I’ve started this blog to have a space in which I can be frank and detailed about my health journey. Throughout the past ten years I have struggled with weight, extreme low energy, and various mental health issues. Recently I applied for a medical cannabis card after self-medicating with scarce availability of flower for a few years. I’m grateful to have connected with a good doctor who uncovered previously-undiagnosed post-traumatic stress disorder as well as potential thyroid problems that manifest in (what looks like and feels like but is not specifically diagnosed) chronic fatigue syndrome.
The best way to start any process is to define some goals and methods. So, what do I want out of this?
- I want to wake up with a normal amount of energy that allows me to do my job, keep my house clean, maintain my self-care, and partake in hobbies/social events.
- I want to achieve and maintain my well-being as measured by cardiovascular fitness, strength, flexibility, and stamina.
- I want a wealth of practices and skills I can use to lift me from depressive or traumatic episodes, from journaling to mindfulness exercises, routines, and more.
- I want a clear cannabis routine and access to medication to eventually end a dependence on prescription pharmaceuticals. This is not due to any innate issue with these drugs, but the adverse effects they have had on me. My baseline mental health is slightly improved, but my down periods are longer and more severe since starting them.
How will I achieve this?
I’m cooking more for my household, focusing on increasing vegetables, satiating fats, nuts and seeds, as well as foods with recommended amounts of selenium, iron,vitamins B-12 and D, as well as other minerals suggested for fatigue. We will limit any take out or fast food as well as reliance on simple carbs like pasta and potatoes for main meals.
One I feel it is manageable with my energy levels, I plan on incorporating some intermittent fasting protocols. This will be balanced with eating until satiated during my eating window and staying hydrated (with electrolytes) throughout the day.
I’ve also put together a slowly-progressing fitness plan with tai chi, gentle yoga, walking, and a handful of basic strength training that I will adjust every two weeks or so. This will focus on building strength, stamina, and flexibility without aggravating inflammation or spiking my anxiety.
Lastly I have put together a cannabis course with recommendations from my clinic. I will post more about that depending on the availability at my local dispensary. Generally I plan on using 1:1 tinctures and hybrid vapes throughout the day with a heavier indica vape or flower at night to help with sleep. I may also experiment with a sativa vape for energy, but I want to be careful to balance it with CBD if needed.
And that’s it. This upcoming week starts my cooking and fitness adventures. Week after next I may be able to go to the dispensary.
I’m staring at about 193lbs, able to do maybe 50 wall push-ups, struggling to get my 10k steps a day in quarantine. Today I was so exhausted I woke up three hours late and took a two hour nap, forcing myself to stand up through my drowsiness to cook and do chores. My concentration was so bad I had to walk around with noise-cancelling headphones, and I couldn’t stop myself grinding my teeth into a tension headache. After four cups of coffee of course.
Let’s blaze this trail.