and it kinda felt off. The default place for you always seemed to be Taeyong’s little room, and so here you were, except you were completely alone. It kinda scared you. This wasn’t your place, nor was this somewhere you wanted to be all by yourself. Then again there was also some beauty in the quiet you hadn’t been able to appreciate for a while. You stepped over to the window, looking at the skyline. It still made you sad, especially seeing it in this dream world where it wasn’t real.

You didn’t know how long you’d be here, or how time really worked here, but you didn’t want to stay in this room. The spiral staircase always intrigued you, so you decided to use this opportunity to see where it led. You went up, finding yourself stepping out of a closet. Now it looked like you were in the penthouse. For a moment you thought you had woken up, but the eerie silence assured you that this was still in your head. It was so empty and you made your way to the elevator, wondering if you could use it. A bit to your surprise that was the case, and you went down to the lobby. It was so empty you were starting to get scared.

When you stepped out into the streets it was much worse. There was nothing but the buildings that surrounded you. No people, no cars, not even the sounds of nature. It felt like a scene out of a movie, some post apocalyptic wasteland. You couldn’t do this so you rushed back inside and returned to the penthouse, using the spiral staircase to return to Taeyong’s secret room. This place wasn’t any better, but you knew it didn’t exist in the real world, and you could stay here as assurance you were dreaming. You wanted to wake up, but you didn’t know how to do that here. Usually you’d just be with the boys and then it would all suddenly end.

All you could do now was wait. So you laid back on the bed, staring at the ceiling for a while, then you turned over to stare out at the skyline. You wondered if the sun would set while you were here and it would become night. Whatever time of day it was when you were here with the others was always predetermined by them, and it always seemed to be dark. You closed your eyes and took a deep breath and when you opened them again you jumped up. The day had turned to night suddenly and you couldn’t understand why, or how. You shut your eyes again, trying to get yourself to wake up.

🖤

You inhaled sharply and sat up in bed, looking around in a panic trying to understand where you were. Once your breathing settled you recognized the room, the one Jaemin had put you down in. When you looked over at the window you saw it was dark, so you had been asleep for a good while. You slowly got out of bed, making your way out of the room. You could hear noises down the hall, which honestly brought you relief after being in that quiet nightmare. As you made your way over the noises got louder and louder until you came face to face with someone.

“Oh, you’re awake.” Taeil smiled. “Just in time for dinner. Come on.”

Taeil came over and took your hand, leading you to the dining room. The others who were there greeted you, even if you said nothing back. You retaliated against them in your own ways, but you certainly had to eat. If you ever intended to escape, you needed your strength. You didn’t sleep that night, and thankfully it was easy to stay awake as your clock had been reset. From then on you became a nocturnal person. Sleeping during the day made sure you didn’t interact with the boys in your dreams, most of the time. If they took a nap they tended to find you and whisk you away to whatever adventure they had going on.

It was still scary to be alone in such a place, but you had to get used to it in order to keep your sanity. You found ways to entertain yourself, finding pen and paper to write and draw with, or trying to read the books in Taeyong’s library, but that was quite difficult. Although you did start to realize something. Many people were capable of manipulating their dreams, doing whatever they wanted and this whole place was like that. It was a sandbox, and with you being the only one, you could do whatever you wanted. The first time you tried to manipulate the world you scared yourself.

You thought about your apartment, how much you missed it. You wanted to go there again, so you kept it in mind, and then went up the spiral staircase. When you opened the doors at the top you screamed, having stepped into your bedroom. It looked just as you remembered it, you wanted to cry, but instead you went back into the stairwell. Last time you had been in the penthouse, but this was so different it frightened you. It couldn’t be real, but that was the point of this place. Nothing was real, and it could be anything you wanted it to be.

After the initial shock of it all, you did it again, preferring to spend your sleep time in your own room. Honestly just being there was calming enough, but it also reminded you of how alone you were. These people were holding you hostage for their own twisted reasons, but they were still kind. They fed you delicious food, played games and watched movies with you. Even in your dreams they acted like friends and sometimes they’d break down your walls. You’d forget you were trapped and that you didn’t want to stay here. Although trying to find a way out was still difficult.

“So, you gonna sleep with me tonight?” YangYang asked.

“Uh… I’m not tired…”

“Yeah, you sleep all day to avoid us. That’s really not good for you.”

“I am sleeping, so that’s no problem to you.”

“But we’re pretty outta sync.”

“Out of sync?”

“Don’t you feel lonely in your dreams? Taeyong says you spend your time in your bedroom.”

“Ha… how do you know that?”

“Taeyong knows everything. So why not sleep with me? We can have so much fun together.”

“I’m good.”

“Are you? Things feel off when you’re not there with us.”

“And it’s not a problem.”

“Not yet.”

“Huh?”

“We’re supposed to grow closer, we can’t do that if you’re outta sync. I’m sure you’ll come around eventually.”

“I won’t.”

“We’ll see won’t we.”

That talk sent chills down your spine. There was still so much you didn’t know about them or what this connection was. They kept being vague and mysterious about it since you were so unwilling to cooperate. Probably some kind of scare tactic that was working. Which meant you needed to figure something out, and soon. This whole connection thing was your biggest concern. Your previous endeavor to not sleep affected them, and sleeping during the day does too, but it wasn’t much. You needed to do something to break it, or at least try to. Your options were very limited, but it wasn’t entirely impossible.

Even if your methods of escape were cut off, they weren’t inaccessible. The elevator really wasn’t an option, but the stairs were another story. Those still existed, even if you got vertigo when you got near them. That was the way to go, and you needed to do it quickly before one of them realized what you were planning. The idea itself terrified you, but you knew it had to be done. Early the next morning, before everyone woke up, you made your way to the stairwell. You only opened the door at first and stared down. It all looked so normal but you knew that if you got close you’d end up feeling dizzy and nauseous. That would work in your favor since the idea was to injure yourself.

You took a careful step forward, but you couldn’t be a coward. If you went slow you wouldn’t be able to follow through, so you were gonna have to run. You took a deep breath and took a step before being yanked back. Someone had suddenly grabbed your arm and pulled you away from the stairs. You would have stumbled to the ground if their grip didn’t remain strong, and you wound up in their arms. When you focused your eyes met with a very angry Yuta. You were already panicking, trying to get out of his grasp to run away but he did not let you go.

“What were you doing just now?”

“Nothing!”

You tried to think of anything else to make sure he didn’t find out, but when he started to drag you further into the penthouse you knew where he was taking you.

“No! Let me go!”

“Taeyong!”

“I said let go!”

You were taken to the dining area where most of the others had already gathered. You saw Taeyong and immediately looked away. Upon seeing the scene he came over and took you from Yuta, staring down at you.

“What’s with the commotion this early?”

“Nothing!”

“I found her by the stairwell.” Yuta explained. “She looked like she was ready to run.”

“That’s not true!”

“There’s only one way to find out.” Taeyong smiled. “If he’s lying there’s nothing to worry about, right?’

“Stay out of my head!”

“You know we’re past that.”

You tried to think of anything else, but you knew Taeyong could get past all of that. It was a strange feeling, a tingling sensation in your head as he rummaged around. Then his grip got tighter and you yelled.

“Did you seriously think something like that was going to work?”

“I… I don’t know what-”

“I’ve been very patient with you, giving you space and letting you mess around with your own health but this, putting your own life in danger over a silly thought of escaping? I can’t let that slide.”

“Wa… what are you…”

“Sh. That’s enough from you. Going forward you are sleeping at night with the rest of us, and you will be under our direct supervision. No more being left alone to come up with ridiculous ideas, understood?”

“…”

You would have answered out of fear, but you couldn’t. You felt like something was stuck in your throat, and trying to get it out didn’t yield any results. You looked up at Taeyong with panic in your eyes, remembering the night they kidnapped you.

“No more talking either. It’s much easier to monitor your thoughts this way. Now, let’s eat.”

There was no fighting against that, you couldn’t even speak your mind about his choice anymore. Taeyong pressed a kiss to your head and sat you down at the table. You did still try to speak, trying to get any words out, but it didn’t seem possible. You were in your own little world until the conversation around you drew your attention.

“Taeyong, we have that conference coming up.” Doyoung reminded. “And we all need to attend.”

“Right, and that does include our newest member. I suppose it’s about time we update her wardrobe.”

“Can we get new suits too?” Shotaro asked. “I wanna match with y/n.”

“Yeah. New clothes!” Renjun added. “We can have cute couple outfits with y/n too.”

You wanted to object to that idea about couple outfits. You wouldn’t call yourself a couple, not with any of them, but without a voice it seemed your opinion was invalid. Even if you could speak your mind at the moment they wouldn’t listen anyway.

“Easy. We can’t just go around spending a lot of money.” Kun explained. “We all have plenty of outfits for such an event, whereas y/n doesn’t. She’s the priority.”

“Agreed.” Johnny spoke up. “I’ll take y/n out shopping tomorrow.”

“I want to go too!” Mark cheered. “Please take me with you!”

“And me!” Jeno added.

“It depends on who’s available tomorrow.” Taeyong cut in. “So we’ll decide then.”

You ate a bit, just enough so they wouldn’t complain. Afterwards you tried to excuse yourself from the table but Sicheng quickly grabbed your arm and sat you back down, saying you’d be under his watch for the time being, and he wasn’t done with breakfast. So you just waited around for him until he finished. He then took your hand and led you to his room. You sat on the bed, wondering what you’d be doing since you had to stay with him.

“I do have some things I need to work on first.” Sicheng explained. “So let’s just stay together for a while.”

You just nodded your head, looking around the room. You had never been in here before, not going into any of their rooms. You didn’t want to know anything about them, but it was getting hard to avoid that. They kept sharing things with you. Their favorite games, or films, talking to you about the things they liked to do. Now being in one of their rooms, you could really see who they were. Considering they all lived together you never expected them to have much individually, but you were wrong. Sicheng just seemed to be on his computer with his headphones on, so you thought maybe you could sneak away and hide.

“Sit back down.” Sicheng stated. “I have books you can read.”

So even if he wasn’t looking at you he was well aware of your presence. You huffed but did as he said, going over to his shelf and browsing the books. Some of them were about coding and programming, and the other titles you didn’t recognize. Instead you found some paper and a pen to just doodle with. You were sad you couldn’t sing to yourself anymore, just hum at best, although you could sing in your head. That was always the default, but it was weird to do since you knew other people had access to your head now. So you just thought about what you did, every stroke and all that to keep yourself busy and focused.

“Ya. What do you have there?”

Sicheng pulled you away from your drawings, grabbing the pages too. He found them cute, even if you felt shy.

“Shall we try this on a bigger canvas?”

You weren’t sure what he meant, but Sicheng took your hand and led you to another place. The penthouse was huge, and even though you had been here for weeks now, you hadn’t explored every other room that wasn’t one of the bedrooms. Sicheng brought you into what you could only describe as some kind of arts and crafts room. There were all sorts of pencils and brushes, and everything else you could think of. You could only express your amazement in your head, your mouth hanging open in silent excitement.

“I would have thought you’d find this place yourself, but you were always so isolated. Come on now, let’s have fun.”

Sicheng had you sit down by a blank canvas, bringing over some paints for you as well. He talked a bit about the colors, and how to clean your brushes as you went along. For a while you could forget how you knew him and how you were in such a place. You never had the chance to paint in such a setting, and really wanted to make the most of it. Sicheng left you to immerse yourself, but did stay to keep an eye on you. Although you didn’t realize you had a bit of an audience. Some of the other boys had found you and were taking a look at your painting.

“Pretty.”

You jumped upon hearing Jaehyun’s voice, looking over to see him peering over your shoulder. He smiled and met your eyes.

“I didn’t know you had a talent for art.” Jaehyun pressed a soft kiss against your cheek. “When you’re done we should hang it up around the house.”

“Don’t forget to sign it too.” Hendery chimed in. “I have an idea.”

Hendery reached over and took your hand, dipping your thumb into some paint and having you press it against the corner of the canvas.

“An original signature.”

“Oh, that looks nice.” Jaehyun commented.

After arts and crafts you went with the boys to prepare some snacks, sitting in the living room to watch some TV, followed by video games. You were never really good with the VR stuff, but you always had one of them helping you. They’d take your hands in theirs and guide you through the game. You had fun, but you’d never admit it, even though you were sure they could tell anyway. You dreaded the night though, not sure what sleeping with them would be like. You had avoided it for so long, and now it was out of your hands.

“Y/n, you’ll be with me tonight.”

You weren’t surprised that you’d be sleeping in Taeyong’s bed that night. As if he’d leave you with anyone else after the scolding you got that morning. Usually you slept through the day, but everyone found ways to keep you up and made sure you didn’t sleep. So by the time the sun went down you were actually tired. They made sure you didn’t get any caffeine in you either. You wound up showering in Taeyong’s room, dressing in some of his clothes for pajamas.

“You look sleepy.”

All you did was throw him a glare, but he just laughed. He took your hand and brought you over to bed, tucking you in. You kept your back to him when he slipped in under the covers, but that didn’t stop him from spooning you. As much as you didn’t want to fall asleep, the exhaustion and warmth from Taeyong lulled you to sleep. You just gave in and closed your eyes, wondering what would await you in your dreams.

🖤

You took in a soft breath as you opened your eyes. Of course you were used to Taeyong’s secret room here, but it was annoying to know you weren’t alone. You also couldn’t stay in bed and pretend you were asleep.

“Wakey, wakey.”

Taeyong grabbed your hand and yanked you up, a bright smile on his face. You still felt sleepy, but this place wasn’t for sleep.

“Come on, the others are waiting for you.”

You were already dressed and Taeyong led you up the stairs. You didn’t know what awaited you, but it was very unexpected. Upon opening the door at the top you found yourself in some type of shop. There were dresses and all kinds of fancy clothes around.

“What… wait, I can talk!”

“We’re in the dream world.” Taeyong reminded. “We’re in each other’s heads so of course you can.”

“So… what is this?”

“We need to take you shopping tomorrow.” Ten said. “We could get a head start by figuring out what looks best on you.”

“This can’t be accurate.”

“We don’t need to be, we’re just here to have fun.”

“Let’s start.” Lucas cheered. “First we should figure out what dress looks best on you.”

You hadn’t been dress shopping before, let alone like this. Considering all the dresses were white, it kinda felt like you were shopping for your wedding. You never even dated someone you could imagine yourself marrying so this was all the stranger. Still the boys seemed to enjoy it, having you try on different styles and talking among themselves to rate you. They found you beautiful in everything, and it was hard to hide the fact you were burning up from the love and attention they were giving you. Eventually they settled on a top five list, and decided to move onto color.

You thought you’d have to change outfits some more, but to your own surprise, they simply changed the color themselves. It was like some magic trick, the color seeping into the dress and changing hues as they discussed. Asking you to turn around and make certain poses. You kinda felt like a model, except this was all ultimately for you. There was a lot of discussion on color, but they found some good choices. Some wanted to discuss accessories, but that was more appropriate when you had a physical dress to deal with. While they were chatting you found yourself staring in the mirror.

You never had a chance to wear something so beautiful, and even if you still had doubts over your own looks, you couldn’t deny that you looked nice. It brought back memories of all the times you had been at parties, but no one ever asked you to dance. You were shy anyway, and probably weren’t approachable. You might not even have said yes, but it would have been nice to be asked at least once. Maybe someone would convince you.

“Should we dance?”

You were suddenly turned around, coming face to face with Johnny. He had been in casual clothes moments before, but now was dressed in a dashing suit. In fact everything was different. You had been in a dress shop before but now everything appeared to be some kind of dance hall. Even the others were dressed in suits.

“How… what…”

“A conference isn’t really a place to dance, but we can do so here.”

You didn’t really get to answer as he took your hand and led you onto the floor. A slow song began to play and he pulled you close. He had you wrap your arms around his neck, moving his hands to your waist. You couldn’t look him in the eyes, but you also couldn’t get away. He led your body as you two moved together to the music.

“We should have a proper party soon, so we can dance the night away.”

“That’s not necessary…”

“But we have to make up for all the times you weren’t invited to dance.”

“How did you…”

“We’re all connected, remember?”

“You guys always remind me.”

“Excuse me.” You felt a tap on your shoulder. “May I have the next dance?”

You couldn’t help the smile on your lips, reaching over to take Jungwoo’s hand. He placed a gentle kiss on your hand before pulling you into his embrace and dancing with you. This all felt like something out of a fairy tale, and a part of you didn’t want to wake up. You traded dance partners multiple times, losing yourself in the moment until you drifted off, resting your head against Doyoung’s shoulder and closing your eyes.

🖤

“Morning sweetheart.”

You felt a soft touch on your head, peeking your eyes open to see Jisung petting you and softly giggling. A soft smile decorated your face. You tried to say good morning back, but it seemed your voice was still gone.

“Sorry, Taeyong makes the rules. How about we get some breakfast though? We have a big day of shopping ahead of us.”

Jisung dragged you out of bed, and then to the dining room to eat. Everyone was happy to see you, Jeno even pulling you into his arms to dance with you a bit. You giggled and then sat down, enjoying the food. Despite all the boys wanting to go with you, only a few could. Besides Taeyong, Johnny, Jaehyun, Kun, Renjun, Chenle, and Jisung would be accompanying you. The others complained but Taeyong’s words on the matter were final. So after breakfast you headed out. You were nervous about the elevator, but Taeyong held your hand, reminding you that there would be no problem as long as you were with them.

The trip down was simple and you went to the garage, getting in the back in between Kun and Chenle. You kept your eyes out the window the whole time. This was the first time you had been outside the penthouse in weeks. You could see the city from the ground, see the people walking around and get some fresh air. It was the closest to freedom you had been in so long. You wanted to take it all in, as much as you could before they took you back to your high tower. The boys were well aware of your excitement, watching you fondly as you took everything in.

“We’re here.”

Of course you had no say in any of the actual shopping, but you were very nervous when you realized where they had brought you. This place was somewhere you’d never set foot in, given you could barely afford anything, but that was clearly not a problem for them. They already had a dress in mind for you, so it was a matter of finding one that fit their ideal look and would be an excellent choice for you.

“Come on, let’s find something you like.” Chenle took your hand, leading you over to the dress section. “These colors look the best on you, so we can pick out the one you prefer.”

He was grabbing a few off the rack, holding them up to you. The others were also looking around, well aware that you did also need new clothes. At one point Kun took you over to get your measurements so they knew what size to get and so they could have your dress custom fitted. If you had your voice you would have protested or said something about not needing a fitting, but they wouldn’t have listened to you anyway. They even had you try on some dresses they picked out to see how you looked. Lots of pictures were taken and sent to others to get their opinions too. You wound up going to multiple stores, wanting to make sure all your options were available.

“Oh, this one is so cute.” Jisung cheered. “Let me see if they have it in your size.”

You weren’t supposed to be left alone, that was Taeyong’s rule, but while you were out and about in public that could easily slip their mind. You were with Jisung and the others were around the store, so when he stepped away you were all alone. When you realized you thought maybe you could run, but as soon as you turned around you bumped into someone.

“Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t… wait, do I know you?”

“…”

You would have apologized and moved on if you could, but there was something about this person that felt familiar to you.

“Y/n! Oh my gosh, I haven’t seen you since we graduated, how have you been? Do you remember me? We shared a lot of classes since we had the same major, I’m Changkyun.”

“…”

You just nodded your head, starting to remember him. You did share classes, although you weren’t sure the two of you were ever really friends. Besides assignments and helping each other out you didn’t socialize. If anything you were quite surprised he remembered you.

“How have you been? I can’t believe I ran into you after all this time. I’m in town visiting a friend of mine but I’d love to catch up with you.”

“…”

You didn’t know what to do. Bumping into someone who knew you when you were out of the house, it felt like some sort of sign. Maybe he could help you, but then again you’d wind up putting him in danger. You weren’t sure what NCT was really capable of, and it would be foolish to test them when you were so unsure of the consequences.

“Is everything okay? I must have seriously caught you off guard here, my bad. We could start with something simple, how about some coffee? I heard there’s this great place-”

“Who are you?”

Kun suddenly stepped between the two of you, pushing you behind him and keeping you out of sight. Now you were getting nervous. Changkyun was a bit taken aback by the sudden intrusion, but he brushed it off.

“Oh, are you a friend of y/n’s? I’m an old-”

“I don’t really know who you are, but I would appreciate you staying away from my girlfriend.”

“Girlfriend?”

Your own eyes went wide at Kun’s words. You never thought he or any of the others would say such a thing, especially when it was far from the truth.

“We should get going.”

Kun took your hand and tried to lead you out of the store, but you suddenly stopped. Changkyun reached over and grabbed your free hand, holding you back.

“Could I at least get your number? I really want to-”

“Let go!”

Of course this wasn’t gonna go unnoticed. The rest of the boys made their appearance, with Johnny grabbing Changkyun’s arm and pulling him off you, shooting a glare at him. Taeyong came over to your side, and you quickly avoided his gaze, feeling as if you were in trouble even though you hadn’t done anything.

“And who are you?”

“None of your business.” Johnny spat. “So leave us alone.”

“I’m trying to speak with y/n, not you.”

“She has no interest in speaking with you, so get lost.”

“And who are you to speak for her?” Changkyun snapped. “Y/n, I just want-”

Jaehyun and Renjun suddenly stepped in front of you, blocking you from Changkyun. You knew things were getting out of hand, but you didn’t have any control over the situation. You were worried what would happen next, but Taeyong spoke up.

“Let’s not cause a scene here. We’re leaving, aren’t we, y/n?”

Taeyong gently nudged you and you looked up at him. He gave you a small nod followed by Renjun and Jaehyun stepping aside. You offered a nervous smile to Changkyun, feeling this weight off your throat.

“It…uh… it was nice seeing you again Changkyun… but I really need to get going…”

Changkyun gave you a strange look. “Are you okay?”

“Fa… fine… let’s catch up some other time…”

“I-”

“Bye now…”

Taeyong wrapped his arm around your shoulder, pulling you along towards the exit. You hung your head, the others following closely behind. Once you were away from the store you looked up at Taeyong to say something, but he held a finger to his lips and nothing came out. Just as he had given your voice back, he took it away again.

“Don’t be upset. You did nothing wrong. Someone left you alone.” Taeyong threw a glare back at Jisung. “Besides, you didn’t cause any trouble, and I’m glad.”

You weren’t quite sure what he meant by that, and he picked up on your confusion, making him chuckle.

“For a moment you thought a familiar face could help you, but ultimately decided against it. Whoever that was, they’re not really a friend of yours, and you agree. You don’t have a connection with anyone besides us, so there was no point. You are starting to understand how our relationship works.”

You wanted to deny that so hard, but you weren’t sure you could actually disagree. You had the time to possibly escape but you didn’t use it. Even when you had your voice you didn’t ask for help. That reality bothered you all the way back to the penthouse. You practically blew your one chance, and you couldn’t understand why. This isn’t where you wanted to be, and yet this is where you ended up today. You hated yourself for being so stupid. Although your attitude wasn’t going to go unnoticed.

“Don’t be so hard on yourself.” Xiaojun stated, taking a seat by your side. “The mind is a complicated thing. You don’t always understand what you truly want.”

“…”

“Your subconscious knows you well, and we may be cheating by being able to see that. We mean no harm, and you certainly know that now.” You shook your head. “No? You don’t believe us? We have gotten closer, but perhaps we need to take things a step further.”

Xiaojun leaned in to kiss your cheek, taking you by surprise. He offered you a smile and then pressed his lips against yours. You pulled away, still in shock.

“What? We’ve told you there are ways to get closer that are lots of fun.” You shook your head. “I could show you. I’m sure the others would like to as well.”

You couldn’t do much as Xiaojun took your hand and led you elsewhere in the house. Although once you realized where you were going, you seriously tried to break free.

“Taeyong.”

“Hm?” Taeyong looked over from his computer. “What’s this?”

“I was thinking that perhaps we should deepen our connection with y/n.”

“How so?”

“You know… and it wouldn’t be a bad idea given the conference is coming up.”

“You make a good point. Not everyone is home right now, but let the others know.”

“Awesome!”

You weren’t entirely sure what was going on, but Xiaojun’s excitement made you worry. Before you knew it you were alone with Taeyong. He came over to your side and took your hands in his, leading you over to the bed. He sat you down at the edge, gently petting your head and pressing a kiss to your temple.

“You don’t have to be worried, we’re not going to hurt you.” Taeyong gave you a smile. “Let me ask you, have you ever been intimate with someone before?”

You looked up at Taeyong with wide eyes, then quickly hid your face, feeling your cheeks warm up from embarrassment. There was no need to even ask cause he surely knew the answer, so he was just toying with you. Taeyong chuckled and grabbed your chin, forcing your eyes to meet his.

“What’s the matter? You don’t have to be shy. A physical connection is well known among regular people, our experience would just be something more.” You shook your head. “No? It’s okay, we’re gonna take good care of you, and you just have to enjoy yourself. Usually I wait for you to come to me in this situation, but given the circumstances, for everyone’s peace of mind, it’s best to strengthen our connection.”

You didn’t like the sound of that. The last time they spoke about you and a connection they had broken into your house and drugged you. Now that you were their prisoner you had no idea what this was all about. You pulled Taeyong’s hand away from you and tried to get up, but he quickly sat you back down, leaning in close.

“I’m not gonna let you run away from this. It is going to happen sooner or later, and since we need to bring you along to the conference, we need to be able to keep an eye on you since I can’t do it all alone.”

Taeyong grabbed your shirt, tugging it up but you quickly stopped him. You shook your head again. Whatever would come of this, you didn’t want to know. You were pleading with Taeyong, you’d behave at this conference if that’s what it took.

“Baby, I know you’ll behave, but this is more than that.” Taeyong pushed you down. “Calm down, your heart will be racing soon enough.”

Soon enough his lips were pressed against yours, kissing you deeply. He only stopped to catch his breath, and you began to feel a strange dizziness. Your vision was getting blurry, and some kind of warmth began to spread around your body. You had no idea what was going on but as Taeyong’s lips trailed down your body, every point of contact felt like a spark. You tried to get him off you, but there wasn’t any strength in your body. You were completely at his mercy now, unable to do anything as he stripped you down to your panties and bra, his hands exploring your body.

“It’s easy to tell now that you’re a virgin. You had no connections in your life, so it’s doubtful anyone would ever take things to the next level. Your body is sensitive to every little thing and more, partially thanks to me, but that’s beyond the point. You don’t have to worry, I’ll know when you’re at your limits, so just trust me.”

You lightly shook your head, hearing Taeyong chuckle in response. He gently turned you over and unclasped your bra, helping you out of it. You could feel your cheeks burning, feeling shy now that you were partially exposed. You had closed your eyes, but that just let your imagination run wild as Taeyong’s hands continued to feel you up. Although when you felt him close to your breasts your eyes shot open and you grabbed his hands. A soft smile adorned his lips, and he continued his actions despite your grip. You were so mesmerized by his gaze that you couldn’t stop his gentle touch from grabbing your breasts and massaging them gently.

“It feels good, doesn’t it? You’ve been so stressed around the house, you deserve some time to unwind.”

You slowly let go, allowing Taeyong to continue, closing your eyes and biting your lip. You didn’t want to make noise, didn’t want to admit you liked how you felt. He didn’t mind though, this was gonna be a long night, and there would be plenty of time to get you in the right mood. Although you opened your eyes when you felt his wet lips on your belly, kissing down. You tried to move away but he grabbed your hips and held you down.

“We’re getting to the good part, I just need you to be patient.”

Taeyong took off his shirt and you couldn’t help but stare. You hadn’t seen a shirtless man up close before, and he was very pretty. He noticed your gaze, taking your hands and letting you feel him up. You couldn’t help yourself, feeling the definition of his abs, how warm he was. After a moment Taeyong guided your hands down to his pants but you quickly pulled away, avoiding his gaze.

“Still shy.” Taeyong chuckled. “That’s alright.”

You could hear as Taeyong took off his pants, but you couldn’t bring yourself to look. That is until you felt a hand grab your chin. You immediately shut your eyes, but you could feel his gaze on you. Soon enough he let you go and pushed you back down. He kept a hand on your stomach to keep you still, then you felt his fingers run up against your panties, making you shiver. You opened your mouth to say something but nothing came out, having forgotten your voice was stolen. Instead you were making noises you didn’t know were possible. You were getting this tingling sensation between your legs, and you tried to close them, but Taeyong pulled them apart.

“Don’t.”

You were starting to shake, and Taeyong could feel you trembling beneath his fingers. When you felt him tugging your panties to the side you once again made a move to stop him but discovered that you couldn’t. The two of you were no longer alone. Your hands had been grabbed and pinned above your head by Mark and Jeno. When you tried to pull away they held you tighter, restricting your movements. You could barely move as you felt Taeyong’s cold fingers against your core. Desperately wanting to curl up and move away, but you were held down firmly. If you could speak it would all be incoherent nonsense anyway.

After a while Taeyong closed your legs a bit, sliding your panties off you before grabbing your thighs, massaging them lightly, and pressing a kiss against each one. Your legs were shaking as he spread them again. His fingers were one thing, but when you felt his tongue slide against your slit you threw your head back. The cold and wet feeling was beyond words, a sensation that left your mouth hanging open in bliss.

“She looks so hot like this.” Jeno commented. “I wanna use those lips.”

“As if Taeyong’s gonna let us do anything right now.”

“You think he’ll-”

“Don’t try anything, you know better.”

“Still…”

Moans and whimpers were the only sounds you were able to make as Taeyong continued doing whatever it was he was doing between your legs. Even if it was cold, you were feeling this warmth growing inside you. It was terrifying and exciting all at once. You wanted to beg for mercy, but they wouldn’t listen to that. You felt like something was rising and going to overflow when Taeyong suddenly stopped. Your gaze shot down at him, confused and upset, which just made him chuckle.

“If you’re gonna cum, it’s gonna be on my cock.”

Your face was burning. No one had ever spoken to you that way, and you couldn’t even speak your mind to understand where everything was going. Taeyong climbed on top of you, making you desperately pull your hands from Jeno and Mark, but they held you tight. You felt so small under Taeyong’s gaze, and slowly became aware of something poking your stomach. You didn’t want to look, but you had a good idea what that was.

“I think you’re ready, don’t you?” You shook your head. “I’ll go slow.”

You struggled to get your arms free again but it was no use. You started to feel something poking at your center, running along the sensitive area. You were whimpering, moreso when you felt something pushing against you. It was obvious where this was all going, but you were still shocked as you felt something opening you up that felt so good. For a moment you thought he was going to rip you in half, but your body adjusted, and you couldn’t deny it was a good feeling. Although you weren’t prepared for when he started moving. You bit your lip, becoming a mess beneath him. The other two had released you so Taeyong could take your hands in his and hold you close.

That heat came back and started growing again. When your hands began to squeeze Taeyong’s he could tell you were close, seizing the moment with a kiss. It only seemed right to kiss back, having a nice sensation all over your body, and pressing your lips together was just the cherry on top. Your body trembled underneath him, every part of you feeling a new type of pleasure. Each of his thrusts just created a ripple effect, even if it faded bit by bit. Then there was a new sensation as you felt Taeyong’s uneven hot breath on you, realizing he was on the edge too. Before you knew it you felt something warm between your legs and dripping out onto the bed sheets.

“Fuck, that felt good. You’re so tight, definitely a virgin, well, you were.”

You were a bit dazed as your body was still riding out this feeling of bliss. You had a tingling sensation all over your body, and felt warm in a new way. Someone was softly petting your head, making you hum pleasantly.

“Can I go next?” Mark asked. “I want a turn before the others show up.”

“No. I’m next.” Xioajun stated as he entered. “This was my idea, and I just told everyone else about it too. They’re gonna be rushing home, I know it.”

“The group chat must be on fire.” Jeno commented. “This is why I keep it on mute.”

“No wonder you’re always late to things.”

“Shut it.”

“Easy now.” Taeyong warned. “Let’s not fight among ourselves. Besides, Xiaojun has a point, this was his lovely idea, so he should get a turn before anyone else.”

“And how is our lovely girl?” Xiaojun climbed onto the bed. “She looks very happy.”

“She’s having a wonderful time.”

“Does she even know what comes next?”

“She’ll figure it out eventually.”

Xiaojun pressed a soft kiss to your lips, making you giggle. His hands trailed down your body, getting a reaction out of you wherever he made skin to skin contact. He stripped out of his clothes, pressing kisses against your chest.

“Are you ready for another round?”

Your response was a content whine, which to him meant a yes. Xiaojun reached down, his fingers feeling you up and informing him about the mess between your legs.

“You didn’t use protection?”

“Oh shit, yeah.” Taeyong chuckled. “We don’t really keep condoms around here.”

“You should message one of the others to buy some morning after pills. Unless you want to be a father.”

“No. That’s a discussion to have with her.”

“But not this?”

“It was your idea, but if you don’t-”

“Shut up.”

“That’s what I thought.”

You were still resting and dazed as Xiaojun looked you over, but when you felt his hands down there you gained some clarity. You attempted to stop him but your hands were grabbed again. Xiaojun met your gaze, giggling at your reactions.

“Are you tired?” You nodded. “I know baby, but this is the best time to keep going. Trust me, you’ll feel great.”

Xiaojun stripped out of his clothes, and you couldn’t tear away your gaze. You were a bit upset that you couldn’t feel him up like Taeyong, but you’d be feeling something from him soon enough. Since you were still sensitive, Xiaojun didn’t need much time to prep you. He didn’t mind diving into the mess between your legs and adding to it. The sensation was different this time. It was still nice, but in a way that felt dragged out and long lasting. You ended up grabbing onto Xiaojun’s arms as he hovered above you. He liked your attention very much, knowing he rarely ever got it, and certainly not like this before.

The wet sounds of him entering you, feeling the stretch again, it made your eyes roll to the back of your head. You shut your eyes and let your mouth hang open, getting lost in the feeling of him. Xiaojun peppered your body in kisses, matching them with his thrusts. Your body was still so sensitive due to the last orgasm but you were happily accepting Xiaojun. By now you had completely forgotten how this had all started out, just being in the moment and experiencing new things for the first time.

“Fuck… I’m close… can you handle more, love?”

You certainly couldn’t respond, even if your thoughts were coherent enough, but your body spoke for itself. Your grip on Xiaojun got tighter as you felt your second climax take over. Your body’s reaction was enough to push him over the edge. He buried his head in the crook of your neck as he reached his own high. His hot breath right up against your skin, tickling you. For a moment everything had gone black, but your vision returned, albeit blurry.

“I can already feel our connection growing.”

Xiaojun pressed another kiss to your cheek before moving off of you and laying down by your side. You kept your eyes on him, a daze smile on your face before you saw someone else looking down at you. Jeno had a big grin on his face.

“Can I go next?” You nodded with a dopey grin on your face. “Excellent.”

“Shouldn’t I go next?” Mark questioned. “I’m older.”

“But I got permission from y/n first, so I win.”

Jeno pressed a soft kiss to your head. You returned his kindness with a goofy smile. You were honestly feeling a bit empty and wanted some more attention. Your whines and little pout got the message across though. Jeno stripped out of his shirt and crawled down your chest leaving some marks along the way. He was the first to do so and made you feel like you had his full attention. He moved off the bed and went over to the edge, grabbing your hips and pulling you closer to him. You whimpered at the sudden movement, but then he was massaging your thighs and apologizing for being rough.

“You can take it baby, I know you can.”

Eventually his hands made it to your center, his fingers easily entering your sloppy center. He didn’t mind the mess, more than happy to dig in and add his own seed. They’d all make sure you were alright in the end. Jeno loved the look on your face, that ditzy smile and hazy eyes. He wanted to change it and make sure he was the only thing on your mind. You let out a ragged moan as he fingered you, making him well aware of your exhausted state. Still, he intended to tire you more. He did as he pleased, playing with you until he couldn’t take it anymore. He had to feel you from the inside.

Your whole body tensed up for a moment as he suddenly entered you. It took a bit to adjust as it was so unexpected, and he was quite big. Your arms flailed around looking for something to grab onto. One holding onto the sheets and the other holding his bicep tightly. He was very firm all over, and that was the bit of information that kept you focused on him. His movements all represented strength, and your whole body shook alongside him. He eventually grabbed your arms and pinned them down for a bit before grabbing your hips to hold you still.

“You feel so good. Even my own imagination couldn’t take me this far.”

More incoherent noises spilled from your mouth. Jeno was slightly upset that you couldn’t talk, but this was enough for now. This was only the beginning of a very fun night. You wound up wrapping your legs around Jeno, another hand grabbing his waist. You wanted more and more as you edged closer, feeling as if your whole world was going to explode. Jeno picked you up in his arms, pressing your body against his as he pushed you over the edge. You trembled in his arms as another orgasm ripped through you. Your breathing was heavy and you leaned against Jeno, feeling your whole body melt.

He didn’t stop though as he wasn’t finished. While you were dissolving in your bliss he kept thrusting into you until he reached his high. He squeezed you tightly as his continued his erratic moments, calming down a few seconds later. He still held you in his arms, although he soon became aware of your barely conscious state. He gently laid you down, brushing some hair out of your face. Taeyong took a closer look at you, seeing that they had exhausted you to new heights. He ordered the boys to get a bath going to clean you up, even if Mark was whining.

“We need to get her to bed, and then we’ll continue.”

You were vaguely aware of the warm bath you were in, but it felt nice against your aching limbs. Strong hands tucked you into bed, petting you softly and whispering sweet lullabies. You were already tired and it was easy to fall asleep. In your state you weren’t even concerned about what would happen when you shut your eyes.

🖤

You opened your eyes to find yourself in the usual dream starting point. As you sat up you realized you didn’t feel any pain. You were fine, as if nothing had happened at all. When you looked out the window you saw the night sky. You got out of bed and looked around, rather surprised to be alone. Your memories of reality were a bit hazy but you knew what had happened, which made you feel a bit uneasy. Since you were alone you figured you could try to get away before anyone found you. So you rushed up the stairs, wanting your own room, but that’s not what you got.

Instead you found yourself in the galaxy void. Nothing but stars as far as the eye could see. Then you noticed your clothes had changed too. You found yourself in white robes like before, and it was starting to worry you. For a moment you thought to run, but there was nowhere to go, and before you could think of something else you were grabbed. Someone came up and hugged you from behind, resting their chin on your shoulder. You carefully looked over to see who it was, discovering that Mark was embracing you, his eyes shut with a gentle hum escaping his lips.

“You look really pretty.”

“Where…” You were surprised you could speak. “My voice… this is a dream… a place I’ve never been before… so how…”

“Taeyong likes to call it the beginning. Since at first there was nothing before the big bang, but of course he didn’t like the emptiness so he added the stars.”

“The beginning?”

“Before dreams properly form or we come in to shape it, there’s nothing, so this is only the beginning.”

“But I’m here… and so are you?”

“Yeah, but Taeyong is around here somewhere, and he put you here for now.”

“Why?”

“Cause he’s getting things ready.”

“Ready?”

“Do you think only those three were gonna have fun? I didn’t get my turn.”

“I’m not some-”

“In order to deepen our connection, we all have to participate. We’re all connected, so that only makes sense.”

“I… I can’t-”

“We’re in the land of dreams where anything is possible. Not sure how you’ll feel in the morning though.”

“What does that mean?”

“I guess we’ll see. Shall we?”

“I-”

Mark took your hand and pulled you along. Even if there was still a void of stars a door had appeared, glowing white. It seemed surreal and scary, but Mark kept dragging you along.

“The others are waiting for you.”

🖤

You felt a heavy weight on your chest, and along the rest of your body. You could barely move around, but you managed to sit up. This was Taeyong’s room, so it was certainly the real world. At least you hoped. There would be no good reason for you to be aching like this in some kind of dream. You tried getting out of bed only to collapse to the floor. Your legs were so shaky and you knew walking wasn’t going to be an option at the moment. You thought to crawl but even that just hurt. Now you were basically stuck on the floor.

“Good mor- y/n?”

Sicheng came into the room with a food tray, but when he noticed the bed empty he panicked. You couldn’t have gone far so he put the tray down on the nearest table and soon found you on the floor. He helped you back onto the bed, although feeling his touch sent a rush of memories to the front of your mind. All the hands that had touched your body last night, leaving their marks and making you feel something you couldn’t describe, but it resonated with your entire being.

“You should still be in bed. It’s gonna take a while for you to recover.”

Once again your voice was gone, but you didn’t know how to speak about what you remembered. It was a dream, but not something you had made up, it was real and all the others shared in your memories. You carefully pulled up your legs and wrapped your arms around yourself. You didn’t want to believe any of it had happened, but your mind was so worn down that your body was remembering and feeling something you had only experienced in your dreams. You wouldn’t admit that the tingling sensations that were still feeling were nice. It wasn’t something you should remember in a positive light but you couldn’t help it. As if you had gotten all the love and attention you had been missing in one night.

“I brought you breakfast.” Sicheng wrapped a blanket around you. “Something warm and soft, and some medicine if you want it.”

You merely nodded your head. Sicheng brought over the food and helped you eat, knowing you weren’t at full strength. He didn’t mention last night either, and you weren’t sure if that was good or bad. You were mostly in your own head until you heard something strange.

‘She’s so cute.’

You looked around, thinking someone else had entered the room, but it was just you and Sicheng. He seemed to notice your reaction and chuckled.

“Did you hear me?” You looked over. “I called you cute.”

Your eyes went wide. He was right next to you but the voice had been low and faded. It couldn’t be him, but he knew what you had heard.

“We’re closer now, remember? I see you can read my mind a bit. That’s good.”

You couldn’t believe that was true, but that had been mentioned to you before. The connection goes both ways, and they said last night made it stronger. When you finished with breakfast Sicheng tucked you into bed and let you rest. It was difficult to fall asleep, especially since the last dream you had was so intense. It was daytime though, no one else was sleeping, so you used that as a reason to let yourself rest. Even if in the dream world you weren’t in any pain, you didn’t want to do much but sleep. Since it was just you in the dream you were in control, so you went to your bedroom and laid down, getting some rest.

In the coming days you stayed in bed, sleeping and being woken up to eat. You were getting better, some of the boys helping you take a bath and change clothes on occasion. When you were finally able to walk again you joined them all for breakfast. That’s when you first became aware of the change. The table was so loud since you could hear all these thoughts. Some were enjoying the food, others thinking about their day and the work that needed to be done. It was giving you a bit of a headache, and that was starting to give you a headache.

“Are you alright?” You shook your head. “Too loud, huh?”

Yuta took you away from the dining table and over to the living room. Things got a little quieter, but you could hear faded voices, like background noise.

“Do you feel better?” You nodded. “That’s good. Sorry about that, I guess we should go over things properly with you. Since the connection has been strengthened, being in each other’s head is much easier. It’s more natural now, and it goes both ways. Although I understand when this first starts it can be overwhelming. The best thing to do is try to focus on one thing, or one voice, until we all get more in sync. I’m sure now that you’re away from the others it’s all more like background noise, and it’ll wind up being that way once you adjust.”

It was making sense even if it all sounded crazy to you. Yuta told you to take some time and to join the rest when you felt better. Although he’d come by to check on you if you took too long. You understood what he meant and thanked him, being left alone with your own thoughts. Hearing all this really made you wonder about the others. They all seemed so normal, besides the kidnapping and dream stuff, but they were all in your position at some point. Now you were wondering how the others ended up joining this group. At some point it must have only been Taeyong, so which one of them was the first, were others tricked like you, or did they join willingly or something else entirely.

You had a lot of questions, but you knew you weren’t gonna get answers. Your stomach growling reminded you of the present and your current situation. You needed to eat, so you made your way back over to the dining room, keeping focused on the table, the foods that were available and your utensils. It was still loud, but not as bad as before. Like Yuta said, you’d get used to the other voices eventually. At least you hoped that was true. Since you were back on your feet things went back to normal with a few of them staying to babysit you. Of course you still had the voices, but only having to worry about one or two at a time made it easier to get used to and gradually you can quiet down the noise when more than a handful were present.

You had gotten so used to the routine you had completely forgotten about the conference that was coming up. It had nothing to do with you really, but you had gone shopping and they intended to take you with them. You only knew when the day had arrived because all of the boys were around the house getting dressed and talking to each other about the gaming company Taeyong owned. You were left alone for a good while before Doyoung and Xiaojun came to find you to get you ready. They made sure you took a shower, getting your hair and makeup done as well as making sure you were comfortable in your dress. A bunch of compliments flooded into your head as you looked yourself over in the mirror, everyone catching a glimpse of you.

“You look gorgeous.” Taeyong commented. “A lot of eyes are gonna be on you. Don’t be nervous. One of us will always be by your side.”

It took all day for everyone to get ready, and then you made your way over to the conference. There were at least five cars that they needed to take to fit everyone, and you rode with Taeyong, Johnny, Lucas, and Haechan. The conference was being held at a hotel venue, up on the second floor. As you arrived a valet took the car to park, and Taeyong had you wrap your arm around his as he led you inside. You didn’t really recognize anyone around, but they all seemed to know the boys. It wasn’t their first time meeting one another, but it was a first for you. Of course Taeyong hadn’t given you your voice back, so when others introduced themselves to you all you could do was smile and nod.

Many just took it as you were nervous, but since you had an arm around one of the boys, they also knew it was dumb to make any kind of move. You really didn’t know what was going on around you. Just a lot of tech talk, and business stuff. None of it was for you anyway, you were arm candy, and no one even bothered to start a conversation with you. As Taeyong said, someone would always be with you, so you’d be traded off between the members, but they were pretty busy that to your own surprise you did wind up by yourself. You stuck to a corner, trying to look for one of the others. This wasn’t a place you wanted to be alone in.

“Come on.”

You were suddenly grabbed, thinking you were going to be scolded by one of the members for being alone, but to your surprise it was someone else. You couldn’t speak their name, and you certainly couldn’t pull away from them. You were worried though, knowing that the others would notice your absence soon enough.

“I had no idea you’d be here, but it makes sense now. I knew those guys you were with before looked familiar.” Changkyun explained. “What the hell are you doing with NCT?”

You couldn’t look Changkyun in the eyes, starting to get very nervous. This was like the dress shop all over again, and you still had no voice. He dragged you outside the venue and into the hallway.

“Do you know how fucken weird those guys are? I’ve heard rumors about their recruitments and the mentality they have with each other. I don’t understand how they still get invited to such events either.”

“…”

“Y/n, are you listening to me?” Changkyun grabbed your shoulders, having you look at him. “You shouldn’t be with them. I don’t know how you got wrapped up in their mess, but let’s get you out of here first.”

Changkyun took your hand and led you over to the stairs but you pulled away from him. You couldn’t just leave, and you’d be in trouble if they caught you like this. You tried to go back but Changkyun caught up with you and held you back.

“Are you okay? Do they have something over you?”

“…”

“Y/n?” You shook your head. “Say something, are you alright?”

“…”

“Did they do something to you? Even back at the shop-”

You pulled away from Changkyun and shook your head. You have to go find one of the other boys before things get really bad. You tried to run off but Changkyun grabbed your arm again and dragged you along. You knew he was worried about you, and that’s all this was, you would be too if you were in his place, but there were things he didn’t understand. You kept trying to fight him but his grip was firm. You wished you could speak so you could explain somethings, but even in desperation your voice was absent.

“Y/n!”

The voice sent shivers down your spine. You looked back as YangYang screamed out your name in an angry tone, you knew you were in trouble no matter what. Of course you weren’t the only one startled. Changkyun quickly pulled you close to him and you didn’t realize he was already at the steps. When he pulled on your arm you stumbled down onto the steps and lost your footing. In your sudden fall you ended up dragging Changkyun down with you, the both of you tumbling down the stairs. You could feel the hits on your body, but you didn’t remember landing as everything went black.

🖤

“Y/n!”

At one point it became apparent that no one had their eyes on you, and they started to worry. They didn’t think you’d be dumb enough to try and run off, but they still worried regardless. They started looking for you, and YangYang was the first to step outside the venue. He immediately saw you struggling with someone and called out to you. Although he could only watch as you fell down, unable to help you. He rushed over the stairs, seeing you at the bottom.

By now the others were aware of his own distress and made their way to the scene. YangYang skipped over steps as he rushed down to you, pulling you into his arms. You were completely unresponsive, unlike the other person. Most of all he was worried cause he wasn’t picking up anything from you.

“Ugh… y/n! Y/n-”

“Don’t touch her!”

YangYang screamed at the other guy, holding you closer. A few others had rushed down, examining you and shoving the other away. You were still breathing, but unconscious, and they were becoming aware of the biggest issue.

“What happened?” Taeyong asked. “Who’s responsible?”

“That fucker!” YangYang yelled. “He was holding y/n hostage or some shit! He almost killed her!”

“Hm.”

Taeyong looked over at the other, immediately recognizing him from the shop before. The boy was still on the ground, and Taeyong came down closer to him.

“You know she doesn’t think of you as a friend, right? You’re just a familiar face, an acquaintance at best. I’m not entirely sure what your intentions were tonight, but I’m not a fan of you messing with my things.”

“She’s not a thing! And I don’t-”

“It doesn’t matter. She belongs to me, and I won’t be having someone like you around.” Taeyong stated. “One of you go tell the valets to bring the cars around. We’re leaving.”

Johnny took you from YangYang’s arms carrying you over to the main entrance. When Changkyun tried to stand he got kicked down, more worried than before but seeing that he couldn’t do much of anything. You were carefully put into the back of the car, your head resting in Jaemin’s lap. The main issue hadn’t been addressed, but everyone was well aware of it. When they got you home they laid you down in Taeyong’s bed, some carefully getting you out of your clothes so you’d be comfortable. You didn’t have any injuries aside from the obvious head trauma. Everyone was waiting on Taeyong for how to proceed.

“This has never happened before.” Mark mumbled. “What do we do?”

“How is this even possible to begin with?” Hendery questioned. “There’s… nothing…”

“She’s not dead.” Taeyong reminded. “Just lost.”

“How do we find her then?” Jisung asked. “Where do we even start?”

“Not we, me. I’ll find her, I have the best chance.”

“What if you don’t…”

“I will. No matter how long it takes. So you all need to keep an eye on us.”

Taeyong undressed as well, laying down in bed next to you. He softly caressed your cheek. He was worried, but he knew everything would be alright in the end. He took in a deep breath and closed his eyes, sinking into the void.

🖤

Even when you opened your eyes there was still darkness. You sat up, seeing nothing for miles on end. This place was strangely familiar though, like the galaxy void Taeyong created, except there were no stars here. You managed to sit up, wondering how you wound up here, and where here was.

“Hello…”

Your voice echoed into the nothing, and there was no response. You figured you were unconscious, but this wasn’t just you being asleep. If you were, you’d be in Taeyong’s room, or the galaxy, but this was neither. You got up and started walking, no real purpose in mind, just thinking maybe things would change. You didn’t know for how long you walked, but your legs were tired so you collapsed to the floor. This whole place was starting to scare you and you had no idea what to do. You were alone, so alone, in a way you had never been before.

You hugged your knees to your chest, feeling the first few tears slide down your face. You wanted nothing more than to find someone else, anyone else, in this void, so you wouldn’t be alone. Now you wished to be in that galaxy, surrounded by stars, even if it meant you would get swallowed up by it. After some tears you told yourself to get up and figure it out, that you weren’t completely helpless. So you stood up and wiped away your tears, getting your feet to move, and then you were sprinting.

As you ran the tears dried up, and you began to step on the stars, you couldn’t believe it was happening, but it brought you so much joy. You came to a quick stop and fell to the floor, staring at the ground, at the stars, in awe. You felt less alone and the tears began to fall again. While crying you didn’t realize the footsteps approaching, not until you felt a hand on your shoulder. You didn’t know who it was but you just stood up and hugged them, crying harder.

“Don’t leave me again… please… I don’t wanna be alone…”

“I’m sorry.” Taeyong wrapped his arms around you, gently rubbing your back. “This is my fault. I’m sorry.”

You cried all your tears as Taeyong held you, gently rocking you back and forth. You didn’t want to let go, you didn’t want him to disappear again. When he tried to pull away you only whimpered, holding him tightly.

“Y/n, you have to wake up, both of us do. The others must be so worried.”

“The others?”

“Yeah. We’ve missed you, and we want you to come home.”

“You mean that?”

“Of course. We’re connected, remember, one big happy family. Just close your eyes for me.”

“You won’t disappear?”

“No, I won’t.”

You looked up at Taeyong, still holding him tight. He smiled at you, reaching over to wipe away your tears. He assured you everything would be okay, and you trusted him. You took a deep breath and closed your eyes, starting to feel like you were sinking. It was a similar feeling, but you weren’t afraid this time. Just wishing that everything would be alright in the end.

🖤

When you opened your eyes there was light, and that brought a smile to your face. You sat up so fast that you got a headache, and you soon found Sungchan by your side.

“Y/n, are you alright? How are you feeling?”

“My head…”

“It’s okay, everything is going to be okay. You’ve been out for a few days but-”

“Days!”

“Nothing bad happened! We’ve been looking after both of you and-”

“Both… Taeyong!”

You finally realized Taeyong was next to you, seeing that he was still sleeping. You tried to shake him awake, but he didn’t budge. You felt the tears building up again, but then Taeyong inhaled softly, opening his eyes. It took a moment for his vision to adjust, but when he saw you he smiled.

“Hi.”

“Taeyong…”

“You’re okay.”

“And you?”

“Never better.”

The door burst open as the others poured into the room, glad to see that you were both finally awake. They rushed over to your side to check on you, and you couldn’t help the tears. They had all been so worried about you, and some were even tearing up as well. Those that could pull you into a big hug did, dragging Taeyong into it as well.

“I’m sorry…” You mumbled. “I’m so sorry…”

“It’s not your fault.” Ten reminded. “You did nothing wrong, it’s on us.”

“I’m sorry… please don’t leave me alone again.”

“We’d never do that.”

“We’ve got you, y/n.” Taeyong assured. “We’re all family, we’re all NCT.”

“Thank you… thank you so much…”

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Request for Anon (Yandere Cult NCT) 13.3k, yandere, drugs, needles, manipulation, stalking, harassment, psychedelics, cult mentality, mental abuse, verbal abuse, torture, kidnapping, mentions of self-harm, anxiety, home invasion

“You look like you need help.”

This wasn’t the first time you had been approached on the streets, and you knew these types of people well enough to ignore them. Except this time around you didn’t have the energy to do it. So the nice gentleman, you think, caught onto that and now here you were.

“I’m just tired and would like to get home.”

“And who’s waiting for you there?”

“What? No one, it’s just me.”

“So you don’t have anyone.”

“Look, I just-”

“You should come with me then.”

The gentleman took your hand and started pulling you along. You didn’t want to attract attention, and you didn’t have the strength to pull away so you begrudgingly followed. You were led into this small venue, another gentleman up on a stage talking to the crowd. There were a decent amount of seats filled, but plenty of empty spaces too. The one who brought you had you sit between him and someone else you politely greeted. You figured you were stuck here until this was over, and might have fallen asleep if the speech hadn’t actually piqued your interest.

“Connections. They make us who we are, no matter how big or small they may be. The truth is we are connected to many of the things around us. Whether that be people or objects. I ask you all to take a moment and think about those connections, and what they say about you. Perhaps you think of a dear friend, remembering the good times you’ve spent together, and those that are yet to come. Or perhaps a certain object comes to mind, like a picture framed up at home, taking you back to a moment you immortalized forever. These connections hold us up and help us go on in our lives. They might even lead us to new connections.”

You did think of home, of a blanket you slept with every night. You’ve had it since you were a baby, able to look back at old photos and see yourself with it. To this day it meant a lot to you, probably the thing you’ve had the longest, and it was just perfect to you. It held so many memories, good and bad, and you knew it would continue to do so for many years to come. You never realized how important it was until now, and that brought a smile to your face.

“I see some smiles, but as I’m sure you can tell, not many are aware of these connections in life. Which is why I believe it’s important to surround yourself with those who do, so you can forge strong connections and maintain them. To support one another through anything and everything. That’s what my community is all about, and I invite you to join us.”

There was a screen behind the speaker, and it had the word connection in lower case on it. As the invitation to join came up it suddenly changed, a few letters becoming uppercase. The second N, then the C, and T. Along with that new letters appeared, going down, revealing a new name. Neo Culture Technology. It sounded vaguely familiar, but you couldn’t quite pinpoint it.

“Neo Culture Technology. NCT. Is a group that understands these connections, and supports one another. I, Lee Taeyong, started this group with the idea to unite everyone. Of course, that is most likely impossible in my lifetime, but it won’t stop me from creating my small community and believing it shall grow beyond me. I thank you all for coming, please enjoy some refreshments and mingle if you have the time. The people here are eager to make new connections.”

After a moment there was applause, and then chatter filled the room. The two gentleman on either side of you greeted each other, seeming to be friends, before speaking to you.

“Hello, I’m Kun, it’s nice to meet you.”

“Y/n, hi.”

“And how did Hendery manage to bring you here? I hear he’s usually too much.”

“I am not!”

“Well he did kinda drag me here.”

“I… sorry, I just…”

“You didn’t actually hurt me, so I’ll let it go, but I don’t recommend doing that to someone else. They might not be as nice.”

“Noted. Shall we meet some others? Or do you need to go?”

“I can stay for a moment.”

“Awesome.”

You followed the two over to where the people had gathered, getting a drink and a quick snack. Everyone was very nice, talking about mundane things, you kinda forgot you had been dragged here against your will. Although you still had to get home and sleep, you had work in the morning.

“I should really get going, but thanks for this.”

“No problem.” Hendery smiled. “I do hope to see you again.”

“We’ll see.”

“Actually.” Another gentleman suddenly approached you. “NCT is having a weekend getaway, we’ve rented out a campsite, and we’d love for you to join us.”

“Oh, I don’t know if I can do that…”

“You can think about it. Here’s my card. I’m Doyoung by the way.”

“Ah, thank you, and nice to meet you.”

“Nice to meet you as well. If you change your mind, give me a call by Thursday evening so we can add you to the list.”

“Alright, thanks.”

You made your way out of the venue, checking the time. It was late, but the whole event hadn’t been as bad as you thought. As you made your way home it lingered in your mind, even as you got ready for bed, and laid down in the sheets. The idea of forming meaningful connections was nice, but you had to get to sleep. Thankfully it came easy, and in the blink of an eye it was a new day and you had to drag yourself out of bed. You made it to the office in one piece, the day was uneventful until the afternoon.

“Working hard?”

“Always.”

“Well, how about you wind down? I’ve talked to the boss and they agreed to a company dinner tomorrow.”

“Oh, I won’t be-”

“You always skip out, you can’t be avoiding me right?”

Jason was certainly the type who was full of himself and couldn’t understand why someone wouldn’t be interested in them. He has asked you out for coffee or dinner every now and then, and your answer was always the same. It wasn’t gonna stop him though.

“No, I just have plans already.”

“Do you now?”

“Yes.”

“Do tell. I’m curious what you do in your spare time. And don’t say it’s private, how else am I supposed to get to know you.”

“Uh… this group I’m a part of, we’re having a weekend getaway, and we leave Saturday morning, so I can’t be out late Friday night.”

“Oh, what kinda group? Can I join?”

“Not sure, it’s up to them.”

“You should-”

You were grateful to whoever called Jason over, cutting the conversation before he kept poking at your lie. You continued with the rest of your day like normal. It wasn’t until you were home that you remembered what you said. You looked for the card Doyoung had given you, wondering if you should call. A part of you worried about getting caught in your lie, and there was no harm in going with this group of people, they all seemed friendly. So you swallowed your nerves and dialed the number.

“Hello?”

“Hi, this is y/n, I don’t know if you remember me.”

“Of course I do. Hendery brought you along, how have you been?”

“Good, good, and you?”

“Excellent. Now, is it safe to assume you’re calling about the camping trip?”

“Yes.”

“Wonderful. I’m glad to hear you’ll be joining us.”

“It sounds like fun.”

“It will be. So if you’ve got time, I just need some information from you. Any allergies, or diet restrictions we need to know about? Also let me know your address so we can have someone pick you up.”

You gave Doyoung the necessary information, also noting his suggestions on what to bring with you, although you weren’t really comfortable with giving your address. You settle on getting picked up somewhere nearby.

“Alright. I’ll get all this sorted and have someone pick you up Saturday morning. I look forward to seeing you.”

“Me too.”

You felt nervous again after the call, realizing what you had agreed to. Even if it was weird you had to remind yourself why you were doing this, and that it could really be fun. Everyone always said you needed to get out more, and this was one way of doing it. Once you calmed your nerves, and set a reminder for Saturday you managed to go to sleep, somewhat dreading but also relieved that tomorrow was nothing special. The day was like any other, and of course your coworkers were excited for dinner, but you weren’t going.

“How about you and me have dinner when you get back.”

Everyone was already closing their stations and grabbing their things, ready to eat. Although Jason came over to your desk, wanting to check in before he goes.

“You can tell me all about your trip.”

“Uh, we’ll see…”

“Have fun then.”

“You too.”

You stayed behind in the office for a bit, wrapping some things up before you made your way home. You bought some food on the way, getting to your place and winding down for a bit before packing up a bag and getting to bed. You made sure your alarm was set, and everything was ready. There was a bit of trouble sleeping, but you did manage to get some rest.

🖤

“Y/n! Over here.”

Your alarm had gone off when it was supposed to, but you made the mistake of closing your eyes for a moment which was actually half an hour. You rushed out of bed and quickly gathered your things, rushing out to the meet up spot. As you arrived you heard your name and saw a familiar face. Hendery was there with a friend, the two waving you over.

“Sorry for being late, I didn’t mean to.”

“That’s alright. I’m sure some of the others are dragging as well. Come on, we can walk over to the bus.”

“Bus?”

“Yeah, Taeyong rented one out to take us all to the campsite together. He feels better having us all close.”

“I see.”

“Oh, this is Xiaojun by the way.”

“Hi, nice to meet you.”

“Nice to meet you too.”

You all walked together a couple of blocks, enjoying the morning sun and blue skies. You talked a bit about the morning rush you all had experienced. Staying in bed and sleeping in would be nice, but the trip was exciting. Their energy slowly rubbed off on you, making you less nervous about the whole thing. When you arrived at the pickup spot, many others waved you over, smiles and joy everywhere.

“Y/n! So glad you’re joining us.” Kun gave you a polite hug. “We’re gonna have a lot of fun this weekend.”

“I’m sure we are.”

“Let’s get you checked in.”

Kun took you over to Taeyong, and you got a proper introduction. Your nerves suddenly came back, since he was the leader of this whole group.

“Hello…”

“It’s nice to meet you. I’ve heard good things.”

“Have you?”

“Of course. I’m glad you decided to join us. If you don’t mind, could you fill this out, I just need to have your full name and number. And if your phone’s not fully charged you can ask Mark for a charger and power bank, we have cables for all types of phone. Do you have everything you need?”

“Yes, I’m all good. Thank you.”

“Alright. Everyone is almost here, so we’ll be leaving in a few minutes. I can take your bag and get it on the bus for you.”

“Thanks.”

While Taeyong did that you filled out the form and handed it back. Once that was all done you got on the bus. Everyone was friendly and smiled at you, so you just took any empty seat you liked. That’s how you met someone new.

“Hi, I’m Jaemin.”

“Y/n.”

“Oh, pretty.”

“Thanks.”

“I’m glad we have someone new coming along with us.”

“Uh… am I the only one who’s not from your group?”

“Yeah. We invited plenty of people, but you’re the only one who came.”

“Oh…”

“Don’t be shy, I promise no one is gonna make you feel left out.”

“Agreed.” Someone peeked over from behind. “I’m Jeno by the way, nice to meet you.”

“Hello.”

“So, what do you do with your time?”

“I work in an office. It’s this insurance agency, and I work with advertising.”

“Oh, that’s pretty cool.”

“It’s just an office job really, and it pays the bills. What about you two?”

“I’m still studying.” Jeno said. “But I do a bit of modeling on the side.”

“Wow, that is really cool. You’ve certainly got the looks.”

“Oh please, I’m blushing.”

“I’m also studying.” Jaemin added. “And I have an internship with a tech company.”

“Nice. I’m glad to hear you guys are still studying.”

“It sucks at times.”

“But it’s very important.”

The bus soon enough filled up, and Taeyong had everyone quiet down. He did a headcount, calling out names and making sure everyone who was supposed to be here was present. With that the bus started moving. You were told it was a simple two hour drive. Everyone seemed to get along with each other, obviously, you had no idea how long they had all known each other. Although you continued talking to Jaemin and Jeno, also meeting a few others along the trip. Everything was fine, although once you could see nothing but trees outside the window you got a bit anxious.

You were going out into the middle of nowhere, with a bunch of strangers. It really wasn’t the smartest idea. You tried not to look worried, but you were sure it might have caught on. Once you arrived Taeyong did a headcount again, telling everyone to grab their things and head up to the cabin to settle in before they grab breakfast and then start with activities. After grabbing your things Taeyong pulled you aside, letting you know that if at any point you wanted to leave, there was a car and he’d drive you back himself, no questions asked.

Now you really felt called out, but at least you had some relief knowing there was some understanding to your situation, being the only outsider, and that you weren’t trapped or obligated to stay here. Taeyong went with you to the cabin, once again doing a headcount when everyone was there. The place wasn’t a small cabin, but seemed more like a resort. There weren’t any individual rooms, so everyone would sleep together in the main hall. You’d all be staying for one night only, so that seemed reasonable. There were lockers to put your things in, and the important facilities were pointed out. Once that was all done everyone gathered in the mess hall for some breakfast. This was truly the embarrassing part.

“Everyone, quiet down.”

Taeyong got atop one of the tables, speaking over everyone else and getting them to be quiet. He thanked everyone for coming, especially you, and suddenly all eyes were on you. This was his way of properly introducing you to everyone, making you extremely shy. No one teased you, but everyone was very happy to say hello and get acquainted. It also made sure conversations kept going and you never felt neglected. After breakfast it seemed that you’d all be going on a little hike. The group had been here before, and enjoyed taking in the scenes of nature. They were also very excited to show you, which also kept you from getting so nervous.

It was said to be better to split off into groups of six so no one felt excluded or alone. You got put with Taeyong, Doyoung, Jungwoo, Mark, and Yuta. They were all super friendly, and gave you a lot of attention. Being the outsider also gave them the excuse to constantly point things out to you and ramble a bit about the trees, leaves, the birds, and the ponds. They were honestly all really cute, and you actually enjoyed the little hike, getting to know them more along the way. You actually had a picnic around lunch time together, having found a nice clearing to set up on. It was a really beautiful experience, and a good way to rest. After that you returned to the cabin and regrouped with the rest.

Everyone had stories to share, which was perfect as people were mixed around to help prepare for the night. You were helping with refreshments, finding yourself between Haechan and YangYang, squeezing oranges and trying not to make a mess. You wound up talking a lot, rambling out of nervousness and excitement, having been enjoying your day so far, and they were happy to listen. As it began to get dark the grilling and set up for dinner started, Taeyong also suggesting everyone take turns cleaning up for the night.

You were one of the last to shower, and by the time you stepped outside the smell of food was in the air, and a few campfires were going with people roasting marshmallows. You got something to eat, finding a spot to sit, getting thanked for all your work with the refreshments. It really felt like a party now, food and laughter in the air, making it so easy to forget your troubles. Although as the sky got darker, and everyone had food in their bellies, things kinda got serious. Taeyong brought everything back to connections, how everyone here was connected, and that they were here for each other.

You were all out in the woods alone but together, so he opened up the time to just talk about things that might be on someone’s mind. Things ranged from being nervous about school or work, about possible opportunities on the way. It got deep, some sharing their concerns about where they’re going in life, and that certainly struck a chord with you. Your silence and minor zoning out was noticed by Sicheng, who was sitting by your side. He stepped away for a moment and then returned, handing you a glass of juice and asking if you were alright. You thanked him for the drink, taking a sip.

“I’m good… just thinking…”

“Do you wanna talk to the group?”

“I don’t think I could. You all know each other, it’d be like intruding…”

“But you’re here with us, you’re one of us. And if you don’t see it like that, we are just a bunch of strangers to you, who better to unload on.”

“I suppose…”

“Go on then. Guys!” Sicheng got everyone to quiet down. “Go ahead.”

“Uh… well…”

“What’s on your mind?”

“I don’t… I don’t know… I’m like… alright financially, but I feel like I’m not going anywhere… like I’m stuck… work is just where I go, and I just can’t find the strength or even need to socialize with the people around me… I feel like something’s wrong with me…”

“That’s hardly the case.” Taeyong spoke. “It sounds like you lack connections in your life, and that’s not entirely your fault. If those around you aren’t willing to connect, all your efforts come off in vain. There’s nothing wrong with you, it just seems those people aren’t appreciating you.”

“Which is bullshit, by the way.” Ten added. “You’re wonderful, and people should be way nicer to you.”

Suddenly getting showered with compliments made your face burn. You had to politely ask them to stop, and that’s how the night really began to wind down. By then you were all gathered around the biggest campfire. After who knows how long Taeyong suggested that those who were tired should get to bed. A few got up and headed inside, but you stuck around for a while longer, enjoying a few more smores and watching the pretty fire. After a third yawn you retired for the night, finishing your drink and going inside.

You cleaned up a bit more before changing into something to sleep in and finding a place in the main hall. Plenty of sleeping bags, blankets, and pillows were stacked against the walls by the entrance, so you grabbed what you wanted and found a nice place to lay down. The exhilaration of the day was slowly fading, and exhaustion was engulfing you. This wasn’t your room or your bed, but you found it easy to fall asleep, closing your eyes and snuggling the sheets, drifting off into dreamland.

🖤

You opened your eyes to find the morning sun on your face. It was nice, but after a moment you remembered there weren’t any windows that low in the main hall. You quickly sat up, realizing you weren’t where you had laid down to rest. Instead you were on a couch in a room you did not recognize. You looked around, trying to understand your situation, and find a way out of this place. The panic was bubbling up, but suddenly you found that you were not alone, finding a familiar face.

“Sleeping well?”

You watched Taeyong come down the spiraling stairs, offering you a smile and then standing by the windows, looking out at the skyline.

“Where am I…”

“Somewhere safe. It’s honestly amazing you’re here. So, tell me, what made you decide to come on our trip?”

“Uh… well I thought it’d be fun… a nice weekend getaway to unwind.”

“Is that so?”

‘I just have plans already… this group I’m a part of, we’re having a weekend getaway… I can’t be out late Friday night…’

Your disembodied voice came from out of nowhere, and it actually scared you. Although you had no idea how this was possible. You knew these words weren’t said to Taeyong or anyone in NCT, and yet here they were. Taeyong moved over to sit across from you, his demeanor giving nothing away.

“What the…”

“Did you really come out here to avoid someone?”

“What?”

“That’s quite a big move. Do they bother you that much?”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“It’s important to be open with one another when forming a connection, and to support each other. If you need us, or anything, we’re here for you.”

“Uh…”

“Shall we connect?”

Taeyong held his hand out to you, a gentle smile on his face. Nothing made sense, and yet you felt a subtle compulsion to take his hand, to accept it, his offer, regardless of what it meant. Although as you began to move closer to him, reaching out, everything faded to black.

🖤

You felt warm all over as you began to regain consciousness. You thought to yourself the sleeping bag was just that warm, although as you opened your eyes you realized the truth. You found yourself sandwiched between Jaehyun and Johnny, practically cuddled up in their arms. You tried to wiggle your way out of their grasp, waking them up in the process, and they both immediately moved away.

“Sorry, sorry, I didn’t… shit, sorry.”

“I don’t usually move in my sleep, we’re so sorry.”

“I’m fine… are you guys okay? Did you sleep well?”

“Yeah, yeah…”

“Why are you so loud?” Jisung sat up from his place, glaring. “It’s too early.”

“Sleepy head.” Johnny teased. “Others are already up and gone.”

“Then go too, I wanna sleep some more.”

“Okay, okay, let’s go see what’s for breakfast.”

The two others excused themselves, apologizing again. You stayed put for a while, still sleepy but also vaguely thinking about the dream you had just had. It was so weird and made no sense, but those were dreams. You got up and freshened up for the morning, going into the mess hall for some breakfast. It was a little more quiet than before as everyone was still waking up. Everyone said good morning, asking if you slept well. You did, not mentioning the weird dream, but at least you were very warm.

Once everyone was up and had eaten, the day was really sunny, and it was perfect weather to enjoy the lake. You brought a swimsuit along, but you hadn’t realized what going for a swim meant for the others. You swear you had never been surrounded by so many shirtless men. You had to stop yourself from staring too long, and were grateful the water was keeping you cool. There were plenty of water activities to keep you busy, and everyone stuck around the dock to enjoy lunch. Some began to complain about the start of the week, but what mattered was the enjoyment of the present. After lunch you all hung around for a while longer before having to go back to the cabin and clean up. It was time to head home.

You helped make sure the campgrounds were clean, and double checked the main cabin to make sure no one had left anything behind. Taeyong did a headcount as everyone boarded the bus, doing it again inside before you all hit the road. You found yourself staring out the window, still a little sleepy, but overall glad you had fun this weekend. By the time you arrived back in town you felt a bit sad that it was over. Taeyong counted again to make sure everyone had made it back, and thanked everyone for coming out. They grabbed their things, and said their goodbyes to the group.

“Do you want me to walk you back the way we came?” Hendery asked. “Or would you be okay going yourself?”

“Uh… I should be fine alone.”

“Nonsense.” Xiaojun chimed in. “We should walk with you, it’s only fair. Come on.”

You honestly didn’t mind the company, sharing your favorite moments from the weekend on your way. You thanked them again for accompanying you, and wished them well on the rest of their day. You parted ways there, going to your apartment and collapsing on the couch. Now that the little trip was over you could reflect on how you had actually gone with a bunch of guys to a campsite and had a lot of fun in like two days, way more fun than the last two months. You checked your phone to see if you had missed anything, but there weren’t any notifications or unread messages, not surprising.

You ordered some food later on and just wound down for the day with TV. As you were getting ready for bed your phone chimed, multiple times, and it was certainly confusing. When you checked you saw that you had been added to a group chat, NCT’s group chat. Some were already talking about getting together for dinner Monday, and now everyone was responding with their availability. Eventually the question was directed at you, but you only said you’d think about it. You set the chat on mute and got into bed, dreading the tomorrow, but you couldn’t stop it, so might as well get some good sleep.

🖤

“So, how was your trip?”

You had completely forgotten how your Friday night went, so when Jason popped the question Monday morning you panicked a bit. The weekend was suddenly a jumbled mess in your mind.

“Uh… good. We did some hiking and swam out in the lake.”

“Oh, did you have smores?”

“Yup. I burned a marshmallow or two.”

“Well, how about you tell me more over dinner?”

“Another company dinner? So soon?”

“No, I was thinking just the two of us.”

“Oh… I already have plans for tonight. Sorry.”

“Your little group again?”

“Yeah.”

“Alright, rain check on that dinner then.”

“Ok.”

Jason caught you off guard with that request, and even though you didn’t intend to go to dinner with the others, that just spilled out of your mouth as a way to avoid Jason’s request. You didn’t have to go, but now that you put the idea out there you were considering it. At the end of the day Jason wished you well, and that was a good enough push to go. You were also somewhat worried Jason would follow you to make sure you weren’t lying, so you were going. You didn’t send a message ahead, and just showed up, your presence met with cheers.

“Y/n! So glad you could make it.”

You were greeted by Johnny, Ten, Jeno, Jaemin, Yuta, Xiaojun, Renjun, Shotaro, and Sungchan. Their energy rubbed off on you quickly, and you took a seat between Yuta and Shotaro. Food was already cooking, and you ordered a drink. The conversations were about the day, and how Mondays always seem to drag.

“So, you work in an office.” Jeno questioned. “Right?”

“Yeah, what about it?”

“You got any office drama to share.”

“Oh well, I don’t really socialize with my coworkers.”

“But you must hear everything.” Ten said. “Right?”

“Uh…”

“It’s okay, you don’t have to share. I get it if you only focus on your work.”

“Well it’s hard not to listen in…”

“Oh, so what’s going on?”

“One of the girls in my office… she has a picture of her and her boyfriend on her desk, I believe his name is Eric. Yet I’ve heard her on a personal call in the bathroom on more than one occasion where she’s talking to someone named Maurice. The way she talks to them… sounds like a boyfriend too… so I think she’s like playing two guys.”

“Damn, that’s dangerous.” Renjun commented. “How long has that been going on?”

“Since I’ve heard, at least two months now, but it could be longer.”

“That’s crazy.”

“It explains why she’s always dressed so nice and stuff, she’s got two boys buying her things.”

“I wonder how she dates them.” Johnny questioned. “Do they alternate weekends?”

“Maybe it’s a threesome.” Shotaro said. “That’d be hot.”

“I doubt it.” You countered. “She can barely handle her assignments, I doubt she could manage two guys.”

“What about you?” Yuta asked. “You dating?”

“Me? No, I haven’t really dated.”

“Ever?”

“Yeah…”

“So you’re a virgin?” Jaemin teased. “Right?”

“Uh…”

“Jaemin, behave.” Ten hissed. “Let’s just enjoy the food and the wonderful company we have tonight.”

Thanks to Ten the conversation shifted, some of the others sharing workplace gossip. You stepped away for a moment to use the restroom and came back, checking the time. It was getting late and you knew you needed to get home. Even though it seemed like they were going to keep going, you had to excuse yourself first. Xiaojun offered to walk you to your little drop off location, and everyone agreed, they didn’t want you walking alone at night. You couldn’t refuse, and you wouldn’t have either way.

“Have a good night, sleep well.”

“You too, night.”

You made it back to your apartment safe and sound, happy with how the night went. You got ready for bed and crawled under the sheets, cuddling yourself. At least you ended the day on a good note, so even if you had work in the morning, it didn’t bother you as much. You closed your eyes and peacefully drifted off to sleep.

🖤

“You’re running from someone, why?”

Your eyes shot open when you heard a familiar voice, finding yourself back in that weird living room space, Taeyong staring at the night skyline outside the window. As you sat up he turned back to you, that gentle smile from before. He sat across from you, watching you, waiting.

“What?”

‘I already have plans for tonight… sorry’

Hearing your voice from some unknown place startled you, just like last time. You hadn’t seen Taeyong since you returned, and you said these words at work. It made no sense for him to know any of this, yet he did, and his expressions gave nothing away.

“I wouldn’t say you’re lying, but you are running away from this person… aren’t you? Jerry, is it?”

“What is this?”

“I’m just trying to help you understand.”

“Understand what?”

“Why you need us.”

“Excuse me?”

“Twice now we’ve invited you into our circle, and you’ve accepted twice, not necessarily of your own will, but as a means of escape.” Taeyong chuckled. “I might have taken offense to that, using us as your scape-goat, but you’re comfortable and open around us, have been from the start, and that’s very good.”

“I don’t…”

“But why are you running to us? Are you aware of the answer? That you know we can protect you.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about and-”

You felt so out of control in this situation, and it was annoying you. Taeyong was stepping out of lines in ways you couldn’t even understand. You stood with the intention of leaving, doing anything besides listening to him, but as soon as you stood you collapsed, sinking back into darkness.

🖤

You inhaled sharply as you woke up, taking in your surroundings to ground yourself in reality. You took some deep breaths, reminding yourself everything was just a meaningless dream, and the sooner you thought of other things, the sooner it’d fade away. When you looked over at the clock you saw that you were up before your alarm, and you didn’t think you’d be able to fall asleep again. Since you had some time, and your mind was still on the dream, you figured you’d do something you should have done from the beginning. You searched the web for information on NCT.

At first you got the basic information. NCT was a gaming company focused on the development of VR and AR technology. It wasn’t a big company, and the tech wasn’t really perfected or well enough for general market consumption. That explained why the name sounded familiar, but you had to look it up to get an answer. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, until you went beyond the company information. You found some forum talking about them, specifically those gatherings and presentations they have. You weren’t the first to take interest in their words, and it seemed some approached them with an interest to know more, but it all seemed to go the same way.

Many on the forum reported having strange dreams after getting close to NCT, and those same people from the group approaching them more often. It started off innocent, invitations to socialize and one could really get to know them, but the strange dreams persisted. Furthermore, the group themselves became more persistent in their attempts to socialize, and get to know them. It got to a point of borderline harassment, and many had to make reports, change numbers, or even move away to get them to leave them alone. None of that sounded good, nor was it something you wanted to deal with either. Although you thought maybe those things could be exaggerated, as who doesn’t lie on the internet.

Your alarm going off was your sign to stop searching the web and get ready for work. Your thoughts lingered on NCT and what you read but you didn’t let it bother you too much. You made it to your job without issue, going about your day. It was mostly quiet until lunch time, when Jason asked you to join him. There was no excuse this time, and you honestly felt like you owed him, so you agreed, somewhat reluctantly. He was overjoyed, talking about a good place as you made your way down. Once you stepped outside you were met with an unexpected surprise.

“Y/n.”

When you heard your name called you looked over, seeing a familiar face approach you, it was Kun. He seemed excited to see you, meanwhile you were confused how he found you.

“I’m glad I caught you before you went out. Shall we?”

“What?”

“Lunch.”

“Sorry” Jason cut in. “But y/n is having lunch with me. I think you’re outta luck”

Kun scoffed. “I believe you’re the one out of luck here. Y/n already agreed to go with me.”

Before you could say anything, Kun grabbed you and pulled you to his side, although Jason quickly reached over to grab you too.

“Let her go.” Kun stated. “Before you cause a scene.”

“You’re the one causing a scene.”

“Y/n, it’s okay to admit you forgot about today. I understand work must keep you busy.”

“Uh…”

“Just tell him that and let’s go. I don’t want you rushing through a meal.”

You looked between the two, not really sure what to do. You didn’t like this situation either way, and there was no way you got out of it alone. You had seconds to think, and you made the choice that would benefit you more.

“Sorry, Jason. It really must have slipped my mind. Tomorrow, lunch, for sure, I promise.”

Jason sighed and let you go, telling you both to enjoy yourselves. You offered an apologetic smile, and suddenly Kun pressed a kiss to your cheek.

“Let’s go.”

He grabbed your hand and pulled you along as you held your cheek, shocked by his actions. You also had no idea if anyone else saw that. Still, you followed him, going to a nice cafe and enjoying your lunch break. Kun didn’t bring up what happened outside your job, just wanting to talk about you and make you smile. Despite the situation, you did have a good time, but there was something you had to say.

“Kun.”

“Yes?”

“I’ve had a great time hanging out with you, all of you, but this is where I must part ways.”

“Huh?”

“I need to focus on other things, and I don’t really think this group is for me.”

“Ah… I see…”

“I hope you understand and can relay the message to the others.”

You didn’t want to hear anything else, so you got up and thanked Kun for the meal. Although he grabbed your arm and held you back for a moment. His grip was gentle, but you knew he’d hold on if you tried to move. When you looked at him, he didn’t meet your eyes, simply keeping his gaze ahead.

“Don’t believe everything you read.”

Those words sent shivers down your spine. You couldn’t articulate anything, and Kun let you go. For a moment you stood there frozen before you scurried out of the cafe. Your mind was running, thinking about what he meant, but you tried not to let it bother you. Surely anyone who looked up NCT on the web would find what you did, and your decision wasn’t all because of that. Once you were back in the office you could calm yourself down. Quickly removing yourself from that group chat without looking at any other messages.

“Are you okay?”

“Huh?” You looked up to see Jason. “Yeah, I’m fine.”

“You don’t look so good.”

“I guess lunch didn’t agree with me.”

“I see… I’ll do better tomorrow.”

“Huh?”

“Tomorrow, lunch together.”

“Right, right.”

“I’ll let you get back to work then.”

The rest of the day kinda dragged, so you were grateful when it finally came to an end. You made your way home, and sighed in relief when you closed the door. You were looking forward to sleeping, kicking your shoes off and making your way inside.

“You shouldn’t believe everything you read on the internet.”

You screamed and jumped, looking over to see someone sitting on your couch. It was Taeyong. Now you were visibly shaking, he had broken into your apartment and you had no idea what he was going to do. Somehow you regained the sense to think straight, and you turned around with the intention to run, only to bump into Johnny. He smiled down at you, gently pushing you back.

“We’re not gonna hurt you.” Johnny cooed. “We’d never do that.”

“How… why…”

“We can’t lose synchronization.” Taeyong spoke as he got up. “So this is necessary.”

Johnny flipped you around and held you in place as Taeyong approached you. Your heart was pounding in your chest, and you desperately tried to get away, but soon enough two others approached from your sides, Jaehyun and Jungwoo, boxing you in. As Taeyong stood before you he reached into his jacket pocket, pulling out a small vial and a needle. You watched as he filled the needle with an unknown substance. Jaehyun wound up grabbing your face and pulling your head to the side to expose your neck.

“Please… please don’t do this!”

“You’ll be fine.” Taeyong assured. “Promise.”

Out of the corner of your eye you could see the needle coming closer, eventually feeling the pinch on your skin. You whimpered, but there was nothing you could do. Jaehyun let you go when it was over but Johnny kept his hold on you. Taeyong reached over and gently caressed your cheek. You were starting to feel sleepy, even though fear still gripped you right.

“Please…”

“Sh, just sleep. I’ll see you soon.”

You couldn’t stop yourself from slipping under, drowning in the darkness with no idea when you’d see the light again.

🖤

You gasped as you came to, your mind trying to catch you up on everything that happened. Taeyong and others broke into your apartment and attacked you, drugged you. Now you had no idea where you were, and as you took in your surroundings you became very confused. Everywhere you looked it was dark, the only light coming from all the little dots. It looked like you were staring up at a starry sky no matter which direction you faced. You slowly stood, seeing the ground was the same, and you were partially afraid you’d sink into this void, but it seemed like you were walking on air.

“It’s beautiful, isn’t it?”

You turned around to find Taeyong, who quite literally appeared out of nowhere. He was dressed in white robes, and that’s when you realized you were dressed in a similar fashion.

“Where am I? What is this place? What did you do to me!?”

“I know you have a lot of questions, but now isn’t the time for them.”

“What?”

“Today is just for establishing a connection. We’ll have a proper induction when the time is right.”

“I…”

Taeyong grabbed you and pulled you into his arms. He rocked you gently to the side, rubbing your back and softly humming. You started to feel something climbing up your legs. It felt warm yet cold. You pulled away enough to look down, seeing that this galaxy was rising up and swallowing you. When you tried to move, Taeyong just held you tighter.

“There’s no need to be afraid.”

“What is this!?”

“Salvation.”

You couldn’t move your legs anymore, you felt like you were paralyzed down there. Taeyong wasn’t though, he held you and began laying you back. He was all you could see, the starry skies filling up every other inch of your vision. You held onto him, not wanting him to drop you into whatever this was, but it seemed that he intended to go down with you.

“You can close your eyes if you want.”

Soon enough you felt that same warmth and chill against your back, your grip on Taeyong getting more desperate. It didn’t stop anything, as you felt this substance engulfing your body inch by inch. You couldn’t help but shut your eyes and hold your breath as you felt it at the back of your neck. Once you were completely under you felt like you were floating. You couldn’t feel Taeyong anymore, you seemed to be alone. Whatever this was, it was terrifying, but as you remained in this limbo, you couldn’t help this feeling of peace overtaking you. Even in this darkness, there was some form of comfort you couldn’t explain. You weren’t alone, not really, not anymore.

🖤

You sighed softly as you woke up, laying still in shock over what had happened. You were in your bedroom, tucked in under the covers, safe and sound. You slowly got up, seeing that you had beat your alarm by a few minutes. You turned it off so it wouldn’t bother you, but you stayed in bed for a moment, staring up at the ceiling. You seemed to be okay, you didn’t feel weird or sore. Now you were wondering if everything had just been a dream, including the break in. From what you had read, and telling Kun you were done, maybe your worst fears got the best of you.

Regardless of all that, you actually felt better. A sense of calm and peace swimming within you. It was nice to start the day in a good mood for once. You got up and got ready for work, going about your usual commute. Even the office appeared to be in a nicer light, so you felt that the day would be good. It honestly started off that way, but as the minutes ticked on, you began to feel this headache growing. You thought nothing of it, going to the breakroom to get some medicine, but it didn’t seem to help. Now you were struggling to focus, but you wanted to push through until the end of the day.

“So, are you still up for lunch?”

As always, you kinda forgot about Jason, especially that you had agreed to lunch today. Despite your headache, you weren’t going to rain check on him again, better to get this over with, although you weren’t sure going out would be a good idea.

“Do you think we could order something and eat together in the break room? Gives us more time to enjoy our lunch break.”

“I like that idea. I’ll email you some restaurants and you let me know which one you prefer, it’s on me.”

“Oh, you don’t have to.”

“I insist.”

Jason was kinda a nice person, and today of all days, you were seeing him differently. You always thought maybe he was trying to make a move, and not catching on that you weren’t interested, or not caring, but maybe he was just being nice, genuinely nice. No one else in the office really bothered to socialize with you outside of work inquiries. Maybe it wouldn’t be a bad idea to make a friend. Although none of that made the headache any better. If anything you swear it was getting worse. Still, you didn’t want to ditch Jason, so you at least told yourself to have lunch, maybe some food will make you feel better, and if not, you’d head home early.

The two of you had the break room to yourselves at lunch time, and the food smelled delicious. As you ate you were starting to feel a bit better, thinking maybe this whole headache was because you skipped breakfast. You made idle chat with Jason, although he did a lot of the talking. Maybe you could get to know him like this, but it didn’t last long. It was probably half way through your lunch when you heard shuffling around the office. You thought someone was back early or had forgotten something when two gentlemen walked into the break room.

“Delivery.”

Jason was confused, whereas you were annoyed. Yuta and Jungwoo were dressed up as delivery boys, having brought some food. They claimed it was for you, but you knew you hadn’t ordered anything.

“I think you guys have the wrong place.” Jason said. “I can show you out.”

“It’s for y/n.” Jungwoo smiled. “Her favorite.”

You hated the fact that it was true, they brought food from your favorite place, and the smell let you know they picked out just the right dish. Still, their presence and all this didn’t make any sense.

“You guys need to leave.” You stated. “You got the wrong place and-”

“We don’t.” Yuta cut in. “Actually we came here for you.”

“Me?”

“Alright, you need to leave.” Jason ordered. “Or I’m calling security.”

“How’s the headache, y/n? Is it getting better?”

“Leave.” You hissed. “Now.”

“We can’t do that.”

“I am calling-”

Jason intended to step out and get security but Yuta wound up jumping him, and getting him into a chokehold. Before you knew it your coworker was on the floor knocked out cold. You had gotten up and backed away from the scene, horrified. To add to everything, your headache had gotten severely worse, and you were having trouble thinking. You grabbed your head, struggling to figure out what to do.

“I know it’s messy.” Jungwoo said. “But Taeyong sent us to get you.”

“Go away… leave… leave me alone…”

“We can’t do that. You’re not okay right now.”

“And who’s… who’s fault is that…”

“This wasn’t supposed to happen.” Yuta added. “So let us help you.”

“No, no… stay back.”

Of course you couldn’t do anything to stop them in your state. The fear and pain were mixing together, keeping you off balance. Before you knew it they both stood before you, tears stung your eyes, and Yuta reached up to wipe them away, holding your gaze.

“Everything’s going to be fine.”

You felt Jungwoo gently pulling up your shirt, his hand touching your skin before you felt a pinch. You looked down just as Jungwoo pulled out the needle. An incoherent mess of words spilled out of your mouth in panic but it did nothing to stop the darkness creeping into your vision. Your legs gave out first and Yuta caught you in his arms. You could vaguely see his lips moving, but no sound made it to your ears. Instead you just closed your eyes, at least glad that the headache would stop for a while.

🖤

When you regained consciousness you found yourself in bed once again. For a moment you thought getting up and going to work and all that was just another dream, but you opened your eyes to confirm you realized you were wrong. You weren’t in your bedroom, instead somewhere else entirely, you were in someone else’s room. You sat up looking around, well aware that wherever you were, this place was fancy. The sheets were soft and the bed was very comfortable. Although most noticeably your headache was completely gone.

“You’re awake.”

You were about to get out of bed when you heard a door open. Taeyong entered the room. He seemed happy to see you but you weren’t.

“Where am I?”

“My home.”

“Yours?”

“This is the Resonance Hotel, penthouse suite, my place.”

“And why am I here?”

“To rest and recover. I should apologize. What happened to you doesn’t usually occur. Although it is a good sign.”

“A brain splitting headache is not a good sign! What the hell did you do to me!”

“Formed a connection. Usually it settles on its own over a couple of days, but the headache is a result of rapid growth.”

“You’re speaking gibberish to me.”

“It’s hard to articulate, but you’ll need to stay with me for a while until things settle.”

“Why!”

“Because I am the core, and your mental stability is very important. As long as you’re by me, you’ll be fine.”

“You kidnapped me.”

“I could sense your distress and sent two of my boys to collect you.”

“Kidnap.”

“If that’s how you want to see it.”

“No, that’s what you did, and I refuse to be your captive.”

You got out of bed and stormed past Taeyong, figuring the door to leave was down the path he came. Now that you knew you were in a hotel your surroundings made sense. When you left the bedroom you found a hallway, and you just picked a direction. You wound up in the living room, seeing some of the others playing games. They all turned to you, confused, and a few made attempts to stand, but Taeyong stopped them.

“Leave her. The elevator to the lobby is down that way.”

Whether he lied or not, you went that way, figuring you’d find a way out yourself eventually. Taeyong didn’t follow, but one of the gamer boys did, Haechan. He didn’t say anything but his presence was creepy enough. You ignored him though, continuing your path and determined to get away from all of them. You could already feel the bits of a headache coming on, but you ignored them. When you saw the elevator you were relieved, hitting the button and stepping inside. You tried to shut the door quickly but Haechan made it in with you. He gave you a proud smirk.

“I’ll escort you.”

You stuck to a corner, letting Haechan hit one of the only buttons he could, the down arrow. He kept his back to you, but you were still weary of the whole thing. The display only showed that the elevator was moving down, and you could feel it. Although you definitely had no idea how many floors this hotel had, and every moment that passed you felt the headache getting worse.

“Oh, you might want this.”

Haehcan turned back and held out your phone. You felt so stupid for simply walking out without thinking about it. You took it back without a word, seeing that you were already shaking. It was getting hard to think, like before, but maybe it was just the panic from the whole situation, or feeling trapped in this little box with a stranger. You certainly felt like you couldn’t breath, sinking down to the floor, grabbing your head. Every second that passed made it worse and worse you felt your head was going to explode.

“Sta… stop… stop, stop, stop.”

Haechan hit the stop button, and even though it didn’t fix anything, you certainly weren’t feeling any worse. You had no idea what this was, but you wanted it gone, you wanted it to stop.

“You made it pretty far, I’m impressed.”

“What’s… what’s happening…”

“The connection has to settle, and you need to be with Taeyong for that to go smoothly. You’d be in worse pain if I wasn��t here to help, even if just a little.”

The receptionist down at the lobby called in to make sure if everything was alright. Haechan confirmed that you were both fine, and then he hit the up arrow button. You didn’t want to go back up, and even if you didn’t really understand your situation, that seemed to be your only option. The pressure in your head started to fade away, and you felt more in control of yourself, but it didn’t change your destination. You felt better by the time the elevator doors opened, seeing you were back in the penthouse. You didn’t move though, you didn’t want to, but you couldn’t stay there either.

“Come on, let’s get you back to bed.”

Haechan helped you to your feet, keeping his arms around you as he walked with you. Those you passed by didn’t say anything, and you wound up back in what you believed to be Taeyong’s room. He was waiting for you, sitting on the bed reading a book.

“Are you alright?”

“Asshole.”

“Some sleep should do you good.”

“How long are you going to keep me here?”

“It depends, but given how far you went just now, perhaps a day or two.”

“Excuse me!”

“It’s already pretty late. You should sleep and I’ll have something brought over later for dinner.”

It was clear he wasn’t gonna give you any answers, so you might as well just get some rest. Taeyong wasn’t gonna move, so you laid down as far from him as possible, keeping your back to him. By now your headache was gone, so at least there was that. Although you didn’t actually want to go to sleep, you’ve had weird dreams about Taeyong before, you had no idea what would happen with him so near. So you were just quiet, more or less pretending to sleep, trying to figure out how you could get out of here.

Later on food was brought over and Taeyong gently shook you to wake you. He didn’t seem to know you hadn’t fallen asleep as he was busy with his book. You were hungry, but you weren’t sure you could trust the food. Still, if they were going to do anything to you, they would have done it by now. So you just ate a bit, enough to get you through the night. Taeyong didn’t say anything in that regard, simply excusing himself for a moment. You thought your headache would return the moment he left the room, but you were absolutely fine. That made you realize that maybe this was all some elaborate trick.

Something was done to you the other night, and that must have caused the headache. It didn’t get better until you were here. And on the elevator, you weren’t alone, Haechan could have done something to you as well. Perhaps if you could leave without any of them knowing, none of them could actually stop you. Since it was late now, the windows revealing the sun had gone down, you just needed to wait for everyone else to fall asleep. That was the plan, and you just needed to wait for your moment. When Taeyong returned he got ready for bed, telling you to do so as well, and you complied with that.

Now you both were lying in bed in the dark, and you kept your back to him. All you had to do was not fall asleep. You were tired, but determined, so that helped you stay awake. Your mind would wander, trying to find anything to distract yourself with. After what felt like enough time you reached over for your phone on the nightstand, carefully checking the time, it was one in the morning. You slowly sat up, not wanting to make too much noise. When you looked over at Taeyong he seemed sound asleep, and you carefully whispered his name, checking to see if he’d wake up, but he didn’t respond.

You continued to move cautiously as you got out of bed and made your way out of the room. Even if the place was big, any sound could wake the whole place, so you had to remain quiet. You could more or less see the way you needed to go, careful not to make the floors creak too bad as you walked around. After an eternity you made it to the elevator, hitting the button. You felt completely fine, adding to your theory that they were messing with you somehow. You stepped into the elevator and quickly closed the doors behind you, letting out a breath of relief when you started moving down.

Slowly, but surely, the headache began to appear. It wasn’t bad like before, and you certainly felt that you had gone farther than before. This didn’t make sense, but maybe whatever they did had lingering effects. You could push through this, it wasn’t bad, and you were determined to get out. When the elevator doors opened you stumbled out, quick to lean against the nearest wall for support. You took a few steps before you needed to sit down, sliding down to the floor. You took some deep breaths, trying to focus your breathing and your thoughts. If you could get home, things would get better.

You were grateful no one came across you like this, cause you had no idea what you would say, but you did start to feel better. In fact you could feel this headache starting to pass. It brought a smile to your face, knowing you were right. You looked at your phone to see how you’d get home from this place, when it was suddenly snatched from your hands. Your first thought was you’d have to chase after some thief, but you looked up to see Taeyong.

“I see you’re feeling better.”

You swallowed nervously, not sure what to do in this situation. Taeyong browsed your phone for a minute before turning it off and putting it in his pocket. Of course your headache was completely gone now, but you refused to believe it was him.

“Let’s go back upstairs.”

You scrambled to your feet with the intent to run, but Taeyong quickly caught you and put a hand over your mouth. He dragged you back over to the elevator, not letting you go until the doors closed. You tried to reach for the buttons but he held you back.

“That’s enough, stop it.”

“What the hell are you doing to me!”

You were frustrated, scared, so completely lost you burst into tears. You had so many questions, but no answers, and everything around you just seemed impossible. You collapsed to the floor, crying into your hands. After a moment Taeyong sat down next to you, pulling you into his arms, gently rocking you and rubbing your head while he held you.

“It’s okay, let it all out, it’s okay.”

“What’s going on… please… please just tell me…”

“You don’t have to be afraid.”

“I am…”

“Sh, it’s okay, it’s okay.”

When the elevator doors opened Taeyong tried to get you up, but you wouldn’t budge. He found your actions cute, so you both stayed put. The doors closed giving you both some privacy.

“You’re coming along nicely. You actually made it to the lobby.”

“Asshole…”

“I’m not, but why are you so mean to yourself?”

“Huh?”

“That coworker of yours, Jaymson or whatever, always hitting on you and making you uncomfortable, yet you think he deserves a chance?”

“What?”

“Or your job in general, working so hard and not getting recognized or a promotion. You’re doing so much for a company that doesn’t care for you.”

“I don’t… what are you talking about?”

“You know you deserve love, right? Actual, proper, love and care, not whatever it is you’ve been getting from those around you.”

“…”

“Even though you were shy you still came out with us, and you had a fun time too. You don’t have to feel like that once or twice every few months, it should be everyday. We’re here for you, and we can, we will, give you everything you could need. That’s what NCT is all about.”

“My… my head…”

“Most people connect on the surface, sharing memories and interests, but I have a way to make those connections much deeper, I can make them real. I’m in your head, and you’re in mine, and all the others. I suppose the simplest term would be telepathy, but it’s much bigger than that.”

“You’re in… my head… my dreams…”

“Dreams, such a beautiful canvas. There’s so much we have yet to show you.”

“Why… why me… why did you do this…”

“Because you wanted it.”

“No, no I… I didn’t… I don’t…”

“Even with just a small, temporary, connection you opened up to us, our compatibility was much higher than I’ve ever seen with anyone else. Deep down you knew what we were, what we’d give you, and you wanted it. Of course I saw you got scared, and if that grew too much we’d never be able to establish a true connection, even if you wanted it later on. I did this for you, because I know this is what you wanted, what you need.”

“You… you’re not… you’re not human…”

“Perhaps I’m not, I’m certainly greater than one.”

“But… but the headaches…”

“I’m sorry, I should have taken into consideration how well we bonded the first time. It’d surely mean you’d be far more sensitive to the connection process than others. It should settle soon enough, and then you’ll be back to normal, well, better than before.”

“Then why… why you…”

“I told you, I’m the core, the center, the beginning. Everyone connects with me first, and then I can open the door to everything else.” Taeyong kissed your head. “You really do need to rest.”

“I don’t… I don’t wanna go there… in my dreams…”

“I can do that.”

Taeyong got you to your feet, walking with you back to the bedroom. You didn’t say much else, still processing the unbelievable nonsense he had told you, but you were also too tired to think. Taeyong tucked you in under the covers, carefully getting in himself. He gave you your space, although he stayed up to make sure you fell asleep, promising you’d sleep well. Whether you believed him or not, exhaustion was taking a hold of you, so you closed your eyes to get some much needed rest.

🖤

In the morning you found yourself warmly wrapped up in Taeyong’s arms, seeing that he was deep in sleep. You had slept fine, no dreams at all. Although it made you feel kind of empty.

“Afternoon…”

“Huh?”

“Is it not?” Taeyong peeked an eye open. “Is it actually morning?”

“I’m used to waking up early…”

“Alright. I’ll text someone to come take you for breakfast.”

“I can’t leave?”

“Given last night, not yet.”

“Right…”

“Ya.”

“Hm?”

“After lunch you should be alright to go, I’ll have someone drive you home.”

“Okay…”

After a moment there was a knock at the door. Doyoung peeked his head in, gesturing for you to come with him. Taeyong had already gone back to sleep, and you quietly made your exit. You joined Doyoung and the others at the breakfast table. You were still weary about the food though.

“Come on, this stuff is the best.” Shotaro said. “You have to try some.”

“Uh…”

“Trust me, open wide.”

You almost felt like a slight compulsion to do as he said, carefully leaning over to have a bite of what he was offering. It was good, as expected, and it made your stomach growl. A few chuckled, but nothing was really said. You would be leaving anyway, so you might as well enjoy the food. Shotaro was more than happy to feed you other things, petting your head every time you had a bite from him.

“Taeyong said you should be alright to go home after lunch.” Doyoung repeated. “So what do you want to do? You can go back to bed if you want.”

“I should really call in sick from my job first.”

“And after that?” Mark questioned. “How about some games?”

“Games?”

“You know we are a gaming company. We’ve got great VR set ups here. We could play some Among Us, Mini Golf, or some single player stuff.”

“Uh…”

“It’ll be lots of fun.” Chenle assured. “Trust me.”

“Sure… we can play some games.”

“Yes!”

After breakfast, and calling off from work, you joined the others in their game room, seeing how big it was, and how the only danger from wearing a VR set would probably be hitting each other. You let them pick the games, just mainly tagging along, but you did have fun. It was a good way to pass the time, since before you knew it, it was lunch time, and you could go home. You thought of possibly seeing Taeyong before leaving, but you didn’t want to bother him. Although you were nervous about getting into the elevator. Taeil assured you that you’d be okay, and if you weren’t feeling well you could back.

The trip down was fine, no headaches at all. It was the same for the trip home. You made it back in one piece, thanking Taeil for the ride. Once you were back in your apartment you felt more at ease, going to your own bedroom to lay down. It really wasn’t as comfy as Taeyong’s bed though. You had a while before bed anyway so you busied yourself with chores, somewhat pondering what has become of your life. You weren’t entirely sure you could believe what Taeyong had told you last night, but you were trying to make sense of things.

Although in the end you weren’t entirely sure you could go back to them, regardless of how much you enjoyed their company. Being drugged and kidnapped weren’t qualities you should have in friends. That also meant it was probably time you really did better for yourself, making friends and finding a good person to be with. It was certainly a long and weird journey to reach that conclusion, but it was for the best in the long run. You showered and got into bed, ready to face another, but with a whole new outlook on life.

🖤

No one really seemed to notice your absence, but you weren’t offended by that. Work really keeps you busy, and the same could be said about them, so one is bound to miss things. Especially the quiet girl. Of course only Jason was the one to notice, and you were actually worried about what he was going to say.

“Are you feeling better?”

“Uh… yeah… sorry about lunch the other day. I didn’t mean-”

“Don’t worry about it. I get your headache was killing you and you had to head home early. I’ve been there.”

“Yeah… still sorry…”

“Well, if you’re up for it, company dinner tonight. You in?”

“Uh… yeah, actually, I’d love to go.”

“Awesome. I’ll see you then.”

The people around you were the ones you could connect with, and it was about time you made an effort. You weren’t exactly planning to leave this job anytime soon. At the end of the day you gathered your things like everyone else, following along for dinner. You heard a few whispering among themselves, rather surprised and annoyed you’d be joining them, probably because they weren’t used to your present. You wound up at the end of the table, Jason at your side to make sure you were kept in the conversations which you appreciated. You didn’t drink, but the others did, and Jason surely did.

He wound up with an arm around you, making all kinds of jokes, some you were sure weren’t appropriate. Still, by the end of the night it seemed everyone had a good time. It wasn’t entirely the best for you but there were moments, and the food was delicious. You all saw your boss, and then everyone began going their separate ways. You were well aware Jason was in no condition to be alone, and he did hold onto you. He began mumbling compliments and thank yous for helping him out, but you figured it’s what a friend would do.

You helped him get a cab, making sure he’d be getting home safely before sending him off. It was pretty late out by then, later than you’ve ever been out before. At least the place was close to your job, so it was only a few extra minutes on your commute. You went over to your usual bus stop, patiently waiting. The streets were mostly empty now, but the quiet and cool air was pretty nice. You spent your time on your phone, checking the bus time and browsing socials. You didn’t pay much attention to the cars passing by, and there didn’t seem to be anyone else to join you in your wait. So you didn’t really notice the four vehicles parking nearby.

“You are unbelievable!”

You looked up to see Sungchan storming up to you, only for Johnny to grab him and hold him back. You were quite surprised to see them here, let alone so late at night. Although it wasn’t just them who had shown up.

“Sungchan, calm down.”

“After everything, they’re just gonna leave!”

“No, no, no, that’s not going to happen. They just need some guidance.”

“What are you guys doing?” You questioned. “Did you see me while you were passing by?”

“That’s funny.” Ten chuckled. “I didn’t think you’d be friendly with us.”

“What?”

“I thought you decided we couldn’t be friends. Cause friends don’t kidnap and drug you, that’s no fun.”

“How do you…”

“I see someone still doesn’t believe me.”

Taeyong came up from behind you, placing his hands on your shoulders, startling you. When you looked back up at him, you saw this look of disappointment on his face.

“What are you…”

“We’re connected, remember. You, me, all of us. So I know, we know, every pretty little thought that goes through your head. I believed after our lovely chat the other day you’d come to realize that we’re your friends, we’re good people, and that you don’t need anyone else.”

“I appreciate the sentiment but-”

“Clearly. I was wrong. Instead I’ve led you down a path of self-harm. You willingly went out with all those people, put up with their hurtful words and looks, the harassment from that Jaime guy as well.”

“…”

“That’s on me for letting you go too soon, and for that I must ask forgiveness. From you, and from my brothers. You’re young and new to all this, a child lost in the world. We’re here for you y/n, in every way imaginable.”

“I’m alright.” You stood up, stepping away from Taeyong. “Really. I enjoyed my time and-”

“We all know you’re lying.” Jungwoo said. “Don’t do that to yourself.”

“You guys, have a great thing going for yourselves, but it’s not for me. I appreciate that you’ve helped me grow, and that you’re worried about me, but I’m alright.”

“You’re not.” Kun stated. “Not by a long shot.”

“Look, I am trying to be nice here, but you all showing up like this and talking to me this way. It’s borderline harassment. I want nothing to do with your group, or you guys. So leave me alone or I will get the police involved.”

“Try it.”

You rolled your eyes and intended to walk away. At this point you might as well get a cab and get yourself home. Although some of the boys blocked your path, and when you tried to walk another way, more cut you off. They had you surrounded.

“I am calling the police!”

“Go for it.” Jaemin chuckled. “I’d love to see this pretty little girl try to use a phone.”

“What the…”

You ignored them, trying to keep calm despite the fear creeping up. You grabbed your phone, typing in the numbers, but for some reason you couldn’t hit the call button. Your hand started shaking, a sudden headache coming on. For a moment you lost your balance and stumbled a bit, Lucas catching you before you fell, but you quickly stepped away from him.

“Don’t touch me!”

“I thought you were calling the police?”

“I… I am…”

“Our little girl wouldn’t do that.” Yuta teased. “She has no reason to.”

“I do!”

“I don’t think she knows how to use that thing anyway.”

“Wa… what?”

You looked down at your phone, seeing it glitch. You tapped at the screen but in that state it was useless. You were desperately trying to get it to work, also pushing back this headache, and in your clumsy state you wound up dropping it. You tried to reach for it only to watch it get crushed under a boot.

“You didn’t need that.” Jaehyun said. “Did you now?”

“You son of a-”

You lunged at Jaehyun, wanting to hit him for his actions, but he stepped back, and in your state you wound up collapsing onto all fours. You were breathing heavily, trying to regain back any sense of control, and sense of self. But it was all too difficult.

“Get… get out… of my… my… head… please…”

“We’re connected now.” Taeyong reminded. “There’s no undoing that. You, me, all of us. We’re one. We move as one. We live as one. We think as one.”

You shook your head. “Get… out… leave me… alone…”

“Why would we do that? You don’t want to be alone, do you?”

“… please…”

“I know it all seems so scary now, but we’re doing this for you.” Doyoung assured. “You don’t have to be alone, unwanted, or unloved, ever again.”

“… no… not like… this…”

“I understand you can’t see the bigger picture right now, but you will. One day. I promise.”

“It’s late.” Renjun reminded. “We should go home.”

“Agreed. We don’t want her getting sick.”

Tears rolled down your cheeks, dripping onto the floor. You had no idea what was going on, but fear gripped you tight. You had to run, you had to fight. Perhaps that rush of adrenaline was all you needed. Someone helped you up to your feet, and you just elbowed them in the face. Maybe it was also your mild state of delusion that gave you strength, and so the small moment of confusion gave you clarity, and a chance to run. You had no idea where you were going but you just needed to find people, someone, anyone, who could help you.

“No one is going to help you!” Jisung shouted. “There’s only us!”

You screamed and collapsed to the ground, holding your head. You felt like your brain was on fire, and there was nothing you could do to put it out. You continued screaming, letting the pain engulf you, hoping maybe your cries would be heard, and help would could.

“We said no one is going to help you.” Haechan knelt down at your side. “It’s just us out here, and in there.”

He playfully tapped your head, and you continued to scream, your tears blurring your vision. Eventually you felt hands grab you, lifting you up and holding you there. The headache began to subside, but your throat was sore, and you felt so drained. You couldn’t escape, and there was no hope for you.

“There is hope sweetie. We’re here for you, we’ve got you.” Taeil caressed your cheek. “We’ll start over okay, a clean slate. Everything will be alright, you’ll see.”

“Liar… you’re all… liars… psychos… monsters!”

“No, no, no, we’re far from that.” Taeyong cooed. “We’re basically the definition of perfection. You’re one of us now, you belong with us, you belong to us. We’re so happy to have you cause you’re perfect, just like us. We’ll make you perfect.”

“… no… no, no, no!”

You didn’t care that you’d scream yourself hoarse, that your thrashing would only further exhaust you. If this was it, then you were gonna go down fighting. You didn’t expect to break free, and you also didn’t expect Taeyong to grab your chin and hold you still, his eyes staring deeply at yours.

“Let me save you some trouble. Fighting will get you nowhere. We’re all one.” Taeyong pressed his head against yours. “One mind, one being. To exist as one we must have perfect synchronization, and absolutely no disruptions. You’re still new to all this and resistant, so you’re the disruption. A disruption we will fix. So it’s far better you give up and give in to us, to me. You’re not gonna win no matter what you do. Your thoughts, your will, your sense of self, are mine now. My will is rooted deep in you, and you can’t ever get me out. So you either take a deep breath and accept the bliss I will give you, or I will break you, in every sense of the word, in every way you can think of.”

“Is this… how you… treat… those… you care… about…”

“We have to be on the same page first, baby. So what’s it going to be?”

There was nothing to think about. So you just closed your eyes and took a deep breath. You were exhausted, but an answer had to be given. Slowly you opened your eyes, once again meeting Taeyong’s gaze.

“I hate-”

“No. No, you don’t. You’re not capable of hate, baby girl. Trust me. There is nothing but love here, from us to you, and from you to us. Okay?”

“… uh…”

“I know you’re tired but you can say it, I love you.”

“I…”

“Go on.”

“…”

“It’s okay, we’ll work on that.” Taeyong kissed your head. “Let’s get you home.”

(II)

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