Sumi: What was that thing where you get completely unmotivated and lose all passion for something after even the slightest bit of rejection that may only be in your head? Nerdy! I need you!
Maths Nerd: …I can’t remember. Or more specifically, you can’t remember.
Sumi: I…why do you think I asked? Anyway- I have that. And it is seriously messing me up.
Patience: oh that’s caused by Positivity bullying Self Worth in your case.
Sumi: Positivity doing what to Self Worth?
Patience: Yeahhh he’s not exactly ideal to have in this scenario. In worst cases, Dysohoria pitches in.
Sumi: Oh god
Maths Nerd: For example, recall that one instance when you made a cool poem wheel and you got super excited about it?
Maths Nerd: All of your friends, poem support and even your father (whom you thought would share your enthusiasm) weren’t as ecstatic and the day went like so:
Sumi: I did it I did it I did it!!!
Positivity: You did it you did it you did it!! It’s so cool!!
Sami: one of my best ideas yet!
Sumi: it bounces like jelly!!!
Positivity: oh my god did you just discover a new type of poem??
Self Worth, colours brightening: Woah did you? It looks like it!! I’m so proud of you!
Maths Nerd: Improbable. It is a simple trick, someone else is sure to have come up with something similar if not the same
Positivity: Stop ruining our dreams Four eyes! We’ve never seen it before so I guess it’s our idea and we should patent it!
Sumi: Wooo! Let’s show it to our friends!
Positivity: Yeah! I’m sure they’ll love it too!
Sumi, excitedly: Guys Guys Guys loook!! I made a wheel thingy!! And it has a poem on it! And it bounce like jelly and-
Friend 1: that looks cool. Awesome.
Friend 2: Yeah, ok, anyway-
Friend 3: Nice poem. So?
Sumi: oh… Nothing…
Positivity, mood darkening: …I…why…Ugh we must have bothered them. Self Worth how could you let Sumi think we were worth it?
Self Worth, colours darkening: I-Uhm-
Positivity: It was stupid. Of course no one cared about it, it’s just some stupid sticky notes stuck together in a wheel. That’s nothing special.
Self Worth, tearing up: w-what about that one teacher who loves our poems? He’d love it-
Positivity: he’s been off work since September stupid! He’s sick - what’s he gonna do? Sneeze his approval?
Self Worth: What about Abu? He’s a poet too! And he supports us a lot- I bet he’d get excited over it too!
Positivity: …I guess you’re right. Dad acts like a child sometimes. He’d share our excitement…I guess…
Sumi: But…is it really worth the time? What if I get another lackluster reaction? It didn’t excite my friends…
Positivity: maybe we were just stupid for getting so excited at it. Self Worth how could you make Sumi so proud over it?? Look what it did! It just caused the fall!
Self Worth: I…I guess this is my fault isn’t it… We really just aren’t worth the time… Our ideas aren’t that great after all…
Sumi, half heartedly: Abu…look what I made!
Abu: oh. Cool. Did you start on your homework yet?
Positivity: Self Worth, why did you get our hopes up. How could you give us false hope??
Sumi: I knew it, it’s useless and no-one cares about it. What use was feeling proud and happy about it, it’ll get destroyed in a week anyway…
Self Worth: I really am pathetic, letting you take all that straight to your pride… We really just don’t have anything worth getting excited about when it’s something that hasn’t been done before…
Maths Nerd: See? A good portion of that was those two in conflict. A good amount of passion for that poem was lost as a result
Patience: Me and Nerdy weren’t able to get a word in, none of you would listen to any reason or sense.
Sumi: So…what should I do about it?
Maths Nerd: Believe in your capabilities and potentials - you’re able to do great things Sumi.
Sumi: I…don’t believe you. I need proof-
Self Worth: but you don’t feel that way without constant validation from other people because you feel any validation from yourself is just lies you tell yourself to feel better. That’s right isn’t it?
Sumi: …you know me too well
Positivity: Of course we do, we know you better then you do!
Self Worth: and you don’t believe in yourself at all because I don’t either. We both constantly wonder if the things we do everyday are good or bad.
Sumi: I worry everyday if I’m a good or bad person. If my ideas are creative or just mindless copies.
Positivity: and I share that worry of whether or not you’re helping or harming others with every action.
Maths Nerd&Patience: Positivity you aren’t helping either of them.
Patience: It’s ok to feel like that but you need to give yourself more credit. Look at where you were before and where you are now!
Sumi: …I kinda prefer the carefree happy go lucky version better sometimes…