It never was.

bpd be like:

i want to feel

to feel wanted

to feel loved

to feel like i’m interesting

i wanna feel like i matter

not a chore

but a choice

i wanna be loved

"I'm not lazy, I'm just tired. and I don't mean because I've been working hard. Not at all. I'm tired from forcing myself to get out of bed everyday. I'm tired of distracting myself from the thoughts in my brain. I'm tired because all my energy is put to surviving and people don't understand that because all they see is how unproductive you are."

— depression is a disease and it's tiring

To those we love

To those we lost

And those of us

Whose paths have crossed.

- - -

About this: I’m in therapy. I am in recovery. I am healing.

This triptych is part of a book I’ve been working on.

I’ve been suicidal since the third grade. What I’ve learned over the years is, being suicidal is nothing to be ashamed of. It’s not your fault. You’re not “broken” or “worthless” or any of that.

We have the power to change our relationship with anything. We can find balance within ourselves. It’s there.

If you were looking for, or needing a sign? Here it is.

If you needed permission? Take mine.

It might take you a few tries, yes, but there are many people who can help. It’s a slow process but you are worth it.  Don’t give up!

I love you and I’m proud of you!

-Justin

“I smile, I try, but truth is I want to die”

maybe I feel so unwanted because I am.

maybe it's not just a feeling.

feelin kind today, how r u?

Knowing that I wasted my whole youth on being mentally ill, makes me wanna end it all.

" At least now there's no one i can hurt in my life.."

Seeing Eda cut her hair after breaking up with raine feels too accurate . Soo some painful doodle

It’s kinda sad that my standard for “I’m fine” is “I’m not gonna kill myself yet”

I’m a spectator in my own life at the best of times

I'm thinking about ending it again and i don't even care about the consequences, i just want out.

— my mind won't shut up

I'm like totally fine why did I fake all of it??

-me gaslighting myself after every mental breakdown

THAT PARANOIA THO!!

I see that having motherly love is a luxury I can't afford. No one will calm down the crying child inside me.

credit: ?

might have bipolar rather than just depression i’m slowly spiraling