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drawing-way-outside-the-lines · 7 months

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Chapter 50 - A red string tied between they hearts.

Episode 4

Across town

Andy: His crying had finally died out and the 3 of them had gotten out of the shower, wet clothes and into Adrian's bed, Andy cuddled up between them after a round of healing, moaning and release I'm sorry he mumbled soft against Adrian's shoulder

Adrian: For what?

Andy: Stealing his virginity.

Adrian: He shook his head lightly I think stuff like that means more to you than it does to me, Andy. He sighed soft and looked at Raven, worried about his somewhat deflated look I'm just thankful you ran in this direction, and no one got hurt. Well… and that no one was forced to anything.

Andy: He really meant that? He looked at Raven with pleading eyes

Raven: He nodded soft Yes, my love forcing a soft smile but I still think you two need a day or two before you speak together, and an apology should be delivered one way or another, not just to Dalton.

Andy: I wont have to tell him about my feelings, right? I just… it's too much, both for him and I, and I really don't want to any longer, I don't think it's the right moment, so I really don't want to.

Raven: You don't have to, I promise, I made sure of it.

Adrian: Frowning questioning

Andy: Yawning big

Adrian: Maybe it would be good if you could take a little nap? he smiled encouraging

Andy: Will you stay with me?

Adrian: He nodded softly Of course.

Andy: You too? he looked at Raven

Raven: He nodded soft Yes.

It didn't take many minutes till he was sleeping deep

Adrian: He sighed soft and spoke to Raven in a lowered voice Take us downstairs, please.

Raven: He quickly grabbed onto Adrian's hand, and then they landed in his living room

Adrian: In a lowered concerned voice What is up with you?

Raven: He sighed deep I had to tell Dalton about MY feelings for him, in order to shield Andy.

Adrian: Oh…. and he didn't take it well?

Raven: No… well… they are not returned for sure, and rather unwelcomed, though he took it as nice and polite as possible. He sighed soft It's okay. Andy is right, the time just isn't right.

Adrian: I'm sorry he quickly wrapped his arms around Raven, hugging him tight

Raven: He sighed soft and wrapped his arms around Adrian Thank you. I'll be alright. I just need a couple days to mope about it he chuckled soft There will be a time for him and I… soon enough.

Adrian: Should I….

Raven: Yes, you should definitely give him a call and let him know there's no hard feelings between the two of you, but give them a moment now…

Adrian: Aye.

Raven: He snorted lightly Thank you.

Adrian: Anything I can do for you?

Raven: He sighed soft honestly, I just want to go back to bed for a while and cuddle up, would that be okay?

Adrian: Of course. Anything you need.

It was late afternoon as Malou woke up

Malou: She stretched lightly, and noticed Dalton sitting on the edge of his bed, contemplating with his phone in his hand what are you doing?

Dalton: He forced a soft smile Thinking about calling Adrian… I just don't know what to say? the full truth was he had also been going through old conversations on Instagram between Andy and him, trying to work out in his head, if maybe there could be a possibility that also Andy would have feelings for him? But he had come to the conclusion shortly before Malou woke up, that at the moment, he wouldn't want to know. It would only complicate things further. He sighed soft and threw the phone on his bed where do I start?

Malou: She sighed soft he knows by now, and he probably worries just as much as you do about this call… stalling… so how about you be the bigger man and call him first? Get it over with. It will only be more awkward the longer you wait.

Dalton: I'm scared.

Malou: I know she spoke softer now but he wont leave you either, I promise. He loves you very much.

Dalton: Can I invite him over? he looked at her with hopeful eyes or is that too much? I just feel like I need both of you right now not to lose my mind to the fear of either of you secretly hating me

Malou: She shook her head softly no one hates you, you're human, you're allowed to make mistakes.

Dalton: He sighed deep

Malou: It's not too much to ask him over she smiled soft but I'm pretty sure Andy and Raven is still with him, so if he says no, try not to think the worst again.

Dalton: He nodded soft and picked up his phone, slowly dialling the number

Adrian: He picked up on first ring I was just about to call you… I need to see you… can I come over?

Dalton: Heart pounding Yeah

Adrian: Good…. Dalton….

Dalton: Yes? tears gathering in his eyes

Adrian: I love you.

Dalton: He nodded soft, tears running down his cheeks I love you too!

Malou: As Dalton hung up she quickly leaned in, giving him a warm comforting hug It's going to be alright, I promise.

Dalton: He went outside, nervously smoking a cig by the gate, while waiting for Adrian. His heart pounding in his chest as the black Dodge Charger few minutes later rolled up and parked next to the house. And few seconds later as Adrian got out of the car, he could barely feel his legs. He took a deep breath, and rushed out the gate, towards Adrian I'm so sorry I didn't mean to-

Adrian: It's okay! he quickly wrapped his arms around Dalton, embracing him tight it's okay… no need to apologize.

Dalton: He sighed relieved and wrapped his arms around Adrian I'm terrified of losing you he sighed out, as a couple tears ran down his cheeks

Adrian: He shook his head lightly You wont.

Dalton: But I-

Adrian: Did nothing wrong. He sighed soft and squeezed Dalton a bit tighter you both accidentally fell in a hole, and that's okay, I never expected perfection… I'm certainly not perfect! I can't say it was my favorite news, and that it didn't make me jealous, but I still have understanding for the situation, and I get how things can run off the tracks and things can just happen, specially when there's alcohol involved…. he sighed soft…. not happy about the drugs, I gotta be honest, I wish you wouldn't. I'm scared I'm the one who will end up losing you…. that way.

Dalton: He bit his bottom lip and snuggled himself tighter against Adrian

Adrian: I'm terrified, as a matter of fact.

Dalton: I wont do it again! It's stupid and just an old dumb fucking hole I sometimes fall in. I'm not addicted he sighed soft

Adrian: No I get that. But that doesn't mean you couldn't be unlucky and get the wrong pill or wrong doze.

Dalton: He nodded soft

Adrian: I hate talking about it, it makes my skin crawl. So let's he sighed soft let's leave it at that, I'm not here to school you. I have made it clear how I feel about it, and I would very much prefer if you don't do it again. But I also understand it sorta comes with the lifestyle you have chosen… well, not necessary, but it often does…and I'm in general trying to make space for your freedom… even when all I most want is to hug you tight and keep you for myself.

Dalton: He chuckled soft and looked up at Adrian, both surprised and humbled that Adrian would feel that way about him. Thank you

Adrian: For what? he smiled soft

Dalton: For thinking that way about me, I suppose?

Adrian: He sighed soft and shook his head gently You have no idea how special you are? Do you?

Dalton: He shrugged lightly … I'm alright.

Adrian: Lifting one eyebrow You're definitely much more than "alright".

Dalton: He smiled shyly and looked down

Adrian: He sighed soft You're….. trying his best to put Dalton's worth into words … worth the whole damn universe.

Dalton: He looked up at Adrian and quickly shot forwards, kissing Adrian passionately

Adrian: Surprised moan

Dalton: Wrapping his arms around Andrian's neck, his kiss growing more tender

Adrian: Happy sigh, leaning further into their kiss

Dalton: Relieved sigh

Adrian: A soft grunt escaping him as his phone suddenly interrupted them Mmmh!!… sorry he mumbled against Dalton's lips and slowly pulled away I better at least see who he looked at his phone as he fumbled it out of his pocket -Sam he frowned soft I better-

Dalton: He nodded soft and let go of Adrian, stepping a couple meters away to grand him a bit of space

Adrian: Sam?

Sam: Are you busy?

Adrian: ….. depends?

Sam: Kinda need you over here he sounded sad I just woke up from a nightmare again…

Adrian: ….. yeah… I'll be there in 5 minutes his voice growing softer just take it easy okay?

Sam: Thank you, I'll see you soon.

Adrian: See you. As he hung up he frowned lightly I'm sorry… I really want to be here right now, but Sam woke up from a nightmare and-

Dalton: No, it's completely okay, I understand he forced a soft smile you should be with him.

Adrian: He sighed deep I'll try to come by later

Dalton: He nodded confirming Otherwise, come by tomorrow, please.

Adrian: He nodded lightly and stepped forwards, wrapping his arms around Dalton, planting a soft kiss on his hair I don't want to leave you.

Dalton: It's okay he sighed deep I guess we both have to be brave and grant each other freedom.

Adrian: ….. he nodded soft and planted another kiss on Dalton's hair

#unicorntales #Adrian Blackwood #Raven McKinney #Brandubh McKinney #Andy Shaw-Thompson #Andycorn #Malou Jensen #Dalton Red #Samuel Cullman Thompson #Sam

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toughgirlchallenges · 11 months

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India Pearson - New Mum, SUP/Yoga Teacher, and Outdoors Advocate. Sharing more about the importance of connecting with nature to enhance your mental and physical wellbeing.

India Pearson, is an Outdoors Advocate, Presenter, and Yoga Teacher based on the Kent coast.

India's passion for wellbeing and nature has lead her to produce and host the podcast 'Start a Ripple ...' which celebrates the power of moving in nature for the mind, body and environment. Guests have included TV adventurer Ben Fogle, Olympian Michelle Griffith Robinson, BBC Spring Watch Presenter Megan McCubbin and Emmy Award Winner Doon Mackichan. You can also find India presenting in front of the camera, on the highly successful Youtube Channel Holiday Extras Travel Guides, which over the last 4 years, has taken her all over the world making documentary style videos on sustainable tourism.

During her time with Holiday Extras India co-founded a sustainable travel podcast 'Green on the Go' which saw her speak to industry professionals and travellers about eco tourism. In 2019 India won the Holiday Extras Difference Award for her efforts to encourage customers and colleagues to travel and live more sustainably.

As a lifestyle model India has worked with a variety of brands across different industries both nationally and internationally.

India uses social media for discussions based around her passions and expertise in paddle boarding, yoga, environmental activism, and getting outdoors as a new mum to her daughter Malou. India has been featured in publications such as Women's Health and Women and Home, and is also also an ambassador for Gill Marine and Hatha Paddle Boards.

When she's not presenting, India can mostly be found by the sea, either on her stand up paddle board or practicing yoga on the beach.

In 2020 India founded Fin & Flow, a hub for like minded people to connect through wellbeing activities by the sea such as yoga, paddle boarding, and beach cleans.

New episodes of the Tough Girl Podcast go live every Tuesday at 7am UK time - Subscribe so you don’t miss out.

You can support the Tough Girl mission to increase the amount of female role models in the media - especially in relation to adventure and physical challenge by signing up as a patron. www.patreon.com/toughgirlpodcast. Thank you.

Show Notes

Who is India?

Living in Kent with her partner and daughter

Her love of the sea

Working as a SUP and Yoga teacher

Being an Outdoor Advocate and being passionate about the outdoors

Having a very outdoorsy childhood

Her podcast - 'Start a Ripple ...' which celebrates the power of moving in nature for the mind, body and environment.

Wishing she learnt how to surf when she was younger

Memories of playing in the waves

Going to college and studying dance, before moving to London

Dealing with anxiety and getting into yoga for the breathing

Feeling the benefits and knowing that she wanted to teach it

Doing the 200hr teaching training inThailand

Doing a SUP/Yoga Teacher Training Course

Doing a refresher water safety course

What can people expect from a SUP/Yoga class

The benefits of moving in nature and wanting to share it with others

The ripple effect of spending time in nature

Deciding to start the podcast and being on it’s 5th Series

Pregnancy and being active and spending time outdoors

Dealing with Postnatel Anxiety

Self care tips for new mums during stressful times of the year

Why comparison is the thief of joy

How her views of adventure have changed since having a baby

Dealing with a change in her identify and how she viewed herself

The challenges of going back to work after maternity leave

Taking her daughter on adventures

Future plans for 2023

Armchair Adventure Festival 2023 (Use TG10 to get a 10% discount)

How to connect with India

Final words of advice for new mums and parents

Social Media

Website: www.finandflow.co.uk

Instagram @with_india

The Start a Ripple podcast was founded on the belief that ripples are made when we connect movement with nature, not only for our mind and body, but also the environment too. Every episode India speaks to a guest who shares their story and approach to moving in nature, with the hope that these conversations will encourage you to get outside, move, dream big, and start making your own ripples.

Listen here - https://www.buzzsprout.com/1718611

Check out this episode!

#podcast #women #sports #health #motivation #challenges #change #adventure #active #wellness #explore #grow #support #encourage #running #swimming #triathlon #exercise #weights

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sneakymalou · 3 years

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Rf5 👸🏼🧝🏼‍♂🧚🏼‍♀

I know the game should be released early 2022, but I just CAN’T WAIT !! ❤ All trailers gives me more and more impatience 😋 I’m sure I’m gonna love it ! I already know the first male my oc will date tee-hee ! 🤭❤

(Screen by me)

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jaigeye · 2 years

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👊👪☕️🙈🙊🙉 for roon and blight !!! <3

OC asks! (accepting)

GENERAL ROON TEANA

👊 PUNCH - are they quick to violence?

when roon is violent, it is effortless. smooth, clean, neat, like an experienced butcher with no hesitation. she's not a messy killer. she stands tall, poised and formal. she's not quick to it because it doesn't usually make it that close to her. she and her men are the shield more than they are the sword, a last line of defense. besides- she doesn't really consider killing droids a form of violence.

👪 FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

her mother is Tuktee and her father is Malou, surname Laamuan. Roon's surname, Teana, is a ceremonial surname given to her before she was taken by the Jedi; it's a Togruti word that means justice through fire.

Roon was raised in a small mountain village on Shili called Vuren, the population of which moved to high ground to better hide from slavers and other planetary crises. in Vuren, families know the signs to anticipate when a child is force-sensitive; there are cultural practices around the taking of Jedi children. it's a cultural opinion in their force religion that refusing the jedi is wrong, so most families, when they see the signs that their child is force sensitive, begin this process of distancing. It is both to numb their own and the child's pain when they are separated. the village raises the children, a shared effort of care and love, but it is distant and disconnected love. the kids are sort of put on a pedestal, dressed in ceremonial clothing, and expected to have poise and impress the Jedi who come to take them.

Malou, her father, didnt want them to take roon away, but Tuktee came from a family of force sensitives and was herself not force sensitive; Tuktee felt like she had something to prove to her family and people, to prove the daughters of their family could still make Shili proud.

Roon has a younger sister named Mau who she never met. Mau Laamuan was not force sensitive, and she only knows her sister as a distant legend.

☕️ HOT BEVERAGE - do they prefer hot or cold drinks? what is their favourite drink?

roon loves expensive, rare teas. it is her sole indulgence in life and she goes to great efforts to acquire them with what little finances she has available to her. she prefers warm drinks.

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

Most of Roon's interior life is a secret to other people. She wants to be known only as a dogmatic Jedi with a true conviction and loyalty to the Force and the Order. She doesn't want people to know any of her vulnerabilities. She doesn't want people to know that the first time she saw something die, she cried.

🙊 SPEAK-NO-EVIL - what is something your oc will refuse to stay quiet about?

Roon loves getting into theological debates about the cosmic vs living force. She is staunchly against other Jedi's more radical ideas about the Force and is against large structural change in the Order. She's a vocal opponent to new policies. Also, she knows a lot about botany, and will not shut up about it if the topic is brought up.

🙉 HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worst thing your oc could hear from someone?

That someone loves her.

ARC TROOPER BLIGHT

👊 PUNCH - are they quick to violence?

Sometimes, yes. Blight isn't a violent person just for the sake of it- he's not showing off or trying to act better than anyone else, and he's not unnecessarily cruel or aggressive. but violence is, as a soldier, as a clone, one of the only ways he can express himself. He only has so much power. Most of it is in his hands.

👪 FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

He has six million, two-hundred thousand brothers, sisters, and siblings, and yet Blight is an exceptionally lonely man. He loves his brothers so much that it hurts to lose them. After a while, he numbs it with blunt distance. He can't keep shinies close. Every dead clone is like an amputation.

☕️ HOT BEVERAGE - do they prefer hot or cold drinks? what is their favourite drink?

He likes a nice cold drink just as much as any man living a life like his, but he does think his lover makes some exceptionally good coffee. It's nice to sit quietly with something warm in your hands and know it was made just for you.

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

The tenderness he's capable of, and all the raw pain he's spent years trying to subdue. He doesn't show Jedi how funny he is, either, that he has his joyful moments.

🙊 SPEAK-NO-EVIL - what is something your oc will refuse to stay quiet about?

Any opinion. Blight is hard-headed and openly opinionated. He's going to die sometime, one way or another. If something he says costs him his life, at least he lived truthfully, as his honest self, bold to the end.

#ask games #roon teana #arc trooper blight #they are so sad god bless #thank u for asking me omg!!!!!!#the 400th

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cadetcama · 3 years

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“In any case, Kourtney, do you have something against EJ and Ricky?”

Malou snapped her fingers once more and on screen were pictures of Ricky as the Beast and EJ as Gaston.

“I cannot believe that you okay-ed their makeup,” Malou snickered. “I can understand Ricky’s makeup, as he’s literally the beast, and him as Prince Adam, only enhanced his appearance,” Malous gestured at Gaston’s picture. “This, girl, I cannot believe you approved of this.”

“What’s wrong with the makeup?” EJ couldn’t help but ask.

“Of course, typical boy,” Malou sighed. “To be frank, Ethan James, you look like someone drew on your face while you were asleep, the eyebrows and sideburns literally look like they were just drawn on there.”

“Hey!” Kourtney protested.

“Girl, EJ Caswell is literally Gaston, minus the huge bulging muscles, but he’s pretty muscular himself.”

EJ couldn’t help but flex his biceps and show off, up until Ashlyn slapped his back to make him stop.

“In fact, I cannot take you seriously while you are in Gaston’s costume, Ethan James.”

Malou snapped her fingers and suddenly his costume changed to that of a toga, like the one young Hercules wore before his training with Phil the Satyr.

lol oblivious EJ is my favorite EJ. He tries, but... he just doesn't quite get it! And shoutout to Malou for speaking the truth.

#i know it isnt actually Malou but idk what to call the entity #cama rants

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thinkingthingsthrough · 4 years

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Lukas Romson, one of the country’s leading trans activists, is prepared for the worst. “There will be no serious trans activists in the show, because none of us trusts Malou at all,” he says. “I’m afraid she’ll just use us.”

But the fact that a mainstream programme is devoting so much time to the issue demonstrates just how much the debate has shifted in Sweden over the past year. “It’s been a very big change and very sudden,” Romson adds. “Everyone – but especially young people – feels worse because of what they perceive as the media’s hatred of them.”

The immediate trigger for Von Sivers’s themed week is a report from Sweden’s Board of Health and Welfare which confirmed a 1,500% rise between 2008 and 2018 in gender dysphoria diagnoses among 13- to 17-year-olds born as girls .

But it also reflects a rapid change in public opinion. Just a year ago, there seemed few official obstacles left in the way of young people who wanted gender reassignment treatment.

In the autumn of 2018, the Social Democrat-led government, under pressure from the gay, lesbian and transgender group RFSL, proposed a new law which would reduce the minimum age for sex reassignment medical care from 18 to 15, remove all need for parental consent, and allow children as young as 12 to change their legal gender.

Then in March last year, the backlash started. Christopher Gillberg, a psychiatrist at Gothenburg’s Sahlgrenska Academy, wrote an article in the Svenska Dagbladet newspaper warning that hormone treatment and surgery on children was “a big experiment” which risked becoming one of the country’s worst medical scandals.

In April, Uppdrag Granskning, an investigative TV programme, followed up with a documentary profiling a former trans man, Sametti, who regretted her irreversible treatment.

In October, the programme turned its fire on the team at Stockholm’s Karolinska University hospital, which specialises in treating minors with gender dysphoria. The unit has been criticised for carrying out double mastectomies on children as young as 14, and accused of rushing through treatment and failing to consider adequately whether patients’ other psychiatric or developmental issues might better explain their unhappiness with their bodies. The Karolinska disputed the claim, saying it carefully assessed each case.

At the same time, Filter magazine profiled the case of Jennifer Ring, a 32-year-old trans woman who hanged herself four years after her surgery. An expert on psychosis who was shown her medical journal by her father, Avi Ring, was quoted as saying that she had shown clear signs of psychosis at the time she first sought treatment for gender dysphoria.

Indeed, the first clinic she approached refused to treat her, citing signs of schizotypal symptoms and lack of a history of gender dysphoria. But the team at Karolinska went ahead. “Karolinska don’t stop anyone; virtually 100% get sex reassignment,” says Ring.

Sweden’s authorities are starting to respond. Shortly before the bill that would have lowered the sex reassignment minimum age was due to be debated in parliament in September, it was shelved, and the Board of Health and Welfare was ordered to reassess the evidence. Its report is due on 31 March.

After being interviewed on Uppdrag Granskning, Sweden’s health minister, Lena Hallengren, asked the programme to include a text addendum to remind viewers that it had been her predecessor, and not her, who had drafted the controversial law.

On 20 December, the Swedish Agency for Health Technology Assessment, which the government had asked to review the scientific research into the recent surge in teenagers reporting gender dysphoria, reported that there was very little research either into the reason for the increase or the risks or benefits of hormone treatment and surgery.

For Romson this is a worrying turn of events. He blames Gender Identity Challenge Scandinavia (Genid), a parents’ group set up by Ring, a retired professor of neurophysiology, the Swedish toxicologist Karin Svens and the Norwegian teacher Marit Rønstad, for the change in the debate, contrasting these “so-called parents” with “real parents” who affirm their children’s chosen identities. Svens was the only Swedish parent to speak openly on Uppdrag Granskning about how her trans son announced he was a boy when he was 17, started going to Karolinska’s adult clinic when he turned 18, and now identifies as male. When asked about Jennifer Ring, he says that friends of hers have told him she found it difficult that her family were unwilling to accept her as a trans woman.

“When I started questioning this some years ago, I thought I was alone,” says Svens. “They tried to scare me by repeatedly implying that there is a high risk of suicide, especially if the parents don’t agree. Now more and more parents have found the courage to question what the doctors say.”

The recent report from the Board of Health and Welfare also found that 32.4 percent of 13 to 17-year-olds with gender dysphoria registered at birth as women also had diagnoses for anxiety disorder, 28.9 percent had depression, 19.4 percent had ADHD, and 15.2 percent had autism.

Trans people often explain the higher levels of depression and anxiety by pointing to the difficult experience living in a body that clashes with their gender identity, particularly when many in society, often including parents and friends, do not accept their identity.

One of the most surprising changes has been the growing divisions between trans activists. While Romson warns that children will have even more anxiety because of the change in the debate, Aleksa Lundberg, a trans woman and longstanding activist, is backing the call for more research.

Last October she apologised for not having been sufficiently open about the depression she had felt after her operation. “I would probably not undergo corrective surgery if I had the same choice today,” she wrote. “And I want to apologise to those who perhaps needed to hear that story earlier.”

*the bold is my emphasis, not the original source*

anyways this is so so fucked. how did we get to a place where literal children, many of whom have co-morbid mental health issues, are being given under-researched medication (with life-long effects) and even surgery!

i just can’t get over the thought of the removal of the healthy breasts of a FOURTEEN YEAR OLD GIRL. this is truly awful stuff and my heart aches for these kids and to some extent, the parents too. there is way too little information made available to them and way too much pressure to just affirm affirm affirm with the hidden (or explicit) or else. affirm or else you’re a bad parent, you’re a bigot, your child will suffer, your child will commit suicide. under those conditions, it’s easy to see how many just go along with it.

these irresponsible clinics will have TONS of lawsuits on the way in the next few years. but so much damage will already have been done.

#this shit makes me so so so sad man #im basically a kid myself but im so glad i was born just a few years earlier #bc if i was going through puberty now instead of 8-10 yrs ago? shit who knows what would have happened tbh

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kuronatcher · 4 years

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So ... I have collected a few things for my OC for the ahit "Coffee Shop" Au:

- Malou really likes the Snatcher Memes from the Snults. After daring to speak to the teenagers, she's always happy to meet the Snults and talk to them about their nightly activities. Some of the children have also tried to take Malou to the meeting, but Malou always evades this suggestion.

- Little by little she noticed the pictures that were put up in the coffee shop and then shyly asked MJ. "Oh? Do you like them? I made them myself!" "Oh, really? They are beautiful" "Thanks! Are you interested in art?" MJ asked excitedly. Malou looked a little nervously to the side. "Yes. I drew the background images on the film set. Since I've been working in the bar... I've always have a sketchbook with me..." Since then, MJ and Malou have been artist friends and exchange ideas about everything. (Post/Post)

- After Connie surprisingly meets DJ grooves, the two talk about the old days for a while. Connie: "Shouldn't you have to slowly get behind the counter? You've been sitting here a little too long!" DJ: "Don't worry. Malou Darling has everything under control." meanwhile the young woman comes by behind the counter. "Oh! Hello Mr. Conductor! Haven't seen you in a while!" Connie waves back and then looks back at DJ. "She stayed with you?" "Yep. When I said I wanted to retire, she said she wanted to stay. She liked it too much here in Subcon and didn't want to leave because for new work. Besides... She grew up in the circus, then Got around a lot until she landed here and then helped a lot on the set. Working in a bar is a nice change for her. " (Post/Post)

AHiT “Coffee Shop” Au belongs to @doodledrawsthings

#ahit 'coffee shop au'#ahit #a hat in time #ahit oc #a hat in time oc #dj grooves #the conductor #moonjumper #snatcher

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lastsonlost · 4 years

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For several days this week the veteran Swedish journalist Malou von Sivers will cover the same topic in every episode of her nightly TV chat show: the extraordinary rise in diagnoses of gender dysphoria among teenage girls.Lukas Romson, one of the country’s leading trans activists, is prepared for the worst. “There will be no serious trans activists in the show, because none of us trusts Malou at all,” he says. “I’m afraid she’ll just use us.”But the fact that a mainstream programme is devoting so much time to the issue demonstrates just how much the debate has shifted in Sweden over the past year. “It’s been a very big change and very sudden,” Romson adds. “Everyone – but especially young people – feels worse because of what they perceive as the media’s hatred of them.”

But it also reflects a rapid change in public opinion. Just a year ago, there seemed few official obstacles left in the way of young people who wanted gender reassignment treatment.

In April, Uppdrag Granskning, an investigative TV programme, followed up with a documentary profiling a former trans man, Sametti, who regretted her irreversible treatment.

For Romson this is a worrying turn of events. He blames Gender Identity Challenge Scandinavia (Genid), a parents’ group set up by Ring, a retired professor of neurophysiology, the Swedish toxicologist Karin Svens and the Norwegian teacher Marit Rønstad, for the change in the debate, contrasting these “so-called concerned parents” with “real parents” who affirm their children’s chosen identities. Svens was the only Swedish parent to speak openly on Uppdrag Granskning about how her trans son announced he was a boy when he was 17, started going to Karolinska’s adult clinic when he turned 18, and now identifies as male. When asked about Jennifer Ring, he says that friends of hers have told him she found it difficult that her family were unwilling to accept her as a trans woman.

#transgender #sweden #europe #world news #society

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hollowlegend · 4 years

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IzuOcha Week 2020 day 1

Our flight over from Japan to Hawaii wasn't as long as I was expecting, only 8 hours in total. After we got off the plane, Ochako’s parents were ecstatic to finally be here. It's hard getting any time off when you are The Symbol of Heroism itself. Ochako and I have been dating since our third year at UA high and got together when the Meta Liberation Army attacked UA and I saved her life knowing that if she died I couldn't go on. That was five years ago and I haven't told her the true meaning to our little vacation. As far as she's aware we are bringing her parents here to spend 3 months in a five star resort on the main island. Not to flex on anyone or seem ungrateful but when you're a top ten hero let alone the number one pro hero, money isn't an object anymore. I don't do my job for it's ridiculous 12 digit salary, I do it because it is the right thing to do. The real reason I brought Ochako’s family here, including her of course, is to propose to Ochako.

Once collecting our bags from the baggage claim we make our way to the rental car center and then freak out slightly because they don't drive on the same side of the road as we do in Japan. Once collecting our car from the rental office we leave the airport destined for the main resort on the Island. King Kamehameha’s Palace resort, sounds like something out of dragon ball but apparently he was an actual person. Unlike the resort because the Author couldn't be bothered to look up a resort in Hawaii and is now having me break the fourth wall to let you all know that it's fake as far as he is aware, and seriously stop with the comments about fixing the wall I'm just going to break it again because the Author wants me to. Anyways, the resort is absolutely massive and when we arrive both Ochako's Mother, Tousa, and my brunette lover herself, pass out from seeing the lavish building that looks like it's made of gold. We get separate rooms and make our way to the east penthouse suite and Ochako’s parents are in the west one.

“I can't believe it Izuku! This is amazing! Everything is so nice! The soap looks like it costs 10,000,000 yen to hold! And the bed feels so soft! We need a bed like this in the house!” Ochako exclaims as she sets down her toiletry bag and flops on the massive bed. I smile at her reaction before unpacking my bag and putting it in the drawers by my side of the bed.

“You say that but most nights you end up sleeping curled around me like our little Mochi and Udon. Speaking of, do you think they will be fine staying with Eri and my mom? She already has 5 cats so the two rowdy kittens might be a little bit of trouble.” I respond thinking of our twin tuxedo kittens whose coats are the inverse of the other. One being black on most of her belly aside from her stomach and her brother being the opposite.

“Eri will probably be snuggling with them all day. For cats those two are surprisingly lazy. Izuku… I never got to thank you for everything. Saving my life, going out of your way to raise my self esteem, training with me when you unlocked float, everything you've done with me or for me.” She says hugging me and laying her head on my chest. I rub my arm along her shoulder and kiss the top of her head.

“You don't need to thank me Ochako, everything I did, I did for you because it is the right thing to do. Out of everyone that I have saved during my hero career, you were the first one in real danger when no one else was going to help. Kacchan doesn't count since All Might was the one who dealt with the villain after I ran in there attempting to free him. Always remember you were the first I saved, and the first and last I will love. There will be no one else except for you my sweet mochi.” I respond pinching her chubby cheeks slightly which causes her to pout adorably in response.

“What time is it Izuku?” She asks as I pull my other arm around her and look at the time.

“Well we need to get ready because we are going to a Luau soon. Which one did you want to do?” I ask as she breaks our little embrace and walks over to the desk where she put the brochure.

“Hmm… I don't want to go to the whole scripted one that the hotel is holding all that much. Sure it is fun but we don't get to meet anyone local who enjoys themself instead of working. Let's go to Germain’s luau instead of the King Kamehameha one that one kinda sounds lame.” She says causing me to laugh to myself a little bit.

“I'll text Maruki and let him know which one we are doing. Now How about we go see what that 360 degree shower is all about shall we?” I say causing her to blush as I pick her up bridal style and we head into our bathroom to get ready.

After getting ready and making our way down stairs we meet Ochako’s parents on the way to the bottom floor. Once down there we head to the parking lot and await the arrival of the bus taking us to the luau. As we were waiting, I told Maruki of what I had planned for this evening to which he gives me a look I have never seen before in anyone, even my father All Might had never literally glowed with excitement at what I had said. Once the initial shock wore off he slapped me on the back and said that he better have grandkids very soon. Not long after the bus arrived and we along with several other people including a rather fluffy hisapnic man wearing a hawaiian shirt got on the bus. We sat towards the middle and talked amongst the other passengers including that fellow who is very very funny. Soon the man hosting the party gets on the intercom and addresses us.

“Hel- turn that down bro. Ehem Hello everybody. Welcome to Germain’s luau my name is Rino and you can call me cousin Rino just don't ask for any money y’know what i'm sayin’.” He says in english and I translate to Ochako and her parents, I learned it from Dad-Might and David Shield. “Now do you all have any questions?”

Several other passengers started asking questions about the weather and if and or when we would get anything to eat. He responded in a way I wasn't quite expecting which caused me to laugh a little bit. Soon he takes a seat next to the driver and we exit from the resort and head towards the Luau. As we were driving through the tropical island we admired the view from the windows as Ochako and her mother gabbed on about our homelife and why we haven't bought a massive estate like most heroes own. She goes on to tell her mother that most of my money I give to charity and keep more than enough in savings incase we get sick of our apartment or if we are going to have a baby and need another room. Eri would be ecstatic if we were having a son or daughter. Though she's only 11 right now I can definitely tell that she not only will be an amazing hero but end up getting married to Kota by the way the act around each other. We arrived at a private beach with a gazebo of palm tree leaves strung with lights with tables and an open bar nearby. It took us quote ‘Hawaiian time’ to arrive at this private beach and all being said it was very nice for a small venue.

We got off the bus and made our way around the tables and chairs before getting served our dinner by a massive barbeque pit behind the bar. Along the beach there is flaming limbo, a flaming coal walk and fire spinners. For some reason they really really like fire. Ochako’s mother and father order a tropical hard drink in a coconut and I notice that Ochako turned down the chance to drink the alcoholic beverage they were serving. She's always been a lightweight when it comes to drinking and doesn't do it too often so it didn't surprise me all that much. As we make small talk the event starts and one by one people start doing the various activities they have planned here. Some people trying the limbo, others watching the fire twirlers and fire breathers while others took turns walking across the coals. Ochako’s parents did every single activity there was at this event. When Ochako leaves to use the bathroom I walk over to the DJ and hand him 20$ saying that I need to make an announcement and to let me use the mic. He agrees and says that he doesn't need the twenty so I put it back in my pocket and simply thank him as well as hand him an autograph for his son. After Ochako comes back from the bathroom Germain in the booth gather’s everyone’s attention.

“I hope you guys have been having a good time but this Malou here has an announcement to make. Take it away Deku.” He says handing me the mic and causing several people to gasp and take out their phones to record and take pictures of me.

“Thanks Germain, Now the first person I saved before becoming a hero is here tonight enjoying this Luau. Will the number 5 hero Uravity come up here please? I have a very important question to ask you.” I say and I can visibly see Ochako’s eyes widen to the size of grapefruits after registering what I had said. “Everyone here knows we have always been a couple from Day 1 of our hero career. They know that we've dated for a long time and I think it's finally time to tie the knot.” I say before getting down on one knee and pulling out a gold ring with a paragon pink diamond as the centerpiece. “My hero, My best friend and My love Ochako Uravity Uraraka, Will you make me the happiest hero alive and marry me?” I ask trying to keep my composure and not stutter.

“Y-YES IZUKU!!!! I WILL MARRY YOU!!!” She shouts before tackling me into the sand and peppering my face in kisses repeatedly. Everyone in the audience claps seeing this and cheers as we kiss each other for the first time as an engaged couple. I slip the ring on her finger before She herself goes over and grabs the mic from the sand.

“Izuku there's also an important thing I need to tell you. My number one hero and soon to be husband… I'm pregnant.” She says then I immediately pass out.

#IzuOcha #IzuOcha week #IzuOcha week2020

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astormlikethis-remaking · 5 years

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My opinion of the songs of Melodifestivalen 2019 🇸🇪

Starts with my least favorite songs and ends with my favorites

BTW I’m from the United States!!

28 Rebecka Karlsson – “Who I Am” Result: Andra Chansen

This song doesn’t leave an impression on me at all. It’s boring and sounds like I’ve heard it before.

27 Andreas Johnson – “Army of Us” Result: Andra Chansen

This is also a kinda boring and “been done before” entry, very Coldplay or Avicii as many have said. I don’t have anything else to say lol

26 Hanna Ferm & LIAMOO – “Hold You” Result: Finalist

This song is so cheesy and weak, like Running Scared 2.0... I am not getting the hype at all, Sweden has many much better songs to pick from.

25 Nano - “Chasing Rivers” Result: Andra Chansen

This could be a really strong entry but it’s really bad vocally. The mumble singing really doesn’t work with this song and I hope he fixes that if he wants a chance at getting into the final!

24 Dolly Style – “Habibi” Result: Eliminated

The song is fine but the last group I would have expected to try and rip off Arabic pop vibes in their song was definitely Dolly Style. I just don’t think any of this works. It’s reminiscent of Germany 2016 where Jamie Lee was singing that sad ballad while dressed as some kind of anime character. Like what the hell is going on? It’s just too much

23 Margaret – “Tempo” Result: Eliminated

I was surprised this didn’t even make AC, but it didn’t deserve to in my opinion. I’m not really a big fan of Margaret’s entries in Melfest and I’m still not sure why she competes in Melfest instead of representing Poland

22 Jan Malmsjö – “Leva livet” Result: Eliminated

I’m not really a huge fan of this song but like, he’s 86 years old and he absolutely still has star power, so I’m happy for him. I don’t speak enough Swedish to understand the song but it’s pretty interesting and charming nonetheless.

21 Zeana feat. Anis Don Demina – “Mina bränder” Result: Eliminated

This song is incoherent and all over the place so I get why it was eliminated. Zeana’s voice is too breathy for the fast paced lyrics.

20 Bishara – “On My Own” Result: Finalist

His vocal performance is good but I don’t really like the song. It’s just not for me. It’s very JESC-like but has mature lyrics about relationship problems which is strange to me.

19 The Lovers of Valdaro – “Somebody Wants” Result: Eliminated

It’s an ok song but I think this song would sound better if they didn’t use falsetto and if it weren’t so repetitive. Their musical style otherwise has a lot of potential so maybe they could come back with something stronger?

18 High15 – “No Drama” Result: Eliminated

The music is very boppy and memorable but it’s like “ummmm” that this is a song about "drinking your problems away” (alcoholism) and these girls are 15-16 years old... maybe if they were older or if the lyrics were different it would be likeable? I dunno

17 Vlad Reiser – “Nakna i regnet” Result: Andra Chansen

This is a decent song, I don’t think it will get out of AC though lol.

16 Ann-Louise Hanson – “Kärleken finns kvar” Result: Eliminated

This song is very soft and warm. It isn’t as strong as the others but it was very heartfelt.

15 Arja Saijonmaa – “Mina fyra årstider” Result: Eliminated

This song is very sweet and gentle with a lovely message. It’s very sad that so many older artists in Sweden take an interest in Melfest but never stand a chance against youthful pop songs.

14 Martin Stenmarck – “Låt skiten brinna” Result: Andra Chansen

This is pretty good. I don’t really have anything else to say.

13 Anton Hagman – “Känner dig” Result: Eliminated

I personally really like this song but the staging was weird and it wasn’t really a standout. I get why it didn’t go anywhere

12 Omar Rudberg – “Om om och om igen” Result: Eliminated

Another song that would’ve maybe fared better if it lost the falsetto. I love how modern it is and that it has lines in Spanish though. Very boppy.

11 Oscar Enestad – “I Love It” Result: Eliminated

Ok this was robbed!!! I think maybe having a staging with a light up prop was too similar to Dance You Off last year. I thought it was really good either way.

10 Arvingarna – “I Do” Result: Andra Chansen

I was pretty excited when I heard Arvingarna would be back, because Eloise was a great entry and I wondered how their music has evolved since like 25 years ago. So this song is pretty good, not the strongest in Melfest this year but a nice and catchy song that I really like.

9 Mohombi – “Hello” Result: Finalist

This song is cute and performed really well!! I’d be ok with it winning Melfest

8 Lina Hedlund – “Victorious” Result: Finalist

I’m so glad Sweden didn’t sleep on this, because it is fantastic! The staging is so smart and Lina sounds awesome.

7 Pagan Fury – “Stormbringer” Result: Eliminated

This was different and absolutely EPIC and Sweden completely robbed it... I don’t even know what to say!

6 Lisa Ajax – “Torn” Result: Andra Chansen

This is good!! I think it’s too similar to Wiktoria’s song though, and Wiktoria’s is better.

5 Anna Bergendahl - “Ashes to Ashes” Result: Andra Chansen

This song is pretty, and I love the staging. Her vocals are great and confident. This is a lot better than her 2010 entry. I hope she will qualify from AC too.

4 Malou Prytz – “I Do Me” Result: Finalist

This song is really cute and danceable. I hope it does well!!

3 John Lundvik – “Too Late For Love” Result: Finalist

Another great song from John Lundvik! I love how this combines the feel of a ballad with an upbeat bridge and chorus. It’s great, and is another song I’d like to see win!!

2 Wiktoria – “Not With Me” Result: Finalist

This. Is. Stunning!!!!! She absolutely deserves to win Melfest this year!! A simply beautiful and emotional song and performance!!

1 Jon Henrik Fjällgren – “Norrsken” Result: Finalist

Everything about this entry is perfection to me. His voice and the scenery are so beautiful. This really deserves to win Melfest too. <3 Jon Henrik deserved to win Melfest in every year he’s participated so far and that’s the tea

Thanks for reading!!

#melodifestivalen 2019 #ahlly'yoop #melfest 2019

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lxveandthunder · 6 months

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hiii i haven’t properly posted on here in soooo long!! i just wanna say i'm still here and i self ship HARDER than ever, so with that said i'm gonna get back to posting and be way more active and personal than before. also i might have multiple f/os now 👀 (which is a first but i'm not holding myself back anymore) i'm gonna posted my uppdated f/o list soon <3

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drawing-way-outside-the-lines · 1 year

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➖ Mature content, 18+ ➖ check the trigger tags each time ➖

Chapter 43c - The silent dance of us.

Episode 1.

Raven: Often when humans start to date, well to be fair, it sometimes happens to some of us demons too, they… we… get insecure. My friend Malou had started dating her friend, Dalton, whom she had lived with for quite a while. It had been the usual dance, getting to know someone new on a deeper, more personal level. The dance of, will they like me, accept me, for who I am, with all my flaws and most well-kept secrets? Will they think I'm weird, that something about me is a deal-breaker? Will they find me too much? Too little? Too human? The silent dance of trying not to spend a weird amount of time in the toilet. To remember to hold onto some sort of illusion that you are magic, while simultaneously prevent them from seeing you are just as gross as everyone else. The silent dance of stepping carefully, choosing your words carefully. Carefully choosing your outfits, showering more, brushing teeth more. The silent dance of new kisses, new touches, new romance. The silent dance of us.

Malou: Who are you talking to?

Raven: Hm? he looked at her as if he didn't understand the question, or perhaps had overheard her

Malou: She looked around the small kitchen, clearly no one was around but her and himself It sounded like you were talking to someone?

Raven: He smirked secretive

Malou: She frowned suspiciously

Raven: I was talking with myself, nothing for you to worry your pretty head about.

Malou: She rolled her eyes, not fully buying his mischievous answer, and he couldn't blame her What are you doing here anyway? Shouldn't you be in bed with one of your boyfriends… or husband?

Raven: Adrian had an early customer. Last day before New Years, it was a last minute thing of some sort, I didn't care to hang around and listen to him rambling about it any longer he chuckled softly and sipped his coffee shouldn't YOU be in bed with YOUR boyfriend?

Malou: She sighed dramatically, then smirked and shook her head, slowly walking to grab the mug of tea Raven had already made ready for her, sipping it slowly before answering in a warm tone we both know you have already stalked around here enough to know he's out to buy breakfast.

Raven: He smirked a bit wider as he quoted Dalton in a thick London accent 'If I go now, I can make it to the bakery, while the pastries are still warm'

Malou: She laughed loudly He does NOT speak like that!

Raven: He chuckled soft and sipped his coffee Why haven't you guys had sex again?

Malou: She sighed soft and shook her head How much exactly are you stalking around here?

Raven: He chuckled secretive

Malou: …….. she sighed again well, you know why…

Raven: He forced a compassionate smile Malou… he loves you… he's not going to care about the fact that you have some flaws, so does he.

Malou: …. yeah…. but…. she frowned soft haemorrhoids… she sighed deep it doesn't exactly invite to romance…

Raven: It shouldn't kill it either.

Malou: She grunted soft and sipped her tea, jumping up to sit on the kitchen counter next to Raven No… I know you're right. But it's not sexy… and how the fuck do I even bring up the subject… oh hey, Dalton, I want you all the fucking time, yet you keep noticing I pull away from you… it's just that there's yet another downside to my IBS… which means that I have constant haemorrhoids cause I spend too long time in the toilet, cause I can't shit like a normal human being she sighed deep it's actually not gross as most people seem to think, it's sorta just little pockets of blood. But sometimes they grow if it has been an even harder time in the toilet. Sometimes they hurt. And sometimes they bleed a lot. But mostly I don't really feel them, I just know they are there. Yes I could get them removed, but they come due to my IBS, so it most likely wouldn't take long before they would come back. So what's the point of going through a painful operation? She paused with a deep sigh how do I tell someone so perfect, that I'm not?

Raven: Dalton is far from perfect, although I get what you mean… but I'm sure he has at least a couple insecurities about his own body

Malou: She shrugged lightly I literally don't care about stuff like that… I love all of him

Raven: He smiled softly I know. But is it possible he already feel the same about you, or could? He smiled more encouraging Dalton is pretty down to earth, and in general doesn't seem to be someone who gets hung up in too many details when it comes to appearance. I'm pretty sure you're worrying about nothing, and by doing so, create a lot of none issues for you to worry about. I really think it would be best if you have that talk with him. If he can't accept you for who you are, flaws and all… specially medical flaws… well, then he doesn't deserve you anyway. You're worth gold, Malou, even if you tend to forget it yourself. And yes, also with haemorrhoids and IBS. It doesn't take away your value that you spend a little extra time in the toilet. Or have a couple of beauty flaws that sometimes bleed, hurt or swell. It's simply bodily functions, it's part of being human, and it's a condition you can't do much about. If anything you should be met with understanding and support, rather than judgment. And I honestly think Dalton would provide that.

Malou: She sighed deep I… she sighed again I want to tell him… well no… actually I don't… but I have to you know… and I suppose in some ways I do wanna tell him… you know… build a bridge and get over it… and all that. But it's hard… I'm scared.

Raven: I get that, I really do he smiled soft and reached for her shoulder, stroking it lightly but fear is not the way forward.

Malou: She sighed soft and nodded, sipping her tea slowly …. I know. She paused a little, before she turned to look at him with a soft smile Sometimes I think it would be easier to simply date you.

Raven: He chuckled soft I'm definitely not the one to point fingers at other people's flaws. I used to fuck baby skulls and eat priest guts for breakfast he smirked

Malou: Christ! She rolled her eyes and chuckled into her tea, as she took a sip

Raven: Nah… quite the opposite of Christ he grinned cheekily

Malou: She chuckled soft and pointed her tongue at him, then flinched as she heard the front door open

Dalton: Humming in the hallway

Malou: Get out of here before he sees you! She shoo'ed Raven with her hands and a soft chuckle

Raven: He smirked teasingly I'll leave when you agree to talk to him

Malou: Christ!

Raven: He smirked wider we've been there…

Dalton: On his way towards the kitchen I got some chocolate milk as well, thought we could heat it

Raven: Grinning wider

Malou: I'll talk with him today! Just get out of here!

Raven: Promise?

Malou: YES! Now go!

Raven: He winked at her, then disappeared just as Dalton entered the kitchen Dalton: He looked around a bit confused Who are you talking to?

Malou: She blushed lightly … hm?

Dalton: He chuckled gently who were you talking to?

Malou: …. oh… just myself she quickly sipped her tea

#unicorntales #Raven McKinney #Brandubh McKinney #Malou Jensen #Dalton Red

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sneakymalou · 3 years

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Babies on RF5 😍👶🏼

Aren’t they super super cute ? What would you like : a boy or a girl ? 🥰

(Source)

Ps : I had no time to do requests today, but I’ll do several tomorrow so don’t hesitate to send all asks you want my sweeties ! 💋💙💚💛

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victorusolano · 3 years

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FYD

When she called him at the office, she would never give her name, even if he wasn't in or couldn't come to the telephone and she was asked to leave a message. When they asked her, as invariably they would, she said whatever name came to her mind at the moment-- Tina or Fannie or Malou. Unless he answered, of course, and then, happily she said, "It's me." And he knew it was she and spoke in lower tones, in the voice that was reserved for them, for her.

If she were really quick on that particular day, she made up last names and changed her voice a little, pitching it higher or lower or making it all soft and gooey and breathy. Or she might speak like a foreigner with an accent or haltingly, like she didn't know English. Be Carla Benitez or Sharon Stevenson. It was a game she grew adept at. Soon, almost without thinking, she could come up with names and last names, drawling intonations, even occupations, in case they ever asked. The one named Kathleen worked at a bank. She'd always loved that name. Chris was still a student at the university, and Serena Yu didn't work at all. She sang for a band at a bar. As she waited for him to come to the phone, holding the receiver with moist palms, she pictured the Chiqui or Aleli or Teeny or Cookie or Sarina or Kay she had dreamed up. The sleek hair, the curving bodies, the linen suits and high heels, the green eye-shadow and the mauve lipstick, the dimples or freckles or the tiny beauty mark on the corner of her mouth. All real women.

At a certain point, she knew she could use her own voice, perhaps even her own name, and it would not matter. No one would ever know it was her because even if they wanted to, who could keep track of all the women calling him? After all that, she figured, nobody would care. Besides, it was exciting. To ask for him and in answer to "Who is this please?" say "Diana" or "Joy" or "Gretchen Castillo" and give whatever performance she was up to, later straining to hear how the person told him, what they said. The people at the office called him "chicker" now. She enjoyed that.

"Hello?" he always said into the receiver after the hooting and teasing in the background had faded. When she said hello, he always knew. "Why do you do that?" He asked her, once he was certain, of course, that she was not Eva or Marla or Teresa that he might have forgotten or not recognized. She could tell though that he wasn't sore or annoyed. In fact, she could hear the smile on his face, in his voice, and it made her smile as well.

"Because it's none of their business who calls you," she said laughing.

Once he asked her again. Afterwards, as they lay in each other's arms, as she warmed her cheek on his neck, he said, "But why do you do that?"

"Hmmm?" she said.

"Why all these names? Who are Candy and Victoria and Felice? Why not just say who you are?"

She raised herself on her elbow, her face flushed and slightly swollen, and looked at him blankly. "Oh," she said. "I told you. It's fun. They seem to enjoy it. Besides, don't you like having them think that a lot of women call you?"

It was a joke. A friend, more his than hers (and possibly this was the reason she did not like her much, though of course, he did not know it) said women called all the time.

"What's the matter? Does it really bother you that the people at your office think you're a ladies' man? Doesn't it make you feel good?" she asked.

He smiled.

"So I make you feel good?"

He didn't answer. Sensing she was being figured out, yet another thing that grated on her nerves, she turned away, sliding her arm out from beneath him so quickly that her skin burned on the sheets. Facing the wall, she buried both her hands under the pillow, beneath her cheek.

"Hey," he turned her back to face him but she resisted. "Hey, it's funny, that's all. You're funny." He kissed her and she unclenched her fists and relaxed, allowing herself to be pulled close to him. They did not talk again.

The last time she gave a false name at the office was when she called to make up for a fight they had, to apologize. She had lost her temper and given in to jealousy, resenting him for getting all awkward and uneasy just because they happened to sit a few feet away from his old girlfriend at lunch in a restaurant that day. He introduced them and they all said polite things to each other and then went on to have lunches at their respective tables. She was not even angry, not really, until after lunch in the car, he sighed with relief and remarked how glad he was the episode was over in too concerned a manner-- it seemed to her as though the incident mattered so much...

But even as she made her cutting remarks, even as she stomped out of the car and slammed it shut, she was already looking forward to the next time they would be together. How he would reassure her-- kiss everything away. How sweet it would be to be sweet with him again.

"Who should I say is calling, please?" the voice asked.

She paused. Later on, she thought back to this moment again and again and still she could not figure out what on earth made her say that. Why? Why not Wendy or Arlene? Margot dela Cruz or Angela Lazaro? She was not thinking. How unfortunate. It was simply the first name that came to her mind at that particular moment. Nothing more.

And there was no picture in her mind as she breathed anxiously. Waiting for him to come to the telephone, nothing came to her even when she heard the voice say, not without a teasing note. "There's a Beth on the line for you." No, she had been thinking about the words she say, how she was sorry, how she had been silly to feel so badly and how she loved him. She had been thinking that it was right to call him this way, in the morning. It was right to take just two minutes to make it better, so they would feel wonderful again and things could go back to the way they were.

"Hey," he said simply. "Hi there. I'm glad you called." She rushed to explain, to recite her speech, all the lines that were running in her head. Then she stopped, astonished.

"Hello? Hello?" he said. "Beth? Hi."

"No," she answered. "Not Beth."

"Oh," he said. "Oh, honey." He laughed.

She was silent.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I thought..." he broke off.

"No, it's alright. I'm sorry. It's my fault," she said. And then she began again.

He told her she didn't need to explain or be sorry. He understood about yesterday.

And she managed to say everything anyhow, in just the way she had planned to say it.

"I love you," he said, lowering his voice so no one else would hear it but her. But even as she said she loved him too, she wondered at the sound of his voice, and ached, because he never once said her name.

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