A selection of short stories spanning the length of Multi Track Drifting, in between, and up to its forthcoming Sequel, Trolly Problem.
Some focus around what happened during other events, focusing on other characters, and bridging the gap. Contains Manga Spoilers.
Words: 17295, Chapters: 5/?, Language: English
Series: Part 2 of MTD AU
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
Categories: M/M, Multi
Characters: Class 1-A, Midoriya Izuku, Shinsou Hitoshi, Iida Tenya, Todoroki Shouto, Hagakure Tooru, Gran Torino
Additional Tags: Self-Indulgent, Canon-Typical Violence, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Survivor Guilt, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Shinsou Hitoshi Replaces Mineta Minoru, Shinsou Hitoshi is in Class 1-A, BAMF Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku Has One for All Quirk, Shinsou Hitoshi Has One for All Quirk, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Therapy, Polyamory, Mutual Pining, Iida Tenya is a Good Friend, Todoroki Shouto is a Mess, Protective Gran Torino, Everyone Is Gay, All of Class 1-A is Queer, i don't make the rules, foster parenting
I had possibly the longest convo I have ever had with my brother today. It was like 4 hours. It started off with him denying I have autism, but quickly led to a rabbit hole of so many things. At one point he said "if youre autistic, then so am I because I have all those symptoms you described" and I was just like well if the shoe fits??? It IS genetic. 😂
Tw: gaslighting mention, trans denial, implied suicide, abuse, attempted murder, idfk what else..
And he swears I didnt have pain growing up in my clubbed foot until I was in high school. He ended up admitting at one point that everything I said was true...but my timeline was off???? He was so hung up on it too. I was just like >.> you better not be gaslighting me about my own memories. After a while of people not taking me seriously or doing anything to fix it, I stopped telling people it hurt. It's that simple.
He also said that he knew, and my mom and grandma knew but denied, that I was trans early on in my childhood. Like thanks for telling me now??? Maybe it would have been helpful to do that when I was so distressed I admitted myself into the psychiatric ward! Or better yet, when I was a teenager struggling with my identity??
At one point he did mention that my uncle's abuse of him (and the whole family, tbh) made it so he needed to "toughen up and be a man" so that was why he insisted I stop being sensitive or over emotional all the time, because "it was all I knew".
He insisted that I was always distant and pushed them away when he always wanted to be my best friend. I told him the only message I got from him was that he didnt like who I was and I needed to change. And eventually, I gave up on trying to be anyone but myself.
Of course, talking about my uncle, he said that he and my other brother actually attempted to kill him once. I thought that was pretty funny because my cousin and I talked about and attempted to do similarly with a different method. Of course, we all failed, because that fucker is still alive somewhere. Don't know where, but I don't care to know.
I was really fucking surprised because I mentioned that I never understood why my uncle didnt beat me like he did everyone else (he just made me watch) and he actually said that him and my other two brothers told my uncle that they'd kill him if he ever touched me. I said thank you cause I didnt know what else to say...? I mean..I just thought he knew the real way to hurt me was through hurting everyone else. Especially since I told him I didnt give a fuck if he hit me by the time I was 15.
This was..a lot. We parted on ok terms, for the most part, but I don't know where to go from here. It isn't like I don't love him or whatever, I do in my own way, but I don't know if this means anything. And he's still an ignorant idiot about a lot of shit. And I can't help but still be pissed about how he made me feel growing up. He didnt even apologize for it? Just excused it with abuse. Like not everyone who is abused turns into an asshole. I sure as fuck didnt, did I?
A small, very small, part of me though, is happy to know it wasnt all in my head about the autism. Because I DO have issues remembering my childhood and I have a lot of repressed memories (not that I told him that..). But he admitted it was all probably true..just that the timeline was different and I was off by a few years?? Like..that doesnt mean it didnt happen..and I'm able to remember SOME things that I know for a fact are true and can pinpoint the time.
I love doing research and I wanna start making big posts about mental illnesses that include things to do/say and what not to do/say to people who struggle with that illness. Send me asks or private messages to let me know which mental illness post I should do and I'll do it! I already have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) made and I'll post it later.
“... The debate was wearing me out. Once you've posed that question, it won't go away. I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't. Anything I thought or did was immediately drawn into the debate. Made a stupid remark—why not kill myself? Missed the bus—better put an end to it all. Even the good got in there. I liked that movie—maybe I shouldn’t kill myself.”