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catmaidetho · 11 months
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7 for the ask game
7. What do you love most about being a fic writer for your fandom? this speaks more to my experience in the hermitcraft fandom in general, but this is the first fandom that i've felt so directly included and fully part of. like everyone is so interactive in a way that other fandoms arent?? maybe its just bcuz ethogirls gotta stick together, but i really feel like im part of something, not just an observer or someone in the corner yelling into the void.
happy fic writer ask game
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neige-leblanche · 1 year
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It’s totally normal to not be with someone who has different ideas on wanting kids from you. I know people who never mentioned their feelings on kids till after marriage and it destroyed the relationship when it came out that one really wanted kids and the other really really didn’t. I could never be with someone who felt strongly about wanting kids, cause I’d either feel pressured to change my mind or feel bad I was holding them back from something they want
thank u :') its hard bc im like. mostly aromantic and the thought of going out to search for someone who does fit all my ideals is not something i can really picture myself ever doing; i suppose it hurts when one has special feelings that rarely ever happen but they're for someone with whom a lasting future isn't really feasible
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kyuala · 1 year
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WAIT real quick just before i start i want to say what i think their personalities will be like just to keep this here for future reference to see how much that perception will change
#wishi.... idk i think really chill laid-back leader vibes but sometimes hes a savage#gives me serim kinda leader vibes but less soft.#kyungmin.... woobin but even smarter. kinda like allen too in that he never speaks but when he does it's a hit#keumdong idk what i expected but im so surprised at how talkative he is already. he seems like basically their unofficial mc#i thot maybe he'd be like.... shy n quiet n cute but nope. i think he's a chatterbox n chaotic n yes cute#minwoo.... just realized he n baekseung share a name syllable omg so cute. soulmate behavior#anyways minwoo. Quiet. like thats just it idk he just gives me Always Lurking In The Background vibes#maybe like.... kind of like jaemin in the sense that he's either a quiet introvert with 0 social battery or he's off his fuckin rocker#bouncing off the walls batshit insane. n then back to being an introvert#baekseung.... i think the member that's the most unintentionally funny from what i've seen. also v cute w/o even trying#maybe. also like v innocent naive baby vibes#ok now yejun.... i already thought HE was the chatterbox of the group but it seems like he's quieter#until u get him going off about something he enjoys. not much else to add tho he seems quiet. also vvv smart#yewang. i keep thinking he has jeongwoo's personality bc they remind me of each other but on 2nd thought.... absolutely not#i think he's rather quiet but enjoys being a scheming little bitch to his friends bc they deserve it#yewang is born good the society around him corrupts him (epex)#now jeff.... v much gives me 'maknae who makes fun of everyone but gets away w it bc everybody's whipped for him' vibes#except for the other maknaes. i think he must have a love-hate relationship w them. n maybe like one older member#yeah these r my thoughts.... overall as a group they seem like they're quiet at the beginning of every episode n then get increasingly#deranged as time goes by until u catch them like. trying to throw a member onto the roof and screaming their lungs out meanwhile#mari.txt
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boyzgotojupiter · 1 year
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quick note: i'm absolutely not an astrologer. these are just a collection of some observations, thoughts, theories, and personal experiences. above all this is just for fun. lastly, these may or may not apply to you but you might find something to be true about your friends, family, or lover. enjoy!
✿ aquarius in the 1st house (composite): people may be surprised to you see two together as a couple. this can be because you don’t look like you’d be attracted to each other or because your personalities are different. maybe you guys have been friends before so your families/mutual friends didn’t see it coming. and perhaps you & your partner didn’t expect it either and it came as a surprise, something unexpected. a friends to lovers type of relationship. and although people may be surprised at your relationship they may see that the two of you get along really well, probably always laughing and talking to each other.
✿ neptune in the 2nd house: these natives may have recurring moments where they lose money or it just suddenly disappears even though they’re certain they remember exactly where they put it. may also experience money missing from their financial accounts.
✿ lilith in the 2nd house: can indicate someone who is sneaky, stealthy, & sly like a fox, good at stealing things and rarely getting caught. probably have a history of stealing and could have been doing this since they were young.
✿ lilith in the 3rd house: may have road rage and can be someone who doesn’t respect the traffic signs nor traffic lights. the type to make a u-turn when they’re not supposed to, run a red light, or go above the speeding limit. possibly the types that got into fights in their earlier years in school.
✿ lilith in the 4th house: may be embarrassed or ashamed of their family or their mother in particular. they may not like it when people come over their house and especially do not feel comfortable inviting their friends/partner over. their family may be overbearing, lacking social awareness, vulgar, messy, etc. this placement kind of reminds me of elizabeth and her family, the Bennets, from the movie pride and prejudice (2005 version).
✿ there are so many factors to look at considering your appearance in astrology. i have the features of my rising sign and although im not a libra rising, i’m very libra/venus dominant. i’m a libra sun/venus, my sun is at 7° (libra degree), i also have a libra stellium in my natal chart and in multiple persona charts, it just goes on and on. with that being said, i have dimples and so many freckles, beauty marks, and birth marks all over my body and basically on every body part. so don’t just look to your rising sign. check your dominant planet/sign, your venus sign, the degree of your rising/venus sign, your ascendant/venus persona chart, along with any planets in your 1st house because they can all have an influence on your appearance.
✿ when it comes to words, i’ve noticed that gemini tends to double check the definitions of words to make sure they're using it correctly. they like to expand their vocabulary and using that vocabulary in their day to day speech or to appear smart & they talk a lot, more extroverted. virgo tends to be more pedantic, correcting others for an error in pronunciation/spelling, there’s an emphasis on on grammar and they may flash their impressive vocabulary to show you how stupid you sound, at work/business meetings, or when they’re being sarcastic. they're both ruled by mercury, but i think geminis like to talk more than virgos. virgos appear bashful and quiet/introverted but they have their moments when they are feeling talkative.
✿ sun in the 4th house: these natives may stand out in their family in some way. their skin tone may be lighter than the rest, may be the smartest one, the tallest one, the popular one.
if you have siblings with sun in the 4th you might get compared to them a lot, people/your family highlights the qualities that your sibling has which are the ones you don’t have or maybe they point out how they’re better than you at certain things.
✿ chiron in the 4th house: may have felt like an ugly duckling, an outcast in your family, like you don’t fit in. omg just thought of meg from family guy as i was typing this. could have been treated like cinderella was by her stepfamily.
✿ aquarius moon: may enjoy or find comfort in watching wholesome videos or reading/listening to wholesome stories or news reports. the ones with acts of kindness & generosity, humans treating each other the way they should, the ones that “restore your faith in humanity.”
✿ people with gemini or aries placements tend to be impulsive or quick to react, especially with aries who can be intense & temperamental, or someone who is uranus dominant who can be quite unpredictable and capricious. but if you have pluto in the 1st house you may have great self control. you might be livid or scared on the inside but you have a poker face on the outside. this doesn’t mean you don’t react but you delay the reaction, you wait a little longer to see how things develop and decide whether a reaction is warranted or not.
✿ libras appreciate manners & respectful people so they may not be a fan of cursing and vulgar language. this is contrary to their sister/opposite sign aries who probably curses often and uses indecent words when talking. for libras it makes them cringe, for aries it can be a form of verbal, emotional, and self-expression.
✿ pisces love it when it rains. they find it soothing & dulcet. the change in atmosphere is something they can really feel & it’s comforting. they’re the types to listen to sad music when they’re sad, so the gray skies & dark clouds only makes everything better. taking a walk or being outside on the porch or balcony as it rains can be refreshing & purifying for pisces. laying in bed cuddling or falling asleep to the raindrops feels like bliss.
^ meanwhile sun dominants may hate it when it rains because the atmosphere looks too gloomy & dismal to them. and things could get windy, muddy & messy which makes them want to avoid going outside altogether.
✿ lilith in gemini: these individuals are quick thinkers & are good with words, they know how to be persuasive which makes them good liars, they can create clever lies on the spot. while this can make them appear untrustworthy, for these natives lying could have been a surviving mechanism. they may have been subject to tense, controlling, and traumatic environments & people and this could have made them feel like they couldn’t be themselves nor speak their truth. doing so may have resulted in more pain and suffering and to avoid or at least reduce that, they turned to lying to protect themselves.
✿ netpune in the 8th house: probably aren’t afraid of death and may even look forward to going to the other side (i’m not talking about suicidal thoughts). or they might wish to die in their sleep when the time has come. they may have a tendency to imagine gruesome things like strange/dark creatures & they might experience vivid nightmares that feel real. would probably be really good at creating morbid art.
✿ scorpio mars/venus: may be mean to their partner, not really in a serious way but in a teasing way. but trust me, underneath the little attitudes & the teasing they are in loveee. they care for their partners so deeply and just want to drown in them.
✿ moon in the 7th house: they don’t like when people are mad at them or when there’s strife in their relationships. it makes them feel emotionally uncomfortable which can lead to the native worrying and obsessively thinking about what went wrong. they’ll try to talk it out, perform acts of kindness, or other things to get the person to forgive them or to resolve any issues. this is another placement that may be too forgiving or tolerant in relationships as well.
✿ cancer: may be a very patriotic individual and so they may have the desire to go to war or fight for their homeland/country in some way like getting into politics for the sake of their country. they may feel a strong connection to their family, their background/history, and the land their family came from. could be the type to rep their flag and culture loud and proud. may want to give back to their country or the people there. tradition is important and they plan on keeping family/cultural traditions alive and/or even creating some of their own.
✿ 6th house synastry: gather around the fireplace my loves, were gunna talk about this synastry because often times it’s either disregarded, underappreciated, or seen as ominous. because of this i’ll mainly be talking about the positives and the favorable possibilities. warning, this is section is lowkey long af.   with 6th house synastry you get a feel for how well a person can fit into your life. because the 6th house has to do with daily life, routines, and schedules, this is such an important aspect in a relationship. the person you have 6th house synastry with could possibly think you make their daily life so much better. and if you are apart of their daily life, then there’s potential for you to be a big part of their life or to be in their life for many years. this doesn’t automatically mean this person will be a co-worker, employee, or employer, but if you can see, interact with, and develop relationships with the people you work with on a pretty daily basis for years, even 10+, then the same can apply to the those who aren’t co-workers, etc. but you still have 6th house synastry with them.
who knows, animals may bring you two together. could meet at the dog park, the vet, at an animal shelter or pet store. you guys may get pets together and it could feel like that pet is apart of your relationship/family. perhaps you two met at the hospital/doctor’s office, or when you happened to visit their place of work.
this person may look forward to seeing or speaking to you everyday. you can become apart of their routine, your presence can feel so natural that it feels like something is missing or different when you’re not around, when they haven’t heard from you, when you didn’t go out for your daily coffee together, when you miss dinner, when you’re traveling or away from home they can really feel it and miss you.
schedules are also important, such as work schedules. with unfavorable planets and aspects they might work a night shift but you may work a morning shift, or somehow your schedules clash. or sleeping schedules which can determine the rest of your day. for example they may be a night owl and you may be an early bird which means you may not get to sleep with each other often, can eat breakfast at different times, while you feel the most productive and energized they may feel the least productive or they’re just trying to unwind. almost functioning on different time zones.
but with favorable planets and aspects and such, this can bring so much harmony, connection, and understanding to the relationship. things flow. those moments when you’re sleeping together, get to just spend hours in bed, cuddling, making/having breaskfast together, knowing exactly what they like to eat, doing your morning/night routines together. a lot of the things are in the details but they’re still significant and can contribute to forming a bond. there’s more time to spend together and wanting to be near each other either doing something together or on your own but still next to each other. there’s a sense of familiarity and comfort.
there’s so much care and attention in 6th house synastry. your partner wants to put you at ease, making sure you’re okay, that you’ve eaten, you’re in a good mood. they’re supportive. they remember the important and little things about you. your likes and dislikes. you know those games where you and your partner answer questions about each other/your relationship? you guys would probably be good at that. when you’re sick they wanna do anything they can to help and alleviate your pain & discomfort. the type to never wanna leave your side until you’re well again. your well-being is a priority for them.
the 6th house is ruled by virgo which is ruled by mercury and the 6th house relates to the conscious mind as well. so with 6th house synastry, you may be someone that’s always on their mind, they find themselves thinking about you throughout the day. wondering what you’re doing, how you’re doing, the next time you’ll hang out, how much they love you, etc.
if i’m not mistaken, the 6th house also considers the physical body. so if positive placements and aspects in the 1st house can indicate good physical attraction and sexual tension/chemistry because of physical appearance, then why can’t this apply to the 6th house if it relates to the physical body? i’m not saying the 1st and 6th house are the same, but different houses do have similar themes. with that being said, sex can also be a big part of your relationship. for a lot couples, sex is important and even a deal breaker. this doesn’t necessarily have to do with one’s performance in bed but rather the sexual experience as a whole and how they connect with each other during the act. for a lot of people sex is more than just sex and in the 6th house this can be a daily/frequent thing. might like showering together. and because 6th house is the house of service, depending on the signs/planets in the 6th house there can be a dom/sub type of dynamic, not just in sex though. your partner may be more dominant or have submissive traits in the way they approach life and go about doing things.
going back to the physical body, there’s exercising, may together & perhaps helping each other stay healthy and on top things. there’s self-improvement here but in synastry there can be improvement and progress within the relationship too. creating common goals, creating plans with each other and if you’re doing these things together, surely you must see them in your life in the future. 6th house also talks about habits and you might be a good habit, something that is so good for them and their life, possibly even addicting or healing. with taurus in the 6th you can make them feel grounded and you bring stability to their life. with leo in the 6th you can bring fun, a burst of energy or happiness to their everyday life.
if they’re headed out to the store, food shopping, running errands or whatever, they might want you to come with them and you guys can have fun doing simple things like that. the type of partner that might be sitting with you or watching you while you put your makeup on/get dressed, helping you choose an outfit. don’t forget, acts of service is considered a love language for a reason! and relationships don't only consist of romance, going on dates all the time, staring in each other's eyes saying i love you every 4 seconds (hey scorpio 😘😂), but there's a more realistic & practical side as well.
mars in the 6th can bring passion, sex, desire, and determination. your partner can be a source of motivation. and i get that mars is a malefic planet, but every planet/sign can come with pros and cons whether it be benefic or malefic, and there are also favorable/unfavorable aspects, retrograde planets, etc.
venus in the 6th can bring affection, beauty, attention, love/romance, and pleasure. they may also help you with your self-love. acts of service may be a primary love language but remember signs matters to. with taurus venus it may be acts of service + physical touch.
or with gemini venus it may be acts of service + words of affirmation.
moon in the 6th here can bring an emotional connection, considering their feelings and what’s meaningful to your partner, someone who relieves your stress. may help you cope with your emotions in better ways.
plus, the 6th house won’t be the only house with planets in it. so having a synastry chart with 6th house energy coupled with that 8th house synastry ya’ll love, or even 5th house or 7th house energy may be really nice to have.
i see 6th house synastry described as unromantic and while i agree that the themes of the 6th house aren’t related to love, i still see it as a house with themes that can establish a very good foundation for a relationship and it can help develop a bond, and greatly contribute to intimacy and a close connection.
if you read the whole 6th house synastry section here’s an extra heart for you ♥︎, because you really read all that lol. i appreciate you! but hopefully this was helpful, encouraging, and i hope this brought a sweet & supportive perspective to this synastry.
if you read this until the end i hope you enjoyed it & thank you so much for reading. ♥︎♥︎♥︎, those hearts are for you.
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thequietkid-moonie · 7 months
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Saw you write for corpse bride, im not sure if requests are open since your bio and pinned say different things but if they are could I get something for Victor? Im a sucker for friends to lovers so maybe something with that? 👀
Friends to Loves w/ Victor Van Dort
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[ HEADCANONS ] [ Corpse Bride ]
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OMFG thank you so much for requesting this!! I love so much the movie and finally writing for it is so amazing!!! Waaaahhh hope you like it as much as I did!!
Also, so sorry for confusing you, it was totally my bad, I totally forgot to change the one of the bio but thanks for checking both, I apreciate it a lot!! 🖤
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Getting to be Victor's friend could be either pretty easy or pretty difficult, he normally doesn't go out of his house and when he does is mostly with his parents, it could be that you two met because your families are friends or because you two agree somewhere
He could be pretty awkward and clumsy at first due not really knowing what to say but wanting to give a good impresion, but at the time pass he will start to feel more comfortable and will start to express more himself
He would prefer if you don't meet his parents right away (and actually prefer to avoid it as long as posible), not that he is embarrased of you but he is afraid for his mother reaction, and even if she takes it well is probably that will say something embarrassing about him and he doesn't want to scare away his probably only friend
Is more likely that Victor will accept you the way you are without much problems, not matter if you are more the shy or energetic type he just wants for you to feel free to be yourself (since you do the same for him, is only right in his mind and even if you would criticize him he prefers to just let you be). If you are more the shy or introvert type he tries to talk more and motivate you to do diferent things together as friends (even when is something new for him) but if you are more the energetic and extrovert type he tries to follow your lead and your rythm, he may complain a bit sometimes for being too much but he just get uses to it over time
It doesn't have to pass much time for Victor to fall in love but that doesn't make it less meaningful, his feeling grows faster that he can notice so it would take him a while to know what he is feeling, and when he does it will take him a little bit of time to accept it mainly because he is really nervous about the whole thing, he doesn't know if he will be enough for you or even if you will ever like him that way
Even before him realicing his feelings it start to be a little bit obvious, since, even if he had already got used to having you around he is more nervous and clumsy around you again, just like he was when you just met, but this time he tries to brush it off by laughing at it, as well he start to trip on his words and sometimes speaks before thinking (more than he used to). While having a crush Victor is stuck between being really nervous and completely comfortable around you
He isn't exactly planning to confess his feelings for you but there are moments where you two are talking in a more serious manner and he just start to talk from his heart and his true feeling slips a little (if he realice it in time he will try to apologize or cover it up). He will only confess if and when he is sure of his feelings for you and that are reciprocated because he doesn't want to risk your friendship, he wouldn't mind too much never telling you his true feelings if he knows you don't like him back
If you are the one confessing then it will take him by surprise, it actually take him a moment to fully process what you have said and is probably that he asks you if it is real, he will be all blushy and flustered, even triping on his words but at the end he manage to express his feelings for you too
It would take him a while for Victor to accept that this is for real and that he is in a relasionship with you and yet he couldn't be happier for it, he tries to be the best boyfriend, the one that you deserve, unfortunately his insecurities sometimes push him a little to much and make him think that you deserve better than him
It would take him a while to get used to being in a relasionship but once he does he will be actually pretty open with you and tries to have a lot romantic and meaningful gestures with you
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sanriokamabodo · 8 months
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college!bf douma
A/N: im struggling w writers block + had a heavy day so i decided to write smth i conjured up instead of a request!i will be back in business soon my sweets!heehee<3 if y'all want a part two feel free to ask djdjd
CW's: hes kinda sleazy in the beginning, reader sucks at math. suggestive themes>:) douma is goth in my college au bc i said so. the day i proofread is the day i die!
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A psychology major with a minor in religious studies. Doesn't practice any religion himself but finds the subject interesting nevertheless.
Barely studies but somehow manages to pass with flying colours.
That one hookup you regret with all your might, let me elaborate;
Douma tutors math and it's no coincidence he slept with majority of the people he tutored.
No, you're not an exception. Cute try though!
Something about Douma's piercings, his choppy hair that he probably cut himself and his 'don't give a fuck' attitude managed to dissolve your IQ and last bit of self respect around him.
He knows how to give you just enough attention to keep you interested, but little enough for you to purposely screw up your math tests for an excuse to see him.
Yes, he mocked your intelligence by asking if rats ate your brain or whether you were just born this stupid, but the way he ruffled your hair as he fake-pouted at you made something bubble in your stomach.
It's no surprise you ended up with Douma in the men's restroom, a hand smacked tightly over your mouth that day.
You weren't allowed to ride the high of having hooked up with the hottest guy on campus for long.
Throughout the night you were bombarded with messages from your friends, all of them being about Douma. Why didn't you tell them? Was he good? ... Was he big?
You thought your heart was going to thump out of your chest. Sweaty hands refreshing the messages five, ten, twenty times.
This had to be a sick joke, right? Was this Douma's true nature?
About to throw your phone away in defeat, it vibrated once more. You didn't want to look but curiousity got the better of you.
[Douma, 11:06]: I think we need to talk.
Your chest thundered with anger at the message.
[Y/n, 11:07]: You think!?
[Douma, 11.07]: I know you don't owe me anything, but can we please meet somewhere?
[Y/n, 11.08]: I don't feel like showing my face today, thanks:)
We're you being dramatic? Maybe a little. But you were an introverted person. Being known by everyone on campus wasn't on your to-do list, and the reason why just made it that much worse.
[Douma, 11.08]: Text me your adress, I'm coming over.
[Y/n, 11.09]: No.
[Douma, 11.10]: Please, give me a chance to set things straight. I'll fix it, I promise.
You pondered for a moment. Fuck it, what's the worst that could happen? You texted him the address of your dorm and within an hour you heard a knock on your door.
Opening the door Douma stood on your doorstep, looking rather apologetic. You waved him inside, a thankful smile grazed his lips.
"I like what you did with the place."
"Shut up."
"Fair enough." He nodded.
"So..?"
"I did tell my friends we hooked up." He said, making you scoff. He threw his hands up defensively, before you could say anything.
"But! But! I didn't want them to tell everybody else..! They know I like you... a lot."
A small blush across up your cheeks at the sudden confession.
"You like me?"
Now you've done it, Douma started rambling.
"I get really fucking dumb about crushes. I wanted to text you all the time but I didn't want to come across as creepy. I thought we could just... hook up and I would forget about my stupid little crush and of course it just made me like you even more, because c'mon you're hot as fuck." He sighs pinching the bridge of his nose dramatically. "So what I'm trying to say here is that I would really like to make it up to you because I'm really fucking sorry and I would also really, really like to take you on a date and have a fresh start, please?" A shy smile painted his features.
You laughed. You were stupid if you were to deny him like this, especially considering you really liked him too.
"I'd love to go on a date with you."
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luveline · 6 months
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hi jade ^^ this might be a little weird and feel free to not answer but i was wondering if you have any advice against feeling lonely and blue? i recently moved in my new flat for my last year of uni and since im living by myself, im finding im overthinking a lot since i have a lot of free time and not many friends as im not very approachable despite trying - ive been reading your fics in the meantime to stave off this feeling and theyre providing me sm comfort, your sad loser readers always feel so fitting so thank you for sharing them w us!!
Well sometimes gorgeous I don't think there is a way to escape that feeling! Which sucks, but I hope you aren't too hard on yourself, you know! I think that loneliness can be just like hunger where you need to eat or you need to spend time with others to make it go away, and sometimes you can't and that's not your fault! When I'm feeling lonely and blue I try to spend some time chatting to a friend or my sisters but I know that's not always possible either, so there's other stuff! It's good to have a hobby, something intricate that you can be proud of, like I think having a craft you can gain skill in can be really good for you, but there's definitely other things to occupy you if that's not your thing, like for example card collecting or jigsaws and stuff like that.
I'm a huge overthinker I make myself sick worrying about stuff, and jigsaws genuinely saved me a few months ago! It's hard to think about anything else when you're doing a puzzle. There are even puzzles you can get that are 3D, but for free you can do them on your phone. It's super low pressure because you can't make too many mistakes but not repetitive enough to let you think about other things too much. There's also bracelet making, cross stitch, alpha bracelet/key chain making, these are all things that you have to pay attention or you'll mess up, so it stops you from overthinking about other things.
If you're blue I'm a big believer of treating yourself exactly how you'd treat a friend, a partner, or a loved one. It's easy to blame your loneliness on yourself. Maybe if you were more approachable, you'd have more friends, you'd feel less lonely —but being approachable isn't something you have complete control over, imo. Obviously there are things you can do to be friendly, but there's no shame at all in being introverted or finding it hard to connect with people, it just isn't as easy for some as it is for others. And sometimes making friends can STILL leave you lonely, which is basically my big long way of saying that I hope you're being nice to yourself about how you're feeling. And what I'm about to say is stolen from a friend, but sometimes you need to take care of yourself to feel better, like making sure you're eating well, sleeping if you can. Also! This might sound silly but I read a graphic novel /manga called My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness and something she did to feel better was again to take care of herself, like making sure none of her underwear had holes, and to stay clean and well presented. I'm not sure if that's good advice because maybe you can't afford to buy new underwear or maybe you have all the clothes you need, but when I started to do that and to look after myself with small steps, it did make me feel better. I worry that shame and loneliness are hand in hand (like, I'm lonely because I deserve to be) because they feed into each other, so definitely take care of yourself if you can!
There's also silly stuff you can do to immediately feel better, like getting up for stretches, a loud burst of karaoke, chocolate. Sometimes I feel better by watching a movie I loved when I was a kid, or reading bits of old books. I also think there's no shame in doing 'lame' stuff like pretending you're in a YouTube video or experimenting with stupid stuff you've never done before, like Bob Ross tutorials and baking and all that stuff. I think sometimes I feel lonely because I feel as though I'm bad company to myself, so if you can manage to be kind to yourself and keep an open mind, you'll feel better sometimes!
Sometimes though it's literally impossible to not feel blue and lonely, and if you feel like for days at a time you can't shake that feeling I would genuinely suggest getting help and reaching out. There's a crisis text line in the UK called SHOUT, and if you can wait the long waiting times in the evenings, they're a good listening ear! I've spoken to people a few times that way when I felt like my anxiety was going to eat me alive/ was too overwhelming to do anything, and it really, actually made me feel better. It's confidential and free !! If you Google SHOUT their website and phone number comes up.
I hope this is mildly helpful and I hope you feel better soon babe!
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atrirose · 22 days
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10 QUESTIONS FOR U
random tmi of the day ?
fav food / drink ?
fav subject / topic ?
fav aesthetic ?
any celeb or irl crushes ?
fav book / quote / literature ?
fav song u listened to today ?
fav time of day ?
intro/extro/ambivert ?
ever dreamt of idols ?
uhm tmi ? idk i had tea in the morning help 😭 that’s so lame i sound like kpop idol who don’t know what tmi is 😭😭
my fav food probably is different for different cuisines but i love me some biryani and kebabs (the one on stick)
i don’t have fav subject fr loli just want a rich husband /j , i love biology so if u are interested LETS TALK
currently its coquette or ballet core lol but i love minimalistic and pinkish w black and white everything. maybe i might even like ethereal core.
my celeb crush is obvi mingyu 🤨 but if u asked me when i was 12 it would be zyan malik
i dont really have a fav book and i have many fav quotes
a song i listened to today is 2 o’ clock by dori (shout out to fae for making that lovely playlist i have been listening to it nonstop)
fav time of the day is probably evening when the sun sets yk it’s so pretty orange and pink in the sky when i go out for a walk sometimes if im lucky i see purple too
idk i think im an introvert becuz i usually dont like loud places and i suck at interactions but i p loud with my friends
i did dream of jungkook once telling me that im copying him becuz i was sleeping with my legs crossed and we had this fight lol 😭. but at the end it was all good he bought me ice cream, tho his fell on the floor.
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kanekoii · 5 months
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hi, in the one who asked for a matchup!!
I go by my middle name, Michelle.
I dont really know how to do this so im going with the flow LMAOOO
again, i go by Michelle. I’m a Libra (yes im super into astrology) and my oshi is a certain golden retriever (dont feel obligated to put me w him because i said that LMAOO) i love love love angst its so bittersweet but i cry so hard its bad. i go by she/they and i have a more lolita style fashion (for ex. i love wearing anything hello kitty etc) i am very shy and introverted however ive been on antidepressants lately and its been helping a lot w that!! im on the road to recovery!! i love sweets sm but i cant eat too many in a day or else ill get sick.
I have two dogs, whomst i love very very much 💜 i am also a full time harry styles fan i eat him up every day every night oh my god its an addiction
im also very energetic once u get 2 know me but according to my friends i look like a black cat but i have a golden retriever personality. AND I WANT A CAT SO BAD BUT THEYRE SO EXPENSIVE AND IM BROKE 💔💔 im also auditioning for NIJI next time auditions are out!!
love languages: physical touch and quality time
i hope thats enough because i genuinely have no clue what else to put
sorry this fic is so short i have so many requests to be working on and yk opening night tomorrow and stuff but i’m here!!! i’m doing the thing!! i’m writing my silly little fics!!!
the gremlin has matched you with…
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claude clawmark!!
(good luck on your auditions for niji btw!! maybe one day a two years from now when i’m a legal adult we’ll be coworkers cuz i plan on auditioning too!)
he absolutely ADORES your style of dress and personality. the way the two contrast is so interesting and sometimes funny to claude. that’s right, you’ve been matched with one of the newcomers! he’s ever so proud that you’re on the road to recovery, he really could not be more proud! he’ll remind you to take your meds even if you’re consistent with it, it’s just a small way of showing his affection for you.
and he’ll gladly get you the cat you want, it’s like your child! having a little bebe kitten is amazing, and he would be more than glad to have a kitten!
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sunghoonshiftz · 8 months
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ⵌ٠some things i've manifested!
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honestly i manifested a lot but this is just a small list of some things i've manifested! W/ SUBLIMINAL LINKS :)
should i make a part 2?? <3
honestly, i've been having a really big break from manifesting (im not sure why akjmndfkj) but most of these were from about a year ago (?) :))
✩ personality changes !!
SO, the biggest thing i manifested was my personality. before, i was an introvert and i literally hated talking to people i didn't know. i was SO over it, so i listened to kapelsu's extrovert personality sub! i also just started faking being extroverted. i did the MBTI test but answered the questions as my ideal personality (i got ESTP and it's still my mbti to this day !!) i literally started talking to people at school and in my classes asking "hey you seem cool, can we be friends?". it was actually so awkward and nerve-racking at first but after about 2 weeks (?) of doing it, i turned into my ideal personality.
✩ no frizzy hair !!
i have wavy hair naturally, kind of like this photo? well, i used to have really frizzy hair whenever i washed it. i literally lived off of dry shampoo. (help this is so embarassing :sob:) BUT! i listened to v1pers anti-frizz spray and for a while, it didnt work. i seriously had to COMPLETELY forget about it and when i did- i literally just found a shampoo in my bathroom i completely forgot i had ??? i used it and asked the universe for my hair to not be frizzy anymore. and wowow! it worked and now i don't have frizzy hair anymore!! (CELEBRATE!)
✩ some luck !!
so honestly, i wasn't really trying to manifest some luck into my life but maybe that is why it worked so quickly! i listened to moza morph's extreme luck subliminal and v1pers desired life subliminal honestly for like one day ?? i listened to them each like 2 times while cleaning my room. literally the next day, my life got more exciting. my life is literally so boring so having a bunch of things happening was such a good thing. i went to cvs with my dad (long story) but he bought me two things ?? (both beauty related WOOHOO!!!) but i usually don't get more than one thing that i ask for at once, tbh. the same week my dad had bought me a body mist that i had ran out of at the store ?? it was very lucky for me and i can just feel that it was the manifestation that worked.
have an amazing day! <;33
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misa-ndry · 1 year
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unironically i think yaoi can be a safe way for younger women to engage w their sexuality… me and a radfem friend talked abt this years ago lmfaoo… like w that said must make SEVERAL prefaces like the amount of non con in the genre is crazy and also this dsnt apply to actual fujoshis and weirdos but idk lets just say young women teens reading yaoi fanfic or something. like me growing up reading straight stuff felt kinda scary lol i didnt consciously think of it like this but i think its bc of the male female power dynamics obvs present n that freaked me out so i avoided it … yess yaoi genre is problematic in its own way but like. maybe not even yaoi but just reading m/m stuff in general im talking about … basically my point also that its more than just fujoshis
yeah no 100% agree with you. preface blah blah acknowledging the evils of yaoi but like the appeal is real. u dont have to compare urself to a skinny white pretty female protagonist, or imagine urself doing sexo, or think of the patriarchy at all . in the fictional universes where every1 is gay men there's no such thing as female oppression lol, and I think it makes perfect sense to wanna escape that when u spend every day being girl/woman lol. consuming str8 media just made me feel like shit because it was all white or asian, but bl it didnt matter since i wasn't supposed to self-insert . reading heterosexual love stories just reminds me of all the ways of which im being a woman "improperly". im opinionated and talk a lot, but every female protag is uwu shy introvert with long straight hair. and male on female kabe-dons n things like that just stress me out...I dont want a guy to grab me by the wrist tf... ive been finding more straight comics im enjoying lately, seems like its popular in SK to write the men more submissive eheheh, so many good manhwa with a more fun female main character that has a bigger personality than in the media I came across as a teen <333 but I also think me being an adult who's comfortable in myself makes me able to enjoy more things, but as an insecure teen so much het stuff just made me feel like shit. dominant heterosexual men genuinely disgusts me so so so much still though I dont think ill ever be able to not be appalled, even shit like oh hes being a gentleman paying for her opening the door well YEAH CAUSE OF THE WAGE GAP AND DOORS BEING DESIGNED TO BE TOO HEAVY FOR WOMEN LIKE ugh.
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taegimood · 3 months
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(edit: pls send me requests omg give me something legit to write about 💀🙏🏼 help)
ok literally no one asked for this but i’ve been asking my moots these questions, so i figured i might as well answer them myself too lol
which member's type do you think you'd be?
which member is closest to your type (bias or not)?
which member do you think you'd be closest with platonically?
which member do you think you'd be the least close with?
1: i think i’d be closest to yeonjun’s type, at least visually.. my primary fashion is grungy street style so i think we have a lot in common style-wise and would vibe hard tbh :3 (but personality-wise..? idk i haven’t thought that far ahead lmao what do you guys think?? would any of them like me o_o)
2: oh man.. this is hard cuz visually i don’t really have one set type, i’m attracted to several different vibes.. but yeonjun cuz of the fashion and fox features, and soobin because ??? look at him ?? kdrama first love coded, periodt. (but they’re all so stunning that if i saw any of them on the street without knowing who they were i’d definitely want their numbers and also their [redacted])
personality-wise… RAHHHH why are these questions so hard i literally suck at making decisions- i’m the one that made these questions too ffs- ok sometimes yeonjun makes me want to shove my hand into his face and PUSH (lovingly. respectfully.) because he’s so Frat Bro Coded sometimes LMAOO 😭 so i think soobin or beomgyu. gyu is INSANE but i think we’d have so much fun together and he can be soft and serious when the time calls for it. i rlly want someone i can be goofy as hell with and gyu def fits the bill. and soobin……. oh, my sweet soobin……. dream man…. he’s so 💖💕💝💘💗 ……. (not me clowning matcha for being biased for gyu in her response while soobin is living rent free in every single one of my answers 🤡) soobin is the Actual Love Of My Life™ and i think we could fit well together in so many ways but 3 things that DEPRESSINGLY make me wonder if we’d work:
i’m also an introvert so i need someone more extroverted than i am to get me out of my shell 😖 biggest one is he said he doesn’t lead in the relationship and lets the girl make all the decisions (i prefer a guy who leads and wants to make decisions together) and he loves physical touch but only when he’s the one giving it 🤨 IM SUCH A TOUCHY CLINGY BITCH SOOBIN PLS LET ME HOLD YOU-
3: this post is so fckn long for no reason why am i such a verbal processor this one is ALSO hard cuz not to sound like a pick-me but i feel like i could be pretty good friends w any of them?? 😭 maybe gyu ??? i’m an introvert so he definitely might get too overwhelming for me at times but i also become a crackhead when i’m with friends i can be myself with who share my humor, so i think when i’m in the right headspace gyu and i could just go crazy together and be goofy asf lol. we could also game together and i could run him into the ground in victory 🫶🏼
but ok yeonjun and i would be such bros together plus he knows what it’s like to live in america so there’s that and fashion to bond over… i could be total gym buddies with taehyun and we’d bounce that dry humor off of each other… just like soobin and kai, i’m a huge anime and video game nerd (could do show and tell w kai and all our plushies too 🫶🏼) so i could game and binge anime for hours and be totally content especially if i’m bonding over it w someone else o_o SOOOOO i feel like i could be friends with all of them but as for besties? not me wanting to pick soobin again i don’t know 😀
minji do you literally know anything
4: honestly i think taehyun :((( i just think i have the least amount of things in common with him, that’s all !!! no other reason i still love him sm although i’m also a singer actually (fun fact) so i think we could do such pretty covers together 🥺
anyway this is LONG AS ALL HELL for literally no reason other than the fact that i talk too much lmao so here are the answers that no one asked for 😍
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moonjxsung · 4 days
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ugh your response just ugggghhhhhh speaks to my soul. giggling and kicking my feet at how much u fit the minho agenda
i haven’t really been in too many relationships, but the ones that I have been in have been so terrible for my sexual identity. let’s get into it.
I’m extremely introverted, (but very open and bubbly around my friends/fam/inner circle ykwim?), but most of the time super shy and anxious ESP in public places that involve advocating for myself with ordering food or asking someone else for anything etc. I HATE IT I JUST WANT TO RUN AND HIDE AND RAHHHHHH
haven’t always been like this, i was a super extroverted kid, but i think as I’ve grown up and gone through a number of experiences in which I’ve lost that confidence and ignorant bliss that i used to have, my personality evolved as a result.
anywaysssss, my most recent ex was very extroverted but also very controlling, (which i ignored for way too long to not be affected by) however he lacked the ability to give me that safe feeling that i need in a relationship—i need a dom partner who uses that power dynamic in a loving and affirming way towards me, if that makes sense? like i get a lot of comfort from affirming words from the person im with in that dom position.
( the ex was a fucking waste of human . When i tried testing the waters to come out to him, he told me that if i was “gay”(meaning anything but straight) he would immediately break up with me and would have never dated me, he never made me cum even one time, and cheated on me :D )
anyways.
I’m such a sub but tbh would maybe be open to versing IF my partner was into that? yeah i feel like that was an even more submissive thing to say than saying I’m a sub goodbye🧍🏽‍♀️
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had to add the babygirl princess himself
Thank u for adding babygirl hanji he cleansed the palate after listening to your shitty ex story good LORDDDDD….. the part about you trying to come out to him????? Sheesh what a fucking loser
I totally get what you mean about someone needing to establish a safe environment for you to be in that sort of dynamic. I definitely feel the same way in that I need to feel safety and security before literally anything else in a relationship and because I’m usually the one who prefers to be in control, I try my best to keep things as safe as possible, like opening the door for clear communication, making sure we’re both on the same page about what we want, establishing clear boundaries, etc. It sounds like your ex never valued any of that and that’s why it wasn’t the fit for you. I think it’s very easy to get caught up in that mindset of feeling like you have more control over someone outside of a romantic or sexual sense when you’re the one wearing the pants in a relationship, so I definitely just advocate for very clear communication and being able to express what we both want out of something. And I usually expect it back (though I always somehow get stuck talking to women who like to reap the benefits of a woman w inherently masculine traits without wanting to date an actual woman and it sucks lmao) but yeah, in short I just like to sort of be the person initiating everything and taking care of another person and establishing a safe space for both of us to just be comfortable and safe with each other. That’s another reason I’m really attracted to introverts and shy people because I can sorta facilitate those conversations and check in w them to make sure they’re comfortable and the dynamic is just…. something I’m very attracted to lmao
You’ll definitely have your share of SHITTY fucking people and you’ll have to sort of learn what you want out of a relationship but I have no doubt you’re going to find someone who treats you like the absolute angel you are 🫶 don’t ever settle for less than you deserve and know that your scummy ex doesn’t determine what’s still out there for you. You deserve to be safe and loved and taken care of and your ex deserves to rot in hell
Sending u all my love little angel xoxoxoxo 💞💞💖💗💝💞💕💓👼🫶
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daosies · 3 months
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Congrats on 100 followers!! U totally deserve it you wanderer freak ❤️
For your matchup event, i was wondering if you could do me good with genshin impact xx
Im she/her and i have 8 piercings with black long hair and tan skin (: im an enfp but im more introverted than people think. I definitely follow my heart… or my stomach… more often than my head which im tryna change. Just big and greedy huh. Anyway im a joke cracker and a gatekeeper (gomene) cuz i love being an individual. Fuck it im a hater too no balls. If it helps: out of being a cowboy pirate or samurai, id be a pirate then cowboy and then im ngl i wldnt last a day as a samurai.
My interests/hobbies are surfing 🏄 and just water sports in general 🤙 and my ideal day is a two hour road trip to a hot sunny beach w my friends blasting music on the aux. then when im at the beach imma crack a cold cran pom yerba mate in one hand and a j in the other hand. My nighttime routine i typically like to do physically alone hence the introversion. No matter how litty the function is im locked in my bed. I watch action movies every night and play some roblox w friends and maybe hop on ft w them cuz theyre chill like that.
What i look for in a lover boy is someone who’s buff and loyal. I want someone who’ll just chill with me since my love language is quality time and is down to gym w me. I also really like ppl who r down for anything and who dont gaf about being cringe
Anyway thanku sm my little onion and much love to u for reading this if u decide to take it.
thank u for sending in a matchup!!
i match you with . . . tartaglia!
☆ tbh my first thought was itto. but then i realized.... water... hydro... childe 💖
☆ childe is also down for ANYTHINGGGG and he is rich af. he will fund ur hobbies he will spoil u he will follow u but first and foremost he will love you. childe is a loverboy who's also buff and is loyal af.
☆ he also will hit the gym w u. i think childe wld be ur biggest fan ngl. it helps that he's naturally cringe so he doesn't gaf ab being cringe because he IS the cringe. he will be a hater w/ u and he is ready to hate and pull up to back u up cuz that's what he was made to do ngl
☆ childe wld LOVE going to the beach w u and i think he surfs too.. i think he does a great deal of surfing actually. he doesn't have that hydro vision for no reason. anyway childe fits ur matchup perfectly and idgaf what anyone says. i am convinced that he is ur match. ur fated one. ur ride or die.
song: "she's crazy but she's mine" by alex sparrow. i dont even gaf that this song has relations to gacha life. this is ur song
quote: "I'm so filled with you / I want to run through meadows, / bash my head against mountain rocks, / give myself to ocean waves / I'm so filled with you / I want to crumble into myself like a speck of dust, / to gently lay my head at your feet, / cling fast to your weightless shadow" (Farrokhzad, Sin: Selected Poems of Forough Farrokhzad).
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buzzedblues · 7 months
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i probably have too many actual friends who follow me to be using my blog like a diary to this extent but whatever dont read it if ur gonna be weird abt it.
anyway this weekend was rly good and like ive found my home but i still have that wall btwn me and everyone else, even the other detransitioners. i feel really fucked up about what ppl want from me, what they see me as, ive felt really fucking stupid a couple times recently and its like its bleeding over even into friendships, like im on guard. i tried rly hard to be open this weekend and ppl were like 'wow id never know ur a suffering introvert rn' and i did meet a lot of ppl i want to remain friends with. i was appreciated for who i am and what i have to say and many women came up just to thank and hug me but thats abt the detrans thing they dont rly Know me yet. and im terrified to let anyone new Know me, im scared shitless especially to develop interest in anyone bc if they only want me sexually...im over it. im over thinking ppl want me for me but theyre just attracted to me and im left w unreciprocated feelings. fuck! and im looking at all of these hot old dykes specifically bc i know id never want to date them or have a relationship. but thats just falling into destructive patterns, isnt it? is casual sex rly as bad for me as i think it is? my relationship to sex is so broken i want to fix it but maybe thats not possible. idk. im an entire mess. im just exhausted.😞
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minkkumaz · 5 months
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ur yungyu rant was so cute 😭 truly the number1 yungyu lover!!!
so far my day has been.. going.. nothing interesting besides my usual bonedo thoughts ^^;
theres sm jaehyun thoughts just flowing through my head atm- like jaehyun with the “dating my best friends sister” trope. honestly ive never been the BIGGEST fan of those because theres always gonna be some form of angst, but at the end of it, its most likely a happy ending.. BUT THIS IS OKAY CAUSE ITS MYUNG JAEHYUN!
im not sure if you’ve watched the WHY ver. of boynextdoor tonight, but a quick recap just in case!! the boys had to go around saying their favorite member, and jaehyun chose riwoo, causing riwoo to squeal and push jaehyun, making him to fall backwards.
so its safe to say riwoos a shy guy, alongside the rest of the other members- because from what IVE seen, they either brush jaehyuns flirting off or give him the most blankest stare..
so imagine!! jaehyun who meets riwoos younger sister, whose the complete opposite of her brother!
jaehyun w a flirty crush!!
Since riwoos more introverted, his younger sister would be the one initiating all the conversations. when she finally meets all the members, she notices jaehyuns face from the many viral videos shes seen of him flirting with her brother.
yn being the bold sister she is!! asks if she can also get the same treatment. jaehyun would most definitely not be used to this.. like all the other members react so differently to his random flirty lines but all of a sudden hes getting flirted back with?!
this caused him to just stand there with their hands like 🤝 and his face 😧. (until riwoo lightly slaps him on the face for even thinking abt it)
so there began the myungyn flirt train!! idk feel like jaehyun would hardly flirt back in fear of riwoo slapping him, until one night he thinks he sees riwoo up for a late night snack. hes barely awake but manages to snuggle up to him as always.
..but it doesn’t feel like riwoo.. riwoo doesnt tense up like this. and to his surprise its his sister!! in riwoos jacket!! he’d do that cartoony fallback and fall onto his butt.. he’d most definitely be scared too and apologize alot.
in short, that night jaehyun and the reader hang out and they grow significantly closer!! and the next following days they always meet at the kitchen to just talk about their day and such..
gradually, jaehyun just subconsciously flirts with her every now and then, and he always manages to end up surprised to get flirted back with..
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me being yungyus #1 fan🤝 you being woonhaks #1 fan
AND AHH I LOVE THE BEST FRIENDS SISTER TROPE >< SAME GOES FOR THE OTHER WAY AROUND WITH BEST FRIENDS BROTHER like it's the perfect amount of minor angst but also happiness and it's just so ahhh
though i fail to insert myself in this situation because i am not flirtatious at all JSNKFJN in person i can be very shy around people i don't know, but i always try my best not to be a downer ^^;
so for now i will live with the thought of it.. flirting with jaehyun would be so fun especially to see the look on his face. i could imagine jae leaving their house and riwoo going "you need to mop up jae's drool from the floor, this is your fault!" the epitome of 'i can't take you anywhere' HAHA but yn isn't like that with anyone else, she just finds jaehyun especially cute :3
i can imagine the boys all having a sleepover at riwoo's house, and in the morning when they're all cozied up on the couch playing super smash bros or something, reader walks in the kitchen to go get some water all sleepy ehe
jaehyun would have comically enlarged eyes as he just swoons over you while the rest of the boys are watching the tv.
maybe they wouldn't notice if he slipped away for a bit to go hang out with you? ><!!
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