#may still ponder this

[mortispoxi]

Ponder Stibbon and Rincewind’s entire friendship is built on commiserating over the abuse they endure from the faculty because misery apparently makes for good company

#discworld #rincewind #ponder stibbons #gnu terry pratchett #they may have barely interacted with each other in canon #but that still doesn’t stop me from headcanoning them as friends #mp

[starsailores]

anyone else thinking about kell maresh right now

#he made me realise i may be bisexual #i mean. uh. he's so. #a darker shade of magic #kell maresh #had a dream about a gay love affair with him the other day. still pondering

[roychewtoy]

impaled

#nathan being impaled on that tetanus inducing loose steel pipe. tho tetanus is the least of his worries on account of. well u know 🕳 #nathan can be a body horror fans best friend if u let him into ur heart. living human crash dummy #i really cant believe he gets impaled. twice. #hole moment! #love turning nathans immortality round in my head. but healing factor....? #thinkin today about how the video game guy tim threatens to cut one of them in half with a chainsaw and simon is like: #[😐nathan u obviously have to volunteer] #but what woulda actually happened if that followed through [probably why it didnt lol] #would the others have had to drag each severed bit of him back to the community centre and let his guts re fuse #fucking hold him together with gaffer tape and plasters. cause i doubt he coulda regrown a whole half #his 'healing factor' only comes into play when he dies. fresh canvas etch a sketch reboot and all that. hes not fuckin wolverine #all the deaths r: impaled on fence. impaled on pipe. beaten to death. blows his own brains out. falls and snaps his neck #but chainsaw... ? one can ponder. fingers to head i can imagine anything image #readin his wiki rn 'his body will never get sick. rot. age. or truly grow old' #may not get sick but he can still shit his guts out. hashtag oblivious lactose intolerant king hashtag milk drinker #forever the worlds most annoying twenty yr old #and then the wiki goes 'the user does not need to eat drink or breathe' ....hello #ive rotated him not aging any further cause it lines up with the whole stuck in his ways. never changing [kelly voice: its just who u are] #but eatin and drinking and breathing??? we know he still experiences hunger [<-kebab] #and he dunks his head in a bucket of water when hes testin for powers with simon. gaspin for air afterwards right #firm believer in the. he suffocated to death several times in the coffin before they dug him up #oh waaait. is it stating this like. he doesnt need foodwaterair. cause it doesnt matter if he dies.. ohhhhhh..... Oh..😃 #staring at nathan sleeping in the community centre surviving on bags of crisps from the vendies so hard i burn holes through my monitor #this got away from me. uh. living crash dummy. oil pastel guts and water colour jumpsuit yessir #having fun doin art. expect more hole art. sorryfor putting this in the misfits tag hehe. not really #gore #blood #misfits #my art #chewtoy

[walker-lister]

I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.

#just something i've been pondering the last few days #kind of like no matter how much people debate or i suppose theoretically deconstruct media featuring queer stories #the most important thing is how it makes a queer person feel #and I do think it is of course a good thing to ensure queer stories are executed with respect and authenticity #but there's this grey area in fandom spaces in which people may have found rep from a 'unreliable' source i suppose #or something which is queerbaiting- sherlock springs to mind for example yet if people have been able to explore and nurture their own #queerness through that media does that therefore mean their experience is invalid? i don't think so #and my worry is the more we focus on theory the less we focus on emotion and therefore the actual queer experience itself #and sure theory can inform the queer experience and ensure the media is a 'healthy' site of queer identity formation and identity aid #but at the same time scorning or being rude to those who have found certain media an aid is not the right approach to be taking #especially as queer experiences are so wide ranging that one person's idea of 'good' representation is someone's else's of 'bad' #and that unless a piece of media is clearly offensive in its portrayal of queer experience there has to be some benefit of doubt #I think we're still in a period of progression in media espc tv where queer creators are coming to the fore of their own stories #and we've got to 'live and let live' a little about where people are finding sights of queer validation and joy #and perhaps this a naive and simplistic way of thinking but i think queer people can either recognise when something isn't the best rep #but was helpful for them anyway and therefore in a way confer 'ownership' of the media to themselves in how they engage #or there is variety in queer experiences represented in media so that perhaps not everyone finds a 'site' of rep but that does not #therefore invalidate it or make it 'bad' representation #this is just my opinion and it'd be hypocritical for me to not now mention this is only formed from my own queer experience lol #so i'm not trying to tell anyone how to feel or anything just something i'm pondering

[paperhats-and-evil-schemes]

You know, I think what i fear most about all these soulless Disney remakes is that one day they'll take Hunchback of Notre Dame, one of the strongest and most daring Disney movies ever in its depiction of showing the dark sides of religion without demonizing faith as a whole, and that they'll take Judge Claude Frollo and either make him "sympathetic" or way less extreme than in the original, since Disney is nowhere near as ballsy to do something like directly criticize religious extremists anymore, I think, and that would just DESTROY the great impact that movie's messaging had.

That's not to say I have anything against sympathetic villains, but Frollo is one that was so strong BECAUSE of how awful he was and the position he held, and that fierce kind of villainy should NEVER be changed in his case imo. Very strong teaching moments in there for kids.

#Not that any kids these days are watching Notre Dame or anything 😂 But yeah. #Hunchback of Notre Dame was literally the movie that helped make it click for me that my parents were NOT very good people actually #Kids need these kinds of movies to help them learn when they're being manipulated for the worse #and it would be a shame if this strong example of that were given a crappy half-baked shlop of the original story #It wasn't Little Mermaid specifically that got me thinking abt this bc Ursula was actually still decently evil in it #But more stuff like Cruella and Pinocchio #Well anyways. I'm sure this has been pondered on in much better ways already. I'm just ready to fight someone if they dare change Hunchback #May be the only situation that being a financial flop might be good for it lol hopefully Disney will leave it alone rather than crap on it #In a shitty remake I mean #Frollo is a goddamn legendary untouchable villain and I just KNOW a remake would ruin him #Wow sorry for the random and completely irrelevant rant but I just feel VERY strongly about this lol #OP #Disney #the hunchback of notre dame

[sucker-for-sniffles]

Hi to the handful of people who said more Robin and Harper (prince and knight duo) do y’all have anything in particular it would be fun to see because I very much want to write more for them but my ideas are all non-snz stuff so if there are requests I am Looking

#bloop #obviously it’s also fine if not I’ve posted one (1) fic of them I don’t expect anyone to be like. familiar or invested in them lmao #there will inevitably be more of them either way but now is a good time to give Thoughts if you have them #fwiw I don’t think Harper has any major/common allergies but I am pondering like #there’s a specific exotic perfume that sets him off that he hardly ever encounters #which of course makes the situation more dire when he does. :3 #hm. I may have given my own prompt but I still would love to hear ppl’s thoughts if there are any!

[krys-loves-otome]

OC Brain Rots #2: Miri, Magical Ancestry, and Mortality

Welcome back to OC Brain Rots, where I go off about an OC of mine and whatever it is that caused them to tickle my brain at the moment.

For this brain rot, I'm gonna be focusing on my Obey Me MC Miri since it's Nightbringer's one year anniversary (Happy Devil Day, Obey Me: Nightbringer, congrats), so it's a timely occasion to talk about her. Spoilers ahead, of course, as I'm gonna be going in depth about her ancestry (about Lilith and her history) and on a little more somber topic about her aging, since I've thinking about it ever since a light-hearted chat came up in game.

For basic info about Miri and my other dating sim OCs, check out the intro post here! For the previous brain rot post involving Abby and Thea and some of the events of Ikevamp's interlude, check here!

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For context, this line of thinking began with a chat with Luke and a dream he had of escorting Miri through town. He was older and taller and all those things he wants to be to impress her and be a cool angel and all that. They then make plans to make the escorting adventure happen for reals, as their current selves and they both had a good, cute, sweet time.

Then this sparked my brain into thinking of how aging works in this universe, especially with supernatural beings vs humans.

For Luke to be adult-sized, how long would that take? Do angels start as babies that mature eventually? I feel like I've seen a post before about how angels were created, not born like humans are. Maybe their appearance changes once they go up in rank? Or maturity is just a lot slower as they are (technically speaking) immortal?

Anyway, back to the topic at hand, when Luke gets older, so does everyone else, including Miri, our sorcerer with angel ancestors.

Technically.

Lilith had been reborn as a human, likely retaining some of her angel powers innately according to OG Lesson 16 (though not as powerful as when she was a full on angel), so I'm thinking that some of the longevity that angels have likely stayed some as well, making her lifespan longer than that of normal, non-magical humans. How many more years? Game doesn't specify, but I like to think that means Lilith's line had longer lifespans than most normal humans. 100s probably weren't a problem for Lilith to reach. Maybe even a bit longer? And this is also considering there isn't any other magical interference in her life.

Fast-forward a few generations and we get to Miri, a once ordinary human thrust into Devildom to take part in the Student Exchange Program at RAD. She gets her first rush of power when she makes her first pact with Mammon. As she gains more pacts, she gains more power. Around the time she's getting Asmo's pact, Solomon had lent her some of his power so she use it for a mission so she could earn Asmo's pact on her own. She uses this borrowed power to help Mammon, Levi, Beel, and herself escape Henry 1.0 by summoning Asmo and drawing out his power to charm Henry.

Asmo comments later that though she was on borrowed power, Miri drew out a lot more power out of him than Solomon had ever done and that was interesting, so he agreed to the pact after failing in her initial task because he was impressed by her innate power.

Her power grows so much in later lessons, it threatened the balance of magic between the three worlds. Solomon suggests she cut her pacts with the brothers, but she refuses to separate from the brothers. She eventually gains Lucifer's Ring of Light that dampens her power to a more manageable level. Solomon then takes her on as an apprentice so she can learn to use her power more effectively.

All this to say, Miri isn't your average human anymore (though she never really was, even from the start because of her ancestor Lilith).  So, her lifespan has likely been affected because of the influx of magical energy that human Lilith most likely didn't have. How much it has affected her remains to be seen.

So, if she hadn't had this magical boost from Lilith, the brothers, and whatever else comes along to affect her, she probably wouldn't live to see grown up Luke and he wouldn't be able to escort her through town like he wants to. Miri as of now? There's a chance for it now! Could she reach Solomon's age because of her power? At what age will she start getting wrinkles and grey streaks in her hair? 200s? 300s? Who knows!

Now the image of Old Lady Miri being escorted through town by Luke isn't such a sad image to me anymore. How before all the powers she gained, it would look like a young boy escorting an elderly woman through town, excitedly talking back and forth about baking and puzzles, to now leading to the image of the cool, older angel Luke that's taller and stronger escorting an older Miri with maybe some grey streaks in her hair but is still youthful in her eyes, excited for a day in town and all the things he wants to show her, both still talking excitedly about baking and puzzles.

And that's about it for this brain rot. Hope you guys enjoyed this little thought experiment and I hope to see you for the next brain rot session!

#krys's adventures in fanfiction #oc brain rot #obey me #obey me oc #miriam (obey me oc) #luke (obey me) #luke may be older than her but she still treats him like a younger brother #a very platonic relationship #he thinks she's cool and wants to impress her even though she's a human #it's his human friend/big sister! #it's a very sweet relationship #but now I'm thinking again of luke not aging like humans while Miri gets to old granny age and they have tea and cookies together #maybe Simeon comes along too #haven't gotten very far in season 4 but does he remain human? #does he get to age with Miri? #while Luke Solomon Raphael Thirteen and the demons watch them age while they stay the same? #an interesting thought to ponder #hmmm

[leieryx]

head hurty bo burty

#help #it’s warm out and my head hates me In particular #if I make it throughr this year I deserve to b #yea keeping that one in the mind space but I deserve GOOD THINGS #lord help me I gotta stay still enough to not hurt but we may have passed the point weehere I can do that #hgod ow #the shittiesy thing about migraines is screens make them worse but I can’t do anything else rn than look at some or ponder my eternal tormen #I about to give up on sleep I can’t be here #edit oh fuck it’s only 67 out. #I’m sure I’m gonna cope great this summer. for real

[corntort]

does Trace still make and lose bets in the dreamscape or does veruska console command his luck with them to get better

hrmmmm honestly probably he is a TIIIIINY bit less impulsive. but just because his whole sense of self has been kinda shaken up, he's generally much less talkative overall and so absorbed in his work he doesn't deem bets really worth his time anymore. if he had to he probably Would take a bet but it's just so far off his radar when he's holed up in his tiny mobile home all the time the opportunity doesn't really present itself

ALTHOUGH. i would think the dream counterparts of his coworkers might help him with equations/hypotheticals taken wildly out of contexts. he's stubborn and obstinate enough to brute force learning all the stuff he learned on sudra himself but if he hits a wall and can't move anywhere in his research he'll call one of them up.

and then the usual positing of "whoever figures this out first owes the other dinner." "Bet." happens

but again. very rare. and he doesn't trust anyone else with the specific details of his research, its all kept VERY VERY VAGUE when certain problems crop up to begin with.

#this may not make sense im starving and waiting for my foode to get here #rambles #ask #anonymous #trace av #him and hammond work a Little more together than he does with others but he's just so untrusting now even she's kept out of the loop #and she knows it. and she's Pissed about it. so she snoops #not that it matters or has any impact #she's just a dream version. so it won't really matter in the end #but the dreamscape has to be realistic so he doesn't understand #im still unraveling how athetos showed up in the dreamscape though. havent parsed my thoughts to any physics theories to it yet. but #if im being honest. those theories may not cut it this time around. ill think more about the ambiguous patternmind phenomena #because the answer prolly lies there. there's also that continuity note in av 1 that made me ponder. perhaps that pertains to patternminds? #i don't remember the specifics of the note at all #i gotta reread them. BUT i know it included the word 'euclid' in the first sentence #and i went haha like an scp

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by

#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about #but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were #and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat #as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like #a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain #it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot #i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds #i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh #political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore #they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get #but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk #i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers #here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now #it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths #i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how #burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that #i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up #could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan? #to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me #coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage #you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao #i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now #bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will #i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail #also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e #no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it #i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course #idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do #anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand #shai speaks

[robotpanties]

Speaking of spinning V1 in pretty skirt NOW!!! Spin!! (Gabriel catches sight of the pretty underwear it’s wearing under it and absndndbdn!2&3$379;;;)

.....YES

#i may be holding back a bit but #always liked the silly idea of it dressing up just for kicks and curiosity or being dressed by someone else #and not realizing in the beginning the things abt clothes that its for modesty and its “embarrassing” for it for someone to see under #otherwise the undergarments are practically just. accessories to it #it probably could figure out others reactions to it quickly and how to utilize it to its benefit but its still an optional accessory to it #and nothing more #now question. short skirt or long skirt? #.txt #hehe. i know its silly but everytime i try to ponder outfits for v1 to try it gets closer and closer to dressing like mirage #ik theyre separate characters but its fun to think abt it at some point getting closer to mirroring her

[arcxnumvitae]

If we’re talking about H.adestown inspirations...

Their voices from C.hant II scratch my brain so well

#'woman previously in loving marriage begins to resent it as she drifts away due to husband not realizing his actions were hurting her' #Fun fact: an original (and still possible I guess) 'bad ending' I had pondered was Eilidh basically making the deal with Aodh to have #six months of freedom in the mortal world and then she'd come back and spend the other six (or Seelie equivalent) with him #and thought about the ways in which is may have led her to become as jaded and resentful as H.adestown's P.ersephone had! #but anyways yeah haha their relationship was basically the inspiration for Eilidh and Aodh #:outofcash

[mrwonderful]

#like it's always been me just helping and that help not being considered enough #I don't have anything to show for all this pain #and it's only festering #and everyday is just worse #mentally #and I look around and everyone is part in parcel living the fragments of the life that I want so bad #and I'm so scared of just being alone #and this is it #how it is #my mom will pass #my promise unfulfilled and I'll be here making a life out of rubble that is hot to the touch with sister who will look up to me for support #and I won't have anything to give #liker the only way to go is forward yeah and eventually it'll get better whatever that may look like #but I don't want to climb mountains my whole life #like even if I garnish the things I want #if I'm able to just beat myself down enough to hamper all this internal shit I'm afraid I still won't be present enough to enjoy it #it's all I'm thinking about now and I daydream to much now about being dead #pondering more and more on what that'll be like #and I feel like I'm losing my mind #like if I have to step into another temporary situation #idk if I'll make it #I wish at the very least I had a disclaimer maybe then this would've been easier #everyone I ever loved is gone now or going and I can't stop myself from obsessing over the ends

[confused-beany]

2am brainrot ongoing and me thinks Fox and Professor Tatsume from Birdmen are/should be dating (or assume they are dating each other without having a conversation about it) based on,

1. they're kinda doing this co-parenting the Bird Club thing together

2. that One instance where Professor Tatsu listend to and saved Fox from Eishi's (rightful) wrath

3. I am ashamed to say that I need to read Birdmen again cause I don't remember everything but I think they spent significant amount of time together out of scene to compile their knowledge of the babies. Who knows what spending so much time with someone who's also invested in the same secret as you but knows different facets of it can do. Maybe they also had 2 am brainrots and kissed. Who knows. I sure as hell Don't but I Will wildly speculate

4. It'd be hilarious if Eishi had a gay crisis abou liking a guy that's so problematic and has trauma (maybe Takayama, maybe Rei vould be any of them really) and he was like who do I go for help maybe Marylin and she's like well Tatsu's dating Fox, who is problematic and also has trauma, so maybe go to him

#bonus: marilyn is Professor's ex and they broke up on bad terms #this is why he's a dick to her and she still stays go annoy the hell out of him #she may also become a part of the co-parenting couple and form a polycule #i'm just having thoughts #considering #ponderings #whatever you'd call it #birdmen #birdmen manga #bird #birdmen brainrot #professor #Tatsume Naoyuki #adam fox #what should their ship name be hmmm #idk #I'm just barely holding onto my sanity at this point can y'all tell I have not slept for 2 days or what #bird club #marilyn monroe #I need sleep but before that I need someone to tell me I'm insane so I can be sure I am insane and therefore I need sleep makes sense?

[sisterdivinium]

Think "necessity" of evil in the ultimate doing of good ("For God judged it better to bring good out of evil than not to permit any evil to exist"); sin/failure for the sake of elevation, personal and otherwise, and how each of the characters "falls" so that good may come of it somehow, be it in general knowledge, assistance in pursuing good or personal enlightenment.

I'm far too lacking in dogmatic understanding to pursue this specific angle of investigation the way I'd like to and it's driving me crazy.

#vincent the traitor who releases adriel and later repents yes - but this ultimately brings us to reya #who would've stayed in shadow otherwise and hidden the danger she represents. oh the blood that was shed #but the progression of history has required it always and a few cardinals slain in a hotel are a small price to pay #suzanne the prideful who must be bent into accepting and trusting the women around her eventually #who followed by shannon the wronged (innocent?) precipitates the rise of ava #ava whom suzanne also aids and could not have done so had she not fallen #beatrice the forsaken who carves a path towards herself by using her pain #and without whom the designated saviour would never be able to save anyone of course #mary the abandoned who pays for the sins of her mother and thus buys herself the family she needs #jillian the relentless whose curiosity is fed in morsels at the exchange of human life #but who does gain glimpses at Something and who does become more human herself through loss #lilith the heir whose arrogance costs her more than one family but who might well lead the way to new life #michael the lamb who dies so ava may find her own way towards achieving her goal #i know this isn't exactly dogmatic but still; i'm caught up with nathaniel hawthorne see #read the marble faun and you will understand where this is coming from #i remember being struck by how in starz' spartacus every single character action brought on new disaster #but here in warrior nun - as much as disaster is part of it - there seems to be a light at the end of each tunnel in a way #complications arise one after the other but there are gains along the way #i shall ponder a good while more #if for no other reason than babbling in the tags like this is unacceptable #i was raised a civilised woman and i will write cohesive ordered texts like one! (eventually!) #analysis and similar #exercises in observation

[aesthetiicly]

wanting to study abroad but also being terrified at the thought of being alone

#bc I just know I’ll be an anxious wreck #debating whether to do one law unit intensively for a week in Berlin and then take an extra 3 weeks off to holiday around #OR to do exchange in Vienna Netherlands or Copenhagen #BUT LIKE #I think emotionally and mentally the Berlin option is more feasible .. also financially #but also ?!?? I CANT fathom doing it all alone #I already find law class in Australia so intimidating and I feel like I’m abt to have a panic attack every time I need to attend #so doing that in a foreign country WITH NO FRIENDS is a terrifying thought #but I still want to use especially the Berlin unit as another excuse to travel #also bc can get few help and potentially a scholarship for travel expenses etc #but then the question would be whether to do it this year or next …… #so much to ponder #UGH I should’ve made more friends in law to do some convincing! #and the one friend I thought who may wanna do this with me is doing exchange with her bf at some point so lol #</3 when the bf takes over rip