#maybe I am a coward

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

(volume warning)

this was surprisingly fun to make so i'll probably do another

#especially now this one is slightly outdated in terms of my personal style lmao #but its fun!! #i have a list of more vines to do!! #will probably go about making it in a different way tho!!! #gotta fuck around with brush settings and stuff #i fucked up a couple times w this one and its Evident once you Notice #but i learned a few things. i am... Improving. very slowly. #i think the thumbnails had more Personality to them. theyre funnier lmao #maybe one day ill even do animatics bc hoo Boy do i have ideas for those #but in order to do that i'll actually have to learn backgrounds and environments #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #also im posting this early bc im a coward <3

[obsob]

KISSING YOU mentally 

#mine #art #yes yes yes more cats i know yes #all my pencil stuff is not. done. im to busy for fun pencil #figured out my new prints!! am in the process of drawing them eheh #im looking forward to colouring them!! doing. pride month prints hehehe #ive had a good week! yay! #i ordered some lucy and yak dungarees which arrived today im very happy about them #i ordered some off depop n i loved them so. i bough some new...n actually th right size #i had to buy size 10!! im never size 10! my other ones r szie 12 n they like. fit. but they r. a little large #not so much they look insane but. 10 fits better #when its autumn i may buy some....cord ones >:) hehe #im like slowly figuring out i am actually size small in most clothing #like for years ive just bought large size bc im like yeah thats how big i am. wrong. #like i bought a small size shirt n it like. fits me. n i was like ough. #im slowly. actually buying clothes that r my style. slowly #i want skirts and dresses but im a coward #maybe one day!!!!

[nedeii]

wip X2

#i never post them but maybe it wouldn't be all that bad idk #still having some weird mental hurtles to traverse >_> #and explore #and learn from #kicking my perfectionism to the other edge of the universe would be step no 1 #i used to be way less scared and going through my oooold stuff there's a sense of freedom i kind of like #and now i visibly lack it #SO MAYBE I WONT FIX THOSE WONKY SHOES WHEN RENDERING #WHO KNOWS #anyway #hello tumblr #I'll try not to be a coward and post something sometime #thanks for sticking around #sky 星を紡ぐ子どもたち #thatskygame #wip #skyblr #are these too many hashtags am i going to face THE CONSQUENCES is this instagram if you post more than x you PERISH ohnoohno

[cosmothealien358]

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

Y’all don’t understand- I saw the spoilers and I’m hanging onto every last hope that LEGO canonizes this despite what was (probably) confirmed in the captions. Cole being queer is actually so important tho. It makes so much sense for his character. Man’s popped up on screen in 2011 and has been covered in rainbows ever since. I could write an essay on the obvious queercoding of his character since season 1, and with Geo, it’s one agonizing step closer to switching from subtext to text. This would be a bigger step for LEGO than having queer background characters or pride stickers, but it would mean so much to its queer audience. And, again, it fits Cole, especially with his current relationship with Geo.

Please LEGO just do it, it’d be so easy, just one kiss or one scene. PLEASE.

#ninjago #dragons rising season 2 spoilers #ninjago dr #cole brookstone #gay cole #ninjago dr s2 rant #Seriously LEGO are cowards if they don’t make it official soon #This your chance to redeem yourself Ninjago! Pls!! #Let Cole out of the closet #It doesn’t even have to be with Geo just make him queer #And yes I am very much struggling after the reveal #Like? Maybe Sora transitions to male and that’s Wyldfire’s bf? #Maybe Cole doesn’t count bc Geo is ALREADY his bf/husband? #Maybe the subtitles were wrong or they are trolling us? #Idk so many loopholes 😭 grasping for straws here guys

[peppermintbits]

My personal highlight reel from the Westminster Dog Show yesterday. ✨ 🐶

The silly faces club

🧡 Pomeranian Fan Cam 🧡

Dinero's Angelic Eyes 👀....vs Jolene's Glorious Wizard Beard

And finally...Our Lord And Savior; Stache.

#westminster #westminster dog show #doggo #dogs #dog show #thanksgiving #thanksgiving dog show #dog show 2023 #pomeranian #doberman #victory for king Stache #Jolene's registered name is “Steal My Man” 😭 #terrier #cute cute cute #cuuuuuuuuuuute #fluffy #I love dogs #They are all best in show to ME!!! #Maybe one day a corgi will win in my presence.... #Let the Maltipoo in cowards(I am very bias)

[loving-n0t-heyting]

once someone a couple edges removed from me on the social graph got ahold of my phone number and called me up to discuss smth confidentially. she was very polite, and after a few pleasantries basically asked, "are you interested in saving the world? or do you crave comfort?" and i asked what she meant by craving comfort, and she told me, yk that feeling when you get headpats for being a good girl? are you interested in utterly forsaking it except as a means to an end, to optimise the outcome of this timeline? and i answered honestly: no, comfort seems pretty good/important at least in moderate doses. then she very politely told me that well then we have nothing more to discuss

it turned out later she was... very dangerous. like, from all i can gather, terroristically so. this was the consensus opinion of various extremist radicals in her/my social circle, who would openly and often unnervingly/provocatively extol the merits of violence, sacrifice, and coldblooded utilitarian pursuit of the good at the expense of petty concerns liberal pussies identify as "having a moral compass". by even their lights, this was a really disturbingly threatening individual

i think about this exchange sometimes

#faildaughters of the world unite #she is dead now #i hope the next world is kinder to her than this one was #maybe i am just a coward. who knows.

[angrylesbianstereotype]

#am i outing myself as a monsterfucker here? i mean everyone wants to fuck vampires that’s not a me thing #maybe the true monsters are the answer limits that cockblocked us along the way #i only included the humanoid ones bc i’m a coward make your own poll #thc thoughts #poll

[timemachineyeah]

I think in the next Animal Crossing, you should have to earn your control over the environment. And I don’t just mean working to get terraforming, I mean, like, earning it before getting to decide where other people’s homes are and stuff.

Idk, the deserted island is fun but I kind of hope in the next one we’re back to being a new face in an already established rural community. And you can still progress to moving absolutely everything on the map and decorating each square foot and flower to your liking, but, like… these other people have lives of their own.

I like knowing a rando isn’t gonna move onto my carefully curated flowerbed and ruin my path, but I don’t like how much the villagers in ACNH feel like fashion accessories rather than neighbors.

#timemachine wuz here #acnh #animal crossing #also Isabelle should be mayor #also I know I said this before the last game but we should get to choose a biome #and maybe even change the biome later idc #it’s not that I am opposed to godlike control of town aesthetics #I miss being able to choose themes for public buildings like let me redesign town hall cowards #it’s that I don’t want the villagers to be just another piece of furniture #I want them to feel individual and relationships with them to matter #like in new leaf you had to have a good relationship with villagers before they’d request a public works project #so if you wanted to decorate your town you had to befriend your neighbors #and certain requests would only come from certain personalities #so you had to get to know ALL your neighbors #which gave you the reward or breaking through a cranky or snooty’s shell and seeing their dialogue change #not like the crafting recipes which might be personality locked but they’ll just give it to you #idk I just want to feel more cozy again. less Instagram more strange comedic zen garden with animal friends y’know?

[pigeonneaux]

Hey kääryleets, would you guys be interested in acrylic charms of my cha cha cha fanart? one drawing on each side and funky chains? i'm thinking preorders, one on each side of the charm and shiny effects....

many thoughts. many ideas.

wheeze

#been studying zap creative and alibaba tutorials #käärijä #but i need to know more than one person would be interested so i can actually start it because i am a coward and also broke teehe #myart #acrylic charms #artist shop #cha cha cha #esc 2023 #merch #maybe i could make a new drawing like a catboy ro something #maytbe icip themed or kash idk #i like the idea of adding spikes. kaarijacore i have a couple of them and can order charm chains and hooks in great quantity

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[intotheelliwoods]

I got new glasses finally and my brain is ooaoaoaooaoa ooao um adjusting (im having a time)

#nonsense #I needed new glasses so bad #my old ones were straight up being held together by DUCT TAPE #but are the new duct tape free glasses worth the 3 day brain pain we will see #btw if you ever want to know what I look like I deadass look like chicken little #that meme of “stop saying I look like chicken little” but you see I actually look like chicken little and I am very much a coward #I know if I focus on 2al that will hopefully distract from the new glasses pain #.... do I post this on main or my goddamn turtle blog. #..... do I post this on my few hundred followers blog or my few thousands followers blog hmm. #god I really need to do a follower milestone thing #again probably maybe a dtiys #but uhhh ummmm erm after the twist how about that #anyways hello fandom sideblog my beloved how are there so many of you following me #what #WHAT what #slowly but surely getting used to the idea that im a “big” blog oops #im literally chicken little #why am I big #am I chicken big? #im chicken big. #goodbye #enjoy tag ramble

[landgraabbed]

sometimes you gotta take in the lil details

#non sims #i'll come up with a skyrim tag #in my tes era again #(always i just go sleeper agent on it ig) #still in my modding skyrim era i'm sick so that's not v conductive to me actually playing morrowind so this is what i've been doing #sad bc nammu made some good progress he joined house redoran he's actually level 3 and somehow keeps invading every vampire tomb #(i run away bc i cannot deal w that right now) #his slave bracers finally broke off <3 #i'll compile some screens and post tomorrow maybe #i truly am the people todd coward thinks about when bethany esda is concocting the latest installment of weird ass lore told through #environmental storytelling and esoteric books and an open world crafted with meticulous detail cursed with bugs up the wazoo #but yeah modding skyrim is being surprisingly fun after i figured out mod organizer #i have bookmarked some mods that require me to regen lods dyndolod or whatever it's called but i'll do that at the end #at least in morrowind that's how i do it #i did my engine fixes my bug fixes my graphics and sounds overhauls my model replacers enb landscapes and now my cities and locations mods #armor next and then i'll start overhauling combat #i'm gunning for dark souls like bc that combat style suits me rly well and i always hated melee in skyrim #(re: armors sforz i looked at your imitations previews and i'm in love i'll have fun experimenting w/ them i owe u my life) #but yeah...... 99% of my skyrim experience has been in ps save for a brief moment i pirated it on release on my shitty laptop i had then #it's been wonderful to actually mod it

[finncakes]

Do you feel like Ashton and Orym are avoiding speaking to each other? I've seen a few others mention it and it feels like they have plenty of opportunities to talk but don't

OH YEAH ABSOLUTELY.

i feel like ever since their talk in ep 40 there's been smth off between them versus before. extremely long rambling under the cut i am so sorry these two change my brain chemistry

personally i think on orym's side he doesn't like someone who's able to read him this well. i think it's esp interesting cause ashton in ep 40 said "i know you're not okay." rather than asking if orym was okay, feel like that makes orym uncomfortable. someone not evening giving him a chance to continuing putting on his strong exterior. probably last person able to read past his bullshit was well...will, derrig or his mother.

ashton i think seems afraid of how easily they open up to orym. just like ashton sees through orym's, orym sees through ashton's bullshit. they've almost started to say things to orym & just abruptly cut off (and it's killing me!!! ashton i am shaking you by the shoulders what were you gonna say!!!). they want to be ready to talk to him but they aren't cause once they start i don't think they'll be able to keep everything in. knowing how much this group is players who embody their character nearly 24/7 (i do it too agfgh), i was esp sad seeing ashton after the battle. look like they were holding back fuckin tears man (orym too).

both of them are feeling small and lost and i think once they do talk? it'll be big for them internally because they read eachother so well and are a lot more similar than they originally thought. ESP seeing even slivers of how orym copes with things this awful. seems like ash & him cope more similarly than i would've figured. also makes me worried for those 6 years orym was lost for....girl what happened...

in general i think their talk in ep 40 made all their similairties and abilities to just see straight through eachother more apparent to them both. and that's sorta scary for both of them, hence why they're just avoiding it. easier to ignore it than sit down and talk to someone who you know will see a very vulnerable version of you whether you like it or not.

#asks #anon #liam i am BEGGING you to see the motherfucker right infront of orym #you went insane for essek & his similarities to caleb pls do the same for my punk rock #also been losing my mind at the FACES ashton keeps making when orym talks they look so sad for him #i have an inkling ashton was gonna talk to orym before bor'dor ended up doing so #tal was doing that Thing he does before he wants to do rp where he like rapidly looks at matt and the person he wants to rp with #girl calm down it's ok #but YEAH they're driving me insane TALK TO EACHOTHER U COWARDS #WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? REALIZING YOU CAN BE VULNERABLE WITH EACHOTHER? MAYBE HAVING FEELINGS? #COWARDS !!! #also saw someone say ashton might be feeling a lil hurt seeing orym go talk to all these other people after they offered their shoulder #i can very much see that

[theangrypomeranian]

when you want to be friends with people but you're shy and let that impede everything in your life 🙃

#pom ponders #everyone is talking and i wanna talk but reaching out makes me wanna throw up #i call it being cripplingly shy #and for those who have maybe tried reaching out and i didn’t respond...I'm sorry i am a coward

[ourformers]

Probably won't finish this so here it is

The captain and the medic

Minus Maximinus and Stargate

If you have any questions about them send an ask! (this is a threat)

#Minus #Stargate #Maccadam #tf ocs #tf oc #transformers oc #Stargate is Kittycookies's oc #Minus is a fucking train wreck of a mech but Stargate is slowly helping him through it and in return #Maybe the two grow a little less worse together. Grow a little better as time passes #Minus will Not touch anyone unless they touch him first #Here though. Only their little head pieces are touching so it doesn't count #Minus is the captain of a ship of people from both sides #He doesn't care what side they're on as longest they don't cause problems on purpose (he's the only exception) #That is because he never joined a side. Mechs might be surprised by this but he found it very easy to stay out of the war. He was just #Very stubborn about it #I probably won't draw him anytime soon so if you want to know anything about him or his relationship with Stargate send an ask #Or his very tragic backstory because boy does this guy have issues #And you know what? I will say it for I am no such thing as a coward #Reblogs are better than likes #Reblogs are like a bucket of very pretty crystals while Likes are like a boring little grey rock that dug a hole through your good shoe #King's shoodles

[currentlyonstandbi]

until capcom proves me otherwise, this is my interpretation of leon throughout the entire film

#dont get me wrong okay i loved the movie #and i could watch these guys get up to hijinx and shenanigans for another 10 films #BUT it being marketed as a sequel to vendetta really had me believing they would follow up on Leon's state of mind in that film #and what is clearly a massive struggle with alcoholism and depression #especially considering he seemed to be fine in this film from what we saw in trailers #so at least some sort of reference or indication as to how he seemed to be doing so much better all of a sudden #but there was none of that #other than Dylan's offhand comment in his speech about Leon being 'all burnt out' from the endless missions he's being dragged into #so i am now choosing to believe he is simply not okay #and that maybe he's managed to get a handle on the drinking but this man is still deep in the throes of major passive depression #and that's that on that ! #@ me about it capcom u cowards #resident evil #resident evil death island #re death island #re #death island spoilers #leon kennedy