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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Hi, can I request headcannons for Arthur? I thought maybe his s/o is a standup comedian, but her jokes are kinda self deprecating and he confronts her about it? I totally understand if It's not something you wanna write, but I had this idea in my mind for a very long time. My self esteem is nonexistent and I'm bad at comforting myself, so I thought I'd request something... Thank you so much (even if you decide to not write it ^^)

I can really relate to this - if Arthur heard the way I talk to myself he would be angry, for sure. So I hope you’ll find some comfort in this. I know I did.

Warnings for self-deprecation, smoking. Swearing.

Word count: 939.

The two of you had met at Pogo’s one night; you were on after Arthur was, and you had cheered for him. You had found his jokes funny.

He had been about to leave after his performance, but he had seen you get out of your seat and come towards the stage, so he had waited for you; the kind stranger.

In you had he found someone with the same dark sense of humour; his, rooted in astute observations and sarcasm and yours rooted in self-deprecation.

As you had left Pogo’s, you had found Arthur on the stairs and the two of you had gotten to talking.

And so it was that, over weeks and months did the two of you form a close friendship which passed unnoticed into a relationship, so profound was the bond between you that nothing needed to be said.

One night were the two of you sat on the living room sofa.

Arthur had his battered brown journal open on his bouncing knees.

Periodically did he chuckle to himself, take a long, deep drag on his cigarette and switch hands while he wrote something down.

Oh, how beautiful he was.

“Hey, Y/N?”

You hummed to acknowledge that your love had spoken.

“How’s this?” You looked up to see Arthur swallow thickly in nervousness and then he took a deep breath, “What did the kid with no hands get for his birthday?”

Oh, this was gonna be bad. “I don’t know, what?”

Arthur shrugged, already grinning at his punchline. “No idea, he still hasn’t figured out how to open it yet.”

Your jaw dropped and you burst into laughter.

Arthur was practically glowing, so happy was he with your reaction to his joke.

“That was really good, Arthur,” You were still grinning and Arthur ducked his head down, a light pink blush dusted across his cheeks.

“Thank you. You’re always really kind to me, Y/N.”

“You’re welcome.”

You went back to your own jokes but then Arthur shuffled closer towards you on the sofa and you knew what he wanted.

“Okay, how’s this?” You looked for a really good joke to tell him and found a little tidbit you’d scribbled late last night -

“To all the people who said I would ruin my life - congrats, you were right.”

Arthur didn’t respond. You kept your eyes fixed on your notebook.

“Or, ooh, here’s another one - my parents said I should always be myself. I don’t think they meant to be the family disappointment but, hey, someone’s gotta do it.”

Silence.

Stone. Cold. Silence.

You looked up to see that Arthur’s brows were heavily creased, his green eyes darkened and his jaw muscles ticking in his anger.

“Do you ever really hear yourself, Y/N?”

His voice was low, soft… dangerous.

Oh shit oh shit oh shi -

Your forehead was growing hot, and you felt immense regret and a sense that you needed to run and hide.

“Yeah,” You shrugged, “It’s all true, though, and I - “

A deep inhale, and a shaky exhale.

You refused to look Arthur. You could feel his gaze on you.

“Do you really believe that?”

You shrugged. “Well, yeah, I mean - it’s obvious, I’m not even any go - “

Arthur snapped.

“W-why would you - why would you even say those things, Y/N?”

“It’s just a joke, Arthur.” You were starting to get defensive now. It was irrational, but it had just been a joke.

But it hadn’t and you both knew it.

It’s just that Arthur was calling you out on it, now.

“It’s not, Y/N. Do you think I don’t see the look on your face when you’re working on your material? Do you think I don’t notice the way you look at yourself, the way you treat yourself?”

Arthur sighed and then scooted towards you so that he could take both of your hands in his, his thumbs rubbing soothingly along the backs of your hands.

His journal fell to the floor, unnoticed.

Just like Arthur.

“I… I love you, Y/N. It hurts to hear you say those - those lies. I don’t need you to apologise. I just need you to realise the way that you speak about yourself isn’t okay.”

You didn’t say anything. What was there to say?

Arthur wasn’t finished, however.

“Can you - I know it’s for your show, but can you - try - to find something else to joke about? You’re not a joke, Y/N, you’re not some - some punchline to be laughed at. You’re you and you’re beautiful and I can’t - won’t listen to you when you’re talking like this. You deserve better.”

You nodded, feeling ashamed. “I’m sorry, Arthur.”

“Oh, honey, no,” Arthur cooed in sympathy and let go of your hands, instead wrapping his arms around you. “It’s okay. You just gotta’ learn to joke about something else. Like me.”

“You’re not a joke, Arthur, how can you - “ Ohhhhh... nicely done, Arthur. “Point taken.”

Arthur giggled and pressed a tender kiss to your forehead, his lips lingering against your skin.

Silence fell for another few moments, Arthur rocking you slightly, and then -

“What’s yellow and can’t swim?”

“I don’t know, what?”

“A bus full of people.”

You gasped and laughed in slight shock, not knowing how else to react. “Arthur!”

A chuckle was your only response, and as Arthur hummed and pressed another kiss to your temple, you turned your head so that you could capture his lips with your own, and you felt a much neglected part of you click back into place, click back home.

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zhahz · 4 years

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Oh gosh, hi! I'm so happy to find someone taking requests! Before I send one though, I'd like to ask if there's something you won't write, bc my requests have always been nothing but triggering (as it helps me cope). Thank you!

hi there person! i'm glad you asked. [i probably should have include this in the request posts haha 🙃].

i don't write smut (yes to suggestive scenarios but, i'm an ace so anything more makes me immensely uncomfortable), yandere characters or dark content (rape, psychological manipulation, vore, etc.)

i can write for things like mental illnesses and (practically any form of) abuse (mental, physical, substance, etc. [once again just not sexual]).

#you're very strong to read triggering content #in my case #well...#i grew up in a third world country where getting triggered by at least 3 things is considered a rite of passage #sorry if that got a bit dark #to be honest i'm also an empath #so these things i'm triggered by kinda deal double the pain #it's not an excuse #but i hope you don't think less of me #asks #marymadly

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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My biggest fear is upseting people I love/admire by basically being myself and today I made myself cry (which says something, bc I only cry from physical pain), because I was scared that the same thing would happen with the characters I selfship with and now I just have the feeling I don't deserve to be loved because I'm me. I triggeredyself, then tried to comfort myself, resulting in triggering myself even more XD I hope you're at least doing better than I am

Hello, angel 🧡

One thing which I’ve learned, especially recently, is that you won’t be liked by everyone. It doesn’t matter what you do or what you say, some people just will not vibe with you, and that’s okay. It’s better to not surround yourself with people you don’t vibe with anyway, because that feels very lonely and I wouldn’t wish that burden on anyone. Even people you admire may not be people who vibe with you, and that can be disheartening. My point with this, before I lose my train of thought, is that if you are yourself, and unapologetically so, then the right people for you will gravitate towards you. It’s better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you are not, and that’s a lesson I’ve been forced to face many a time.

Now... your self-ships. One thing about F/Os is that they love you for you. On your best days, on your worst days, and all of the ones in between. They are your biggest supporters, your number one comforts, and they make you happy. Conversely, you make them happy just by being yourself. If you want your F/Os to love you, then congratulations!!! They do!!! ✨✨✨ It’s that simple. You deserve to be loved. You deserve to be yourself and to feel like you can be yourself. You deserve to be seen, to be known, to be understood. You deserve love, darling. It’s a basic human need but more than that... oh, more than that, it’s a basic human want. We want to love and to be loved and the older I get the more certain I am that love is the whole purpose of life. We live to love and we love to live.

I’m so sorry that you were triggered, honey. Please know that your F/Os love you for you and that they wouldn’t change a single thing about you, just as I wouldn’t. You deserve love. I sometimes believe that I don’t deserve love either, that Joker wouldn’t love me, that J would kill me the first chance he got, that Patrick would scoff and ignore me. I sometimes torture myself with these thoughts, especially with how I’ve been feeling recently, but in the end I know that that’s not true; they love me for me (though I’m not sure J loves me lmao I think he tolerates me at best kskssk). In telling you this I am only telling you that I understand; that your feelings and your wants and your self-ships are valid and that I relate and empathise to how you’re feeling. It’s just your brain, angel; you are loved for who you are, I promise you.

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Hiya, I've just read your post about hearing Arthur sobbing and coming behind him and kissing his back etc. it was sooo adorable! ^^ But imagine buying some soothing creams or something like that and just gently tending to the bruises. It would have a different charm than tending to cuts I think, and seeing the relief on his face would be a blessing ^^

😭😭

“Just stay still for me, Arthur, okay? It’s gonna sting but I need to help you.”

“O-okay.”

As you apply the bruise salve and Arthur hisses and moves away, you shush him gently, tears stinging your eyes as surely as the salve burns his skin. “I know, angel, I’m so sorry.” Finally, when your fingers have caressed every inch of his horrific bruising and your job is done, you kiss away his tears. “You’re so good and brave for me, darling. I’m proud of you.”

For the first and only time that day does Arthur really and genuinely smile.

#joker 2019 #arthur fleck #marymadly #requests closed

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Hi! So, there's a question on my mind. You have a fic on your masterlist two times (one with a female reader, one with a male one). As I read through your various conversations about F/Os, I think you said that you don't think changing a chracter's sexual orientation for yourself is ok (correct me if I'm wrong ^^ ), so I'm just thinking, what do you think Arthur's sexual orientation is? If that's something you don't want to discuss, that's fine

Hello, my angel!💜

OMG yeeees~ I adore that piece; I first wrote it for a male!reader and then I got inspired and did a female!reader, too. It’s one of the earliest pieces I ever wrote for this fandom. Scary that it’s been nine months already... 😲

I did say that people shouldn’t change their F/O’s sexualities to suit themselves, yes, but I wrote that F/O answer several months ago and I have since changed my mind on my views. In doing my own research into self-shipping and in talking to other self-shippers, I found out that it’s widely accepted for people to change/adapt their F/Os to whichever way best suits them in any way; so long as you love your F/O, that’s all that matters. So if you’re trans and you want your F/O to be trans, too, that’s beautiful and you’re both valid! If you’re gay and you want your F/O to be gay, too, that’s amazing and you’re both valid! Self-shipping, from what I’ve been able to find out since I started to really get to know the community, is all about self-love and your F/O is whatever you want them to be! And, also - in fanfiction, people change character’s sexualities all the time for their ships etc., so self-shipping isn’t any different, as another friend pointed out when I wrote that ask.

Arthur just wants to love and to be loved for all that he is and all that he has ever been and will ever be and so, if you love him, he’ll return it tenfold. It’s... I don’t think Arthur really cares about gender, if you understand what I mean. It’s not in a nasty way, it’s just if you love him and he loves you, then that’s all he cares about. Looking at it from the context of the eighties can add complications and there’s definite signs of Arthur being sexually repressed in his journal, and I really hesitate to label someone who can’t be labelled, but I’d say that he’s pansexual if I had to pick a term to affix to a man so outside societal norms. What do you think, my love?💙 Thank you for the question! 💛

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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So. Word count. It's so weird here on tumblr, hear me out. Why do you pit word count at the begining of your works? I'm just curious is all. And, how do you count the words? Do you count them yourself, or is there an app, because I haven't seen it on tumblr. Wattpad, yes, but not here. I'm so confused...

I look at my pieces and see three or four paragraphs and it’s like oh, three paragraphs. Great. but then I’ll do a word count and it’s like, 900 words or something and then my entire perspective changes and I get really happy that I’ve written a whole 900 words and it just helps me to keep track of everything and it motivates me. It also lets people know how long the piece I’ve written is - nothing worse than getting comfy to read something which ends up being a few thousands words, if you haven’t got time for it and you have to leave it be, you know?

Also, I use a word counter website. You just copy and paste what you’ve typed and it gives you an automatic break down of word count, character count etc. skskskkk I don’t need to do a word count, but I do it because it can be helpful. It motivates me and lets others know what they’re in for, is all.

Thanks for the question!

#marymadly #headcanons open

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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marymadly replied to your post “My biggest fear is upseting people I love/admire by basically being...”

This was so beautiful, thank you. I totally agree that not all people will like me, but I'm still really really scared of driving the people that do away. Maybe I'm just repeating myself now, but you never fail to bring your love and wisdom upon us all and I hope you know that. You've taught me so many important things and I'll be forever grateful for that. I sincerely hope you'll feel better soon and that everything goes well for you, because angel you deserve it <3

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You’re welcome, love. Anyone who is driven away by you is a) not worth your time anyway and b) isn’t meant for you. I’ve lost many a friend (and have none in real life) and felt more lonely within a group of ‘friends’ than I care to admit to, so I totally relate, empathise with and understand your fears. The people who are meant for you will come, I promise. Thank you; I try to help people where I can. I’m glad to have helped you and taught you things, and thank you so much for your kind words; you deserve it too! <3

#marymadly

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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So like, I'm minding my own business, just looking up some Kuroshitsuji fanfics here on Tumblr, I search Ciel x reader and guess who's blog pops up the effin' first? That's right, yours bby, what are the odds? No but really, I loved it, I know I followed you pretty recently, so I don't know for how many fandoms you wrote, but your Tate fics? *chefs kiss* Ciel being ticklish? Y e s please. You were awesome, are awesome and sure as heck will forever stay awesome. Love you, take care

asdfghjkl before October I wrote for 100+ plus fandoms it was a headache and I grew to hate it lmao but yes!!! Black Butler and AHS ended up being my two most popular fandoms of the whole lot sksksk I’m glad you’re enjoying them!!! my Tate fics are still v. special to me; he’s adorable and I love him. Thank youuu I love you too omg :((

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Oh I can picture it. And underground bunker, nobody would really know about it and those who would wouldn't think much of it. But inside lives the entire supportive part of Joker fandom. And it's filled with lot of mental support and sweetness towards one another. I think if Arthur came across this little society he'd probably think he's in heaven or something. Can you imagine Arthur just walking in and everyone being genuinely nice to him? And his face would light up with an unbelieving smile😍

YES OMG this is exactly it!! we’d all be kept safe from the virus and everything else which causes us pain in our daily lives and ofc we’d have to maintain the bunker and get supplies in etc. etc. but unlike the AHS bunkers there’d be no Victorian purple dresses, BS hierarchies and people with superiority complexes like vile Venable, but still. OMG please it’d be heavenly skskskk Arthur would think he’s died of shock lmao.

#marymadly

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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For being so nice and cute, copy this to 10 other bloggers that you think are wonderful. Keep the game going and make others feel beautiful!

THANK YOUUUU~ ily skskskskkk

sending all the love your way x

#marymadly #headcanons open

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Now that we're talking about asexuality, I'm gonna confess something and I don't know if that's relatable or not, but whatever 😅 Asexuality is 100% valid and I'm comfortable with being ace myself, but I'm always so scared of actually telling someone I am ace, I rather say 'I think I am', because I'm young and scared of being told that I can't know for sure etc., beacuse that's happened before. I know I'm young and inexperienced and that I should keep my mind open, but it still bothers me.

OMG I relate so much to this. When I was 18 - 19 and sure of my way, I always said “I might be asexual” but in the back of my head I’d be saying IamIamIamIam on a loop. Some people can’t, won’t and/or don’t understand and that’s okay! Just as long as you know your truth, that’s what truly matters! <3

I expressed similar concerns to my mum once (she’s the one who figured out my sexuality; she did in five minutes with Google what I couldn’t on my own in 18 years 😂) and I’ve never forgotten what she said to me: “When you know - you know.”

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Hi! It's me, from the comments. I'd like to get added to the taglist, if It's not a problem ^^

OFC sksksksk thank you so much omg

#marymadly

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Scarlet cinnamon Burgundy Sage (but not from sadness, don't worry)

Oh, honey

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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Hi, a HC request please! How about this: reader waits in front of Haha's for Arthur but Randall comes out first, spots reader and tries to hook up/flirt with her? Also hang in there, I know things have been hard on you lately, but you can pull through, I believe in you ❤️

Me, spending half an hour staring at a GIF of Arthur? More likely than you think skskskkk he’s so beautiful it makes me want to cry. I think I’d die if he looked at me like this omgggg~ sweet angel.

Thank you, nonnie. I’m doing my best

“O-ho, what do we have here? Don’t get this very often in Chuckletown.”

A cold shiver of disgust and dread started at the very top of your head and dripped slowly down your spine, and you shuddered. Ugh.

You had never met Randall before, but you would know him anywhere.

Just the way Arthur had spoken of him during all those late nights when he was too distraught to cry and could only laugh, the noise so painful as it ripped from his throat that you half expected to see speckles of crimson blood on his sinful thin lips, was enough for you to put the pieces together.

Still, you forced a smile on your lips as you greeted him. “Hi, Randall. Arthur’s told me about you.”

The man’s creepy smile faded somewhat at the ice which was in your tone, try as you might in being polite to someone who really didn’t deserve it even from a stranger.

“Oh, yeah? How do you know the freak?” Randall’s smile didn’t quite reach his eyes, which were those of a shark, callous and cold, calculating, and you shivered again as you began to wish and hope against hope that Arthur would hurry up, already.

How he could stand Randall’s presence, you knew not, but you felt an even deeper love and respect for your clown.

Randall was bloated with the weight of his own sense of self-importance, like a corpse which knew not yet that they were dead, and you had no doubt that Arthur was terrified of him. Your heart bled for the love of your life and right there and then did you decide to fight, to defend Arthur when he wasn’t there to defend himself.

Though you hoped that he would appreciate it, you knew without a shadow of a doubt that he would. He would.

“He’s my boyfriend. And don’t you dare call him a freak.” Your voice shook with barely suppressed rage.

“Artie has a girlfriend?” Randall didn’t even bother to hide the surprise in his voice and you felt your skin crawl as he took a step closer to you. “I’m twice the man that he is. Why don’t you ditch the freak and come into town with me tonight?”

Oh, ugh.

From behind Randall did you hear footsteps, the sound of which you would know anywhere.

ArthurArthurArthurArthurArthurArthurArthur -

You saw this moment for what it was - an opportunity to defend Arthur in front of him - and you decided to pretend that you couldn’t hear his gait slowly descending Ha-Ha’s stairs.

You dropped all defences, all masks, and you allowed your hatred and your disgust to shine through as with a voice positively dripping with venom did you say, “No one and nothing is worth more to me than Arthur is. I love him. So thanks, but no thanks.”

Then, leaving Randall gaping at you like a fish, and a rather unattractive one at that, you said in a much lighter, happier tone, “Hi, darling!”

And you stretched out your hand and wriggled your fingers in an invitation.

With a light blush on his face and a quietly confident smirk, Arthur came around Randall and took your hand tightly in his with a softly murmured and surprised, “Thank you, angel. You didn’t have to do that for m-me”.

As you said, “Yes, I did, and you’re welcome” and rubbed your thumb along his cool skin, you could have sworn that you saw Arthur turn back to Randall as you were walking away and stick his tongue out in the cutest childish taunt ever.

You only giggled, pressed a tender kiss to his cheek, and forgot all about Randall and the other inhabitants of Chuckletown. They meant nothing to you; you, who was holding your entire world in your hand.

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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years

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You don’t know how much he loves you // Either Joker x Reader // this just struck me idk.

He watches you from the open doorway.

You’re sat on the double bed which the two of you share, one leg dangling over the edge, your other leg crossed so that your socked foot is pressing against the opposite thigh. Your hair, slightly greasy, is pulled up and away from your face, the old ratty band shirt you’re wearing exposes the long column of your neck.

Oh, but he wants desperately to sit beside you, to wind your hair around his fingers and tug your head back, back, while he attaches his sinful thin lips to your skin, leaving marks of his love for you on your skin.

He wants to disturb you, to steal your attention away from your work or from your passions; he knows not what you’re so enraptured with. It doesn’t matter, in the end. You’re beautiful, captivating, when you’re so thoroughly engrossed in what you’re doing that you don’t even feel his presence in the same room as you. It’s so unlike you that he feels his need increasing exponentially with each passing second.

You’re unaware of his needy gaze, of his audible swallows, of his erection straining against his trousers. You’re unaware of just how much he loves you, but just at the moment you stretch, arching upwards with your arms high above your head as you crack your knuckles, your back, your neck; does he realise that he wants nothing more than to cross the room to you, to manifest his daydreams into reality.

So he does.

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Can we some headcanons for how pre-Joker Arthur act in regards to dating a woman that keeps their home clean, makes sure he has nice, hot meals, is always up for snuggling, and that genuinely loves him.

Word count: 911.

From the first day you found out just how hard and almost unbearable Arthur’s life was, you did everything you could to help him out, to take care of him.

It took Arthur the longest time to accept that you weren’t doing it just so you could later use it against him to get him to do something for you, that it wasn’t a trick or a joke or yet another punchline to the joke that was his life…

It took him so long to accept your kindness and generosity for what it was, but when he did, it was always with the utmost grace.

The first time Arthur came home to you, he didn’t expect you to be there.

He had confessed to you late one night, some weeks ago, that he had always loved the idea of having someone to come home to, and the idea had never left you.

So when the front door opened and closed, with the sound of the door being pulled across the latch, Arthur jumped to come around the corner and see you softly swaying in the kitchen to soft jazz while you finished up dinner.

“Oh, hey, Arthur,”

“H-hey, Y/N?” He posed it like a question, his strong dark brows creased in confusion.

“Yeah,” You smiled at Arthur and it seemed to shake him out of his shock as he began to shed his mustard yellow hoodie, shoes and bag, “Sorry I just - wanted to surprise you.”

“It’s okay,” Arthur hummed, coming towards you for a much needed, much anticipated hug, “Are you making yourself dinner?”

You shook your head. “No, I - I hope you don’t mind but I made us both dinner.”

“Yo - you made us b-both - ?” Arthur cut himself off with a hum, clamping his thin lips together.

You nodded, stepping even closer into the hug so that you could pull Arthur completely into you, your hands rubbing up and down his back in firm, soothing motions while he fought off this laughing attack, your heart breaking for the fragile but strong man in your arms.

And so it became a routine that as often as you could would you get home before Arthur so that you could help him out in small ways; picking up his prescriptions, cleaning up around your home, setting up the radio to the soft jazz channel he loves so much…

Arthur never made it feel like he was anything less than indebted to you for even the simplest of things.

Even when he’s bone tired, exhausted beyond measure and completely unable to even speak, his soft, sad smile and the tight way he clings to you says everything he can’t, his eyes stinging with every blink.

For every thing you do for Arthur, he does his best to return it 100000 x - for every meal you cook, for every prescription you pick up (telling him beforehand so that he doesn’t accidentally go to Helms himself and experience any panic because “your prescription isn’t here, sir”), for every hug you give him… Arthur is almost in tears.

He just can’t believe that someone loves him for who he is, but more than that, he can’t believe that someone like you, someone who knows him and understands him more than anyone else has even tried, is so willing to go out of their way to help him, to look after him.

Arthur has been the man of the house for as long as he can remember, and as such he’s always been the one to do everything.

Having you in his life just being your wonderful self doesn’t cure or heal Arthur, but your love is the glue which seeps into the cracks of his shattered psyche, of his torn heart, and helps to hold him together for even one more day.

Every night, when all is said and done and finally, finally, can you put reality away for the day, the two of you crawl into bed together.

You take Arthur into your arms and he sighs sleepily, clumsy lips pressing kisses to any part of you that he can reach as he gives himself over to his exhaustion, but more importantly, more potently, to you and to the love which you’ve always given him in abundance.

“I love you, Y/N. I love you so much.” Arthur’s voice cracks on your name and on the final word and you coo, hold him tighter, and allow his breathing to lull you to a state ready for sleep.

The words, “I love you too, Arthur.” chase you both into Morpheus’ arms, where there you stay, safe and whole, loved and protected.

Maybe you’re awake at 3 AM to soothe his nightmare or to coax him from the fridge because he just wants it all to stop, or maybe you’re awoken by a laughing attack at 5 AM while he’s getting ready for work or maybe… maybe you awaken to a cold, empty bed because he decided to sleep in the living room for a reason he won’t explain to you even if you ask him, but that’s okay.

Loving Arthur Fleck is not all sunshine and rainbows, try as you both might, and you have to work harder than you ever have before in a relationship, but it’s worth it. It’s more than worth it as again and again, in loving him, do both you finally receive what you both deserve.

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