#many things abt this set

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever

#jrwi fanart #cw blood #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #arthur bennett #OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob: #BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay #i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY. #THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL #so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM.. #grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that #ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT #arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES #I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM. #I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no #ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE #BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much... #GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that #we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW #he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE.. #i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar #I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS #also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that #human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY #i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK #feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh

[becauseplot]

Penciled Lines

(Cross-posted on ao3, if you prefer to read it there. Reblogs still appreciated!)

Missa wakes up, and he thinks he might be doomed. This doesn’t scare him nearly as much as it should.

Missa is awake early—by his own metric, anyway. His nocturnal nature causes “early” for him to mean “early night” and not “early morning.” Regardless, “early” means that Philza is not asleep yet, still going through his nightly rituals. “Early” means that Philza is sitting up in (his? their?) the bed, pillows propped up behind him, notebook in his lap, sketching away.

And when Missa wakes up to the soft scritch-scratch of a charcoal pencil on textured paper, his forehead just so happens to be brushing Philza’s hip.

Missa can hardly breathe.

Oh no.

He knows that if he gives any indication that he is awake, Philza will stop sketching, close his notebook, shift himself over until he is politely seated on his side of the bed, and greet Missa with a friendly smile. Philza has done it before, when Missa wakes up early. That’s how Missa knows he’ll do it again.

Thus, Missa can hardly breathe—his breaths have to be the slow in-out of sleep. He can’t so much as twitch, either. He has to keep quiet and play dead or else he’ll be found out. Seen. Caught living the lie.

“Husband,” Philza calls him. They’re not married. They share a bed. They’re hardly ever in it at the same time. They have a son and a daughter. Neither of them know Missa very well. Philza has had an extra set of armor and a skull on his backpack for months, waiting for Missa. Missa doesn’t even know Philza’s last name.

Philza is a good man and a good friend—and Missa doesn't deserve him. Still, he takes what he can get. Curls around it. Hoarding every innocent kindness Philza extends like a starving creature: the generosity of a backpack fully stocked with equipment; the trust Philza places in Missa to watch the kids when he’s asleep; and now, the courtesy of not moving his hip from Missa’s forehead to ensure his “sleeping” isn’t disturbed. Missa clutches all of these little offerings in his greedy claws and hugs them into his chest, even as the guilt eats away at him.

Because, regardless of the lack of mutual feeling, he loves Philza. He loves him so, so much, and that is why he is doomed. He can’t afford to lose what little he has. He can’t cross that line. 

So Missa lies beside Philza, forehead pressed against Philza’s hip, pretending to sleep so he can imagine that they’re not just lying in bed together, but lying in bed, together; and later, when Missa truly wakes, he will sit on his side of the bed and look at Philza’s face soft with sleep and think about how lucky he is that he still has a side-of-the-bed to begin with.

Missa doesn’t mean to drift off. When it starts to happen, he’s hopelessly torn between shaking himself awake and thus giving himself away, or remaining how he is, silently fending off the inevitable. In the end, Missa clings to that scritch-scratch sound of Philza’s pencil on the paper for as long as he can before the fog at last pulls him under. 

Eventually, he dreams. In fact, he dreams of the calloused fingers he dreams of every night, hands like his own, an artist of Death, cradling and shading the contours of his face—a softness dashing charcoal across his jaw, and over his cheekbones, and perhaps on his lips, too, if he’s lucky. Defining every edge of him.

~*~

A deep sigh. Phil stops sketching as Missa shifts in his sleep. He tilts his head up so that the tip of his nose is now just nearly brushing against Phil’s hip. The motion disturbs the wild splay of his dark hair, revealing more of his face: eyelashes, cheeks, warmth. Tender blush of something Stygian and otherworldly. New.

Phil’s lips tilt upwards. He turns to a fresh page, and he starts again.

#qsmp #pissa #qsmpshipping #qsmp missa #qsmp philza #i hesitate to put main character tags bc it's shipping content but i think we're all p much okay with that?? we chill??? we chill thumbsup #my fics #ficlet #anyway would you believe me if i told you this took me a week to write. hhourgh. #i'll prolly make small edits as time goes by if i dont scrap this version entirely. #i really like it rn but we'll see how i feel abt it in like a couple hours or a day. the sheer number of times ive rewritten this hhhhh. #this little character/relationship study is primarily for me to try to work them out in my head. #so if this doesnt quite hit the exact vibe you know why. #im still getting acquainted w missa's character but i gotta start somewhere ya know #i didnt actually get to explore missa's feelings of inferiority as much as i wanted to but thats bc i found trying to tackle that As Well- #-as everything else saddled the fic/setting w too many Things and made it cumbersome and muddied the story being told. #so another time perhaps. #anyway i adore them. beloveds.

[sillyabtmusic]

♡ Keonhee in Oneus MVs ♡

#flashing #oneus #keonhee #lee keonhee #foroneus #kflops #malegroupsnet #usermairin #* my gifs #nkd.gif #oneus.gif #oneus.kh #so many things happened to me while making this set so im gonna ramble ok. you can ignore all this or not idc do what you want. #anyways some of these i am displeased with but couldn't fight anymore. some of these i am SO pleased with like. magnum opus pleased #i was gonna add all three oneus theatres but the crazy hot gif was kinda just. bad. it's a bad video to gif. & i eliminated theatre luna #earlier cuz i ALSO had to eliminate intro window bcuz i forgot there were like noooo keonhee scenes i could do alk;dsfjadlsf #and as i was finalizing everything i realized i forgot 808. dies. i was so nervous abt that happening but double checked to make sure #i didn't miss anything and then i still missed it </3 #i knew with such a large comp set this wouldn't match perfectly so i tried to lean into the strengths of the scenes while keeping contrast #and sharpening consistent becasue i thought that'd look best and i think it was for the better #but nonetheless it's still SO funny how much luna stands out. like overall it's semi consistent then Boom cool pink tones. alas #anyways ouuughhhhh hi keonhee.

[b4kuch1n]

wizard looking for a way home (aka wizard of dark space)

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #wizard leon babeyy! #thank u to cosme for hangin out with me while I figure this one out lol #this! is the piece I used for the ''speedpaint'' thingy btw. I'll try to put together the video over the next month or so #lol. usually when I make wizard leon designs I riff with what comes up and think abt like. maybe his affinity in this set #like ''oh he'd do fabric talismans. oh he'd levitate. he does poppet stuff'' #that at most. but this. the moment I started fleshing this one out I was like #oh he's really lost. for a very long time. to the point he's learned so much he's forgotten what many of the things on his suit does #like lmao I guess I can Not be normal about any astronaut leon huh!! its chronic for me #I couldnt get to some of the questions folks asked with this one. so this video will probably not be comprehensive #but I'll make another when those things come up!! #fksjdfk sorry lads most of u guys asked abt colors but idk if this ones the best for that. its got a preddy concrete palette #guess I can save talking about the more insane color stuff for when that comes up too... #we'll see!! hope it's gonna happen #for now. one more wizard leon for the book. have a good night lads! #tie a yarn round ur wrist dont forget the way back

[bhaalsdeepbat]

Because of the implication that Karlach didn't know any of the more devious shit Gortash was doing while she was employed by him, I HC that he sold her at a point where he couldn't be as covert in his private dealings. Like it was a point where she clearly was going to be a liability and she's good. Too good. Like to her core.

And there isn't a whole lot different between himself and the tiefling rascal he took in so she could support the parents she loves so much. I think that at a certain point he'd just be kinda aggravated because, to him, her view of the world is so idealistic. I like the idea of him having a little bit of petty jealousy, but I can't see that being the motivator for the sale. I think he really believed she was strong enough to handle it - because he was strong enough to withstand the hells - and wanted her to be humbled, in a way. he needed her to have a taste of the real world, so to speak, because his understanding is that it's a cutthroat world and all people are pawns, regardless of age or relation.

that's not a way karlach can live tho

and then she comes back, broken, sure. she has her whole thing where she can consume the soul coins, which ultimately has her viewing lost souls as tokens/pawns in the way gortash sees all people, but she clearly struggles with it and it wasn't a choice she made, but something zariel pushed on her so she could survive.

regardless, karlach's optimism is unwavering and she's still so vivacious. She's angry, understandably so, she has scars, she's done shit she isn't proud of, but she, herself, was never corrupted. when she escapes, she immediately goes full hero mode, she just has the burden of the soul coins to bear bc NO ONE can come out of that situation completely unscathed. and remember the types of friends she made in the hells!!! her one only helps her if it comes with a double-edged sword. despite that, she doesn't prevent it from allowing her to bond with the companions.

so she comes back proof that you can go through what Gortash did and come out mostly in tact. you may be hurt, she shouldn't have HAD to go through that, but she's fighting for a better future for herself (even if that means dying to not return to avernus). Unlike Gortash, she doesn't need to bring the world to heel to pay for the cruelty it showed her.

in fact, everything she went through just makes her appreciate the little good in her life even more and motivates her to aggressively protect her friends.

#bat rambles #karlach #sorry for the repost i had a few things to add re: soul coins #i also am thinking abt gortash a little more and like #he's kinda pathetic in a way i'm not even sad for him about #but he is so desperate to be loved imo #not quite to the levels of Raphael's narcissism #but up there #like it was A Choice to set it up so he'd be viewed as the hero of baldur's gate #protecting them from the Evil's of the Absolute #the one person who can protect them only to be the one to sell them all out #just a mirror of what he went through y'know #the writing in this is so solid you can just see so many things that relate to one another #they're all so entangled

[anotherpapercut]

the girlbossification of ruth bader ginsburg has to be one of the most just plain annoying aspects of white liberal feminism. like it's not as actively harmful as a lot of other shit obviously. but it is soooooo annoying. if I never see another notorious rbg tote bag as long as I live it will be too soon

#her opinions and amicus' in many cases were iconic! not denying that certainly. she is absolutely AMONG the better justices in us history #HOWEVER her record on policing/the carceral system is very bad! genuinely bad! #and she just would not hold the conservative justices accountable. her and kagan are way too placating #and then she refused to retire in 2009 when there was a sitting democratic president and a fucking DEMOCRATIC SUPER MAJORITY #saying basically that no one else could do the job as well as her which is insane because sotomayor and KBJ literally are better :/ #its also unbelievably conceited and just incredibly fucking selfish to knowingly doom the country because you think youre hot shit #started ranting abt this at work bc literally any talk even adjacent to the supreme court will set me off abt all of us court history #and my coworker was like 'well i dont think its very fair that she had to have that much riding on her decision to retire' #it literally is fair because that is the fucking job that she signed up for. this has literally always been how it fucking works #its a lifetime appointment. you either die unexpectedly or retire strategically #she accepted a position in which the entire country would depend on her but its not fair for the entire country to depend on her??? #bullshit #im not fucking buying it. she did this knowing roe would likely be struck down as a result #she should absolutely be held accountable for that lmfao. you can know that she had a hand in a lot of great decisions for this country #while also knowing that she did a fucked up and extremely selfish thing

[ajdrawshq]

love this animal. the saffron

#thinks abt them and cries forever (hasnt gotten anywhere near the oart where i will actually cry forever. probably) #like i JUST died to the king the first time and we're still in sillyfunny mode. i fear for this lads future #their Problems are beginning to set it tho . #n like. i already liked the group at first but theyre Really growing on me .. so so good #considering the way the game is im glad its not as repetitive as i was afraid of. tho it IS hard to remember stuff after a while #theres so many things to do and keep track of!!!!!! siffrin needs to get a notepad or smth my memory is just as bad as his #i was doing good w that part until we got to floor 3 ;; and theres still so many things in 1 and 2 to backtrack for......... #all in due time tho . and i still have a couple places where i need to use those star things at bc i got the right path first somehow..... #isat #isat spoilers #? i mean. the dying to the king first round is in the trailers so even i already knew abt that but. who knows

[rubysparx]

Today I decided Kian Stone will be my dress up doll <3 top three are outfits meant to complement Rand, bottom three are meant to complement Rolan. Last one is just for sillys ^_^ (click for quality, do not repost!!)

#my art #please do not repost/trace/edit/copy/or claim #every bitb thing i make is ingrained with nbr sry not sry #jrwi #jrwi bitb #kian stone #nightmare blunt rotation #<- implied #srsly ask me abt my nbr thoughts. i have so many #havent even listened 2 the full campaign #v v proud of Kian in that blue dress btw. the everything #yea ik its set in the 80s #but kian is a 40s girl in his heart

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 Chinese Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(ft. Flavio Briatore)

#not pictured but: CRYING LAUGHING AT THE FACT THAT NANDO SET HIS OWN CAR ON FIRE BY REVVING FOR FUN TOO MUCH 😭😭 #and the commentators saying 'well kids will be kids' abt it ^ im having a moment 🥺🥺🥺 #not pictured: NANDO SINGING WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS ON THE RADIO 🥺🥺 I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS FROM THIS RACE IM CRYINGNGGGG #all of the nando/flavio moments....if i speak- #theres just so many things i am staring intently at #SCREAMING CRYING THATS HIS BOY!!!! HIS BOYYYYY!!!!! LOOK AT THEM!!!!!! #im glad no one is around me when i watch race podiums bcs i make so many embarrassing squealing noises AHJDKFLFLLF #hate this podium(/s) bcs its peer-pressuring me into watching 2006 next...ahhhhh i might.. #renault nando is just so....hes just sooooooo...he is my blorbo and i want more of him but ahhhh.... #its really really so cute to imagine that zhou is somewhere at the racetrack watching nando win the wcc #apologies to ralf and kimi who are also on this podium but not pictured here but this is fernando's podiums theres too much good content #i hate to cut down these gif posts to 10 but then again i cant just post all 20 gifs i did make #speaking of gifs that didnt make it into this post theres one of him holding up '7' which will be included in a dif post!! #anyways im v sad that this journey is over but proud of myself for finishing it and posting all of these #tysm to everyone whos been here since round 1!! its been a lot of fun and i appreciate your support sm heheh #but worry not! the grind never stops! 2005 may be done but theres so many seasons i wanna watch #fernando alonso #fa14 #2005 chinese gp #2005 chinese grand prix #renault nando #renault #flavio briatore #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #(2005: 19/19 races watched) #<- well that was satisfying to type out! :D

[mmmmuffins]

i need the whole script to the good bad mother NOW

#lit enthusiast in me is DYING to analyse #my highlighters and pens will be READY themes dialogues costuming blocking setting foreshadowing let me do it alllllll i just need a printe #copy #also need to know what happens the ep just got released so there’s v little discussion online #if anyone else is watching Please PLEASE talk to me abt it #hdjshsks i love things that are in the grey area i love characters that mirror each other i love things that aren’t what they seem to be i #love mystery u love suspense i love drama #but also the suspense is KILLING mr i hv to wait another week 👎👎👎 #the good bad mother #<- please PLEASE talk to me abt this show giving me brain rot #also wth so many things hit home as an asian person ufkakajkaa

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The thing about bbc merlin is that the dynamic that's set up between merlin and arthur is so fucking good that I can't even. What can I possibly draw that's gonna encapsulate the feelings between them?

#its so fucking good. especially when u set it up like #arthur is so so afraid of losing this one person who is is true friend. i cant lose merlin i cant lose merlin #but im too much of a bro to tell him that but also i will give him hair ruffles and light bullying bc i want to touch him #he is my little dweeb who i love. and merlin is just. i mean. hes just merlin. would protect arthur no matter what #my man would and has killed so so many ppl for his king lmao #also arthur kneeling for merlin. just. ya kno. i think thats good. good good good. #ugh but i also want stained glass and weird fucked up religious themes. #ugh. and now im just spiralling bc i dont kno what to draw 1st. god! #im distracting myself from being upset abt another thing. ill think abt that thing later. draw now. while i have thr fucking time #merliiiin DX but also i have so much to color DDXXXX #merlin rambling #see. this is what i fucking do. i have to come up with thr fucking perfect idea. and then i just never do anything bc its not perfect #its dysfunctional. stop that

[lokh]

also my banking website wouldn't let me access my account cos my phone browser wasn't set to english 💀 like. isnt this. racist

#????? man wtf.... and then when i changed it it STILL wouldnt let me access it??? #maybe cos phone language hadnt been changed #it was like 'either change ur browser language or use our app' #one i dont want ur fucking app. ok #two. im genuine abt the racism thing lmao we have so many immigrants and people #whose first language isnt english..... u can have ur fucking website set to english whatever #whats the reason for this man...

[zukkaoru]

btw i have soooo many hater b.sd takes i could share but i am holding myself back bc discourse is the mind killer and if i tell myself it doesn't matter enough maybe i will finally start to believe it

#went on a whole rant to myself in my car yesterday abt why s.igzai would never work #but i'll keep it to myself bc i don't engage in ship wars anymore #actually i used to respect s.igzai but the more i see of it the more i don't like it #bc a good 95% of s.igzai shippers do not fundamentally understand EITHER character #mutuals if you ship s.igzai you are exempt from this. you are part of the other 5% #anyway there are sooooo many other b.sd things i'm a hater about #i just usually type out an angry draft and then immediately delete it bc i know in my heart it Doesn't Actually Matter #and no one posting terrible takes on twt would be swayed even if someone argued with them. they will always set in their wrong opinions #hello grace here

[acesammy]

Honestly growing up is realizing that normal people don’t have to set timers to remember they’re cooking ramen… which notoriously only takes 3 minutes to cook… and maybe I do have adhd

#Trying to explain to my sister in law that I sometimes accidentally set a microwave time to 1 minute when I mean for it to be 20 seconds #and I go ‘oh it’s fine I will just stop it at 20 seconds’ #but then in those 20 seconds /I then forget I’m cooking something/ #bc my attention is drawn away #and next thing I know I’ve got a cookie that’s literally on fire in the center #and the way this is such a common thing for me #(not necessary w a cookie lol. But the cookie one has happened enough that I’ve legit set off multiple fire alarms w it) #Or yeah the fact that I p much /have/ to set a timer for pasta bc I will 100% forget I’m making pasta if I don’t #Or the literal HELLSCAPE that is laundry bc there’s so fucking many steps to it and it’s soooooo easy to forget it in the washing machine #I was just proofreading these Fucking tags and I forgot the word ‘forget’ in the one abt pasta #I laid out all my evidence that I’ve secretly squirreled away for 10 years to my sister in law #and she just went O.O yeah I don’t think you’re hallucinating it; this isn’t normal #and it was v validating #I just don’t want to seem like I’m saying it for clout or what the fuck ever but I’ve struggled with this my whole life #but on the other hand it’s no longer as big of a deal now that I’m not in school… school was bad.. I don’t know how I did so well #Bc mentally I fucking Drowned #idk if I really want or need to try and get a diagnosis or anything #Esp bc I’m sure that’s not even almost the worst thing wrong with me and I don’t want to open that can of worms #regardless man I wish I weren’t me <3 I fucking /suck/ #lea speaks #vent

[caruliaa]

it is annoying that if a team in a game i dont rly personally care about win people who are sore losers about it are going to tell fans of my fave musician to kill themselves violently just bc shes dating on of the members and that if they lose those same people being sore losers about it are still going to tell her fans to kill themselves violently just bc shes dating on of the members

#CAN YOU GUYS PLEASE JUST BE NORMAL AND NOT SAY AWFUL THINGS ABT PEOPLE JUST BC THEY LIKE A MUSICIAN OKAY. PLEASE. PLEASE #posting this here bc in my mutuals with some ppl that dont like taylor and that literally fine but if you start being cruel to her fans #over the results of a sports game you will become ex mutuals and ex friends if were friends ! setting that boundary ! #youre allowed to not like her but im allowed to not be friends with someone that thinks liking smth i like makes u deserving of cruelty oka #and dont act like ive got some victim complex bc a lot of ppl on here do actually tell swifites to kill themselves #and thats only a funny joke if the other person also thinks so. i think sometimes ppl here forget that #i dont like ariana grande. i think she kinda sucks. im not gonna talk abt her fans the way some ppl on here talk abt swifites #bc im a decent person .and i dont wanna say you guys as in my mutuals talk abt us like tht bc i wanna assume the best yk #but i literally dont know bc its so many ppl on here. so you can understand that im on edge okay #flappy rambles

[wereh0gz]

The problem with having a whole fictional world in your head is that no one else will make art that makes you go insane for it and you're too tired and unmotivated to do it yourself

#ramblings #yes this is abt #eterna #i'm planning out the lore book/zine thing i wanna make for it. and #it looks like it'll take over 50 illustrations to get everything i want out there. and. god #but i'm gonna do it i'm gonna do it maybe probably hopefully #i just. if i give up on it i'll do it in the planning phase and won't subject myself to all that work only to give up half way #but if y'all notice that i'm not posting a lot of art and whatever i do post is just simple doodles and stuff over the next few months #you know why #no guarantees. but saying it jic #really i'm only planning rn bc i'm unmotivated to draw anything. i'm just working on how i'm gonna set it up #figuring out how many pages and what each page is gonna be and stuff #but it's really. REALLY fucking intimidating #hhhhhhhhhhh #also i'm worried abt my art style changing half way and it being inconsistent. lmao #hoping it won't #and hoping i'll have enough time energy and motivation to do it