#me and my writing

[ptolomeia]

Alright tumblr, looks like I'm gonna be fairly bedbound for the next foreseeable future. Given my total lack if energy and occasionally struggling to even stay sitting, help me pick which of my story ideas I should spend the next while working on.

Your Options

1) Austistic Epistolary

This story will be an epistolary novel told by an Autistic debutant with a special interest in the creation and construction of high fashion, but who does not like new clothes, and her best friend, who is stuck out in the country for her health, as they navigate what their changing lives will look like, and hope our Debutant find a good match.

2)Singlet System Fantasy Romance

In this fantasy setting, in our Main character's village, every Summer, someone moves into a cottage down the road. She only ever stays for the summer, and has come every summer our main character can remember. They've had a crush on her for about as long. One day, our MC gets attacked by a vicious magic beasty, and is saved by the Summer lady. Except, she sounds different. And she moves different. And she certainly swears a lot more. And our MC had no idea she could do that kind of magic.

Years later, after travelling far far from their home village, our MC meets their Summer Lady. Except, this time it's winter. And this time, she is acting much more like did in the conflict with the beasty. Our MC has to find out what is going on.

Or, a story about a System with four cohosts with an unusual agreement on how to share their body gets found out, and learns to let someone get to know all of them, and maybe even have some of them fall in love.

3)Paranormal Romance with Politics (victorian or regency type setting)

Sarah knew her uncle Rowan wasnt her actual uncle. After all she was human, and Uncle Rowan was fae. Apparently her father had somehow saved uncle Rowan's life and now they are family. He's always been her favorite uncle though, he never made her feel odd. Everyone else thought she was so... different that she was a confirmed spinster by now, weighing down her younger (more normal) siblings eventual chances at a good match.

So, when her uncle comes to her and her father wanting to see if she'd be willing to marry his son and heir, who is beset by people wanting to marry him to use him and tip a very careful balance of power, she agrees. She loves her uncle, wants to help him, and besides, it's not like her current life has much of a future. And besides, she's met two of his three children and got along very well with them, so the last one can't be that bad, right?

Unfortunately it is only after she arrives in the fae realm that she learns exactly who she is engaged to: that terribly rude Fae she'd met the night of her debutant ball with whom she'd traded insults, after he spoke so poorly of her uncle.

Of course, there are some other issues as well. The politics of tbe fae realm were something Sarah's father had sheilded her from and so, while she'd known her uncle Rowan was a fae noble, she hadn't realized he was the High King. Now she finds herself engaged to a man she detests, getting ready to be the next high queen of the fae, and target of political factions who, if they can just get rid of one pesky mortal, believe they can install one of their own as the next high queen. (Enemies (ish) to lovers with political deliciousness let's goooooooooooo)

#whichever one we end up working on we'll try to post updates about #they all are so tempting #also feel free to send asks about the stories #it'll feel good to write again #im excited #writing #original fiction #me and my writing #autistic epistolary #system singlet fantasy romance #paranormal romance with politics

[fonulyn]

one more scene and soulmate au chapter 2 is done whooooo

#me and my writing #so what do i do with chapter 3 then wHAT

[lady-de-mon-coeur]

Did someone cast a writing spell on me? I feel a sudden urge of writing.

#me and my writing

[soliloquent-stark]

💕 and 🚦for the fanfic ask game!

thank you for asking this, angel <3 you made me contemplate a lot of things about my own writing and that's always beneficial. ❤️

💕 What is your favorite fic that you’ve written?

now, this is a hard one. how am i supposed to choose between my children?!

i do only have three completed fics out in the world, and they're all my favourite for different reasons. at the risk of sounding like a self-promoting asshole, here's why:

the laundry fic is very dear to me because it's my first attempt at fiction in almost a decade, and i adore the way i managed to capture steve's struggles. it felt really important to me to give him some of the insight that mcu fumbled with, and to acknowledge his trauma, even ever-so-slightly (i could write a bible's worth of why steve deserves the world). it's probably my actual favourite of the bunch because i don't even remember coming up with the idea or any of the creative process; i only know that one day i sat down and wrote the first draft as if the spirit of tony completely took over me. there were no deliberate thoughts — the fic was a continuous loop of steve brainrot and tony soliloquies (ha) between my brain and heart, which slowly trickled down my fingers onto the screen. 🥹

the emails fic is something i am proud of because i put a lot of work into the world-building and formatting of the fic, and i feel that the risk paid off. i am very fond of that stevie too and can't wait to write more for that series and give him some well-deserved happiness. also, supergenius scientist steve!! 💌

the hedgehog fic is objectively not as deep as the other two and it doesn't delve as much into character introspection, but it's so close to my heart because it's so disgustingly domestic, intimate, vulnerable, realistic, dare i say funny, and very much inspired by my own relationship. in addition, i took the opportunity to write some more emotionally-aware and healthy-communicators tony and steve, and i absolutely fell in love with their dynamic and with my lil hedgehog tony even more. 🦔

🚦What sort of endings do you prefer to write: ambiguous, bad, happily ever after, etc.?

i categorically avoid open or ambiguous endings because even though they are an amazing way to promote analysis and pondering on the reader's side, i often feel unsatisfied with it (blame my neurodivergence). slightly ambiguous is liv approved, however. 🤭

alas, my strong preference is either a happy ending (the ever after is not my cup of tea anyways, i am sadly too much of a realist to claim that as a possibility) or an unquestionably tragic one, because i do love angst with my whole heart (something that will become a bit more prevalent in my upcoming works) and i think it's important to tell those stories as well. and sometimes i just want to torture my silly lil characters, as a cathartic experience. 🫣

#me and my writing #thank you ivy-dovy!! #this was such a good ask i am so grateful #answered

[faeriekit]

"This fic was ai generated—" Cool, so lemme block you real quick

#the ethics are whack but more importantly you didn't even want to write it?? who is it even for?? not you? not me? #you didn't even have enough interest in the premise to take a crack at it?? then who cares? #please don't populate in my search results I'm looking for things that people wrote because they liked something #ao3

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[catmask]

when u go to write a mentally ill person in ur story you are presented two options. the first option is to write your mental illness realistically as you actually experience it with all the ups and downs and people who are like you will resonate with it and feel seen. except every person who reads instagram infographics on mental health that uses the phrase narcicisst for anyone who does anything that crosses them and unironically call themself a dark empath will call you scary and tell you that youre demonizing mentally ill people

the second option is to lie and write inspiration porn for those people to get hard to

#just kidding the third option is i drive myself insane #trying to find a way to write someone like me in a way i may be respected as a human being #without shaving away the more frightening aspects of my experience or life #challenge level . impossible. i will die. or they will make youtube 3 hour long rant videos about it someday #scratchpost #txt

[nonebinary-leftbeef]

DEVASTATING the lyric you've been mishearing is better than the real one

#i've been listening to icarus by bastille #and for some reason my brain fills in 'this is how it feels to take a fall' as 'this is how it feels to take off all your skin' #and like fuck man #and I KNOW that’s technically not a misheard lyric but my post my rules cope #anyway my line now #also probably phrased this poorly but its ok #im allowed to be incomprehensible #as a treat #and then fuckin #from we sink by of monsters and men #the original line was 'please look away dont look at me' #and i kept hearing it as 'please learn a way to look at me' #anyway #shoving this post in the queue but please be aware that i am writing it very late at night #q

[pixiemage]

Please, for the love of god, please don’t be this person. No matter how long it’s been since an update, no matter how many unfinished stories are sitting on their account, no matter what - do not be this person.

Not only is it insanely rude, but you also do more damage than you think be being such a self-entitled ass about something someone created for free and for fun. “This author” can see what you say.

RIP decency indeed.

#Archive of our Own #Ao3 #Ao3 Comments #Writing #Fanfiction #Fanfic Writing #I wrote over 100k on that fic before burnout took hold #I poured my heart into what I did manage to finish #adhd’s a bitch that doesn’t always let me write what I want to write but I got that far #don’t make me feel ashamed because you didn’t get to see the ending

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[fonulyn]

one more scene and i’d have the first chapter of the soulmate au done aaaaaaaaaaaa what do i doooo

#of course i have no idea #what will happen in the third chapter #so lol this is a mess #i have the second one figured out #but the third??? #nope #nothing #me and my writing

[lady-de-mon-coeur]

Seriously, I need to stop writing Exaltation/Post-Exaltation fics.

#me and my writing

[officialspec]

modern au but set in brisbane. is this anything

#TRICK QUESTION its everything. to me #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #marcille donato #senshi of izganda #laios touden #kabru #falin touden #izutsumi #farcille #chilchuck tims #namari #my art #dunmesh #brisbane meshi #americans have all the fun putting their modern aus wherever they live. well its my turn. namari is a caboolture bogan i know this #ive thought about this So much i need to write down all my notes somewhere

[thoodleoo]

the parasocial relationship between you and the guy whose article you cite the most in your paper

#academia #me writing my citations: youre like a brother to me #queueusque tandem abutere catilina patientia nostra

[just-french-me-up]

this is a PSA for fic writers who haven't updated in a while :

there are fics out there I'm subscribed to that have gone double digit months without updating.

rest assured the moment those babies catapult an AO3 email my way i'm dropping from the face of the earth to sink my teeth into them

i'll wait, and so will your readers

#writing #writing nightmare #writeblr #writers #writer's problems #writing problems #fanfiction #fanfic #fanfic writers #this is a psa from me to me honestly #cause I have not abandoned my child #my brain is just suffering from my workload #mine

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

#writing #fic writing #like this is stuff i'm doing for fun with my perfectionism meter turned down as far as i can get it #and i am still thinking about it A LOT #talk to me about how in red string fic jgy perceives the memory block both as syrup and as mud but nmj thinks it feels like blood #it's just a thing in their heads that mentally feels kind of thick and sticky but they both made something different of it #it's about issues with cleanliness / lies as a way to craft an illusion of a better lopking world vs the constant violence nmj lives in