#maybe its mental illness

[goodluckb4be]

they should invent a me who can accomplish things without it being scheduled relatively far in advance or reliant on others participating/reliance

#maybe its mental illness #maybe its maybelline #maybe maybe #neurodivergent #?

[unknownwhisper]

Life is painful. There may be beauty in it somewhere. There isn't beauty in it right now. There might be again one day. Everything is so painful. Why are we so insignificant? There's beauty in it somewhere, I know it. Why are we just dust? Am I insignificant? There will be beauty in it again. Let go. Let it go. Let go. There is going to be beauty again. There has to be beauty again.

#personal #why are my thoughts like this?? #dunno #maybe its mental illness #maybe its maybelline

[obsob]

hgrng...thinking of love 

#mine #original #yes i realise i keep posting felttip cats but. they are fun #my sketchbook is just felt tip cats. almost exclusively #ive had a DAY. some how spent 3 hours sitting at my laptop and achieved nothing #trying to find answers to technical problems. i once had 20 tabs open and i was like okay i should like. have lunch #also my mum kept talkin abt my childhood n i was like. almost completely dissociating..mental illness >:) #i have headache >:( #but now is weekend...hehe.....its gna be warm tomorrow im going to read my book #i would LIKE to finish it....maybe i will....can i read 300 pages in one day mm maybe not #i feel like this book is gna end in tears. hmm. #okay im going to bed now goodnight! #going to play rainworld hehehhehehe #song rec of the day is bible belt my dry the river #song rec is also the NEW mcr song. hohfhbgdfgk

[embers-archive]

ITS FINISHEEEEED

Everyone say hello to my technoblade's cabin diorama

Progress pictures under the cut :D

#dream smp #technoblade #technoblade fanart #art #maybe one day I'll add phils cabin but my mental illness has reached its capacity for today #diorama #my diorama

[caffeinatedopossum]

I actually find it really bizarre and counter intuitive that clinically speaking, you cannot legally be diagnosed with a personality disorder until you're at least 18. The reason given for this is because "the personality has not fully developed before this age" like ???

Ah yes, my favorite strategy. Not diagnosing the problem until it's already been virtually cemented into your brain for life! Wouldn't it be easier (and more painless) to address the problem before it's fully developed?

#im also certain that the age that personality fully forms at is not a universally agreed upon number #like idk. maybe this raises less questions about age and more about the potential consequences of pathologizing personalities #it feels a little fucked up to me that some mental illness are 'just' mental illnesses while others are deemed a thing synonymous with you #and i can understand if some people with personality disorders do really heavily identify with their disorders #thats fine! #i also think the average person has a concept of personality which is relatively stagnant and thats just not realistic tbh #i mean if you think personality is stagnant then yours probably is so in rhat sense youre not wrong #but personality can absolutely change and i dont think it makes you a 'different person' #i think its a natural progression #anyways. got a little derailed but the point im trying to make is #lets find a way to give people with personality disorders a more realistic hope for recovery without invalidating them #and also lets maybe try to treat personality disorders preemptively so they don't get worse

[goomyloid]

large collection of fruba insanity

#posting all this stuff together is so funny #like yep (smashes my mental illness down on the table) im normal #my art #doodles #fruits basket #fruba #furuba #tohru honda #yuki sohma #kyo sohma #its really easy to tell who my favorite is huh #ALSO SORRY THESE POSTS ARE SO LONG #I PROMISE THIS IS JUST FOR LIKE. TODAY. and maybe tomorrow #fully rendered #goomyart

[ear-motif]

i understand will graham completely by the way

#my sister begging me to quit my job and school and come live with her in the mountains #VERY kind but not good for me!! #yes i want to quit my shitty toxic job but i will be stubborn about it despite my declining mental heath!!! #altho for me its not bc i save lives and get to play god its bc im clinging to society’s idea of what success is and my self concept is #fragile enough LET ME GET MY STUPID PIECE OF OFFICIAL PAPER AND THEN ILL DO SOMETHING FOR MYSELF MAYBE #i dont deserve nice things sorry #anyways me and will are the same person <3 #jay squaking

[blitheringbongus]

I need them to interact again (i dont, i just really miss them)

#my art #hermitcraft fanart #mumbo jumbo fanart #grian fanart #hermitcraft #mumbo jumbo #grian #chobblesome #pixel art #Minecraft #??? i usually put a bunch of tags on my stuff so like- #idk man #feels wrong to not put a bunch of tags on my posts #maybe its the mental illness in me idk #probably #im stalling #i need to add more tags or my brain will explode #yeah thats a good amount #oki #hm #oh ye this will be queued- #i like queuing things bc i always forgor i queued them and then when they arrive im like #‚!!! the thing!‘ #its a very nice feeling i cannot describe

[starflungwaddledee]

kirbytober 2023 21 + 26 : fav characters + ship [ prev || next ]

putting this at the top because it's extremely important but i received a message implying that some folks headcanon these two as drastically different ages. you may headcanon whatever you like of course, but in my work i firmly think that they're both full adults who are at least 25+. this is abundantly clear in my work. i'm not interested in headcanoning any of them as literal children and i would never touch that shit. dni if you think that sort of ship would actually be okay. don't be a freak. thanks.

very typical to take your favs and then also shove them together but isn't that the point. anyway i have literally never seen anybody else ship them (if you're out there... hello... 😭) despite them both being very main characters and i don't know why?? they could be so cute i think...

they are both industrious adventurers, prolific hard-workers (team task doers), and a little cheekily competitive!

i think that bandee is no stranger to a wide variety of close and intense relationships; he's beloved by many and loves them all equally but distinctly in turn. magolor on the other hand has been sooo isolated and lonely for such a long-ass time, he barely knows how to be friends let alone really care for someone. bandee is smart enough to be suitably wary but kind enough to give him a chance despite that, which i think would knock him off his non-existent feet instantly. in reply, magolor could give him something unique by loving and prioritising him utterly singularly, in a way bandee wouldn't even have realised he was missing

in awtdy (pictured in the sketch page; if you see a tattered looking magolor in my art it's probably this au) in particular they are both thrown into the angst soup together and come out insanely trauma bonded at the hip. their friendship/relationship is central to the plotline; together they're working on a solution to the timeline anomaly, while also hiding that they even really know each other the whole time

#kirbtober #kirbytober #bandana waddle dee #magolor #my art #my hcs #awtdy au #yelling 'hello' into the void like the voyager probe hoping to reach another living creature who speaks the bandeemagolor language #i tend to ship in a kind of qpp way just for clarification. i kinda just don't think amatonormative romance exists the same on popstar #that said they are like... utterly unwell about each other. insane. i just am not sure they are “Dating” yknow? i dunno how to explain this #but if you are arospec and you Get What I Mean then you can say that they're in love and stuff. if you get it yknow?? yknow. #mental illnesses shaped like each other. #i know bandee is 'the normal guy' but i think he can be a little mentally unwell sometimes too; as a treat #anyway.... that's it that's the rarepair. maybe its up to me to make this a thing. do you wanna be sold on this pair?? i can do it probably #they *don't even have a tag name* but i will make up one so that people can filter it out if they want to mute it: #bandee x magolor #🍎

[mueritos]

its crazy how coming into clinical social work, i really just thought I was up against systems and cycles of trauma....but it turns out i'm up against those two things AND other therapists. the amount of work spent correcting mistakes from other clinicians--whether with clients or during the classroom--is fucking crazy.

i totally get we're all on different journeys in terms of being clinicians. but it is insane finding out day after day of therapists and clinicians saying the worst things ever to clients. demeaning them, telling them "it's all in their head", the racism and the ableism and harm that is caused. like no fucking wonder people are afraid to seek therapy (on top of the accessibility issues). while i'm a little biased and think that at the very least clinical social work training focuses on viewing people within their environments (so not engaging in the medical/individualist models of practice that a lot of counseling programs focus on), that doesn't mean it gives every person the skills to be an effective therapist. i'm also not saying i'm the best clinician ever--I'm literally in training--but boy! it is jarring seeing how some of my peers interact in class and wondering...is that how you are with your clients??

my social work program at the very least also has a focus on anti-racism, but i know students from other programs and some of them don't even mention racism AT ALL and focus entirely on diagnosing people "correctly", or finding the perfect form of therapy to use on a client. but man, what none of these programs teach are basic life skills. wanting to be a clinician isn't enough, especially considering that an inhumane amount of people in my program are 1. so nervous about making mistakes that they lose scope of their practice 2. have so much internalized racism/white guilt to work thru 3. or they have absolutely no listening skills.

again, im not trying to make it seem like I am the number 1 clinician in the world ever. I don't even have a psych background or bachelor's in social work. my reasons for going into social work are quite selfish (I want a job that is very flexible, easily transferable, and can be done in different contexts), and the helping people part is just a plus. i'm just saying it's very jarring seeing other people in training and realizing they too are working with clients. i have conversation after conversation about these issues with other BIPOC/queer/marginalized clinicians, so I know i'm not the only person worried about some of the people that will be out of this program in a few years practicing on their own or with vulnerable populations.

#muerto talks #just rambling #maybe im just a hater virgo with a strong sense of justice #i am just forever perplexed #learning that some of my classmates believe that you can be racist to white people is crazy #learning that some of my classmates are rude and dismissive to BIPOC students but they work in BIPOC communities #learning that some of my classmates weaponize their mental illnesses as an excuse to act shitty to professors classmates or clients is craz #there are zionists??? trying to be social workers?????? #i literally have classes with zionists #some people r doing a whole ass career change because they had a spiritual calling to help people?? #again not saying im such a great clinician im in training just like the rest of my program #but you cannot like tell me to even try to be hopeful about some of the people who will be my collegues in a year #because i have no hope for them #and its going to take making serious mistakes for them to maybe snap out of it #and that fucking sucks #nothing in my body feels safe around those people #like idc maybe im an elitist with impossible standards #maybe im the one asking too much from these people..... #the cognitive dissonance is real in these people man

[nightmareentertainment]

He's a ten but he has been lying to you about which college he wants to go to because he's terrified that being away from him will force you to give up your dreams, because that's what happened to his parents and they ended up in a horrible abusive situation. He cares so much about you that he's scared of being honest with you, and has dug a deeper hole because he's scared of you being mad at him too.

He's a ten but he's been forced to co-parent since his parents divorce and now has a terrible sense of self worth

He's a ten but he once clocked a guy for suggesting he was like his father / that his family was full of screwups

He's a ten but he smokes weed

He's a ten but he had to coffin shop for his little brother when he was sixteen

He's a ten but he's scared of leaving his family, since that's what his father did

He's a ten but he checked his father's trunk first for his missing brother

#hes a ten #this is about jonathan #i post maybe three posts a day and dissapear for a few days and its always me rambling about stranger things #its the mental illnesses dawg #stranger things #jonathan byers #stranger things 4 #will byers #joyce byers #lonnie byers #cw implied abuse #jancy #implied jancy

[shotbyacowboy]

(greg voice) if jesus thought he suffered he should try being in middle school 🙄

#doawk #diary of a wimpy kid #greg heffley #this is so freaking silly sorry afhsrg #i can draw whaever i want i am not experiecnning horrors rn btw #yearly doawk brainrot but i never post about it cuz its MY thing grrr #anyway. greg would say this #patrick bateman middle schooler ass #anyway. maybe more doawk art i need to decide how mentally ill about it im gonna be #only thing i ever posted before was furry rodrick once i think

[actual-changeling]

probably projecting but idc but imagine ellie having a little crisis once they're in jackson and thinking that eventually joel will leave her cause she becomes too much of a burden/too annoying/too whatever and starts pushing his boundaries.

being more rude, being mean, behaving badly, trying everything to push him away cause she would rather figure it out now and have it be her doing instead of joel suddenly leaving her when she isn't prepared for it.

joel is incredibly confused by wtf ellie is doing cause to him it's all out of nowhere but he just assumes she's struggling and does not budge no matter what, he stays calm, lets her do whatever she wants, gives her what she asks for, even fights tommy and maria when they're like "parent ur child" and he just goes "shut tf up she is going through a thing and you will let her"

and eventually ellie reaches her breaking point and just yells at him before she starts sobbing "why dont you leave me already why are you still here i dont understand" and joel holds her face and goes "i wont ever leave you cause you're mine" (theyre too emotionally repressed to reach the ur my kid/dad stage just yet so he does the same thing he did with tess)

anyway they hug a lot and they talk it out in their own way and are happy nothing bad ever happens to the tlou 2 doesnt exist the end

#alex yells at the void #the last of us #tlou #ellie and joel #joel and ellie #ellie williams #joel miller #listen if this doesnt make sense its after 10pm i had like five hours of sleep last night and am mentally ill so #thats that #anyway BPD ellie lives rent free in my mind and i love her little disordered self #pats ellie this girl can fit so much mental illness #considering making this its own fic or putting it in my current wip that im writing a chapter for rn #not about this but like maybe ill put it in at some point

[obsob]

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud!!

✷(print shop)✷

#mine #original #euheuhe hello..i hope everyone is having a good day #we are going on a bird boat thing on wednesday im very excited about it #what else.....me and my bf went on a walk on sunday and i saw damsel flies and shield bugs and a duck with 13 ducklings #i bought a jellycat sun bag which is now all i talk about #ive started reading assassins apprentice by robin hobb!!!! its so good!!!! #im so excited there are so many books in the series to read #i doubt i will like all of them but i will give them all a go #today i will stop and hve dinner n then walk the dog and then do exercise and have a bath #and then i will. play zelda #and then tomorrow i will do shop stuff and also help my mum buy a bench apparently #i need to buy snacks also. i hve a snack stash in my rooom bc of mental illness purposes and i am low.....need snacks #maybe i will do that tomorrow. brain schedule is full up for today sorry #also. unrelated. i have my period???? again????? ive already had it this month hello i dont need another im good im all done #my hormones r going ??OAGHGHGHUH #also i want like . cute bra. but like not a bra like just cloth thats like. tit shaped. a bralet? is that what that is? no idea #anyway. hve nice evening. or else. #i have a headache #OH ALSO. i need to legally chnage my name SKFSABJSBK #put that on th todo list #i cant rmemeber how 2 do it i think it was very straight forward n cost like. £10 or smth

[icewindandboringhorror]

................ he 

#i feel like I posted this already but I also can't find it in any recent posts so... #......he #cats #EVEN if I did post it.. why not poast himb again? it's he #I'm like halfway through actually editing aforementioned costumes and stuff and i WANT to work on sculptures again and I have video #s and that worldbuilding slideshow and all of these things so hopefully like.. more usual stuff soon maybe.. to be posted #for now though yeah.. just cats #The end of the year is also when I panic about the passage of time and how little I've gotten done and how I will never actually be a #sucessful game maker slash author slash cat cafe owner slash set designer slash costume designer slash psychologist #who lives in like Scotland or somehting and also owns my own candle company or something ghbjhb #and will probably just be a mentally ill hermit recluse all my life who dies early of mysterious health issues with 5000 projects left #undone and blah blah the crushing weight of chronic illness and capitalism and so on and so forth #So then I scramble to get projects done to try and meet some goals but usually that means I scatter between projects #so it takes longer to finish all of them. Like instead of dedicating 8 hours to one thing and finishing it one sitting. I'll do 2 hours on #this then 2 hours on that then 2 hours on another things. so they all get done slower even though I'm still technically making progress on #them all. This is also a very poo poo pee pee stink brain way to work and is not like. the most efficent thing but it's just how my brain #organizes tasks sometimes lol #*** #(<ignore this its part of an OCD compulsion lol. anytime you see me type three asterisks I'm not bleeping out a curse word #it's just a Special Secret Foolish Thing I Have To Do At Specific Uncontrolable Times When Brain Says So gbjhhj) #ANYWAY... eeeee #Still haven't resolved my mystery chest injury though so being at te computer for too long is also kind of achey-inducing #Better get over it though because I have like 30+ hours of slideshow vidoe to edit hahaha hee hee hoo!!!!!

[dennistakesamentalhealthday]

dennis is an angry character btw im sorry but he is full of rage but that rage is not exclusive his anger does not negate sadness and fragility and insecurities in fact they work together and dtamhd was one of the first times where his anger was not used as a joke via a surface level rage explosion from him but instead explored the fragility of his anger. the way he keeps reassuring the workers he encounters (and himself) that he's not mad. when he tells daisy he's not mad but he is a little bit upset. dennis is angry and that anger is what makes him so fragile. he was upset and it manifested as rage bc he doesnt know what to do with his own sadness

#disclaimer tags yes i would like to see his emotions explored more but i disagree that we ONLY saw anger in dtamhd #and EVEN IF IT WAS ONLY ANGER... anger is just as VALID and fragile and vulnerable as sadness. they are family #we saw how his anger makes him fragile how it exhausts him #how it works with his stress and fears and insecurities and sadness #he was UPSET!!!! #angry dennis in dtamhd WAS big feelings dennis in tends bar. that was the same #he expressed anger in tends bar bc he was upset he expressed anger in dtamhd bc he was upset etc etc #and i think the sadness people were expecting was present. the sadness and fragility we would have seen if he cried on the beach like most #of us anticipated (btw he did cry at the beach <3 technically <3) was THERE. it was just in his anger #sewerkingcharlie talked about this already and worded it very well but im honestly kinda bothered by how some people have treated #the portrayal of anger and emotions in this ep #you dont have to like the ep or how they portrayed dennis but some posts have really given the vibe of #his anger and his emotional outburst not being as valid because it wasnt portrayed in the way you expected #or that it wasnt palatable enough #and honestly if you dont like it thats okay! but can we please be careful with how we talk about mental illness and anger outbursts! #yes it is frustrating when people ONLY see dennis' anger or see dennis' anger in a very shallow way #which a lot of the audience unfortunately does because its been treated like a joke #but it wasnt a just a joke here #and maybe this will all go past dudebros heads frankly i dont give a shit lol but thats for another post