#major life changes

[twinkclownposse]

it seems not everyone deals with major life changes with attempted suicides

#tw sui joke #suicide trigger warning #tw sui ideation #tw sui implied #major life changes #targeted post lmfao

[shamballalin]

How To Navigate Permanent Major Life Changes ~ 21 Days To Change A Habit

How To Navigate Permanent Major Life Changes ~ 21 Days To Change A Habit

You can go around in similar circles, yet you will always find yourself at a new beginning because all your paradigms change constantly with your every thought, word, and action. How can you recover after permanent major life changes that have rocked your world to the core of its existence? Humanity is currently picking up the pieces left after death and destruction, broken relationships, lost…

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#21 days to change a habit #actions #change a habit #change your life #change your reality #emotional health #emotions #habits #history repeating itself #life changes #major life changes #mental health #paradigms #pretending #reality #self esteem #self sabotage #thoughts #triggers #words

[superhell]

house md is wild because house tells wilson that he’ll sacrifice many things but never himself and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he sacrifices himself for wilson. and then he

#also like. this is the guy who said that 'people dont change' for the majority of his life and then when wilson is dying hes like 'i can cha #nge' its that he doesn't talk about his feelings and he cannot bear to show weakness until it seems that he is losing wilson and then #he will literally say anything to keep him its that he is shown repeatedly to be a vicodin addict and that hes destroyed relationships over #his pain and his need for vicodin but he'll give wilson his own pills and go without to make sure wilson has enough meds its that he is #old and cynical and his beliefs about humanity have been written in stone and his walls are topped with turrets and barbed wire but the gate #s fucking open for wilson time and again and wilson is the exception to the rules time and again its. so fucked up #wilson is quite literally his anchor in humanity wilson is his achilles heel wilson is his entire support system the foundations of gregory #house's life have been built around one james evan wilson from the moment he saw that twink throw a bottle into a mirror. am i making sense #here. do these words mean anything #house #wilson #hilson #house md #hatecrimes md #house is a very very carefully constructed facade and wilson is a fucking sledgehammer.

[marzipanandminutiae]

losing my mind that someone thinks that some women wear Kim K waist trainers to the gym because historical costumers/dress history specialists dare to talk about corsets not being torture devices online

see screenshot below:

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my guy

those are demographics with NEGATIVE overlap

#corsets #corset discourse #historical costuming #most historical costumers don't even waist-train and the ones who do #are aware that it's a temporary change that only lasts as long as you have your corset on #so working out in it serves no purpose #but again the vast majority of us wear corsets for...bust support and a base layer in period outfits. or in everyday life if that suits us #nobody is watching Bernadette Banner and then rushing off to buy a Walmart cincher. I promise you

[kindaorangey]

once again screaming crying throwing up about the fact that infinity train was prematurely cancelled despite being contracted for 5 seasons.

#infinity train #like i really really want all 8 seasons. & i really really want present day!amelia and all that would come with that (e.g. hazel and grace) #but i feel like i would be so much more content with the show's cancellation if we had the bow on top of it all that was the amelia season #because she was the villain from s1 #the fallout of her villanry births the antagonists from s2. #she appears again in s3 having moved on slightly and changed her outlook. thereby creating a somewhat optimistic outlook on the end point of #her story #and s4 shows (in parts) her descent into villany. #she's been the main reocurring presence in the whole show and her train motivation (unbearable grief) and villain arc are the most #complex the show would've handled #i truly believe that if they had been allowed to make it it would have served as a perfect ending to the show #because she's been built up for so long and because the writers would've had so much material to work with AND detail to pay attention to #it wouldve been spectacular.... and everything they wanted to explore in later seasons wouldve been so good too #(older tulip and revenge and acceptance of something as complicated as alzheimer's disease) #(and i also think it wouldve been neat for them to show us a glimpse of 40 y/o rymin cuz those boys have major issues still when they get #off the train #and so id like a snapshot of them in the future that shows they worked things out) #yeah. justice 4 infinity train justice 4 amelia hughes. i want to fuck that 60y/o deeply evil woman so badly and i need her back in my life

[markantonys]

the music in WOT is never random. even if it's just very soft background music, it's relevant to the scene. practically every time there's music playing while egwene is onscreen during s2, the tune is egwene's theme, rearranged and reinstrumentated in dozens of different ways to match the tone of the particular scene. mat has quick little snippets of his theme tune play during various scenes of his, often mixed with the old blood theme from s1, and it finally blares out in full glory for the first time during the horn of valere scene, to parallel how mat is truly finding himself for the first time. even secondary characters like liandrin, siuan, and aviendha have their own dedicated theme tunes that play during their scenes and are never repurposed as background music in other characters' scenes. and all the themes have lyrics in the old tongue that suit the character or concept the theme is about! in conclusion, lorne balfe is truly doing the Most, and i'm so grateful he's the composer for WOT and i hope he'll return for every season the show goes for.

#it's such a joy to rewatch the show after studying the soundtrack and listening to it a million times! #sometimes i would forget to listen to the dialogue because i was too excited about trying to identify the faint background tune #wot #wot on prime #the wheel of time #fingers crossed lorne will be able to do it for all seasons bc keeping the same composer really is so integral for a show imo #especially one like WOT that established such a unique sound landscape in the early seasons #genuinely a major reason why the witcher s2 was such a step down from s1 for me (i haven't watched any seasons since 2) #is bc they changed composers and the cool slavic folk/metal vibe of s1 was replaced by generic fantasy orchestra in s2 #it took so much life and feeling out of the show! you might not think soundtrack could have such an impact but it truly does!

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

the worst thing about having been traumatised and abused is knowing the men responsible are still out there, probably hurting other women, and they dont even think they did anything wrong. it kills me

#one more mental breakdown or major life changing event and i might go on a murder spree #kidding of course #personal #and worst of all knowing how many millions of girls and women are stuck in prostitution #and how many billions of women have had similar experiences and worse and have to deal with that #and you have to go to work like everything is okay

[scribefindegil]

I think some people have a hard time accepting Teru’s about-face post Black Vinegar and so try to argue that it didn’t really happen, but like. It’s not that he was a Bad Person before and now he’s a Good Person (because morality in mp100 doesn’t work like that!), it’s that his perspective switched from “I am the main character of the world (so I have to structure my morality around maintaining my place at the top)” to “Kageyama is the main character of the world (so I have to structure my morality around what he thinks is right)” which is not actually as significant a change in perspective as it appears at first glance.

#it's about His Place In The Narrative! #he can change his behavior in major ways without actually interrogating the underlying idea #that there IS a Narrative and there IS a Protagonist (and that the Protagonist is largely infallable) #and that's what he has to structure his life around #is this deranged? yes! do i understand it on a visceral level? also yes! #mp100 #mob meta

[mumpsetc]

It's Your Birthday! Aren't You Excited?

#I Made Daisy Bell a Year Ago #She's a Sagitarrius! #Electric Remains #ER #ER Daisy Bell #Electric Remains Daisy Bell #ER DNE #Electric Remains DNE #I Wanted to Draw Some Birthday Art for Her Because Legitimately Shes Changed My Life #I Do Consider My Artistic Journey Like Seriously Beginning With Her Shes Been a Major Development to Me and I Love Her a Lot #Happy Birthday Daisy Bell I Love You Very Very Much

[lunarharp]

silly neopetscore doodles from the other day. (in my modern au they are not idiots as much and have been together for a while ever since the aquarium date)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i just kind of assume that neopets was a major part of everyone's childhood. Realised this may not be the case. but it was for them. imo #sorry for the maudlin tags on my weird last post. hopefully no-one wasted their time reading that.. #i'm still rather on the edge but i feel calmer not drawing..not being online..watching gay japanese tv..thinking. #the answers are clear..i need to Make Changes In My Life. not just draw all the time. accept my limits. #but i also want to draw. i think that is true. *bows solemnly and then leaves with an echo of my sorrowful leitmotif in the bgm* #that pink kacheek image i found truly represents life's pain and especially qifrey's and it even has glasses. Effervescent.

[uncanny-tranny]

I can agree with the idea of "mental illnesses are no excuse for any bad behaviour!" but I don't think people come at this topic with the level of nuance (and compassion!) that it needs.

While, yes, we as mentally ill people do need to hold ourselves accountable for our actions, you have to realize at some point that you can absolutely lose that control over yourself. I just worry that people will hyper-police the thoughts and feelings of mentally ill people because we must be in perfect control of our illnesses at all times. No, I am not saying that abuse is okay or anything of the sort. I am saying that we need to remember nuance and compassion. You cannot force mentally ill people to hate themselves enough to magically "become better" - that has never, and will never, been how this works.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #abuse tw #abuse mention tw #obligatory 'i am mentally ill and have been abused by other mentally ill people and i know what that shit is like' before... #...my words are misinterpreted as 'you think abuse is OKAY then!' #because abuse is NEVER okay and NEVER EVER justified... #...my life is FOREVER altered and changed because of the abuse i faced for the majority of my life... #...but that doesn't justify using that story of abuse to go 'look!!! these MENTALLY ILL people are SO dangerous and bad!!!!!!!'

[time-is-restored]

btw not to make everything about My Fucking Guy but i honestly think one of the things that seperates q!phil out from the other islanders is the approach he takes to dealing with the lack of agency + control all the islanders have over whatever the fuck the federation's doing.

it shows up most prominently whenever tubbo is excitedly telling him about the 'progress' he's made with cucurucho or various investigations (ie: trapping him into a corner with the 'do you have free will' questions), and phil always shoots it down w an immediate 'that doesn't mean anything. curucuho will say anything to mess with you. you can't take anything he says as true.'

and it's not that phil is... a paticularly pessimistic character? he's just EXTREMELY practical. like, he's yet to give up on anyone EVER finding ANY answers (he was the one who initially gave the federation that one week ultimatum w the cage for a cage stream), he just doesn't trust the idea that curucuho is ever going to voluntarily give them. they're uncontrollable + senseless - you might as well argue with the weather.

and like, if that's how he sees the one (1) and only point of contact the islanders HAD with the federation for months, it explains a lot abt his characters lifestyle! ofc he sits on the wall all day, talking to his kids, and keeping his head down. he believes that the federation wants nothing more than to drag the islanders into sick games + tasks just so they can fuck with their head (ie: curucuho revealing he was the one cellbit gathered all that information for). and while he can't totally PREVENT any of that from ever impacting him, he can make sure his kids are well fed, well protected, and as happy + comfortable as he can manage. this is objectively not a perfect situation, there is a guaranteed amount of suffering + fear that he can't mitigate, but he can at least account for it.

like, he REFUSES to engage. whenever curucho shows up, he treats them with total ambivalence. he's not going to get riled up by anything they do, he's not going to get super attached to the guy, he's just gonna laugh it off and irish goodbye it when things drag on. the ONLY time he's strayed from that general guiding principle has been since he's lost his eggs, and can no longer afford to let the federation's fuckery go: those are his fucking kids.

hence the completely unprecedented levels of outward rage and sadness and terror he shows throughout the birdcage streams - almost all directed directly to cucurucho. it's all a completely fair + proportional response to the horror the islanders are being subjected to, but it feels so different bc until now, q!phil has been so dedicated to not reacting, and not giving the federation any sign that they're actually getting to him.

#qsmp #q!phil #LIKE. does anyone else think this! i genuinely believe its like one of the major #traits of his character i feel like u can trace it through Everything. #the man lives with the constant knowledge that sometimes all it takes is a tempting ravine and a badly timed creeper to end a life #whether that life belongs to a stranger or someone you love more than anything else in the world #you COULD rage against that. you could scream and shout and tear your hair out and grieve for the futility of it all #but what does that change? the days march on. death waits either way #and that's not to say he's a laizesfair kind of guy. anyone who's seen him stress out abt chayanne's risk taking + freak out #whenever his kids don't have enough autofeed grist can see that he cares DEEPLY. which resolves into his very distinctive #defensive + protective playstyle. the goal is not to win the fight the goal is to *survive* the fight etc #but the only way that mindset doesn't spill out into unchecked paranoia + complete agoraphobia is with acceptance #'shit happens: the philza minecraft story' #i also think it even manifests in the nightmare sequence w his last words to chayanne? 'they didn't want us to live. we were never supposed #to survive' or whatever the exact wording was #he is FURIOUS and deeply hurt and sad abt the deaths he says so explicitly later #but at the time the first thing he reaches for is. exhausted acceptance. it wasn't their fault. it wasn't his fault. they did their best. #they could only do so much in the face of the federation's Overwhelming Hostility. y'know? #mine

[saturncoyote]

Y'know, it's kinda hard to feel hyped about the new Nightcat/Watcher DLC when Rain World itself is completely unplayable for me in it's current state

#saturn speaks #the quality of life update fucked the game up so bad #even without mods it barely works #i'm so extremely tired of having to relaunch the game over and over again to figure out which mod is causing problems #only for the mods that weren't crashing the game to start crashing the game later on #mods were the best part of this game and now the majority of them is unplayable #i would be lying if that didn't completely remove most of the fun out of this game for me #and no i don't want to change back to a later update where i'll have to start from scratch #i shouldn't need to do that in the first place #i just want my funny slug game back

[identitty-dickruption]

I just. really need my fellow pOCD-havers to know that they’re not alone and they’re not creepy and everything will be okay. shit is hard and our brains are not always friendly places. but there is hope and there is life and there are people who will embrace you for who you are (OCD messiness included)

#I’m just. feeling emotional about the fact that I’ve had pOCD as one of my major themes for just over a year now #and that first week of it? I really considered ending it all #but things get better and then worse and then better again #and the fact that your intrusive thoughts are about kids does not change the fact that you deserve a happy life #anyway. ;-; #ocd #pocd

[winterprince601]

so we all know that the got show wildly underutilised the direwolves and robbed them of all magical significance, which annoys me because the starks finding the direwolves in chapter one of got seems to be a direct counter to the existential threat posed by the others in the prologue. they don't just mark the beginning of political upheaval, but also the return of magic to westeros. like daenerys' dragons, they are the magical counterbalance to the evil power of the others - one of the many incarnations of ice in the prophesised song of ice and fire.

having said that, they also have personal roles for each stark. the nominal determinism of the pups has been well analysed but i think you could read thoroughly into the behaviour of each one - for instance, nymeria connecting arya to westeros and her identity as a stark warg and summer matching bran's weird-girl green-seer energy.

to cut a long-winded post short, however, i think ghost is going to have to die in order for jon to be resurrected. i hate the thought as much as you likely do - ghost has been a close companion of jon and the reader throughout the series but unfortunately, that's what makes the sacrifice so meaningful. i do think jon's resurrection will require a sacrifice: it won't be like the show where jon sits up, is sad for five minutes and then hops off the dissection table to swing a sword about.

one of the many things ghost's name seems to foreshadow is jon's resurrection. not only that, but theon suggests the albino wolf is bound for death, saying he will "die faster than the others". however, when jon retorts "this one belongs to me", he takes responsibility for ghost's life. this is what all the starks do for their pups, but in jon the rescue is especially marked: he turns back to find ghost and whilst he is the runt of the litter, under jon's care he grows to be bigger than his siblings. jon gives ghost life and it makes a lot of symbolic sense for that life to be eventually returned. moreover, ghost with his weirwood colouring represents the old gods of the north - jon even muses that he might be some kind of agent of them. i don't think the lord of light alone can bring jon back: it has to be a rebirth of ice and fire, a spring-like mix of both elements of jon's nature.

jon's resurrection will mark a major change for the direction of his character and is potentially the first step towards realising his targaryen heritage and maaaybe becoming a dragon rider. the death of ghost, of his past as the invisible bastard of winterfell, might be necessary for this. however, i don't believe ghost or his identity as a wolf, as a stark, will truly leave him. if he has warged into ghost and lives on for a period of time in his body, it only makes sense that ghost will live on in him even after he has died. prolonged warging can create slippage between man and beast which we've already seen between living jon and his direwolf. we won't lose ghost entirely and perhaps with the affirmation of robb's will and finally turning home towards winterfell, jon will realise he doesn't need the physical emblem of a direwolf to be a stark - he has the wolfblood of the old gods and the first men within him always.

#this is all the logical expounding on what is primarily a looming fear #i just can't shake the idea that jon's soul has to return to his body SOMEHOW #and grrm has killed a direwolf before to symbolise a major change in a character's life COUGH lady #asoiaf #a song of ice and feels #house stark #jon snow #asoiaf meta #asoiaf theory #winds of winter #ghost #ghost the direwolf #bran stark #arya stark #direwolves #got show slander

[sheryl-lee]

hey. turns out i likely have idiopathic condylar resorption, a degenerative joint disease that causes progressive/rapid bone loss in the jaw. i've had it since i was a kid but went undiagnosed for over a decade; my severe functional issues, pain, and other symptoms were repeatedly dismissed by doctors for years. my mandibular condyles have deteriorated, my jaw is slowly shrinking to the point where i look unrecognizable, and none of my teeth touch anymore. the pain is increasing more and more by the day. it's extremely difficult to breathe, eat, talk, sleep, and exist.

this is a progressive condition, so nothing will stop it or slow it down until the joints have been completely eaten away. my only option is a total temporomandibular joint replacement, where the two diseased joints that literally hold my face together are removed and permanently replaced with metal prostheses. aka a major surgery with a 6-12 month recovery 😃

#basically my face is disappearing because my body is attacking itself which has been really Fun to experience #i've had this disease since i was like 10 but only found out after doing my own research because most dentists/orthos don't know about it #i always knew something was really wrong and that my pain/ facial changes were not normal and getting worse #so it's both relieving and frustrating to *finally* be taken seriously #but yeah i'm having a lot of emotions about this and it's been really tough to process #getting major jaw surgery was not how i thought i'd be spending my early 20s but deep down i knew i would have to do it eventually #better than being in chronic pain for the rest of my life for sure #and if i wait any longer i risk severe deterioration/unsalvageable bone loss and total airway collapse in the future #sameera.txt