#me: im gonna make a small set...

[mxthtea]

jncidakjncdjksnkjcjndcanjcdani!!!!!!

this is huge !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#do you understand. how important this is to me #he's a sub but not just a sub. a sub that's into puppy play?!?!} #i can put a leash on him ?!?!?!?! #and call him a good boy?}!?!?!??! #im thriving. #the kid at the back vn #the snack that smiles back (goldfish) #btw it took too fucking long for me to figure out how to set the “he's a sub” text so that' why it's so fucking tiny im so sorry #anyways. #putting sol on his pillow princess arc #i need to take care of him !!! and tenderly kiss him!!!! and also fuck him !!!!!!!!!!! #ueuuehguhfudnsunfd #catboy n dogboy solidarity #im gonna make a small ref sheet for my mc of katb :3 #i thought of a cute ship name for him and sol and i think it's fun

[sweetsuenos]

Shabbat shalom!!! I have the weekend off and I got my first check today :]

#i bought some things earlier (face lotion + gift for my mom) #and then ordered us food when I got home #+ gave my mom money for house stuff/pet stuff #+wrote out my budget for work expenses (bus money more work clothes etc) #AND gave my mom money to wash #I'm glad the money I worked hard for is going towards our house and I like that my mom doesnt have to beg her bf for money #idk it makes me happy #i set aside a budget for a new backpack too bc the one im borrowing is a bit small so I'm gonna window shop #and after shabbos I'll buy one ^_^

[spaciebabie]

What's the storyline for your ocs?

nerdy straight A middle school student katherine quin and her pals realize that their government sucks ass and b/c they are impassioned naive youth, entangle themselves in a state of affairs that will stay w/them for the rest of their lives

more under the cut b/c i wrote a lot more than i thought i would kasfjksdfjksfj (i have big feelings abt this story)

i (officially) made the story when i was 14! all the characters are based off me and my experience 2 some extent (especially katherine i mean i made her bi, biracial, gave her a mole, made her like indie games etc). originally the story was going 2 have a happy ending, but as ive grown i have more of an appreciation for....well endings that are not so happy. im thinking i change it. it would make sense w/what happens in it anyway (the story of revolution is not as happy and triumphant as 11 year old me imagined when i first acted this out w/my brother. honestly like ive changed the story entirely 2 be my own but i still gotta thank my bro cuz the orig storyline that inspired it when we played legos 2gether was a conjoined effort and i borrowed many of the characters)! as im drafting it now, the story is not particularly happy lol

the story tells a sort of generational loop that katherine goes thru? if that makes sense? i wont go too much in depth b/c spoilers but its a story of history repeating itself again and again and the endless loops pain and suffering cause and how people are scared/too comfortable/too angry to change the cycle. i think that katherine being a history nerd in the midst of watching history unfold again before her very eyes grants her a certain point of view other characters dont have (except a few who have lived experiences). although this awareness will come later in the story when she's older

it will also touch on something young folks feel 2day where ppl frequently ask, "why is this happening today? havent we progressed?" and katherine will ponder that herself (although the situations that happen in the story are strictly to the story ajsfsjfd i cant talk abt and link real life tragedies it would be too much for me). and i think that as she gets older in the story and gains knowledge and wisdom from what she goes thru, she'll hafta bear this horrifying knowledge that the sands of time dont just erode the past, but the present and future as well.

i was not expecting 2 write this much KJSFKJSDJFKSJDF

anyway! i care this story a lot. its like my childhood and has grown with me as ive aged. im really compelled to make it the best it can be and i get a lot of imposter syndrome b/c i know the ideas i have and the story itself as a whole is good, but im worried my execution will fall flat. idk its kept me from moving forward w/it or talking abt it for years.

tldr; two can basically be summed up by this image:

are things going 2 get better? can they get better? questions i think about as i write and think thru this story.

#spacie splains #in 2020 when i first started making comics i sort of rushed it. it still needed more time 2 cook and develop in my head #especially since? i threw myself in2 it and had no idea where i was writing 2 and i feel like you can tell from the first 50 comics #the vibe was not what i wanted #so after grappling w/it for months i decided 2 start over #i want two 2 be good. its my passion project. its been my hyperfixation for years. i want this story 2 b good. #whenever i Type Serious my textccent goes away LKSJGKSDGHSJKG #I WROTE AN ESSAY SORRY LMAO #thanks for this ask! talking abt this helped tie up some of the loose threads in my head! #now that im thinking abt it....would two be considered an AU of the original story me and my bro did? KSJFKSLDFJSKFJS #OR IS IT A REIMAGINING?? TOP 10 QUESTIONS SCIENCE STILL CANT ANSWER #I DONT WANT 2 HYPE THIS UP I JUST REALIZED THIS MIGHT BE HYPING THIS UP #DONT SET YOUR EXPECTATIONS TOO HIGH #IM ONE GUY WRITING A STORY #im definitely gonna make some mistakes #i just really dont want this story 2 be surface level or juvenile or the typical 'lets save the world!' narrative #i want it 2 be more #idk idk idk i have too many thoughts in my small tiny head #i spent so long writing this ask holay molay #i spent 2 hrs rambling ong

[famewolf]

if im being honest and allowing myself to vent a bit about it ... another red flag was when the DM went 'wow i love the detail of your backstory but idk what i can do with it tho ):'

#[static] #it immediately made me feel bad for trying to make a character work with the aesthetic she had given us tbh #i could already tell she didnt seem to be super character story driven so i just made a pretty simple drifter-type #for a post-apocalyptic setting n such and made a group that tied into the whole over-arching premise #i also literally just did bullet points cuz i could tell she wasn't gonna want to read one of the backstories i usually do #and as someone who has mostly dm'd in the past i did my v best to make a character that was super easy for the dm to incorporate in any way #like a solid reason for being there a reason for wanting to adventure with strangers a reason for seeing the mission through no matter what #made a whole small faction and connected them to the overarching theme and plot in multiple ways #wrote down lore and npcs she could use for the faction if she didnt want to make up her own #like all the works and all i got was two sentences back about it ... one of them being like 'cool but i dont like the extra details' #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh #ok im done yelling now i just need to vent for a second #i feel bad for feeling kinda bummed about the experience because this is the first time i got to play at a physical table in years #and i know how hard it is to DM #but also when you come to the table with zero notes for the first session its ... probably gonna be disappointing jkfghdf #i DID have fun however because the party banter was hilarious and it was fun getting to hang out with ppl! #but communication between DM and players was not great #also let me be clear she did like that i made so many connections and hooks into the story and it helped her a lot #she was NOT interested in my character's past like ... jobs or npcs #but also u could just Not say anything about it and just be like 'sweet cool thanks for the info' LMAo

[plasticsandwich]

its really hard to use this site now knowing things will literally never change

#doesnt even matter if you report someone or the like. im still just gonna watch my friends get harassed for existing #and i suppose eventually it'll reach me too but like. whatever #i more or less just reblog art and other stuff i like. but a lot of people seem to be moving ship already #theres a few set things i want to finish here #some goals ive set for myself #once im done with all that then ill consider moving on #thank you all for the unimaginable kindness you've shown me. both recently and always #genuinely its unthinkable to me mksdfs #ive discovered that i enjoy sharing things with others #no matter how small sum of people come to see it i really really do i love creating #and making things #so its not like it'll be the end of the world!! i just need finish what ive already set out to do #diary

[sakebytheriver]

If Universal and Warner Bros were smart about this, they'd make a Barbieland addition to their parks instead of trying to build a cinematic universe out of Mattel toys

#ignore me #barbie #barbieland #im just saying itd prolly make them and mattel more money in the longterm to make barbieland a real place parents can bring their kids #i feel like theyd prolly make bank on merch sales and tickets #barbieland roller coaster? barbieland ride thats a recreation of her car that takes you on a tour of the barbie neighborhood? #barbieland ride thats based on her dreamhouse that takes you on a longass tour of the set and props till you get to the pool slide? #itd prolly take a small fraction of the overall net gross this movie will make to create this park #and then the park itself will be a hotspot for years and years #i think the cinematic universe will prolly get them some short term gains but its gonna cost them more in the longrun #whereas this would be a sink hole at first before returning tons on the longterm investment

[dexaroth]

i cant believe the day but i finally got a full tower pc. bought it already built and at a considerable discount of some 320 dollars off. its fucking huge and theres so many things going on inside... i was initially planning on choosing the parts myself but finding the graphics card was so hard and everyone else convinced me to just buy it built and honestly? good. id probably have fucked this up so badly by myself

i cant use it yet bc i took too long to buy the monitor that was also on sale and now its regular price -_- tho i managed to find a discount used one for now. well see how that goes since ill get it tomorrow. i tested it on out living room tv and it had some kaspersky thingy open and like thats so cute. i hope they left some treats in the browsing history for me to search through before i wipe it clean

#its a hexer case and wouldnt you guess the front has a hexagonal pattern. so pretty.. #it came with 3 fans installed there too that have a cmyk color style to them and it looks quite neat. im thinking of buying some leds to pu #inside the case to go with my keyboard tho idk if id go that far tbh (< gamer rot is setting in. im not immune to pretty lighting..) #its also got a lot of unused space inside. im thinking of making more sculptures to put in. though idk if thatd be safe for it #bc cold porcelain is glue and water. what if it evaporates inside and suddenly everythings covered in a glue film #i wonder if varnish would help? the transparent nail polish sure didnt do shit it came off like 2 days after sculpting the rw slug sleeping #which like yeah of course. its nail polish. but i didnt expect it to flake since all it does is sleep on top of my laptop keyboard #i need miniature glass cake cover tops to encapsule every sculpture inside for safety #looking at it still no wonder these are called towers gotdamn its legit so huge.. #it looks awkward tho bc i cant fully make it glue to the wall bc of the cables so its like. awkwardly a bit in front of the wall #im scaared as to how to tell if it ever gets too hot. on a laptop u just press ur head against the left half and feel how hot it is #i think im gonna need software for this.. sigh. tho maybe ill never get to that point since its supposed to be decent #AND its not 8 years old + the 3 fans and gpu fan and cpu fan. surely thats enough. the case even has space for more than that!! #the acrylic side reflects my keyboard too. so niceys. stimulation for my creature eyes #my desk is gonna be so fucked up when i have to organize everything too bc the one i have now is perfecly laptop-oriented #it sits on a custom wooden desk and the keyboard+drawing tablet sit below. but theres a shelf on top of my desk thats too low for the> #>normal monitor to sit to so i wont be able to use the custom desk. and i dont even know what ill do with my laptop either #finally a good change in my sad life routine fr. i cant wait to play watchdogs on this and overgrowth and other ones #AND LAGLESS KRITA SMUDGE ENGINE BRUSHES!!! AND DOUBLE BRUSHES. THEYRE SO LAGGY #A N D ACTUAL FULL HD NORMAL MONITOR. maybe that will get me to not draw in small canvases anymore #now im anxious i just want the day to be over to get the monitor tomorrow aouugh.. just bc i started coding my resources neocities page #dextxt #<the 'major life events' ((sorta)) tag returns. one for the books.. if something bad happens.. itll be here to remind me of the good times

[orcelito]

checked in for my flight tomorrow and i am hissing biting tearing @ the fact that they dont have a gate assigned for my flight yet

i know the general area since i know the airline im flying with but i DONT. LIKE. not being able to plan ahead.

#speculation nation #if they dont send me an email announcement i guess im gonna have to just look at the fancy tvs when i get there #i'll get back home someway or another. even if im grumpy about it #OH THO since i got so seriously anxious being in the isle seat for my flight here (bc being surrounded by that many people set off my #anxiety about being in crowds SO fucking badly) #i was legit considering forking over $31 just so i wouldnt have to experience that again (also bc i wanted to have a window seat to see #outside with better. bc i wanna take pics in the air this time) #BUT! it automatically assigned me a window seat. in the waaaay back unfortunately. but still a window seat #so i will hopefully not nearly have an anxious breakdown bc of being surrounded on all sides by people #no promises about my anxiety relative to general airport things! but at least i wont have to deal with the being surrounded. #plus! window seat! that'll be nice #i dont get claustrophobic in the sense of small spaces scaring me. i rather like hunkering down in a little corner. #i just dont wanna be absolutely surrounded by people like that again haha. ha.. #gonna have to wake up way too early tomorrow to get to my flight in time. and then im gonna lose two hours :/ #on top of the time on the plane. but it's ok fire emblem worked very well for making the plane ride pass quickly #so i imagine it'll be the same for this one. MAN plane ride is so much nicer on my nausea than car rides. love that for me

[perenlop]

i’m sorry did they actually just say “lmao ash can’t possibly be wanting to actually use oshawott in this league battle, i bet it’s his throwaway for this round” as a quick gag. damn the anime really did shit all over team oshawott while it was airing

#snivy: got a really good personality and is consistently shown to be one of the better battlers while also being a good character #and its evolutions are also shown to be extremely competent and terrifying in the anime #tepig: got a really good abandonment trauma story (if rehashed) that was consistently handled well and is considered to be #one of ash's best pokemon in this gen #oshawott: lmao this thing fucking sucks. imagine ash actually using it and it being good. cringe. #isnt it also hilarious when we show it being beat up all the time. isnt it funny that its like a romancer and it starts all the conflicts #and the pokemon consistently agree its the most annoying and worst team member and make it the butt of every joke #even when we set it up to have some sort of good payoff we rarely actually do that bc we gotta keep the Funny (not funny) #also we're gonna debut samurott late in the anime and it's going to one of the worst recieved characters #im a little annoyed can you tell. #also im just realizing that they maybe added palpitoad so ash would have a ''legitimate'' water type to use this gen #i dont exactly have proof for that but suddenly im getting that vibe. suddenly i like that palpitad even less #echoed voice #pokeani lb #even as a kid i remember the way they treated oshawott upsetting me. especially in decolore they basically just make it piplup 2.0 #where the joke is ''ha ha we beat up the small blue thing all the time and its funny bc its small and cute and its edgy to do that'' #au where oshawott like. actually had that arc in operation tempest that i mentioned earlier #i like all thte unova starters im glad the other two at least got decent rep in the anime but the way they treated oshawott #literally like inspired ppl to say i was stupid for picking oshawott bc ''its weak and dumb in the anime'' #like. man justice for oshawott

[grumpyfaceurn]

anyways is 35 too early for a midlife crisis? asking for a friend

#i'm just having this overwhelming sense of #this isn't what i expected my life to be #this isn't what it was supposed to be #in so many ways big and small #and the terrifying suspicion that if i want to find a glimpse of happiness then i must accept that instead of dreaming of what could have be #*been #to let go of the 'I just need to get through this week' #and to accept that life is sometimes just this endless slog of work and dishes and laundry and the fucking litter box #day after day after fucking day #like #if i want to make clothes that look nice on me #then i need to work with my actual measurements and not off of somethign 2 sizes smaller #even if that sometimes feels like so much lipstick on a pig #yeah idk im really down on the whole body thing right now #covid left me with no appetite for two weeks or so and then it came back with a vengeance and ughhhhhh i guess yes set point theory is right #though i will also admit that i'm using food to fill some other empty spaces in my life right now #anyway yeah the trousers i was gonna size up - the fabric looks kinda shit anyway with so many threads pulled out by cats etc #everything is a fucking symbol these days huh

[asexualjedi]

Being like yeah my mental health isn’t that bad haha. Like I wish it were better but the depression isn’t that bad.

*sees how worried my family is about me*

Haha not going to think to closely about that haha maybe the just learned what depression was haha. Or realized I wasn’t joking before about depression I’m not haha in a worse place than normal

#this is mainly a joke #I am doing a lot better than I was a month ago #I’ve talked with my doctor we’re gonna see how I feel the next week and if I need to up my dosage at the end of it #also I looked up my dossage and im on the maximum? rn?? which is weird I always thought 20 of lexapro was like kinda well not low but medium #they say in clinical settings it can go higher which I go? like if im hospitalized or just if a doctor prescribed it what the fuck u mean #Mayo Clinic website #Anywyas I just idk. maybe it’s bc I’ve been living with my family in Such close quarters before when I lived with Bradley he was barely in #the apartment and always at mitchis and in high school thetr wrte 2 other boys to worry about so when Covid happens #my dad got front and center seating to my chronic depression and now bradley is getting it now that me mitchi and bradleu live in the same #small house #whcih it’s nice. to be seen most of that was a joke it’s not that bradleu ever did anything but it’s nice to like see mt dad understand my d #depression isn’t like. it’s not gonna go away with a magic wand I’m just a little sad or whatver I feel validated like #I just thought from the outside these changes in behavior was kinda funny but it does make me feel loved

[transgothicgenre]

i really like mole because it's like. it's about a lot of things. but one of the biggest parts to me is the paranoia . like. "i know what you want and you know what i want" is already so incredibly damning bc that's not how human interaction works so at least one of these parties is making assumptions. and then just following that line up with "information, information". again its the assumption bc neither party is saying with any clarity what the information is so they could be communicating on totally different wavelengths but there's still just that unspoken level of assumption. you know what i want. i know what you want. we don't need to specify at all. you know. i know.

#sorry im like. hghghhghj. march makes me weird #im also. god. i feel bad because i cannot be normal about this #no longer talking abt the goats btw feel free to ignore if youre not invested in my personal life #but ive figured out whats setting me off and its so strange #bc i thought i got over it. this is a thing of the past. literally nearly a decade ago by this point #there is not a single me that remembers it and those that do are seeing someone else's warped vision of it #but it's. a thing. and it's messing me up. and i can't stop it and it frustrates me #i tried to ask my brain to stop it and they explicitly told me 'you don't get to make that request'. #and like. on monday i thought they were deliberating about what to do but it seems like theyre not or if they are they just wont tell me #and its. sucks. cause i dont like being excluded from conversations in the first place #and then theres people talking about things that im not present for which is a large part of what is freaking me out #(i say large part. i mean a small part interwoven w the rest but i don't know for sure bc i literally don't know) #but theyre just. im not. nobody is telling me anything. and im all alone and im getting paranoid about it. so hence the moleposting #its just frustrating cause some parts are avoidable and others arent #like shes always going to know things we dont know bc thats the basic idea of it #but she doesnt have to lie. about it. and misleading. #i dont want to confront her but i get the feeling that at some point i will not be given a choice which is unfortunate #considering that's likely to be big and loud and public #and i dont like that theyre collaborating without telling us. when the informed consent is sus. but thats gonna stop soon #they said its gonna stop soon and i have no choice but to believe them bc i cant. do anything. if theyre lying #i will say i cant like. speak for all parts but some of them have been sliding me notes under the table so to speak and theyre on my side #so that's something #but i really don't wanna have to explain anything. especially not publicly especially not to her etc etc #aand im getting the headache again so that is a sign to stop. goobaba all i hope tomorrow will be better #post

[harvestmoth]

im sorry im loosing it over the possible possibilities of mirrors shenanigans

#originally this was gonna be like. an actual little mini comic thing but then i remembered those take time and effort #and i have neither of those so im just gonna post the first sketch thing of this and call it a day #anyways! i have unnecessary plot ideas of this small idea so uh #touka and nemu were researching mirrors and sent out iroha sakurako and felicia out to take a look around some of the warp mirrors #eventually iroha ends up getting separated from the others and goes looking for them #on the otherside of things past mel was exploring mirrors (after being told not to by both yachiyo and kanagi) and runs into #a particularly strong kanagi copy and tries to escape her by running headfirst into the first mirror she saw #and she ends up in a future kamihama where shes already dead #something something she finds iroha thinking shes a new magical girl and iroha knowing mel is supposed to be very dead #brings her to mitama whos set up shop at the mirror mansion for the day #mitama calls kanagi while iroha calls yachiyo and the rest of mel’s old team #and something something touka yells at them for causing a time paradox something something mel ends up only staying for about like a day #she goes back to her time and the rest of them reluctantly smash the mirror she came out of #this probably makes no sense but the mirror witch is very interesting to me right now #and this is just one of the many things that were thrown into my brain because of this #im not doing anything else with it that i’ll post though probably so uh #also not tagging this with main tags because i simply dont feel like it #okay goodbye

[tinyspringtrap]

catch me shoveling springtrap content directly into my brainstem for maximum serotonin production to fend off The Depression Spiral

#sassy says #as strange as it may sound it is very effective at keeping The Depression Spiral at bay #i dont understand why mind you #but im not about to question /anything/ that keeps my depression from spiraling #moldy rabbit man isn't the worst thing to induce contentment #there are far worse things i could hyperfixate on honestly especially with my track record of nearly setting things on fire #i have just a touch of pyromania. i fucking love fire. love setting things ON fire #havent done it in a good while though bc I have learned impulse control. #but god damn if setting a good fire doesn't just make me giddy u kno. #its the small things in life. #and now i really wanna set something on fire god fucking damnit #thinkin bout fire... #im gonna distract myself with overwatch and hope the urge to set a fire goes away lmao.....

[aaa-wyvern-called-zesty]

worldbuilding in vague terms and on large scales is like oooo I'm so smart oh wow I have so may ideas that are original or at least not mainstream yeah yeah I'm gonna make a setting to overtake Zelda and elder scrolls oh man lore fans are gonna fucking love all these useless little details and some smart person is gonna do the maths on how any of this will actually work for me oh yeah

and then suddenly it's How Do I Name Anything. Why Are There So Many Places And Objects. Is This Too Many Planets Or Not Enough. Is This Too Much Magic Bullshitting. How Much Do I Leave To Theory And How Much Do I Explicitly State

#anyway its fun to design a dream game/world setting and makes you appreciate how much work has gone into every fictional world ever #and its only taken me four years of idle developing to get to a solid solar systems concept #turns out trying to fit all of your deity domains/worlds into a single solar system is... hard? and feels too small?? #so all the major divines get their own system in a little stellar cluster that probably wasnt entirely natural #and once i have the basics of all this done i can go back to my sapient species and touch up their designs and cultures and stuff #if this project ever gets big enough to actually Make something out of it man oh man are the furries gonna love me #its me im furries i love creatures and beasts of human intelligence but in no way human appearance #fuck ya final fantasy cat people i want more peoples like monhun felynes around #if you make your completely-unrelated-to-humans species look like a human but with Animal Trait XYZ then ur a fucking coward/j #'this race is decended from dragons' then fucking make them look like it!! what kind of reptilian has collar bones and hips like a primate #give ur fantasy furbait race parralel shoulders and at least a semi horizontal standing position. make sure the teeth are accurate at least

[moonchopsticks]

uuuoooogghhh friend i invited out to drink with invited like 5 more people to the event and also asked to change it to karaoke and i have terminal can't say no disease so now i'm dreading going out to something i was looking forward to for weeks

#LIKE I KNOW its not his fault but uggghhhhh #it was originally gonna be a small chill thing for my late birthday and now it's an entirely different beast #which is FINE i'll still probably have fun i just am a bitch about many things. i'm not gonna hold a grudge over it. im not #im just tired and wanted to get drinks in like. a setting where i was more comfortable w the people there #but all the people there are localized to a club that i am on leadership in and the more non-graduates/non-close friends i invite #the less i can let go. personal motto in club settings is literally “no weakness” i don't relax there even if i don't show it. #like idk. i was excited about this for a while but now i'm mentally bracing myself to be overwhelmed until i get three drinks in me #eh i think im mostly a little pressed bc a few people that i didn't want to come are coming. but whatever #i think im overestimating how comfortable i'd be even beforehand. friend's boyfriend who is also technically my friend was also coming #and still is. and i am not comfortable being a person around him ngl #the most paranoid part of me is thinking that this is like. revenge for making the friend that's inviting everyone hang out with me #you wanted to hang? let me invite all the people i wouldve invited before i hung out with you #which is actually delusional but the hating myself grind never stops #it's literally whatever. like it's ten people total that's not even an enormous amount #and im genuinely excited to see most people there. like i'll have fun. i just need to be a bitch about it for a little #i'll delete this later. idk why i even posted this on my non-private acct :((