I too was a victim of the depression pandemic
The one that does not eat at ur body
But the one that eats at ur soul
The one that sickens your mind
The one that does not require medical assistant
But urges u to be ur medical assistant
Any means necessary it says
Any means necessary even if it means death
To be continued
Just had to write that down
‘’This fall has been capricious companion.
Drops of water drummed the rhythm,
took away even meaning from all else music.
Pace of life subsided with unsuitable medicines.
Just as quarter of a year would
have become kind of arrhythmia.
Momentary rays of the sun sieved
from cloud crevices,
formed bars around me and
stopped the pulse of my everyday life.
Familiar routines have
slipped out of orbit.
The new rain flushed away all that,
what the sun did not have time even dry.
Left only drops of melancholy on the skin
and turned all colors of the rainbow into gray.’’
I think this snippet of my conversation with my sister adequately sums up both my mental state and taste in male companion
anxiety is you gaslighting yourself
My mental state started like a lit match.
Bright, active, ever so excitedly consuming.
Right now, I’m burning ashes.
Over and over again, fueling something that no longer exists.
There’s nothing to hold on to.
This flame too will die.
- JM, 2020
Sometimes I wake up with so much hate in my heart that I could feel it pumping through my veins.
Han sentido esa madurez en la que ya no te pasas todo el día pensando en el chico que te gusta? Es ahí donde te das cuenta que eres lo bastante capaz para estudiar una carrera.
Da miedo… Porque significa que estás creciendo y que ya no tienes los mismos intereses que antes… te das cuenta que de cada momento se aprende algo, sea bueno o malo. Ya no te interesa llamar la atención de algún chico, te interesa tu futuro y las metas que quieres llegar a cumplir.
it may look like i’m paying attention in class but mentally Peach Gardens from Mariokart DS is playing on my head on a loop
my mental state is a bouncy ball bouncing at lightspeed everywhere but contained inside a crystal ball that seems sturdy enough but has that one little crack in the back that you won’t even notice until the whole thing explodes
worth mentioning that this scenario includes sound
[mental state: feeling not so good, not saying more | only rebbloging comfort things ]
When BNHA/MHA lyric pranks represents the level of entertainment I can handle rn
I stared ticking recently, for currently unknown reasons, and my mom hates the fact that all of them are related to anime
And the disappointment I get when i tic ‘bungee gum’ fucking hilarious
I’m not sure what this says about my mental state but for breakfast I just had a raw potato
Honestly wasn’t half bad
I’m not having a breakdown, I swear I’m fine.
This is just my usual state or something.
i hide it all with a smile….but i wish someone would notice i’m not alright
i feel so alone