#mental state hospital

[latenightsundayblues]

Lawrence squirmed uneasily; the mere sight of the individual across the room had initially managed to knock the air out from his lungs and squeeze his heart mercilessly, a breath held tightly within his chest tinted with the taste of bile. His lips parted absentmindedly when his vision finally cleared itself seconds later and allowed him to take a good look at the man, who, unsurprisingly, was definitely not Adam Faulkner. It's just the new janitor. Gordon wasn't sure whether the pang he felt afterwards was one of relief or disappointment.

Although the uncanny resemblance still disturbed him greatly, he could now identify various signs that should've tipped him off to that sooner (other than Adam being, well, dead); slightly longer hair reaching the base of David's damp neck-- Gordon had managed to catch his name in the tag on his uniform--, a gnarly red line ripped along his cheekbone altering the path of the sweat drops rolling down his forehead and a sarcastic tone of voice without the intention of lightening the mood, but tainted with a certain degree of hostility. Gordon would've risked calling it defensive, even.

He tried not to think too much about the stranger as he drove back to his lamentably empty apartment, to no avail.

#DAVID AND GORDON MEETUP LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO #this thought always made me sad #i like to think David is just like. kind of a dick. ESPECIALLY after escaping the reverse beartrap #the thought of gordon starin at david the entire day at the hospital and subconsciously trying to get close to him bc he reminds him of ada #only to get horribly rejected because of david's own paranoia and terrible mental state after what happened to him #also gordon being a survivor as well would basically turn him into a walking reminder of David's traumatic experience #TEARS. IN MY EYES. #lawrence gordon #saw fanart #saw 2004 #chainshipping #saw 0.5 #adam stanheight #adam faulkner #adam x lawrence #lawrence x adam #latenightsundayblues art tag

[shiningshard]

Patrick is admitted into a MENTAL HOSPITAL IN THE COMICS???

#american psycho #patrick bateman #WHY DIDNT ANYBODY TELL ME TILL NOW #is it obvious i havent been able to get my hands on the comics #can someone pls show me where exactly it states hes in a mental hospital #at least hes getting treatment????? #i guess?????

[falling6in6the6black]

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The mental health system is a 𓆩♡𓆪 fucking joke. 𓆩♡𓆪

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#I fucking hate our system #so glad I switched treatment centers last time they ever fuck with me & waste my time #rant #prob delete later #text #fallingintheblack #Love how therapists can decide not to show up yet I'm the one worrying about paying a no show fee & having my time wasted #mine #dont even get me started on state hospitals #no edginess intended just the truth #actually mentally ill #bpd #cptsd #mdd #ptsd #black and pink #vomitposts #literally fuck the system #falling6in6the6black

[magma-frog0]

Older Leon would DEFINITELY be your sugar daddy, he’d give you the nicest gifts even if you don’t need them. He also sends you things whenever he’s on missions or anything that makes him not able to see you for a long period of time. He has money to spend so why not spend it on the person he loves the most?

#resident evil leon #Leon S Kennedy #sugar daddy Leon #I need to go to a mental hospital #why did my parents pull me out of therapy? #sorry I’ve been gone I’ve been out of state #also my bestie is moving #i’m having a breakdown

[chirsu]

Page Five of When I Say No, I Feel Guilty by Manuel J. Smith, Ph.D. that I bought at a thrift store.

I am using the cut-up technique and going page by page.

#dave.txt #she speaks #poetry #self help books #When I Say No I Feel Guilty #Cut-up technique #coping #depression #This is about being discharged from the mental hospital when we were 14 and returning to school #And not being able to heal because we were too embarrassed to open up to our friends about the reality of our mental state #We were too busy thinking about how we must be overreacting. #Silently trying to piece ourselves together like a puzzle because we're afraid of using the wrong words and getting called fake #And for years we doubted our transness because we couldn't.. Tell if we were faking it for attention. Bc that's what it always feels like #It all feels so fake because every detail about ourselves feels like a grab for attention. #Just thinking about being depressed felt like we were making a mockery out of ppl who were actually depressed and suicidal #I'm sorry for being so emotional about this piece. For trauma dumping. I'm also sorry if you're reading this. And sorry that I was scared. #I am okay I'm just really tired. Tired of being sick. Being sick makes me cry. I feel so useless. Like a lump. #I am curling up in embarrassment #dear diary #vent

[crumbleclub]

baby mike, not long after the Bite

different/no background versions + pencil original under the cut

#brought to you by the rp im in rn #idk what the first background is. trying smth new ig #ask away abt this mikey's mental state bc it is not great but he's headed into repressing zone to avoid spontaneously combusting #he's so fragile and fun to write #this is very specifically the day before he turns 14 #so he's literally a baby baby #it's so hard to draw him younger and still recognizable since his main thing in my art is just very sharp features #but look at him! he's angry and confused and trying to convince himself that his brother is still in the hospital somewhere! #fnaf #michael afton #mike's actual art

[birues]

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#having adhd is sooo. #i cant find a fucking appointment from a state hospital so i have to go to a private one #bc im out of meds #and they're sooooo expensive #why do i have to struggle this much just to get my fucking meds #and the govt stopped counting adhd as a chronic disease i hate it sm here #and i feel sooo guilty bc my parents are spending shit tons of money for my mental health #i hate my fucking brain sm #tbd #bc i have to pay money to private clinic i have to lessen the frequency of my therapy sessions #legit shit #i hate it sm here #negativity #legit been a shite place lately

[byanyan]

byan's distrust and outright fear of hospitals is something that's come up a bit in threads and muse discussion, but i've never really talked about why they hate them so much?

for one, they have a heavy distrust of any authority figures, including doctors and nurses. pair that with the fact that being treated in the hospital puts them in a vulnerable position and not in any control of things going on around them or to them, that's already enough reason for them to hate the place. and YET... the thing that really traumatized them and created a proper fear of hospitals happened when they were 12. after running away from an abusive foster home, which put them back on the street as they had no where else to go, byan stole from the wrong person and wound up severely injured in the resulting altercation. someone found them, called an ambulance, and they woke up in a hospital bed. using clues from the things they'd had stuffed away in their backpack, the hospital managed to find byan's identity and, from there, found their family - or, the foster family they were still technically under the care of. when the nurse told them that their family had been called and was already on the way, byan panicked and pleaded with her to not let them in, but... of course that didn't work. she thought they were merely afraid of the consequences of running away and being out so late in such an unsafe part of the city, brushing off their concerns to assure them that everything would be fine. it wasn't.

going to the hospital resulted in the family they fled from not only finding them, but dragging them back to that terrible house which became much, much more difficult to escape from after that. and that's all they can think about anytime they're in one of those buildings, be it in a bed or simply visiting.

#'maaaa grey's posting depressing headcanons on the dash agaaaaain' #sorry (: being in a rough place mentally has been really fleshing out some of the darker parts of byan's childhood in my brain ok #this is something I've had headcanoned for months now tbh. only just writing it down rn while I'm on this depressive kick #this isn't the only Unpleasant experience they've had bc of hospitals either - just the worst one #they've also had their drug use revealed to foster families against their will to..... mixed results. some Very Bad. #they Do Not Trust nurses or doctors to genuinely have their best interests in mind. #and any time they find themself waking up in a hospital bed all they feel is that same ice cold chill of dread and fear that they did at 12 #this is also why they have a tendency to try to escape hospitals regardless of what state they're in 🙃 #anyway....... #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ HEADCANON ⋮ DANGER IN THE FABRIC OF THIS THING I MADE. #child abuse cw #ask to tag

[jewishfalin]

I fucking hate Oregon it's filled with white goyim who pride themselves on how progressive the state is, when in reality they are just ignoring, speaking over, and driving out minorities.

#filled to the brim with performative activism #its fucking sinister #did yall know its also rated rock bottom in states regarding the treatment of mental health for young people? the 51st. below 50. #and I have first hand experience of that lmao. twice. and I can tell you its fucking awful for jews especially #twice hospitalized that is #literally got abused starved neglected drugged with g-d knows what #definitely not just something 'for anxiety' it was a fucking heavy ass sedative #anyways i hate it here and i have got to get out

[zombilenium]

Nick Bolton Photography

#art #photography #abandoned place #abandoned #hole #hole in the wall #urbex supreme #urbexdecay #nick bolton #urban explorers #mental institution #urbex #northern state hospital #america #washington #urbexamerica

[siren--squid]

PLAYED ALL OF SOULSCAPE LAST NIGHT...... RAMBLING SPOILERS IN THE TAGS...... :D

#spoilers in tags #BRO THE FUCKING MEMORY SCENES TOOK ME OUT #Chase deserves SO MUCH BETTER than that woman. Im so glad they've separated. i feel so bad for the kids holy crap #i hope they get a happy ending with their father. #Jackie my sweet boy. the dysphoria battle made me cry. those bullies are shit and beating them was SO GOOD. hero boy deserves confidence #MARVIN THAT SASSY CATBOY OH MY GOD...... his memory was such a fun segment to play but ABSOLUTELY painful otherwise #I LOVE HIS FRIEND THO OMG?? #hate those three money obsessed guys tho. would fight them again #honestly i have no words for Henriks memory. that was absolutely heartbreaking. i cried the entire time #the baby crying. the visual of his grief. how shattered and vulnerable he behaves the entire time. #the distorted bloody hospital was such a good representation of that mental state. the graves were so sad #joline showing up was the most heartbreaking and somber thing ever. doc needs a big hug #that was distressingly amazing. #Also cried over Bings memories. that was beautifully done and terribly sad #i understand deleting that memory. and the dialogue at the cabin door absolutely broke me #i knew that forest grave was important. the connections were so obvious. #ROBBIE MEMORY WAS ADORABLE THO. love that empty room scene #true anti also made me cry a little. poor kid just wanted a life. he deserves that so much #the ending did feel a little rushed though. like.. not satisfying in a way? there wasn't enough done it feels like. #the endings always feel rushed tho i guess?? just more with this one. im excited to see if anything ever has a satisfying conclusion #LOVED playing as cat Marvin. vent maze was good #i liked getting a whole map of the place as well?? but sometimes it feels like easter eggs over power plot #they're so fun and so good but also bro im here for story and the amount of things is overwhelming lmao /j #amazing plot and game overall #absolutely stunning

[shutterandsentence]

“I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.”

-Edgar Allen Poe, from a letter to George Washington Eveleth, 1846

Photo: Traverse City State Hospital, Traverse City, Michigan

#traverse city state hospital #mental asylum #history #traverse city #michigan #pure michigan #halloween #october #northern michigan #spooky #haunted #abandoned places #haunted places #edgar allen poe #poe #travel #tourism #explore #adventure #road trip #the great lakes #the wolverine state #the mitten #lower peninsula #the great lakes state #midwest

[eyefocusing]

this has been the most week

#complaining ahead!!!! ik i dont make personal posts on here much anymore but i Need to vent in some tags for a bit #stepmom crashed the uhaul so bad this weekend that she had to be flown to a hospital three counties away #shes super lucky to even be alive but shes only got like. a single broken rib????? #aunt and i have been going to the crash site to clean up and recover what we can #bc the truck was totally full when it crashed and flipped over lol. stuff was scattered everywhere #its been fascinating to see what managed to survive getting flung out of a truck going so fast it took out multiple trees #the completely sealed bottle of v8 was pretty good. and my rolled up rug that got flung 15ft into a tree still makes me laugh #thankfully a lot of what was in the truck was just furniture but we still have nooooooo idea what the state of any of it is #bc they cant open the truck to check it out #and the moms r now stuck over there for a week bc the person they stayed w after the hospital has covid #and im taking full care of our 11 (11!!!) pets bc aunt works 12 hour shifts so she has like zero energy for any of that when she Is here #i mean im usually the go-to pet carer of the family anyways but this has been such a mentally taxing year i just want to nap for awhile #would love to be able to sleep for longer than three hours w/o a puppy pottying on the floor or cats escaping or dogs barking like mad

[ncat]

I hate being sick when it's not in a cute kinda way I want like the cute fictional "Uweh, I am fatigued and sleepy and have a headache that will go away with medication easily and a fever which does not hurt much but feels hot to othets" I want that so I can sit there in bed being like "ehehehe I am being so cool right now if this was a tvshow everyone would love me for my wonderful charms" but NO why do I get the shitty diseases that are neither cute nor terribly dramatic I don't want anything with yucky symptoms everything in this gay earth needs to conspire to make me look hotter even the bad things

#im not even hospital sick at least that would have a fun science element to it #im just lame cringe sick #i demand to see disease's planner they need to release cooler diseases. #Is my posting-mental-state probably affected by this disease? #probably #but do i have any way of knowing whats baseline and what is caused by the curse? #nope

[rattusn0rvegicus]

Always weird to see other trans people advocate for medical gatekeeping of transition because some people may be "too unstable" or "too mentally ill" or "too uncertain of their identity" to transition - honestly it's so rooted in the idea that mentally ill people must be forced to get treatment because they're too sick to know they need help, that mentally ill people don't know what's good for them and thus should have their autonomy taken away from them.

Yeah, there are some people who benefit from forced treatment. And medical gatekeeping does weed out a few people who would detransition down the line. But both of these things do FAR more harm than good and should honestly not exist. Both involuntary treatment and withholding transition increase the general suicide risk, even if they help a few people. Involuntary treatment turns people off from seeking help in the future - people just learn to lie to their providers.

Additionally, mentally ill people should be allowed to make stupid mistakes. It's part of life. People can go into a tattoo parlor drunk and get a dick tattooed on their face (even if most artists wouldn't do that, some will). People can buy expensive cars and tank their credit scores, have sex with a bunch of people and get STDs, do all sorts of things that they "shouldn't" do that are objectively harmful to them.

Part of having freedom is having the freedom to fuck up and do stupid fucking shit that endangers your wellbeing. Including taking hormones when you really shouldn't. Including smoking or drinking or making dozens of other choices that harm you. The only time someone SHOULDN'T have the freedom to do something harmful is when it HARMS SOMEONE ELSE.

#That's just my two cents on the matter #I know it becomes complicated when it comes to things like suicide but like... involuntary commitment to today's psychiatric hospitals #INCREASES the suicide risk #And suicide risk goes up like 100x when people are discharged from the hospital #Which is multifactorial I'm sure but you can't tell me mistreatment from psych hospitals isn't part of it #And when it comes to detransitioners. Even mentally ill ppl who ''lack the insight'' to transition #They should still be allowed to make mistakes. Because A) they're still people who deserve freedom and B) lacking proper insight/judgement #is an incredibly subjective thing to state about a person #Transphobia #Gatekeeping #Suicide #Involuntary hospitalization