#meanwhile the fucking. thought journal posts or whatever are full of ''my suicidal ideation is getting stronger again-

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#vent #dont rb #love that my therapist told me to note down struggles in like. this thought journal thing on the app we do video calls through #and then he just #doesnt read it #and i cant manage to like. speak it into existence most of the time #writing it down is much easier. much more honest. bc im distant enough from it that i dont downplay it #so yeah anyway im just talking to this dude right #and hes asking me what we should talk about today #and im just like ''oh yeah well the usual. im just kinda stressed about school haha'' #meanwhile the fucking. thought journal posts or whatever are full of ''my suicidal ideation is getting stronger again- #-and i want to escape into a dense forest and live out the rest of my days in a hollow tree.'' #on some level the juxtaposition of it is just very funny to me #joon talks #delete later #sorry for this i just gotta write it out somewhere and i already had this app open lmaoo