#mirafirstmate

[pizzatheif]

today is for thinking abt the differences between hugo and the other lads !! specifically when it comes to touch, like :

hugo needs touch and to be touched at all times. he’s the casual intimacy, the roving hands, the sticky fingers. pin him down or tie him up and he’ll whine. his hands are used for expression in all forms. touch him, hold him, poke him, lean against him, play with his hair. touch touch touch touch touch.

bash uses touch as a means to an end. if his hands are on you it’s Only leading up to pleasure or pain. that’s not to say he can’t touch for other reasons, but he doesn’t necessarily think of it the way hugo does. he only seeks out touch when he wants to feel things. @sniperwithasmoke

and then max. touch averse, touch starved. he’s very glancing touches, fingers brushing as something is handed off. dancing around each other. he’s not necessarily afraid of receiving touch, but he needs to trust the person before he can trust the purposeful contact. @mirafirstmate

tbh i’m also thinking abt jb since logging into him last night. and how his touch is an act. it’s silky and smooth because it’s rehearsed. everything he does is planned because if he doesn’t have that… honestly, if he allows himself to act without having considered every angle, he’ll be in new territory. he doesn’t like being caught off guard. @contrefacteur

#001 ( ⚠︎ ) ─── ( about ). #i know bash and max and jb aren’t relevant to this blog or hugo in general #unless i actually put work into the aceu🔪 #BUT still. #sniperwithasmoke #mirafirstmate #contrefacteur

[champagneprobllems]

trick or treat! the tea room is hosting a month long writing challenge, come join us!

🌕 A full moon night with wind whistling through the trees, for @mirafirstmate

The moon should be enough light, but she still itches to start a small fire, at least, even if just for comfort’s sake. Still, she’s not supposed to be here, on multiple counts—her company is an hour away, surely her team will notice her absence if she takes too long to come back, and she’s technically on enemy territory. She’s at least left her kefta behind, knowing the blue would be a target, even in this frozen wood. Nadya had made sure she had Fjerdan clothing for these night excursions, but even with the wool and fur, she’s cold. Her kefta did a much better job of keeping the cold out, and she misses it. Still, she trudges forward; she misses what’s at the end of her trek more.

“Max!” She barely remembers to keep her voice down, but she’s too happy seeing him to curb all of her excitement. She dashes the remaining distance between them to throw her arms around him, hugging him tightly.

#mirafirstmate #zina * ic #response * the thing is what it does #rpcdev #🎃🎃🎃 #( day 21 ) #* queue

[lcfthaunted]

19. 🥘 :: standing in the kitchen, pouring over a family recipe that's missing key instructions, featuring @steelbvtterfly & @mirafirstmate

She squints, glaring at the screen of her mobile and the less than legible recipe card her mother had emailed her a photo of. In person, the card took some decoding; in pixels, it was much harder to follow. Luckily, the recipe was relatively simple in its ingredients - it was the preparation she was flummoxed with.

She never should have discussed her Christmas traditions with them, or at least just kept it to the parts she enjoyed making. Lefse was difficult and, in her opinion, not entirely worth it. Unfortunately for her, the moment she said potato tortillas it was over. Jeanie was all too happy to send over the recipe, and now Mazie’s standing over a pot of cooled boiled potatoes, glaring at her mobile.

“If you want them,” she says, just shy of petulant, “you have to rice the potatoes.” She’d already made them do the bulk of the peeling before the potatoes were boiled, and fully intends on making them do the bulk of the kneading and rolling as well. “We don’t have a proper griddle or roller - and I have no idea where to get them, the one Mum used had been in Dad’s family for a couple generations already. We should probably make them a little smaller than usual to fit what we do have, but the card doesn’t go into specifics about how to portion the dough so I’m flying blind here.” She doesn’t even like lefse; she’d spent the years before culinary taking on any chore that kept her out of the kitchen on that day, and after opening her cafe she never stayed for the entire season, leaving shortly after Christmas Day instead. It has been years since she last helped with lefse making - Max and Aeira should consider themselves very lucky she loves them so much.

#🎄🎄🎄 #rpcdev #& pick somewhere and just run • small town #♥ three times cause i waited my whole life • aeira & max & mazie #steelbvtterfly #mirafirstmate

[strangcmatters]

trick or treat! join us in the tea room for a month long writing challenge!

👗 An attic full of musty clothes and antiques belonging to someone long-dead; for @mirafirstmate

“Thanks again for coming,” Rei says, as if he’s not still working off the cost of his papers, leading the way into the attic. “I helped—‘helped’—well, you know—I helped the new owner a couple years back, so now when they find places like this, I get first dibs on all the books and papers left behind. Sometimes I get to take clothes and shoes with me, too, when I find them in decent enough shape—I don’t have the patience to mend ‘em, y’know, so if they’re good to wear, I usually ask if I can have them. Haven’t gotten a yes every time, but enough to make it worth it.” She gestures to the corner of the attic. “Most of the books are over there. I don’t wanna handle them more’n necessary before I get them looked over proper, so re-boxing them to move is less than ideal.” She glances around, a little awed. Everything’s already antiquated by current standards; compared to what she grew up with, it’s ancient.

#mirafirstmate #past / what is past is prologue #rpcdev #🎃🎃🎃 #replies / i am not bound to please thee with my answer #( ok but what if this is when it Comes Out that they're both from the future )

[screenviolense]

          ‘ you’re not leaving yet, are you? ‘ she hadn’t meant to sound so desperate, but she knew what was out there even though it made no sense to most who came through. there was no way to convince most rational minded people that there were horrors lying just outside of the neon lit strip of dirt road where her and her family’s bar lay as refuge, but she tried, more than anyone else did.

        ‘ it’s just... these roads are awfully dangerous this time of night. no streetlights... head on collisions... last year we fished out at least three cars that sunk into the lake. ‘ the truth was much worse as most cars usually lay at the bottom of the lake to rust undiscovered as most chose to turn the other way.

@mirafirstmate​ / testing starter call.

#✦ CARLA D. * IC used to tell the future but they cut out my tongue #✦ CARLA D. * V.001 used to tell the future but they cut out my tongue #mirafirstmate

[daemondaes]

TAG NINE PEOPLE YOU’D LIKE TO KNOW BETTER!

favourite colour(s): pink above all else, with gold a close second (third, orange)

favourite flavour(s):  peach, vanilla, azuki

favourite genre(s): comedy, to no one's surprise LOL campy, dark, satirical...i just love comedy. lately i've really been missing the comedy of the late 90s / early aughts? like austin powers or zoolander. anyway, what i believe in most is the importance of comedy in everything. i leave you with a quote from crispin glover c. 2010 that has really stuck with me:

But, I generally don’t try to play comedy for comedy, there’s that adage which I like to follow, play comedy like tragedy and tragedy like comedy. I think in this culture playing comedy like tragedy is pretty well understood, but what doesn’t happen so much is playing tragedy like comedy and a lot of my favorite performances have been actors or actresses that do that, but that’s a rare thing to do. Usually the performances that get Academy Awards are films where tragedy’s played like tragedy and there’s less of a dynamic of range for that. But usually in either case it’s about the character figuring out what the character wants and needs and going after that in the scene.

favourite music: god idk tbh i listen to too many things??? oingo boingo, show tunes, kpop, jpop...a lot of music from the 60s-80s??? wait but i'm so, so, so super attached to eurodance, hi-nrg, and anything that goes hard with synth.

favourite movie(s): my default answer to this is back to the future. ghostbusters is a very, very close second (maybe less than a percentage point of difference). i adore so many movies tho, so to be precise, you'd have to ask my favorite in a particular genre or decade/year or something... 

favourite series: book or movie? either way, i'm not really sure. in terms of books, a series of unfortunate events was highly influential for me, so that might count for something. i'll always adore seinfeld and frasier.

last song: Stray Kids 『CASE 143 -Japanese ver.-』 please PLEASE WATCH THE VIDEO i can't stop laughing

last series: i...don't know. with how many shows are getting canceled left and right, there's a strong possibility that any season of anything i've seen lately could be its last...but mob psycho 100, maybe? since the anime is actually properly over now.

last movie: prrrobably del toro's pinocchio

currently reading: bullet train by kōtarō isaka (I NEVER FINISHED IT! I'M A FRAUD)

currently watching: so very many things, but my whole fam is watching TLOU so that's fun.

currently working on: getting ready for work 💀

tagged by: @kingsmanne tagging: @eddie, @fleuramor, @mirafirstmate, @r33ds, @unholyguise

#the great garbagio — che:ooc. #this says so much about me?? im ashamed #if i didn't tag u and u do this tag me so i can read it 😏

[criticalfai1ure]

( 001 ).   hi, i’m alex🔪, 30+, she/her.   ( 002 ).   welcome to #criticalfai1ure : a semi-selective and slow roleplay blog for a multitude of characters, many of whom you've seen me write elsewhere on this hellsite. ( 003 ).   you must be 18+ to interact.   ( 004 ).   my inbox is always open and memes never expire, send something today! ( 005 ).   like i said above, i am slow. this is with ic responses and many times with ooc too. i do my best but i'm a mom with a full-time job and i appreciate your patience more than you know. ( 006 ).   blogroll : @pizzatheif, @mirafirstmate, @sniperwithasmoke. ( 007 ).   most active muses in my brain : hugo ; august ; max ; basher.

est. april 2023    —    dash only.    beta editor. memes. alt verses. incomplete gdoc. interest tracker.

MUSE LIST : ( updated 8.27.23 )

BATTLESTAR GALACTICA

karl “helo” agathon.

BULLET TRAIN

tangerine - arthur [redacted] junior. formerly TANGERINESOUR

DUNGEONS & DRAGONS

edgin darvis. ( d&d : honor among thieves ) - human bard. chaotic good.

hardwon surefoot. ( naddpod ) - human / half-elf fighter. neutral good.

neega “neenee” axeslinger - half-orc bard. chaotic good.

basil “baz” silvertongue - half-orc warlock. chaotic neutral. character sheet gdoc.

GHOSTBUSTERS formerly WHOYAGCNNACALL

peter venkman.

winston zeddemore.

ray stantz.

egon spengler.

janine melnitz.

GRISHAVERSE

ivan medvedev. formerly BEARTSAR

matthias helvar. formerly DJELVAR

pekka rollins. formerly KAELISHKINGPIN

jan van eck. ( private / plotted only )

jarl brum. ( private / plotted only )

LUPIN

benjamin ferel. ( testing )

MISC. / ORIGINAL CHARACTERS

hugo van houten - pizza fiend, petty thief, dumb of ass. formerly PIZZATHEIF ( verses | rap sheet | gdoc )

sebastian maximiliano “red”/“max” rojas - pilot, first mate, doomed by the narrative. formerly MIRAFIRSTMATE ( start )

leland sleight - scientist medic, traitor, bringer of the second apocalypse. affl with SOULSPENT

thadeus p. louton - empath, scaredy-cat, paranormal investigator. formerly DISCOUNTEMPATH ( gdoc )

herbert montgomery “monty” mustard. ( headcanon based ; clue ) - colonel, war profiteer, murderer?

jacques “jb” fèvre - art forger, liar, thief. formerly CONTREFACTEUR ( verses | carrd )

kiyajara “kiki” sepúlvida - jb’s best friend, a better thief, the stabbiest.

ser bérénice “bernie” du bouclier - knight of the realm, right hand to the prince, lady of the shield. formerly TRIOMPHANTE

felix hwa - army medic, heart of gold, in over his head. affl with GRAVEWALKS

oscar archibald ricketts - lighthouse keeper, keeper of the souls lost to the rocks, wraith? ( but too good at his job to bother replacing ).

silas “slightly” guthrie. ( headcanon based ; peter pan ) - ex-lost boy, current pirate?, still lost.

oswald “oz” o'síoráin - bass guitarist, mummy's boy, number one hype man for his bandmates. affl with RICHMND

taylor barbaira - teen sleuth, lost in the woods, doomed by the narrative ( but eldritch ). affl with the MYRTLE SPRINGS DETECTIVE CLUB

MISC. PIRATE MEDIA

john “calico jack” rackham. ( black sails ). formerly SICUTCANIS

fergus byrne. ( potc / ride based ) - navigator, helmsman, harbinger of death. formerly HELMSRNAN

jack the monkey. formerly JACKTHEMONKCY ( private / plotted only )

james norrington. ( potc + headcanon based ).

joshamee gibbs. formerly SUPERSTITIOUSSAILOR ( private / plotted only )

august van de hoek - dutch privateer turned pirate captain, teetotaller, the foothold of a legend that no longer reflects its source material.

MISC. SHERLOCK HOLMES MEDIA

colonel sebastian “basher” moran. ( moriarty : the devil’s game ).

colonel sebastian moran. ( elementary ). pending me watching the show.

sebastian a. "basher" moran. ( modern hotd/acd ) formerly SNIPERWITHASMOKE ( yes i have a problem, pls do not perceive me ).

NIMONA

ballister boldheart. ( movie based / comic influence ). ( testing ).

STRANGER THINGS

jim hopper. formerly HOPALONGJIM ( private / plotted only )

TED LASSO

roy kent. formerly FUCKINGKENT ( carrd )

THE BIG DOOR PRIZE

dusty hubbard. ( testing )

THE ROAD TO EL DORADO

tulio.

THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY

number two “diego” hargreeves. formerly FIGHTKNIFE

WYNONNA EARP

john henry “doc” holliday. formerly LUNGSLINGER

john henry holliday ii - legacy, sharpshooter, sidekick.

#000 ( ❖ ) ─── ( pinned ).

[tangerinesour]

( 001 ).   hi, i’m alex🔪, 30+, she/her.     ( 002 ).   welcome to #tangerinesour : a selective, mutually exclusive, and slow roleplay blog for tangerine of bullet train.   ( 003 ).   you must be 18+ to interact. we’re currently film-based but i also just bought the book so… ( 004 ).   my inbox is always open and memes never expire, send something today! ( 005 ).   blogroll :  @pizzatheif , @sniperwithasmoke , @mirafirstmate​ , etc.

google site.   memes.   psd.

psa for non-roleplay blogs.

[analyticallymindedaa]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓  𝐀𝐑𝐄  𝐘𝐎𝐔  𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 ?

—  home.

"i  wish  i  could  say  i  am  a  light  that  never  goes  out,  but  i  flicker  from  time  to  time."   //   oh,  little  one,  you  have  burned  for  so  quietly  for  so  long,  haven't  you?   burnt  yourself  out  trying  to  give  others  light?   wishing,  desperately,  that  they  would  notice  the  way  your  hands  shake  or  the  wildflower  bruises  under  your  tired  eyes.   but  they  never  have,  have  they?   and  so,  it  obviously  wasn't  bad?   right?   you  had  more  to  give,  didn't  you?   how  much  could  you  pour  yourself  out  before  they  noticed?   it  is  all  you've  ever  known,  after  all.   help,  help,  help,  help.   (are  you  providing  it,  or  begging  for  it?)   but  you've  given  too  much,  spread  yourself  too  thin,  didn't  you?   you  are  so  heavy,  so  tired.   you  have  spent  your  life  carrying  for  others  the  way  you  wished  someone  would  care  for  you.   but  you're  worried,  aren't  you?   that  if  you  can't  be  what  they  need,  if  you  can't  be  the  pillar  for  others  to  lean  on,  they'll  leave  you.   what  you  seek  is  home,  a  safe  place  to  rest  and  be  taken  care  of.  and  little  light,  you  deserve  it.   you  have  earned  it.   you  are  worth  more  than  what  you  can  provide  for  others:  you  deserve  the  same  care  you  so  freely  give  out.  they  will  love  you  all  the  same,  honey.   set  down  the  world,  and  rest  that  weary  heart  of  yours.

tagged  by :  @shaltsteal tagging :  @cllsgnfirefly, @sanctuarymade, @aercanum, @parkerlots, @goldshadows, @mirafirstmate

#your heart is torn and weathered but bleeds kindness and love – about. #out of character – dash games. #this fucking quiz didn't have to come for her so hard #i'm so sad #every bit of this hits her in a big way and i'm just big emotions

[thecodekeeper]

which tragic character from ancient greek literature are you?

ANTIGONE

you are antigone, from the theban plays by sophocles. you are bold, unwavering in your morals and your passion, an unstoppable force of nature. but when you go head-to-head with an immovable object, your ideals can lead you to self-destruction. you are stubbornly resilient and fearless to a fault, and aren't afraid to stand alone in the face of death. antigone, in your quest for justice, don't forget: you are allowed to step back, to love life a little, to be young once more before soldiering on to the very very end. be selfish in your fierceness, just once.

stolen from: @azmenka tagging: @drdumaurier @mirafirstmate @aerlcos

#⌈ᴄᴀᴘᴛᴀɪɴ ᴇᴅᴡᴀʀᴅ ᴛᴇᴀɢᴜᴇ⌋ ― (about.)

[pizzatheif]

alex🔪’s spring cleaning blogroll : @pizzatheif ; @mirafirstmate ; @criticalfai1ure ; @sniperwithasmoke !

#000 ( ⚠︎ ) ─── ( sp ). #i’m cleaning up and shovelling all but hugo max and bash over to the new multi. #i did Not finish setting up the multi with any regard to pages or docs or anything of the like #but !!! here we are. #there are a Lot of middle aged white men in crisis on the multi and i can only shrug abt it.

[champagneprobllems]

Soot blackens her fingers, is smudged across one cheek, and dread has settled in her stomach, knowing she'll be called on to help burn the bodies of the fallen. She is a soldier, and this is war, but she's still too soft, as Nadya would say.

She escapes the clean up for a moment, gives the excuse of checking on her sister - the Heartrender is better put to use wrangling the new Sun Soldiers, and Nadya never liked physical labor. Zina doesn't seek her sister out, though, instead finding a basin to wash her hands in, finds her new friend in the process.

@mirafirstmate : “ why did you help me? ”

She considers his question several quiet moments, scrubbing the soot off her fingers. "There's not a lot of room for mercy in war," she says finally, drying her hands and sitting across from him. "If I can save one life, amid all of this death.... Shouldn't I try?"

#mirafirstmate #death tw #zina * ic #response * the thing is what it does #how beyond her years she must look to him - only 18 and already so versed in war #but for her - for ra.vka - it's just How Things Are

[lcfthaunted]

trick or treat prompts from the tea room, day 20: 💧 Rain in the early morning, so dark that there’s hardly a sunrise, for @mirafirstmate

She listens to the rain patter against the window as she waits for the kettle to boil. She’s been awake since he left; they’ve only been living together a few short months, but already she can’t sleep without him next to her. It’s not the first time he’s needed some fresh air after a nightmare, and she doubts it’ll be the last; she just hopes to be able to offer the support he needs so that his late-night walks become less frequent.

The kettle clicks off, and she pours the water into her waiting mug. She’s not sure if he took an umbrella with him, hopes he at least has a coat against the rain. After a moment’s hesitation, she takes down a second mug and prepares a cup of tea for him. While the tea steeps, she finds the electric mug warmer one of her brothers had gifted her for Christmas - mostly as a joke, since she nearly never let tea grow cold enough to need it. She sets it up on his nightstand before returning to the waiting mugs, fixing his tea how he likes it and setting it on the waiting warmer. She fixes hers next, knowing the tea is already exactly how she wants it - she’d blended it for that exact purpose, after all. She still has a little time before she has to be at the cafe, so she settles down to wait, hoping he’ll return before she has to leave.

#rpcdev #🎃🎃🎃 #mirafirstmate #& everybody here was someone else before • cafe #grabbed a pen and an old napkin • responses

[strangcmatters]

trick or treat! join us in the tea room for a month long writing challenge!

⛪ A church right after a funeral, a small handful of people dressed in black hanging their heads in silence, feat @sniperwithasmoke and @mirafirstmate

She stands apart from the others, back turned, not wanting any more condolences. Her kids—eighteen now, Jesus, legally adults but still too young to have lost their father, at least she’d been in her mid-twenties—are helping ride herd on their cousins, holding a Rojas twin each. They never married, so legally now everything that had been his was now their kids’. She doesn’t want to think about the paperwork ahead of them, and Alice is the wrong kind of lawyer to help them. She makes a mental note to ask Peg if she knows any good estate lawyers; she wants her kids to focus on dealing with their grief and getting ready to head off to uni, and not on getting his affairs in order.

Of course Peg will stay in charge of the pub—she’d figure out how to put it in Peg’s name, if she didn’t think it would take more paperwork and money than it’d really be worth. Tell Peg the pub is hers if I don’t come back. His words, from an argument nearly twenty years ago. She wishes they’d done something to solidify that, wishes he’d left her a will or spent any time setting up title transfers—but then, neither of them expected him to go the way he did.

She takes a few more steps away from the group. All she wants to do is go home to the flat that now technically belongs to her kids, curl up in his flannels with their cat, and mourn her partner in peace. She thought they’d have at least another decade together, but the future seems suddenly empty and endless without him. If the way Max looks significantly younger than his years is anything to go by, she has a long life ahead of her, but she’s not really looking forward to it anymore.

#death tw #parental death tw #rpcdev #🎃🎃🎃 #basher / and a good soldier to a lady #max / constant as the northern star #past / what is past is prologue #writing / you and love are still my argument #( 😇 )

[fightknife-moved]

( 001 ).   hi, i’m alex🔪, 30+, she/her.   ( 002 ).   welcome to #fightknife : a semi-selective, mutually exclusive, and slow roleplay blog for number two “diego” hargreeves of the umbrella academy.   ( 003 ).   you must be 18+ to interact.   ( 004 ).   my inbox is always open and memes never expire, send something today! ( 005 ).   main blogs i may be active on :  @sniperwithasmoke ​, @mirafirstmate​ , @beartsar ​, @discountempath , @contrefacteur , @pizzatheif , @fuckingkent & sideblogs : @djelvar , @meltedwiing .

est. april 2019 ; rebooted june 2022.

carrd. * dupe friendly.

[mothersvision]

( 001 ).   hi, i’m alex🔪, 30+, she/her.     ( 002 ).   welcome to #mothersvision : a selective, mutually exclusive, and slow roleplay blog for an original character.   ( 003 ).   you must be 18+ to interact.  i will not be following first.  disclaimer under the cut. ( 004 ).   my inbox is always open and memes never expire, send something today! ( 005 ).   blogroll :  @pizzatheif, @sniperwithasmoke​​, @mirafirstmate​, @beartsar​, @discountempath, @contrefacteur, @fuckingkent​, @fightknife​ & sideblogs : @djelvar​​, @meltedwiing​.

as i stated above, i will not be following first. the concept in my head ( as i’ve been writing the backstory ) is intertwined with not only motherhood but pregnancy as well and all that may entail — and i know that’s not everyone’s cup of tea. in addition, i’m not claiming everything written here is universal to all mothers or uterus bearers, but i may be drawing from my own personal experiences as a mother, as a pregnant person, as someone who has experienced loss, but with that narrative twist, tinted with horror and body-horror, especially, which is a relatively new genre to me. 

i will tag images, i can’t guarantee i will tag writing.

i don’t know what the goal of this blog will be, it’s definitely experimental! but i think that i need to do this for myself, so we’ll see what happens. 💛