#maybe we’re both bi and we’ll just be in some happy quasi relationship for the foreseeable future until we get our shit together

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#do i really want to have *** with him or do i just want to have *** #do i really want to get ****** to him or do i just want to get ******* #i think i do want to do both with him but it’s hard to say bc i haven’t done or seriously thought of either w any1 else #and also he might be gay which is HILARIOUS #not really but hilarious that i’ve fallen so deeply in love w someone who will never love me back the same way #i can’t believe it’s been almost two years since i realized how madly in love with him i am #i think it’ll be two years in october? MAYBE november? #he made a joke about being in the closet the other day that i haven’t bothered to clear up #but made another joke the next day about us flirting with each other so really #who’s to say #maybe we’re both bi and we’ll just be in some happy quasi relationship for the foreseeable future until we get our shit together #i haven’t found anyone else i can tolerate much less love nearly as much as him #and i’m assuming he hasn’t either bc i hope he’d feel comfortable bringing that to me if he did #idk i’m drunk so don’t pay attention to me #i should start stretching meditating and journaling again #and maybe also learning the basics of several foreign languages while i’m at it