#maybe im just nervous

[ruporas]

getting the attention of the humanoid typhoon

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #wolfwood menace arc #he also wouldnt know HOW obvious to make it so he's just ramping it up throughout the day #but vash is sooooo used to repressing but also experiencing this kind of want so strongly for the first time #makes him wear the most obvious expressions.... while wolfwood is ALSO not used to being wanted in this way so he would be none the wiser #to vash's obvious expressions -- does that make sense. theyre silly. theyre so silly its like an endless loop #and then wolfwood is like ok i guess im doing something wrong or maybe he just doesnt want me like that. whatever! we move on #vash: dying crumbling - wondering if ww is doing it on purpose but also too nervous to ask until he starts literally taking off layers #ruporas art

[obsob]

something something i am made up of multitudes

#mine #original #ough kittie.s...little kitties #ive been busy n tired so no fancy drawing #we r heading.....to the city im getting my top surgery at today... #surgery is TOMORROW. okay #im like not nervous about the surgery im more nervous abt being reliant on my mother jfdbgfgfdj hmm #this morning she was like why are you in a funny mood and i was like i NERVOUS and she just said nothignn gbkjbgkjbgjkre #if my child was nervous about life changing surgery i would maybe say something to comfort them #anyway #anyone in their early 20's living w their mother deserves some kind of medal #shes like insane. shes asked me three time if the breast tissue will. grow back? no? it will not???? #she use to be a NURSE #whatever #keep me and my insane mother in ur thoughts i may lose the will to live in the next coming weeks

[puppyeared]

mmmkay

#hugest biggest art block fr the past week or so. maybe im nervous cause school idk #so what do i do except draw my fav in a different style. its fun #idk if ill keep drawing like this cause its mostly style exploration and to just draw /something/ yanno #mk ft my fit at work today. i realized i like balloon pants theyre so fun to wear #mine kind of pinch at the ends so it looks fluffy and it just reminds me of how ppl draw wukongs pants. i get it now #im sleeby #lmk #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #lmk MK #lmk xiaotian #myart #doodles

[ladyofthenoodle]

i realized the other day that i haven’t really talked all that much about the last handful of episodes of season 5 and haven’t really touched on the ending of chloe’s story at all. and i really only see people who are upset about it talk about her last few scenes so i do want to offer an alternative take on it, which is basically: to me, chloe’s story ended in tragedy. i don’t really care what astruc has said on twitter or what was leaked in bibles or scripts. i’m looking at the story we actually got, the one that ended with this moment.

does marinette tell her off right before this? yes. and this should be a moment of victory for marinette, right? she’s finally free from chloe, in every way.

but we don’t see marinette after this. this is the last shot of marinette in the episode before it cuts to chloe’s reaction. marinette’s face is still there, but only as the contact image on chloe’s phone. marinette herself is gone. the rest of the episode only shows us chloe and lila. from here on out, we are not in marinette’s story. we’re in theirs.

and it’s here, when we move out of marinette’s story, that we see chloe’s is tragedy. chloe is the villain in marinette’s story and the victim in her own. this is not just about protagonist centered morality, though that plays a role. it’s about not just whose side the story takes but also what marinette is allowed to know and see. marinette only ever gets the smallest glimpse of chloe’s home life and family, but as the viewers we get to see more. and it is after marinette dismisses her and hangs up in revolution that chloe stops being a part of marinette’s story, and, in that moment, loses the role of the villain. freed from marinette’s story, we see her alone, sobbing, because she’s left with only her own story, where she is the victim.

and it’s notable that chloe tried to reject that story. she chooses marinette’s story, again and again. that’s why she called marinette in the end. chloe would rather play the villain. calling sabrina, asking for comfort, would be accepting that she’s a victim, which chloe isn’t ready for. unfortunately, marinette doesn’t give her a choice: marinette’s story doesn’t have room for chloe anymore. she’s fought her demons and has new ones to face. the only role left for chloe to play in marinette’s story is the girl ladybug couldn’t save.

so yeah, this ending is tragic. and i genuinely hurt for chloe in that moment. but i never once thought we were supposed to see her as unredeemable or celebrate her being sent off to her mother. i don’t know what the story plans to do with chloe next - whether she’s gone for good or she’ll come back worse or come back better. but i know this moment, by taking us out of marinette’s perspective, asked us to sympathize with a girl suffering at the end of her downward spiral.

#miraculous ladybug #chloe bourgeois #im always nervous to post anything about her because some chloe stans are so aggressive on my posts #which maybe is why i haven’t seen anyone else posting much about this either? #anyways if you with me that’s fine just don’t be a dick about it or pour salt in the replies #thanks ✌️ #using my noodle

[jazzzzzzhands]

Ohh i could not stop thinking about the one commercial with the Wally plush!! Where he says "Groovy", "Far out", and such!! And if you look up "70's background" There is just soooo much aesthetic suiting of Wally!! So i really really wanted to dress him up in some Groovy clothes!! The fish shoes were his original shoes, but i made them an alt cause they are hard to draw! pfffft! Wally can Dance! He can teach You how to Dance!

Alternate blue glasses, i could not decide on the color of his John Lennon's, so he can have many pairs! Oh and he definitely has a wide wardrobe!!

#wally darling #welcome home #whps #welcome home wally #jazzart #groovy wally #I thought about making this into an AU where Wally teaches you how to dance! #it would be for dress-up.aesthertic.and music!! #i do have a playlist for groovy wally #home would be a hippie van ahahaha #home would be mobile!! #i would love to make an au BUT i dont want to get stuck being known for an AU? #cause then thats all ppl would expect me to draw for?? #i would love to draw for the Groovy AU and make stimboards!! #im just nervous about it #i dont have the best attention span!! #but maybe i will draw more for this! if there is interest for it?? #howdy runs a salt and pepper diner for SURE #julie now has skates and is more dangerous than EVER #now that you are down here in these tags #i will admit i love how shapely i drew him #wally can have curves #as a treat #i thought about changing his hair style #he could he could #but the iconic wally swirl makes wally!!! #i will still consider this #but it all depends on if ppl are interested!! #cause i rly do have the worst focus ever ahahaha #but anyways!!

[oconist]

Oscar Wilde, A Few Maxims for the Instruction of the Over-Educated / Albert Camus, The Fall / Fredrik Backman, Us Against You / Ally Condie, Matched

#esteban ocon #pierre gasly #f1 #formula 1 #pierresteban #frenchpine #web weaving #first time doing this kinda nervous #the last quotes ends with 'I'm glad.' but we angsty #just them #their narrative #this was quite fun to do #it's short but idk if im doing it right tbh #azda.weaves #maybe it might become a thing #i'll try to improve

[ourfag]

i think part of the resistance i’ve seen in response to the view of ed as an abuse victim—not just the view of izzy as someone who abused ed, but of ed as someone who was abused by him, as opposed to interpretations that pursue an image of Nuance and Complexity (unnecessarily, because their dynamic has heaps of both, but there seems to be a popular impulse to conflate complexity with shared culpability) by characterizing their relationship as being toxic/unhealthy in equal reciprocity, or as “mutually abusive” (oxymoron)—i definitely see the influence of racism there, but i think the racism is also working to amplify an adjacent issue where we tend to receive very specific cultural messaging about What An Abuse Victim Looks Like, and ed is excluded from a lot of that criteria.

he’s outspoken. he’s boisterous. he’s Very Cool and he Wears Leather. he’s physically bigger and browner than the person mistreating him. he spends the first season with a big grey beard, he’s covered in tattoos, he projects the image of A Man’s Man, to say nothing of his being a man in the first place. we see him get aggressive and we see him get angry (and sometimes we even see both at the same time). we see moments where he’s surly, prickly, insensitive, arrogant. his survival techniques and trauma responses incur collateral damage to other people, and in the second season this extends into affecting people we actually sympathize with. he’s extremely private about expressing fear. without examination, his professional relationship to izzy seems to position him as the one with the power slanted in his favor.

most damningly, we see him react multiple times to izzy’s abuse with physical violence. this is behavior that gets referenced all the time in the construction of narratives condemning subjects of physical abuse, let alone emotional abuse. which is why writing that intends for its audience to interpret a character as being unambiguously A Victim Of Abuse will often, for simplicity’s sake, avoid showing the character regularly engaging in anything of the kind.

and again, all of these departures from the image of The Model Victim are compounded by his being a man of color.

without any of the shorthand designed to point a big flashing arrow at his mistreatment, all we have left to work with are the words and actions we see from ed and izzy onscreen. who instigates conflict, and how does the other respond? how are they able or allowed to respond? how do we see them speak about each other to outside parties? does one go out of their way to control or isolate the other? what consequences does either party stand to face in saying “no” to the other? in acting against the other’s wishes? in trying to leave the relationship? when either of them attempts these things, how do we see the other respond?

i realize and appreciate what people are driving at when they garnish their analysis with disclaimers that they’re not saying ed’s just a poor innocent abuse victim, they’re not saying he’s a perfect angel who’s never done anything wrong, and that’s true, but these are points already contained implicitly in statements like “this show’s protagonists act like human people” and “ed’s emotional struggles are portrayed in a realistic and believable way.” my assumption is that these disclaimers are anticipatory responses to worst-faith interpretations of any discussion that attributes any victim status to ed whatsoever, so i definitely sympathize with their inclusion, but a (very small) part of me still worries about them potentially reflecting or reinforcing a belief that there is any way for someone to behave towards their abuser that imparts a responsibility for them to make right whatever damage the abuser receives, or for that matter any degree of ambiguity over their status as an abuse victim in the first place.

part of what i find so gratifying about ed as a character is that i don’t feel like the show’s writing is pressuring me to consider that ambiguity at all. which was a really nice thing for me to discover!

and tbh—did using ed to deconstruct The Model Victim even factor into the writers’ agenda?? ive got no clue. im guessing no? ??maybe?? probably not?? but if you create a main character whose central premise is that he feels trapped in a performance of exaggerated masculinity that he’s desperate to escape, and then you set him up with a character premised on embodying a tangible obstacle against that escape, then i guess that’s the natural shape your story’s gonna be inclined to take

#man thats a lot of words when i couldve just said ‘im not an ed apologist bc he has nothing to apologize for’ and yalld get the message #had to get it off my chest though #abuse tw #sorry about the verbosity Im Aware. Its An Ongoing Issue #this is actually after i went through and edited to make it as concise as possible #the good news is ive finally managed to limit myself to a mere half dozen commas per sentence #the bad news is all these words are mush in my brain now and i can barely tell if theyre actually saying anything #are any of these paragraphs related to one another? i dont fuckin know #i do know i agreed with them when i wrote them though #am i procrastinating in the tags because im nervous about posting this? maybe. shut up #im gonna go do todays wordle

[skunkes]

About to drop a bunch of money on some good quality gouache

#MAYBE....i need a push. idk im a believer of both #''buy cheap products to play around with em before upgrading'' AND ''you deserve high quality ones right out the gate'' #im going with the latter this time and i rlly wanna do it idk why im just very nervous. #rly funny how every purchase I've made for the past few weeks has been ''its fine its my bday gift to myself'' #this will be bday gift to self number 5 at this point 😭 #talkys

[triptych-of-voids]

very well. im committing to the bit <<

come join the movie night!! we're watching emesis blue. again. participation not mandatory of course but a lot of people seemed interested so!! its happening now. will be going live on my youtube channel :]

[ https://www.youtube.com/@triptychofvoids ]

#yeah i know these are unholy timezone hours but its when im free xD #to clarify this is ONE stream. the timezones just cross over into different days.........i hope i did the time zone math right ^^; #the main focus is just gonna be on watching the movie x] #i will be drawing in the background though. im just going to be too tired to make it a dedicated art stream. maybe another time #if this goes well #but yea! will be sketching in the background. mic will be off because i havent streamed in a million years and im NERVOUS. #neway! #join!! come watch emesis blue with me yet again and feed my addiction #or dont ^^ #doodles #emesis blue #tf2 #ive never done a watch party before i hope its fun #tf2 medic #even though its. fritz. my friend fritz from emesis blue.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

You ever think about what's gonna happen when the Welcome Home website updates in December? Hopefully, at least for what I think, we'll get to see the fabled Julierella! Or any visual parts of the show in general. Probably something fit for the holiday spirit.

Maybe wondering about their relatives and loved ones living outside the neighborhood, and the fact that the residents haven't left to see them in some time.

Stuff like that! Maybe even some new recipes!

i try not to think about it or i'll become so nervoucited that i'll get nauseous

#the fact that its a psychological horror brings my excitement #from 'ohhhh i cant wait!!!' #to Im Genuinely Deeply Nervous AND Deeply Excited. #welcome home stresses me the fuck out but... in a good way? somehow??? #still i dont wanna think about whats to come or my entire day will be lost to pacing & staring at a wall w/ a racing heart #it probably will be housewarming themed - if thats still the in-universe version of christmas for the neighborhood #but yeah! so stoked im anxious! yeehaw! #whatever happens im going to go absolutely fucking Feral #also theres an element of 'i cant even imagine. anything could happen. things will happen that ive never even considered' #rambles from the bog #yk actually a thought ive had #is if i start streaming. before the update #maybe... i could stream the update. #yk me and any of you who join checking it out for the first time and looking for secrets #could be fun! if! emphasis on if!! #could be nice. cause like... idk about you guys but i dont have irl friends to sit down and check it out with #the updates are fun but a little lonely for me! its just me in my room wishing i could share the First Time Excitement yk yk #just. something for me to consider aiming for! #oh my god i just realized ill probably be working #i swear to god if the update drops while im at work im just gonna quit and walk out the door #ohhhh now im nervous about that happening... heres hoping it wont... #lmao who am i kidding! given my luck's track record that absolutely Will happen

[chaosandthe-deadblog]

okay, ENOUGH GAMING!

if youre interested, fill out this google form below :) thanks in advance!

#sol art #commissions #commissions open #art commissions #GUY WHO IS SOSOSOOSOSOS NERVOUS ABOUT WORKING AGAIN VOICE #RAAAH please be nice to me if you do commission me im just a little guy making moneys for twinky clothes and maybe to visit my best friend #in london #yay #okay bye

[vamprnce]

here we go, I doodled him as a fox 🤲🦊

#my art #kusuriuri #mononoke 2007 #medicine seller #i dont do furry art a lot/at all so im nervous to post this.... 😶🫣 i rough when it comes to animals sjfjgk #but honestly i really wanted to draw him as a fox 😔 i couldn't stop thinking abt it #i see him as a catboy too tbh #was gonna do kayo as a cat as well but just dod kusu for now :') maybe will doodle her next time

[who-the-fuck-knows-blog]

i put a ton of tags on a thing and realized maybe i should just make a post because i wanna know what other ppl think…

thinking about how if izzy had continued/forced his confession onto ed would've gone bc with eds mental state probably backing off on it and being more vague was a good choice. when izzy confesses ed is at his lowest and fully unable to accept that someone loves him and that he can love someone else and ed might have used violence to reenforce these beliefs.

ed dismissing it was probably the best outcome for izzy at that point because if ed was convinced that it was true (although i suspect he did believe that bc he shot izzy to kill the love) i'm not sure what he would have done to end that love.

i’m also thinking about the scene where ed is sobbing and playing with the wedding toppers after having shot izzy. i'm not sure when ed realized that izzy wasn't dead but if he had before that time an aspect of that breakdown could have been him grieving izzys love for him because he did think izzy stopped after the gunshot. which is why he went to izzy to be killed he thought “well, izzys done it for me before and there's no way he still loves me so he will be willing to kill me”

#izzy hands #ofmd s2 #i’m actually super insecure about this reading of the scenario w the wedding toppers because i know the textual reading is meant to be #that its entirely about stede #so im like. maybe im just blowing things out of proportion and it didn’t have anything to do with ed shooting izzy #??? #idk be gentle with me please #like i do think the majority of eds breakdown was about stede obviously #but theres something abt the whole ed doing the murder suicide with the toppers and then immediately recreating it w izzy that gets me #idk…… idk…. #nervous

[technicalthinker]

before the full ep is out i just need to say that on a more personal note that sneak peek clip of buck on the date with tommy hits a bit too close to home as an adult bi who lately has been very nervous, on edge and self-critical about having my first real explicit gay flirt with someone within reach. the way he was all like 'im chill about this' in the least chill way possible. the defensive 'i'm not lying to anyone' while nobody said he was. do you get me.

#911 spoilers #911 abc #911 blogging #evan buckley #idk what to tag bc it's more personal but idk maybe someone else had a similiar experience?? #i was like oh fun messy bi who discovers himself late in life oh thats cool #but after that clip it actually hits pretty close in a way im like #almost a bit messed up abt ngl #it's the 'I HAVE NO REASON TO FEEL FREAKED OUT' but actually there's a lot of complex feelings to unpack and just #like SURE there's connections to a lot of my romantic interactions but #the way ive been paralyzed and in my head interacting with girls is different. #if someone i knew showed up on a date i was already nervous to be on i would die right there maybe.

[23meteorstreet]

“i don’t know how you guys live with yourselves.” “one day at a time.” it’s always sunny in philadelphia - season 1

#iasip #my caps #always wanted to make one of those screencap/cinematography posts that makes it look like a serious show #but go for sth a little different from the horror vibe #bc the show also lends itself so well to a heist/crime movie vibe #i hope this is good #i feel like this is either super cool or completely stupid #or maybe im just nervous cause ive never tried anything like this #i know usually ppl make them full size but i kinda like being able to play with the organization tbh #might change it for later ones tho idk what im doing here!!! #but im having fun #also so many guides on making gifs but none on formatting ur captions nicely. how do people do colored letters and shit #not that this one needed it i just wanna know the secrets for later

[frootietoots]

trying different colors :o)

#if youre wondering where all the munchies posts have gone #i still draw that sort of stuff. im just sort of nervous to share a lot of it #esp bc my interest in it is so unique to myself #but. But. i do have something im working on that i might be inclined to share ... #so. pls be patient. meow #also if u have read this far ... i have a normal blog that i dont post any Weird stuff on ... @clowns4fun ..... maybe take a look? #id love to see some of u there ... i havent spoken to a lot of my friends from this community in a while