#maybe I'll make a full version if someone asks really nicely

[the-punforgiven]

Y'all know that thing where your brain gets one song's instrumentals stuck in your head but pairs it with the lyrics from something else? 

Yeah

#this fucking thing has been stuck in my head for MONTHS #finally got around to throwing it in Audacity to inflict upon the masses #honestly though I'm really surprised how little work I actually had to do to put them together tbh #like they're pretty similar structurally so making this was kind of a breeze lowkey #Doom #maybe I'll make a full version if someone asks really nicely #Gwen Stefani #Mick Gordon #The Only Thing They Fear Is You #Hollaback Girl

[ofallthingsnasty]

my birthday gift? can i- can i really ask for something i want? well… can i move upstairs, kento? i-i promise i’ll behave… please… i feel so scared here everytime you go to work… (for nanamin since you said you write for jjk! hehe)

tags: yandere, past kidnapping, telltale signs of stockholm (uh oh)

The hand loosening his tie stills. 

His brows furrow, then his shoulder slacks. You know the gesture, Nanami is thinking about what to say. 

Strained eyes find yours, searching your face - for what, you don’t know. Is it too much to ask for? The flowers had been nice this morning, as far as twisted birthday wishes from the man who has kept you in his home for months go, but you getting a shred of human decency back seems more thoughtful than an elegant bouquet full of your favorites. You know by now that there is no way out of this situation and it would be nice to make your life more bearable. Access to a proper kitchen. A couch. Maybe you could watch TV?

A sigh. It's not born from annoyance (it never is, annoyance isn't something he seems to feel when it comes to you and you pray it stays that way) but resignation, from a heavy burden only he bears.

He’s taking too long to answer, you realize and a tiny spark of worry flits through your gut.

There is nothing to fear, you tell yourself.

He can be reasonable, pragmatic. Not manipulated but guided towards a more favorable outcome if your needs and wants are sensible, humble. 

Nanami isn't cruel. Somewhere in his mind, it all makes sense - and for the most part, you think you can follow him, can come to the same conclusions, to the most logical outcome. 

Maybe you’re finally going stir-crazy enough that you’d call your abductor reasonable. 

But he still knows something you don’t. This strange, silent man who comes home to you, clothes finely speckled with blood more often than not, lives in a different world from yours. Where someone leaves the house in a proper suit and a pinched face only to return late, with grip of steel on your shoulders and the smell of physical exertion on their clothes. Where it seems sane to kidnap someone unassuming like you and put them in a basement for safekeeping. 

There is something going on beyond your scope - you’d be stupid not to sense it by now, but you are starting to think that he’d rather die than tell you. 

“It’s not a matter of good behavior”, he finally says and his voice is guarded, cool. “It’s a matter of safety.” Safety. You’ve had this conversation many times, you think, this is just a different version of it. 

His rejection leaves your eyes hot - you feel like a scolded child being denied one too many treats. Maybe you’re just greedy. Trying your luck on an already excellent day. 

“But I’m scared-”, you push out quickly and let the words hang in the air, because they are true.

How many times have you thought about how long the water would last you down here if he ever bit off more than he could chew and never came home again (and you’re sure the day will come, you know it will), if anyone would ever go looking for you because you doubt a single person is aware of your presence. 

He pinches the bridge of his nose before you can spiral further, but the damage is done.

“I am aware”, he says, exhausted. “And I understand-”

The tears that finally spill from your eyes interrupt him.

He looks at you for a moment as you try to straighten yourself back out, ashamed of your hot temper cooking over and leaving you to show weakness in front of the one man you shouldn't.

His brow softens ever so slightly as he watches you, every crease caused by his work smoothed over with tenderness for your miserable state. It's humiliating.

"I understand your predicament. And I'll see what can be done."

You nod. Through the tears and the burning air in your nose, you nod. 

You know he means it. It's a promise when he says it like that - not a promise for you to finally get out of the dingy basement, but a promise to figure something out.

How much of your wish will come true will be up to his estimation but you allow yourself to feel a tiny glimmer of hope - and allow him to tuck you under his heavy arms as he unbottons his shirt ever so slightly, ending the conversation with the tiny gesture.

Yes, you’re definitely losing it to consider this exchange at least a partial success.

#tw.yandere #yandere jjk #yandere nanami #nanami kento x reader #nanami x reader #mini birthday event #jjk x reader

[vic-draws-sometimes]

We've discussed a lot of SoapGaz and PriceGaz, but there is one more. GhostGaz of the OF au.

FUCK. Gaz is immediately is told by Soap that Ghost is subbed. This gets him an idea... I mean, he needs to record this night, but his camera guy, and Soap are gone!! :[

He pretends to be shy and flustered as he asks if Ghost could help him film something... personal.

"I just need someone to hold the camera is all~ I promise I'll do extra laps in the morning if you want-" he doesn't do those extra laps because Ghost REALLY wants to do this and immediately says yes. Now Gaz is actually flustered because oh fuck my Lieutenant is so close, and he's watching every little movement!

Halfway through filming, Ghost just takes over, pulls out whatever silicone bs Gaz is using and puts on a condom[safety first both Gaz and Ghost agree] and with a lot of lube it becomes a POV video. Lord Gaz never felt it so rough, so he's like IN HEAVEN right now. Barely able to process how a humans hips can be so rough, precise AND FAST??? He's babbling nonsense at that point and Ghost has decided that this is not film he can use, putting the video down so he can out Gaz into a mating-press and JUST BLAM BLAM BL- Okay you get it I like rough Ghost.

Maybe there is a few spanks in between and the camera, though placed down randomly, still gets all of it.

Afterwards, Gaz being the freaky man he is, sees the condom about to be tied and tells Ghost, "Don't throw that away. Pour it on my face-"

.... that was the last clip of the video, was Gaz's cum filled face before it all cuts. They have a genuinely nice shower[Ghost incredible aftercare headcanon] and Gaz immediately says, "well I've got to do some editing in this-"

💀"You're actually gonna post that?"

🧢"Duh! I'll be sure to blur your tats so people don't know-"

💀"Why would I want that. Keep it how it is... can you send me the unedited version?"

🧢"Of course ♡"

It's rare for Gaz to post rough content, bit if he ever feels like he needs it, well, He can always just go to Ghost~

💀"Oh, Sergeant what brings you back to me?"

🧢"well... ///"

This man is so easily charmed by Gaz though he would easily bottom for him he wanted. AND THAT HAS BEEN ALSO RECORDED LMAO

'Fucking my L.T!? [Not clickbait] [GONE SEXUAL]' that's not actually the title but it's funny as fuck

Also Imma try to sign my asks now bc I'll probably dump this stuff on you a lot lmaoo

-❌️❌️❌️

You're so right for all of this!!

I hinted at Gaz sending private videos to Ghost as well, and I stand by that.

Before I start rambling here's some drawings of Ghost absolutely destroying Gaz

At first Ghost is hesitant. ''Are you sure you want this?'' he's alright being a regular subscriber, but Gaz is adamant that yes, he trusts him.

And he doesn't regret it one bit. Ghost takes full advantage of Kyle's background as a gymnast. He manhandles him like he's a puppet and folds him as much as he physically can.

Also if you're wondering why Kyle is apologizing to him... He admitted to teasing Ghost for two whole weeks, making his life a living hell by constantly making sure he's on his mind. He sent him pictures in the middle of the day, random messages and looks from across a room. Ghost was starting to get heated under his mask.

#poly 141 #ghostgaz

[cyarikakay]

In Every Universe I’ll Find My Way Back To You

In Every Universe I'll Find My Way Back to You

Hey guys, Welcome to chapter 4!! Thank you so much for the love on the previous parts of this fic!🖤 This part is a little bit longer. The next chapter I hope to have ready soon! Thank you all again for the support.

Some warnings for this chapter. Language, Jealous!Joel, Weapons, Age gap. I believe that is all if I missed anything I apologize.

Chapter 4: Battle of Malevolence VS Forgiveness

      The walk toward the Capitol was filled with a heavy feeling in the air.

You didn’t want to be angry at anyone, your goal was to just just keep peace. Pretend you didn’t know anything. Now here you are pissed off at half of the group. 

Ellie trailed along behind Tess with you in the middle and Joel closely behind.

She tried to continue to lighten the mood, she made little jokes here and there but none of us adults were really having it. 

“Y/n?” she whispered.

“Yes, Ellie?” It came out as more of a sigh than you intended it to. 

“Are you going to leave?” She sounded sad. This kid was smart and she caught onto everything.

Her words and the situation just took you back for a minute. Back to a fight that you and Joel had the first year the two of you were together. 

~Flash Back~

You and Joel went out on a friday night with Tommy at a local bar just for a few drinks in celebration, while Sarah was hanging out at a friend's house for the evening. 

Some Guy around your age came up and started trying to converse with you and naturally Joel got angry and wanted to leave.  You guys went home and fought about it for a while. Joel was very insecure , he tried his best to hide it. He didn't do it on purpose, Joel was very emotional before the breakout. 

He was pacing back and fourth in the living room as you sat on the couch watching him.

“Y/N, why didn't you say anything to me that he was bothering you !?”

“Joel it wasn’t that big of a deal, he asked to buy me a drink and I declined, I was there to be with you and to have fun.” you plead. You didn’t care about how pathetic you sounded, you just wanted to get your point across to him. 

“Y/n, did you want him to buy you a drink?” His chest was heaving and flushed red with anger, or maybe the liquor.

“Joel are you really asking me if I enjoyed another man flirting with me ?” 

“Maybe!” he shouted. Joel never raised his voice at you. 

“ I just … I know I'm not enough… I’m older and you deserve someone better.”  he almost whispered, shedding a few tears that he instantly wiped away.

You had tears welling up in your eyes at his words the way you remember, but you could have been full blown crying. 

“I love you Joel no one else you.”

“Are you going to leave?” he asked tears shedding down is rose colored cheeks. 

“Why would you ask that Joel?” you said walking up and wrapping your arms around his torso. 

You kissed his chest softly and rubbed a hand down his toned arm. 

“I love you Joel, and you are not old. I want you. Im not going anywhere.”

~End Flashback~

“Why would you ask that Ellie?”

She looked at you, some hurt and worry showing on her young face. 

“I know I’ll be out of Joel and Tess’s hair soon but... you make Joel happy. I like seeing people happy… And plus you actually talk to me and don't exactly follow what Tess says, which is nice to have someone kind of on my side.” 

You just met this kid two days ago and she already enjoyed time with you. And you with her, she is a good kid, very sweet, her words actually brought a slight tear to your eye. 

“Ellie, you are too sweet for your own good, don’t you worry.”

She smiled. 

You guys continued walking a good couple hours before you all decided to camp out for the night. Thank god you guys came across an old cabin, it was starting to rain and carrying wet bags around the next day wasn't your exact version of a good time. 

The cabin was fairly small, no beds or bedrooms, an old couch and what not displayed throughout the room. The fireplace seemed okay to use but you weren't exactly sure where you were and did not want to send any smoke signals to any raiders nearby. Tess threw out her sleeping bag in the one corner of the room with some throw pillows she found lying around. You thought for sure Ellie would try to fight Joel for the couch.

“Have the couch old man.” she joked with him.

“Well this old man is keeping you alive so it's the least you could do.” he replied. 

She laid her sleeping bag on the floor by the couch where Joel sat cleaning his gun. He made her feel safe. He made everyone feel safe… He carried the weight of the world on his shoulders. Protecting and taking care of everyone else, but never, or very rarely allowed anyone to take care of him. But that's all you wanted to do, but you were so damn angry with him for lying to you. 

Him lying to you about Tess just killed you.

It hurt. Not some teenage love hurt, hurt like someone took your heart outta your chest and stomped on it repeatedly. It only hurt this much because of all the trust, faith, and love you had for him. Joel and you got together at a rough time in your life before the outbreak. He was everything you knew. Every song unfinished he finished for you. 

 Joel's eyes scanned you as you crossed the room. You walked over to where Ellie was sprawled out and laid your sleeping bag close to her. You sat on top of it cleaning your gun, the same as Joel, and going through things in your bag.  

“I can watch tonight if you wanna get some sleep.”  Your words came out to him as more of a whisper than intended. Insecurities seeping through.

“It's alright get some sleep, Tess and I agreed to split, she'll take the second half and I’ll do first.”

You looked over at Tess’s sleeping body. You felt rejected in a way, like he was taking her side. You felt like a child thinking like that but how else are you supposed to feel right now. You laid down and turned to your side facing away from Joel's shadowed figure on the couch. You heard him get up and go outside onto the porch of the cabin. You felt the tears starting to well up in your eyes, your body started to shudder holding back quiet sobs.

“Y/n, are you awake” 

“Get some sleep Ellie.” you murmured. 

“Can we talk ? Just for a little?” she pushed, how are you supposed to tell her no?

“What's up?” 

“Joel's upset.”

“Ellie, we can talk about anything but him right now.”

“I’m just saying you should talk to him. But I’m a kid, what do I know?” 

You rolled over towards her and she had a grin on her face.

“Are you trying to play matchmaker ?”

“I don’t know what you're talking about.” she giggled out.

You leaned over to where she was, gave her a pat on the head and rolled back over and drifted off to sleep.

It was cold, very cold. You could feel your body shivering. It had to be at least 3 am, you only knew that because you heard shuffles of footsteps, which meant Tess and Joel were switching out for the night. Joel sat on the couch watching your shoulders rise and fall as you shivered. He came down and rubbed a hand gently up and down your arm. You tried to ignore him at this point, you didn’t feel like talking now. 

“I know you're awake, y/n/n. You are freezing.” he spoke so gentle it was hard not to melt at his words.

“I’m okay Joel.” 

He knew you werent, he knew you were hurting from his lie. But he wanted nothing more than to wrap his arms around you and tell you everything was going to be okay and that he had you. And more than anything he wanted to tell you he was sorry, that he was stupid and scared. But he didn’t want to push you. But at the same time he knew you, he knew how stubborn you could be and that sometimes you needed someone to just tell you how it was going to be. He walked away for a moment, he grabbed his sleeping bag from the couch and laid it down beside you. He laid on top and pulled you in close to him. 

“Joel don’t.” 

“Listen, I know you are mad at me, and I know that I hurt you, and I'm sorry I regret lying to you. I really do, but you are freezing. You need to warm up and I'm not about to let you get sick. So you can lay here and be angry at me all you want but I’m going to hold you.” 

You couldn't fight at this point, you melted into his warm body, still angry but feeling safe and much warmer. You soon drifted off to sleep hoping that maybe tomorrow things would go better.

The sun seemed to come up quicker and quicker everyday. 

Tess came into the cabin and told everyone it was time to get moving. Ellie rustled her hair and groaned not wanting to get up. You loosened yourself from Joel's grip and tapped her on the leg and told her to get movin. She moaned and groaned some more but eventually got up and yall were off. 

Once you guys arrived into the city it was time to be extra careful. 

The open city was a rough place to be, infected everywhere, raiders, smugglers, even military, it just depended on the day. The main concern was the infected population increase.

You made your way stealthily towards the capitol building but most of the pathways were blocked off, and open roads and sidewalks were too risky. You hadn’t been this close to a city in a long time. It was sadder than you had imagined it would be. You missed seeing the kids running in the parks, hearing people playing music on their guitars at squares, you missed the normal small things in general. Now  buildings were shattered and blown to bits, Firefly logos painted onto the walls that remained, beautiful monuments were flooded from pipes or hydrants that had bursted. You missed a normal life with Joel. Things were simpler back then. Your favorite days were ones spent with Joel, Sarah, and Tommy. Whether it was movie night or cookouts in the summertime, you craved those moments.  Sometimes those memories sit and haunt you on bad days, sometimes they cheer you up when things get rough. But at the end of the day you were here. 

Coming up on a building Joel pulled back a piece of wood covering a door and held it for you to walk inside. You, Tess, and Joel all drew your weapons and flashlights to enter the dark building. You could hear the faint sounds of grunting coming from the back of the building. Ellie must have heard them too; she stepped closer to you, and grabbed your sleeve. 

“What the fuck was that?” 

You quickly shushed her. 

Joel turned around and looked at her and you, making sure you two were alright. 

“Ellie, from this point forward we are silent, not quite silent.” he whispered. 

She gave him a quick nod and continued up to the stairway. Joel and Tess were leading the way, Ellie was in the middle and you trailed behind making sure nothing followed. 

The staircase was flooded in dried, dead cordyceps. You had to avoid the chance of stepping on them they could make a loud cr-…

*Crunch*

Joel and Tess whipped their heads around to Ellie who had just stepped on one shaped like an arm. You quickly looked behind you making sure the noise didn’t startle anything. About that time you heard the familiar screeching and clicking coming from the bottom of the steps. 

Quickly you pulled out your silencer and attached it to your gun. Thank god for those things in a time like this. You all stayed still for a moment, that was until the old building decided to start to crumble and one of the ceiling boards fell not too far from you.  The clicker quickly reacted and started charging you all at the top of the steps.

“Joel get them out!” you whisper shouted to him. 

He stood there for a moment in thought he didn’t want to leave you behind. You whipped yourself back around and shot the clicker. You knew that this wouldn’t be the only one coming,that board definitely echoed. About that time three more came charging up the steps. 

“Joel! MOVE!” You shouted not caring how loud because you knew that there was already more coming. 

Joel quickly grabbed Ellie and pulled her up the stairs the rest of the way, letting Tess take the lead. You slowly made your way up the steps backwards making sure that none of them got up the stairs. You were taking shots at them left and right, trying to aim with only a small flashlight. You managed to get to the top of the stairs, nothing seemed to be insight any longer. You tried to maneuver your way through the debris quickly to catch up to Joel and the others. 

There was an open door that led to a casing room, silently making your way through the doors you neared to the right a bit around a L shaped case. Turning the corner trying to make sure the coast was clear with your gun in hand, a large hand came up over your mouth and pulled you back against them and the casing in one swift motion. Fight or flight quickly started to kick in. You started trying to get free from the grip quickly, until a quick motion had you face to face with Joel. You wanted to punch him for scaring you. He held up a finger to his lips in a shushing motion and then pointed towards a large mirror. Gazing at the mirror you could see two clickers reflections. He released his hand from your mouth ever so slowly. 

He bent down and picked up one of the old bottles laying on the ground. 

He tossed it in the opposite direction of Ellie and Tess so they could make their way over to where you and him stood. They quickly started making their way over when that familiar screech echoed on the walls again. Ellie made it over to you, but Tess was caught in the cross fires. You went out around the corner as fast as you could and shot at the clicker on top of her. 

She quickly stood up rubbing the gunk from the creature off of her tired body.

“Thanks Y/n.” 

“Of course.” You replied.

She stood there for a moment looking blank. 

“You okay Tess?” 

“Yeah I’m good, Thanks for still having my back.”

“ No problem, Lets get outta here okay?” She gave you an appreciative nod. 

After a few clickers and minutes later you made your way into the capitol building. 

You knew by the military shooting outside and the clickers screeches you had to make this a quick deal. Tess made her way into the building ahead of you, Joel and Ellie. She seemed angry once you got inside. All the weapons that they were supposed to receive were gone and all the Fireflies were dead. Her and Joel were pissed, you were too busy guarding the door to really pay attention until the clickers got closer to the door. 

“Uhh, guys they are getting really close, we need to go now.” 

You tried to hurry them out the door until Tess stopped. 

“Tess, what are you doing?”

“This is my last stop guys.” 

You, Joel and Ellie shared a confused look. 

“What do you mean Tess?”

She didn’t say a word. She stood completely still in stealth. 

“Oh my god… She got bit.” Ellie concluded. 

“Tess, No, when?” You asked.

“Let me see it.” Joel hissed. 

She pulled her collar down revealing the bite. 

“Tess, was this from the clicker I shot off of you or before?” You asked guilt washing over you. 

“It was before, a different one. I just didn’t know what to say. After you shot the clicker off I felt myself getting weaker. It's not your fault.” 

“Tess, I'm so sorry.” 

“You guys need to leave.” she scolded. 

She started dumping gasoline and emptying boxes of explosives on the ground. 

She then grabbed Ellie's arm comparing their bites explaining that this shit is real, Ellie is really immune, and that we needed to get the cure.

You didn’t want to leave her here. Not with clickers and the military trailing close behind.

“Y/n, I’m sorry for ratting you out to the Fireflies, It was selfish.” 

You wanted to be angry at her still. But you couldn’t, you had to big of a heart for that. Grudges were easy to hold,but forgiveness was strength.

“Tess, I'm not angry, I forgive you.” 

The doors of the building started to rattle. 

“Go!” Tess yelled at Joel. 

Joel grabbed you and Ellies wrists and began dragging you both out. 

You were barely from the building before the ground started to rumble. You could hear faint shot gun sounds. Then suddenly you felt a gust of heat hit your back with such force that it knocked you off your feet, ejecting the three of you into the air and away from each other into the grassed area behind the now burning building.  

You felt yourself come down hard onto a rocky area. You laid there still for a minute, ears ringing, body aching . The strong smell of gasoline and fire in the air with a hint of iron.  

Iron you thought, you reached for the strong pain in your side feeling for an injury. You slowly lifted your fingers to your blurry eyes. You were seeing doubles, maybe even triples, at this point. But what you were sure of was the crimson colored blood dripping off your fingers. 

“Y/N!?” 

You could hear Joel and Ellies faint screams as your vision turned black…

#joel miller #joel the last of us #the last of us hbo #joel x reader #joel x plus size reader #joel miller x reader #jealous!joel

[maverickcalf]

If you like meeting Tom Cruise stories I have one that just makes me wanna screech into the void. One day I might tell it on my actual account but while that day doesn't come, I'll share it with you.

I worked in a place where I had close contact with many celebrities. Some were incredibly rude and evasive, others were polite but distant and some were nice.

One day, I met Tom. I don't know what I was expecting, but it definitely wasn't him being by far the nicest celebrity and one of the best people I've ever met.

I say that because a coworker was responsible for something I can't really divulge, and they made a mistake that messed up Tom's schedule. My boss was angry and it was visible, but since Tom was still there once the mistake was realised he just made it look his team was the one that messed up the communication which I can guarantee you saved my coworker's job.

I was just standing there being so confused that I'm sure I looked like a fish. Meanwhile, I'm pretty sure my boss didn't buy it but let it go regardless.

The second day I saw him, he asked us about dietary restrictions and brought pastries (some vegan for the vegan folk), and coffee or tea for everyone (including the cleaning crew). He knew every single one of our names, he knew the names of the cleaning crew, would always say good day or evening, would always ask us about our days.

But the thing that I'm pretty sure he did that I can't prove is this: one of the building cleaning crew members couldn't afford to buy food for Christmas. So obviously we decided to pitch in so we could give them a gift basket with all the essentials. But turns out we wouldn't have to because we come there a few days later to find many huge ass basket full of expensive things in it. Like, first grade kinda of stuff that most people can't afford and it was addressed to that particular person

I know I didn't because I couldn't afford half of the stuff in it, my former boss didn't do it because she was the real life version of Miranda from Devil's Wear Prada and my coworker's also didn't do it because we all agreed to pitch in together so that leaves one viable option: Tom fucking Cruise.

He never said a peep, not a single word from him. How the fuck did he know about the problem of that person? Who knows. But I feel it in my bones that he was the one who did it.

Well first off: thank you so much for sharing this story. These sorts of things are so nice to read and I really appreciate it! I wish I could find the words to say how much this story brightened my day.

Tom is very much the sort of guy who wouldn't want anyone fired on his account, at least that's the type of man he strikes me as. Buying drinks, getting food, learning names, saying hello, asking about your day; all just sound like stories I have heard before. :D

But also like, wow what a guy huh? As for how he knew, I think if one of your coworkers told Tom about it, that's the sort of thing you would keep to your grave ya know? Like if Tom said, "I am gonna do this nice thing, don't tell anyone." No matter how nice it was I dunno if would be willing to break that promise, ya know. Or it just came up in casual conversation, or maybe Tom made your boss grow a heart, who knows, it could happen. If he was asking about your days, that does seem like something that might come up.

Again, thank you so much for sharing.

If someone has another meeting tom cruise story, send them here, because I will post the ones that make me smile.

#long post #tom cruise #meeting cruise stories #if they don't update their podcasts i will just post them here #anon

[dazzlingskydreams]

I made a fan kid!

So this is Takahiko, my Arukenimon/Mummymon fan kid at about 7 years old. He's pretty sulky and doesn't smile much with people he doesn't know. This boy is much happier reading in a quiet room than dealing with new people. He's not a bad kid though; if he cares about someone, like his parents, he gets pretty attached to the point that it can be considered by some to be clingy. If he befriends someone he will help them out any way he can. His emotional empathy is also surprisingly high, so if someone he cares about is sad he'll do his best to cheer them up in his own way. Plus he has an extremely warm smile that can be disarming to people that aren't familiar with him! (I purposely didn't draw it so his default personality with strangers comes through more. Maybe another time!)

Takahiko's a really musical boy. He plays the recorder really well and, if necessary, can use it to obtain some level of control over insect digimon like his mother. He also can make spirit needles, from the darker hair surprisingly, but since there aren't any more control spires he has no idea what they're for. He occasionally just makes them, looks at them a bit, then leaves them on the table and heads away. (Honestly though even if the control spires were still around; this kid would only use them to make a dog to play with.) He also has the entirely unique ability to communicate with the Oikawa butterflies to some extent, to the point that he's aware that they used to be a single man. He calls him the nice butterfly man. Other than music, he loves the stars since his dad loves horoscopes so much and spends time looking at constellations. He is absolutely terrified of bats though and vampires of any kind, even cartoon ones, leave him in floods of tears. This is probably a subconscious response to the trauma his parents experienced in a certain dream world that got imprinted on his dna somehow.

His darker patch of hair is where Mummymon's data is more prevalent. That area of his face, his right arm and left leg are a similar shade of grey. He also has only the one eye but, unlike Mummymon, the other eye is kinda there just permanently closed. This doesn't bother him though. He can see just fine and he thinks his grey patches and weird eye are really cool! Plus he's so well wrapped up clothing wise, that it isn't really apparent. He is ambidextrous and can summon a sickle, which is connected to his digimon form, but he usually isn't in a position to need one. Also he loves his purple scarf. Seriously, don't try and take it away from him.

Takahiko is unusual in that he picked out his own human name. He couldn't actually turn into a human until he was around 4. Until then his parents just called him by his digimon name(s)/pet names etc; but then one morning they get up and the kid is just standing there in human form asking Mummymon what's for breakfast. (Yes he was originally an egg, but it's more complicated than that and I won't get into it here.) Anyway, once he realises, he decides his human form needs a name too because all his evolutions have specific names. So he looks through his books and picks one he really likes, and is pretty determined to use it. Arukenimon takes a look and sees that it can be written with the kanji for 'resolute prince' and decides 'Yes, that's a suitable name for my son' so she agrees to it. Mummymon gets no say in the matter but is too proud to care.

I know there are other well established fan kids for the pair; but I'm so happy to finally have one of my own that I just had to talk about him at least once! Seriously, I have had no idea what their kid would look like for years, to the point that I was semi-convinced that a child was impossible for them and to have this cute little guy just come flying at me makes me so happy! I'll leave it at that because I could write a lot more about him. (This is a *severely* cut back version of the full bio I wrote for him.) I might put some more stuff in the tags though. If anyone is curious about him feel free to ask. I know a bizarre amount about this kid!

#My art #My ocs #Takahiko oc #Art #Blackwargreymon is momma's angry dog #He is 75% convinced that Ken is a vampire #His best friends are a Monmon and a vegiemon #His birthday is September 7th #digimon #I might do something separate about his friends #They're fun!

[ramsaybaggins]

Letters with the Kraken for the tag game please!

So, this one is abandoned mostly because someone else posted their version first and I don't want people to think I'm copying their idea, but it was based on that tumblr post going round about a kid sending letters to an aquarium octopus! The idea was Louis wanted to write to a giant pacific octopus at Ed's aquarium, and Stede adds a little note, and basically Ed and Stede fall in love through these letters. Here's a big excerpt as it's likely I'll never post it

When Ed had pulled on his uniform and slid into work through the employee door that morning, he hadn't expected to find something new in his mailbox. It was a letter addressed to "The Giant Pacific Octopus." He tilted his head as he slipped the flap of the envelope open and pulled out two sheets of paper. The top one was written in what was very obviously the hand of a child, the one behind it was much neater. He dropped down into his office chair and got reading.

"Dear Octopus,

My name is Louis Bonnet, and I really love sea creatures. Do you have a name? I asked my dad if octopuses could read and write because I know you're very clever and he said maybe we should write to one to see, and we found out you live a couple of hours away! What is it like being an octopus? What do you do all day? Do you have any friends?

Thank you!

Louis"

Ed couldn't help but smile as he read through the letter again. It was so sweet, and Ed knew exactly what he was going to do before he even read the other sheet. He crossed his legs on his desk and swapped pages.

"Dear keeper,

My name is Stede and I am Louis' dad. He's really taken with the idea of getting a response, whether it's from you or from the 'octopus'. I'm doing my best to encourage his enthusiasm with his interests, so we would really appreciate a response of some kind if you have the time. I completely understand that you may be too busy! I've enclosed a stamped, addressed envelope so it shouldn't put you out any cost or further inconvenience.

Best wishes,

Stede."

Ed scanned the page again. The writing was neat yet pretty, and the signature at the end had a swooping flourish. This Stede guy seemed like a good dad, it made Ed feel warm.Why not indulge the kid, huh? It was nice to see a parent so involved with their child nowadays, Ed saw too many kids come through the aquarium full of awe and excitement, only to have their bored, huffing parents rush them through all of the exhibits. Sure, it wasn't all of them, but it was enough.

He dropped his feet off of the desk and onto the floor, then opened the top drawer and pulled out a sheet of paper. He picked his favourite blue ballpoint pen and got to work drafting a response.

"Hi Louis,

I can't read or write, but my keeper Ed read me your letter and I wanted to respond. I hope you don't mind if he writes it for me. My name is Kraken and I've been living here for nearly a year! It's great being an octopus, my tentacles are really long and strong so I can cause plenty of mischief in my tank! Sometimes I even squirt Ed when he's walking above me. He usually laughs, so I think he likes it, really. I love watching all the people come past my tank every day, humans are so interesting! What's it like being a human? It must be busy! I do have friends. Ed is my friend, and there are plenty of fish and other creatures in my tank to hang out with. I look forward to your next letter!

Yours,

Kraken."

A separate piece of paper awaited his response to Stede’s note.

"Hello Stede,

I'm the octopus keeper at the aquarium, Ed Teach. I hope the letter I've attached 'from' Kraken is okay, thought it might get the fella excited without giving him wrong info. It was great to get your letters, honestly. Been here a long time and I was starting to wonder if I'd run my course, but asking to be penpals with an octopus? Brilliant. You seem like a good dad, it's nice. Feel free to let Louis keep writing, and I'll keep responding. What age is he? Just so I can make sure I'm replying in an age appropriate style, not too many big words or anything.

Yours,

Ed."

#ask game #wip game #ofmd #my wips

[mlobsters]

supernatural s8e23 sacrifice (w. jeremy carver)

are we gonna make nic cry (it's a low bar but s7 finale managed to not make it)

JODY It's not a date till I've cried.

we're definitely leaning into full on bad guy crowley this season. i liked when he was more ambiguous. maybe he'll help, maybe he'll fuck everyone over. dragging jody into it, now. all right

not me feeling more emotional about bobby's scrapyard than i did about seeing actual-bobby again

CROWLEY Nice try, squirrel. Moose is doing these trials. Moose signs. DEAN No, no. He's not signing anything until I read the fine print. [SAM yanks the pen from DEAN] SAM I can read it. DEAN Hey, you wanted me here. I'm here. But I'll be damned if I'm gonna let him screw us even more. CROWLEY What's this? Trouble in paradise, boys?

crowley's turning into a bit of a caricature. too much of a good thing maybe

DEAN I can do this all day, 'cause you know what? Damn, it feels good! But sooner or later, you're gonna have to face it -- you're ours. Which means that your demon ass is going to be a mortal ass pretty damn quick. CROWLEY [to SAM] What's he mouthing on about? SAM You're the third trial, Crowley.

a) ignoring any bitch implications b) you know i really dislike torture but even i got a little vicarious satisfaction from dean punching him c) i've got a hodgepodge of demon dean/mark of cain nebulous plot awareness that's on the horizon but no idea how they come to pass, so my mind keeps wandering wondering if this or that is related. focus!

CASTIEL Yes. Would you say that you're looking for, uh, a partner in crime... ...or, uh, someone who's into nurse role-play and light domination? DWIGHT Brother, it's 10:00 a.m. on a Tuesday.

sir, this is a wendy's

lovely shot but it feels like the shiny happy people version of s1 true detective which is on the brain because of this video of a deleted scene i posted a bit ago which is just (gorgeous) extended moody atmospheric location shots of coastal louisiana set to appropriate music

SAM Honestly, for the first time in a long time, it feels like we're gonna win. I'm good.

TAKE IT BACK, SAM.

dean's just trying to help!

the sick damp puppy look is just too precious for words. dean, give him a hug and some soup

lovely lovely. even more true detective s1 vibes (that season of that show was one of the most beautiful things... southern gothic atmospherics off the charts. ugh. i made an edit with it and hannibal because the rust cohle is will graham is rust cohle of it all)

true detective s1e2 seeing things

DEAN Anything? You've been gone long enough. CASTIEL No. There was one female, but... DEAN What? CASTIEL ...I don't think she was female

heavy sigh. transphobic jokes are evergreen

followed up by dean being flabbergasted for .. 10 seconds? that the cupid love match thing was two men. fuck you, show. i know, it's nothing new. but back to back, i'm exponentially annoyed

and i'm so disinterested in this heaven business i'd never looked up naomi's actress. she was sam carter on sg1! totally did not recognize her without the blonde hair. i didn't watch a ton of sg1 but enough to be quite familiar with the mains

stargate sg-1 amanda tapping as samantha carter

anyway. back to sam being half dead and abaddon smoking out (was it red? they did this with crowley too and i wasn't sure it wasn't just the lighting on the black smoke)

again the twilight/zombie looks good on him

this crowley thing.. this whole girls (tv series) speech his voice is higher pitched and the accent changed? what is going on

and are we supposed to be feeling something about crowley crying and wanting help from sam with asking for forgiveness? the time given his speech and music says yes, but my brain says excuse me what now. offering his neck up like bella, mushy music swells

DEAN Metatron lied. You finish this trial, you're dead, Sam. SAM So?

glad i knew that was coming

okay so i've watched this whole church scene several times now trying to figure out why it's not hitting any emotional buttons. padalecki is working his ass off and doing amazing and i'm getting nothing from jackles, subsequently i'm feeling not much of anything. did they break my emotions? which is extra weird because the text of this conversation is like.. romantic catnip? should be breaking and remaking my heart and yet...? just for a hint at the end the music reminded me of the expanse and THAT made me feeling a little something. so, like a broken record, i'm blaming this partially on the musical score.

SAM Look at him. Look at him! Look how close we are! Other people will die if I don't finish this! DEAN Think about it. Think about what we know, huh? Pulling souls from hell, curing demons, hell, ganking a Hellhound! We have enough knowledge on our side to turn the tide here. But I can't do it without you. SAM You can barely do it with me. I mean, you think I screw up everything I try. You think I need a chaperone, remember? DEAN Come on, man. That's not what I meant. SAM No, it's exactly what you meant. You want to know what I confessed in there? What my greatest sin was? It was how many times I let you down. I can't do that again. DEAN Sam -- SAM [beginning to cry] What happens when you've decided I can't be trusted again? I mean, who are you gonna turn to next time instead of me? Another angel, another -- another vampire? Do you have any idea what it feels like to watch your brother just –

like this really should be stabbing me in the gut and it's just not and it is such a shame because really, padalecki is doing so good with it. damnit, show, what did you do

DEAN Hold on, hold on! You seriously think that? Because none of it -- none of it -- is true. Listen, man, I know we've had our disagreements, okay? Hell, I know I've said some junk that set you back on your heels. But, Sammy...come on. I killed Benny to save you. I'm willing to let this bastard and all the sons of bitches that killed mom walk because of you. Don't you dare think that there is anything, past or present, that I would put in front of you! It has never been like that, ever! I need you to see that. I'm begging you.

"don't you dare think that there is anything, past or present, that I would put in front of you" like hello, feelings, this is insane, where are you

the only part that worked for me is the little handfasting moment

do not to get to see this soft smile very often

DEAN Just let it go. SAM I can't. It's in me, Dean. You don't know what this feels like. [DEAN wraps a bandanna around Sam’s cut.] DEAN Hey, listen,we will figure it out, okay, just like we always do. Come on. DEAN Come on. Let it go, okay? Let it go, brother. SAM Hey, Dean. DEAN See? [ SAM Breathing shakily then Sam doubles over in pain. DEAN brings SAM outside the church. ] DEAN Sam? I got you, little brother. You're gonna be just fine.

calling him brother and little brother in one go

apparently i've forgotten already how cas and megatron left things in the time i spent trying to wrap my head around my (lack of) emotional reaction to the church thing. ah right, it was a spell, needed castiel's grace. that's why it's raining angels

the music, the effects.. this all hit the right notes at least. reminded me a smidge of stranger things with the music and rain and the car and ominous things happening in the sky.

see, imagine this show, but with the music of stranger things. like, really well done music cues, not just bad generic weird fake rock blues whatever and classic rock because we have one character note about his musical preferences and we're gonna ride it into the ground. i'm so bitter about the music in this show letting it down! lol

so why did fandom glom on to the spelling of cas? since it's pronounced cass. and is cass in the captions and scripts. having never heard it but seen it a bunch, i assumed it was going to be pronounced caz. cass too feminine?

(for the record one tear came from the expanse-like musical cue and i don't think spn gets the credit for it. i'm stunned, honestly)

so sometimes, i will admit, i have a kneejerk dislike - or anger, of something that seems irrational considering my shipping preferences. like, in 2x11 playthings and sam honestly looks like he's about to kiss dean, i was mad. i felt like they were baiting this thing that would never go anywhere, i was pissy about the gay jokes in the scenes prior at the front desk. now with separation and seeing 6 more seasons, i see how they actually have often stuck to this plausible deniability romance dynamic between them and made it more textual without making the impossible full commit to gay incest on the CW.

i don't think that's what's going on with me and the church thing because i'm not like freaked out->upset->pissy, i'm just... not feeling it. super weird

trying to keep a list of the horrifying results of castiel's attempts to do the right thing.... there's just so many 🤪

#supernatural #spnwatch #spn 8x23 #castiel #true detective #jeremy carver #spnhiky #hiky #amanda tapping #stargate sg1 #sam carter #spnclip #sam and dean mush #that didn't quite land for me which is such a bummer.

[synthetickitsune]

hi!! out of all the idols you stan, who would you date, fuck and marry 😋 and why! hi hi just a lil fun question im curious about

Hey~, anon - and, uh, I love you?? Thanks for asking, I spent too much time thinking abou this, and I love thinking about stuff!! I literally made excel spreadsheet for it lmao

Also I'm switching fuck for ~spicy cuddles~ (free to interpretation) because of my ace ass lol

tl;dr comprehensive version:

Date: Yonghoon (Onewe) - this is not a want, this is a need just ult things </3

Spicy cuddles: Jaeyoon (SF9) - this

Marry: Jun (Seventeen) - I can't pretend I'm normal about him anymore

Full version with all the groups under the cut because it got too long~ (and F for the groups that didn't make it in anyway)

(Also why am I never marrying my biases??? lmao...)

Ateez

Date: Yeosang - all the members keep saying he’s really innocent and ??? that’s very appealing? also I want someone who’ll make gummy bears concerts with me </3

Spicy cuddles: Seonghwa - maybe I wanna get as close to fucking a jedi master as I can or maybe I just think Hwa would be so gentle when cuddling that it makes me wanna cry, who knows

Marry: San - I just love him, ok? and he seems like a really gentle, nice guy, he's so funny and caring, and I love his cat so much tbh

EXO

Date: Chanyeol - I love him but I think he’s too high energy for me lmao and I’d feel bad I’m not as sporty + he gives me the vibes of dating for a while and then realizing it’s better to be best friends for some reason, lmao, idk but it’s very wholesome in my mind

Spicy cuddles: Lay - he’s so cute fml, also my man needs some break and we could nap together afterwards 

Marry: Baekhyun - look, I saw one vid of him being super calm and soft and making pottery and some ‘ㅋ’ cup and I’ve loved him ever since okay? also I want the fucking cup

Monsta X

Date: Hyungwon - he's besties with Jeonghan and I'll trust Hannie's judgment of character lmao

Spicy cuddles: Kihyun - look at the man, he's got me on my knees I love him and think he'd be so comfy to cuddle with?? he'd give the best headpats and backrubs??

Marry: I.M - something about his vibe makes me cry, I wanna be lonely with him </3

Oneus

Date: Leedo - a gentle giant pt. 1, and as much as I don't like kids, seeing him so soft with children makes my brain go haywire 

Spicy cuddles: Hwanwoong - he's really fun, y'know?

Marry: Seoho - he's good at everything he does and hella smart, I need a man like that lol

Onewe

Date: Yonghoon - look I've thought about this unholy amount of time and it's breaking my heart, honestly, but like Hoonie strikes me as a pretty realistic guy and idk how that would work out but I just wanna try it to make sure lmao 😭

Spicy cuddles: Harin - a gentle giant pt. 2, and I'd feel safe with him 

Marry: Kanghyun - he's just like me for real and I need someone to talk about books and space with </3

Seventeen

Date: Jeonghan - I'm very soft for this man and I love him so much but also I'd flinch every time he'd hit the stove or the door lmao

Spicy cuddles: Joshua - gentleman (? 🤨), his tiddies and arms would make me feel safe

Marry: Jun - no thoughts, head empty, kicking, screaming, crying just one chance, pls mr. wen 🥲

SF9

Date: Inseong - nothing as attractive as a smart fox-like man who's also cute and chaotic 

Spicy cuddles: Jaeyoon - look at the man I'm a firm believer in human heater Jaeyoon agenda and you know this pic? I want that 

Marry: Zuho - his cats, his gentle nature, his squishy cheeks, his cute smile... him 🤧 (Hwiyoung was a candidate n.2 but after all the clips of him talking about his family and having a family of his own, I don't think I could handle seeing a healthy and functioning family or create one T-T)

Stray Kids

Date: Han - he's cute and I just know he's the sweetest, also makes the best sad love songs

Spicy cuddles: Lee Know - make it regular cuddles and invite the cats in I just want a kitty

Marry: Bang Chan - duh. he's already got 7 kids, he can handle one more

Victon

Date: Hanse - I think he'd be a really interesting person to hang out with?? me and my weirdass vibes again, but two friends fucking around and finding out it's not working after all?

Spicy cuddles: Seungsik - look, I just think he looks like a polar bear and I want him to crush me with his love

Marry: Sejun - I can't live with the possibility he eats cereal like that and I guess the ring would add some more power to my influence lmao, also he's just neat and I love him

#💌 non nons~ #tumblr games

[dwtsfun]

Dancing with the Stars Season 31 Week 1: Same Show, Different Platform

Hey everyone! We are back for season 31 on Disney+. We have Conrad Green back as executive producer and Tyra has a new cohost, Alfonso!. Judges are still the same, but they never change. Now a lot of you have been asking my for some thoughts about all of the changes. I guess I'll start out by addressing those. That seems to be appropriate. Let's start with Conrad.

I cannot believe that I'm saying this, but it's nice to have him back. It's nice to hear the full name of both the pro and the celeb. I'm feel the energy of the show has shifted back to what it once was. It was going down a weird path for awhile and Monday night felt familiar and comforting. I love the intro pose before the dance. It's a modernized version of what they used to do back in the day and I missed that so much. I do wish he could've brought the stairs back, but we can't have it all.

For the hosts, I think Tyra and Alfonso were fantastic together. They already know each other and have worked together in the past (Fresh Prince), so it wasn't awkward for them to bounce off of one another. As someone said, Tyra seemed to be a lot more relaxed now that she didn't have to shoulder the responsibility of hosting the entire show. And Alfonso is just a natural. There were a few issues but that was backroom stuff and I'll talk about that a little later.

I enjoyed the troupe dancing. It was a nice and welcome break from the main events of the show.

Now, I think we have to talk about the lack of commercials. The reason that I am so late getting this up is because so much happened in 2 hours with no break that I was kinda over DWTS for the night. Tyra and Alfonso did well, but that was a marathon for them. They literally had no chance to just sit and breathe. At least commercials give some reprieve to the hosts (whether it was Tom, Samantha, Brooke, Erin, Lisa, Tyra or Alfonso). We also saw the control room seemed to mess up a few times with scoring and getting all that updated. Even though they could make that mistake at any time, it is important for them to have that down time so that they can update things to feed to Tyra as the show goes on. I'm not sure how they can rectify this, but something needs to be done to give everyone a breather. The pace of Monday night is not sustainable for an entire season.

And finally, the week 1 elimination. I didn't like it. I think it was the right couple that left, but I wish it had been week 2 or maybe even give us one special results show on Tuesday. Make it a two day premiere. That being said, I liked that Jason and Peta had time to say good-bye and the cast could go hug them and all of that. Okay, now recap time.

Jordin and Brandon- Cha-cha (Score=26)- This was really good. I thought it should've been straight 7s. And upon my second viewing, I was right. It was a very strong week 1 dance and a great way to start the night. Jordin has some really great lines and her technique is actually quite good when she hits everything correctly. I think she was a little uncomfortable. There were moments where it felt like she wasn't quite finishing all the moves right in the middle of the dance. Things started to blend. But nonetheless, a great dance.

Sam and Cheryl- Foxtrot (Score=20)- I thought this dance was fine. It wasn't particularly bad. It wasn't all that great either. It was passable. I feel like the song probably caused them more problems. It didn't lend itself well to the smoothness of a foxtrot. Sam has some potential though. That is the one thing I got from this dance. And based on the other 20s, it probably could've gotten a point or two higher.

Heidi and Artem- Cha-cha (Score=24)- I was surprised at how well Heidi handled this dance. I wasn't really expecting much because I don't know much about her and she's not a celeb celeb. But she did really well. Her legs are really nice. Her arms are pretty good too. I do think she needs to do a better job of projecting when she dances and really hitting her moves harder. I'm starting to realize that Artem has the same issues with his partners that Tony used to have.

Daniel and Britt- Tango (Score=27)- Daniel really shocked me. The confidence that he exuded was kinda hot, not gonna lie. And he handled Britt's choreo really well. His arm kinda gets funky and his legs need some more work. The potential is there and like Jordin, I think he probably should've had straight 7s.

Jessie and Alan- Cha-cha (Score=20)- Well, this dance was a mess. Jessie had basically no technique. Her legs and feet were atrocious. But she knows how to perform and mostly stayed on time. I'm not sure how much potential is there, but we shall see as the season goes on. Alan might make some miracle happen with her. I mean I though Lauren Alaina was a no hoper when she was on.

Teresa and Pasha- Tango (Score=20)- As many of you know, Teresa was one of the people I was excited to see. But this dance was a bit of a let down for me. I could tell she was extremely nervous and dancing definitely doesn't seem to come easy for her. However, I see something there and I want Pasha to tap into it. What she did wasn't bad (other than her frame). It's just what she didn't do. The Housewives fanbase really doesn't translate well to DWTS so I'm not shocked that she ended up in the bottom 2. I think the only Housewife that was pretty much safe up until the week she left was Nene.

Wayne and Witney- Cha-cha (Score=29)- Just as I expected, Wayne was explosive. Witney gave him a great dance and it was so amazing to watch. I do think he needs to clean up some of his technique, but it was great. I'm shocked he didn't get more than one 8. I thought it for sure deserved at least two. I'm really excited for these two. And I don't think I've said this before, but Witney is definitely one of my favorite pros. She's such a star and so good at what she does.

Cheryl and Louis- Cha-cha (Score=21)- First of all, welcome back Louis. Now, Cheryl might've been my biggest surprise of the night. I 100% agreed with CAI. I think she could've handled more than Louis gave her. They played it a bit safe, but she definitely has the goods and she can move. And knowing Louis, I know that's a critique he wants to hear. As for the dance itself, it was good. I wanted more hip action but she really did everything well. I really wanna see her do a ballroom dance. She's got the elegance and lyricism to pull off a gorgeous dance.

Vinny and Koko- Salsa (Score=17)- First, welcome to the show Koko! Now, the judges were way too harsh on them for this dance. Was it great? No. Was it good? No. But, Vinny has potential. I think the dance actually would've been better if Vinny hadn't been so nervous. He forgot things and he kinda got lost. But he performed it well and there were moments when I saw him hit the moves he was supposed to, when he was supposed to. I think a few things need to happen to help these two out. First, I want Koko to simplify the routines from now on. Vinny is not super skilled, so throwing everything into one dance will not work out for him. It's a rookie mistake, so I understand why she did it. Idk if she is doing this next thing, but I'd like for her to take Vinny to the side at least once before they dance, reassure him and calm him down. He was clearly hyped up when they got out there and he needs to come back down to really get these dances down.

Shangela and Gleb- Salsa (Score=28)- Shangela killed this. This was actually my favorite dance of the night. First of all, this is the best Gleb US choreography that I've seen from him. Shangela also really killed this dance. She was fierce. She was confident. She had rhythm and hips. It was a great time. Now, I need them to reign it back in a little bit. It started to get a little wild from time to time and that will create problems in the future. That's my biggest critique.

Trevor and Emma- Quickstep (Score=21)- Interesting dance. They sold it to us like he was going to be one of the worst dancers ever on DWTS. And then it was actually ok. I'm not sure why that was the case. Now it was kind of wild and there were a lot of technical issues. But it wasn't the disaster they were preparing us for. Again, weird.

Gabby and Val- Jive (Score=28)- The judges gushed over this dance and I found that to be very suspicious. Was it good? Yes. But there were a lot of issues. First, she had Bambi legs going on a little bit. And I also thought that her kicks were lacking. They didn't retract the way that they should've. She can dance though. I definitely think she's gonna be good.

Joseph and Daniella- Jive (Score=23)- Joseph killed this dance. Ain't no way I was expecting him to be this good and light on his feet and flexible, considering how muscular he is. Daniella is an amazing teacher and choreographer. Now, his feet were eyesores and there are some other things. But man, this guy is actually someone that could become a contender.

Jason and Peta- Cha-cha (Score=18)- This just wasn't a good dance. And there was nothing that Jason could've done to save it. He's just not a good dancer and that's okay. As soon as I saw him counting out loud, I knew he was gonna be in trouble. That is never a good sign for anyone. He was eliminated though, so we don't have to worry about fixing any of his problems anymore.

Selma and Sasha- Viennese Waltz (Score=28)- This dance was beautiful. It was a true moment. I really loved it and Selma did such a great job with everything. I enjoyed Sasha's choreography. It was good. I do worry about how Latin will be for her, but I feel like her ballroom dances will always be really nice to watch.

Charli and Mark- Cha-cha (Score=32)- Welcome back Mark! This dance was good. Really good. I expected that though. I don't have much to really say though. I liked it and I like Charli more than I thought I would. I would like to tell everyone though to be prepared for a "shocking" elimination involving her. She's young and her fanbase is young. They're usually fickle. Not sure how it's gonna be on Disney+, but you all need to prepare yourselves. She's got "shocking elimination" written all over her and I do not want to sit here and talk about ad nauseum if it does happen. I just want to get that out the way.

So that's it. This took forever to write. I think I'm going to figure out a different way to do this next week. Recapping 15 dances is not fun. This is another reason why I didn't want more than 13 couples in a season. It makes blogging about it a much more tedious task. Let me know you all's thoughts and I will talk to you soon!

#dancing with the stars #dwts #jordin sparks #sam champion #heidi d'amelio #daniel durant #jessie james decker #teresa giudice #wayne brady #cheryl ladd #vinny guadagnino #shangela #trevor donovan #gabby windey #joseph baena #jason lewis #selma blair #charli d'amelio #mark ballas #sasha farber #peta murgatroyd #daniella karagach #val chmerkovskiy #emma slater #gleb savchenko #koko iwasaki #louis van amstel #witney carson #pasha pashkov #alan bersten

[cauliflowermaterial]

1,2,3,17,21 +any one you want to answer!!

yesss!! thank you!!! i am doin youtube links because that is much easier and spotify hates me <3

your favorite album opener

minute 1:25 is where it's at for this one! (ok imma be honest i very rarely listen to full albums so i am just very lucky that this is technically an album opener lmao)

2. a song starting w/ the same first letter of your first name

of course I could fit mr wood in here! I first heard the live boardwalk version of this song so in truth, it took me a bit to get used to this version. but now i play it on guitar and i love the vibe :)))

3. a song outside of your usual genre

ok this is kinda hard since my "usual genre" is all genres... no joke... like I thought of putting Bella Ciao but then I was like noooo I listen to plenty of protest songs lmao so then i'm like maybe country?? Country Roads perhaps?? but noooo I actually have quite a bit on my playlist lmao... so i'm going with this one since I can only think of one other similar song that I like that's similar to this:

I actually REALLY like this stuff- just wait until the minute mark (or skip there lmao). how did I come across this song you ask? well it's thank to none other than @/brightgoat's absolutely STUNNING animation that i will link as well because you should AT LEAST watch that if not the full song:

I'M NOT MESSING AROUND HERE YOU NEED TO WATCH THIS. IT NEEDS MILLIONS OF VIEWS. THE AMOUNT OF TIME AND EFFORT PUT INTO THIS IS INSANE AND SO SO IMPRESSIVE. I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

17. a song that reminds you of a good time

the chorus hits and all the good vibes just WHOOSH into me man! songs that make me smile fondly everytime. I will ramble because this is one of my faves because it's so special!! as you can see in the video, this is from Top Gun: Maverick– which I went to see with a bunch of friends! i remember seeing the Beach Scene and hearing this song and It Was In That Moment I Knew... I need to know the name of the song. instant love. this is easily my song of the summer! what did I do last summer?? get my pilot's licence!!! and the whole time I was surrounded by some of the best people in the world listening to boppin tunes! it was hands down the best time of my life and this song will always remind me of those good times :) i turn it up whenever it comes on the radio :))

21. a song from a local artist

Better On Your Own is prolly their best known song but I remember when this came out and I fell in love! I'll rank them next to Hippo Campus :) another good song of theirs is Speaking Off The Record

BONUS! My current on repeat song:

the soft music, the lyrics..... such a lovely song. it's very melancholy. as someone who generally hates change and now everything around me is going to change A LOT soon (already has)...... this song is like a hug. very nice very nice.

#music #fave songs #ask game answer #ask game #thank you so much !!! i love sharing music #i should just share music more often and not wait for asks lmao #but these allow me ramble a lil and i like that :)

[hellothepixel]

"Thank you to everyone who got me to 10000 likes!" ~ Some member of staff

i want to take a second to appreciate this image. Like- we often take websites for granted but i want to take this opportunity to analyze this. Not because it's particularly interesting to me, just because... Someone had to make this. And even the simplest of details can take time to make. So let's spend time analyzing it.

The Font

Now, this right here is a very nice font, in my opinion. It looks very similar to the bolded version of the default tumblr font.

Thank you!

10k

Likes

But as we can see it's not quite the same. The one used in the image is thinner in the lines, like at a midpoint between the bold and normal versions of the tumblr font. What is also interesting is that the big 10k is rounded on the edges, but that's not observable in the smaller font. Is the difference pixel size, or are they different fonts? Or perhaps it's the same font, but whoever made it gave it a bit of a curve, to give it a soft feeling. Zooming into the image, I'm partial to saying it's the first option, but the third one would also make sense. Social Media is advertised as a commodity and often designed to keep you as involved and exposed to ads as possible, and if you perceive rounded edges as more comfortable and welcoming, it's logical you'd use them like that in your product.

I do wonder if there's a graphical design document somewhere that tumblr uses for their different promotional material. Although I'm not a graphical design major so I can't say I have an authority on this subject.

What really sticks out for me is the font color, however. Again, it's probably aiming for that Comfortable Feeling, but personally the use of a dark purple is much more preferable to a black, specially considering the rest of the color palette.

In fact, let's talk about that now.

2. The Color Palette.

now I'm not as crazy about this one. For the most part is a great, nice color palette. And my complaints are definetly subjective and nitpicky... but is it just me, or do the hearts' reds look a bit off?

Now, unpacking the pallette, we can see that it's more orange than red. And separated like this, it does actually look mostly well together. But I don't know, the red isn't cohesive to me in the final image.

Now, maybe it's like this because it's the actual color of the like button?

now, on one hand this was definetly the intention. And it is like that for all intents and purposes... however, strangely enough it doesn't seem to actually be that on a literal level?

TECHNICALLY they're not the same color. They have are just oh so ever slightly different.

the bottom line is from the other heart. And if you look closely, you'll see that it's just a tad smidge brighter. Which is definetly weird, but it's not really a problem since again, even if it was the original color my problem with the palette would probably remain.

So, how would I have coloured the hearts?

here's the image! On the left side you should see the new colors of the hearts, on the right the old ones. While it does now break with the idea of it being the same hearts as the ones we use every day on this webbed site, to me personally it does look more asthetically cohesive.

I could in theory change the color of the background though, to keep the idea of the hearts while improving the palette.

ok, this one is a bit of a wilder change, but I do feel very happy about it! While I am aware that my screen has some brightness contrast issues, and I'll have to compare this on mobile, I personally think this is not only more ahesive colour-wise, but also more striking and positive with it's bright, sky-like background and bold violet letters.

here's the full version.

Staff, if you want feel free to use this one! I don't ask for much, just credit me.

...does Tumblr have. credits.

...I guess graphical artists and programers can just, put the stuff they've done in the portfolio or be credited in a curriculum vitae. But like, is there not an official credits page in websites like this?

Maybe it's offsite? I don't know.

3. The Hearts

Now, I think i can tell how these were made. Whoever made this image created the heart, then duplicated the heart and moved it a bit, and made it darker to create the shadow. And at some point they added the shine lines.

Now, what I do notice about this process is that they didn't round out the edges.

what do I mean? What I mean is, they duplicated the hearts and offset them, but then didn't cover up this... Inside edge. So if you pay attention, it stops looking like a weird heart cookie, and just like two hearts one on top of the other.

Of course it doesn't break immersion (asdjosadjo who cares about inmersion on this), but it's still interesting. As someone who is frequently self concious about how I make my art, is funny to think something that sometimes worries me about what I make, which i think is lazy or not the right way to do it, is actually a common practice.

anyway, after this they duplicated the heart a bunch, then put all the hearts on the same layer, duplicated that layer, offset that layer, changed the color of the layer to what I'm assuming was a very low opacity multiply layer. And then, they blurred that.

I'm kind of mixed on that, it feels too transparent yet too visible, kind of awkward to me. I'd maybe make it stand out a slight bit more. But it's not really a big deal.

And that's the thing. None of this is a big deal. It's a graphic that happens when a user reach 10k likes. I didn't even know the site was keeping count if im honest!

But i don't know. I really like it. Tumblr as a site has just a bit more style than others. It's slightly, very slightly, but sometimes it's the little things.

A lot of people groan when the site is funny and says stuff like "oh we couldn't find any posts, i guess evil santa claus took care of them" but to me, they add a level of charm that's... very missing in other websites.

And lately tumblr has been capitalizing on this. And I do fear that maybe in the process of being more quirky, they'll wrap around to being more corporate.

But I appreciate the effort. I appreciate the idea that tumblr staff can have a little fun sometimes. And to be honest, I think everyone should get to have a little fun. And not just be exposed to fun, but to partake in it. To be the butt of the joke, the live audience to a comedian website, or a clown themselves.

I usually don't like it when twitter is like "it's your twitter birthday, make a post about it". It feels corporate. It doesn't feel like a post I would make to celebrate it. It's not something I would celebrate.

And while this does feel the same - tumblr is a company as well -, i don't know. Something about the image peaked my interest, and for a moment i just thought.

I don't know. Appreciation. The idea that behind everything ever done there's someone who worked to do it. And because I often liked the creative touches in this website's design, I wanted to focus on one aspect of it. Just, try to reverse-engineer it. In a kind of earnest, kind of comedic way.

Specially as someone who is starting to get into jobs and work and the such. It's just... interesting to me now.

#10000 likes #tumblr milestone #hellothepixel

[iidias]

Never mind, the fluff mood ended fast it's Rui thirst time :)

Three things

1. I'm a switch.

2. I would look great in a bunny suit and would love a reason to wear one.

3. I like card games and making stupid bets.

So, surprising our favorite director by wearing a little costume and offering a game of cards, loser gets tied up and overstimmed <3

Just, riding him... jacking him off until he's crying... him tugging at the restraints to no avail... holding him after... I know you don't fuck with dom reader content so I'll leave that brief~

Or, he wins... getting restrained and being completely helpless... maybe he'd use a vibrator? I wouldn't put it past him to make a full on fucking machine hehe. Either way, He gets to sit back and enjoy the show~. Maybe he'd decide to fuck your tits? (Or in the dark content version, your face, preventing the agreed-on safeword from actually being said.) Squirming around trying to escape the feeling, telling him you just can't take any more, only to be met with a caress to the head and a gentle voice, being coaxed through just 'one more' over and over... fluffy aftercare, being held and soothed back to him, finally calming down...

Hm, it feels rather awkward to use 'you' when messaging a thirst to someone rather than writing a fanfic, even if this is for public reading. I tried to avoid it somewhat, which may have made my writing a bit awkward, or at least outside of its norm. I'm also realizing just how long this message is now. Let me know if I've crossed any lines, as previously implied I don't usually send thirst asks

-Bunnygirl Chen, hehe~

IM SOBBING. IM CRYING. IM GONNA EAT WOOD CHIPS.

UR PROB GONNA GET USED TO USING YOU/YOU'RE!!! BUT IVE ALWAYS WRITTEN LIKE THAT.

listen. i know im not a dom. BUT THE IDEA OF RUI TIED UP WITH TEARS IN HIS EYES AND HIS DICK TWITCHING IN OVERSTIMULATION IM BARKING

NDKSNXKD CJNSJCD. OMG. CHEN UR BRAIN...... ITS HUGE.

(CONSENTED) DJDBJSS HIS FUCKING UR TITS AND CUMMING ALL OVER.... HE WILL NEVER LET YOU LIVE IT DOWN!! he even laughs when you pout at him :((( he thinks it's even cuter when you stick you tongue out and let his cum in your mouth too. you pout and whine for him to slow down, but by the looks of it, you don't really want that, do you??

(DUBCON) KSNDSJDNKS!NNN!!!!$$(!#8$!(# THIS!N!!!!!!!!! fucking your face nice and rough. you're gagging and sputtering all over his cock, tears cascade down your red cheeks. you slap his thigh and try to push him off; but to no avail, he just goes rougher. you want to, need to say the safe word so badly, you're running out of air!! but he just won't pull away!! he loves the sight of you struggling beneath him, crying and helpless; pathetic in his care.

#patronfeedback #inc0gnitobrowser #user@chen

[yomakairesident]

Writing a little tidbit about em because I feel too cheesy to be able to say it to their face wausghdhf

Maybe it was by luck or chance or whatever else may exist but really do love getting to have met you. I think you are just so genuine and creative and lovely I could go on and on. You give me patience and respect like not many others I've known like ever; I admire so much about you. If you're ever sad, I will always be here to talk and listen. If you need (admittedly probably pretty lukewarm) advice, I'll do my best always. You make me want to be someone worth the world, because the world doesn't deserve you. You are so amazing I can't possibly put it to words alone. Your mannerisms and little habits you have are unique and lovely, your art is some of my favorite I've seen [I'm not kidding bro you have more talent and creativity than many I've seen] and bring so much joy to my and assuredly many others' lives. This place could benefit from some more people like you. There's billions of things we could've been doing, places we could've been, people we could've known, and we aligned well enough to fit into eachothers life. I don't care what anyone else says, I got the best version of the world I could've because I'm able to call you a friend. I love you (platonically, but you already know that) sm that if you asked me to I would find a way to bring you the moon. We could love there together, creating and talking with all of our favorite things. On top of all that, you're just so gorgeous too. I don't know who made you feel insecure about ANYTHING about you because I find you as pretty/handsome as anything could be. Your face suits your voice and personality perfectly, the style of your clothes is elegant but casual and fabulous ofc, your beauty marks are so pretty and add so much to you. I would love you if you were a worm. I would choose you in a room full of people. I don't think, I know we're friends in every universe. And even if there was some possible way we weren't, we'd find eachother. You'd order from my elote stand on a nice summer afternoon. I'd stop you in the street to tell you I love your eyes. We'd ride the same train and talk for hours, even if we never saw eachother again after the ride. And every time without fail I'd come to love everything about you all over again. You're encapsulating, amazing, and the best I could ask for. Thank you a whole lot; you and your friendship mean more than I could've asked.

#¤ friend mention! #○ posts from yōmakai #URGHHHAHAAAAA FUCKING CORNBALL POST RAUGHHH #I have. So many thoughts about my friends. I love my friends #I am in platonic love with each and every one of them. Chat am I cooked? #I hope they don't find me too much. I tend to do that to people #I hope they know I love them forever and unconditionally. I don't care if they like me back but getting to know them was the best thing #To happen to be genuinely.

[ancient-reverie]

s/o to my fellow systems whose brains are just wild and will see a nice rock and make an alter. like okay brain, that's nice thank you. no idea what started us as a system, but over the years we've had many new people form and the causes are varied. this is not a full list, just a couple of experiences

i want to preface that there is nearly no way to "prove" if these are true reasons or not as is the nature of dissociation. but they FEEL right and it's our brain so we would have some idea. and it Doesn't Really Matter in the end being as what matters is that we Are Here Now.

really we made this as a list so maybe someone who needed to could relate to or laugh at one or more of the things

a lot of feelings about not being able to sing gave us a vocaloid with a broken voice

almost drowning landed us a transmasc siren

started writing a new character and oops hi pretty okay and strong girl

"i need a big brother"

some really bad shit went down in mindspace (this happened often when we were younger) and an alter or two were traumatized so write a note to wait two months and start looking for a new one but still be surprised and confused when the new one comes up anyway

some symptom got too much to handle so now it's this guys turn wait who is this guy

discovered a new song and listened to it on repeat and maladaptive daydreamed someone a new friend or child

bestie said we weren't friends no more so i'm gonna become someone who has never met bestie

We Aren't Talking About The YouTuber That We Watched Too Much Of And Used For Emotional Support Until They Showed Up And We Pulled Off A Perfect [redacted] Accent And Refuse To Speak Of Since (sorry)

uncomfortable moment you will only ever be Confused about despite being able to remember it and what was happening

every alter rotating out during the Suicidal TimesTM until there's no one else who can handle it so yOu MakE ONe and they're actually really happy for a minute and can appear to break the depressive session but very quickly realizes what they're in for and joins the rest of the Sad Club, thanks for the help buddy, sorry and welcome to the club we have weed

Bird Hyperfixation

"i need a new mom"

Vampire hyperfixation

literally just a different version of an existing alter. alternate-timeline 'if this had happened or hadn't happened' or future/older selves

you really liked this character in that show but your brain for some reason won't take the actual character. oh no it has to make its own person that is an exact mirror of that character! but it wont tell you! you have to forget all about that character until 10 years later when the alter realizes it but they're so different now you don't actually know but it probably shaped you in some way

had a slut phase on discord and the fake personality 2 of the alters used online turned into her own person

You haven't met the alter that you know exists because you asked for them to exist at the same time you heard your father cry for the first time at 27 when you all Lost a creature who the whole system considered their daughter.

people just form when the brain decides it's a good idea for us. it's been awhile since we've had a new fully fleshed out alter who has the energy and desire to be out/slots into the main group that takes care of most things. when new ones form these days (like 2.3 every 4 years) it's "quieter" people that pop up, introduce themselves, and then chill in mindspace with the rest and we don't really hear from them much.

Last we counted we have about 50 people (we counted a long time ago i'll be honest), but on a daily basis only about 3-5 people are active and it's not always through the whole day. at least 2-3 are always active. Siruss is the only one who can solo we dunno why.

our usual routine someone will be out and they'll have a co-fronter and or a couple background buddy(ies), and then the co-fronter and background people change after a week to a month, it depends on who it is. sometimes one of the background or co-fronters will swap out and be the main one for however long they can manage (depends on who it is)

but if we're leaving the house and around other people the routine is totally subject to change.

#hell o void #hell o hadal #system stuff #plural shit #about #i really need to go to bed and stop using tumblr as a journal #if someone reads this and it enlightens something for them then im glad i could help at least but if you read this at all thank you #plurality #multiple people in one body #also i know you guys have your whole vocabulary for specific things but we didnt have that when growing up so we use whatever words #feel the most appropriate for us and how we feel. we're also mostly around singlets and have to use vocabulary they understand so we keep i #practice of using terms and descriptors that make sense to most people. bc we will tell strangers we're plural if it comes up we dont care #plural #multiple #no syscourse on my post

[cileevi]

The Speed Of Pain: One Won't Hurt Me

Chapter Two

June 28th, 1997

Las Vegas

Charlotte

" I know that things are going wrong for me. You gotta listen to my words. Heirs of a cold war that's what we've become. Inheriting troubles, I'm mentally numb. Crazy, I just cannot bear I'm living with something that just isn't fair. Mental wounds not healing. Who and what's to blame? I'm going off the rails on a crazy train. " 

The show has been over for a good half hour but I love going out on the stage when no one's here and singing a little something. One day, God willing, I'll be playing for large crowds just like my dad. I even dream about it at least twice a week. Maybe even more now that I'm on the road.

No complaints here since this is the first breath of freedom I've gotten ever. After being stuck in Florida and then Michigan for the last four years of college, it's refreshing to be traveling around. Especially when I get to spend sibling time with Jack and Kelly. I really wish my mom would have had more kids than me. It would have been nice to have what they have.

" Hey. That sounded good. Just like him actually. " I hear from behind me and almost jump out of my skin in fright. 

Feeling my face heat up I say, " thanks... I didn't know you were listening. " 

I know deep inside he's resisting the urge to laugh at the look on my face. " I was and I can't wait to hear more. I also saw you out there tonight. You were really rocking when we went on. " 

" You were ON. " I say with a shrug.

He cracks a smile. " I even caught you singing along. Never would have thought that you were a fan. "  

" I'm insulted. Ozzfest isn't the first time I've seen you on stage. You guys usually put on a great show. " I compliment truthfully. " When you aren't literally cutting yourself open that is. "

His smile widens at my words. " The first time I didn't actually set out to cut myself. Someone threw a broken bottle and it was spur of the moment. After that... I guess I just wanted to keep up the shock value of it. "

Marilyn

" Not gonna lie, when I first saw it, I was worried. " She says as she puts a piece of hair behind her ear.

I love it when girls do that. It's an easy giveaway as to whether they're interested or not. Not that I'm looking or anything. It's just nice to know I have this kind of effect on such a beautiful woman. That she'd even be worried about my well-being without even knowing me yet.

" It looked really deep. Do you get stitches after? "

Pursing my lips I lift my shirt to reveal the scars that litter my stomach and chest. " Nah, but they do hurt like a bitch for at least a few weeks after. "

It looks like she's having an inner fight about what she wants to say to that. " I don't mean to sound judgemental... But what exactly do you get out of it besides pain and scars? "

I don't think she'd ever understand if I did explain. No one would. So she'll have to settle for a watered-down version. 

" Every artist worth their weight in cocaine is willing to suffer for their art. " I tell her shrugging before pulling my shirt back down. 

Before I can stop or talk myself out of it, I ask, " so... You gonna hang out with me tonight? "

Charlotte

As if I'd say no. " Sure. I just need to get my jumper from the bus. "

" Hurry. I'm too sober for my own good. " I hear him call out.

I chuckle as I enter the warm bus. It's crazy how Las Vegas can be so hot during the day and then so chilly at night. Grabbing my jumper, I pull it over my head. Going over to the full-length mirror I straighten my hair and reapply my lipstick. 

" You were great tonight dad. Everyone was actually. " I say as I make sure the rest of my makeup is holding up.

Dad, who's painting at the table, looks up and says, " thanks, Schroeder. Where are you off to? " 

" I'm hanging with Manson and the band tonight. " I tell him with a smile.

Kelly pops out of nowhere and wraps her arms around my waist." Can I come? " 

" Sorry sis, " I say while removing her arms. " We're going to a club where there's going to be drinking and illicit drug use I'm sure. " 

She frowns and I know one of her famous attitudes is roaring its ugly head. You know who's to blame though? Marilyn. He made her his new best friend and now she wants to do whatever he does. Not really a good thing. I know he has been dying to get out and have some adult fun soo she'll get over it. He loves hanging with Kelly and Jack, but it can't be a good look for his rocker reputation to always have kids around. No matter how cool they are.

But a smokin' hot blonde? Always in style.

" We'll do something fun before we leave Vegas. " I promise just to avoid her shenanigans. 

Her expression goes from bratty to excited in five seconds. " Promise? "

" Me too? " She and Jack both say at the same time.

I couldn't just take one and not the other. What kind of sister does he think I am?

" Yes, and yes. " I say before going to lean over and kiss dad on the cheek. " Don't wait up old man. "

Waving me off he says, " have fun, Schroeder. Don't do anything I wouldn't do. "

" That doesn't leave a lot of things that I shouldn't do. " I say with a huge smile.

Sharon laughs having caught the last part of our conversation as she walks into the bus. " Go on darling, Marilyn's waiting. You know better than to keep rock stars from their partying."

" Okay, I'll see you all for breakfast. " I say as I walk down the four steps and open the door.

I step down on the asphalt and just as I'm closing the door I hear, " yeah right. There's no way we're seeing her before noon. I know how Manson likes to party. "

Looking at Marilyn, I know he heard too. Laughing he shakes his head and wraps an arm around my shoulders. " We'll see about having you up before two. I'm surprised Kelly didn't get dragged out while hanging on your leg. "

" I had to bribe her and Jack with doing something fun tomorrow. " I say chuckling.

He laughs along. " She's a fun kid, they both are... " He says before stooping in front of me with an evil look on his face. " But tonight we're doing things a bit more age-appropriate. "

Can I just say that I don't like that evil look? It's like he knows what's going to happen even before it does. Shrugging it off, we head over to a pretty little Jaguar. 

...

" Come on, we're getting shots. " He says while pulling me through the sea of dancing bodies to the bar.

I can't help but look all around. The atmosphere is crazy here. I'm such a noob when it comes to this stuff. Marilyn seems right at home though. After ordering, he hands me a double shot and I swallow it quickly without asking what it is. 

Big mistake.

Making a sick face he laughs at me. Pulling him down to my level, I yell in his ear, " I've been nice to you, why would you want to kill me "?

He laughs and I go to order something to get the nasty taste out of my mouth. Before I can, he's already handing me a beer. Taking a long drink I look back up at him.

" What was that? " I ask once the taste is gone.

It tasted like battery acid. 

" Absinthe. Come on. Let's find the cool table. " He says in my ear before leading me over to an empty corner.

Pulling out a little baggie of white powder he empties out some onto a small compact mirror he pulled from his pocket. " Let's really start the fun. "

" I don't know. I'm already feeling the absinthe. " I say not lying in the slightest but also knowing I've never done blow.

Not to mention if my Dad were to ever find out... He doesn't speak highly of cocaine at all. Sure he has done enough for ten people in his lifetime, but that's how he knows that he doesn't want it for his kids. 

" Then it won't make a difference if you do a line or two with me. " He reasons with a charming smirk.

... However, I am twenty-two and need to make my own mistakes. " Okay. " I say throwing caution to the wind. " I suppose one won't hurt me. "

Famous last words. 

" I knew there was a reason that I liked you. " He says as he separates the white powder into two identical lines on the compact.

Putting the tip of a straw into his nose, he leans down and snorts one of the lines. Holding his left nostril he holds the straw out to me. Taking it I mimic what he did and regret it instantly as the powder burns through my nasal cavity. Three seconds later the burn is replaced by numbness.

" That's gross. " I say as I feel the powder liquefying in my nose.

He laughs and pulls my legs up into his lap. " You get used to it. " 

Yeah, right. " I don't know how. " 

" Just give it a few minutes and you'll see how. " He says as he takes off one of my heels and starts rubbing my foot.

I don't know if it's the drug or what, but his hands feel like pure silk on my already hurting tootsie. " I shouldn't have worn heels. " 

" Yes, you should have. I have a reputation to maintain, you know? " He says before running his index finger down the bottom of my foot.

My whole body jerks trying to get away from his finger. " That tickles! " I say as I damn near climbing him like a tree.

" Watch it, blondie. " Marilyn chides as my jumper opens a bit more revealing more of my barely there bralette. " A man could get the wrong idea. "

Laughing I get off of him and attempt to sit back but end up laying flat on the long seat. He shakes his head and pulls me back up till our faces are inches apart. " If you get the wrong idea, it's because you're thinking the wrong things. " I blurt out.

" Oh, I'm thinking all the wrong things right now. " He groans.

And just like that, my panties are soaked. Well played, Manson, well played. Does he do this for fun or is it just natural?

" Naughty, Mr. Manson! " I say giggling like an idiot.

Putting his lips next to my ear he says, " I can have you creaming for me in under two minutes ".

I debate my response when we're interrupted. 

" I thought I'd find you in your favorite corner. " 

Turning my head away from him I see THE Johnny Depp standing in front of us. 

" Hey man! " Manson says before getting up and embracing the actor. 

Johnny eyes me when they pull apart. " Who's your friend? " 

" This is Charlotte Osbourne. " Marilyn introduces. " She's Ozzy's daughter. Charlotte, this is Johnny Depp. "

Holding my hand out I say, " Hi, it's nice to meet you ". 

" Likewise! " He says taking my hand in his and placing a kiss on the back of it. " What are we drinking? " 

Marilyn's on his feet in seconds. " I'll get us a round of shots. " 

" No! " Both Johnny and I insist. 

Johnny damn near forces Manson to sit back down. " I'll get us some shots. Be right back. "

Laughing at his back, I see he has learned the hard way as well. Manson just sits in his spot looking like a scolded child. Smiling wide I poke him in his cheek. He playfully bites at my finger making me laugh again. 

I look at him and he does something that damn near takes my breath away. He smiles. Not just a superficial smile that he has been plastering on his face all day and night, but a real genuine smile. 

Wow. 

Time stands still for both of us. It feels as if a magnet is pulling our faces together slowly but surely. Our lips get about an inch away from each other when Johnny returns with drinks in hand. 

" Alrighty. One absinthe, and two rums. " Johnny says completely unaware of what he just interrupted. 

Reluctantly, we both sit back in our seats. Damn, Johnny. I was sooo close to kissing the lips that I've been looking at all night. I don't even care if it means messing up both of our lipsticks. 

Manson and I down our shots quickly and it's just now that Johnny notices the tension. 

" Did I interrupt something? " He asks in confusion.

I look at Manson who's looking at me as well. I imagine my cheeks are just as red as his at this moment.  

" Where are the rest of the band? " Johnny asks trying to bring us back around to talking.

" Off somewhere wreaking havoc. I didn't want them to ruin our night. " Manson says shrugging. 

I laugh at that hard for no real reason. Leaning in, Marilyn says, " you're feeling it now huh? "

Now that he mentions it... Yes, I am feeling it. I laugh again and bump shoulders with him.

" Don't tell me you have already started the real party without me. " Johnny asks in a mock hurt tone. 

Marilyn cracks a smile. " As if I knew you were going to show up. " 

" Excuses. " Johnny continues to joke. 

Going into his pocket, Marilyn pulls out the baggie with the cocaine in it. " Well... You can always join us for the next. " 

Johnny grins evilly and we all do a line together. I hate to say it, but he was right. The second one burned less than the first. After that and many more shots of rum, time became a blur of laughs and off-beat dancing. 

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When we get back to Marilyn's tour bus he helps me up the stairs. Trust me, I need the extra help. I'm honestly lucky to be upright at this point.

We're about to head back to his bunk when we hear, " Are you serious? You went and got Ozzy's daughter shit-faced? " 

We turn around to find the one called Twiggy standing by the kitchenette looking at us like we committed murder. I crack up at the look which makes him glare at Marilyn harder. 

" What's the problem? " Marilyn asks while wrapping his arm around my shoulders. " This here is a legal adult female. "

Deciding not to let him take his bandmate's judgment I chime in. " I'm twenty-two, not twelve. Besides, my dad knows where I went and with who. " 

He rolls his eyes but has nothing else to say. We then head back to his bunk like we were originally heading before he interrupted us. Once there Marilyn starts going about what must be his nightly routine. He pulls out a bag of makeup removal wipes and begins wiping his face. Passing the wipes to me I do the same.

" Do you have a hair tie? " I ask him when my face is free of makeup.

He takes one of the ties off of his wrist and hands it to me. Leaning over, I finger-brush my hair into a high pony. I just then notice how hot I am when I feel the cool air hit the sweat on the back of my neck. He takes his shirt off and throws it haphazardly behind him. Which does nothing for how hot I am at the moment. He's really good-looking for someone who thinks he's not. Scars and all.

Removing my jumper, I hear an almost inaudible gasp behind me. I feel one of his large palms on my lower back and his breath on the back of my neck. " Your skin is so milky and soft. "

" Let me sleep in one of your shirts? " I ask over my shoulder with a shy smile.

Reluctantly, he moves away and starts digging in his suitcase. He picks one of his longer shirts with the devil printed on the front.

" Thanks. " I say when he hands it to me.

I shimmy out of my pants and fold them before setting them on top of the suitcase. Unhooking my bralette, I look up at him and wink. He's sitting in his bunk, eyes wide as I pull it from my chest and feel the cool air hit my nipples.

" Damn. You're fucking beautiful. " He damn near whispers.

I feel my cheeks redden under his intense gaze. My insides quiver and my lady parts flutter. I've never really dated around or entertained a man in this way before. Nor has a man ever made me feel these kinds of things.

After letting him look at my mostly naked body for a few moments, I slide his shirt over my head and pull it down. " You're not so bad yourself. "

" Come here. " He says as he gets under the blankets.

I can see his hard-on through his boxers just as he covers himself with the blanket. Is that really all it takes to get him going? A little naked tittie action? Good to know. 

When he's situated he lifts them for me to slide in next to him. " Hold on. " He says before sliding his arm under my knees and switching sides on the bunk so that I'm facing the wall.

I turn onto my side and pull the blankets up to my shoulder before scooting closer to him. Reaching his arm out, he pulls me into his chest. Damn. He was talking about my skin being soft, but his is like a baby's.

Just before I'm about to fall asleep, I ask, " you know the time "?

" When we came in it was close to four. " He mumbles.

Okay, so I might not make it for breakfast after all. Lunch. Lunch is better. The second most important meal of the day.

" Thanks for taking me out with you tonight. I had fun. " I yawn out. 

" Me too. I guess blondes really do have more fun. " He jokes while stroking my hair. 

I giggle into his chest. " Do blondes usually get you up like that? " I ask as I lift the blanket up to look at his erection that hasn't gone down in the slightest. 

" Honey, you just showed me your perfect body in all its naked splendor. Any man would rise to the occasion. " He says as he smoothes the blanket back down over his lower half. " A lady wouldn't have mentioned it. " 

I laugh harder. " Maybe... It's hard to ignore though. " 

" Stop trying to take advantage of me, Charlotte. " He huffs out in mock aggravation. 

Once I stop laughing the bus quiets down again and I settle back into his chest. " Goodnight, Manson. " 

" Goodnight, Blondie. " He sighs out already half asleep. 

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