#maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

Me: *recognizes my depression is starting to act up*

Me: *goes to the mirror and stares deeply into my own eyes*

Me: DO

Me: NOT

#depression #bipolar #mental illness #meme worthy #maarambles #relatable #probably

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

You’re gone this weekend. I’ve got the bed to myself, it’s nice I suppose. I spent fifteen minutes trying to decide which one of your shirts I’d wear to bed tonight. Allow it to embrace me. I find nothing more comforting when you’re gone than your shirts. Crawling into “your” side of the bed. There really aren’t sides,

#maarambles #old feelings #old draft #post your drafts #I miss this feeling but I don't miss you #I miss feeling so much love for someone that it hurt when they were gone #ah so pure #one day maybe I'll be able to open my doors again and let someone in #maybe one day

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

You know what feels nice? The bittersweet feeling of hoping and worrying you'll make it home safe so you can see tomorrow. I hope every one feels this way one day

#I hope I can make someone this way #maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

Here Comes A Thought is a wonderful song and helps me calm down when the existential dread comes knocking on my door.

#su #maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

How to apply this energy into art? How I transform this into how I feel? It's stuck inside me. Maybe it's a bit of sand that'll become a pearl.

#maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

Ugh I love freckles. I wish my freckles were more prominent but they're so faint you can only see them in good light. Not to mention if I wear make up, even the lightest coverage, you can't see them. Idk how to make them show up more because when I go in the sun I just tan and it takes a lot to get me to tan.

#maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

It’s really weird Admitting who I am Not she nor her Not he not him They doesn’t even fit right under my skin. It. It feels right. It fills the holes. It is my renaissance. How’s is it? Good. What did it do today? Nothing much. Don’t touch that, that belongs to it. She does not belong to it. It doesn’t want her, But it doesn’t mind being her.

#nonbinary #maarambles #old draft #it #nb #post your drafts #I didn't realize how many things like this I had saved in my drafts #why don't I believe in myself

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

I never thought I was an introvert until I lost my space to retreat to. I'm so tired and exhausted without my own room. I don't feel like myself, not entirely. I feel like pieces of me held together with thin threads from a spiders web.

I can sleep all day and still wake up tired. I can't get out of my own head, I keep breaking my own heart. I just want my bed. I just want to stop feeling dead.

#who I am won't be who I was when this is all done #and I'm scared #maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

In 2016 I decided I wasn't going to be sad anymore 2017 I'm still working on it but I'm not giving up

#being trapped inside is reminds me of last year #but this is a new surrounding so #not the same four walls #it's better #maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

Updated the mobile blog appearance, wish I had a tablet so I can make things for the pc blog it looks too plain to me. 

#maarambles

[tvheadedgirlfriend]

Want to be really strong so I can pick up my bf and pretty girls when ever they’re SO won’t carry them like the princess they are, and boys when they feel like they’ll never enjoy the comfort of being carried bridal style, and baby’s when they are being good and deserve a reward. I’m going to lift weights to lift spirits.

#>:o #maarambles