Maybe I just don’t go out enough but these days I can’t go into my neighborhood without thinking of Pouet

I’m sitting in the restaurant I was at when I received the last lead on a lookalike and all I can think of is going out for a round that night and possibly seeing that guy who was collecting cats for the meat trade, wondering if he’d caught the cat I’d gotten a call about, wondering if that was even Pouet or if she was dead by then

Maybe that one dead cat found early on really was her, maybe she died later, maybe she’s living her best life with a different family less than a block from me

I won’t ever know which one of these is true, even if a miracle does happen and she comes back to me, which I don’t really believe in tbh.

All I know is I miss her and it hurts especially hard tonight.

Am now studying for next session xD

So, my first dnd session was kinda messy because we’re all new at it and I was under prepared but we had a lot of fun for two hours so I’m going to go ahead and call it a success^^

Am is still waiting for her evening cuddles before she consents to sleep

Gollum is doing fine x)

When the restaurant owner asks if you’ve found your missing cat and nearly reduces you to tears on the spot

Another day without Pouet

It’s easier, I guess, until it’s not

My creations of this morning^^

I think I need to leave the pets related groups I’m in on fb because it’s ‘give pets up as I leave the country’ season and it’s making me extremely anxious about the possible fate of my own cats :/

(ETA: And yet I still can’t help but hope Pouet will be on there someday ><)

Having cats that show their love through grooming:

Originally posted by home2tuck-ediit2

Brought Pouet’s box inside today. The t shirts in it have been outside for months so it’s kinda stinking the kitchen up but I can’t make myself wash it yet.

Gollum tried to be a nice baby after her play and clean the sunscreen off me but she did not like the taste x)

I spent the day outside of Phnom Penh with friends and holy shit die I need this

I feel exhausted but like you are after a good massage, I’ve shed a ton of stress just from sitting in a garden for four hours (also pizza and uno but mostly the garden part) and not only does it make more bearable to know I’ll be back at work tomorrow it’s also highly benefitting the cats: I’ve been playing with them for the past hour and we’re just taking a quick break for breath-catching purposes before we get back to it

It’s only the 2nd time I did this since my 30th birthday this past may and I’m not planning on waiting that long next time oO

Also I tried reading a tog fic the other day and it turns out that That Discord effectively turned me off of it

Which I guess is unsurprising with the bullying and all but it fucking sucks anyway

I just realized I told five different people I was fucking tired of my job and my boss’s style of leadership this week

I think it’s time to leave

Collapsible furniture videos both impress and annoy me because yeah, they’re very impressive feat of engineering and super useful but they’re also usually 1k apiece at the very least which makes them completely unaffordable for poor people

Aka the ones most likely to need them -_-

I’m starting to think Am just doesn’t want me to sleep x)

I was finally going to sleep at a reasonable ish hour of 11:30pm and she came to ask for a play, I ended up temporarily locking her out of the room: no peep until I started falling asleep again

Now it’s half past midnight, she’s locked out and seemingly content with it, we’ll see how it goes once I let go of the phone again

She uses this pillow more than I do x)

So cute I might spontaneously combust ❤️

So apparently I can hold it together re: Pouet only as long as no one who could understand how I feel about losing her asks me if I’ve found her yet

01:51am on a week night where I know I can’t leave the bed later than 8am, IF I even manage to sleep that long

Good decisions all around