#maybe he doesn't have to Be Good for some unspecified rubric

[onlyonekenobi]

do, like- do you think sam and dean knew they were jewish?? because midwestern goyim don’t tend to throw around words like “mazel” and “dayenu” the way dean did, but honestly i think it would make a lot of sense if they didn’t know until part way through the show. because mary doesn’t strike me as a particularly observant or even ritualistic person, the kind who would make shabbat dinner or light candles every week. even if she went to high holidays, dean would have been too little to go with. he would have stayed home with john. and maybe they celebrated hanukkah, but would a four year old necessarily remember lighting some random candles? almost definitely not. and i could absolutely see john not mentioning it, not out of malice, but just that “you’re jewish” is about mary, and mary hurt to talk about. and like, no way he was stable enough to do hanukkah 1984 with the boys just a month after she died. and then he didn’t want to stick around long enough anywhere to be able to give them bar mitzvahs, so isn’t it easier if they just don’t know? after all, you can’t miss what you don’t know you’re supposed to have.

and then they find out they have a grandfather named moishe and they’re like “............ excuse me?” 

#and then let's talk about sweet little sam #who absolutely fucking GRAPPLED with religion his entire life #finding out that he's jewish. and learning about judaism. and learning the phrase ''to wrestle with god'' #and feeling just a tiny sliver of peace settle into his heart #like maybe this can make sense. maybe he can make sense #maybe he doesn't have to Be Good for some unspecified rubric #maybe it's enough to Try #the words ''justice justice shall you pursue'' ring in his ears until he decides he wants to go to law school #maybe he went to hillel at stanford #and then dean shows up #and he doesn't want to go he doesn't want to #but ''dad's on a hunting trip. and he hasn't been home in a few days'' lands on his ears #and suddenly he's hearing #''you are not obligated to complete the work but neither are you free to abandon it'' #and shut up brain that's not what that MEANS but he can't shake it #so ''fine. but i have to be back by monday'' #and like yes this necessitates that they find out as kids somehow but GOD can you IMAGINE #anyway sorry this went off the rails but like imagine them at thirty years old finding out about this #dean would just shut down because How Much Else didn't he know about Her? #and sam would be PISSED at john for keeping this from them #anyway #text #talking #jupernatural #winchester bros