#me opening the app just now

[nyancrimew]

at the peak of my fevery delusions earlier i tried to explain to my wife how there is a "different shadow tumblr" that i accidentally accessed but can't anymore somehow and i wanted to get back on shadow tumblr

#she was getting rly concerned about me at that point #anyways i am on an ibu again now so doing a bit better #also i am pretty sure i just tried to open tumblr and opened a different app instead and thought it was a new tumblr

[filmnoirsbian]

#i love that they used daryl dixon as the bg lmao #anyways! this has been a long time coming. the positives abt social media have been starting to stop outweighing the negatives for me #and rather than offering the connection to others it once did it has begun to feel very disconnecting to me in a way i do not like #i will still pop in occasionally i think if only just to post poetry or answer asks. but i will no longer be opening this app daily or #uploading my queue so when whatever's in there now runs out that's it! #I'll still be active on patreon. slightly less active on substack and medium. and wolfgang and i will still be doing the podcast. #but i need to take my time back tbh and this will help me do that hopefully. hope ur all as well as can be <3 #tcp

[aimseytv]

sometimes it’s hard knowing how much of my core community is on twitter because you don’t know how badly i want to stop using the platform as every day i open it there’s more shit that just breaks my heart

#i open the app and immediately see an argument on whether trans rights are deserved or not #and it just makes me want to put my head into a blender #i hate this app #i hate it so very much #and i know you will get that anywhere #but twitter is the worst place for hate right now against normal human rights #something shifted and it’s just became a beacon of terrible things #it breaks my heart #aimsey rambles

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

#seriously another shout out to my mutuals #id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being #and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting #bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!' #hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over #and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic #sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭 #okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals #like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful #so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up #than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess #they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds #so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW #okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE #SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES #if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends' #then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context #but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic #and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF #okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this #ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day

[moeblob]

Karen has four older brothers and this is Ross! He's the second oldest and he looks rather polite and smiles a lot and when he's at work he can behave most of the time... but he really has such a foul mouth it puts Right to shame.

And Karen when she was a kid couldn't pronounce S's and they sounded like Z's. So when her brothers would be leaving for school she would say "enjoy zool" and just. Could NEVER say Ross's name correctly so he told her to just call him Oz. And it stuck but only with Karen. She's the only one to use it and no one else is allowed.

#my characters #also fun fact she has decided to legally rename him for when shes mad at him #so instead of yelling his full proper name #she will yell OSWALD THOMAS WILSON which is the fake first name but actual middle/last #and its just thats a guy that she wouldnt want to admit to knowing if she saw him in public #hes actually p short so yeah hes a short king #the oldest bro and the second youngest are both taller #the middle middle is basically the same height as him so karen really is just the wittle bab #and all her brothers are super protective of her bc thats their baby sister #she does however have a strong sense of I GOTTA PROTECT THE MIDDLE GUY #so she is kinda used to standing up for older guys just bc of he #but it comes into being a problem when she meets rick and is like fuck it he may be older but #he is too kinda for this world and also theres no way i can love him hes basically a baby brother #and she will pick on him but also would absolutely throw hands for him #and and i know the tags are long as is but eventually karen and rick move past the whole youre like a brother vibe #and they become very good friends - still zero romance involved - but she starts to treat him less like a family member #and it makes him feel less awkward and in turn he feels more open to joke sometimes #cause for a long while rick is just this is really awkward and i wish we would stop matching on dating apps but she wont leave me alone #so its rude to turn her down when she offers a friendly drink to check up on me #but its actually karen being protective older sister mode despite being the youngest of five #this is the most i have managed to draw in like two weeks i think #now im super tired bye

[darkfinch]

there needs to be,,,,,a typewriter, but not a hassle to acquire & fix and use and maintain. modern typewriter. simple maybe digital typewriter that doesn't have internet access or other features it's just for typing words and that's it. big storage. maybe it's an e-ink screen so it doesn't hurt ur eyes. maybe it doesnt cost 700 dollars. this is my dream i am gazing dreamily into the night sky dreaming abt it. modern typewriter

#yes i know you can use a notebook im doing that right now <3 #yes i know laptops exist im typing this on one <3 this is not what im talking abt #if i am on my laptop i am 1) experiencing screen brightness woes and 2) on tumblr eventually i cannot not be there #i dont want a minimalist writing app i dont want an app that yells at me if i open youtube i want a Tiny Machine #that i can type on and it shows the words and then i can send the word to. like. scrivener or whatever later. print them. something #maybe i can have research open on my laptop and then type on the tiny machine. and it doesnt cost 700 dollars. and i type on it #sigh. chin hands. the future is a disappointment #finchtalks #yes ive been looking into e-ink tablets with bluetooth keyboard possibilities for 5 hours what of it #I NEED THE WORLDS SMALLEST MOST AFFORDABLE FEATURE-FREE E-INK LATPTOP #FOR NOT 700 DOLLARS #AND IT JUST ISNT OUT THERE I DONT THINK </3

[shopwitchvamp]

Back to the grind tomorrow and lemme tell you what, while I do really enjoy tumblr I sure did like not having to be Online all the time during our break.. And I've been thinking that the amount I'm Online and Available will probably be much lower this year compared to the past. So if I'm not responding to asks as fast or posting as much or w/e, that's why! Thanks for understanding 🙏

#also i DO NOT enjoy twitter/X and truly loved not needing to check it at all really over the break #i might drop twitter altogether because i hate being on there #i'm kinda afraid it'll affect my shop's traffic somewhat significantly buttttt maybe that's worth not having to be there #we'll see.. #2024 is gonna be a year of shedding stuff left and right i already know it #sorry to anyone not in the US for already cutting off international orders #twitter you're next #after that who knows #maybe i'll stop carrying my smartphone because i also loved not having to look at it while we were closed #i miss having a flip phone that couldn't even text that thing never bothered me #step one with that tho is i've already turned off notifications from pretty much every app #but now when i open the apps they bother me relentlessly to turn notifications on which i will not do #anyway #maybe i'm just getting old #rant over #goodnight everyone #see you at the drop tomorrow

[dovelydraws]

I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but for a long time now I've noticed huge swaths of people following me after going through my entire blog spam-liking my rise fanart, and ignoring literally everything else- and to those people I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I will not be drawing rise fanart again.

#dove speaks #ive been noticing this happening for like. a year now. so i thought maybe i should say something about it #the hyperfixation died a long time ago and I just want to work on my personal art and original pieces now #and it's been really disheartening to open this app every day to see hundreds of new likes on rise fanart from 4 years ago #and barely even one or two for my original pieces constantly #so if you literally only followed me to consume rise content and you don't care about my other stuff or me as a person... #well. do what you want but you won't be seeing new rise fanart from me again lol #after the fashion zine is over I'm done

[lemon-wedges]

....

#ive never had more of a urge to delete my twitter account than i do now #that app makes me feel So Bad sometimes #and its not even OVER anytjing specific its just opening it makes me feel bad #i really really want to but its also the only way to keep up with a lot of artists i like #also.....fandoms are just a little bigger there and there so stuff actually gets shared #guh #ill wait and see how i feel in the morning

[the-random-phan]

👁-👁

So. Uh

Seems like y'all really enjoyed that post 🙃

#Needless to say that is far beyond any expectations i mightve had #i thought like. maybe 200 #and then- #i am truly just. blindsided #i can only assume its bc it has a wide appeal #funny pun and pretty generic danny (no pointed ears/fangs/blue skin) #i do really like how the art turned out and I am very happy when I open the app the 99+ notifs #it just made it painfully obvious how i havent drawn DP in a while #but idk if its enough the get me back into DP. im still pretty tired of DP and i dont have any more funny snappy ideas like this one was #i think im content with it being a one hit wonder :) #(i say that now but we shall Very Much see lmao)

[krispyykrab]

there is really something cruel and strange and fucked up about switching between thinking youre the center of the universe and thinking youre completely invisible 50 fuckin times a day. like do you have a god complex or an inferiority complex make up your mind

#the mental illness strikes again #yeah its that and like this crippling lonliness that has had me in a chokehold #pov you open the same 3 apps over and over again on repeat all day trying to see if anyone has messaged you or interacted with you at all #then you realize oh wait yeah. they all have lives and you dont. yeah that explains it #then you self loathe and pity for a bit and repeat the cycle #mad pathetic #and on top of that youre too fuckin sensitive so you take it all personal #even stupid jokes. yeah that stupid joke it hurt my feelings and for no reason at all #im not even really sad right now its just. so painfully frustrating that this has to be the normal for me #no matter how many times i seek help for it i get blown off #not to mention im *still* fucked up over not being able to go to the one person i relied on to help me when i was mentally unwell #though ive tried #but bringing up being mentally unwell gets me a sad face emoticon at best #and bringing up being physically unwell and that ive had to go to multiple doctors over the past few months is just. completely ignored #oh well #i am completely over that person but that doesnt mean getting ignored doesnt fucking hurt #anyways

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Sideblog shenanigans

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Love the attitude I have towards my sideblog's Tumblr community vs the Twitter community.

When I look at RA, I'm always fondly scrolling through the tags and laughing at people's reactions or jokes, meanwhile when I look at Twitter I'm like:

"So help me god you WILL all be polite and well-behaved or else."

#i talk #I already sent one person to the void for a weird comment (“joke”) about one of the girls #Back when I worked with kids (and college students) I feel like I was firm but fair #and I was always the favorite teacher / assistant #whenever I open RA's Twitter I definitely do feel that teacher mentality rear its head #sideblog shenanigans #...was that my tag for it #well I haven't used it in 4 years but might as well use it now #Anyways it's really nice using RA's Twitter because I literally just open the app post stuff then close it #and I also literally ONLY follow CCs so that's also very helpful #I do very light moderation just to make sure no one's trying to pick a fight with anyone but that's about all I do #I did however have someone inform me of some very unfortunate stuff when I last opened RA to post stuff and I'm like ah. cool. that sucks #didn't want to know that but thanks #* today

[janiedean]

will get to all your lovely replies asap but for now let me get down the mood with my usual

fuck but i really do hate this month and everything it represents or better the fact that each single year it gets just more miserable

#i’m sorry fuck i wish i liked christmas i do #but i haven’t felt anything close to enjoyment of the period since what was it right ten exact years #every single fucking one of them it just got MORE fucking depressing #we dont talk about covid times because god i wish i could delete them from my existence #two years ago it was just depressing af #last year for a miracle it was halfway okay and hey managed to spend one with the grandmother for once #except she died three months later and this one it will be….. meh but the rest of the month has been a total nervewreck already #but of course EVERYWHERE around you is like JOYOUS TIME EVERYONE IS HAPPY SEASON OF MAGIC #as it is i’mma have to do half of the presents in january ffs #ah right forgot today was the anniversary of the other grandmother dying #and the entire first week is anniversary of 2020 nervous wreck of doom so hey that’s all fine #yeah that happened no i had no plans to mention it good luck to me wanting to move over that specific instance ig #i just wanna stop feeling stuck in being miserable until december 26th arrives and i can hope to get my shit under control the year after #yeah sorry for the pity party i’m just not feeling great whatsoever add feeling totally useless to the list and here we are #i’mma just go catch up on replies now just god now i feel like crap bc the moment i opened the app i just vomited out negativity g r e a t #personal for ts #janie rants

[neverbelessthan]

Just saw a post quoting that HBO douchebag on how they're trying to figure out if it makes sense to renew for s3 based on bullshit metrics.

How about you crunch the data on how many people dropped their Max or Binge subscriptions the same day s2 finished fucking airing.

#cause there were two just within my biological family circle #more in my discord #pretty sure we're not statistical outliers #i asked my parents if they'd care if i cancelled Binge after they'd watched ep8 and their response was literally 'well that's the only thin #on there worth watching and using the AppleTV app for it was an outright fucking nightmare so no' #these fuckers and their bullshit metrics that measure NOTHING USEFUL like you still don't even understand streaming from a data #point of view and until you actually do there's no point referencing it like this it's not an effectible thing like you still don't even #understand how to advertise on streaming in a way that doesn't instantly make everyone hate whatever you're advertising because #even though it's been around for YEARS now you still haven't clocked that showing the same three ads in an eternal loop annoys people to th #point of having it function as reverse-marketing #like the fact that getting the same LITERAL SECOND FOR SECOND ad every time i open the goddamn platform for MONTHS at a time makes me #want to avoid whatever you're marketing like the fucking plague on a pavlovian level like i still see audis and just go NOPE not even #if you offered me a free one it would just make me too mad #ofmd

[risingsunresistance]

HEY BY THE WAY if you're terrified of mojang's new chat report system that just rolled out, let me introduce you to essential :] it's a cosmetics mod for minecraft (requires forge or farbic to install) that has a lot of neat features, one of those being a messaging system! it uses the minecraft font with a texting layout. it'll also save all of your messages unlike minecraft which will refresh when you close and reopen the game. it also allows for you to send messages anywhere, even if you're on different servers, singleplayer worlds, or haven't even left the title screen yet

you can also make group chats :0 haven't tested that out yet since as of now i've just got two people added on it KJHFJKDSG

it also allows you to invite people you know to servers with you OR singleplayer worlds!

if you're using forge, it's available in a few versions from 1.8.9 up to 1.18.2. if you have fabric, you can get it in 1.16.5 up to 1.19 as of me making this post. no 1.19.1 yet, but i'd imagine with everything going on there probably will be one. the 1.19 update just recently came out, i'm not sure which versions they plan to support

#BY THE WAY IT IS COMPLETELY FREE some of the cosmetics cost money BUT using the mod itself is 100% free #i have no idea how the chat reporting affects people playing on older versions like me #but tbh i just prefer this anyways it's so fun #it's a little annoying compared to like. hypixel party chat. since you have to open a new menu and everything #but no monitoring (from hypixel OR microsoft) and the ability to keep our messages has been great #ALSO NO CHARACTER LIMIT I DONT THINK at least not as low as minecraft chat #chat #i just keep making posts recommending this mod bc it's been really fun #i like the messaging jkfhdjk #LAST POST ABOUT IT FOR NOW sorry i mentioned it so much #new layout got me excited jhfkd yall know im a sucker for app layouts #skycrypt themes my beloveds... furfsky navy blue menu i adore you.....