#me being overemotional

[truthsinwhispers]

People are soooooooooo quick to shit on people who deal with emotional disregulation it makes me fucking sick. When you express your stress through tears you're a crybaby. When you're quick to frustration, you're either overly dramatic or you're violent and scary. When you have the gall to get too happy, you're childish or straight up crazy.

Living with emotional disregulation comes with having to grow thick skin because people will call you every fucking name under the sun because you have the audacity to express emotions that are constantly ramped up to an eleven no matter which one you're feeling. You're loud, you're sensitive, you're overemotional, you're weak, you're soft, you're childish, you're naive, you're too much you're too much you're too much you're too much you're too much you're a burden because people now have to handle you.

Where do people think they have a right to judge others for feeling? I may be quick to express my emotions, but you're quick to judge and condemn and on a societal level that should be worse.

#my bullies in elementary school knew i had problems regulating my emotions so they'd say things where i could hear them. #they were never overtly mean things but they would say it in a mean tone and then giggle at me. and when i went to tell a teacher #the teachers would just roll their eyes at me. it's not bullying because they're not saying mean things #(even though they're clearly weaponizing something out of your control you don't have the language to describe) #my middle school bully heard my teachers call me overemotional and that stuck to me for all three years. #my coworkers and managers will shit-talk me behind my back for “being so dramatic” it happens no matter where i am. #i'm so used to people looking down their noses at me because clearly i can't be taken seriously. clearly i'm just naive and immature. #i just. my broken bleeding heart keeps weeping into my hands and i can't staunch it. #but i don't even want to staunch it. hearts are supposed to bleed aren't they?

[itsjinkibitch]

watching riize's encore stage and I see them and ooo bowing to each other

#riize 1st win ahhhhhhh #just me being my overemotional self this is fine this is great #onlyoneof #ooo #riize

[gworlinterrupted]

was bitching to my mom abt my job and how i dont know how ppl can verbally abuse service workers over ice cream and she was like you'll get it in 20 years. girl.. ur just outing ur own lack of empathy the rest of us are getting more and more compassionate for our fellow man as we age

#im still baffled #theyve always told me that im overemotional and need to change but this to me is being overemotional in a way thats disruptive to ur life

[nowendil]

i wish they would invent a type of exercise that is good for you physically AND doesnt make you feel like absolute dogshit mentally right after

#have been trying to do these light exercises my physiotherapist gave me and honestly i have cried every time i have tried to do them <3 #not because they're painful or anything it's just. hard for me mentally #i constantly feel like i'm doing them wrong and not doing them enough and that it shouldnt be this difficult to do them and #i'm faking having any problems in the first place and i'm wasting everyone's time by being stupid and overemotional and weak #AND then i feel dumb for making it into this big thing in my head and then i feel even more like crying #it's like this fun endless little circle #nowe talks #cw negative

[br1ghtestlight]

i feel so miserable and emotionally exhausted i cant wait to traumadump to my social worker on tuesday when he asks why i haven't finished my english homework DJDMSKDKSKS

#LIKE. IT HAS BEEN A ROUGH WEEK #being horrifically sick + family problems + overemotional for some fucking reason #i never EVER cry but i have cried like at least four times this week thats how u know it's very very bad #im so fucking exhausted. mentally & physically #and nothing helps #I just want to talk to someone but pretty much the only person im around irl right now is my grandma #who arguably is going through a worse time than me. plus i dont wanna talk to her about this anyway #i want an unsuspecting stranger to feel sorry for me #<- half joking i know there are people going thru worse things. I HAVE gone through worse things #i just want to stew in my own misery for a bit okay!!!!! #txt

[eldesperadont]

Jay vs Hikuleo loser leaves Japan match. No. nope no nonono no, loser leaves Japan match is how Devitt left NJPW.

#im not daring to say what i think will happen cause i do NOT trust njpw in the slightest #but oh being an overemotional jay fan is genuine pain #anyways thats reason enough for me that ignore that part of wrestling till idk when #percht.txt #i hate it here (my autistic brain)

[darling-im-wonderstruck]

hi sorry i just needed to let this out somewhere… feel free to ignore since this is personal !!!

i am soo sooooo tired of always being treated as like a second option. i think the reason why is bc i put so much value into others and i hate the thought of people feeling like they don’t matter to me so i ALWAYS make sure that everyone feels included no matter what. and i think i’m realizing that i do that because i myself know and hate that feeling. the feeling of not being important, not feeling valued, not being cared for enough.

like i know that me being second best isn’t always the case but it happens with the people that matter to me most and it hurts so much :(

either that or i’m just tooooooo sensitive which, i wouldn’t be surprised if i was called that, maybe i’m overreacting ????? i dunno, it’s so hard for me to think about.

#funny how i’m so extremely extroverted and i socialize so openly but i still feel so lonely #friend-wise at least #like i have so many friends and people around me but the ppl who i value most are the ones who don’t care about me as much #and the people who aren’t as close to me put even more value in me than those i consider to be my closest friends #which hurts so bad ughhhh #okay maybe i’m being sensitive and overemotional again idk idk #i mean this irl btw… my moots r my safe space i love you all :( <3

[sassygwaine]

thinking about the person in the performance art group i was in telling me

it must be a burden to have such an expressive face

and i have been conscious of my facial expressions ever since

#because like high key it is #and because then when i’m not overemoting people accuse me of being rude or depressed #also today my coworker said ‘hypervigilence is not good for you’ #and i was just like pikachu face

[marypsue]

Figured out why the ‘Mike doesn’t say he loves El anymore’ conflict feels so out of place - it’s because that’s Steve and Nancy’s conflict from season 2. It doesn’t belong to Mike and El! It’s literally a different couple’s conflict badly and sloppily tacked onto their relationship! No wonder it doesn’t feel like it fits! 

And honestly, looking at it from the perspective of ‘this isn’t just not-foreshadowed and poorly introduced but also out of character’: it also doesn’t make any fucking sense that El would ever lie to Mike. Especially not to try to convince him that she’s cool and popular and happy without him. The whole thing just smacks of ‘we watched half an episode of a random sitcom in a hospital waiting room one time and thought we could just steal and give that conflict to our literal main characters without anybody noticing that it doesn’t belong in our story or their relationship and makes no fucking sense.’

#well that and/or 'what do people in relationships fight about? uhhhhh women being lying bitches and/or overemotional crazy people' #not 'what things that THESE CHARACTERS care about might come into conflict' #it's bad writing #on top of blatant misogyny #I love that one of tumblr's suggested tags here was 'i hate the duffers' thanks bro #if no one else got me i know tumblr's extremely broken predictive algorithms got me #stranger things #seriously 'el thinks mike only loved her because of her powers and that now they're gone he doesn't care about her anymore' was RIGHT THERE #and THEMATICALLY RELEVANT and would have CONTRIBUTED TO THE PLOT i am GNAWING GLASS #i'm still not finished the season but i'm STILL MAD ABOUT IT

[scifigeekgirl]

CDPR please be kind to us with with Project Orion 🥺

#cyberpunk project orion #i hope it continues v and johnnys stories so bad #excuse me for being overemotional im sick #but i love them so much #i want to see more of them especially since we're only getting one expansion because theyre changing their engine

[invisibleoctopus]

one thing that always bothers me about gatekeepers/fakeclaimers who are like "we're just making sure people who ACTUALLY have these problems get help we only accept REAL mentally ill people" is that this kind of shit turns away ppl who are questioning and need help with whatever Thing they have going on and it in fact hurts "the REAL not-fakers who ACTUALLY have this mental illness/neurodivergence" who might be discouraged from accessing help because theyre the type of mentally ill that gets terrified of being labeled a faker just for simply being wrong about which mental illness they have

#le p2iigh #this is about me denying being a system for years even though real google searches i made might as well go on systemgooglesearches #if the last part seems oddly specific YES its happened to me before!!!!! #like this shit affects how doctors treat u irl because this was in 2016 when i was hypomanic + actively being traumatized #so naturally not bothering to check whether i had bipolar i went to bpd #bc thats why i thought i was being 'overemotional' and 'overreacting' and generally just dramatic #everyone called me extra but what the fuck do you expect when im responding to being emotionally + psychologically ABUSED #also yes this is when i named myself edge #so anyway all this made me think i had bpd so i said as much one day and my abuser stepmom ratted me out to the therapist #who instead of maybe like. evaluating me for bpd or other personality/mood disorders just basically scolded me #idk what she said that got him completely on her side and basically going along with the abuse (because its the socially acceptable kind) #but yeah thats when i was accused of being a faker by a state mandated therapist and my entire family at the time #even though years later during another manic episode (actual mania this time not hypomania) i was hospitalized #and because i was being a 'difficult patient' they sent me home with pamphlets on how to deal with bpd along with the bipolar ones #SO WHICH FUCKING ONE IS IT. I GET PUNISHED WHEN I SAY I HAVE IT AND I GET PUNISHED WHEN I DONT SAY I HAVE IT

[thisisaname-whatahappyname]

i want to be meaner to my mom but scared that i might make a habbit of it to the point of that spilling onto other people, so let's vent, near everytime i say something that challenges her belief that she's right about everything she always goes on about how i love debating her and how im always attacking her and saying she's wrong about everything, this bitch litterally fucking just told her child "you're always the villain to me" like i dont have a mountain of evidence saying that she's the one who's fucked up

look we disagree on things a lot, i disagree with her a lot, she seems to take everytime i point out she could be wrong (the first few times her response was "it's like your my mom mano po" ("mana po" is something people do to their elders) and "go work on your self first" in response to my room and my sleep schedule, like. y'know me sleeping late and being messy gives her yhe excuse to be a bad person.) now it's "you just love debating me don't you" "you always think im wrong about everything" and now recently "youre always the villain in my story" ("lagi kang kontrabida saking buhay")

because yeah sure im the villain, im the person who bullied ("idiot, lunatic, insane, you made yourself ugly, you look insane, you look like a lunatic") verbally abused (read the previous sentences, and what comes after this), hit (four times to be exact, also threathened to beat me up if i ever did that again, and later on said she was gonna smack me if i ever tried it again later on too) and told their kid they're insane and that tgey didn't care about anyone except themselves for botching their haircut

like this isn't my first time saying this within these last few days, it still holds true though, her words, the villain sentence specifically, should be directed at herself if anything, like girlie are you describing your own actions or

damn these last few days have been shit, like most days that have my parents in them aren't good, but these last few days have been horrendous, wonder if i should kill myself lol, atleast id have a botched haircut at the funeral, where a lot of the people whod know me would see, might botch it even more before doing it, just out of spite, it's just like id face the abuse that would com after anyways, i would be dead. also that whole haircut and these few days after said haircut have confirmed my theory that my parents treat me nicer when im pretty so! that's another thing! man!

like girlie really did just say her kid was the villain in her life despite being the one to hit her kid four times over a botched haircut, and verbally and physically abuse said kid for days afterwards (the verbal abuse was worse than what id written, basically just wrote a summary for the most part, just don't feel like translating it) i mean girlie really?

edit: also if you read the tags i almost forgot about that last bit, memory repression works hard ig. wonder how much shit i forgot that i never remembered.

also another edit: i think it's interesting how she used to so "oh so im the villain now" in response to me whenever i brought up her doing something bad, like that used to be a common occurance a few months near a year ago, but now she says "you're like a villain to me" after, reminding her she can be wrong, and botching my haircut. i mean. girlie at least isn't blatantly ripping off mother gothel now so that's fun.

#girlie litterally called her kid the villain despite being the one who bullied #(said idiot. lunatic #insane #you made yourself ugly you look insane #you look like a lunatic.) #verbally abused (read the previous sentences and what comes after this) hit #(four times to be exact #also threathened to beat me up if ever did that again and later on said she was gonna smack me if i ever tried it again later on too) #and told their kid they're insane andthat tgey didn't care about anyone except themselves for botching their haircut #girlie litterally called her kid the villain #it think it's interesting how fell back on using social media slang as a coping mechanism here because sm incites dophamine most times #anyways vent parents i mean wow really let's just fucking #go and jump off guess. i #am exhausted and quite frankly just want to sleep and never fucking wake up again an overdose might be nice idk. #me dying might be the only way to convince her that she's the one that's fucked actually. #or maybe she might fucking say im spoiled dramatic and overemotional in which case idc idc id be too dead too by then anyways #look explaining shit won't work ive already tried that and whenever get into fights with my parents #words and memories just fucking bail on me under enough stress #till i get my shit together hours later and able to pinpoint exactly why they're or in this case she's wrong fuck this #she also told me that ''since im so mature now to now have to rely on her anymore'' and said she wont attend or give me shit anymore #as part of said haircut thing #basically told me she wont be a parent to me anymore because of something that started from a botched haircut #but still doesn't think that actually She may be the villain here #vent #parents

[venranae]

I've randomly started crying over scara for 4 nights in a row now i genuinely believe there is some deeper issue here cause i simply think about him and the tears flow and then i start laughing cause thats just so fucking silly💀

#listen stories about hearts and being too sensitive #and feeling like you're not fully human and like you're missing a piece #that just always gets so me ALRIGHT IT ALWAYS GETS TO ME #THERE IS JUST STH ABOUT THE CONCEPT OF WANTING TO FEEL SO MUCH BUT ALSO WISHING TO NEVER FEEL AGAIN CAUSE IT HURTS #i am just very overemotional and project a lot but holy shit #i feel like they made his backstory to personally attack me #don't hit me with the corny ass kingdom hearts storylines that i will absolutely fall for i eat this up everytime and everytime i cry #cause there is something so inherently pure and human of wanting to have a heart and feel like everyone else #i'm rambling about a mf gacha game can u believe if

[thekidsarentalright]

watching fob videos rn. i am in a place mentally

#i do not Often watch fob videos. at least not a lot in a row #just bc i get so severely overemotional watching them exist and whatever idk i used to a Lot when i was getting into them i dont do it #a Lot now. but when i am in severe need for comfort?? i watch them #and sometimes. sometimes u just need to watch patrick forget the words to immortals a million times to remind u everything is okay!!!!!! #sometimes u just need to watch them being silly best friends to cope :(( and i am coping so hard rn #genuinely watching vids of patrick makes me cry out of how much i love him idc how insane that sounds and when im feeling Down like i am #that love is comforting so. long winded explanation to say i am sad patrick make me happy :] #txt

[slut-kiss-g1rl]

does anyone else's feminist rage give them gender dysphoria?

#irrational and overemotional women #masculine #a question for my fellow transmascs #i think its more of having to deal with mysogony first hand and then me being angry being brushed off #coz im an #which triggers the dysphoria in itself and also makes me even more angry #and being partially in the riot grrrl scene kinda adds to it coz the way i deal with this anger is through my music but this music isnt #isnt typically sounding because of influences like bikini kill #l7 #and hands off gretel #ahh this is starting to bot make sense

[drivemysoul]

lmfao

#taylor.txt #someone vagueposting about me saying i’m an overemotional idiot #sorry i called you out for being weird about minors i guess?? moron.