#mental heath

[starlight-bread-blog]

Tumblr is a place for people who love talking, but not to people.

#just tumblr things #tumblr things #introverts #introversion #introvert #mental heath #adhd

[eatclean-bewhole]

I don’t want you to just lose weight. I want you to build habits that keep you heathy physically and mentally for the rest of your life.

#health #healthy #goals #healthgoals #weightloss #inspiration #motivation #healthylifestyle #healthyliving #healthyhabits #habits #Longevity #Heal #holistic #holistic healing #holistic health #mindbodysoul #mental heath

[traumakid-hideout]

An episode of mania almost always always always starts out so euphorically, makes you feel like you’re on the perfect drug, makes your confidence and motivation sky rocket and has you romanticizing all the fun it baits you with. It feels so amazing, you feel like nothing can hurt you or get to you.

Then the irritability comes, genuine rage, such an uncomfortable and overwhelming increase in libido, dangerous impulses, social behavior to be humiliated from by the time you crash, severe sleep deprivation that disorients the fuck out of you the longer you go without it, without even feeling tired at all. But feeling completely out of control. And if it escalates, Lord help you. Hallucinations, bad paranoia, black outs, substance abuse (or relapse if you happen to be recovering), delusions, everything that could get you into a psych ward. It isn’t fun at the end and any pleasure you feel is completely illusionary.

The worst part is I still normally never want it to stop. Because the depression after, which gets so ugly and terrible the longer, more intense the mania is, is something I’m not looking forward to at all. That, and mania can really sometimes convince you that you love it. I’m not wanting to go there though, because I have a lot to lose. Even if I don’t lose anything, I’m tired of this cycle and just can’t afford to desire it anymore. So I’m managing where I can, but wow it’s just scary to watch it take you higher and higher into it, and further and further away from yourself.

This is precisely why I despise any sort of stigma toward bipolar disorder. It’s so misunderstood, misquoted, and mistreated. I just really want and need some help. My hands are so sweaty and shaky, my heart and my mind are racing, I can’t stop talking, I can’t eat. I can’t focus, I can only fixate. And it’s just so overwhelming already.

#actuallymentallyill #actuallybipolar #actuallyhypomanic #actuallymanic #manic episodes #mania #manic #manic episode #manic depression #manic depressive #mental heath #actually mentally ill #actually bipolar #bipolar mania #bipolar disorder #bipolar 1 #bipolar 2

[bpd-seikokimura]

You are allowed to take up space. You are allowed to feel comfortable.

#seiko speaks #mental heath #menhera #positivity #recovery #bpd #q

[sharpestasp]

"You don't have to set yourself on fire to keep someone else warm."

Here's the deal. Fire doesn't always start with lighter fluid, gasoline, or other accelerants.

Friction builds, slowly, gets a little warm, and you may not notice it.

By the time it actually puffs into a small flame, you got used to it. And maybe that flame is just an indication that you yourself need to fix something on your side, because it was a gradual flame, you see?

And then it is a blaze, and like with a lot of fires, tracing back the cause is not always 100% reliable.

After all, you didn't even notice the friction until too late.

#mental heath #personal awareness #mental health crisis

[catgirl-kaiju]

I wonder how many people don't realize I have an eating disorder because I'm fat. Just because I'm fat doesn't mean I haven't skipped meals, struggled to eat when I'm hungry, pushed myself to do excessive exercise that hurt me, binged after a day of not eating or barely eating, weighed myself multiple times a day, and counted calories obsessively. And just because I'm fat again, doesn't mean that I don't have relapses where I fall back into these habits over and over and have to pull myself back out. Don't judge the severity of someone's eating disorder by how skinny they are; all EDs have the potential to be life threatening at any weight.

#personal #eating disoder recovery #ed #mental heath #eating disorder #fat positvity #fatphobia #body dysmorphia

[bunnyseahorse-blog]

I don’t feel like my therapist is listening, so I fired him, and I don't even feel bad.

I have half a dozen serious mental illness diagnosis and medical issues. When I applied for disability I was approved in three months (usually takes longer from what I'm told) and almost immediately moved from their metaphorical “she might get better” to “she’s going to be receiving benefits for life” pile.

The doctor I saw from age 7 to 30 advised me not to drive because of my condition that causes me frequent fainting.

She suggested I not live alone because I have delusions, mood swings and sometimes need to be hospitalized. I saw this doctor for 23 years, and also went to other specialists that agreed with her. I saw her until she was retired.

My general doctor says that even though I am overweight she is pleased with my glucose and cholesterol levels. My old, and also my new psychiatrists agreed with her.

My parents say I can live with them and have support. They are actually creating an expansion on the house so I can live on my own sort of and still have them nearby. My eldest sibling is inheriting the house when my parents die and they will rent to me until I die. We don't always get along, but I am trying, and we are navigating our unique dynamic so we can make it work.

This new therapist I’ve been seeing keeps insisting I go off disability, get a job, move out of my family’s house, live alone, and lose weight. Because I’m too old to “mooch off my parents.” He made comments from the get go about my weight. I am overweight yes, but he's not a doctor or nurtritionist. I am not experiencing any health issues because of my weight, which is partly due to my medical conditions and my meds. He made a comment once that i should show some pride in myself and not wear a beanie to sessions "do something nice with my hair." He told me once my shoulders looked smaller and I must be doing better. I was thinking.... do I have fat shoulders too??

I am going to a session today to explain to him nicely that he needs to let me set my own goals, and also educate him on how my life really is. I don’t think therapists should require educating. If he doesn’t get it, I’m leaving the session but I’m giving it a shot anyways.

I’m scared and I’m angry. Wish me luck? I don't want to be a project for him. I want to talk about things in sessions that i need to, not what he considers on his own agenda.

EDIT: I went to the session and voiced my concerns about he got a little defensive, but eventually seemed to see what i was saying and switched his focus to what I told him my goals were. However... I wanted a therapist to help me work through my abandonment issues and trauma, not a life coach to push me. I think i might find someone with a different focus is good. (plus him getting defensive isn't a great sign to me) he also insinuated that my little sister, who he has heard off, never met and never examined, is mentally handicapped because of one of her birth parents. We've had her tested, and everyone seems to be saying she's very sharp and doesn't have what her birth mom has. He also asked what my doctor of 23 years even did for me. I was like... diagnosed me with everything I have? Oh but according to him, diagnoses aren't relevant. I have a condition similar to schizophrenia, and yes you should know if you have that....

Also... I signed something saying he could have access to the last notes of my previous therapist, since I have extensive history but he apparently never got it, never told me he didn't get it, and wants me to go through the process again. I feel like the office dropped the ball, because I signed it already.

I think it might be time to move on... I canceled my next appointment. I feel like I should be able to find someone who listens better, and is there to help me, not fix me into things I am not capable of. Having him insist I am wrong and lazy for excepting my limitations, after the long grieving process that came with becoming permanently disabled at 26, has been upsetting, because I keep doubting myself, even though I know I have done the right things.

#Therapy #Personal post #mental heath #disability

[positivitywithinme]

#self improvement #positivity #love yourself #inspirational attitude #motivation #positive mindset #inspiration #life quote #daily reminder #stay strong #you are loved #you are beautiful #inspirational life #mental heath

[thewolvesof1998]

Water Burial (Original Poem)

Trigger warnings:  -Mentions of Suicide, Death, and Blood. 

This is something I wrote after one of my many intrusive thoughts, at least they’re poetic sometimes. 

Ps. I’m doing okay at the moment no need to worry. 

Tagging some people who might be interested (Not 9-1-1 related so totally fine if you want to ignore this): @wikiangela @wildlife4life @alyxmastershipper @prince-buck-diaz @spotsandsocks @try-set-me-on-fire @jesuisici33 @heartbeatdiaz @bekkachaos @buddierights @forthewolves @911-on-abc @hippolotamus @hannah-ruth-990 @malewife-buck @i-ghostgirl @mrevanbuckley​ @sammy-souffle​ @chaoticgremlinwholikescheese​ @your-catfish-friend​ @eddiediaztho​ @exhuastedpigeon​ @911onabc​ @shitouttabuck​

Water Burial- Original Poem by Me

Slit my wrists and lie me down on the ocean floor to die At least then my blood will only stain the sea red for a few moments Until a strong current comes to wash away the guilt

And I’ll just lay there, underneath tonnes of salt water Flesh melting away until my skeleton is revealed Let the fishes come and make a home of my bones Unlike I was able to.

Maybe I’ll become like those sunken boats Born of tragedy But finding a second life rusting away on the ocean floor Let something good come of my death

But if the fishes decided, like me, that my body is toxic Let it sink into the sediment and be covered by time No need to dig me up Nothing new here,  Just another sad person from the 2020s.

If you need help please reach out. 

#thewolvesof1998 writes #poem #mental heath #Depression #poetry #tw: sucidal thoughts #tw: death #tw: blood #tw: suidice

[justdonotaskmewhy]

Extremely unpopular opinion from a person with bpd

your mental illness can be an explanation for your actions, not an excuse

If you have enough introspection and consciousness and you are able to tell when you made someone upset or uncomfortable or hurt you have to say sorry and try to avoid this behavior

you can’t use your health as a “crate blanche” for whatever you want to do

sure my bpd can explain why I’m yelling at my friends or why I overreact and jump to conclusions. does it excuse me? no, and it never will

especially if we are talking about behavior towards retail workers, teachers and social workers

#bpd #mental heath

[starlight-bread-blog]

One of the symptons of ADHD is emotional dysregulation MEANING I get to tell people "I love you so much I need pills to manage it".

#adhd symptoms #emotional dysregulation #I did this with my family #i won't say this to anybody else #until we're in a 3 year relationship #adhd awareness #adhd problems #adhd brain #actually adhd #adhd things #adhd #mental heath #nerodivergent #nerodiversity

[eatclean-bewhole]

#stress #wellness #stress reliever #stress reduction #stress relief #stress management #stress less #mental heath #balance

[danpuff-ao3]

Poor mental health? Try making a cozy spot on the floor! Your mental health will still be poor, but at least you’ll be cozy.

#danpuff stuff #mental heath #cozyplaces

[dragonciphering]

Parents please remember that your words have connotations and consequences for your child.

I will try to keep this short but it so fucking important. And this so hard to put into words because I have know that trying to bring this up to my parents (who I currently live with) would end up in nothing but an argument and it being brushed of. So I never bothered on how I would. ~~~

Do not tell your child: “Because I am the adult and you are the child…” Or “….That’s because you are the child and I am the parent.”

One time my mom was arguing with my brother about how he is addicted to his computer and he pointed to me and asked: “Well why is she on her phone?” (I was listening to music to try and wake myself up quicker for school) And you know what she said? She said this as if it was an unarguable fact to make him back off: “Because dragonciphering goes ballistic when I try to take it away.”

And that hurt. It was first thing in the morning. Do you understand? I get upset because I don’t think that a parent should be able to make something of mine go away just as a way to keep me in line. My phone to them is a gift from that has a receipt that can be used at anytime. And when I turned to my mom with tears in my eyes and asked why she said that all she said was: “It’s true, I mean, you’re getting upset at the mere idea of it.”

Then I said something like: “And why is it okay for you to talk to me this way? Your child? Because I know that if I talked to you this way you would get pissed and tell me not to talk to you like this.”

Her response? “Yes because I am the parent and you are the child so that wouldn’t be okay.”

~~~

Do not tell your child: “Just because you think that…” or “Just because that’s what you think…” Because that is telling your child that their thoughts on this matter or what they believe in and are taking action on is completely irrelevant and wrong. Do you know how many times I tried to bring up to my dad that yelling at his children about an issue they are having doesn’t help and then to have him say this? It’s soul crushing. Because it makes you realize that this person doesn’t care for your thoughts on this matter and you wait till he’s done yelling and talking at you about all that you’ve apparently done wrong and then wait till night time to cry yourself to sleep. When I realized that this wasn’t normal I started to try and distance myself from my dad. His response to noticing? “Hey why are you acting all weird? You’ve been brushing me off. Did I do something that you think was annoying or something?”

~~~

I understand that this is not my normal posting. And I apologize to my mutuals and followers who may see this rant…but this is very important and I decided to bring it up.

Abuse comes in different ways and it’s important to make that known. And to you my fellow victims of ageism I say to you:

Don’t give up. You matter. I’m so sorry that this has also happened to you. There are people who love you and understand your pain.

#abuse tw #trauma tw #emotional abuse tw #ageism #important #mental heath #tw vent #vent post #personal vent #I will admit that I wrote this while being very angry. #tw emotional manipulation

[glassofb33r]

It's hard to get up sometimes

#jackdaw #corvid #crow #ventart #mental heath #pen and ink #art #bird drawing

[thegreenwallrabbit-blog]

How owls are weighted

if anyone is feeling down here is this adorable photo from the University of Minnesota Raptor clinic on how they weigh owls

Owl burritos with specially designed cloth wrapping with mice on them 😍🥹🤣

#birbs #owls #cute #Cute animal #Mental heath #happiness