#mentally and emotionally tired

[thebroken--soul]

I’m just so exhausted to have friendship disappointments and breakups…

#when will I have genuine people who will care and love me ? #I’m just so tired of people #tired of their fake ass and fake love #mentally and emotionally tired #friendship #about friendship #about me

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#positive quotes #quotes #feelings #emotions #sending hugs #sending love ❤️ #warm hugs #love #sad #tired #lonely #mentally drained #emotionally drained #drained #empty #dumblr #hugs

[themindofmine]

I just have this overflowing feeling of hopelessness about my future

#mental health #tw depression #i feel empty #kinda depressing #dead inside #emotionally exhausted #mentally tired #why am i like this #i hate it here #tw vent #deep thoughts #own thoughts #mentally exhausted #life #tw depressive thoughts #i cant do it anymore #emotionally drained #tw anxiety

[betweenmee]

It feels heavier than it seems

#depressing shit #mentally exhausted #im sad and tired #sad thoughts #mental health relapse #i relapsed today #tired of life #living with borderline #depressing quotes #emotionally drained #i want to kms #mental instability #anxi4ty #mental health #lonelly #im relapsing #addiction #being alone

[cannibalgh0st]

Has anyone else been extremely exhausted lately????

#tired #exhausted #physically exhausted #emotionally exhausted #mental health #emotional health #physical health #2023 #October

[princess-peaches671]

that feeling of forever being trapped as a failure no matter how hard you try, can’t even see the point anymore

#academic failure #im trying #mentally fucked #im tired #studying #i tried #mentally tired #emotionally drained #im so drained #not good #never enough #academic validation

[theperksofbeing-alone]

2024.04.08 // i stayed up too late on saturday night.

#late post #life lately #saturday night #mirror selfie #aliens #alien girl #dirty blonde #blonde #blondie #selfie #girls with nose rings #girls with piercings #girls with septums #i need a nap #zzz #mentally tired #emotionally tired

[alwaysneedyforsir]

is a hug too much to ask for

#seriously #i’m jus #so so goddamn touch starved #like i would do insane things to just get a hug rn #a proper hug that lasts like two seconds #so so tired #physically but also #emotionally n mentally drained rn #tired n exhausted n straight up numb #i get myself out of this shitty place n then fall right back into it again #just #a proper night’s sleep where i don’t wake up exhausted and dreading the day ahead #n a fucking hug #seriously when did a hug become too much to ask for #i’ll probably wake up n be horrified n delete this so enjoy my rambles for the next like #3.5-4ish hours before i’m awake again? #fml! #it’s fine i’m fine everything’s fine #i just need someone to hug me while i sleep a full night #and the chances of me finding that anytime soon are #too low to even try n pretend to calculate #goodnight y’all #wishing y’all the hugs that i can’t seem to get #me #my thoughts

[iheartsilverjewlery]

So oldest daughter, this is me trying coded

#sofia coppola #aesthetic #mirrorball #life #lux lisbon #aestethic #this is me trying #girlblog #tumblr girls #the virgin suicides #pretty when I cry #female rage #shitdaughter #parents #mentally tired #emotionally drained #teen girl core #hell is a teenage girl #lana del rey #lana del ray aesthetic #girl core #folklore #folklorevermore #girlblogging #real

[xysidhequeen]

I was in a car for 14 hours because, if anyone is unaware, I recently became aware of the fact that the man who was my father in everything but blood passed away in 2020. I am NC with that side of the family, and for my own physical and emotional safety, I had to cut everyone off. I couldn't chance reaching out and leaving a trail for my abusersers to follow. Not when I already had to change my number three times and move four times just to ensure they couldn't find me.

That didn't mean I couldn't visit his grave, though, and I did. It was. Hard. Seeing his grave made it real. Up until that point, I could tell myself it was a trick or it was the wrong man, until I saw that grave.

But, I spent 14 hours in a car, had to see the grave of someone I loved. Perhaps the only family member on that side I still loved at all. And now I'm once more stuck in insomnia. It's been, 30hours no sleep because my body can't handle stress in any capacity and is now throwing a full blown tantrum.

There's not much of a point to this post. I'm not aiming to garner sympathy or pity. I just needed to talk about it even if no one sees it. I don't like to talk about my issues to people close to me, I don't like to complain. Sometimes, it's easier to let these things out when I'm hiding behind a fake name and a fake face.

#tw: death #death #family death #loss of a loved one #tw: abuse #abuse #tw: child abuse #child abuse #its hinted at least #ill cover all my bases #im like three minutes from a full breakdown #im so tired #not just physically #im tired emotionally and mentally too #just #utterly drained #i really am not looking for pity or sympathy #this isnt even the first death in my life #but it was the most important one #he....was so much to me #honestly most of the time i think he was the only adult in my life that actually loved ME for who i was #he was my safe person i trusted him wo much even when i had been trained by my family's behavior to never trust anyone #he was so good and kind and genuine and wonderful #and ill never get the chance to speak to him again because hes gone #and ill have to live with the guilt of knowing I put that rift between us. im the reason i never got to say goodbye. #im the reason i didnt know he was dead. and i have to live with the guilt of knowing if i was given a second chance id do it all over again #because at the end of the day im always going to value my own mental and physical health over anything else. and thats not going to change #but fuck if i dont wish i couldve sent him a letter or an email or something. he died not even knowing if i was alive or suffering #he deserved so much more than what i left him with. and ill never get a chance to make it right now.

[princessmacabre]

day 56 days of productivity

been too busy and tired too update each day…

edited and uploaded two new videos

continued watching the mandatory viewings for my module (‚Angels in Ameica‘) which made my current depression even worse because the themes explored are so dark and gruesome

had some actual fun shooting new footage for my video(s)

had a tearful phone call with my maman

doing my daily French practice

and as if depression isn’t enough, I am so damn sleep deprived because of the sleeping terror my father is doing to me, I am constantly on the edge of crying and facing some major life decisions while also reflecting on my current behaviour towards the people that are important to me, my mistakes and all and I just wish I was able to call out for help when I need it but I dont want to be a burden to anyone somI am just being toxic af towards myself. Sounds great doesn’t it? And I have no f king idea what do to

#studyblr #booklover #books & libraries #books and writing #student life #book blog #study blog #studygram #bookblr #student #100 days of productivity #mentally tired #mental health #mental abuse #emotionally drained #emotionally exhausted #emotional #emotional abuse #sad thoughts #sadgirl

[themindofmine]

I’m afraid of no one ever noticing how unwell I am.

#mental health #tw depression #thoughts #deep thoughts #dead inside #deep feelings #tw vent #tw depressive thoughts #why am i like this #kinda depressing #emotionally exhausted #mentally tired #reality #mentally exhausted #i cant do it anymore #emotionally drained #mentally unstable #life

[yung-gxd]

I rarely give myself credit where it’s due because I feel like I don’t deserve it. This is an exception. I truly wish that in my entire childhood and teenage years that I had an adult I could trust and talk to about being depressed and suicidal. I yearn after all the years I’ve lost to silence that I let myself go to. I wish I get what doctors send out to 14 years old now with options to speak to them independently. Imagine if I felt safe enough to speak to a GP about how I was feeling, how badly I wanted to die. Sometimes it’s hard to think about those expired possibilities because who knows how much better I would’ve felt now if I’d gotten help at that age? Maybe I would be happier, less lonely and yearning after death so clearly. I’m sad all the time crying inside my brain because tears don’t come to my eyes no more. I’m devoid of emotion if not only on the outside. Maybe my traumas could have been healed or at least become manageable not like now where I’m getting triggered and thrown into fugue states constantly, disassociating everytime i get overwhelmed. Life could’ve been so much different so why can’t I choose to die on my own terms.

#complex ptsd #poetry #help #tw ptsd #ptsd recovery #cptsd vent #living with cptsd #just cptsd things #cptsd recovery #child abuse #childhood trauma #mental illness #mentally fucked #mentally exhausted #mentally tired #mentally unstable #exhaustion #emotionally exhausted #actually cptsd #tw cptsd #cptsdhealing #cptsd problems #living with ptsd #social anxiety #abuse recovery #sad thoughts #longing #i deserve to die

[insignificantfailure]

I gave up on my life

#personal #vent #venting #depressing shit #i'm sad #mentally tired #i'm exhausted #i'm tired of everything #tw sui ideation #tw depression #sorry for being depressing #depressiv #complex ptsd #neurodivergent burnout #sad thoughts #emotionally drained #emotionally exhausted

[princess-peaches671]

if they knew how fucked up the void within is, they wouldn’t even try to come near me

#im tired #mentally fucked #emotionally drained #bpd #failure #i miss you #mental health #mentally tired #borderline splitting #bipolar disorder #depressing shit #unlovable #i feel so unloveable

[r-wn]

if the pain they caused you outweighs their love do you still owe them respect ?

#pain #love #sad thoughts #struggle #mentally tired #breakdown #emotions #emotionally drained #heartbreak #toxic #toxic parents #toxic family #bpd meme #bpd stuff #bpd #sensitive