#mellowgf

[everywhereverything]

I was tagged by @thejobutupaki to post 8 shows to get to know me 🫶🏻 thanks!

1. What We Do in the Shadows

2. Community

3. Stranger Things

4. How I met your Mother

5. Bob’s Burgers

6. New Girl

7. Buzzfeed Unsolved: Supernatural (does this count as a show?)

8. Regular Show

I tag.. @advventures @roxannaisbusy @mellowgf @tiredbtw

[promqueendyke]

celeste // strange 

#celeste lyrics #strange celeste #celeste #all caps lyrics #lyricsedit #loviely #niceaf #outcrying #mellowgf #cultheart #spilled ink #red aesthetic #redcore #lovecore #traumacore #actuallybpd #softgrlfriend #loveserum #heartbreak #typography #typoedit #red lyrics

[loveserum]

i keep cold when i talk about it. a few months is hardly enough time to keep you under my tongue, let alone let you swallow me whole. but i spent those nights waiting for you on street corners. laughing while you gave your ice cream order. learning to kiss your hard shoulder in the morning.

i try and take back the pieces; telling you about my dad. the early mornings, letting you meet my friends and make them laugh. it’s just the cut and dry consequence. the crack in the unspoken promises.

but. but. even with all the cold i try to keep. you had a smile that could’ve kept me.

#u know when like. #something couldve been good #but they fuck it up #so ur like? grieving something that doesnt exist #i got my mf feelings hurt #clown emoji baby #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #mine #4tray #loviely #mellowgf #poetry #poem #prose? #prose #idk

[pol-ar-ity]

So yeah, sue me for falling in love with your snore and the way you talk with your hands. It’s not like it was a conscious choice, like I looked at you one day and thought ‘huh, yeah, you seem like a good one to fall for.’ I didn’t wake up and miss your hair between my fingers suddenly - it grew over time.

Look. I want to get this right with you. You and your ocean blue eyes and crinkled forehead and gap between your teeth. You and a silky voice and hands that dance around my hips when I cook us dinner. You, you, you. If we’re gonna do this, I have to learn how to stop burning cities down and enjoy the skyscrapers for what they are.

It’s 3 am and you’re taking up the whole bed. You’re a light sleeper, but I don’t want to wake you up. I stay small and imagine what you’re thinking about. What that incredible mind has dreamt up. You are fascinating to me, from your pet peeves to your favorite color (lavender). Maybe you’re dreaming of me. Probably not, but I’d like to think so.

So this is how it goes. A delicate dance between not enough and too much. But believe me when I say that you are a chance I will never regret taking. The world is going to fall to pieces. I want you there with me when it burns down.

“it’s gonna hurt when you leave”

#poetry #poem #writing #love #crush #happy #4tray #deadwatered #loveserum #mellowgf #extrasad #weaksorry #localloveletters #thewordsyouneverunderstood #slugmother #prose #cute #excited #i have the biggest cruuuush #and i’m going to be his date at a public event! #like WHAT

[i-loveyou-more]

It hurts,but I’ll just pretend it doesn’t.

#mood #my writing #peachygoghh #plantysoul #peachisty #peachmum #4belle #4bella #4tray #mellowgf #roselove #goghflora #goghleaf #hey goghes #girlrose

[teenhearthrob-blog1]

#loveserum #weaksorry #emptygrl #roselove #goodnightsorry #trustissued #mellowgf #extrasad #extracold

[relentfull]

This is what you said but I don’t think you remember

#weaksorry #veincold #extrasad #loviely #loveserum #4marya #affectioms #euo #mellowgf

[hazyaffection]

this will break both of us

#aesquo #poetry #tumblr #loveserum #weaksorry #extrasad #lovehigher #mellowgf #loviely #we just started different college #in different country #and we both busy with works #and i miss him

[simpllicity]

And I will kill you with my kindness

until your guilt sets your heart on fire

and you will perish

red hot, black and blue

while I smile knowing that you’re feeling the same pain as I once did

I will break your heart for breaking mine

Simpllicity

#loving and losing you #mine #loviely #lovehigher #localloveletters #4belle #4bella #4tray #peachisty #deadwatered #mellowgf #spilled tears #spilled feelings

[dadfern]

fort lauderdale | 7.22.17

don’t delete my caption or self promote 

#mine #photographers on tumblr #water #digital #fourthell #crayoncrush #mellowgf #4tray #tearyplant #4bella

[c0smicinsignificance]

When I was eleven I stole my mom’s xanax Prescribed for anxiety Covered up as a solution for a pinched nerve No one told me the depth at which illness runs through my veins Too sensitive, too weak, too negative Anxious, depressed, paranoid– Terms never mentioned above a hushed whisper Sixth grade I swallowed pills that weren’t mine Surfed the internet on my iPod touch for different ways to deliver the chemicals When I was twelve I started snorting modafinal Lifted from my fathers medicine cabinet Too tired to handle with care Crushed between two spoons That year brought notebooks filled with masterpieces Written in languages I could not understand in the morning Thirteen brought study drugs My brothers adderall carrying me through an accelerated math program far beyond my capabilities The learning disabilities I was unaware of could not hold me down after a few blue lines At fourteen years old OxyContin was a lifeline to which I clung Surgery after surgery my mom was too busy recovering to manage her pills At school the vocab word of the week was insufflate Fifteen brought trauma as I led a pure life into my line of recreation She stole her mom’s pills too We took everything we could find Chasing a feeling she didn’t know and I couldn’t describe Sixteen brought weed and alcohol and Selling adderall in Spanish class To fund the steady stream of opioids and benzodiazepines I needed to keep my hands from shaking Heartbreak and new love came with seventeen A new love to share my passion with She blew lines of oxy off my ass on our first date And Rubbed the leftover powder on my gums Taught me to do blow off of CD’s in my driveway She carried a rolled-up dollar bill in her wallet Always ready for the next hit I loved her And she shattered me Eighteen ended the cycle and A new lover kept me high on marijuana High enough to let down my walls But not enough to stop the shaking Sharing bowls in the backseat of his car Blunt walks on the beach He hates when I tasted like cigarettes Antidepressants stimulants and downers With my name on them Rot on my nightstand As I try to make peace with an addiction recommended by a Psychiatrist

I don’t care if I’m damaged, honestly I think I’m just bored

#fidlar #inspired by a lovely fidlar song that I hope they play at the show next month :)) #tw addiction #localloveletters #slugmother #inkskinned #hazyaffection #big pharma #an open letter to addiction #mellowgf #wildfairy #adderall #xanax #oxycodone #oxycontin #relapse #benadryl #addiction #addict #AA #NA #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled ink #poem #poetry #prose #excerpt from an unfinished book #excerpt from a story i'll never write #excerpt from a book i'll never write

[maryaetlart]

how this shit went pt2

#1k #2k #poetry #loveserum #loviely #lovehigher #extracold #extrasad #mellowgf #complijated #roselove #4tray #4bella #4marya #honeylovur #hazyaffection #localloveletters

[promqueendyke]

sufjan stevens // fourth of july

#sufjan stevens #fourth of july #sufjan stevens lyrics #fourth of july lyrics #mystery of love #carrie & lowell #sufjan stevens lyrics edit #all caps lyrics #typoedit #typography #spilled ink #lyricsedit #carrie and lowell #poetry #tullipsink #loviely #heavensghost #softgrlfriend #loveserum #mellowgf

[moshfeghpilled]

HIGHWAYANXIETY (16/15)

#the actual finale #oR is it #mine #writing

[i-loveyou-more]

You didn’t love her. You just didn’t want to be alone.Or maybe,maybe she was just good for your ego.Or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life,but you didn’t love her.Because you don’t destroy people you love.

- Grey’s anathomy -

#peachygoghh #peachisty #peachmum #hey goghes #localloveletters #lovehigher #loviely #loveserum #4bella #4belle #4tray #mellowgf #roselove #deadwatered #latteclouds

[relentfull]

Things you said after you told me you were in love with me

#s #this is new #it's all going to be new #weaksorry #loveserum #loviely #4marya #4tray #extrasad #veincold #highschoolhandjobs #flowury #4bella #sadrosegrl #mellowgf