#made myself so damn sad with this

[solar093-art]

"As the bearer of Azem's crystal, you may consider your duty to see at least that much. I certainly did."

#my art #ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #emet-selch #hades #endwalker #just thinking about how hades travels through sundered world #trying to find beauty in it #just like Azem would've done #but failing because the pain and disappointment were so damn strong ;_ ; #many-many attempts to find it worthy until he gives up #silly headcanons #made myself sad

[oraclesandomens]

Nicholas D. Wolfwood sketches. This boy — he might seem like he’s all anger and rough edges but he’s really just a lost kid. Vash was right — his eyes give it all away.

#trigun stampede #trigun #tristamp #nicholas d. wolfwood #oracle’s art #oraclesandomens #He makes my heart hurt #like really look at the screencaps of him #ever damn one he looks so scared and sad #he might be a grown ass man who acts all wild and vicious #but inside he’s just a scared lost and hurt kid #he’s burdened by guilt and believes he doesn’t deserve happiness #his eyes give it all away #ugh my heart #I made myself sad #SketchbooksAndOmens

[zivazivc]

https://open.spotify.com/track/14UiJ7VaTWsG41YYAs6uha?si=O_wQSPfvRgexvWahmsbcng floyd song

I struggled a bit to figure out what song you sent because I don't have spotify and sometimes these links don't want to open ksjbdvb. but YOOOOO Floyd in the bottle song, hell yeah, thank you anon! you are strong, floyd, we love you

Please take my own (bipolar, ex bandmates au) Floyd in the bottle song, where he's going a bit mental from being trapped and having to think about his life 🤲

#i have such a good music video for this song in my head #my boy is just alone with his thoughts #and the more upbeat part with “sailing on a ship...” is where i imagine him being tossed around and used by velvet and veneer #and i am insane about it #and then later he's going insane talking to his reflection in the glass - to himself as the captain of his fucked up existence #and the water flooding in is accompanied by a visual of his feet going pale and see through from being used so much #and the cracking glass refers to him #I AM INSANE WOOOOO #this is all before jd shows up and floyd is sure he is just going to die there and be forgotten #and he desperately wants to find peace with himself #damn i made myself sad #anyway #let me know what you think anon :D #trolls #answered #trolls floyd #edit: changed to a different video bc of issues

[huxianposts]

I know what you are...

ATTACHED

#this is two days after meeting but their lives are CHANGED #LMAO anyways i love having brain damage and forgetting why i love xyz and then being delighted with re-finding the love #can't believe i clowned myself with being all meh when i bought the switch ver for 15$ bc I'm over p5 right #yeah now here i am screenshotting every damn scene with my boy like an overzealous parent witnessing their child's first talent show #but i also be having THOUGHTS UP IN THIS CHILIS #quietly going insane at how ryuji keeps asking akira to not ditch or avoid him and being so earnest in his approach #and akira having such sad eyes and the most wounded vibe being told to avoid sakamoto and choosing to follow and hang with him anyway #like YEAH akira has the option to be sarcastic and verbally refuse ryuji's requests but his actions are the opposite of that #and I'm wondering how much action must mean to the both of them and agwaaghh #akira's little statement to sojiro about how he made a friend LIKE YES MY BOY YOU DID AND YOU'RE ACKNOWLEDGING IT #literally rolling around rn and trying not to write bc i have lost the ability but LORD I AM WEAK #huxiantalks #pegoryu #persona 5

[juodojimirtis]

I just thought of the most fucked up (in the sense that it fucks you up) Warrior Nun theory. What if, both the "Reya is older Ava" theory, and mine (Adriel is Reya's son), were true?..

It would mean after all she had lost, after all the pain she had suffered, Ava was also in the end forced to kill her own child. And she would wonder, was it her fault, him becoming the monster he was? Did she let him get away with too much, yet, at the same time, never showed him the love he deserved? She had so much ripped away from her. Every time she opened her heart, it ended up shattered, so she did not open it for him, not really. She couldn't. In spite of him meaning everything to her.

And so, she wept, looking back at herself in the past, wounded too many times, but still innocent... Wept for the day she realizes what she had done. As when her past and her future came face to face in the Other Realm, she could not bring herself to reveal the one most painful truth.

She hoped the divinium bomb would work. Then, at least, she wouldn't have had to live with her son's blood on her hands.

Heavy is the head that wears the crown indeed.

#warrior nun #warrior nun theory #warrior nun thoughts #warrior nun fandom #ava silva #reya #ava is reya #reya is adriel's mother #wn theory #wn thoughts #wn fandom #diary pages #thought journal #DAMN IT I MADE MYSELF SAD #these are just musings #i'll rather stick to my reya is adriel's mom and avadriel thank you #this is too heartbreaking #i obviously wouldn't ship them in this #so again just a thought a very... fucked up one

[madefate]

children of ares who always feel a thread of rage running through them to varying degrees -- children of ares who live with an instinctual awe of the gods that sits somewhere between terror and pride -- children of ares who never quite fit in with anyone, even each other, because they first and foremost are made for war -- children of ares who lash out because anything less than victory is failure and there's all that damn rage that burns when you ignore it but no one teaches you other ways to let it live with you -- children of ares --

#( ooc. ) #( clairsse hc. ) #i wrote a T O N of ask replies & drafted them to edit when i get off work #& i made myself so damn sad abt clarisse #it's hard to be a lesbian who lives only to stan angry girls done a huge disservice by canon !!!

[thatwritingho]

27 and 23 for the lovely Ms Olive!!!

27. What is their romance’s theme song?

Olive and Pickles don't really have 'a song,' but if I'm picking for them, the first one that comes to mind is Howling by Syml, a song about worshiping and being insatiably hungry for your partner.

We made a fire in the purest way/When you explode, it's my holiday

Their relationship - as it stands currently in story, at least - got very intense very fast, both physically and emotionally. They have great natural chemistry.

I took too much, it was my mistake/But I can be blamed/I'm insatiable

Like I said in her vent post here, Olive feels a sense of intense hunger and voracity, and Pickles is desperate for love/acceptance/commitment(whether he wants to admit that or not). So, two love starved characters feeding off of each other. Things got too intense too quickly, Pickles got scared off and ghosted her for a few weeks.

Keep me howling, baby/I'll be your beast, I'll be your dog/Keep me howling, baby/And I'll keep begging you for more

But he came back, they talked it out, and the last 27k words of so story have been them having filthy, nasty, raunchy, makeup sex hehe. Pretty self explanatory, here. Olive is a sub, she very much does beg him for more. Many times. Her choker could be considered a collar, too, I suppose ;)

I lay me down at the feet of your beauty/Power my spirit, awaken within me/My blood and my body will sing out your praises/Save me save me save me now

Things get a little kinky. There's some god kink, some worshiping. And perhaps some actual godklok powers are triggered and some glowing red eye awaken whoops who said that? It gets religious, she's really blowing up his ego and giving him a god complex, here. At one point, Olive is at his feet. There's no blood this time, but her body is definitely squirting singing his praises, many, many, many times. And, well... they kind of want to save each other. They kind of need to save each other. They kind of will save each other. :)

23. Would they prefer reading books or listening to an audiobook? Besides, would they rather read for someone or have someone read for them?

Reading! Olive loves books - if it's something she doesn't have to pay a lot of attention to, she can do an audiobook, otherwise she prefers to devote her full attention to reading. Plus, she collects old medical books, and those don't have audiobook counterparts haha. And she reads a lot of manga, which, again, no audiobook for those.

And it depends on who is doing the reading. In general, she'd rather neither, and just read in silence haha. she doesn't much like talking, so if forced to pick would want to be read to, but... if it's Nathan? Toki? Skwisgaar? No. Nope. She's reading, or they'll be there all day. Pickles is the only one of the boys that can be trusted, and even then... depends on how sober he is.

#damn this got long #it was fun though! I don't often write around lyrics so this was a good challenge #i am feeling so relishy now though ahhhh #am I gonna go write more relish strap on smut now even though I just wrote so so so much? maybe. #is it gonna be comfort smut because I made myself cry earlier with that vent post? probably. #but that's okay. olive deserves to get her pussy ate then strapped down when she's sad. she's earned it. #olive axworthy #pickles the drummer #relish #metalocalypse oc #mtl oc

[perenlop]

havent read tbc but i think its so funny how shadowsight seems to be popular to the people i follow just because “the narrative treats him like all the female characters do so hes an honorary girlie”

#and by ''how the narrative treats him'' they mean badly ofc bc apparently everything is blamed on him repeatedly #w no one realizing that he was manipulated and the narrative being retconned just to say hes actually a screwup who was never good #and everything genuinely is his fault bc why else would he listen to an evil cat in starclan #like. damn that really is something theyd do to a female protagonist #also the only ppl ive seen hating on him do it for boring and stupid reasons so im inclined to like him out of spite #bc ''he has an ILLEGAL name in this universe. hes a TIGERDOVE kid. hes a FANFICTION made REAL'' ok well hes the most interesting one. so. #not like anything he actually does in the narrative it seems. plus the other two protags sound boring as hell #''oh im sad i couldnt get w the boy i like. now i love another guy but its forbidden. oh and my leaders possessed ig.'' #''SIGH i wish people didnt compare me to my cringe OUTSIDER dad. also i see ghosts and i hate this its cringe'' #''also my sister is a legacy name after an important character from the previous arc but who cares'' #and then shadowsight is like ''since i was an infant i had excruiciating seizures and visions. i threw myself into a river as a sacrifice #i am suicidal. i got manipulated by an evil man into possessing my great uncle. everyone outwardly wants me dead for it #everyone blames all of their problems on me and expects a lot from me. i got demoted for it. my only support is my close family #and even then they have to suffer the extreme guilt of not being able to help me with literally anything #also the antagonist wants my mom dead for my own existence. i have lost so much #i am literally blamed by god for everything thats happened to be despite being used by them since i was an infant and thats where my story e #ends'' #like fuck. yeah he is an honorary girlie to me. i barely know u man but like i support u. cmere be my pet cat #echoed voice

[pepprs]

prefacing this by saying im fine and its whatever and im mostly numb to it. but it kinda fucking sucks that being gaslit about my own sexuality leads to… doubting my own sexuality lol!

#purrs #just went to my first ever lavender graduation ceremony and had a convo w my dad after that touched on the EXACT horrors lol like i need to #learn to not bring this shit up around my parents bc they’re just gonna say the same things. and also it doesn’t matter bc idc about labels #and (to quote ricky) it’s a conversation not a constant. but like fucking hell. just bc ive never ‘’’’’’been with anybody’’’’’’ doesn’t #mean that i can’t know im not straight. the HORRIFIC psychic damage that did to me 5 years ago this month. the way i can’t think about #sexuality or being part of the lgbtq community since and like before then when that happened i thought i was a lesbian and was gonna try to #get involved with the school lgbtq student union . like it’s so ficking stupid and sad. and i can’t trust myself anymore i can’t tell if #anything ive ever felt for anyone is actually real bc according to my (straight and biphobic) parents ‘crushes don’t count’ and i haven’t #even had a crush in months anyway and yeah ive never ‘been with’ anybody. but like god damn. you DO NOT get to tell me i have to call myself #questioning. yeah im questioning but only i can call it that and only if i want to. i get to know me. i get to call me what i am. which also #means i get to work through the years of psychic damage this thread of conversation coming from my own parents has done to me #but i own that. i want to own that. ive had the feelings i have had. maybe they were wrong and misplaced and maybe there are other ways to #interpret them like me jus t having projection issues and whatever. but they were real to me and are real to me and shape how i show up #every single day. i get to know myself. i get to call myself what i am. even though you’re my parents you don’t get to tell me that. and you #should be sorry for how fucked in the head this has made me and how cut off i have become from other people who have felt what i have felt #and from the parts of myself that felt and hurt and loved. like lolllll. i was in a good mood and then that happened and now my heart hurts. #delete later #like i don’t talk abt this shit anymore for a reason 🤪✌️ i am not involved in lgbtq groups or communities online or offline for a reason 🤪✌️ #and it’s yet another manifestation of impostor syndrome too like. ppl wonder why im like this…. there is a very good reason 💖

[emypony]

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#damn babygirl i wish people checked up on me more #this self conscious catgirl is so tired #sometimes i WISH people just came into my dms to ask me if im ok #i do it constantly to others because i hope theyre not as sad as i am feeling in that moment #genuinely afraid to have made someone feel bad and drive them away from me #and omg i feel nyself running thin again just bc im afraid to lose the interactions we have altogether because i cant process certain media #in a healthy way whatsoever and i get super hung up on thinfs that really dont matter that much in the end #YEAH IM RAMBLING IT'S 5:30 AM AND I COULD BE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW BUT INSTEAD IM JUST CRYING FOR A STUPID REASON!! #i think ive only had one person check up on me based off the vibes in chat i gave off alone in the past couple of months #which was baffling and surreal btw and i think it broke something within me #it came from someone i wouldve never expected to even notice because sometimes it feels like its such a vast difference between us #i sometimes even wonder how are we friends in the first place #like do i even deserve to call this person my friend do they feel like that? or are we just discord acquaintances? #anyway all this just made me sad and my dumb ass is crying and yearning to be loved by my online peers thats all lol. meows pathetically #idk i guess i just.want to hear / see it more rather than just teying to tell myself that over and over hoping im not deluding myself abt i #personal #sorry for the emotions dump idk whats wrong with me tonight actually #me having to come to terms with the reality that i actually have a following and this might get boticed by more than 2 ppl #bc not everyone follows 3k blogs like i am :skull emoji: yknow #im probably gonna delete later because im actually a super self conscious person to the point i get nauseatingly anxious about it holy shit #i dont vent often and im 120% keeping it in but when i do oh boy #the dam bursts and im left like a sopping wet dog on the floor looking like a sad blob #which i am feeling like right now! #vent #emy rambles #ALSO LIKE THIS ISNT TO SAY IM NOT GRATEFUL FOR MY FRIENDS OMG I AM #k really am #sometimes its still like. idk. unbelievable to me that people are genuinely interacting with me and the things i write or headcanon #and i shouldn't expect them to know whats wrong with me or if i feel bad if i dont say it or communicate that to them #but yknow one can yearn

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

did I pull a all-nighter binging the entirety of Blue Flag in one sitting? Yes, yes I did.

Do I regret it? Nope, not in the slightest.

#its so so good y'all #yes I got like 3-4 hours of sleep but it was completely worth it #just... so much emotions #this manga made me cry. multiple times #not because it's super sad or anything but because God fuck some of those panels hit me a little too hard #just... so much about the queer experience and queer pain and what it means to feel lost bc of your identity... #it was just all so intimate and relatable and as a queer person- I SAW myself in some of these characters #fuck bro #like I just wanted them all to be HAPPY #bc queer people deserve happiness #the ending was a bit rushed yeah #but everything else was just so masterfully done and the impact of this manga on me was just so strong #that I'll be damned if I don't give this masterpiece a 10/10 #I don't think I've related so much to a manga as much as this one #so yeah #just thoughts ig #blue flag

[mishkakagehishka]

But anyway plans for tomorrow: i'll wake up and say i'm gonna study and then i won't, i'll have a breakdown while preparing lunch at 5pm and then try to study english while crying, go to bed at 3am having done nothing.

#damn guys i'm beginning to think i'm the problem #i am tho and that's okay #not everyone's built for this world yanno #i'm not even saying this to be edgy or depressed i made peace with it like aye fuck it #shrugs. i'll suffer and i'll take six years to finish a three year undergrad programme but whatevs. no big deal. #it's gonna be alright #on the bright side if i don't pass syntax i can't take syntax 2 so i'll have less classes to attend and less exams to sit #yknow? positive sides #it'll be alright. what's important is that i don't get myself to an attempt bc that'll make my dad sad and people talk bad about my parents

[ultraviolet-morning-lights]

anyone else kind’ve floored by how much ‘You’re Losing Me’ relates to them as a fan in how they’ve been viewing Taylor lately? like we’re telling her so loudly: DO SOMETHING! SAY SOMETHING! LOSE SOMETHING! RISK SOMETHING! You’re losing me!!!! I don’t understand! The air is thick with loss and indecision! I know my pain is an imposition! How can you say that you love someone you can’t tell is dying? Fighting in only your army, front lines, don’t you ignore me!

#:( I’m so sad #taylor swift #eras tour #you’re losing me #midnights #look at this godforsaken mess that you made me #you showed me colors you know I can’t see with anyone else :( #and you KNOW DAMN WELL for you I would ruin myself a million little times

[varricscrossbowbianca]

reading victora pedretti's recent interview about mental health and body image and her saying how awful the algorithm on insta and other social media platforms is and that she even researched the buccal fat removal trend and realized that everyone kind of starts to look the same

#victoria pedretti #also her saying that she has a complex relationship with her body #it really doesnt matter how pretty you are #everyone has struggles with their looks i guess? #damn #. ramblings #. honestly felt that #. i also have a complicated relationship with my body #. just yesterday when i took some pics of myself my nose seemed so huge from the side #. and i felt so bad about myself #. and i thought '' do other people see my nose like this too?'' #. and it made me sad that my nose isn't small and that in some angles (or when the camera is too close) it can look too big for my face #. its also strange because i like big noses on other people #i just feel like my face is too small for a prominent nose idk #. i have to add though that there's only been very few people who have commented badly on my nose with the intention of making me insecure #. and it does hurt #. i wish people would stop commenting like that on other people's bodies #. and i hope i can love myself and my body for what it is #. like there are days when i'm fine #. but some days are roughhhh

[blueside-hobi]

Thank you @seouldriftmp3 and @schnaf for the songs on repeat tags<3 you have both tagged me in different numbers of songs on repeat, so I'm just going to go with 10 (because that's the max audios I can have) and you guys should do it again if yours have changed since you last did it lmao

Bam - Bandage

2. Crybaby - Nanna

3. Dancer - LÉON

4. on the street (with J. Cole) - Jhope

5. Interlude: Wings - BTS

6. Cicak - CHS

7. Numb Bears - Of Monsters and Men

8. Festival - Herd

9. Difference in mood - Youthlim

10. Godzilla - Nanna

Tagging @jiminlikecrazy @seraphjimin @kimchokejin @clutterbugs @yearningsea @minieggukie @palpalopaloma @mindofnmn @joon-rkive @sinceritythatcouldntbedelivered @bobagukks

#Spotify #damn someones excited about the nanna album👀 #its me #im excited for her album #and im excited that i get to see her live at the end of july #tag game #but you guys should honestly listen to her because shes perfection #and listen to that bandage song #im obsessed #also i made myself sad when i went so far back in my mentions that i made it to 2022 wrapped tags that i didn't get to do #bc i was too busy feeling sorry for myself #so this might be the last one of the night #if i stop being a little bitch i might do some more and maybe even the 2022 wrapped ones #bc i shouldn't throw away a whole year just because it ended in possibly the worst way it could have

[aubstacle-of-course]

One time I played fox in the snow for someone and commented on how sad of a song it is and they didn’t understand why i thought that, and I had one of those moments that was just like “oh, we have had very different lives huh”

#specifically the Rasputina version #but the belle and sebastian version is v good too #fox in the snow #I did this to myself #earlier today I took my kitty out and made up a version that was ‘cat in the grass’ #and ofc now I’ve had this damn song stuck in my head all day #and it is SO sad