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cutthroatkindness · 5 months
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Hey,
I'm gonna be 100% brutally honest with you.
It's OK if you've done absolutely nothing; contributed nothing to anything, talked to no one, ect. Yes, even if you didn't get out of bed.
I see countless people tag or add onto posts things like "am I still worthy if __" "is it still ok to rest if __" and yes! It is OK to to the bare minimum or no minimum at all. 💛 You are still a living, breathing, thinking being and thinking alone takes energy.
Be gentle with yourself. 💚
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little-tiffany · 5 months
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Maybe the journey isn't so much about becoming anything. Maybe it's about un-becoming everything that isn't really you.
-Paul Coelho
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juicysock · 7 months
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Battling Depression
Battling depression isn't about if you can or if you can't. It isn't about waiting for your motivation to sprout back someday. You can do it, your motivation needs to be sowed and tended to and cared for properly.
If you don't have the energy to get up, find it in yourself to move your limbs around while you wake up. It'll take a bit, but it'll physically be easier to peel yourself out of bed.
If you don't have the energy to shower, find it in yourself to wash your face and hands.
If you don't have the energy to do laundry, find it in yourself to just toss in one or two outfits.
If you don't have the energy to clean the room, find it in yourself to pick up little things you know what to do with before you even think about it. Things like trash or trinkets that go on shelves.
If you don't have the energy to take out the trash, find it in yourself to tie off the old bag and set it aside to replace a new one. You can bring it out on your way to work or school the next day.
You'll make progress, slowly, and you won't realize. One day you'll look in the mirror while you're washing your face and go, "I want to wash my hair," so you'll get in the shower. Washing your hair will turn into standing under the warmth of the water because you won't remember how much you missed it. It'll turn into remembering the warmth you can give yourself. You'll wash your hair, and you'll finally have it in you to wash your whole body with it.
You'll be grabbing your one or two outfits and say, "wow, my other clothes haven't been worn in awhile. I can throw in a few more things," and you'll do your first full load of laundry since it got bad.
You'll look at how much cleaner that room is when some of the trash and trinkets are out of the way, and you'll want to know how nice it'll look when it's done. You'll get that room clean, it might take a few days, but you will.
You'll be tying off that trash bag someday, and you'll think how short of a walk it is to get it to the door. You'll finally bring it outside before you replace the bag.
One day, you will look in the mirror again, and you will see a person, I promise, as long as you don't give up.
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stevowie · 1 month
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Hi to all of you peeps :)
The new episode of my mental health & LGBTQIA+ Podcast has been created.
Topic: Fear of coming out and the chosen family concept. 
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pharaohsketches · 7 days
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mental health marker notebook #1 I am becoming weeds
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starchilddante · 4 months
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Something that's really helped me on my mental health journey is re-phrasing things so they don't bring up the invalidation I experienced.
My mom used to roll her eyes at me and say I was putting fancy words to things I didn't need and problems I didn't have. Because of this, sometimes I would actively refuse to take care of myself because I didn't want to be humiliated. But re-phrasing has helped with that a lot.
I'm not "calming down". I'm self-regulating. I don't need to "just take a break". I'm going to practice mindfulness for a few minutes. I'm not just enjoying a hobby or taking an extra-long shower, I'm practicing self-care. I'm not having a bad day or just feeling sad or worried. I'm suffering from mental illness and I deserve to treat myself like I am.
You wouldn't tell someone who suffers from chronic migraines that it's "just a headache" and that they're just "taking a nap".
You shouldn't let other people invalidate what you need to manage your illness, but you also shouldn't invalidate yourself.
I used to feel stupid or selfish for saying I didn't want to go out because people just thought I was being anti-social, and I started telling myself that too. But now I can tell myself that I am over-stimulated, and it's okay if I'm not in a state of mind to socialize. I'm doing what I need to do for my personal illness. And nobody is allowed to judge that. Not even me.
Anyway, just got done meditating after having a trauma nightmare and it helped tons
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badmimi · 6 months
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On Trying
People say “I love you. You know I’d do anything for you.” “Oh, so-and-so, I’d do anything for them.”
But I don’t think we know what this “anything” really looks like. Maybe you picture these vague, but heroic in their amorphous shape, feats of triumph. Harnessing your considerable will to defy an impossible or Sisyphean task. Slay a dragon, lift a car somehow, move a mountain, walk through fire, defeat Voldemort through the power of friendship - you get it.
We’re raised on legends, stories, magic and dreams. That is our kind of “anything”. And we mean it, we do. In the way that if life ever came down to that moment in the third act of a movie and you’re holding the bad guys off so your people can get out in time before you light a cigarette, hit the detonator in your lap and adios motherfucker for the sake of the ones you love? Yeah. We mean it.
But that “anything” isn’t all that relevant because nobody needs me to do any of that. For me anyway, self-sacrificing shit is a forgone conclusion, are you kidding? It’s best case scenario. Everybody lives, I can rest and nobody can be mad at me for being dead. (Because I’m a hero. Duh.)
And there are things to be done that Miss ‘I’d do anything’ hasn’t, in fact, done. Some things outright asked for and some things unsaid but so present in the room with us you can almost feel them hanging written in the air. Things that would change everything for a number of people I care about. Things that are fair.
My loves, I would do anything for you and these are the invisible things hanging in the room.
would you try?
would you wake up in the morning and go to bed at night?
would you take care of yourself and your personal space?
will you try?
would you take better control of this body and this home and have gratitude every day you get to have them?
can you try?
would you cultivate the agency you’ve lost?
will you address the avoidant behavior patterns that make so many of these bare minimum things someone else’s job?
could you try?
would you be present inside your body?
would you put the same energy you put into escapism into real life and right now?
would you stop spinning in your anxious, breathless, sticky, static shame about having wasted so much time so you can put that energy into starting?
could you try?
Trying is putting one foot in front of the other. Trying is a single step you just keep taking. That’s all it is. It’s a simple thing but it’s always conscious. Intentional. How can trying be more formidable than death itself? Death is supposed to be a nightmare that stalks us from birth. A shadow on the wall. Death is a thing that eats.
Maybe some of us lived in the dark and stopped seeing shadows? We’ve moved mountains just to be here and it’s caught up with us. We’ve been stumbling numbly down hallways just reacting to stimuli on autopilot and we forgot about taking steps on purpose. Flipping the intention switch of trying seems too hard. Impossible. Sisyphean.
This year I’m working on trying. I’m slaying dragons.
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itscristyb · 9 months
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Bring back the days where lying in the grass on a warm summers day and just watching the leaves rustle was enough. When sticking our feet in the sand and listening to the waves lap in was okay. When not everything had to be 'productive'. We are not here to tick off societies checklist. We are here to live. We are here to breathe in the moments of beauty and joy and wonder around us. To spend some days dancing in adventure and others melting into the world with nothing but the moment on our minds. We are allowed to simply ‘be’.
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cutthroatkindness · 6 months
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It's OK to be sensitive. It's OK to be easily moved to tears. It's OK to if you cry at happy things too. It's OK if you cry when you are angry. It's OK to be feel vulnerable. It's OK to feel vulnerable A LOT. It's OK to be scared. It's OK to be scared OFTEN. It's OK to love the little things. It's OK to feel so full of love that it's overwhelming. It's OK to feel intensely. It's OK to be soft. It's OK to be soft.
It's OK to be soft.
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princessliaa1 · 5 months
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day 6/30 • 30 day challenge - 27/11/23
🧠 - mental health
• journaled twice📓
• said affirmations
🏃🏻‍♀️- physical health
• stretched
• did treadmill for 30 mins
❤️‍🩹 - self love / care
• am + pm skincare
• planned my future bedroom
💻 - productivity
• wrapped my gfs presents
🎧 recommendation - that that by psy & suga
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today was pretty good, i ate healthy and had fun wrapping my gfs presents. today was a pretty chill day w lots of my fave ytbers and window shopping amazon lol. tomorrow i’d like to be more productive & motivated. also I think i’ll post tomorrow so be on the look out for that!
~ love, @princessliaa1 *ੈ✩‧₊˚
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chaotic-historian · 2 years
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I'm stepping out of my antidepressants (sertraline/zoloft) and have just hit a full week on the lowered dose, and I am Feeling Things again. The thing about SSRIs is that they help with the dark emotions, but they also take away many of the other ones, or take the clarity off them and make them blurry... the whole point is that the brain no longer has to struggle with regulating its emotions on its own.
Long story short, just spent an hour weeping about my childhood experience as a lonely, vulnerable autistic kid. And that's okay. That's normal. That's allowed. Withdrawals from SSRIs and other neuro meds are a real thing and can manifest in different ways, and it's okay to have them.
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stevowie · 26 days
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Hi to all of you tumblr besties 👯
Back with an interesting story about narcissism in the LGBTQIA+ 🌈 community. Hope you guys are doing well, if you are curious please check out this podcast, poured my heart and soul into this one ☝️
Lots of love 🧡 take care tumblerinas
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learningfromlosing · 4 months
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Omg??? So I have been terrified to work out because I just know that it's going to fucking hurt so bad because of my chronic pain but because of the pain I don't move around a lot and that makes it worse!!! And I've been on yt shorts and I just came across this guy who's doing like, beginner stuff for working out and when I saw it my ADHD ass was like oh my god that looks like something I'd do anyway when I have an energy burst?? And I tried it because it looked so low maintenance and I was SO SUS like NO WORKOUTS work for me I have always hated it and it hurts so bad and I want to be strong so bad like I was as a kid but I just lost it because of this pain. But this .. looks different like maybe I could do it it looks fun? And not hard? So I tried it and ???? It was fun? It was easy??? And i could ACTUALLY FEEL IT WORKING MY BODY and finally RELIEVING SOME OF THAT SHOULDER/NECK/AND BACK PAIN I CAN NEVER GET RID OF!!! it literally only took like 2/3 minutes because like hell fucking no I'm not going to be working out 10 FUCKING MINUTES no I can barely take my laundry to my bedroom. So I only did a few sets but it was so helpful I was flabbergasted . And I kept looking though his stuff...... Dude these are the easiest workouts I've ever done! I was like so ready to give up on the idea and try something else like yoga but it's like a mix of all of it! And it's SOOOO easy for me especially when I can barely hold my shoulders back on a good day and my posture needs a brace and it RELIEVES SO MUCH TENSION! I was maybe working out for like 15? Minutes? And that's like with lots of break baby I need to sit down for a second watch you do it and become comfortable with it. But still with all that in-between time and actually doing the workouts I was really getting my heart rate up and I could feel my muscles loosening up and I could feel the relief in my shoulders and neck and it was like I had a religious experience. I have never wanted to continue a work out I have never wanted to follow anyone on yt or anything that's doing that but this one is genuinely helping me and I'm ... Actually a little excited to try and do it everyday? To try and help me move around? And relieve so much of the pain I have and can't relieve without my medication right now.. And maybe even lose weight if I'm so brave? Become the strong person I was and have wanted to be? This is kind of super new for me like I'm 25 and I have really thought nothing was gonna get better for this because of my situation and it was just gonna get worse but.. this is so helpful.. I have fallen so far because of my illnesses and I have really not seen much hope for getting onto something that seems attainable and like could actually have a positive impact on my life. Something truly beginner that doesn't make me feel like I can't even do a beginner workout and give up. This is helping me so much and I'm honestly thankful for it. I actually.. think I want to try and do this more?
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starchilddante · 4 months
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Mutuals (and others who may know what to do), asking for advice because I genuinely don't know what to do.
I've talked about my childhood trauma involving a church on Tumblr before. It's rough. It brings back really bad memories and sometimes being reminded has caused flashbacks and panic attacks. I still have trauma nightmares, and I haven't even been gone for a year.
My Mom still goes to that church, with that man who specifically triggers me really badly. My little sister (she's 7) is in the Christmas play there and she really wants me to go. My family (including my dad who's not a part of the church) have been kind of pressing on me to attend.
I'm not sure what to do. I want to be there to support my sister but just thinking about stepping foot in there makes me feel really triggered, let alone actually doing it. The Christmas plays are cute and I can leave before anyone tries to talk to me but I'm afraid I'll either break down in tears and have a panic attack or get really really angry and beat myself up about it for ages.
I don't know what to do. I think my whole family will be disappointed if I don't go, and I know my sister will be crushed.
Help.
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