#mixed kid struggles

[skunkes]

#tdi #a doodley #1. everytime i watch tdi i wanna draw courtney she's like one of the only 2 fictional girl crushes i had as a child #2. i love the way tdi stylizes hats if i can figure it out im stealing that shit bc it rocks + i struggle with hats #3. tdi characters fun practice you cld draw em a billion different ways! #4. i cant remember which guys i fixated on in what order as a kid but cody and duncan were for sure in that mix. to no ones surprise im #a geoffhead now. (but not actually; bc they're teens - ykwim) #courtney still no. 1 girl in my heart... #idrc about gwen i just thought she'd be fun for practice her design rocks

[bonewhiteglory]

I started volunteering in my friend’s kindergarten last month and like… I love these kids so much it’s unreal. They’re so sweet and weird! One of the kids drew me this killer Mario art and I’m gonna frame it and hang it on my wall.

#bonewhiteglory.jpeg #helper teacher #as my friend christina dubbed me #i’m really really happy i can sit down one-on-one with the kids who are struggling with a new concept #i mean this very genuinely: it is my dream to spend several minutes helping them understand that 5 is not greater than 5 #there’s a lot to learn!! it’s kind of overwhelming #i am notoriously patient and kind. people frequently tell me i have big kindergarten teacher vibes #i’ve been there long enough that i’m getting a good sense of all the kids’ personalities #i have mixed feelings abt posting anecdotes on the internet bc idk privacy etc etc but seriously look at how great this art is!!! #thank fuck i can turn off reblogs. #i’m gonna frame this and hang it over my desk :3 #i had no idea 5 year olds were SO BOSSY. it’s great! they’re explaining the rules to me and they’re very patient with me #i’m getting to know kids from the other classes too. i do yard/lunch duty as well. not much $ but it’s sufficient for my needs #anyway… that’s my story #at great length. dunno why i put all this in the tags and not the actual post but lbr i’m mad tired #oh yah i’m happy to share stories in DMs once i get over my social anxiety shit.

[bobus]

pif httyd au doodle :P

#ive decided to stop being a coward and post my au's #my stupid ass really struggled with deciding between a typhoomerang and a timberjack for her lmaoooo #ik i spelt those really wrong but erm idc #silly sillyyyyy #mixing my oldest love (httyd) with the obsession thats been hanuting me for almost 4 years at this point (lmk) #shes so hot #lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #lmk au #monkie kid x httyd #lmk pif #httyd typhoomerang

[daisies-on-a-cup]

tbh i like artemis from the young justice tv show so much because she was a mixed asian girl who didn't really look asian. that could be blamed on just how the show's animation style looked, but her sister jade looked way more like their mother than artemis did, who resembled her white father very much. i saw myself in her, someone disconnected from her mother in phenotype and culture. the genetics are there, but one has shown through dominant and the environment has raised her away from any kind of asian influence or culture that might have been hers. it was so important to me, and still is, that i got to have her as a character i could look up to because even though her asian heritage is hardly ever spoken of and isn't a plot line integral to her character in the show, it still mattered and made artemis more than whatever biases or standards were placed on her from looks alone. we can talk about how her mother was represented in the show, and how her sister jade subsequently fell to the same fate, and how neither of their stories or heritage matters a lick to anyone except to the characters themselves, but i just want it to be known how important a mixed girl like artemis was to me

#ive struggled with being mixed ever since i can remember #ppl dont look at me and immediately clock me as having asian heritage- often the first thought is native or hispanic #ive felt so separated from this entire side of myself for as long as ive been alive- esp since my own mother wont engage with it #we have no traditions beyond american marketing #we have no true heritage or family origins to speak of #i have virtually nothing to cling to solidify this part of me beyond the phenotype of my mother and the thin film that covers my own #so artemis was so important to me as a kid- seeing that kind of representation (even if unintentionally done) did sm for me as a kid #also sorry this is coming out of no where i am tired and surrounded by my fathers family #who i look nothing alike #and how this morning a white man drove me and my mother to the airport and he said 'ive driven you before! to the Philippines right?' #and my mom had to gently laugh and say that she wasn't Filipino and theyve never met before #its just things like that that make me wish for stronger connections that extend beyond the inherited genetics #artemis crock

[antisocial-author]

So are we as a fandom finally ready to discuss the fact that the way Chara has been regarded by said fandom is heavily ableist or are we going to keep treating them like the root of all evil

#chara dreemurr #undertale #ableism #fandom ableism #i say 'we' so the sentence sounds better not bc i associate much with the fandom #for. understandably. not liking the ableism in how it regards chara dreemurr #most discussions of ableism in this fandom are about papyrus which is. reasonable! #he was infantalized and that's a serious issue as he is neurodivergent coded #but. i think there is something to be said about the 12 year old who is CANONICALLY mentally ill #being reduced to nothing but 'pure evil incarnate who likes to stab people' #like i get it. we don't learn much about chara and what we do is a mixed bag #but treating a traumatized suicidal little kid like they forced you to commit mass homicide is ridiculous #they weren't the best person. i will be the first to admit that. but generally kids aren't! #especially kids who are traumatized and struggling! #just. i have so many thoughts on chara dreemurr and none of them are fandom positive

[mirananananan]

now i am thinking Big Thoughts about a non-outbreak au (which i swore i would never do BUT-)…..if i were to do it & sarah lives…..

#listen….listen #i can’t make it believable TO ME!!!!! to have joel solo parenting already #and then being like ah what the hell lets also add a foster kid to the mix #my man was already struggling pre outbreak w one self sufficient kid #I am NOT saying this is actually going to end up happening #my little brain is just buzzing about it right now #and I am curious ab what other people think re: how to pull it off #IF i were to ever follow this plot bunny #wait technically i guess I did write a non-outbreak au once

[caracello]

< girl who's thinking about fankids.

#I'VE ALWAYS UMMM struggled with the concept a bit. #not in a bad way ofc just like making them idk where to start... #cause i really want kids? but i've always always wanted to adopt. #so designing them wouldn't be a mixing genes thing.... #it's always a lot easier to see a kid in source and wanna adopt them yknow ?!! #.txt

[mothkraft]

every day i think abt how diego and hot pants come from working class upbringings compared to johnny and gyro being closer to the upper class...like gyro existed in a bubble with a silver spoon up his ass for most of his life and diego has lived in poverty most of his and man the audacity of johnny and gyro just to despise him based on pretty much nothing

I'm just full of too many thoughts and rambles and no art and grrrrrrr

#diego brando #steel ball run #like i don't think in a million years araki thought about that #but no wonder johnny is seething for no good reason in regards to diego #some ex-farmhand more or less competing at his skill level? at his brother's? #him? against a joestar renowned breeders of horses and a racing history #this no name from the middle of nowhere #and i also think about how gyro's complicit with capital punishment #only changes his mind when suddenly there's a kid involved who's innocent #like damn gyro it's almost like the criminal justice system doesn't care if someone is 'guilty' of a crime #it's almost like just killing people is wrong :( #what a privileged life he's had #johnny's had a mixed one for sure after his brother's death and his father's abusive bullshit #but diego? had to scramble and struggle through every day of his life to get somewhere #anyway i think hot pants and diego should be communists in love together

[alchemistdetective]

The Wanderer

#muse: rirune #And now it's time for Amber's commentary again :D #Honestly I have teased about Eri growing up for so SO long and even had Young Adult Eri tag back at his original blog #And now that he's finally grown up it's kind of bittersweet to me #And I do have mixed feelings of him being in the sidelines and not being bought up as much from both myself and you guys too #Letting other people take the spotlight because his story is pretty much done #I'm also kind of a bit worried on people's reaction to Rirune but from what I can tell it's pretty much mostly positive #His story is over but his problems aren't so there's that though #The most notable being his struggles with being a good parent along with his lack of self confidence #Being an adult but still a kid at heart and not sure what to do

[geules-de-loup]

I really like the idea of Young Griff/Aegon wearing dornish clothing when he arrives in Westeros

#would love to see him struggle with trying to understand dornish AND targ culture #he is mixed kid rep to me #art wip

[dandyshucks-moving]

im happy to see an uptick of posts going around about bipoc selfshippers but it's making me have to once again attempt to mentally sort out if i fall under that label or not as a white-passing Métis person ;-;

if u notice that I'm not rbing any posts about that topic, it's because I'm still trying to sort out if I should be rbing those as a white person or as an indigenous Métis person fjfkdldl

#being mixed is weird idk fjfkdl this is confusing and my moral ocd doesnt play nice with it #it also doesnt help that my family hasnt engaged much w the culture until recently! before that it was just school events for indigenous ppl #that i was usually too scared to attend bc i was a very anxious kid and felt like i looked too white to attend djfjdkl #anyways fjfksl i promise im not ignoring any posts!! im just trying to figure out where i fit into it all #i dont want to be like... overstepping ever fjfjdkl i am trying to figure out how to engage w it before rbing anything #its a little funny to be struggling w this as a metis person bc djdkdl this is like... historically what we've struggled with as a ppl LMAO #we were often too white for the first nations ppl and always too indigenous for the white ppl fjfkdl so we made our own culture #so its just funny that im finding myself unsure and struggling w this question Yet Again SJDKSL historically and culturally accurate djfdkl #dandyshucks

[caterpillarinacave]

I want words with the parent who decided to bring their kid to an intro to skating lesson while Covid positive.

#Seriously what the duck #I know this because they were masked (they a lady and her husband. At least one kid running around not really masked) and started complaini #“As soon as those ten days are up I’m getting this thing off forever haha lol lol“ #“You’re lucky I’m wearing it now. Dw though I’m a good person I told all the people I exsposed to Covid when I thought I just had a cough- #As soon as I found out! Anyways now I’m here in this packed tiny room sending my children off to breathe in peoples faces!” #Ma’am seriously #Glad I didn’t have her kid in the group I was assisting holy shit #You have to have your face basically two inches from the kids #And they cling to you like monkeys #Blow snot everywhere scream cry and spit #I’m basically paired up with one struggling kid per lesson so if I kid I’ve got has Covid there’s a decent chance I’ll get it #And the outer rooms are notably not cold. And not big. They’re cramped hot and packed full of people and you’re gonna stand there and chat? #It’s an intro to skate lesson #Please. Please just skip it. #Also the kids in todays lessons were such a mixed bag #I had one great little girl one clingy little boy who just refused to stand #And then some other interactions #Including one with one of those asshole little boys who just like to be mean and violent #Haha yeah you’re funny buddy I’m not playing this game with you #Best thing to do with those kids is just be like “okay” and then ignore them

[jyou-no-sonoko19]

With a deft flick of her athame, vivid crimson sprayed upon green moss, and Lilith thought she heard the tree itself gasp in thirst, the air around her suddenly rich with static.

She let the boy fall, his last gurgles none of her concern, as she tipped her face up to gauge the ritual’s success. 

From the branches of the Hanging Tree, where the bodies of thirteen scapegoated witches had suffered and perished, whispering shadows swam across bark, drawn down the trunk to the virgin’s blood.

All around the tree, the moonlit mist grew colder and denser, until it was breathing, haunted vapour coalesced into haunted flesh.

Ringed by the Greendale Thirteen, Lilith allowed herself a smirk of self-congratulation. This night would be her masterpiece, this blighted witching hour; the Dark Lord would have his signature, and she would have her schadenfreude, at the expense of this vexing little town.

#Chilling Adventures of Sabrina #CAoS #Michelle Gomez #caos Lilith #Lilith #cw blood #cw throat trauma #cw murder #She was so powerful #The kid's struggling is kind of comical #it's not like she's really keeping him still with her hand #but rather I think it's a mix of terror at realising the sort of creature he's up against #but also some kind of mental snare since we know she's got a way with such things #Not until working on this set did I see what the CG artists did #of having those shadows swim down the tree towards the blood #I had to brighten it *so* much before I could notice the movement at all #So now we can add the CG staff to the costume and set design folks as people who were entirely screwed over #but CAoS's post-production bullshit

[girlscience]

feeling alienated in much of my day to day life because of my body and the way I present myself (whether that identity comes down to trans or masc or gnc or something else entirely) and knowing I could talk about it with my friends but not knowing how to bring it up and also not being sure they'll get it because not many of them present the way I do but also maybe that's just a shitty bias I have and maybe I don't understand them and also many of them have other things that affect their experiences with the world that I don't have (mental illnesses, neurodivergencies, being a person of color, being fat, etc) and those would all leave them feeling alienated too so they might get the feeling but maybe not the source and also all those problems seem much more important than mine so maybe I should just shut up and not say anything.

#listen I just want to talk about the fact I am the only person who looks the way I do at my job #and the company has a very good mix of men and women but there is like a little joking divide between those two #and I always get put into the woman category but I feel so wildly out of place there #but I also don't think I'd feel comfortable in the men category and don't look like any of the men either #and I like my job a lot but I do feel just a little constantly out of place because of how I look and the way I act and the things I like #and I don't know what to do about it #and then also I am struggling with it with my family right now too #I genuinely can't think of a single family member who has never made some comment about either me and my appearance and identity directly #or has made comments about general communities I am part of #and so I don't feel very safe with my family even though I should be able to and even with the people who are super warm and loving #and I look so distinctly different from all of them and I always have #I've never really been able to hide this part of me the way some people can and it has made me different since I was a kid #and I have been fighting to be accepted for looking the way I do and acting the way I do since I was a kid and it's exhausting and scary #and now I want to get involved with my community and find people like me #but there's so much drama now around every version of my identity I could have and it sucks #and like I have no idea when I'm going to be able to even look into medical transitioning stuff #because I am so scared of my families reaction #but I don't know with the political environment if I'll be able to get those services when I feel comfortable and safe enough to do so #and that is fucking terrifying and heart renching #and I want to talk with someone who gets it and feels the way I do but I don't know how and complaining about this seems stupid #when most of my friends have other bigger problems and most of them are GOING THROUGH IT right now so so bad #and I don't want to add stressors to their lives if I can help it

[oliviloi]

the last painting was created in such a wave of chaos djfjsjd, i just randomly remembered i had some gouache, pulled it out at 2 am, and sat there messing with it until 7 am, everything covered in paint, colored pencils scattered everywhere

also drawing a scene is so??? strange?? like idk what composition is, idk colors, im just winging it

#i arted #so hard #also i have such a limited experience with paint hhhh im struggling with mixing it and controling water #it feels like im a kid doing a science experiment #colored pencils on gouache feel soooo fun

[arthur-r]

progress on my painting from a while ago

#it’s still just very base layers but i hadn’t got a chance to do anything to it since that first day #(i’m borrowing my older sisters canvasses and she’s the one who has all the paints too these days which used to be mine #so she’s keeping my work in progress canvas with all her painting stuff and it only comes out of the whole family is ready to paint #which mostly just means us kids but only happens if my littlest sister is interested and today she was) #anyway im very excited to have a painting to put up on my wall of a bear playing cello #the end pin is gonna be stuck out real long too look at how far it is to where his lower foot is at #cause usually you don’t play the cello when you’re standing and if you do you often have a strap or something similar #but i don’t use a strap (mainly because i only play sitting down but like. if i stood i would use the end pin) #and so neither does he. one real self insert of an imaginary cellist bear he must be #also one thing i’m gonna struggle with is differentiating the cello from the bear in color. like yeah they’re different shades of brown but #i only have so much different colors of paint to mix together #but yknow what. things happen and that’s all they ever do and if it doesn’t look good then i’ll figure something else out #maybe it’ll have to be an orange cello. these kinds of things are unpredictable shdhdf #anyway i hope you think of me like i think of this painting (as a grizzly bear playing a cello or as a thing you like and are proud of) #but yeah hi im at the house of some cats right now. feeding them and such. but there’s this other unafilliated cat who belongs to their #roommate josh. and his cat is named bear so you’d think we’d get along but he’s scratched me in six different spots today #he always wants to eat the other cats food so i have to pick him up and carry him to another room and that makes him very upset with me #anyway the cats take a long time to eat and i can’t leave until they’re done so that i can let out bear when he no longer poses a threat #which means im just kind of chilling in a friends empty house (josh is gone for the moment) with nothing much to do except wait #and i’m sure hoping to walk home before it’s pitch dark out but that would probably mean giving up and letting bear out to steal their food #so good luck to me on that front. anyway im rambling a little i was just trying to post this picture shdhdhdf #so. i hope to work on it again soon in not very long. and i just really like painting things with a paintbrush it makes me feel less bad #when i mess up in whatever ways. because everyone always complains about traditional art so it’s more universal. i like it better though too #anyway i’ll be here for the next while just hoping to head home before 9:30. let me know if you need anything though #me. my post. mine. #delete later