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mythicaldemigoddess-of-deltarune · 1 year

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Why Do Acephobic Jerks Bring Out My Dark Side...

[Note: do NOT reblog without permission, also some of this will be mature talk, such as the type of people who believe “r*pe” fixes someone, but really it doesn’t and does more harm than good........this isn’t for little kids, and the tags will have “mature audience only” and “not for kids” along with other mature tags. also no one has to read this post, as it is optional....so only read this post if you want to.]

there is nothing wrong with being Ace or Aceflux, and even when I do flux some humans will still have a problem with my being Aceflux.

Toxic-Humans who seem to have a problem with Aces

and some who even agree to that "corrective r***" are going to be not attractive to me...

and those who do the corrective r*** might end up going to hell, and shouldn't even go to heaven.

even if other Earth Angels might disagree with me on that, but if some who are Acephobic cross that so called "corrective r***" line....then they should be punished for it.

I will NEVER forgive toxic-humans that think it's okay to do such a disgusting thing...

and there is some Aces that can be Bi, Vincian, Lesbian, Sapphic, Achillean, Enbian and Heteroromantic.

and it isn't right for both sides to try to force Aces to be interest in s*x in the same way that Heterosexuals or some who in the LGBT.

like one side saying that all Aces are Straight while the other says that all Aces are Gay......FYI, some Aces will be romantically attracted to the opposite gender or the same gender or both, not all Aces are gonna be the same.

and even if I do know that not all people in the LGBT are jerks to Aces, I still would rather be a part of LGBTQIA.....

this is because of the jerks in LGBT who don't seem to want Aces to be part of them and say that all Aces are straight, and while some Aces are Heteroromantic-Ace or Heteroromantic-Aceflux, this isn't the case for all Aces...

plus I can be Aroaceflux and have another romantic identity added to it, meaning I wouldn't just be Aromantic-Flux....even though I know that I wasn't always Aromantic or Aroflux...

but that can be said for many who don't always start out as Aromantic but might become one later on...

I have had crushes before, and I even fell for the wrong type of guys, who I now know weren't the right type for me, and might of not really loved me for me....and I was a fool to trust them with my heart.

and besides being Aroaceflux, I know that I am a type of energy empath, and it might be possible that I have been picking up "lustful energies" that were not my own that would cause me to feel....

well let's say "turn on"....so I have another reason to wear my gem bracelets, besides the other reasons I wear them....

it is also to protect me from picking up those type of energies from people, that can fly around the air and end up in my space and cause me to feel it. besides those types of energies causing well that "switch".....

it might be possible that those energies can also cause seizures in children, some energies could be dangerous for babies and children who are empath, and if there is like too many people in a very big room, then the energies of those people will cause a overload to the body when the energy of those people end up being absorbed.

like even if you are minding your own business, and if you had seizures that aren't really the normal type, then you might end up having your body absorbing the energies of others that end up around the air.

some seizures will be energy based, and even if doctors try to solve the problem the same way they do with the seizures that don't happen because of energies....

they will only end up doing more harm than good and causing those who have energy based seizures own bodies to become addicted to the medicine....

I have learned that the best medicine for me, was moving away from the town that most of my seizures had happen in, because since moving to the town I live at now, I haven't had a seizure since, which I think might have to do with most of the places in the other town I had lived at before, had some bad energies in it.

it might not make sense to some, but not all seizures will be the type that will need the medicine, but even those who have energy based seizures will still be stuck taking it...

so far I'm the only Aroaceflux who has figured out they are a type of Empath and made sure to protect myself from other people's energies....

if I'm gonna feel any form of being "turn on" I rather it be on my body's terms when it flux to that, and not because of outside energy that belongs to someone else.

if I had to pick a song that fits the foolishness on how some humans who put down other humans for being Ace or Aceflux....

it would be "You'll Never Win My Love" by Jem & The Holograms.

if I was ever harmed in that disgusting "corrective" way, and my big brother ever found out......it is possible he would beat the inhuman filth who would dare harm me in that way. even if we might not agree with each other at times, but I'm still his baby sister (I can still use the word "sister" because I'm a Enbirl...)

and if he found out that one of those sickos had deflowered me without me being okay with it.....then he would likely punch them and beat them senseless. but I rather him not cross the line when beating them up, even if they deserve the beating, I don't want him to cross a line.

if those sickos keep going down that disgusting path, then what will be waiting for them will be a very mad parent or sibling who will beat them up. and if it weren't for the fact I'm also using my gem bracelets as sealing charms and limiters....

I would possibly go "Alessa Gillespie" on those sickos...

I love Silent Hill....I hope there will be a third movie someday. I still haven't beat the Silent Hill games I have, I know I'm stuck on some parts of the one where you play as Heather.

one of the reasons why I decided to use my gem bracelets as sealing charms and limiters, so I don't end up like Alessa Gillespie or Carrie White....

even if there are some people who are Acephobic, at least some of them know not to cross that disgusting line to try to “fix” someone.

that isn’t love, that is a heartless and loveless action that will only end up hurting the person, possibly both mentally and emotionally.

that isn’t “fixing” someone, that is breaking them to the point where they might never be the same again, and would probably have to therapy to talk about the trauma that was done to them.

it isn’t right and it sucks that humans like that can both trigger and bring out a dark side of myself.

maybe the song that would match me when having to put up with Acephobic jerks, would be “Never Fall In Love Again” by Evan Rachel Wood.

“they can’t tell me what’s all about, cause I been there and I’m glad I’m out.”

and if I give my heart to someone who’s Acephobic, my heart is likely to shatter.

also is it weird to have thoughts of wanting to punch both Asmodeus and Raphael...?

I have my reasons of wanting to punch and or slap those two....

I’m still gonna have Raphael on that restraining order, he is still not allowed near me, like we could be in the same house and he could be in the other room, but he isn’t allowed to come too close to me.

and yes I had prayed for that restraining order, why I had to do it, I don’t want to explain about it right now...but I will say this, if it is true that Raphael has a pranking side to himself, he needs to learn there is a time and place for that.

and well, Asmodeus just confuses me, and yes I know he is suppose to be the embodiment of lust, but that ain’t what is confusing me.

maybe I can talk about the confusing thing with Asmodeus another time...

but I don’t think I will ever truly understand or accept Acephobia.

or why some humans think it’s okay to do that disgusting “fix” and think it is a good thing when it isn’t, it is loveless and heartless and will only do more harm than good.

maybe it be best to try not to let those Acephobic jerks as well as those who do that whole stupid “fix” thing, get to me.

maybe talking about this once in a while in maybe a much calmer way might be good at times, but not all the time, maybe only once in a while.

I don’t think I was in a calm mood when first getting some of the feelings out about those who r*pe just to, well you know....but it isn’t okay no matter if it’s that stupid disgusting “fixing” or the other...

I know my family wouldn’t cross that disgusting line, even if I know they might not understand why I’m Aroaceflux, and might not know there will be some Aces who will be Heteroromantic and not all Aces will be the same.

I still can’t talk to them about it, I did want to come out as Aceflux, but like I said before, I wanted to get my family’s thoughts on Asexuality first before I came out.

like I said the other few times when I told this story, it didn’t turn out well, and I had to act like the talk wasn’t about me, and once I was in my room I let myself cry.

sometimes you can’t come out to your family, and that is the case with me.

I don’t think my family are like those Acephobic jerks and some of who end up crossing lines that shouldn’t be crossed.

I wonder if I talked to my big brother about it, would he accept me for being Aroaceflux...?

maybe I can ask him to promise not to tell anyone else in our family about it.

weird, for some reason right now, tears started to come out of my eyes...

maybe a part of me is worried that he might not accept me being Aroaceflux either.

I don’t know, but maybe if I try to do some stuff to take my mind off of it.

maybe it is possible to build up a immunity to some energies if your a energy empath, I’m not sure....I will have to look it up and see if it is possible.

I’m still gonna wear my gem bracelets when I sleep, to protect me for outside energies, and because of certain reasons I can’t use my dream-catcher for a while, I will still use one of my other gems as a alternative.

maybe after I check out a few arts on here, and then go and read, I can try to do some meditation, or maybe play some video games....

then again, maybe I can just check a few arts on here, read a little bit and then go to bed early....cause I just want to lay down and try to relax and not think about how stupid some toxic-humans are.

I hope some can understand my thoughts and feelings, and it doesn’t get misinterpreted.

no sane person would be okay with that sick and twisted thing that goes on.

even if you could write some mature fan fic or write a movie or video game with that kind of thing in it, but at least have the sicko get the karma where their actions have consequences.

I would feel safer with The Radio Demon from Hazbin Hotel, than dangerous Acephobic Humans....yeah a Defective Earth Angel feeling more safer around a someone like Alastor, makes you question half of humanity that make up half of Omnimanity....

Alastor is still funny though, he’s dangerous but funny.

also I know I don’t know many empaths, and I didn’t even know I was one before when I kept having seizures in the places where I use to live before living in the town I live at now, because for some reason they stop all together.

I don’t think my family believes me or takes me seriously about my talking about that my seizures might be energy based.

heck, even I know that some who read this, wont take it seriously and only maybe a small half will and understand that not all seizures will be the same.

plus it’s like you can write mature stuff in some fan fic, like some stuff that is “snu-snu” implied but not really feel anything towards it.

I guess that might be confusing to some, but it’s like if you think about a mature scene from like one of the Deadpool Movies, but you don’t really feel anything about the scene...maybe some who read this might get what I’m trying to say.

or like if you think about the mature private time scenes in Mass Effect video game, where Shepard ends up having well “snu-snu” with one of the love interests, and you might end up finding yourself not really feeling anything towards it, like you know in the s*xual way....

maybe some will understand what I mean, and some might be considered lucky to not have their body go through well feeling “turn on” out of the blue, and finding out it is because half the time it isn’t you, it’s someone’s energy going through the air and your just ending up absorbing it.

and yeah, some people get some things wrong about that type of energy empath thing...

I mean, you don’t have to make physical contact for it to happen.

and I’m not sure if gem protection will work for everyone, and then there is the possibility you will still be valuable when you go to sleep.

and maybe I’m not the only one who gets all “dark side” when it comes to humans who are Acephobic or like thinking that their way of “fixing” solves everything, what they are doing is making some real life human less attractive.

and is it weird to have thoughts that Acephobics are possibly gonna be the reasons why I don’t want to fall in love.

like maybe some might have those thoughts, I don’t know...

but I know that some who are Acephobic, just don’t care or understand.

they will possibly keep thinking that s*x is more important or like only being s*xually attracted to someone...well it sure seems that way.

it’s like “oh you should be really into s*x” or like “hey, why aren’t you into s*x, maybe you should try it.” or them being all “you just need to do it.”

DON’T FREAKING TELL ME TO DO IT JUST BECAUSE YOU PUT IT AS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE THE FEELING THAT SHOULD BE IN THE HEART, I AM NOT GONNA DO IT BECAUSE YOU ACEPHOBIC JERKS THINK IT’S MORE IMPORTANT THAN IT BEING BALANCED OUT WITH THE HEART FEELING!

sorry everyone, but with how some Acephobic people are, they are basically acting high on s*x and they are kind of making it seem that is the only thing that is important.

I can’t be the only one who views it that way, because it really does seem that some humans thinks s*x is more important and some who are Ace or Aceflux are just something alien to them, and they just assume that all Aces are straight or gay, not all Aces will be the same and we know that it will be the Toxic-Straights who will be the ones who believe that all Aces are Gay, same goes for some who are in LGBT who believe all Aces are straight.

I know that not everyone in LGBT are jerks to Aces, there are some good people in LGBT who aren’t insensitive jerks to those who are Ace.

and I don’t want there to be a misunderstanding with the good people in LGBT, and I hope they understand why I would rather be part of LGBTQIA, because at least in the Multi-A in it, the Ace is included in a fair way, right...?

I’m still not sure if I am Intersex, even if I have suspected it but I am really not sure anymore, there are different types of Intersex, and not all will be noticeable after you are born.

I know that the “I” in LGBTQIA, stands for Intersex.

if there was a blood test I could do, that can show me if I’m Intersex or not, that would be great.

I mean they have that home blood test, that let’s you see what your blood type is, why can’t there be one where it can tell you if your Intersex or not.

and I can’t talk to my family about it, and it’s not likely I can get a doctor to help with it.

and there are reasons why I suspected that I might be Intersex, but maybe I’m not.

maybe I shouldn’t worry about it right now, I’m still unsure about it.

anyway, I hope some you understand why some humans who do that disgusting stuff and half of them might be acephobic, peeve me off.

maybe whenever people like that peeve me off, I should try to do stuff that calms me and helps me relax, like maybe listening to some music and reading, and saving playing video games with fighting in it for later.

I can’t help but love using the bat in Fallout 4, and I was finally able to upgrade one of the bats.

it does seem the bat gets a bit more powerful when you upgrade it in the game.

anyway I’m just gonna go and check out a few arts on here, and then maybe in the next post, I can talk about some fun stuff like fan theories about a show or movie or video game or book series.

#r*pe mention #acephobic #acephobes fuck off #deflowering #aroaceflux #empath #may be triggering #dark side #mature audiences only #mature warning #not for kids #do not reblog without permission

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ruporas · 1 year

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asking and receiving (bonus below readmore)

[ID: A black and white, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood. In the first panel is a close up of Wolfwood's mouth as he says, "Vash". Accompanying it is a close up shot of Vash's eye, widen and cheeks flushed. Wolfwood presses a knee against the open space between Vash's legs and says, "Tell me everything you want from me." Wolfwood's face is equally as flushed. He continues to say, "I'll give it to you. Everything." As he talks, a wide shot shows the both of them in white space. Vash is sitting, leaning a little back with both hands pressed against the surface he's sitting on. Wolfwood is in his white dress shirt, stripped of the blazer. He's still leaning in with one knee in between Vash's spread legs, his right hand touching Vash's lips and his left hand behind his back.

The shot closes in on Vash's mouth and Wolfwood's hand against it, pressing down on the lower lip as he says, "You have to ask though. Go on." His hand moves down to Vash's chin, gently holding it. With a shy and uncertain expression, Vash hesitantly asks, "Um... K... Kiss... Please?" Wolfwood, without wasting a second, leans in and kisses him and indulges by pressing deeper, eliciting a small noise of surprise from Vash.

Wolfwood moves away from Vash first and with a smile, asks, "What else?" Vash tugs on Wolfwood's left sleeve, wordlessly budging Wolfwood to give him his hand that was still behind his back. In the next panel, Vash utters, "Hold me..?" He's holding Wolfwood's left hand with his own while his right hand is reaching for his waist. Wolfwood complies, moving his left hand to Vash's shoulder and his right hand continues to touch Vash's cheek. Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

More comfortable now, Vash leans in to kiss Wolfwood. Wolfwood catches him immediately, pressing his thumb against Vash's lips to stop him before demanding, "Hey. Ask." Vash looks back in surprise and Wolfwood meets his eye with a quiet, insistent look. They're quiet for a moment before Vash leans in again and curtly requests, "Kiss. Me." Wolfwood says "Good", smiling as he lifts his hand away, and meets Vash's lips. In the next shot, Wolfwood had adjusted his position, sitting on Vash's thigh. The hand that was once on Vash's cheek has moved its way to Vash's nape, pushing away the collar of his jacket with his pinky. His other hand continues to grip on Vash's shoulder. Still kissing, Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

In the next shot, Vash is starting to turn, moving Wolfwood with him. Vash asks, "Let me on top of you?" Wolfwood says, "Mhm" before asking again, "What else?" The next panel shows a close look of Vash's face. He's looking down, flushed and shy just as he had been at the beginning, but now, more decisive. Vash asks, "Wolfwood... Let me have you..?" A panel of Wolfwood taking Vash's hand into his, pulling it towards his chest. The next panel shows Wolfwood lying down where Vash had laid him. Vash's hand is on Wolfwood's chest, covering the cross of his rosary while Wolfwood's hand lingers against his, loosely pressing Vash's hand in place. He looks up at Vash with a shy smile of his own, flushed cheeks. He says, "All yours."

A panel shows a close up of Vash's tender gaze before he leans down to be closer to Wolfwood. The final shot is a front view of their positions, Vash's face turned away from the viewer; Vash is leaning over Wolfwood who's lying down with his right leg draped over Vash's legs. Wolfwood's left hand holds onto Vash's left arm. With finality, Vash says, "...Mine." End ID]

[ID: A follow up bonus comic in a looser, sketchier style. They're laying comfortably in bed when Vash asks, "What was that earlier?" referecing to the start of the previous comic. Wolfwood glances away and says, "To get you used to it. Asking. And getting what you ask for. Since you're alwasy hesitant about it." Vash's eyes widen, tight lipped. Wolfwood continues, "Knowing you, it'll be a tough habit to break..." When he says this, Vash can't help but laugh, unable to deny it. Wolfwood slowly brings a hand to Vash's cheek and continues to say, "So I'll keep trying -- whatever ways I can... to get it through your thick skull." Vash takes Wolfwood's hand with his, kissing the the palm gently. Wolfwood's eyes soften and holding onto Vash's cheek, he leans in to try for a kiss. Vash says, "Hey..." before stopping Wolfwood's lips with the back of his hand, a smug look on his face, "Ask." Wolfwood's embarrassed and with little irritation, asks, "Really?" Vash smiles, saying, "You're in need of practice too." They pause for a moment, Wolfwood looking contemplatively, before he's leaning in again, asking, "May I please kiss you?" Vash looks him in the eyes and says, "Yes." The comic ends with a "chu", indicating an off-panel kiss. End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #it took me so long to post this even after getting clarification about the maturity warning and stuff #bc i am so shy about it. SDGMKDSGMKSD I LIKE THIS COMIC BUT IM ALSO SO LIKE... AUGHHHH....#when i posted this on twitter though it was like... a few days after ep 11? ive always had the thought circling about vash deserving of #asking for things... and getting what he wants bc he never gets both. doesn't get the opportunity to ask and hardly does he get what he want #maybe the results can go in his favor but at some point along the way he'll still lose something bc nothing can ever go perfectly for him...#and he's usually the one begging and pleading with people to not. do something. it's not even asking at that point it's just straight up #please believe me. please trust me. please don't shoot that person. please don't kill anyone. please don't do it.#and wolfwood.... it was not always this lovey dovey ok. he wouldv noticed this habit miles away and they got into a fight about it the first #time they talked about it bc wolfwood is being hypocritical too. as he always is!!!! but i think as they get more intimate #wolfwood finds ways to make vash understand. smth smth insatiable want and love and desire for wolfwood that makes it much easier to ask.#wolfwood can also just be so compliant. sometimes. which is also an issue in of itself that id love to explore at some point #but he also just enjoys giving into vash fully and completely.#bc he loves him a lot. but anyway #i hope the id is comprehendible.... please lmk if there's something wrong with how im doing it asfdgkdsmgs #ruporas art

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