#mads is still awake!

[ledzeppelinmixtape]

wish house was a real doctor so i could be his mystery insomniac patient and after giving me horse tranquilizers and still not falling asleep he just hits me in the head with his cane and im out like a light

#house md #i was supposed yo be asleep 2 hrs ago cause i planned to get up very early to study but LMAO NO #as soon as i shut my eyes my chest felt like it was being ripped to shreds from anxiety. i love i love it i love it (←says guy who hates it #anyways. i got mad i cried i googled some things frantically and now im in an acceptance phase of 'it is what it is' ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #i think the thing that makes me the most frustrated is that. i slept like shit last night. like 4hrs maybe!!!! total!!! and so by the time #i started studying today around 6:30 i was eepy. and then by 7:15 my eyes were sooo heavy so i decided to take a 15 min power nap #and i was DREAMING within minutes. i fell asleep that quick. such a deep sleep that my alarm scared me awake #but ofc when im like oh teehee ill go to bet hella early and wake up hella early my brain is like ? no. #if youre still reading. idk im kissing you on the mouth or something. thanks for being here 🫶 #gonna start tagging these posts as #insomnia chronicles

[magistralucis]

is this anything

#eurovision #eurovision 2023 #esc 2023 #eurovision song contest #cha cha cha #Käärijä #esc croatia #esc finland #esc moldova #esc serbia #croatia #finland #moldova #serbia #Mama ŠČ #Soarele și luna #Samo mi se spava #i am awake and still so fucking mad about it lmao

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[aromanticannibal]

I just realized that Aizawa must have prepared himself mentally at the start of the war proper for one of his students to die or get heavily hurt due to their self-sacrificing qualities but he must have thought of like izuku or kirishima and such - the self sacrificing ones, the dumb ones whose judgements get clouded when they really need to save someone, and katsuki of all people dying must have been unexpected and broke aizawa in like. new and fascinating ways

#I know there was bakugou katsuki rising but I think aizawa wasn't awake during this part? #and he still must have thought ok this is probably a midoriya thing #so as long as the problem child isn't in danger it's fine. he'll be fine #mad mha ramblings// #mha #bakugou katsuki #aizawa shouta

[kaidabakugou]

my toxic trait is repeatedly snoozing the alarm but get more and more angry every 8-9 mins it rings again instead of just turning it off completely and getting the fuck up

#kai.rambles #i don’t wanna turn it off from the beginning bc what if i fall back asleep #but i still leave it on while im in the process of waking up and checking my phone + #getting my morning cuddles from my babies (hubs + woody) #but there’s still the risk of me falling back asleep so i leave it running BUT then get mad bc i don’t like hearing it once im awake #BUTTT ITS MEEE AND I COULD FALL BACK ASLEEP AT ANY MOMENT #SO I HAVE TO LEAVE IT RUNNING UNTIL IM SURE I WONT FALL ASLEEP AGAIN #why am i like this 😔

[garrettwrites]

When someone tells you they don't like hugs, that's not an invitation for you to "cure them". It is not a "you" thing, although sometimes it might be. You thinking "they have to get used to it" because "your hugs are different" and "that's how you show love" is not a valid argument. Hugging them out of the blue as a goodbye is not cool either. Fuck off.

#ok to rb in case someone is in the same boat but thinks the post is too personal #this friend of mine... #pretends he's great but can't respect one basic thing #he's lucky I have grown to control my emotions and not lash out #i hate it #don't hug me or touch me end of line #i am honest to god feeling sick #this dude and I have history where I borderline felt incapable of saying no and had sex with him #afterwards I told him how I felt #yet he still pulls this shit #hugs make me sick to my stomach I don't even hug my family #and I really don't wanna hug a man who pretty much made me hate sex (for myself) as a whole #i feel disgusting rn #twice he hugged me and got mad when I refused to hug him again #even after I already told him I hated it #then asks if I'm scared of him because of that like you piece of shit I wanna rip my skin out where you touched it #I may pretend to everyone that I'm a strong confident man but good lord #sometimes I wish I had an over protective boyfriend so he could kick him in the teeth over this shit #it's ridiculous I know but fuck #apologies if you read all these tags but I over drank after this and none of my friends are awake and I needed to vent #garrett.text

[osoreruna]

do...y'all get overwhelmed when you open your inbox and see like...10 asks all from me —

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #wait — is it disappointing actually ALKSDJFL #I GET EXCITED OKAY — #and listen...i don't send all of those expecting you to reply to literally ALL OF THEM. #you literally don't have to reply to *any* if the inspiration isn't there #i won't be mad. i won't be upset. i'll still send more asks when you post another meme. #you can save them for a rainy day ! you can reply to them a year later ! you can delete them ! i really do not care — #but i don't want y'all to feel like i'm #being pushy #or any sense of urgency or anything... #idk DOES IT BOTHER Y'ALL ?? #anyway i'm here #i'm awake. #gonna make breakfast and then hop on drafts i think. #got a call from the cardiologist #to move my appt up to the 9th. #so that's cool — no matter what happens i can't wait to get it all sorted out so i can stop feeling like SHIT EVERY DAY — #tbd

[youareinacomawakeup]

I don’t care what you fuckers say. Good Omens 2 was the best thing I’ve seen in years and there needs to be a season 3.

#spoilers: good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #first off i know fuckers always say queerbaiting but there was zero queerbaiting #everything was set up and paid off beautifully #like if you're mad about the final conflict then you weren't paying attention during the whole job subplot #like what did you think that was there for but to show that aziraphale still had growing to do #that he had the capacity for growth but he wasn't THERE yet like crowley was #one's asleep and one's awake just like that last shot of nina and maggie #glorious parallel by the way #also the plot twist with gabriel and beelzebub was beautifully set up too #ANOTHER parallel by the way #like wow an angel and a demon falling in love #wonder what that represents #but i spent the whole damn show like 'WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THE FLIES. IS BEELZEBUB SPYING ON THEM?' #but no. much more betterer. that is a love fly. #and then like at the end #when aziraphale cut crowley off and spoke first i was like #'okay so they're not going to say it explicitly #but there's no fucking way to take nina and maggie's intervention besides crowley being in love #so I accept it as confirmed if questionably canon a la the kiss we both did and didn't see in yuri on ice' #'plausible deniability right' #but then NO #no crowley steered the conversation right back around and MADE IT HAPPEN #SUBVERT THAT TROPE #have him get cut off by absolutely heartbreaking news and SAY IT ANYWAY #EMOTIONAL MATURITY THY NAME IS CROWLEY #Aziraphale just needs to wake up #but yeah i was happy stimming the whole damn show #i kept needing to pause and step away because i was overwhelmed with how much i was enjoying myself #which was an experience i didn't have with the first season

[ladynicte]

Either way this quote is about Nico di Angelo actually I just decided

#like as a general this quote fits nico so much because of just how wild and uncontrollable his love really is #the fact that traumatized and hurt and maltrioutined and barely awake as he was #as scared as he was #he still used what little strength he had to drag himself towards Percy before him and Annabeth fell into Tartarus #and just everything else he did for Percy like its no exaggeration to say that it was Nico's efforts to find a way around the prophecy #that managed to keep Percy alive through it #but hes not like that just about him if nico loves you he will die for you he will kill for you he will raise the dead to try to bring you #back for years he will command the earth to part for you #like hes so wild i love him #mad percico quote this is #> web weaving

[xawkward-ariesx]

Stop writing so I won't be tired for my first day back to classes tomorrow -> stay awake thinking about the fic unable to write it and unable to sleep

#ace writes sometimes #writing thoughts #IL #pray for me lads #i have a 9am lecture tomorrow and i want to be well rested but im turning that fic over in my head like its stuck on a roundabout #you guys havent even seen intrinsically linked but i love her #this is the first decent chunk of writing ive done in a minute i dont want to sleep and break that progress but alas #edit: i stayed awake until after half 5 thinking about the fic #i read an entire fic to distract me and still couldnt go to sleep or stop thinking about it after that #and then my alarm went off at 7 and ive never been so mad at getting what i want i want motivation to write so bad and now its haunting me

[popponn]

holy fuck. wait a minute. where is rin. i wanna see rin and bachira

they look so eepy 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#i want to get mad at nagi but #it's okay loser boy my expectation has been on the floor for u it's okay #reo 😭😭😭😭😭 #and hey whoever in merch team who said with ISAGI FOREHEAD with a full chest im going to marry you #actually maybe not marry you i will maybe just #uh idk how about a cake cafe date bbygirl #goood lord man i haven't been this excited since the phantom thief merch and even then it's still feel more sane #the way this collab SHOOK ME AWAKE #now what do i do with this 😭😭😭 #babblings

[north-peach]

The Insomnia Strikes Back

So time to reread some bookmarks and check to see if the authors have shuffled off this mortal coil or are, as we all are, suffering from writer's block or lack of time/motivation/spoons-

Oh!

Oh, hi friend!

Friend did such a good job!

Much gratitude and appreciation to friend!

#fanfiction #online friends #who have odd names #but mad skills #ao3 #it's 3am and i'm still awake #my sleep schedule's destroyed #cause i'm stuck in the void #but it actually like 6am

[sassykinzonline]

Hi dear

Regarding your last post while I don’t agree much I truly hope that you don’t feel suffocated or anxious to not express your opinions

This is your personal blog so I hope we as followers don’t make you feel anxious

Like sure not everyone will agree but making you feel anxious is worse

thank you for your concern, it's very kind

ive never had an issue with the people following me since obviously you like me enough to be respectful, so no im not "anxious" about expressing myself in general. im enjoying my time here, you guys are really fun.

its more just that im trying to keep this fun for me...? sometimes its hard to hold back if its an issue i think is serious, but then the problem is that a lot of people dont know how to be respectful of boundaries or sympathetic to someone else's perspective. im not perfect in that regard either however im trying to be self-aware. because i have already seen im not getting that same consideration back once in a while, im just trying to minimize the amount of unpleasant encounters i have on my path to self-improvement, heh.

with all the ramen i eat, i need to make sure im keeping my blood pressure low.

#ask #its very sweet of you but dont worry #all my anger is righteous im a leo #dont ask why im still awake (or do) #also im sorry if that post made you feel i was mad at anyone in particular because thats not the case either

[todayisafridaynight]

daigo-gets-trolled kinda fuckin panel

#snap sketches #sorry ignore me #im looking at all the comics i drafted this month and deciding which ones i wanna finish and which ones get sent to hell #and this panel of daigo still makes me chortle.. maybe ill finish this one idk #i just dnt wanna color it uuUUGHGGHGH WHY DO I COLOR THINGS NOW #whyyy doi draw so much thisshit lame as hell #ok im gonna go look at em again and decide which one to work on during stream tomorrow #cause lbr im not finishing any of em on stream LMAOOOO #i was gonna stream tonight but. is anyone even awake. #i mean yeah LOL but i feel low energy #so im gonna be more boring than usual #plus my only plans are to finish sketching some stuff for a comic ill Probably work on tomorrow #so itd be a real short stream since i only have like one or two things left to sketch #anyway. good night ill see Some of yall tomorrow :] #OH YEAH NO NIGORI FOR ME the liquor store closed half an hour early... and after my phone died and i got lost for a hot minute #so mean so cruel :( at least i got a cute kuromi pen from the ebisu store :) which i forgot i lived by until i saw it on my map :) #IM SO MAD THO I WAS SO TIRED I DIDNT REALIZE I HAD MONEY FR A KIRBY GACHA CAPSULE :(((((( maybe next month... #ok im rambling now BYE

[rozugold]

What if YOU wanted to animate for once but the dog that’s been cooped up all day because no one wants to fucking take her outside starts crying at 3am and you’re the only one awake to take care of her

#I’m mad #not at the dog just in general #I’m that one post rn #the ‘it’s rotten work and I’ll still do it but Christ alive’ #its COLDD #and she’s so energetic so it’s gonna be a bit before she tries out #I’m not tired because I would’ve been awake anyways #I’m just complaining here because no one’s awake to complain to #not that I’d complain in the first place but yknow #rozu thoughts

[lilacthebooklover]

i just walked into my glass shower screen because it's 1am and dark, i now know what it feels like to be a bird. suddenly i am overcome by the masculine urge to write another avian au about my blorbos (i am a female)

#my laptop's mad at me for still being awake #it's hissing at me #it thinks i'm a bird #fanfiction writer #ah yes #the manly men things that women do #manly things like give ur favourites wings and also trauma #both parts are important #tumblr trash #writers on tumblr